During the war with Spain, Colton
Lee came into the service as a volunteer. For
a young man, he always had taken life almost too seriously,
and when, after the campaign in Cuba, he elected to
make soldiering his profession, the seriousness with
which he attacked his new work surprised no one.
Finding they had lost him forever, his former intimates
were bored, but his colonel was enthusiastic, and the
men of his troop not only loved, but respected him.
From the start he determined in his
new life women should have no part a determination
that puzzled no one so much as the women, for to Lee
no woman, old or young, had found cause to be unfriendly.
But he had read that the army is a jealous mistress
who brooks no rival, that “red lips tarnish
the scabbard steel,” that “he travels the
fastest who travels alone.”
So, when white hands beckoned and
pretty eyes signalled, he did not look. For
five years, until just before he sailed for his three
years of duty in the Philippines, he succeeded not
only in not looking, but in building up for himself
such a fine reputation as a woman-hater that all women
were crazy about him. Had he not been ordered
to Agawamsett that fact would not have affected him.
But at the Officers’ School he had indulged
in hard study rather than in hard riding, had overworked,
had brought back his Cuban fever, and was in poor shape
to face the tropics. So, for two months before
the transport was to sail, they ordered him to Cape
Cod to fill his lungs with the bracing air of a New
England autumn.
He selected Agawamsett, because, when
at Harvard, it was there he had spent his summer vacations,
and he knew he would find sailboats and tennis and,
through the pine woods back of the little whaling village,
many miles of untravelled roads. He promised
himself that over these he would gallop an imaginary
troop in route marches, would manoeuvre it against
possible ambush, and, in combat patrols, ground scouts,
and cossack outposts, charge with it “as foragers.”
But he did none of these things. For at Agawamsett
he met Frances Gardner, and his experience with her
was so disastrous that, in his determination to avoid
all women, he was convinced he was right.
When later he reached Manila he vowed
no other woman would ever again find a place in his
thoughts. No other woman did. Not because
he had the strength to keep his vow, but because he
so continually thought of Frances Gardner that no
other woman had a chance.
Miss Gardner was a remarkable girl.
Her charm appealed to all kinds of men, and, unfortunately
for Lee, several kinds of men appealed to her.
Her fortune and her relations were bound up in the
person of a rich aunt with whom she lived, and who,
it was understood, some day would leave her all the
money in the world. But, in spite of her charm,
certainly in spite of the rich aunt, Lee, true to his
determination, might not have noticed the girl had
not she ridden so extremely well.
It was to the captain of cavalry she
first appealed. But even a cavalry captain,
whose duty in life is to instruct sixty men in the
art of taking the life of as many other men as possible,
may turn his head in the direction of a good-looking
girl. And when for weeks a man rides at the
side of one through pine forests as dim and mysterious
as the aisles of a great cathedral, when he guides
her across the wet marshes when the sun is setting
crimson in the pools and the wind blows salt from
the sea, when he loses them both by moonlight in wood-roads
where the hoofs of the horses sink silently into dusty
pine needles, he thinks more frequently of the girl
at his side than of the faithful troopers waiting
for him in San Francisco. The girl at his side
thought frequently of him.
With the “surface indications”
of a young man about to ask her to marry him she was
painfully familiar; but this time the possibility was
the reverse of painful. What she meant to do
about it she did not know, but she did know that she
was strangely happy. Between living on as the
dependent of a somewhat exacting relative and becoming
the full partner of this young stranger, who with
men had proved himself so masterful, and who with
her was so gentle, there seemed but little choice.
But she did not as yet wish to make the choice.
She preferred to believe she was not certain.
She assured him that before his leave of absence
was over she would tell him whether she would remain
on duty with the querulous aunt, who had befriended
her, or as his wife accompany him to the Philippines.
It was not the answer he wanted; but
in her happiness, which was evident to every one,
he could not help but take hope. And in the
questions she put to him of life in the tropics, of
the life of the “officers’ ladies,”
he saw that what was in her mind was a possible life
with him, and he was content.
She became to him a wonderful, glorious
person, and each day she grew in loveliness.
It had been five years of soldiering in Cuba, China,
and on the Mexican border since he had talked to a
woman with interest, and now in all she said, in all
her thoughts and words and delights, he found fresher
and stronger reasons for discarding his determination
to remain wedded only to the United States Army.
