In the days that followed I saw much
of the Chevalier de Saint-Eustache. He was a
very constant visitor at Lavedan, and the reason of
it was not far to seek. For my own part, I disliked
him I had done so from the moment when
first I had set eyes on him and since hatred,
like affection, is often a matter of reciprocity,
the Chevalier was not slow to return my dislike.
Our manner gradually, by almost imperceptible stages,
grew more distant, until by the end of a week it had
become so hostile that Lavedan found occasion to comment
upon it.
“Beware of Saint-Eustache,”
he warned me. “You are becoming very manifestly
distasteful to each other, and I would urge you to
have a care. I don’t trust him. His
attachment to our Cause is of a lukewarm character,
and he gives me uneasiness, for he may do much harm
if he is so inclined. It is on this account that
I tolerate his presence at Lavedan. Frankly,
I fear him, and I would counsel you to do no less.
The man is a liar, even if but a boastful liar and
liars are never long out of mischief.”
The wisdom of the words was unquestionable,
but the advice in them was not easily followed, particularly
by one whose position was so peculiar as my own.
In a way I had little cause to fear the harm the Chevalier
might do me, but I was impelled to consider the harm
that at the same time he might do the Vicomte.
Despite our growing enmity, the Chevalier
and I were very frequently thrown together. The
reason for this was, of course, that wherever Roxalanne
was to be found there, generally, were we both to be
found also. Yet had I advantages that must have
gone to swell a rancour based as much upon jealousy
as any other sentiment, for whilst he was but a daily
visitor at Lavedan, I was established there indefinitely.
Of the use that I made of that time
I find it difficult to speak. From the first
moment that I had beheld Roxalanne I had realized the
truth of Chatellerault’s assertion that I had
never known a woman. He was right. Those
that I had met and by whom I had judged the sex had,
by contrast with this child, little claim to the title.
Virtue I had accounted a shadow without substance;
innocence, a synonym for ignorance; love, a fable,
a fairy tale for the delectation of overgrown children.
In the company of Roxalanne de Lavedan
all those old, cynical beliefs, built up upon a youth
of undesirable experiences, were shattered and the
error of them exposed. Swiftly was I becoming
a convert to the faith which so long I had sneered
at, and as lovesick as any unfledged youth in his
first amour.
Damn! It was something for a
man who had lived as I had lived to have his pulses
quicken and his colour change at a maid’s approach;
to find himself colouring under her smile and paling
under her disdain; to have his mind running on rhymes,
and his soul so enslaved that, if she is not to be
won, chagrin will dislodge it from his body.
Here was a fine mood for a man who
had entered upon his business by pledging himself
to win and wed this girl in cold and supreme indifference
to her personality. And that pledge, how I cursed
it during those days at Lavedan! How I cursed
Chatellerault, cunning, subtle trickster that he was!
How I cursed myself for my lack of chivalry and honour
in having been lured so easily into so damnable a business!
For when the memory of that wager rose before me it
brought despair in its train. Had I found Roxalanne
the sort of woman that I had looked to find the
only sort that I had ever known then matters
had been easy. I had set myself in cold blood,
and by such wiles as I knew, to win such affection
as might be hers to bestow; and I would have married
her in much the same spirit as a man performs any
other of the necessary acts of his lifetime and station.
I would have told her that I was Bardelys, and to
the woman that I had expected to find there had been
no difficulty in making the confession. But to
Roxalanne! Had there been no wager, I might have
confessed my identity. As it was, I found it
impossible to avow the one without the other.
For the sweet innocence that invested her gentle,
trusting soul must have given pause to any but the
most abandoned of men before committing a vileness
in connection with her.
We were much together during that
week, and just as day by day, hour by hour, my passion
grew and grew until it absorbed me utterly, so, too,
did it seem to me that it awakened in her a responsive
note. There was an odd light at times in her
soft eyes; I came upon her more than once with snatches
of love-songs on her lips, and when she smiled upon
me there was a sweet tenderness in her smile, which,
had things been different, would have gladdened my
soul beyond all else; but which, things being as they
were, was rather wont to heighten my despair.
I was no coxcomb; I had had experiences, and I knew
these signs. But something, too, I guessed of
the heart of such a one as Roxalanne. To the
full I realized the pain and shame I should inflict
upon her when my confession came; I realized, too,
how the love of this dear child, so honourable and
high of mind, must turn to contempt and scorn when
I plucked away my mask, and let her see how poor a
countenance I wore beneath.
