We ate breakfast early the next morning,
while the game cocks were yet crowing in their coop.
When I went down I heard the jingling of trace chains,
and I knew that the old man was making ready to plow
the young corn. I had insisted upon walking to
the school-house, telling Alf that all I wanted was
to know the direction, but he declared that it was
no more than just that I should be driven over the
first morning of the session. So, together we
went on the buck-board. Guinea had laughingly
told me not to be afraid of the creek, that the large
boys were at home, plowing, and as we were skirting
the gullied hill I glanced back and saw her standing
in the yard, looking after us. The road lay mostly
through the woods, with many a turn and dip down among
thick bushes to cross a crooked stream. Sometimes
we came upon small clearings, where tired-looking
men were grubbing new-land for tobacco, and I remember
that a half-grown boy, with a sullen look, threw a
chunk at us and viciously shouted that if we would
stop a minute he would whip both of us. I imagined
that he was kept from school by the imperious demand
of the tobacco patch, and I sympathized with him in
his wrath against mankind. A little further along
we came within sight of an old log house, and then
the laughter of children reached our ears. We
had arrived at the place where my work was to begin.
Alf put me down, and, saying that he must get back
home, drove away; and a hush fell upon the children
as I turned toward the house. Inside I found a
cow-bell, and when I had rung the youngsters to their
duties, I made them a short speech, telling them that
I was sure we should become close friends. I
had some difficulty in arranging them into classes,
for it appeared that each child had brought an individual
book. But I was glad to see that old McGuffy’s
readers prevailed, for in many parts of the South they
had been supplanted by books of flimsy text, and now
to see them cropping up gave me great pleasure.
There they were, with the same old lessons that had
fired me with ambition, the words of Shakspeare and
the speeches of great Americans.
By evening my work was well laid out,
and as I took my way homeward, with Guinea in my mind,
there was a strong surge within my breast, the leaping
of a determination to win her.
As I neared home, coming round by
the spring, I saw the girl running down the path,
the picture of a young deer, and how that picture did
remain with me, and how on an occasion held by the
future, it was to be vivified.
“Oh, you have got back safe
and dry,” she cried, halting upon seeing me.
“Why, I thought you would come back dripping.
No, I didn’t,” she quickly added.
“Don’t you know I told you that all the
large boys were at work? Wait until I get the
jar of butter and I’ll go to the house with you.”
“Let me get it for you,”
I replied, turning back with her.
“You can’t get it,”
she said, laughing; “you’ll fall into the
spring. But, then, you might hold it as a remembrance
to temper the severity of the ducking yet to come.”
“Miss Guinea,” I made
bold to say, standing at the door of the spring-house,
“do you know that you talk with exceeding readiness?”
“Oh, do you mean that I am always
ready to talk? I didn’t think that of you.”
I reached out and took the jar from
her. “You know I didn’t mean that,”
I said; and, looking up, with her eyes full of mischief,
she asked: “What did you mean, then?”
“I mean that you talk easily and brightly like
a book.”
“You’d better let me have
the jar,” she said, holding out her hands.
“I’m afraid that you’ll fall and
break it, after that. You know that a man is
never so likely to slip as he is when he’s trying
to compliment a woman.”
“No, I don’t know that,
but I do know that a Southern woman ought to know
the difference between flattery and a real compliment.”
“Why a Southern woman?”
she asked. She looked to me as if she were really
in earnest and I strove to answer her earnestly.
“Because Southern women are
not given to flirting; because they place more reliance
in what a man says, and ”
“I think you’ve got yourself
tangled up,” she said, laughing at me, and I
could but acknowledge that I had; and then it was,
in the sweetest of tones, that she said: “But
if I had thought you really were tangled I would not
have spoken of it. Now tell me what you were going
to say, and I promise to listen like a mouse in a
corner.”
“No, I’m afraid to attempt
it again.” I was in advance of her, for
the path was narrow and the dew was now gathering
on the grass, but she shot past me, and, looking back,
said beseechingly: “Won’t you, please?”
