I awakened in my room. The sun,
already at its zenith, filled the place with unbearable
light and heat.
The first thing I saw, on opening
my eyes, was the shade, ripped down, lying in the
middle of the floor. Then, confusedly, the night’s
events began to come back to me.
My head felt stupid and heavy.
My mind wandered. My memory seemed blocked.
“I went out with the leopard, that is certain.
That red mark on my forefinger shows how he strained
at the leash. My knees are still dusty.
I remember creeping along the wall in the room where
the white Tuareg were playing at dice. That was
the minute after King Hiram had leapt past them.
After that ... oh, Morhange and Antinea.... And
then?”
I recalled nothing more. I recalled
nothing more. But something must have happened,
something which I could not remember.
I was uneasy. I wanted to go
back, yet it seemed as if I were afraid to go.
I have never felt anything more painful than those
conflicting emotions.
“It is a long way from here
to Antinea’s apartments. I must have been
very sound asleep not to have noticed when they brought
me back for they have brought me back.”
I stopped trying to think it out.
My head ached too much.
“I must have air,” I murmured.
“I am roasting here; it will drive me mad.”
I had to see someone, no matter whom.
Mechanically, I walked toward the library.
I found M. Le Mesge in a transport
of delirious joy. The Professor was engaged in
opening an enormous bale, carefully sewed in a brown
blanket.
“You come at a good time, sir,”
he cried, on seeing me enter. “The magazines
have just arrived.”
He dashed about in feverish haste.
Presently a stream of pamphlets and magazines, blue,
green, yellow and salmon, was bursting from an opening
in the bale.
“Splendid, splendid!”
he cried, dancing with joy. “Not too late,
either; here are the numbers for October fifteenth.
We must give a vote of thanks to good Ameur.”
His good spirits were contagious.
“There is a good Turkish merchant
who subscribes to all the interesting magazines of
the two continents. He sends them on by Rhadames
to a destination which he little suspects. Ah,
here are the French ones.”
M. Le Mesge ran feverishly over, the tables of contents.
“Internal politics: articles
by Francis Charmes, Anatole Leroy-Beaulieu, d’Haussonville
on the Czar’s trip to Paris. Look, a study
by Avenel of wages in the Middle Ages. And verse,
verses of the young poets, Fernand Gregh, Edmond Haraucourt.
Ah, the resume of a book by Henry de Castries on Islam.
That may be interesting.... Take what you please.”
Joy makes people amiable and M. Le
Mesge was really delirious with it.
A puff of breeze came from the window.
I went to the balustrade and, resting my elbows on
it, began to run through a number of the Revue
des Deux Mondes.
I did not read, but flipped over the
pages, my eyes now on the lines of swarming little
black characters, now on the rocky basin which lay
shivering, pale pink, under the declining sun.
Suddenly my attention became fixed.
There was a strange coincidence between the text and
the landscape.
“In the sky overhead were only
light shreds of cloud, like bits of white ash floating
up from burnt-out logs. The sun fell over a circle
of rocky peaks, silhouetting their severe lines against
the azure sky. From on high, a great sadness
and gentleness poured down into the lonely enclosure,
like a magic drink into a deep cup...."
I turned the pages feverishly.
My mind seemed to be clearing.
Behind me, M. Le Mesge, deep in an
article, voiced his opinions in indignant growls.
I continued reading:
“On all sides a magnificent
view spread out before us in the raw light. The
chain of rocks, clearly visible in their barren desolation
which stretched to the very summit, lay stretched out
like some great heap of gigantic, unformed things
left by some primordial race of Titans to stupefy
human beings. Overturned towers....”
“It is shameful, downright shameful,”
the Professor was repeating.
“Overturned towers, crumbling
citadels, cupolas fallen in, broken pillars, mutilated
colossi, prows of vessels, thighs of monsters, bones
of titans, this mass, impassable with its
ridges and gullies, seemed the embodiment of everything
huge and tragic. So clear were the distances....”
“Downright shameful,”
M. Le Mesge kept on saying in exasperation, thumping
his fist on the table.
“So clear were the distances
that I could see, as if I had it under my eyes, infinitely
enlarged, every contour of the rock which Violante
had shown me through the window with the gesture of
a creator....”
Trembling, I closed the magazine.
At my feet, now red, I saw the rock which Antinea
had pointed out to me the day of our first interview,
huge, steep, overhanging the reddish brown garden.
“That is my horizon,” she had said.
M. Le Mesge’s excitement had passed all bounds.
“It is worse than shameful; it is infamous.”
I almost wanted to strangle him into silence.
He seized my arm.
