In Salonika, the American consul,
the Standard Oil man, and the war correspondents formed
the American colony. The correspondents were
waiting to go to the front. Incidentally, as
we waited, the front was coming rapidly toward us.
There was “Uncle” Jim, the veteran of
many wars, and of all the correspondents, in experience
the oldest and in spirit the youngest, and there was
the Kid, and the Artist. The Kid jeered at us,
and proudly described himself as the only Boy Reporter
who jumped from a City Hall assignment to cover a European
War. “I don’t know strategy,”
he would boast; “neither does the Man at Home.
He wants ‘human interest’ stuff, and I
give him what he wants. I write exclusively
for the subway guard and the farmers in the wheat belt.
When you fellows write about the ‘Situation,’
they don’t understand it. Neither do you.
Neither does Venizelos or the King. I don’t
understand it myself. So, I write my people heart-to-heart
talks about refugees and wounded, and what kind of
ploughs the Servian peasants use, and that St. Paul
wrote his letters to the Thessalonians from the same
hotel where I write mine; and I tell ’em to pronounce
Salonika ‘eeka,’ and not put the accent
on the ‘on.’ This morning at the
refugee camp I found all the little Servians of the
Frothingham unit in American Boy Scout uniforms.
That’s my meat. That’s ‘home
week’ stuff. You fellows write for the
editorial page; and nobody reads it. I write
for the man that turns first to Mutt and Jeff, and
then looks to see where they are running the new Charlie
Chaplin release. When that man has to choose
between ‘our military correspondent’ and
the City Hall Reporter, he chooses me!”
The third man was John, “Our
Special Artist.” John could write a news
story, too, but it was the cartoons that had made him
famous. They were not comic page, but front
page cartoons, and before making up their minds what
they thought, people waited to see what their Artist
thought. So, it was fortunate his thoughts were
as brave and clean as they were clever. He was
the original Little Brother to the Poor. He
was always giving away money. When we caught him,
he would prevaricate. He would say the man was
a college chum, that he had borrowed the money from
him, and that this was the first chance he had had
to pay it back. The Kid suggested it was strange
that so many of his college chums should at the same
moment turn up, dead broke, in Salonika, and that
half of them should be women.
John smiled disarmingly. “It
was a large college,” he explained, “and
coeducational.” There were other Americans;
Red Cross doctors and nurses just escaped through
the snow from the Bulgars, and hyphenated Americans
who said they had taken out their first papers.
They thought hyphenated citizens were so popular
with us, that we would pay their passage to New York.
In Salonika they were transients. They had no
local standing. They had no local lying-down
place, either, or place to eat, or to wash, although
they did not look as though that worried them, or
place to change their clothes. Or clothes to
change. It was because we had clothes to change,
and a hotel bedroom, instead of a bench in a cafe,
that we were ranked as residents and from the Greek
police held a “permission to sojourn.”
Our American colony was a very close corporation.
We were only six Americans against 300,000 British,
French, Greek, and Servian soldiers, and 120,000 civilian
Turks, Spanish Jews, Armenians, Persians, Egyptians,
Albanians, and Arabs, and some twenty more other races
that are not listed. We had arrived in Salonika
before the rush, and at the Hotel Hermes on the water-front
had secured a vast room. The edge of the stone
quay was not forty feet from us, the only landing
steps directly opposite our balcony. Everybody
who arrived on the Greek passenger boats from Naples
or the Piraeus, or who had shore leave from a man-of-war,
transport, or hospital ship, was raked by our cameras.
There were four windows one for each of
us and his work table. It was not easy to work.
What was the use? The pictures and stories outside
the windows fascinated us, but when we sketched them
or wrote about them, they only proved us inadequate.
All day long the pinnaces, cutters, gigs, steam launches
shoved and bumped against the stone steps, marines
came ashore for the mail, stewards for fruit and fish,
Red Cross nurses to shop, tiny midshipmen to visit
the movies, and the sailors and officers of the Russian,
French, British, Italian, and Greek war-ships to stretch
their legs in the park of the Tour Blanche, or to
cramp them under a cafe table. Sometimes the
ambulances blocked the quay and the wounded and frost-bitten
were lifted into the motor-boats, and sometimes a squad
of marines lined the landing stage, and as a coffin
under a French or English flag was borne up the stone
steps stood at salute. So crowded was the harbor
that the oars of the boatmen interlocked.