He did not need reasons. He was far too much
in love to see in any word or act of hers anything
that was not fine and beautiful.
In their rides they had one day stumbled
upon a long-lost and long-forgotten road through the
woods, which she had claimed as their own by right
of discovery, and, no matter to what point they set
forth each day, they always returned by it.
Their way through the woods stretched for miles.
It was concealed in a forest of stunted oaks and
black pines, with no sign of human habitation, save
here and there a clearing now long neglected and alive
only with goldenrod. Trunks of trees, moss-grown
and crumbling beneath the touch of the ponies’
hoofs, lay in their path, and above it the branches
of a younger generation had clasped hands. At
their approach squirrels raced for shelter, woodcock
and partridge shot deeper into the network of vines
and saplings, and the click of the steel as the ponies
tossed their bits, and their own whispers, alone disturbed
the silence.
“It is an enchanted road,”
said the girl; “or maybe we are enchanted.”
“Not I,” cried the young
man loyally. “I was never so sane, never
so sure, never so happy in knowing just what I wanted!
If only you could be as sure!”
One day she came to him in high excitement
with a book of verse. “He has written a
poem,” she cried, “about our own woods,
about our lost road! Listen” she commanded,
and she read to him:
“’They shut the road through
the woods Seventy years ago. Weather and rain
have undone it again, And now you would never know
There was once a road through the woods Before they
planted the trees. It is underneath the coppice
and heath, And the thin anémones. Only the
keeper sees That, where the ringdove broods, And the
badgers roll at ease, There was once a road through
the woods.
“’Yet, if you enter the
woods Of a summer evening late, When the night air
cools on the trout-ringed pools Where the otter whistles
his mate (They fear not men in the woods Because they
see so few), You will hear the beat of a horse’s
feet, And the swish of a skirt in the dew, Steadily
cantering through The misty solitudes, As though they
perfectly knew The old lost road through the woods....
But there is no road through the woods.’”
“I don’t like that at
all,” cried the soldierman. “It’s
too too sad it doesn’t
give you any encouragement. The way it ends,
I mean: ‘But there is no road through the
woods.’ Of course there’s a road!
For us there always will be. I’m going
to make sure. I’m going to buy those woods,
and keep the lost road where we can always find it.”
“I don’t think,”
said the girl, “that he means a real road.”
“I know what he means,”
cried the lover, “and he’s wrong!
There is a road, and you and I have found it, and
we are going to follow it for always.”
The girl shook her head, but her eyes
were smiling happily.
The “season” at Agawamsett
closed with the tennis tournament, and it was generally
conceded fit and proper, from every point of view,
that in mixed doubles Lee and Miss Gardner should
be partners. Young Stedman, the Boston artist,
was the only one who made objection. Up in the
sail-loft that he had turned into a studio he was painting
a portrait of the lovely Miss Gardner, and he protested
that the three days’ tournament would sadly
interrupt his work. And Frances, who was very
much interested in the portrait, was inclined to agree.
But Lee beat down her objections.
He was not at all interested in the portrait.
He disapproved of it entirely. For the sittings
robbed him of Frances during the better part of each
morning, and he urged that when he must so soon leave
her, between the man who wanted her portrait and the
man who wanted her, it would be kind to give her time
to the latter.
“But I had no idea,” protested
Frances, “he would take so long. He told
me he’d finish it in three sittings. But
he’s so critical of his own work that he goes
over it again and again. He says that I am a
most difficult subject, but that I inspire him.
And he says, if I will only give him time, he believes
this will be the best thing he has done.”
“That’s an awful thought,” said
the cavalry officer.
“You don’t like him,”
reproved Miss Gardner. “He is always very
polite to you.”
“He’s polite to everybody,”
said Lee; “that’s why I don’t like
him. He’s not a real artist. He’s
a courtier. God gave him a talent, and he makes
a mean use of it. Uses it to flatter people.
He’s like these long-haired violinists who play
anything you ask them to in the lobster palaces.”
Miss Gardner looked away from him.
Her color was high and her eyes very bright.
“I think,” she said steadily,
“that Mr. Stedman is a great artist, and some
day all the world will think so, too!”