“Read that, sir; and, although
you don’t know a great deal about the subject,
you will see that this article on Roman Africa is a
miracle of misinformation, a monument of ignorance.
And it is signed ... do you know by whom it is signed?”
“Leave me alone,” I said brutally.
“Well, it is signed Gaston Boissier.
Yes, sir! Gaston Boissier, grand officer of the
Legion of Honor, lecturer at the Ecole Normale
Superieure, permanent secretary of the French Academy,
member of the Academy of Inscriptions and Literature,
one of those who once ruled out the subject of my
thesis ... one of those ... ah, poor university, ah,
poor France!”
I was no longer listening. I
had begun to read again. My forehead was covered
with sweat. But it seemed as if my head had been
cleared like a room when a window is opened; memories
were beginning to come back like doves winging their
way home to the dovecote.
“At that moment, an irrepressible
tremor shook her whole body; her eyes dilated as if
some terrible sight had filled them with horror.
“‘Antonello,’ she murmured.
“And for seconds, she was unable to say another
word.
“I looked at her in mute anguish
and the suffering which drew her dear lips together
seemed also to clutch at my heart. The vision
which was in her eyes passed into mine, and I saw
again the thin white face of Antonello, and the quick
quivering of his eyelids, the waves of agony which
seized his long worn body and shook it like a reed.”
I threw the magazine upon the table.
“That is it,” I said.
To cut the pages, I had used the knife
with which M. Le Mesge had cut the cords of the bale,
a short ebony-handled dagger, one of those daggers
that the Tuareg wear in a bracelet sheath against the
upper left arm.
I slipped it into the big pocket of
my flannel dolman and walked toward the door.
I was about to cross the threshold
when I heard M. Le Mesge call me.
“Monsieur de Saint Avit! Monsieur de Saint
Avit!
“I want to ask you something, please.”
“What is it?”
“Nothing important. You
know that I have to mark the labels for the red marble
hall....”
I walked toward the table.
“Well, I forgot to ask M. Morhange,
at the beginning, the date and place of his birth.
After that, I had no chance. I did not see him
again. So I am forced to turn to you. Perhaps
you can tell me?”
“I can,” I said very calmly.
He took a large white card from a
box which contained several and dipped his pen.
“Number 54 ... Captain?”
“Captain Jean-Marie-Francois Morhange.”
While I dictated, one hand resting
on the table, I noticed on my cuff a stain, a little
stain, reddish brown.
“Morhange,” repeated M.
Le Mesge, finishing the lettering of my friend’s
name. “Born at...?”
“Villefranche.”
“Villefranche, Rhone. What date?”
“The fourteenth of October, 1859.”
“The fourteenth of October,
1859. Good. Died at Ahaggar, the fifth of
January, 1897.... There, that is done. A
thousand thanks, sir, for your kindness.”
“You are welcome.”
I left M. Le Mesge.
My mind, thenceforth, was well made
up; and, as I said, I was perfectly calm. Nevertheless,
when I had taken leave of M. Le Mesge, I felt the
need of waiting a few minutes before executing my decision.
First I wandered through the corridors;
then, finding myself near my room, I went to it.
It was still intolerably hot. I sat down on my
divan and began to think.
The dagger in my pocket bothered me.
I took it out and laid it on the floor.
It was a good dagger, with a diamond-shaped
blade, and with a collar of orange leather between
the blade and the handle.
The sight of it recalled the silver
hammer. I remembered how easily it fitted into
my hand when I struck....
Every detail of the scene came back
to me with incomparable vividness. But I did
not even shiver. It seemed as if my determination
to kill the instigator of the murder permitted me
peacefully to evoke its brutal details.
If I reflected over my deed, it was
to be surprised at it, not to condemn myself.
“Well,” I said to myself,
“I have killed this Morhange, who was once a
baby, who, like all the others, cost his mother so
much trouble with his baby sicknesses. I have
put an end to his life, I have reduced to nothingness
the monument of love, of tears, of trials overcome
and pitfalls escaped, which constitutes a human existence.
What an extraordinary adventure!”
That was all. No fear, no remorse,
none of that Shakespearean horror after the murder,
which, today, sceptic though I am and blase and utterly,
utterly disillusioned, sets me shuddering whenever
I am alone in a dark room.
“Come,” I thought. “It’s
time. Time to finish it up.”
I picked up the dagger. Before
putting it in my pocket, I went through the motion
of striking. All was well. The dagger fitted
into my hand.
I had been through Antinea’s
apartment only when guided, the first time by the
white Targa, the second time, by the leopard.
Yet I found the way again without trouble. Just
before coming to the door with the rose window, I
met a Targa.