Close to the stone quay, stretched
along the three-mile circle, were the fishing smacks,
beyond them, so near that the anchor chains fouled,
were the passenger ships with gigantic Greek flags
painted on their sides, and beyond them transports
from Marseilles, Malta, and Suvla Bay, black
colliers, white hospital ships, burning green
electric lights, red-bellied tramps and freighters,
and, hemming them in, the grim, mouse-colored destroyers,
submarines, cruisers, dreadnaughts. At times,
like a wall, the cold fog rose between us and the harbor,
and again the curtain would suddenly be ripped asunder,
and the sun would flash on the brass work of the fleet,
on the white wings of the aeroplanes, on the snow-draped
shoulders of Mount Olympus. We often speculated
as to how in the early days the gods and goddesses,
dressed as they were, or as they were not, survived
the snows of Mount Olympus. Or was it only their
resort for the summer?
It got about that we had a vast room
to ourselves, where one might obtain a drink, or a
sofa for the night, or even money to cable for money.
So, we had many strange visitors, some half starved,
half frozen, with terrible tales of the Albanian trail,
of the Austrian prisoners fallen by the wayside, of
the mountain passes heaped with dead, of the doctors
and nurses wading waist-high in snow-drifts and for
food killing the ponies. Some of our visitors
wanted to get their names in the American papers so
that the folks at home would know they were still
alive, others wanted us to keep their names out of
the papers, hoping the police would think them dead;
another, convinced it was of pressing news value,
desired us to advertise the fact that he had invented
a poisonous gas for use in the trenches. With
difficulty we prevented him from casting it adrift
in our room. Or, he had for sale a second-hand
motor-cycle, or he would accept a position as barkeeper,
or for five francs would sell a state secret that,
once made public, in a month would end the war.
It seemed cheap at the price.
Each of us had his “scouts”
to bring him the bazaar rumor, the Turkish bath rumor,
the cafe rumor. Some of our scouts journeyed
as far afield as Monastir and Doiran, returning to
drip snow on the floor, and to tell us tales, one-half
of which we refused to believe, and the other half
the censor refused to pass. With each other’s
visitors it was etiquette not to interfere.
It would have been like tapping a private wire.
When we found John sketching a giant stranger in a
cap and coat of wolf skin we did not seek to know
if he were an Albanian brigand, or a Servian prince
incognito, and when a dark Levantine sat close to the
Kid, whispering, and the Kid banged on his typewriter,
we did not listen.
So, when I came in one afternoon and
found a strange American youth writing at John’s
table, and no one introduced us, I took it for granted
he had sold the Artist an “exclusive” story,
and asked no questions. But I could not help
hearing what they said. Even though I tried to
drown their voices by beating on the Kid’s typewriter.
I was taking my third lesson, and I had printed,
“I Amm 5w writjng This, 5wjth my own lilly w?ite
handS,” when I heard the Kid saying:
“You can beat the game this
way. Let John buy you a ticket to the Piraeus.
If you go from one Greek port to another you don’t
need a vise. But, if you book from here to Italy,
you must get a permit from the Italian consul, and
our consul, and the police. The plot is to get
out of the war zone, isn’t it? Well, then,
my dope is to get out quick, and map the rest of your
trip when you’re safe in Athens.”
It was no business of mine, but I
had to look up. The stranger was now pacing
the floor. I noticed that while his face was
almost black with tan, his upper lip was quite white.
I noticed also that he had his hands in the pockets
of one of John’s blue serge suits, and that the
pink silk shirt he wore was one that once had belonged
to the Kid. Except for the pink shirt, in the
appearance of the young man there was nothing unusual.
He was of a familiar type. He looked like a
young business man from our Middle West, matter-of-fact
and unimaginative, but capable and self-reliant.
If he had had a fountain pen in his upper waistcoat
pocket, I would have guessed he was an insurance agent,
or the publicity man for a new automobile. John
picked up his hat, and said, “That’s good
advice. Give me your steamer ticket, Fred, and
I’ll have them change it.” He went
out; but he did not ask Fred to go with him.