Lee made no answer. Not because
he disagreed with her estimate of Mr. Stedman’s
genius-he made no pretense of being an art critic but
because her vehement admiration had filled him with
sudden panic. He was not jealous. For
that he was far too humble. Indeed, he thought
himself so utterly unworthy of Frances Gardner that
the fact that to him she might prefer some one else
was in no way a surprise. He only knew that
if she should prefer some one else not all his troop
horses nor all his men could put Humpty Dumpty back
again.
But if, in regard to Mr. Stedman,
Miss Gardner had for a moment been at odds with the
man who loved her, she made up for it the day following
on the tennis court. There she was in accord
with him in heart, soul, and body, and her sharp “Well
played, partner!” thrilled him like one of his
own bugle calls. For two days against visiting
and local teams they fought their way through the
tournament, and the struggle with her at his side
filled Lee with a great happiness. Not that the
championship of Agawamsett counted greatly to one exiled
for three years to live among the Moros. He
wanted to win because she wanted to win. But
his happiness came in doing something in common with
her, in helping her and in having her help him, in
being, if only in play, if only for three days, her
“partner.”
After they won they walked home together,
each swinging a fat, heavy loving-cup. On each
was engraved:
“Mixed doubles, Agawamsett, 1910.”
Lee held his up so that the setting sun flashed on
the silver.
“I am going to keep that,”
he said, “as long as I live. It means you
were once my ‘partner.’ It’s
a sign that once we two worked together for something
and won.” In the words the man showed such
feeling that the girl said soberly:
“Mine means that to me, too. I will never
part with mine, either.”
Lee turned to her and smiled, appealing wistfully.
“It seems a pity to separate
them,” he said. “They’d look
well together over an open fireplace.”
The girl frowned unhappily.
“I don’t know,” she protested.
“I don’t know.”
The next day Lee received from the
War Department a telegram directing him to “proceed
without delay” to San Francisco, and there to
embark for the Philippines.
That night he put the question to
her directly, but again she shook her head unhappily;
again she said: “I don’t know!”
So he sailed without her, and each
evening at sunset, as the great transport heaved her
way across the swell of the Pacific, he stood at the
rail and looked back. With the aid of the first
officer he calculated the difference in time between
a whaling village situated at forty-four degrees north
and an army transport dropping rapidly toward the
equator, and so, each day, kept in step with the girl
he loved.
“Now,” he would tell himself,
“she is in her cart in front of the post-office,
and while they sort the morning mail she gossips with
the fisher folks, the summer folks, the grooms, and
chauffeurs. Now she is sitting for her portrait
to Stedman” (he did not dwell long on that part
of her day), “and now she is at tennis, or, as
she promised, riding alone at sunset down our lost
road through the woods.”
But that part of her day from which
Lee hurried was that part over which the girl herself
lingered. As he turned his eyes from his canvas
to meet hers, Stedman, the charming, the deferential,
the adroit, who never allowed his painting to interrupt
his talk, told her of what he was pleased to call
his dreams and ambitions, of the great and beautiful
ladies who had sat before his easel, and of the only
one of them who had given him inspiration. Especially
of the only one who had given him inspiration.
With her always to uplift him, he could become one
of the world’s most famous artists, and she would
go down into history as the beautiful woman who had
helped him, as the wife of Rembrandt had inspired
Rembrandt, as “Mona Lisa” had made Leonardo.
Gilbert wrote: “It is not
the lover who comes to woo, but the lover’s
way of wooing!” His successful lover was the
one who threw the girl across his saddle and rode
away with her. But one kind of woman does not
like to have her lover approach shouting: “At
the gallop! Charge!”
She prefers a man not because he is
masterful, but because he is not. She likes to
believe the man needs her more than she needs him,
that she, and only she, can steady him, cheer him,
keep him true to the work he is in the world to perform.
It is called the “mothering” instinct.
Frances felt this mothering instinct
toward the sensitive, imaginative, charming Stedman.
She believed he had but two thoughts, his art and
herself. She was content to place his art first.
She could not guess that to one so unworldly, to one
so wrapped up in his art, the fortune of a rich aunt
might prove alluring.
When the transport finally picked
up the landfalls of Cavite Harbor, Lee, with the instinct
of a soldier, did not exclaim: “This is
where Dewey ran the forts and sank the Spanish fleet!”