And yet I drifted with the tide of
things. It was my habit so to drift, and the
habit of a lifetime is not to be set at naught in a
day by a resolve, however firm. A score of times
was I reminded that an evil is but increased by being
ignored. A score of times confession trembled
on my lips, and I burned to tell her everything from
its inception the environment that had
erstwhile warped me, the honesty by which I was now
inspired and so cast myself upon the mercy
of her belief.
She might accept my story, and, attaching
credit to it, forgive me the deception I had practised,
and recognize the great truth that must ring out in
the avowal of my love. But, on the other hand,
she might not accept it; she might deem my confession
a shrewd part of my scheme, and the dread of that
kept me silent day by day.
Fully did I see how with every hour
that sped confession became more and more difficult.
The sooner the thing were done, the greater the likelihood
of my being believed; the later I left it, the more
probable was it that I should be discredited.
Alas! Bardelys, it seemed, had added cowardice
to his other short-comings.
As for the coldness of Roxalanne,
that was a pretty fable of Chatellerault’s;
or else no more than an assumption, an invention of
the imaginative La Fosse. Far, indeed, from it,
I found no arrogance or coldness in her. All
unversed in the artifices of her sex, all unacquainted
with the wiles of coquetry, she was the very incarnation
of naturalness and maidenly simplicity. To the
tales that with many expurgations I
told her of Court life, to the pictures that I drew
of Paris, the Luxembourg, the Louvre, the Palais Cardinal,
and the courtiers that thronged those historic palaces,
she listened avidly and enthralled; and much as Othello
won the heart of Desdemona by a recital of the perils
he had endured, so it seemed to me was I winning the
heart of Roxalanne by telling her of the things that
I had seen.
Once or twice she expressed wonder
at the depth and intimacy of the knowledge of such
matters exhibited by a simple Gascon gentleman, whereupon
I would urge, in explanation, the appointment in the
Guards that Lesperon had held some few years ago,
a position that will reveal much to an observant man.
The Vicomte noted our growing intimacy,
yet set no restraint upon it. Down in his heart
I believe that noble gentleman would have been well
pleased had matters gone to extremes between us, for
however impoverished he might deem me; Lesperon’s
estates in Gascony being, as I have said, likely to
suffer sequestration in view of his treason he
remembered the causes of this and the deep devotion
of the man I impersonated to the affairs of Gaston
d’Orléans.
Again, he feared the very obvious
courtship of the Chevalier de Saint-Eustache, and
he would have welcomed a turn of events that would
effectually have frustrated it. That he did not
himself interfere so far as the Chevalier’s
wooing was concerned, I could but set down to the
mistrust of Saint-Eustache amounting almost
to fear of which he had spoken.
As for the Vicomtesse, the same
causes that had won me some of the daughter’s
regard gained me also no little of the mother’s.
She had been attached to the Chevalier
until my coming. But what did the Chevalier know
of the great world compared with what I could tell?
Her love of scandal drew her to me with inquiries
upon this person and that person, many of them but
names to her.
My knowledge and wealth of detail for
all that I curbed it lest I should seem to know too
much delighted her prurient soul. Had
she been more motherly, this same knowledge that I
exhibited should have made her ponder what manner
of life I had led, and should have inspired her to
account me no fit companion for her daughter.
But a selfish woman, little inclined to be plagued
by the concerns of another even when that
other was her daughter she left things to
the destructive course that they were shaping.
And so everything if we
except perhaps the Chevalier de Saint-Eustache conspired
to the advancement of my suit, in a manner that must
have made Chatellerault grind his teeth in rage if
he could have witnessed it, but which made me grind
mine in despair when I pondered the situation in detail.
One evening I had been
ten days at the chateau we went a half-league
or so up the Garonne in a boat, she and I. As we were
returning, drifting with the stream, the oars idle
in my hand, I spoke of leaving Lavedan.
She looked up quickly; her expression
was almost of alarm, and her eyes dilated as they
met mine for, as I have said, she was all
unversed in the ways of her sex, and by nature too
guileless to attempt to disguise her feelings or dissemble
them.