Uncle Jim rose, and murmured something
about the Cafe Roma, and tea. But neither did
he invite Fred to go with him. Instead, he told
him to make himself at home, and if he wanted anything
the waiter would bring it from the cafe downstairs.
Then the Kid, as though he also was uncomfortable
at being left alone with us, hurried to the door.
“Going to get you a suit-case,” he explained.
“Back in five minutes.”
The stranger made no answer.
Probably he did not hear him. Not a hundred
feet from our windows three Greek steamers were huddled
together, and the eyes of the American were fixed on
them. The one for which John had gone to buy
him a new ticket lay nearest. She was to sail
in two hours. Impatiently, in short quick steps,
the stranger paced the length of the room, but when
he turned and so could see the harbor, he walked slowly,
devouring it with his eyes. For some time, in
silence, he repeated this manoeuvre; and then the complaints
of the typewriter disturbed him. He halted and
observed my struggles. Under his scornful eye,
in my embarrassment I frequently hit the right letter.
“You a newspaper man, too?” he asked.
I boasted I was, but begged not to be judged by my
typewriting.
“I got some great stories to
write when I get back to God’s country,”
he announced. “I was a reporter for two
years in Kansas City before the war, and now I’m
going back to lecture and write. I got enough
material to keep me at work for five years. All
kinds of stuff specials, fiction, stories,
personal experiences, maybe a novel.”
I regarded him with envy. For
the correspondents in the greatest of all wars the
pickings had been meagre. “You are to be
congratulated,” I said. He brushed aside
my congratulations. “For what?” he
demanded. “I didn’t go after the
stories; they came to me. The things I saw I
had to see. Couldn’t get away from them.
I’ve been with the British, serving in the
R. A. M. C. Been hospital steward, stretcher bearer,
ambulance driver. I’ve been sixteen months
at the front, and all the time on the firing-line.
I was in the retreat from Mons, with French on the
Marne, at Ypres, all through the winter fighting along
the Canal, on the Gallipoli Peninsula, and, just lately,
in Servia. I’ve seen more of this war
than any soldier. Because, sometimes, they give
the soldier a rest; they never give the medical corps
a rest. The only rest I got was when I was wounded.”
He seemed no worse for his wounds,
so again I tendered congratulations. This time
he accepted them. The recollection of the things
he had seen, things incredible, terrible, unique in
human experience, had stirred him. He talked
on, not boastfully, but in a tone, rather, of awe
and disbelief, as though assuring himself that it was
really he to whom such things had happened.
“I don’t believe there’s
any kind of fighting I haven’t seen,” he
declared; “hand-to-hand fighting with bayonets,
grenades, gun butts. I’ve seen ’em
on their knees in the mud choking each other, beating
each other with their bare fists. I’ve
seen every kind of airship, bomb, shell, poison gas,
every kind of wound. Seen whole villages turned
into a brickyard in twenty minutes; in Servia seen
bodies of women frozen to death, bodies of babies
starved to death, seen men in Belgium swinging from
trees; along the Yzer for three months I saw the bodies
of men I’d known sticking out of the mud, or
hung up on the barb wire, with the crows picking them.
“I’ve seen some of the
nerviest stunts that ever were pulled off in history.
I’ve seen real heroes. Time and time again
I’ve seen a man throw away his life for his
officer, or for a chap he didn’t know, just
as though it was a cigarette butt. I’ve
seen the women nurses of our corps steer a car into
a village and yank out a wounded man while shells
were breaking under the wheels and the houses were
pitching into the streets.” He stopped
and laughed consciously.
“Understand,” he warned
me, “I’m not talking about myself, only
of things I’ve seen. The things I’m
going to put in my book. It ought to be a pretty
good book-what?”
My envy had been washed clean in admiration.
“It will make a wonderful book,”
I agreed. “Are you going to syndicate
it first?”
Young Mr. Hamlin frowned importantly.
“I was thinking,” he said,
“of asking John for letters to the magazine
editors. So, they’ll know I’m not
faking, that I’ve really been through it all.
Letters from John would help a lot.” Then
he asked anxiously: “They would, wouldn’t
they?”
I reassured him. Remembering
the Kid’s gibes at John and his numerous dependents,
I said: “You another college chum of John’s?”
The young man answered my question quite seriously.
