Alf was still asleep when I arose
from my bed the next morning. I stood at the
head of the stairs and looked back at his handsome,
though sun-browned face, and I felt a strange and
strong sympathy for him, but I had not begun to agonize
in my love; it was so new that I was dazzled.
When I went down stairs Guinea was feeding the chickens
from the kitchen window, and the old man was walking
about the yard, with his slouch hat pulled down to
shut out the slanting glare of the sun. But he
saw me and, calling me, said that he would now show
me his beauties. And just then I heard Guinea’s
voice: “If he starts to make them fight
you come right away and leave him, Mr. Hawes,”
she said. “We don’t allow him to
fight them on Sunday.”
“Miss Smartjacket,” the
old man spoke up, “I hadn’t said a word
about makin’ ’em fight. Hawes, these
women folks don’t want a man to have no fun
at all. As long as a man is at work it’s
all right with the women; they can stand to see him
delve till he drops, but the minit he wants to have
a little fun, why, they begin to mowl about it.
Of course, I’m not goin’ to let ’em
fight on Sunday. But a preacher would eat one
of ’em on Sunday. All days belong to ’em.
It’s die dog or eat the hatchet when they come
round. And yet, as I tell you, I believe in the
Book from kiver to kiver. Step out here, Hawes.”
I thought that I received from Guinea
a smile of assent, and I followed him. The enclosure
wherein he kept his chickens was almost as strong as
a “stockade.” The old man unfastened
a padlock and bade me enter. I stepped inside,
and when the master had followed me he was greeted
with many a cluck and scratching, the welcome of two
game cocks in a wire coop, divided into two apartments
by a solid board partition. “I jest wanted
you to look at ’em and size ’em merely
for your own satisfaction,” said the old man,
fondly looking upon his shimmering pets. “This
red one over here is Sam, and that dominecker rascal
is Bob. Ah, Lord, you don’t know what comfort
there is in a chicken, and how a preacher can eat
a game rooster is beyond my understandin’.
But I’m with him, you understand, from kiver
to kiver. Keep quiet there, boys; no fight to-day.
Must have some respect, you know.”
He took a grain of corn from his pocket,
placed it between his teeth, and with a grin on his
face got down on his knees and held his mouth near
the bars of Sam’s cage. The rooster plucked
out the grain of corn, and Bob, watching the performance,
began to prance about in jealous rage. “Never
you mind, Bob,” said the old man, getting up
and dusting his knees. “I know your tricks.
Held one out to you that way not long ago, and I wish
I may never stir agin if you didn’t take a crack
at my eye, and if I hadn’t ducked I’d
be one-eyed right now. But they are callin’
us to breakfust. Bound to interfere with a man
one way or another.”
It was with great care that Alf prepared
himself to go with me to the General’s house.
Out under a tree in the yard he placed a mirror on
a chair and there he sat and shaved himself.
Then he went upstairs to put on a suit of clothes
which never had been worn, and anon I heard him calling
his mother to help him find buttons and neckwear that
had been misplaced. And he shouted to me not
to be impatient, that he was doing the best he could.
Impatient! I was sitting in the passage, leaning
back against the wall, and near the steps Guinea stood,
looking far out over the ravine. She had donned
a garb of bright calico, with long, green-stemmed
flowers stamped upon it, and I thought that of all
the dresses I had ever beheld this was the most beautiful
and becoming. She hummed a tune and looking about
pretended to be surprised to see me sitting there,
and for aught I know the astonishment might have been
real, for I had made no noise in placing my chair against
the wall.
“I ought not to be humming a
dance tune on Sunday,” she said, stepping back
and standing against the opposite wall, with her hands
behind her.
“I don’t see how the day
can make music harmful,” I replied.
“The day can’t make music
harmful,” she rejoined. “But I can’t
sing. Sometimes when I can’t express what
I am thinking about I hum it. How long are you
and Alf going to be away?”
“As long as it suits him,”
I answered. “I have decided to have no voice
as to the length of our stay.”
“Then you are simply going to
accommodate him. How kind of you. And have
you always so much consideration for others? If
you have you may find your patience strained if you
stay here.”
“To stand any strain that may
be placed upon our patience is a virtue,” I
remarked sententious pedagogue and
she lifted her hands, clasped them behind her head,
looked at me and laughed, a music sweet and low.
Just then Alf came out upon the passage, looking down
at himself, first one side and then the other; and
it was with a feeling of close kinship to envy that
I regarded his new clothes. He apologized for
having kept me waiting so long, but in truth I could
have told him that I should have liked to wait there
for hours, looking at the graceful figure of that
girl, standing with her hands clasped behind her brown
head.