“But why must you go so soon?”
she asked. “You are safe at Lavedan, and
abroad you may be in danger. It was but two days
ago that they took a poor young gentleman of these
parts at Pau; so that you see the persecution is not
yet ended. Are you” and her voice
trembled ever so slightly “are you
weary of us, monsieur?”
I shook my head at that, and smiled wistfully.
“Weary?” I echoed.
“Surely, mademoiselle, you do not think it?
Surely your heart must tell you something very different?”
She dropped her eyes before the passion
of my gaze. And when presently she answered me,
there was no guile in her words; there were the dictates
of the intuitions of her sex, and nothing more.
“But it is possible, monsieur.
You are accustomed to the great world ”
“The great world of Lesperon, in Gascony?”
I interrupted.
“No, no; the great world you
have inhabited at Paris and elsewhere. I can
understand that at Lavedan you should find little of
interest, and and that your inactivity
should render you impatient to be gone.”
“If there were so little to
interest me then it might be as you say. But,
oh, mademoiselle ” I ceased abruptly.
Fool! I had almost fallen a prey to the seductions
that the time afforded me. The balmy, languorous
eventide, the broad, smooth river down which we glided,
the foliage, the shadows on the water, her presence,
and our isolation amid such surroundings, had almost
blotted out the matter of the wager and of my duplicity.
She laughed a little nervous laugh,
and maybe to ease the tension that my sudden
silence had begotten “You see,”
she said, “how your imagination deserts you
when you seek to draw upon it for proof of what you
protest. You were about to tell me of of
the interests that hold you at Lavedan, and when you
come to ponder them, you find that you can think of
nothing. Is it is it not so?”
She put the question very timidly, as if half afraid
of the answer she might provoke.
“No; it is not so,” I said.
I paused a moment, and in that moment
I wrestled with myself. Confession and avowal confession
of what I had undertaken, and avowal of the love that
had so unexpectedly come to me trembled
upon my lips, to be driven shuddering away in fear.
Have I not said that this Bardelys
was become a coward? Then my cowardice suggested
a course to me flight. I would leave
Lavedan. I would return to Paris and to Chatellerault,
owning defeat and paying my wager. It was the
only course open to me. My honour, so tardily
aroused, demanded no less. Yet, not so much because
of that as because it was suddenly revealed to me
as the easier course, did I determine to pursue it.
What thereafter might become of me I did not know,
nor in that hour of my heart’s agony did it
seem to matter overmuch.
“There is much, mademoiselle,
much, indeed, to hold me firmly at Lavedan,”
I pursued at last. “But my my
obligations demand of me that I depart.”
“You mean the Cause,”
she cried. “But, believe me, you can do
nothing. To sacrifice yourself cannot profit
it. Infinitely better you can serve the Duke
by waiting until the time is ripe for another blow.
And how can you better preserve your life than by
remaining at Lavedan until the persécutions are
at an end?”
“I was not thinking of the Cause,
mademoiselle, but of myself alone of my
own personal honour. I would that I could explain;
but I am afraid,” I ended lamely.
“Afraid?” she echoed, now raising her
eyes in wonder.
“Aye, afraid. Afraid of your contempt,
of your scorn.”
The wonder in her glance increased
and asked a question that I could not answer.
I stretched forward, and caught one of the hands lying
idle in her lap.
“Roxalanne,” I murmured
very gently, and my tone, my touch, and the use of
her name drove her eyes for refuge behind their lids
again. A flush spread upon the ivory pallor of
her face, to fade as swiftly, leaving it very white.
Her bosom rose and fell in agitation, and the little
hand I held trembled in my grasp. There was a
moment’s silence. Not that I had need to
think or choose my words. But there was a lump
in my throat aye, I take no shame in confessing
it, for this was the first time that a good and true
emotion had been vouchsafed me since the Duchesse
de Bourgogne had shattered my illusions ten years ago.
“Roxalanne,” I resumed
presently, when I was more master of myself, “we
have been good friends, you and I, since that night
when I climbed for shelter to your chamber, have we
not?”
“But yes, monsieur,” she faltered.
“Ten days ago it is. Think
of it no more than ten days. And it
seems as if I had been months at Lavedan, so well
have we become acquainted. In these ten days
we have formed opinions of each other. But with
this difference, that whilst mine are right, yours
are wrong. I have come to know you for the sweetest,
gentlest saint in all this world. Would to God
I had known you earlier! It might have been very
different; I might have been I would have
been different, and I would not have done
what I have done. You have come to know me for
an unfortunate but honest gentleman. Such am
I not. I am under false colours here, mademoiselle.