“Let me pass,” I ordered.
“Your mistress has sent for me.” The
man obeyed, stepping back.
Soon a dim melody came to my ears.
I recognized the sound of a rebaza, the violin
with a single string, played by the Tuareg women.
It was Aguida playing, squatting as usual at the feet
of her mistress. The three other women were also
squatted about her. Tanit-Zerga was not there.
Oh! Since that was the last time
I saw her, let, oh, let me tell you of Antinea, how
she looked in that supreme moment.
Did she feel the danger hovering over
her and did she wish to brave it by her surest artifices?
I had in mind the slender; unadorned body, without
rings, without jewels, which I had pressed to my heart
the night before. And now I started in surprise
at seeing before me, adorned like an idol, not a woman,
but a queen!
The heavy splendor of the Pharaohs
weighted down her slender body. On her head was
the great gold pschent of Egyptian gods and
kings; emeralds, the national stone of the Tuareg,
were set in it, tracing and retracing her name in
Tifinar characters. A red satin schenti,
embroidered in golden lotus, enveloped her like the
casket of a jewel. At her feet, lay an ebony
scepter, headed with a trident. Her bare arms
were encircled by two serpents whose fangs touched
her armpits as if to bury themselves there. From
the ear pieces of the pschent streamed a necklace
of emeralds; its first strand passed under her determined
chin; the others lay in circles against her bare throat.
She smiled as I entered.
“I was expecting you,” she said simply.
I advanced till I was four steps from
the throne, then stopped before her.
She looked at me ironically.
“What is that?” she asked with perfect
calm.
I followed her gesture. The handle
of the dagger protruded from my pocket.
I drew it out and held it firmly in my hand, ready
to strike.
“The first of you who moves
will be sent naked six leagues into the red desert
and left there to die,” said Antinea coldly to
her women, whom my gesture had thrown into a frightened
murmuring.
She turned to me.
“That dagger is very ugly and
you hold it badly. Shall I send Sydya to my room
to get the silver hammer? You are more adroit
with it than with the dagger.”
“Antinea,” I said in a low voice, “I
am going to kill you.”
“Do not speak so formally.
You were more affectionate last night. Are you
embarrassed by them?” she said, pointing to the
women, whose eyes were wide with terror.
“Kill me?” she went on.
“You are hardly reasonable. Kill me at the
moment when you can reap the fruits of the murder of....”
“Did did he suffer?” I asked
suddenly, trembling.
“Very little. I told you
that you used the hammer as if you had done nothing
else all your life.”
“Like little Kaine,” I murmured.
She smiled in surprise.
“Oh, you know that story....
Yes, like little Kaine. But at least Kaine was
sensible. You ... I do not understand.”
“I do not understand myself, very well.”
She looked at me with amused curiosity.
“Antinea,” I said.
“What is it?”
“I did what you told me to.
May I in turn ask one favor, ask you one question?”
“What is it?”
“It was dark, was it not, in the room where
he was?”
“Very dark. I had to lead you to the bed
where he lay asleep.”
“He was asleep, you are sure?”
“I said so.”
“He did not die instantly, did he?”
“No. I know exactly when
he died; two minutes after you struck him and fled
with a shriek.”
“Then surely he could not have known?”
“Known what?”
“That it was I who who held the hammer.”
“He might not have known it, indeed,”
Antinea said. “But he did know.”
“How?”
“He did know ... because I told
him,” she said, staring at me with magnificent
audacity.
“And,” I murmured, “he he
believed it?”
“With the help of my explanation,
he recognized your shriek. If he had not realized
that you were his murderer, the affair would not have
interested me,” she finished with a scornful
little smile.
Four steps, I said, separated me from
Antinea. I sprang forward. But, before I
reached her, I was struck to the floor.
King Hiram had leapt at my throat.
At the same moment I heard the calm, haughty voice
of Antinea:
“Call the men,” she commanded.
A second later I was released from
the leopard’s clutch. The six white Tuareg
had surrounded me and were trying to bind me.
I am fairly strong and quick.
I was on my feet in a second. One of my enemies
lay on the floor, ten feet away, felled by a well-placed
blow on the jaw. Another was gasping under my
knee. That was the last time I saw Antinea.
She stood erect, both hands resting on her ebony scepter,
watching the struggle with a smile of contemptuous
interest.
Suddenly I gave a loud cry and loosed
the hold I had on my victim. A cracking in my
left arm: one of the Tuareg had seized it and
twisted until my shoulder was dislocated.
When I completely lost consciousness,
I was being carried down the corridor by two white
phantoms, so bound that I could not move a muscle.