“No,” he said; “John graduated
before I entered; but we belong to the same fraternity.
It was the luckiest chance in the world my finding
him here. There was a month-old copy of the
Balkan News blowing around camp, and his name was
in the list of arrivals. The moment I found he
was in Salonika, I asked for twelve hours leave, and
came down in an ambulance. I made straight for
John; gave him the grip, and put it up to him to help
me.”
“I don’t understand,”
I said. “I thought you were sailing on
the Adriaticus?”
The young man was again pacing the
floor. He halted and faced the harbor.
“You bet I’m sailing on
the Adriaticus,” he said. He looked out
at that vessel, at the Blue Peter flying from her
foremast, and grinned. “In just two hours!”
It was stupid of me, but I still was
unenlightened. “But your twelve hours’
leave?” I asked.
The young man laughed. “They
can take my twelve hours’ leave,” he said
deliberately, “and feed it to the chickens.
I’m beating it.”
“What d’you mean, you’re beating
it?”
“What do you suppose I mean?”
he demanded. “What do you suppose I’m
doing out of uniform, what do you suppose I’m
lying low in the room for? So’s I won’t
catch cold?”
“If you’re leaving the
army without a discharge, and without permission,”
I said, “I suppose you know it’s desertion.”
Mr. Hamlin laughed easily. “It’s
not my army,” he said. “I’m
an American.”
“It’s your desertion,” I suggested.
The door opened and closed noiselessly,
and Billy, entering, placed a new travelling bag on
the floor. He must have heard my last words,
for he looked inquiringly at each of us. But
he did not speak and, walking to the window, stood
with his hands in his pockets, staring out at the
harbor. His presence seemed to encourage the
young man. “Who knows I’m deserting?”
he demanded. “No one’s ever seen
me in Salonika before, and in these ‘cits’
I can get on board all right. And then they
can’t touch me. What do the folks at home
care how I left the British army? They’ll
be so darned glad to get me back alive that they won’t
ask if I walked out or was kicked out. I should
worry!”
“It’s none of my business,”
I began, but I was interrupted. In his restless
pacings the young man turned quickly.
“As you say,” he remarked
icily, “it is none of your business. It’s
none of your business whether I get shot as a deserter,
or go home, or ”
“You can go to the devil for
all I care,” I assured him. “I wasn’t
considering you at all. I was only sorry that
I’ll never be able to read your book.”
For a moment Mr. Hamlin remained silent,
then he burst forth with a jeer.
“No British firing squad,”
he boasted, “will ever stand me up.”
“Maybe not,” I agreed,
“but you will never write that book.”
Again there was silence, and this
time it was broken by the Kid. He turned from
the window and looked toward Hamlin. “That’s
right!” he said.
He sat down on the edge of the table,
and at the deserter pointed his forefinger.
“Son,” he said, “this
war is some war. It’s the biggest war in
history, and folks will be talking about nothing else
for the next ninety years; folks that never were nearer
it than Bay City, Mich. But you won’t talk
about it. And you’ve been all through it.
You’ve been to hell and back again. Compared
with what you know about hell, Dante is in the same
class with Dr. Cook. But you won’t be able
to talk about this war, or lecture, or write a book
about it.”
“I won’t?” demanded Hamlin.
“And why won’t I?”
“Because of what you’re
doing now,” said Billy. “Because
you’re queering yourself. Now, you’ve
got everything.” The Kid was very much
in earnest. His tone was intimate, kind, and
friendly. “You’ve seen everything,
done everything. We’d give our eye-teeth
to see what you’ve seen, and to write the things
you can write. You’ve got a record now
that’ll last you until you’re dead, and
your grandchildren are dead-and then some. When
you talk the table will have to sit up and listen.
You can say ‘I was there.’ ‘I
was in it.’ ‘I saw.’
’I know.’ When this war is over
you’ll have everything out of it that’s
worth getting-all the experiences, all the inside knowledge,
all the ‘nosebag’ news; you’ll have
wounds, honors, medals, money, reputation. And
you’re throwing all that away!”
Mr. Hamlin interrupted savagely.
“To hell with their medals,”
he said. “They can take their medals and
hang ’em on Christmas trees. I don’t
owe the British army anything. It owes me.
I’ve done my bit. I’ve earned what
I’ve got, and there’s no one can take
it away from me.”