Unfortunate I may be at least, of late I
seem to have become so. Honest I am not I
have not been. There, child, I can tell you no
more. I am too great a coward. But when
later you shall come to hear the truth when,
after I am gone, they may tell you a strange story
touching this fellow Lesperon who sought the hospitality
of your father’s house bethink you
of my restraint in this hour; bethink you of my departure.
You will understand these things perhaps afterwards.
But bethink you of them, and you will unriddle them
for yourself, perhaps. Be merciful upon me then;
judge me not over-harshly.”
I paused, and for a moment we were
silent. Then suddenly she looked up; her fingers
tightened upon mine.
“Monsieur de Lesperon,”
she pleaded, “of what do speak? You are
torturing me, monsieur.”
“Look in my face, Roxalanne.
Can you see nothing there of how I am torturing myself?”
“Then tell me, monsieur,”
she begged, her voice a very caress of suppliant softness, “tell
me what vexes you and sets a curb upon your tongue.
You exaggerate, I am assured. You could do nothing
dishonourable, nothing vile.”
“Child,” I cried, “I
thank God that you are right! I cannot do what
is dishonourable, and I will not, for all that a month
ago I pledged myself to do it!”
A sudden horror, a doubt, a suspicion
flashed into her glance.
“You you do not mean
that you are a spy?” she asked; and from my heart
a prayer of thanks went up to Heaven that this at least
it was mine frankly to deny.
“No, no not that. I am no spy.”
Her face cleared again, and she sighed.
“It is, I think, the only thing
I could not forgive. Since it is not that, will
you not tell me what it is?”
For a moment the temptation to confess,
to tell her everything, was again upon me. But
the futility of it appalled me.
“Don’t ask me,”
I besought her; “you will learn it soon enough.”
For I was confident that once my wager was paid, the
news of it and of the ruin of Bardelys would spread
across the face of France like a ripple over water.
Presently
“Forgive me for having come
into your life, Roxalanne!” I implored her,
and then I sighed again. “Helas! Had
I but known you earlier! I did not dream such
women lived in this worn-out France.”
“I will not pry, monsieur, since
your resolve appears to be so firm. But if if
after I have heard this thing you speak of,”
she said presently, speaking with averted eyes, “and
if, having heard it, I judge you more mercifully than
you judge yourself, and I send for you, will you will
you come back to Lavedan?”
My heart gave a great bound a
great, a sudden throb of hope. But as sudden
and as great was the rebound into despair.
“You will not send for me, be
assured of that,” I said with finality; and
we spoke no more.
I took the oars and plied them vigorously.
I was in haste to end the situation. Tomorrow
I must think of my departure, and, as I rowed, I pondered
the words that had passed between us. Not one
word of love had there been, and yet, in the very
omission of it, avowal had lain on either side.
A strange wooing had been mine a wooing
that precluded the possibility of winning, and yet
a wooing that had won. Aye, it had won; but it
might not take. I made fine distinctions and quaint
paradoxes as I tugged at my oars, for the human mind
is a curiously complex thing, and with some of us
there is no such spur to humour as the sting of pain.
Roxalanne sat white and very thoughtful,
but with veiled eyes, so that I might guess nothing
of what passed within her mind.
At last we reached the chateau, and
as I brought the boat to the terrace steps, it was
Saint-Eustache who came forward to offer his wrist
to Mademoiselle.
He noted the pallor of her face, and
darted me a quick, suspicion-laden glance. As
we were walking towards the chateau
“Monsieur de Lesperon,”
said he in a curious tone, “do you know that
a rumour of your death is current in the province?”
“I had hoped that such a rumour
might get abroad when I disappeared,” I answered
calmly.
“And you have taken no single step to contradict
it?”
“Why should I, since in that rumour may be said
to lie my safety?”
“Nevertheless, monsieur, voyons.
Surely you might at least relieve the anxieties the
affliction, I might almost say of those
who are mourning you.”
“Ah!” said I. “And who may
these be?”
He shrugged his shoulders and pursed
his lips in a curiously deprecatory smile. With
a sidelong glance at Mademoiselle
“Do you need that I name Mademoiselle de Marsac?”
he sneered.
I stood still, my wits busily working,
my face impassive under his scrutinizing glance.
