Taking up my girl’s body in
my arms, I stumbled over the wreck-encumbered deck,
and bore it to the state-room she had occupied on
the outward voyage. Percival was too busy attending
to wounded sailors to be interrupted. His services,
I knew, were useless now, but I wanted him to refute
or corroborate a conviction which my own medical knowledge
had forced upon me. The thought was so repellent,
I clung to any hope which might lead to its dispersion.
I waited alone with my dead.
Percival came after an hour, which
seemed to me an eternity. He stammered out some
incoherent words of sympathy as soon as he looked in
my face. But this was not the purpose for which
I had detached him from his pressing duties elsewhere.
I made a gesture towards the dead girl. He attended
to it immediately. I watched closely and took
care that the light should be on his face, so that
I might read his eyes rather than listen to his words.
“She has fainted!” he
exclaimed, as he approached the rigid figure.
I said nothing until he turned and faced me.
Then I read his eyes. He said slowly: “You
are aware, Marcel, that that she is dead?”
“I am.”
“That she has been dead several hours?”
“I am.”
“But let me think. It was only an hour ”
“No; do not think,” I
interrupted. “There are things in this voyage
which will not bear to be thought of. I thank
you for coming so soon. You will forgive me for
troubling you when you have so much to do elsewhere.
And now leave us alone. I mean, leave me alone.”
He pressed my hand, and went away
without a word. I am that man’s friend.
They buried her at sea.
I was happily unconscious at the time,
and so was spared that scene. Edith Metford,
weak and suffering as she was, went through it all.
She has told me nothing about it, save that it was
done. More than that I could not bear. And
I have borne much.
The voyage home was a dreary episode.
There is little more to tell, and it must be told
quickly. Percival was kind, but it distressed
me to find that he now plainly regarded me as weak-minded
from the stress of my trouble. Once, in the extremity
of my misery, I began a relation of my adventures
to him, for I wanted his help. The look upon his
face was enough for me. I did not make the same
mistake again.
To Anderson I made amends for my extravagant
display of temper. He received me more kindly
than I expected. I no longer thought of the money
that had passed between us. And, to do him tardy
justice, I do not think he thought of it either.
At least he did not offer any of it back. His
scruples, I presume, were conscientious. Indeed,
I was no longer worth a man’s enmity. Sympathy
was now the only indignity that could be put upon
me. And Anderson did not trespass in that direction.
My misery was, I thought, complete. One note
must still be struck in that long discord of despair.
We were steaming along the southern
coast of Java. For many hours the rugged cliffs
and giant rocks which fence the island against the
onslaught of the Indian Ocean had passed before us
as in review, and we Edith Metford and
I sat on the deck silently, with many thoughts
in common, but without the interchange of a spoken
word. The stern, forbidding aspect of that iron
coast increased the gloom which had settled on my
brain. Its ramparts of lonely sea-drenched crags
depressed me below the mental zero that was now habitual
with me. The sun went down in a red glare, which
moved me not. The short twilight passed quickly,
but I noticed nothing. Then night came. The
restless sea disappeared in darkness. The grand
march past of the silent stars began. But I neither
knew nor cared.
A soft whisper stirred me.
“Arthur, for God’s sake
rouse yourself! You are brooding a great deal
too much. It will destroy you.”
Listlessly I put my hand in hers,
and clasped her fingers gently.
“Bear with me!” I pleaded.
“I will bear with you for ever.
But you must fight on. You have not won yet.”
“No, nor ever shall. I
have fought my last fight. The victory may go
to whosoever desires it.”
On this she wept. I could not
bear that she should suffer from my misery, and so,
guarding carefully her injured arm, I drew her close
to me. And then, out of the darkness of the night,
far over the solitude of the sea, there came to us
the sound of a voice. That voice was a woman’s
wail. The girl beside me shuddered and drew back.
I did not ask her if she had heard. I knew she
had heard.
We arose and stood apart without any
explanation. From that moment a caress would
have been a sacrilege. I did not hear that weird
sound again, nor aught else for an hour or more save
the bursting of the breakers on the crags of Java.
I kept no record of the commonplaces
of our voyage thereafter. It only remains for
me to say that I arrived in England broken in health
and bankrupt in fortune. Brande left no money.
His formula for the transmutation of metals is unintelligible
to me. I can make no use of it.
Edith Metford remains my friend.
To part utterly after what we have undergone together
is beyond our strength. But between us there is
a nameless shadow, reminiscent of that awful night
in the Arafura Sea, when death came very near to us.
And in my ears there is always the echo of that voice
which I heard by the shores of Java when the misty
borderland between life and death seemed clear.
My story is told. I cannot prove
its truth, for there is much in it to which I am the
only living witness. I cannot prove whether Herbert
Brande was a scientific magician possessed of all
the powers he claimed, or merely a mad physicist in
charge of a new and terrible explosive; nor whether
Edward Grey ever started for Labrador. The burthen
of the proof of this last must be borne by others unless
it be left to Grey himself to show whether my evidence
is false or true. If it be left to him, a few
years will decide the issue.
I am content to wait.