The distance was not great and we
had decided to walk, and across a meadow, purpling
with coming bloom, we took a nearer way. I said
to Alf that one might think that he was a stranger
at the General’s house, and he replied:
“In one way I am. I have been there many
a time, it is true, but always to help do something.”
“Is the family so exclusive, then?” I
asked.
“Oh, they are as friendly as
any people you ever saw, but, of course, I naturally
place them high above me. The old General doesn’t
appear to know that I have grown to be a man; always
talks to me as if I were a boy wants to
know what father’s doing and all that sort of
thing. He doesn’t give a snap what father’s
doing.”
“And the girl. How does
she talk to you?” It was several moments before
he answered me.
“I was just trying to think,”
he said. “To tell you the truth, I don’t
know how she talks to me. I can’t recall
anything she has ever said to me. She calls me
Alf and I call her Miss Millie, and we laugh at some
fool thing and that’s about all there is to it.
But I know that the old man would never be willing
for me to marry her. He is looking pretty high
for her or he wouldn’t have spent so much money
on her education.”
“But, of course, the girl will
have something to say,” I suggested.
“I don’t know as to that,”
he replied; “but, of course, I hope so.
You can’t tell about girls at least,
I can’t. The old General married rather
late in life and has but two children. His wife
died several years ago. Chydister, the boy, or,
rather, the man for he’s about my
age is off at a medical college. He
doesn’t strike me as being so alfired smart,
but they say that he’s got learning away up in
G. The old man says that he is going to make him the
best doctor in the whole country, if colleges can
do it, and I reckon they can. He and I have always
got along pretty well; he used to stay at our house
a good deal.”
We crossed the creek, by leaping from
one stone to another, and pursued a course along a
rotting rail fence, covered with vines. And from
over in the low ground came the “sqush”
of the cows as they strode through the rank and sappy
clover. We crossed a hill whereon stood a deserted
negro “quarter” the moldering
mark of a life that is now dreamy and afar off and
after crossing another valley slowly ascended the rounding
bulge of ground, capped by the home of the General.
Alf had begun to falter and hang back, and when I
sought gently to encourage him he remarked: “But
you must remember that this is the first time that
I have ever been here with new clothes on, and I want
to tell you that this makes a big difference.”
“It has been some time since
I went anywhere with new clothes on,” I replied,
which set him laughing; but his merriment was shut
off when I opened the gate. Behind the house,
where the ground sloped toward the orchard, there
were a number of cabins, old, but not deserted, for
negro children were playing about the doors and from
somewhere within came the low drone of a half-religious,
half-cornshucking melody. An old dog got up from
under a tree, but, repenting of the exertion, lay down
again; a turkey loudly gobbled, a peacock croaked,
and a tall, bulky, old man came out upon the porch.
“Walk right in,” he called,
and shouting back into the hallway he commanded some
one to bring out three chairs. And even before
we had ascended the stone steps the command had been
obeyed by a negro boy. “Glad to meet you,
sir,” he said when Alf had introduced me.
“You have come to teach the school, I believe.
Old man Perdue was over and told me about it.
Sit down. What’s your father doing, Alf?”
“Can’t do anything to-day,” Alf
answered, glancing at me.
“I suppose not. All the
folks well? Glad to hear it,” he added before
Alf could answer him. “It’s been pretty
wet, but it’s drying up all right.”
He wore a dressing gown, befigured
with purple gourds, was bare-headed and I thought
that he wore a wig, for his hair was thick and was
curled under at the back of his neck. His face,
closely shaved, was full and red; his lips were thick
and his mouth was large. I could see that he
was of immense importance, a dominant spirit of the
Old South, and my reading told me that his leading
ancestor had come to America as the master of a Virginia
plantation.
“Henry!” the old General
called. “Fetch me my pipe. Henry!”
“Comin’,” a voice
cried from within. His pipe was brought and when
it had been lighted with a coal which Henry carried
in the palm of his hand, rolling it about from side
to side, the General puffed for a few moments and
then, looking at me, asked if I found school-teaching
to be a very profitable employment.
“The money part of it has been
but of minor consideration,” I answered.
“My aim is to become a lawyer, and I am teaching
school to help me toward that end.”