In a flash it came to me that this must be the writer
of some of the letters Lesperon had given me, the original
of the miniature I carried.
As I was silent, I grew suddenly conscious
of another pair of eyes observing me, Mademoiselle’s.
She remembered what I had said, she may have remembered
how I had cried out the wish that I had met her earlier,
and she may not have been slow to find an interpretation
for my words. I could have groaned in my rage
at such a misinterpretation. I could have taken
the Chevalier round to the other side of the chateau
and killed him with the greatest relish in the world.
But I restrained myself, I resigned myself to be misunderstood.
What choice had I?
“Monsieur de Saint-Eustache,”
said I very coldly, and looking him straight between
his close-set eyes, “I have permitted you many
liberties, but there is one that I cannot permit any
one and, much as I honour you, I can make
no exception in your favour. That is to interfere
in my concerns and presume to dictate to me the manner
in which I shall conduct them. Be good enough
to bear that in your memory.”
In a moment he was all servility.
The sneer passed out of his face, the arrogance out
of his demeanour. He became as full of smiles
and capers as the meanest sycophant.
“You will forgive me, monsieur!”
he cried, spreading his hands, and with the humblest
smile in the world. “I perceive that I have
taken a great liberty; yet you have misunderstood
its purport. I sought to sound you touching the
wisdom of a step upon which I have ventured.”
“That is, monsieur?” I
asked, throwing back my head, with the scent of danger
breast high.
“I took it upon myself to-day
to mention the fact that you are alive and well to
one who had a right, I thought, to know of it, and
who is coming hither tomorrow.”
“That was a presumption you
may regret,” said I between my teeth. “To
whom do you impart this information?”
“To your friend, Monsieur de
Marsac,” he answered, and through his mask of
humility the sneer was again growing apparent.
“He will be here tomorrow,” he repeated.
Marsac was that friend of Lesperon’s
to whose warm commendation of the Gascon rebel I owed
the courtesy and kindness that the Vicomte de Lavedan
had meted out to me since my coming.
Is it wonderful that I stood as if
frozen, my wits refusing to work and my countenance
wearing, I doubt not, a very stricken look? Here
was one coming to Lavedan who knew Lesperon one
who would unmask me and say that I was an impostor.
What would happen then? A spy they would of a
certainty account me, and that they would make short
work of me I never doubted. But that was something
that troubled me less than the opinion Mademoiselle
must form. How would she interpret what I had
said that day? In what light would she view me
hereafter?
Such questions sped like swift arrows
through my mind, and in their train came a dull anger
with myself that I had not told her everything that
afternoon. It was too late now. The confession
would come no longer of my own free will, as it might
have done an hour ago, but would be forced from me
by the circumstances that impended. Thus it would
no longer have any virtue to recommend it to her mercy.
“The news seems hardly welcome,
Monsieur de Lesperon,” said Roxalanne in a voice
that was inscrutable. Her tone stirred me, for
it betokened suspicion already. Something might
yet chance to aid me, and in the mean while I might
spoil all did I yield to this dread of the morrow.
By an effort I mastered myself, and in tones calm
and level, that betrayed nothing of the tempest in
my soul
“It is not welcome, mademoiselle,”
I answered. “I have excellent reasons for
not desiring to meet Monsieur de Marsac.”
“Excellent, indeed, are they!”
lisped Saint-Eustache, with an ugly droop at the corners
of his mouth. “I doubt not you’ll
find it hard to offer a plausible reason for having
left him and his sister without news that you were
alive.”
“Monsieur,” said I at
random, “why will you drag in his sister’s
name?”
“Why?” he echoed, and
he eyed me with undisguised amusement. He was
standing erect, his head thrown back, his right arm
outstretched from the shoulder, and his hand resting
lightly upon the gold mount of his beribboned cane.
He let his eyes wander from me to Roxalanne, then back
again to me. At last: “Is it wonderful
that I should drag in the name of your betrothed?”
said he. “But perhaps you will deny that
Mademoiselle de Marsac is that to you?” he suggested.
And I, forgetting for the moment the
part I played and the man whose identity I had put
on, made answer hotly: “I do deny it.”
“Why, then, you lie,”
said he, and shrugged hits shoulders with insolent
contempt.
In all my life I do not think it could
be said of me that I had ever given way to rage.