The sun was long since down and the twilight was darkening,
but I could see the eagerness on her face. “Do,
please, for I like to hear such things. I’m
nothing but the simplest sort of a girl, as easy to
amuse as a child, and you must remember that you are
a great big man, from out in the world.”
“Come on with that butter!”
the old man shouted, and with a laugh the girl ran
away from me. I wondered whether she were playing
with me, but I could not believe that she was.
In those eyes there might be mischief, but there could
not be deceit.
Bed time came immediately after supper.
The old man did not go out to look after his chickens,
so tired was he, and there was no song in the sitting-room.
I sat in the passage, where the moonlight fell, and
hoped that the girl might join me, but she did not,
and I went to my room, where I found Alf, half undressed,
sitting on the edge of the bed. I had sat down
and had filled my pipe before he took notice of me,
but when I began to search about for a light he looked
up and remarked: “Matches on the corner
of your library.”
“Here’s one,” I
replied, and had lighted the pipe when he said:
“Saw her to-day, Bill saw her riding
along the road with Dan Stuart. She didn’t
even look over in the field toward me, but he waved
his hand, and I saw more hatred than friendship in
it. Blame it all, Bill, I’m not going to
follow a plow through the dirt all the time. I
can do something better, and after this crop’s
laid by I’m going to do it. I don’t
think that she wants to marry a farmer.”
“What does Stuart do?”
I asked. “How can he afford to be riding
about when other men are at work?”
“Oh, I guess he’s pretty
well fixed. He’s got a lot of negroes working
for him and he raises a good deal of tobacco.
No, sir, she didn’t even look toward me.”
“But haven’t you passed
her house when you were almost afraid to look toward
the porch when you knew that she was standing there?”
“Of course I have!” he
cried. “Yes, sir, I’ve done that many
a time just pretended that I had business
everywhere else but on that porch. Ain’t
it strange how love does take hold of a fellow?
It gets into his heart and his heart shoots it to
the very ends of his fingers; it gets into his eyes,
and he can’t see anything but love, love everywhere.
It may catch you one of these days, Bill, and when
it does, you’ll know just how I feel.”
I looked at this strong and honest
man, this man idolizing an image that he had enshrined
in his soul, and I thought to tell him that, with my
forehead touching the ground, I had worshiped his sister,
but no, it was too delicate a confidence I
would keep it to myself.
We were astir in the dawn the next
day, ate breakfast by the light of a lamp, but Guinea
was not at the table, and I loitered there after the
others were gone out, hoping to see her, but she did
not come, and then I remembered that Mrs. Jucklin
was also absent, and that the services of the meal
had been performed by a negro woman.
When I returned at evening, with the
droning of the children’s voices echoing in
my ears, it seemed to me that I had been gone an age.
I came again by the spring, but Guinea was not there,
but I heard her singing as I drew near to the house.
She was in the passage, gleefully dancing, with a
broom for a partner. When she saw me she threw
down the broom and ran away, laughing; but she came
back when she found that I had really discovered her.
“You must think that I am the silliest creature
in the world,” she said, “and I don’t
know that I can dispute you. Millie Lundsford
has just gone home. She and I have been going
through with our old-time play, when, with window
curtains wound about us to represent long dresses,
and with brooms to personate the brave knights who
had rescued us from the merciless Turks, we danced
in the castle. And I was just taking a turn with
a duke when you came. What a knight you would
have been.”
“And what an inspiration I should
have had to drive me onward and to set my soul aflame
with ambition,” I replied, looking into her eyes.
It must have been my look rather than
my words that threw a change over her; my manner must
have told her that I was becoming too serious for
one who had known her so short a time, but be that
as it may, a change had come upon her. She was
no longer a girl, gay and airy, with a romping spirit,
but a woman, dignified.
“Has your work been hard to-day?” she
asked.
“It has been more or less stupid,
as it always is,” I answered, slowly walking
with her toward the dining-room.
When we had sat down to the table
Alf came in with his new clothes on, and whispering
to me when his sister had turned to say something to
her mother, he said: “Got something to
tell you when we go up stairs.”