On the contrary, he was saying: “When she
comes to join me, it will be here I will first see
her steamer. I will be waiting with a field-glass
on the end of that wharf. No, I will be out
here in a shore-boat waving my hat. And of all
those along the rail, my heart will tell me which is
she!”
Then a barefooted Filipino boy handed
him an unsigned cablegram. It read: “If
I wrote a thousand words I could not make it easier
for either of us. I am to marry Arthur Stedman
in December.”
Lee was grateful for the fact that
he was not permitted to linger in Manila. Instead,
he was at once ordered up-country, where at a one-troop
post he administered the affairs of a somewhat hectic
province, and under the guidance of the local constabulary
chased will-o’-the-wisp brigands. On a
shelf in his quarters he placed the silver loving-cup,
and at night, when the village slept, he would sit
facing it, filling one pipe after another, and through
the smoke staring at the evidence to the fact that
once Frances Gardner and he had been partners.
In these post-mortems he saw nothing
morbid. With his present activities they in
no way interfered, and in thinking of the days when
they had been together, in thinking of what he had
lost, he found deep content. Another man, having
lost the woman he loved, would have tried to forget
her and all she meant to him. But Lee was far
too honest with himself to substitute other thoughts
for those that were glorious, that still thrilled
him. The girl could take herself from him, but
she could not take his love for her from him.
And for that he was grateful. He never had
considered himself worthy, and so could not believe
he had been ill used. In his thoughts of her
there was no bitterness: for that also he was
grateful. And, as he knew he would not care
for any other woman in the way he cared for her, he
preferred to care in that way, even for one who was
lost, than in a lesser way for a possible she who
some day might greatly care for him. So she
still remained in his thoughts, and was so constantly
with him that he led a dual existence, in which by
day he directed the affairs of an alien and hostile
people and by night again lived through the wonderful
moments when she had thought she loved him, when he
first had learned to love her. At times she
seemed actually at his side, and he could not tell
whether he was pretending that this were so or whether
the force of his love had projected her image half
around the world.
Often, when in single file he led
the men through the forest, he seemed again to be
back on Cape Cod picking his way over their own lost
road through the wood, and he heard “the beat
of a horse’s feet and the swish of a skirt in
the dew.” And then a carbine would rattle,
or a horse would stumble and a trooper swear, and
he was again in the sweating jungle, where men, intent
upon his life, crouched in ambush.
She spared him the mockery of wedding-cards;
but the announcement of the wedding came to him in
a three-months-old newspaper. Hoping they would
speak of her in their letters, he kept up a somewhat
one-sided correspondence with friends of Mrs. Stedman’s
in Boston, where she now lived. But for a year
in none of their letters did her name appear.
When a mutual friend did write of her Lee understood
the silence.
From the first, the mutual friend
wrote, the life of Mrs. Stedman and her husband was
thoroughly miserable. Stedman blamed her because
she came to him penniless. The rich aunt, who
had heartily disapproved of the artist, had spoken
of him so frankly that Frances had quarrelled with
her, and from her no longer would accept money.
In his anger at this Stedman showed himself to Frances
as he was. And only two months after their marriage
she was further enlightened.
An irate husband made him the central
figure in a scandal that filled the friends of Frances
with disgust, and that for her was an awakening cruel
and humiliating. Men no longer permitted their
womenfolk to sit to Stedman for a portrait, and the
need of money grew imperative. He the more blamed
Frances for having quarrelled with her aunt, told her
it was for her money he had married her, that she had
ruined his career, and that she was to blame for his
ostracism a condition that his own misconduct
had brought upon him. Finally, after twelve months
of this, one morning he left a note saying he no longer
would allow her to be a drag upon him, and sailed
for Europe.
They learned that, in Paris, he had
returned to that life which before his marriage, even
in that easy-going city, had made him notorious.
“And Frances,” continued Lee’s correspondent,
“has left Boston, and now lives in New York.
She wouldn’t let any of us help her, nor even
know where she is. The last we heard of her
she was in charge of the complaint department of a
millinery shop, for which work she was receiving about
the same wages I give my cook.”