He cleared his throat with a loud
rasp. “I remember,” said he, “that
a man came here once from the North with pretty much
the same idea. It was before the war. We
got him up a school, and by the black ooze in the
veins of old Satan, it wasn’t long before he
was trying to persuade the negroes to run away from
us. I had a feather bed that wasn’t in use
at the time, and old Mills over here had a first-rate
article of tar on hand, and when we got through with
the gentleman he looked like an arctic explorer.
Where are you from, sir?”
I told him, and then he asked:
“The name is all right, and the location is
good. My oldest brother knew a Captain Hawes in
the Creek war.”
“He was my grandfather,”
I replied. He looked at me, still pulling at
his pipe, and said: “Then, sir, I am, indeed,
glad to see you. Alf, what’s your father
doing?”
“Nothing, sir; it’s Sunday,”
Alf answered, blushing. The old General looked
at him, cleared his throat and said: “Yes,
yes. Folks all well?”
I heard the door open and close and
I saw Alf move, even as his father had moved when
he came upon me in the road. I heard light foot-falls
in the hall, and then out stepped a girl. She
smiled and nodded at Alf and the General introduced
me to her. Alf got up, almost tumbled out of his
chair and asked her to sit down. “Oh, no,
keep your seat,” she said. “I’m
not going to stay but a minute.” She walked
over to a post and, leaning against it, turned and
looked back at us. She wore a flower in her hair,
and in her hand she held a calacanthus bud. She
was rather small, with a petulant sort of beauty,
but I did not think that she could be compared with
Guinea, for all of Alf’s raving over her.
Her cheeks were dimpled, and well she knew it, for
she smiled whenever anything was said, and when no
word had been spoken she smiled at the silence.
“Alf, what has become of Guinea?”
she asked. “It seems an age since I saw
her.”
“She was over here last, I think,” Alf
answered.
“Ahem m ”
came from the General. “You’ll be
counting meals on each other, like the Yankees, after
a while,” he said. “Why don’t
you quit your foolishness; and if you want to see
each other, go and see. I don’t know what
your feelings are in the matter, sir,” he added,
turning to me, “but I don’t see much good
in this so-called public school system. And of
all worthless things under heaven it is a negro that
has caught up a smattering of education. God
knows he’s trifling enough at best, but teach
him to read and he’s utterly worthless.
I sent a negro to the postoffice some time ago, and
he came along back with my newspaper spread out before
him, reading it on the horse. And if it hadn’t
been for Millie I would have ripped the hide off him.”
“He didn’t know any better,”
the girl spoke up. “Poor thing, you scared
him nearly to death.”
“Yes, and I immediately gave
him the best coat I had to square myself, not with
him, but with myself,” said the old man.
“But I hold that if the negro, or anyone else,
for that matter, is to be a servant, let him be a
servant. I don’t want a man to plow for
me simply because he can read. Confound him,
I don’t care whether he can read or not.
I want him to plow. When I choose my friends
it is another matter. Your father go to church
to-day, Alf?”
“I don’t know, sir,”
Alf answered, moving about in his chair, and then
in his embarrassment he got up and stammeringly begged
the girl to sit down.
“Why, what’s all this
trouble and nonsense about,” the General asked,
looking first at the girl and then at Alf. “’Öd
zounds, there oughtn’t to be any trouble about
a chair. Fifty of them back in there.”
Alf dropped back and the girl laughed
with such genuine heartiness that I thought much better
of her, but still I did not think that she was at
all to be compared with Guinea. The General yelled
for Henry to bring him another coal, and when his
pipe had been relighted he turned to me and said:
“You don’t find the old North State as
she once was, sir. Ah, Lord, the ruin that has
gone on in this world since I can remember. And
yet they say we are becoming more civilized. Zounds,
sir, do you call it civilization to see hundreds of
fields turned out to persimmon bushes and broom sedge?
Look over there,” he added, waving his hand.
“I have seen the time when that was almost a
garden. What do you want?” The last remark
was addressed to the negro boy who had suddenly appeared.
“Dinner? Yes, yes. Come, Mr. Hawes,
and you, Alf. This way. Get out!” A
dog had come between him and the door. “Devilish
dogs are about to take the place, but they are no
account, not one of them. Lie around here and
let the rabbits eat up the pea vines. Even the
dogs have degenerated along with everything else.”
I walked with the General, and, looking
back, I was pleased to see that Alf had summoned courage
enough to follow along beside the girl. We were
shown into a long dining-room, with a great height
of ceiling. The house had been built in a proud
old day, and all about me I noted a dim and faded
elegance. The General bade us sit down, and I
noticed that his tone was softened. He mumbled
a blessing over a great hunk of mutton and, broadly
smiling upon me, told me that he was glad to welcome
me to his board. “The school-teacher,”
said he, “modifies and refines our native crudeness.