“You can,” said the Kid.
Before Hamlin could reply the door opened and John
came in, followed by Uncle Jim. The older man
was looking very grave, and John very unhappy.
Hamlin turned quickly to John.
“I thought these men were friends
of yours,” he began, “and Americans.
They’re fine Americans. They’re as
full of human kindness and red blood as a kippered
herring!”
John looked inquiringly at the Kid.
“He wants to hang himself,”
explained Billy, “and because we tried to cut
him down, he’s sore.”
“They talked to me,” protested
Hamlin, “as though I was a yellow dog.
As though I was a quitter. I’m no quitter!
But, if I’m ready to quit, who’s got a
better right? I’m not an Englishman, but
there are several million Englishmen haven’t
done as much for England in this was as I have.
What do you fellows know about it? You write
about it, about the ‘brave lads in the trenches’;
but what do you know about the trenches? What
you’ve seen from automobiles. That’s
all. That’s where you get off! I’ve
lived in the trenches for fifteen months, froze in
’em, starved in ’em, risked my life in
’em, and I’ve saved other lives, too,
by hauling men out of the trenches. And that’s
no airy persiflage, either!”
He ran to the wardrobe where John’s
clothes hung, and from the bottom of it dragged a
khaki uniform. It was still so caked with mud
and snow that when he flung it on the floor it splashed
like a wet bathing suit. “How would you
like to wear one of those?” he Demanded.
“Stinking with lice and sweat and blood; the
blood of other men, the men you’ve helped off
the field, and your own blood.”
As though committing hara-kiri,
he slashed his hand across his stomach, and then drew
it up from his waist to his chin. “I’m
scraped with shrapnel from there to there,”
said Mr. Hamlin. “And another time I got
a ball in the shoulder. That would have been
a ‘blighty’ for a fighting man they’re
always giving them leave but all I got was
six weeks at Havre in hospital. Then it was
the Dardanelles, and sunstroke and sand; sleeping
in sand, eating sand, sand in your boots, sand in
your teeth; hiding in holes in the sand like a dirty
prairie dog. And then, ‘Off to Servia!’
And the next act opens in the snow and the mud!
Cold? God, how cold it was! And most of us
in sun helmets.”
As though the cold still gnawed at
his bones, he shivered.
“It isn’t the danger,”
he protested. “It isn’t that I’m
getting away from. To hell with the danger!
It’s just the plain discomfort of it! It’s
the never being your own master, never being clean,
never being warm.” Again he shivered and
rubbed one hand against the other. “There
were no bridges over the streams,” he went on,
“and we had to break the ice and wade in, and
then sleep in the open with the khaki frozen to us.
There was no firewood; not enough to warm a pot of
tea. There were no wounded; all our casualties
were frost bite and Pneumonia. When we take
them out of the blankets their toes fall off.
We’ve been in camp for a month now near Doiran,
and it’s worse there than on the march.
It’s a frozen swamp. You can’t sleep
for the cold; can’t eat; the only ration we
get is bully beef, and our insides are frozen so damn
tight we can’t digest it. The cold gets
into your blood, gets into your brains. It won’t
let you think; or else, you think crazy things.
It makes you afraid.” He shook himself
like a man coming out of a bad dream.
“So, I’m through,”
he said. In turn he scowled at each of us, as
though defying us to contradict him. “That’s
why I’m quitting,” he added. “Because
I’ve done my bit. Because I’m damn
well fed up on it.” He kicked viciously
at the water-logged uniform on the floor. “Any
one who wants my job can have it!” He walked
to the window, turned his back on us, and fixed his
eyes hungrily on the Adriaticus. There was a
long pause. For guidance we looked at John, but
he was staring down at the desk blotter, scratching
on it marks that he did not see.
Finally, where angels feared to tread,
the Kid rushed in. “That’s certainly
a hard luck story,” he said; “but,”
he added cheerfully, “it’s nothing to
the hard luck you’ll strike when you can’t
tell why you left the army.” Hamlin turned
with an exclamation, but Billy held up his hand.
“Now wait,” he begged, “we haven’t
time to get mussy. At six o’clock your
leave is up, and the troop train starts back to camp,
and ”
Mr. Hamlin interrupted sharply.