Mrs. Jucklin was afraid that I did
not eat enough; she had heard that brain workers required
much food; her uncle, who had been a justice of the
peace, had told her that it made but small difference
what he ate while engaged in getting out saw logs,
but that when he began to meditate over a case in
court he required the most stimulating provender.
“And now,” she said, “if there’s
anything that I can fix for you, do, please, let me
know what it is. Now, Guinea, what are you titterin’
at? And that negro woman doesn’t half do
her work, either. I declare to goodness I’d
rather do everything on the place than to see her
foolin’ round as if she’s afraid to take
hold of anything; and her fingers full of brass rings,
too. I jest told her that she’d have to
take ’em off, that I didn’t want to eat
any brass. Laws a massy, niggers are jest as
different from what they was as day is from night.
Talk to me about freedom helpin’ ’em.
But the Lord knows best,” she added, with a
sigh of resignation. “If He wants ’em
to be free, why, no one ought to complain, and goodness
knows I don’t. Yes, they ought to be free,”
she went on after a moment of reflection. “Oh,
it was a sin and a shame to sell ’em away from
their children. But it’s all over now, thank
God. Now, I wonder where your father is, Alf.
Never saw sich a man in my life. Looks jest
like he begrudges time enough to eat. There he
comes now.”
The old man came in, covered with
dirt. “Alf, is the shot gun loaded?”
he asked, brushing himself.
“Yes, sir. Why?”
We looked at the old fellow, wondering what he meant,
but he made no explanation. Alf repeated his question.
“Why?” And the old man exclaimed:
“Oh, nothin’. Jest goin’ to
blow that red steer’s head off, that’s
all. Confound his hide. I wish I may die
this minute if I ever had sich a jolt in my life.
Went along by him, not sayin’ a word to him,
and if he didn’t up and let me have both heels
I’m the biggest liar that ever walked a log.
Hadn’t done a thing to him, mind you; walkin’
along ‘tendin’ to my own business, when
both of his heels flew at me. And I’ll
eat a bite and then go and blow his head off.”
“Oh, Limuel,” his wife
protested; “a body to hear you talk would think
that you don’t do anything at all but thirst
for blood. If the Lord puts it in the mind of
a steer to kick you, why, it ain’t the poor creeter’s
fault.”
The old man snorted. “And
if the Lord puts it in my mind to kill the steer it
ain’t my fault, muther. Conscience alive,
what are we all dressed up so about?” he added,
looking at Alf. “So much stile goin’
on that a body don’t know whuther he’s
a shuckin’ corn or is at a picnic. Blow
his head off as soon as I eat a bite.”
I could see that Alf was anxious to
tell me something, and immediately after supper I
went up stairs with him. He took off his coat,
and after dusting it carefully hung it up and sat
down. He looked at me as if he were delighted
with the curiosity that I was showing, and then as
he reached for his pipe he began: “I was
a-plowing out in the field about three hours by sun,
when I saw Millie come out of the valley like a larkspur
straightening up in the spring of the year, and after
waiting a while, but always with my eye on the house,
I quit work, slipped up here and dressed myself so
as to be ready to walk home with her. I was rather
afraid to ask her at first, knowing that this was breaking
away from all my former strings and announcing my
determination of keeping company with her, out and
out, and I don’t know exactly how I got at it,
but I did, and the first thing I knew I was walking
down the road with her. And this time I do remember
what she said, but there wasn’t anything so
encouraging in it. The fact is she had something
to tell me about you.”
“About me? What can she
know about me? Probably she was giving you her
father’s estimate of me.”
“No, but somebody else’s
estimate,” he replied. “You recollect
a fellow named Bentley?”
“Bentley? Of course, I
do. We lived on adjoining farms, and I have a
sore cause to remember him. But how could she
have heard anything about him?”
“Well, I’ll tell you.
Mrs. Bentley is old man Aimes’ sister, and she’s
over here now on a visit, and when she heard that you
were teaching school in the neighborhood she declared
that it would be a mercy if you didn’t kill
somebody before you got through. And then she
told that you had waylaid her son one night and come
mighty nigh killing him. She said that she was
perfectly willing to forgive you until she saw the
scar left on her son’s forehead, and a woman
can’t very well forgive a scar, you know.