Rude, untutored minds may fall a prey to passion,
but a gentleman, I hold, is never angry. Nor was
I then, so far as the outward signs of anger count.
I doffed my hat with a sweep to Roxalanne, who stood
by with fear and wonder blending in her glance.
“Mademoiselle, you will forgive
that I find it necessary to birch this babbling schoolboy
in your presence.”
Then, with the pleasantest manner
in the world, I stepped aside, and plucked the cane
from the Chevalier’s hand before he had so much
as guessed what I was about. I bowed before him
with the utmost politeness, as if craving his leave
and tolerance for what I was about to do, and then,
before he had recovered from his astonishment, I had
laid that cane three times in quick succession across
his shoulders. With a cry at once of pain and
of mortification, he sprang back, and his hand dropped
to his hilt.
“Monsieur,” Roxalanne
cried to him, “do you not see that he is unarmed?”
But he saw nothing, or, if he saw,
thanked Heaven that things were in such case, and
got his sword out. Thereupon Roxalanne would have
stepped between us, but with arm outstretched I restrained
her.
“Have no fear, mademoiselle,”
said I very quietly; for if the wrist that had overcome
La Vertoile were not with a stick a match for a couple
of such swords as this coxcomb’s, then was I
forever shamed.
He bore down upon me furiously, his
point coming straight for my throat. I took the
blade on the cane; then, as he disengaged and came
at me lower, I made counter-parry, and pursuing the
circle after I had caught his steel, I carried it
out of his hand. It whirled an instant, a shimmering
wheel of light, then it clattered against the marble
balustrade half a dozen yards away. With his sword
it seemed that his courage, too, departed, and he
stood at my mercy, a curious picture of foolishness,
surprise, and fear.
Now the Chevalier de Saint-Eustache
was a young man, and in the young we can forgive much.
But to forgive such an act as he had been guilty of that
of drawing his sword upon a man who carried no weapons would
have been not only a ridiculous toleration, but an
utter neglect of duty. As an older man it behoved
me to read the Chevalier a lesson in manners and gentlemanly
feeling. So, quite dispassionately, and purely
for his own future good, I went about the task, and
administered him a thrashing that for thoroughness
it would be hard to better. I was not discriminating.
I brought my cane down with a rhythmical precision,
and whether it took him on the head, the back, or
the shoulders, I held to be more his affair than mine.
I had a moral to inculcate, and the injuries he might
receive in the course of it were inconsiderable details
so that the lesson was borne in upon his soul.
Two or three times he sought to close with me, but
I eluded him; I had no mind to descend to a vulgar
exchange of blows. My object was not to brawl,
but to administer chastisement, and this object I may
claim to have accomplished with a fair degree of success.
At last Roxalanne interfered; but
only when one blow a little more violent, perhaps,
than its precursors resulted in the sudden snapping
of the cane and Monsieur de Eustache’s
utter collapse into a moaning heap.
“I deplore, mademoiselle, to
have offended your sight with such a spectacle, but
unless these lessons are administered upon the instant
their effect is not half so salutary.”
“He deserved it, monsieur,”
said she, with a note almost of fierceness in her
voice. And of such poor mettle are we that her
resentment against that groaning mass of fopperies
and wheals sent a thrill of pleasure through me.
I walked over to the spot where his sword had fallen,
and picked it up.
“Monsieur de Saint-Eustache,”
said I, “you have so dishonoured this blade
that I do not think you would care to wear it again.”
Saying which, I snapped it across my knee, and flung
it far out into the river, for all that the hilt was
a costly one, richly wrought in bronze and gold.
He raised his livid countenance, and
his eyes blazed impotent fury.
“Par la mort Dieu!” he
cried hoarsely, “you shall give me satisfaction
for this!”
“If you account yourself still
unsatisfied, I am at your service when you will,”
said I courteously.
Then, before more could be said, I
saw Monsieur de Lavedan and the Vicomtesse approaching
hurriedly across the parterre. The Vicomte’s
brow was black with what might have appeared anger,
but which I rightly construed into apprehension.
“What has taken place?
What have you done?” he asked of me.
“He has brutally assaulted the
Chevalier,” cried Madame shrilly, her eyes malevolently
set upon me. “He is only a child, this poor
Saint-Eustache,” she reproached me. “I
saw it all from my window, Monsieur de Lesperon.
It was brutal; it was cowardly. So to beat a boy!