Yes, sir, you have a great work, a work that you may
be proud of. Had education more broadly prevailed,
had the people North and South better understood one
another, there would have been no bloody disruption.
Now, gentlemen, I must request you to help yourselves,
remembering that such as I have is freely yours.
When age comes on apace there is nothing more inspiring
than to see the young and the vigorous gathered about
us. And it is thus that the evening of live is
brightened. Henry, pass the bread to Mr. Jucklin,
and the peas, the very first of this backward season,
I assure you. Mr. Hawes, can you recall the face
of your noble grandfather?”
“No, General; he died many years before I can
remember.”
“A pity, I assure you, for what
is more spurring to our ambition than to recall the
features of a noted relative. Some of this lettuce,
Mr. Hawes? A sleepy, but withal a soothing, dish.
My daughter, I must request you to help yourself.
Charming weather we have, Mr. Hawes, with the essence
of youth and hope in the air.”
How completely had his manner changed.
His eyes, which had seemed hard and cold when he had
waved his hand and looked out over the yellow sedge
grass, were beaming now with kindly light, and his
voice, which I had thought was coarse and gruff, was
vibrant with notes of stirring sympathy. Alf,
heartened by the old gentleman’s streaming courtesy,
spoke a low word to the girl who sat beside him, and
she nodded, smiling, but with one ear politely lent
to the familiar talk of her father.
After dinner we were shown into the
library, wherein were many law books, and the General,
catching the longing glance that I shot at them, turned
with bewitching patronage, bowed and said:
“You have expressed your determination
to become acquainted with the law and to practice
the wiles of its logic; and so, if you can make no
better arrangements, I pray, sir, that you make this
room your office.”
Alf’s eyes bulged out at this,
doubtless looking upon me as the most fortunate man
alive, and in my country bluntness I blurted:
“You are the kindest man I ever saw.”
In this room we talked for two hours
or more, and the afternoon or the evening,
as we say in the South was well pronounced
when I declared that it was time for us to go.
Alf looked up surprised, and in a voice sad with appeal,
he asked if it were very late. I could have given
him the exact time, but was afraid to take out my
grandfather’s watch afraid that the
General and his daughter might think that I was seeking
to make a display, so I simply said: “Yes,
time that we were going.”
“Don’t be in a hurry,
gentlemen,” the General protested; “don’t
let a trivial matter rob us of your society.”
Alf pulled back, but I insisted, and
so we took our leave. The old gentleman came
out upon the porch with us. “Henry!”
he yelled, turning about, “who the devil left
that gate open? Go and shut it, you lazy scoundrel.
Those infamous new-comers over on the creek take my
place for a public highway. And I hope to be
hung up by the heels if I don’t fill the last
one of them full of shot.”
“I’ll never forget you,”
Alf remarked as we walked along, down through the
meadow. “You have stood by me, and you bet
your life I don’t forget such things. Of
course, I have known the old man ever since I can
remember, but he never treated me so well before.
And when the time comes, if I can get him in that
dining-room I don’t believe he’ll refuse
me. It’s a blamed big pity that I can’t
talk as you can, but you just stick to me and I will
talk all right after a while.”
“Oh, I’ll stick to you,”
I replied, “but I didn’t notice that I
talked in a way to amount to anything. I felt
as stupid as an ass looks. What did the girl
say? You were talking to her very earnestly over
by the window.”
“To save my life, I can’t
recall anything she said, Bill, but I know that every
word she spoke was dripped honey. I’d almost
give my life to take her in my arms and hug her just
once. Ever feel that way about a girl?”
I was beginning to feel just exactly
that way, but I told him no, whereupon he said:
“But you may one of these days, and whenever
you do, you call on me to help you, and I’ll
do it, I don’t care who the girl is or how high
up she may stand. Many a night I have lain in
bed and wished that Millie might be going along the
road by herself and that about three men would come
up and say something out of the way to her, just so
I could spring out and wipe the face of the earth with
them. I’m not as big as you are, but for
her I’ll bet I can whip any three men you ever
saw. By the way, don’t even speak Millie’s
name at home. The folks don’t know that
I’m in love with her. There’s one
thing that stands in my favor.”
“What is it?” I asked.