Lee did not stop to wonder why the
same woman, who to one man was a “drag,”
was to another, even though separated from her by half
the world, a joy and a blessing. Instead, he
promptly wrote his lawyers to find Mrs. Stedman, and,
in such a way as to keep her ignorant of their good
offices, see that she obtained a position more congenial
than her present one, and one that would pay her as
much as, without arousing her suspicions, they found
it possible to give.
Three months had passed, and this
letter had not been answered, when in Manila, where
he had been ordered to make a report, he heard of her
again. One evening, when the band played on the
Luneta, he met a newly married couple who had
known him in Agawamsett. They now were on a
ninety-day cruise around the world. Close friends
of Frances Gardner, they remembered him as one of
her many devotees and at once spoke of her.
“That blackguard she married,”
the bridegroom told him, “was killed three months
ago racing with another car from Versailles back to
Paris after a dinner at which, it seems, all present
drank ’burgundy out of the fingerbowls.’
Coming down that steep hill into Saint Cloud, the
cars collided, and Stedman and a woman, whose husband
thought she was somewhere else, were killed.
He couldn’t even die without making a scandal
of it.”
“But the worst,” added
the bride, “is that, in spite of the way the
little beast treated her, I believe Frances still cares
for him, and always will. That’s the worst
of it, isn’t it?” she demanded.
In words, Lee did not answer, but
in his heart he agreed that was much the worst of
it. The fact that Frances was free filled him
with hope; but that she still cared for the man she
had married, and would continue to think only of him,
made him ill with despair.
He cabled his lawyers for her address.
He determined that, at once, on learning it, he would
tell her that with him nothing was changed. He
had forgotten nothing, and had learned much.
He had learned that his love for her was a splendid
and inspiring passion, that even without her it had
lifted him up, helped and cheered him, made the whole
world kind and beautiful. With her he could
not picture a world so complete with happiness.
Since entering the army he had never
taken a leave of absence, and he was sure, if now
he asked for one, it would not be refused. He
determined, if the answer to his cable gave him the
address, he would return at once, and again offer
her his love, which he now knew was deeper, finer,
and infinitely more tender than the love he first had
felt for her. But the cable balked him.
“Address unknown,” it read; “believed
to have gone abroad in capacity of governess.
Have employed foreign agents. Will cable their
report.”
Whether to wait for and be guided
by the report of the detectives, or to proceed to
Europe and search for her himself, Lee did not know.
He finally determined that to seek for her with no
clew to her whereabouts would be but a waste of precious
moments, while, if in their search the agents were
successful, he would be able to go directly to her.
Meanwhile, by cable, he asked for protracted leave
of absence and, while waiting for his answer, returned
to his post. There, within a week, he received
his leave of absence, but in a fashion that threatened
to remove him forever from the army.
The constabulary had located the will-o’-the-wisp
brigands behind a stockade built about an extinct
volcano, and Lee and his troop and a mountain battery
attempted to dislodge them. In the fight that
followed Lee covered his brows with laurel wreaths
and received two bullet wounds in his body.
For a month death stood at the side
of his cot; and then, still weak and at times delirious
with fever, by slow stages he was removed to the hospital
in Manila. In one of his sane moments a cable
was shown him. It read: “Whereabouts
still unknown.” Lee at once rebelled against
his doctors. He must rise, he declared, and
proceed to Europe. It was upon a matter of life
and death. The surgeons assured him his remaining
exactly where he was also was a matter of as great
consequence. Lee’s knowledge of his own
lack of strength told him they were right.
Then, from headquarters, he was informed
that, as a reward for his services and in recognition
of his approaching convalescence, he was ordered to
return to his own climate and that an easy billet had
been found for him as a recruiting officer in New
York City. Believing the woman he loved to be
in Europe, this plan for his comfort only succeeded
in bringing on a relapse. But the day following
there came another cablegram. It put an abrupt
end to his mutiny, and brought him and the War Department
into complete accord.
“She is in New York,”
it read, “acting as agent for a charitable institution,
which one not known, but hope in a few days to cable
correct address.”
In all the world there was no man
so happy. The next morning a transport was sailing,
and, probably because they had read the cablegram,
the surgeons agreed with Lee that a sea voyage would
do him no harm. He was carried on board, and
when the propellers first churned the water and he
knew he was moving toward her, the hero of the fight
around the crater shed unmanly tears. He would
see her again, hear her voice; the same great city
would shelter them. It was worth a dozen bullets.