Shame! If you had a quarrel with him, are there
not prescribed methods for their adjustment between
gentlemen? Pardieu, could you not have given
him proper satisfaction?”
“If madame will give
herself the trouble of attentively examining this
poor Saint-Eustache,” said I, with a sarcasm
which her virulence prompted, “you will agree,
I think, that I have given him very proper and very
thorough satisfaction. I would have met him sword
in hand, but the Chevalier has the fault of the very
young he is precipitate; he was in too
great a haste, and he could not wait until I got a
sword. So I was forced to do what I could with
a cane.”
“But you provoked him,” she flashed back.
“Whoever told you so has misinformed
you, madame. On the contrary, he provoked
me. He gave me the lie. I struck him could
I do less? and he drew. I defended
myself, and I supplemented my defence by a caning,
so that this poor Saint-Eustache might realize the
unworthiness of what he had done. That is all,
madame.”
But she was not so easily to be appeased,
not even when Mademoiselle and the Vicomte joined
their voices to mine in extenuation of my conduct.
It was like Lavedan. For all that he was full
of dread of the result and of the vengeance Saint-Eustache
might wreak boy though he was he
expressed himself freely touching the Chevalier’s
behaviour and the fittingness of the punishment that
had overtaken him.
The Vicomtesse stood in small
awe of her husband, but his judgment upon a point
of honour was a matter that she would not dare contest.
She was ministering to the still prostrate Chevalier
who, I think, remained prostrate now that he might
continue to make appeal to her sympathy when
suddenly she cut in upon Roxalanne’s defence
of me.
“Where have you been?” she demanded suddenly.
“When, my mother?”
“This afternoon,” answered
the Vicomtesse impatiently. “The Chevalier
was waiting two hours for you.”
Roxalanne coloured to the roots of her hair.
The Vicomte frowned.
“Waiting for me, my mother? But why for
me?”
“Answer my question where have you
been?”
“I was with Monsieur de Lesperon,” she
answered simply.
“Alone?” the Vicomtesse almost shrieked.
“But yes.” The poor
child’s tones were laden with wonder at this
catechism.
“God’s death!” she
snapped. “It seems that my daughter is no
better than ”
Heaven knows what may have been coming,
for she had the most virulent, scandalous tongue that
I have ever known in a woman’s head which
is much for one who has lived at Court to say.
But the Vicomte, sharing my fears, perhaps, and wishing
to spare the child’s ears, interposed quickly
“Come, madame, what airs are these?
What sudden assumption of graces that we do not affect?
We are not in Paris. This is not the Luxembourg.
En province comme en province,
and here we are simple folk ”
“Simple folk?” she interrupted,
gasping. “By God, am I married to a ploughman?
Am I Vicomtesse of Lavedan, or the wife of a boor
of the countryside? And is the honour of your
daughter a matter ”
“The honour of my daughter is
not in question, madame,” he interrupted
in his turn, and with a sudden sternness that spent
the fire of her indignation as a spark that is trampled
underfoot. Then, in a calm, level voice:
“Ah, here are the servants,” said he.
“Permit them, madame, to
take charge of Monsieur de Saint-Eustache. Anatole,
you had better order the carriage for Monsieur lé
Chevalier. I do not think that he will be able
to ride home.”
Anatole peered at the pale young gentleman
on the ground, then he turned his little wizened face
upon me, and grinned in a singularly solemn fashion.
Monsieur de Saint-Eustache was little loved, it seemed.
Leaning heavily upon the arm of one
of the lacqueys, the Chevalier moved painfully towards
the courtyard, where the carriage was being prepared
for him. At the last moment he turned and beckoned
the Vicomte to his side.
“As God lives, Monsieur de Lavedan,”
he swore, breathing heavily in the fury that beset
him, “you shall bitterly regret having taken
sides to-day with that Gascon bully. Remember
me, both of you, when you are journeying to Toulouse.”
The Vicomte stood beside him, impassive
and unmoved by that grim threat, for all that to him
it must have sounded like a death-sentence.
“Adieu, monsieur a
speedy recovery,” was all he answered.
But I stepped up to them. “Do
you not think, Vicomte, that it were better to detain
him?” I asked.
“Pshaw!” he ejaculated. “Let
him go.”
The Chevalier’s eyes met mine
in a look of terror. Perhaps already that young
man repented him of his menace, and he realized the
folly of threatening one in whose power he still chanced
to be.