He looked up at me, but was silent, and becoming interested
by his manner I was about to repeat the question, when
he said: “I’m not at liberty to speak
of it yet. You’ve noticed that Guinea has
more education than I have. Well, her education
has something to do with the point that’s in
my favor, but I’ve said too much already and
we’d better drop the subject.”
I was burning to know more, for I
recalled the change of manner that had come over Mr.
Jucklin at the time he spoke of having sent his daughter
away to school, and I was turning this over and over
in my mind, when Alf said: “A young fellow
named Dan Stuart often goes to see Millie, and I don’t
know how much she thinks of him, but some of his people
are high flyers, and that may have an influence in
his favor. Doc Etheredge, out here, is his cousin,
and old man Etheredge owned nearly a hundred and fifty
negroes at one time. But when that girl stands
up at the altar to marry some one else, they will
find me there putting in my protest.”
When we reached home I found Guinea
sitting under a tree, reading, and I had joined her
when the old man called me. Looking about I saw
him standing at the end of the house, beckoning to
me. “I want to see you a minute,”
he said, as I approached him. I wondered whether
he was again going to show me his chickens, and it
was a relief when he conducted me in an opposite direction.
He looked back to see if we were far enough away,
and then, coming closer to me, he said: “This
is the way I came to do it.”
“Do what?” I asked, not
over pleased that he should have called upon me to
leave the girl.
“Wallow him, the old General.
He claimed that my hogs had been gettin’ into
his field, and I told him that I didn’t feel
disposed to keep my hogs up when everybody else’s
were runnin’ at large, and then he called me
a scoundrel and we clinched. I took him so quick
that he wasn’t prepared for me, and I give a
sort of a hem stich and down he went, right in the
middle of the road. And there I was right on top
of him. He didn’t say a word, while I was
wallowin’ him, but when I let him up, he looked
all round and then said: ’Lim Jucklin, if
I thought anybody was lookin’ I’d kill
you right here. You are the first man that ever
wallowed a Lundsford and lived, and the novelty of
the thing sorter appeals to me. You know that
I’m not afraid of the devil, and keep your mouth
shut about this affair, and we’ll let it drap.’
And he meant just what he said, and I did keep my
mouth shut, not because I was afraid of his hurtin’
me, but because I was sorry to humiliate him.
Ever hear of John Mortimer Lacey? Well, shortly
after that him and Lundsford fit a duel and Lacey
went to New Orleans and died there. So, don’t
say anything about it.”
“About what? Lacey’s
going to New Orleans and dying there?”
“No, cadfound it all, about my wallerin’
the General.”
“I won’t,” I answered,
and then I thought to touch upon a question that had
taken a fast hold upon me. “By the way,
you spoke of having sent your daughter to school at
Raleigh ”
“The devil I did! Well,
what’s that got to do with you or with anyone
else, for that matter? I’ll be you
must excuse me, sir,” he quickly added, bowing.
“I’m not right bright in my mind at times.
Pecked right at my eye, and if I hadn’t dodged
I’d be one-eyed this minute yes, I
would, as sure as you are born. But here, let
us drop that wallowin’ business and that other
affair with it, and not mention it again. Don’t
know why I done it in the first place, but I reckon
it was because I’m not right bright in my mind
at times. You’ll excuse my snap and snarl,
won’t you? Go on back there, now, and talk
about your books.”
“I am the one to ask pardon,
Mr. Jucklin. I ought to have had better sense
than to touch upon something that didn’t concern
me. I guess there must be a good deal of the
brute in me, and it seems to me that I spend nearly
half my time regretting what I did the other half.”
“Why, Lord love your soul, man,
you haven’t done nothin’. But you
draw me close to you when you talk of regrettin’
things. I have spent nearly all my life in putty
much that fix. After you’ve lived in this
neighborhood a while you’ll hear that old Lim
has been in many a fight, but you’ll never hear
that anybody has ever whupped him. You may hear,
though, that he has rid twenty mile of a cold night
to beg the pardon of a man that he had thrashed.
We’ll shake hands right here, and if you say
the word we’ll go right now and make them chickens
fight. No, it’s Sunday. Kiver to kiver,
you understand. Go on back there, now.”
With Guinea I sat and saw the sun
go down behind a yellow gullied hill. From afar
up and down the valley came the lonesome “pig-oo-ee!”
of the farmers, calling their hogs for the evening’s
feed. We heard the flutter of the chickens, flying
to roost, and the night hawk heard them, too, for
his eager, hungry scream pierced the still air.