He reached New York in a snow-storm,
a week before Christmas, and went straight to the
office of his lawyers. They received him with
embarrassment. Six weeks before, on the very
day they had cabled him that Mrs. Stedman was in New
York, she had left the charitable institution where
she had been employed, and had again disappeared.
Lee sent his trunks to the Army and
Navy Club, which was immediately around the corner
from the recruiting office in Sixth Avenue, and began
discharging telegrams at every one who had ever known
Frances Gardner. The net result was discouraging.
In the year and a half in which he had been absent
every friend of the girl he sought had temporarily
changed his place of residence or was permanently dead.
Meanwhile his arrival by the transport
was announced in the afternoon papers. At the
wharf an admiring trooper had told a fine tale of his
conduct at the battle of the crater, and reporters
called at the club to see him. He did not discourage
them, as he hoped through them the fact of his return
might be made known to Frances. She might send
him a line of welcome, and he would discover her whereabouts.
But, though many others sent him hearty greetings,
from her there was no word.
On the second day after his arrival
one of the telegrams was answered in person by a friend
of Mrs. Stedman. He knew only that she had been
in New York, that she was very poor and in ill health,
that she shunned all of her friends, and was earning
her living as the matron of some sort of a club for
working girls. He did not know the name of it.
On the third day there still was no
news. On the fourth Lee decided that the next
morning he would advertise. He would say only:
“Will Mrs. Arthur Stedman communicate with Messrs.
Fuller & Fuller?” Fuller & Fuller were his lawyers.
That afternoon he remained until six o’clock
at the recruiting office, and when he left it the electric
street lights were burning brightly. A heavy
damp snow was falling, and the lights and the falling
flakes and the shouts of drivers and the toots of
taxicabs made for the man from the tropics a welcome
homecoming.
Instead of returning at once to his
club, he slackened his steps. The shop windows
of Sixth Avenue hung with Christmas garlands, and colored
lamps glowed like open fireplaces. Lee passed
slowly before them, glad that he had been able to
get back at such a season. For the moment he
had forgotten the woman he sought, and was conscious
only of his surroundings. He had paused in front
of the window of a pawn-shop. Over the array
of cheap jewelry, of banjos, shot-guns, and razors,
his eyes moved idly. And then they became transfixed
and staring. In the very front of the window,
directly under his nose, was a tarnished silver loving-cup.
On it was engraved, “Mixed Doubles. Agawamsett,
1910.” In all the world there were only
two such cups, and as though he were dodging the slash
of a bolo, Lee leaped into the shop. Many precious
seconds were wasted in persuading Mrs. Cohen that he
did not believe the cup had been stolen; that he was
not from the Central Office; that he believed the
lady who had pawned the cup had come by it honestly;
that he meant no harm to the lady; that he meant no
harm to Mrs. Cohen; that, much as the young lady may
have needed the money Mrs. Cohen had loaned her on
the cup, he needed the address of the young lady still
more.
Mrs. Cohen retired behind a screen,
and Lee was conscious that from the other side of
it the whole family of Cohens were taking his measurements.
He approved of their efforts to protect the owner
of the cup, but not from him.
He offered, if one of the younger
Cohens would take him to the young lady, to let him
first ask her if she would receive Captain Lee, and
for his service he would give the young Cohen untold
gold. He exhibited the untold gold. The
young Cohen choked at the sight and sprang into the
seat beside the driver of a taxicab.
“To the Working Girls’
Home, on Tenth Street!” he commanded.
Through the falling snow and the flashing
lights they slid, skidded, and leaped. Inside
the cab Lee shivered with excitement, with cold, with
fear that it might not be true. He could not
realize she was near. It was easier to imagine
himself still in the jungle, with months of time and
sixteen thousand miles of land and water separating
them; or in the hospital, on a white-enamel cot, watching
the shadow creep across the whitewashed wall; or lying
beneath an awning that did not move, staring at a
burning, brazen sea that did not move, on a transport
that, timed by the beating of his heart, stood still.
Those days were within the radius
of his experience. Separation, absence, the
immutable giants of time and space, he knew.
With them he had fought and could withstand them.
But to be near her, to hear her voice, to bring his
love into her actual presence, that was an attack
upon his feelings which found him without weapons.