“And the Adriaticus starts at five.”
Billy did not heed him. “You’ve
got two hours to change your mind,” he said.
“That’s better than being sorry you didn’t
the rest of your life.”
Mr. Hamlin threw back his head and
laughed. It was a most unpleasant laugh.
“You’re a fine body of men,” he
jeered. “America must be proud of you!”
“If we weren’t Americans,”
explained Billy patiently, “we wouldn’t
give a damn whether you deserted or not. You’re
drowning and you don’t know it, and we’re
throwing you a rope. Try to see it that way.
We’ll cut out the fact that you took an oath,
and that you’re breaking it. That’s
up to you. We’ll get down to results.
When you reach home, if you can’t tell why
you left the army, the folks will darned soon guess.
And that will queer everything you’ve done.
When you come to sell your stuff, it will queer you
with the editors, queer you with the publishers.
If they know you broke your word to the British army,
how can they know you’re keeping faith with
them? How can they believe anything you tell
them? Every ‘story’ you write, every
statement of yours will make a noise like a fake.
You won’t come into court with clean hands.
You’ll be licked before you start.
“Of course, you’re for
the Allies. Well, all the Germans at home will
fear that; and when you want to lecture on your ’Fifteen
Months at the British Front,’ they’ll
look up your record; and what will they do to you?
This is what they’ll do to you. When you’ve
shown ’em your moving pictures and say, ’Does
any gentleman in the audience want to ask a question?’
a German agent will get up and say, ’Yes, I want
to ask a question. Is it true that you deserted
from the British army, and that if you return to it,
they will shoot you?’”
I was scared. I expected the
lean and muscular Mr. Hamlin to fall on Billy, and
fling him where he had flung the soggy uniform.
But instead he remained motionless, his arms pressed
across his chest. His eyes, filled with anger
and distress, returned to the Adriaticus.
“I’m sorry,” muttered the Kid.
John rose and motioned to the door,
and guiltily and only too gladly we escaped.
John followed us into the hall. “Let me
talk to him,” he whispered. “The
boat sails in an hour. Please don’t come
back until she’s gone.”
We went to the moving picture palace
next door, but I doubt if the thoughts of any of us
were on the pictures. For after an hour, when
from across the quay there came the long-drawn warning
of a steamer’s whistle, we nudged each other
and rose and went out.
Not a hundred yards from us the propeller
blades of the Adriaticus were slowly churning, and
the rowboats were falling away from her sides.
“Good-bye, Mr. Hamlin,”
called Billy. “You had everything and you
chucked it away. I can spell your finish.
It’s ‘check’ for yours.”
But when we entered our room, in the
centre of it, under the bunch of electric lights,
stood the deserter. He wore the water-logged
uniform. The sun helmet was on his head.
“Good man!” shouted Billy.
He advanced, eagerly holding out his hand.
Mr. Hamlin brushed past him.
At the door he turned and glared at us, even at John.
He was not a good loser. “I hope you’re
satisfied,” he snarled. He pointed at
the four beds in a row. I felt guiltily conscious
of them. At the moment they appeared so unnecessarily
clean and warm and soft. The silk coverlets
at the foot of each struck me as being disgracefully
effeminate. They made me ashamed.
“I hope,” said Mr. Hamlin,
speaking slowly and picking his words, “when
you turn into those beds to-night you’ll think
of me in the mud. I hope when you’re having
your five-course dinner and your champagne you’ll
remember my bully beef. I hope when a shell or
Mr. Pneumonia gets me, you’ll write a nice little
sob story about the ’brave lads in the trenches.’”
He looked at us, standing like schoolboys,
sheepish, embarrassed, and silent, and then threw
open the door. “I hope,” he added,
“you all choke!”
With an unconvincing imitation of
the college chum manner, John cleared his throat and
said: “Don’t forget, Fred, if there’s
anything I can do ”
Hamlin stood in the doorway smiling at us.
“There’s something you can all do,”
he said.
“Yes?” asked John heartily.
“You can all go to hell!” said Mr. Hamlin.
We heard the door slam, and his hobnailed
boots pounding down the stairs. No one spoke.
Instead, in unhappy silence, we stood staring at
the floor. Where the uniform had lain was a pool
of mud and melted snow and the darker stains of stale
blood.