“Bethink you, monsieur,”
I cried. “Yours is a noble and useful life.
Mine is not without value, either. Shall we suffer
these lives aye, and the happiness of your
wife and daughter to be destroyed by this
vermin?”
“Let him go, monsieur; let him go. I am
not afraid.”
I bowed and stepped back, motioning
to the lacquey to take the fellow away, much as I
should have motioned him to remove some uncleanness
from before me.
The Vicomtesse withdrew in high
dudgeon to her chamber, and I did not see her again
that evening. Mademoiselle I saw once, for a moment,
and she employed that moment to question me touching
the origin of my quarrel with Saint-Eustache.
“Did he really lie, Monsieur de Lesperon?”
she asked.
“Upon my honour, mademoiselle,”
I answered solemnly, “I have plighted my troth
to no living woman.” Then my chin sank to
my breast as I bethought me of how tomorrow she must
opine me the vilest liar living for I was
resolved to be gone before Marsac arrived since
the real Lesperon I did not doubt was, indeed, betrothed
to Mademoiselle de Marsac.
“I shall leave Lavedan betimes
to-morrow, mademoiselle,” I pursued presently.
“What has happened to-day makes my departure
all the more urgent. Delay may have its dangers.
You will hear strange things of me, as already I have
warned you. But be merciful. Much will be
true, much false; yet the truth itself is very vile,
and ” I stopped short, in despair
of explaining or even tempering what had to come.
I shrugged my shoulders in my abandonment of hope,
and I turned towards the window. She crossed
the room and came to stand beside me.
“Will you not tell me?
Have you no faith in me? Ah, Monsieur de Lesperon ”
“’Sh! child, I cannot. It is
too late to tell you now.”
“Oh, not too late! From
what you say they will tell me, I should think, perhaps,
worse of you than you deserve. What is this thing
you hide? What is this mystery? Tell me,
monsieur. Tell me.”
Did ever woman more plainly tell a
man she loved him, and that loving him she would find
all excuses for him? Was ever woman in better
case to hear a confession from the man that loved
her, and of whose love she was assured by every instinct
that her sex possesses in such matters? Those
two questions leapt into my mind, and in resolving
them I all but determined to speak even now in the
eleventh hour.
And then I know not how a
fresh barrier seemed to arise. It was not merely
a matter of telling her of the wager I was embarked
upon; not merely a matter of telling her of the duplicity
that I had practised, of the impostures by which
I had gained admittance to her father’s confidence
and trust; not merely a matter of confessing that I
was not Lesperon. There would still be the necessity
of saying who I was. Even if she forgave all
else, could she forgive me for being Bardelys the
notorious Bardelys, the libertine, the rake, some of
whose exploits she had heard of from her mother, painted
a hundred times blacker than they really were?
Might she not shrink from me when I told her I was
that man? In her pure innocence she deemed, no
doubt, that the life of every man who accounted himself
a gentleman was moderately clean. She would not
see in me as did her mother no
more than a type of the best class in France, and
having no more than the vices of my order. As
a monster of profligacy might she behold me, and that ah,
Dieu! I could not endure that she should
do whilst I was by.
It may be indeed, now,
as I look back, I know that I exaggerated my case.
I imagined she would see it as I saw it then.
For would you credit it? With this great love
that was now come to me, it seemed the ideals of my
boyhood were returned, and I abhorred the man that
I had been. The life I had led now filled me
with disgust and loathing; the notions I had formed
seemed to me now all vicious and distorted, my cynicism
shallow and unjust.
“Monsieur de Lesperon,”
she called softly to me, noting my silence.
I turned to her. I set my hand
lightly upon her arm; I let my gaze encounter the
upward glance of her eyes blue as forget-me-nots.
“You suffer!” she murmured, with sweet
compassion.
“Worse, Roxalanne! I have
sown in your heart too the seed of suffering.
Oh, I am too unworthy!” I cried out; “and
when you come to discover how unworthy it will hurt
you; it will sting your pride to think how kind you
were to me.” She smiled incredulously, in
denial of my words. “No, child; I cannot
tell you.”
She sighed, and then before more could
be said there was a sound at the door, and we started
away from each other. The Vicomte entered, and
my last chance of confessing, of perhaps averting
much of what followed, was lost to me.