CHAPTER X. “I THOUGHT I STOOD”
I.
I thought I stood in Heaven before
God’s throne, and God asked me what I had come
for. I said I had come to arraign my brother,
Man.
God said, “What has he done?”
I said, “He has taken my sister,
Woman, and has stricken her, and wounded her, and
thrust her out into the streets; she lies there prostrate.
His hands are red with blood. I am here to arraign
him; that the kingdom be taken from him, because he
is not worthy, and given unto me. My hands are
pure.”
I showed them.
God said, “Thy hands are pure.-Lift
up thy robe.”
I raised it; my feet were red, blood-red, as if I
had trodden in wine.
God said, “How is this?”
I said, “Dear Lord, the streets
on earth are full of mire. If I should walk straight
on in them my outer robe might be bespotted, you see
how white it is! Therefore I pick my way.”
God said, “On what?”
I was silent, and I let my robe fall. I wrapped
my mantle about my head.
I went out softly. I was afraid that the angels
would see me.
II.
Once more I stood at the gate of Heaven,
I and another. We held fast by one another; we
were very tired. We looked up at the great gates;
the angels opened them, and we went in. The mud
was on our garments. We walked across the marble
floor, and up to the great throne. Then the angels
divided us. Her, they set upon the top step, but
me, upon the bottom; for, they said, “Last time
this woman came here she left red foot-marks on the
floor; we had to wash them out with our tears.
Let her not go up.”
Then she, with whom I came, looked
back, and stretched out her hand to me; and I went
and stood beside her. And the angels, they, the
shining ones who never sinned and never suffered,
walked by us to and fro and up and down; I think we
should have felt a little lonely there if it had not
been for one another, the angels were so bright.
God asked me what I had come for;
and I drew my sister forward a little that he might
see her.
God said, “How is it you are here together today?”
I said, “She was upon the ground
in the street, and they passed over her; I lay down
by her, and she put her arms around my neck, and so
I lifted her, and we two rose together.”
God said, “Whom are you now come to accuse before
me?”
I said, “We are come to accuse no man.”
And God bent, and said, “My children-what
is it that ye seek?”
And she beside me drew my hand that I should speak
for both.
I said, “We have come to ask
that thou shouldst speak to Man, our brother, and
give us a message for him that he might understand,
and that he might-
God said, “Go, take the message down to him!”
I said, “But what is the message?”
God said, “Upon your hearts it is written; take
it down to him.”
And we turned to go; the angels went
with us to the door. They looked at us.
And one said-“Ai! but their dresses
are beautiful!”
And the other said, “I thought
it was mire when they came in, but see, it is all
golden!”
But another said, “Hush, it is the light from
their faces!”
And we went down to him.
Alassio, Italy.