On a smooth old rock at the verge of the ravine the
girl’s brother stood, arms folded, looking out
over the darkening low land, and from within the house,
where Mrs. Jucklin sat alone, there came a sad melody:
“Come, thou fount of every blessing.”
The girl’s eyes were upward
turned. “Every evening comes with a new
mystery,” she said. “We think we know
what to expect, but when the evening comes it is different
from what it was yesterday.”
“And it is thus that we are
enabled to live without growing tired of the world
and of ourselves,” I replied. “And
I wish that I had come like the evening with
a mystery,” I added.
I heard her musical cluck and even
in the dusk I could see the light of her smile.
“But why should you want to come with a mystery?”
she asked.
“To inspire those about me with
an interest regarding me. Even the stray dog
is more interesting than the dog that is vouched for
by the appearance of his master. I never saw
a pack-peddler that I did not long to know something
of his life, his emotions, the causes that sent him
adrift, but I can’t find this interest in a man
whom I understand.”
She laughed again. “But
haven’t you some little mystery connected with
your life?” she asked.
“None. I have read myself
into a position a few degrees above the clod-hopper,
but that’s all. If there were a war, I would
be a soldier, but as there is no war, I am going to
be a lawyer.”
“It would be nice, I should
think, to stand up and make speeches,” she said.
“But wouldn’t you rather be a doctor?”
I don’t know why I said it,
but I replied that I hated doctors, and she did not
laugh at this, but was silent. I waited for her
to say something, but she uttered not a word.
It was now dark, and I could just discern Alf’s
figure, standing on the rock. The song in the
house was hushed.
“I don’t really mean that
I hate doctors,” I said, seeking to right myself,
if, indeed, I had made a mistake; and she simply replied:
“Oh.” “I mean that I should
not like to practice medicine,” I added, and
again she said: “Oh.” A lamp
had been lighted in the sitting-room, and thither
we went, to join Old Lim and his wife, who were warm
in the discussion of a religious question. The
Book said that whatever a man’s hands found
to do he must do, and, therefore, he held that it was
right to do almost anything on Sunday.
“Even unto the fighting of chickens?”
his wife asked.
“Oh, I knowed what you was a-gittin’
at. Knowed it while you was a-beatin’ the
bush all round. When a woman begins to beat the
bush, it’s time to look out, Mr. Hawes.
I came in here just now, and I knowed in a minute
that wife, there, was goin’ to accuse me of havin’
a round with Sam and Bob, but I pledge you my word
that I didn’t. Just went in and exchanged
a few words with ’em. Man’s got a
right to talk to his friends, I reckon; but if he
ain’t, w’y, it’s time to shut up
shop.”
Alf came in and, with Guinea, sang
an old song, and their father sat there with the tears
shining in his eyes. He leaned over, and I heard
him whisper to his wife: “Did have just
a mild bit of a round, Susan, and I hope that you
and the Lord will forgive me for it. If you do
I know the Lord will. I’m an old liar,
Susan.”
“No, you are not, Lemuel,”
she answered, in a low voice. “You are the
best man in the world, and everybody loves you.”
I saw him squeeze her wrinkled hand.
I could not sleep, but in a strange
disturbance tossed about. Alf was talking in
a dream. I got up and sat for a time at the window,
looking out toward the gullied hill that had turned
out the light of the sun. On the morrow my work
was to begin. And what was to be the result?
Was it intended that I should reach the bar and win
renown, or had I been listed for the life of a pedagogue?
Was my love for the girl so new that it dazzled me?
No, it was now a passion, wounded and sore. But
why? By that little word, “Oh.”
I put on my clothes, tip-toed down stairs and walked
about the yard. The moon was full, low above the
scrub oaks. A streak of shimmering light ran
down toward the spring, and over it I slowly strode.
I heard the water gurgling from under the moss-covered
spring-house, and I saw the leaf-shadow patch-work
moving to and fro over the smooth slabs of stone.
Long I stood there, looking at the pictures, listening
to the music; and turning back toward the house, I
had gone some distance when I chanced to look up, and
then, thrilled, I slowly sank upon my knees.
At one of the large windows, in the northeast end
of the house, stood Guinea, in a loose, white robe,
the light of the full moon falling upon her.
Behind her head her hands were clasped, and she stood
there like a marble cross. Her face was upward
turned, and the low yellow moon was bronzing her brown
hair a glorified marble cross, with a crown
of gold, I thought, as I bowed in my worship.
My forehead touched the path, and when I lifted my
head the cross was gone.