Old Aimes and all his sons are slaughter-house dogs,
and they appeared to take up a hatred against you
at once. Don’t you remember as we drove
to the school a boy threw a chunk at us as we were
passing a clearing and swore that he could whip us
both? Well, that was the youngest Aimes, and
the trick now is, as I understand it, to send him to
school with instructions to do pretty much as he pleases
and to take revenge on you in case you whip him.
Millie said that her father swore that it was a shame
and that if you wanted any help from him you could
get it. Nobody likes the Aimes family. Came
in here several years ago, and have been kicking up
disturbances ever since.”
I told Alf why I had snatched Bentley
off his horse, nor in the least did I shield myself.
I even called myself a brute. But I told him of
the season of sorrow and humiliation through which
I had passed, that I had insisted upon giving Bentley
the only valuable thing I possessed, that against
his mother’s command I had striven to work for
him during the time he was laid up, and that I had
even plowed his field at night.
“I don’t know that you
were so far wrong in beating him in the first place,”
said Alf, “but if you were, your course afterward
should have more than atoned for it. By gracious,
I feel that if some one would plow for me I’d
let him maul me until he got tired. Millie said
that she was afraid that something might happen to
get you into trouble. She seemed a good deal
concerned about it, for I reckon she’s got the
noblest and purest heart of any human being now in
the world, and she said that she thought that if you
were to give up the school her father could make some
arrangements for you to study law in Purdy, the county
seat. I told her that you would be delighted
to quit teaching under ordinary circumstances, but
that just at present you’d teach or die.
Was I right?”
“Surely, and I thank you for
having defined my position. I wonder if we can
commit an innocent error, an error that will lie asleep
and never rise up to confront us? Now, I shall
have a fine reputation in this neighborhood.”
“Oh, don’t let that worry
you, Bill. It’ll come out all right.
I’d be willing to have almost any sort of name
if it would influence that girl to talk in my favor
as she did in yours. I don’t know what to
think; somehow I can’t find out her opinion
of me. I slily spoke about that fellow, Dan Stuart,
but she didn’t say a word. Confound it,
Bill, can’t a woman see that she’s got
a fellow on the gridiron? They can’t even
bear to see a hog suffer, but they can smile and look
unconcerned while a man is writhing over the coals.
I don’t understand it.”
“Nor do I, Alf, but I’ve
been over the coals I mean that I can well
imagine what it is to be there.”
He lay down, and with his head far
back on the pillow, looked upward as if with his gaze
he would bore through the roof and reach the stars.
He was silent for a long time, but when I had blown
out the light and had gone to bed, thinking that he
was asleep, I heard him muttering.
“Talking to me, Alf?”
He turned over with a sigh and answered: “No,
not particularly. I was just wondering whether
a man ought to try to outlive a disappointment in
love or kill himself and end the matter. We are
told that God is love, and if God is denied to a man,
what’s the use of trying to struggle on?
I suppose the advantage of knowledge is that it enables
a man to settle such questions at once, but as I am
not learned, having grabbed but a little here and
there, I have to worry along with a thing that another
man might dismiss at once. What’s your idea,
Bill?”
“My idea is that a man ought
never to give up; but, of course, there are times
when he is so completely beaten that to fight longer
is worse than useless. But learning cannot settle
questions wherein the heart is involved. The
philosopher may kill himself in despair, while the
ignorant man may continue to fight and may finally
win. The other day you spoke of something that
was in your favor something that has to
do with your sister’s education. Would
you think it impertinent if I ask you what that something
is?”
“No, I’d not think that,”
he answered. I had risen up in bed and was straining
my eyes, trying to find his face, to study his expression,
but darkness lay between us. “Not impertinent
in the least, but I can’t tell you just now.
After a while, if you stay here long enough, you’ll
know all about it. Bill, if that young Aimes
comes to school and begins any of his pranks, take
him down and I’ll stand by you, and people that
know me well will tell you that I mean what I say.
The old man has never been whipped yet, I mean my
father, and nobody ever saw his son knock under.”