That for a very few dollars she had traded the cup
from which she had sworn never to part did not concern
him. Having parted from him, what she did with
a silver mug was of little consequence. It was
of significance only in that it meant she was poor.
And that she was either an inmate or a matron of
a lodging-house for working girls also showed she was
poor.
He had been told that was her condition,
and that she was in ill health, and that from all
who loved her she had refused to accept help.
At the thought his jaws locked pugnaciously.
There was one who loved her, who, should she refuse
his aid, was prepared to make her life intolerable.
He planned in succession at lightning speed all he
might do for her. Among other things he would
make this Christmas the happiest she or he would ever
know. Not for an instant did he question that
she who had refused help from all who loved her could
refuse anything he offered. For he knew it was
offered with a love that demanded nothing in return,
with a love that asked only to be allowed to love,
and to serve. To refuse help inspired by such
a feeling as his would be morbid, wicked, ridiculous,
as though a flower refused to turn its face to the
sun, and shut its lips to the dew.
The cab stopped in front of a brick
building adorned with many fire-escapes. Afterward
he remembered a bare, brilliantly lit hall hung with
photographs of the Acropolis, and a stout, capable
woman in a cap, who looked him over and said:
“You will find Mrs. Stedman in the writing-room.”
And he remembered entering a room
filled with Mission furniture and reading-lamps under
green shades. It was empty, except for a young
girl in deep black, who was seated facing him, her
head bent above a writing-desk. As he came into
the circle of the lamps the girl raised her eyes and
as though lifted to her feet by what she saw, and through
no effort of her own, stood erect.
And the young man who had persuaded
himself his love demanded nothing, who asked only
to worship at her gate, found his arms reaching out,
and heard his voice as though it came from a great
distance, cry, “Frances!”
And the girl who had refused the help
of all who loved her, like a homing pigeon walked
straight into the outstretched arms.
After five minutes, when he was almost
able to believe it was true, he said in his commanding,
masterful way: “And now I’m going
to take you out of here. I’m going to
buy you a ring, and a sable coat, and a house to live
in, and a dinner. Which shall we buy first?”
“First,” said Frances,
frowning happily, “I am afraid we must go to
the Ritz, to tell Aunt Emily. She always loved
you, and it will make her so happy.”
“To the Ritz!” stammered
the young man. “To Aunt Emily! I thought
they told me your aunt and-you-”
“We quarrelled, yes,”
said Frances, “and she has forgiven me; but she
has not forgiven herself, so she spoils me, and already
I have a house to live in, and several sable coats,
and, oh! everything, everything but the ring.”
“I am so sorry!” cried
Lee. “I thought you were poor. I
hoped you were poor. But you are joking!”
he exclaimed delightedly. “You are here
in a working girls’ home-”
“It is one of Aunt Emily’s
charities. She built it,” said Frances.
“I come here to talk to the girls.”
“But,” persisted Lee triumphantly,
“if you are not poor, why did you pawn our silver
loving-cup?”
The face of the girl became a lovely
crimson, and tears rose to her eyes. As though
at a confessional, she lifted her hands penitently.
“Try to understand,” she
begged; “I wanted you to love me, not for my
money-”
“But you knew!” cried Lee.
“I had to be sure,” begged
the girl; “and I wanted to believe you loved
me even if I did not love you. When it was too
late I knew you loved me as no woman ever deserved
to be loved; and I wanted that love. I could
not live without it. So when I read in the papers
you had returned I wouldn’t let myself write
you; I wouldn’t let myself beg you to come to
see me. I set a test for you. I knew from
the papers you were at the Army and Navy Club, and
that around the corner was the recruiting office.
I’d often seen the sergeant there, in uniform,
at the door. I knew you must pass from your
club to the office many times each day, so I thought
of the loving-cup and the pawn-shop. I planted
it there. It was a trick, a test. I thought
if you saw it in a pawn-shop you would believe I no
longer cared for you, and that I was very poor.
If you passed it by, then I would know you yourself
had stopped caring, but if you asked about it, if
you inquired for me, then I would know you came to
me of your own wish, because you-”
Lee shook his head.
“You don’t have to tell
me,” he said gently, “why I came.
I’ve a cab outside. You will get in it,”
he commanded, “and we will rescue our cup.
I always told you they would look well together over
an open fireplace.”