When he had entered his study he sat
down to think. His man announced a patient, but
the doctor made no reply. Suddenly he glanced
up at the waiting servant.
“Will you tell Mr. Long as he
leaves that I wish to speak to him.”
Then he went on thinking. Soon
there was a knock, and Long came into his study.
The doctor motioned to the chair he had just left,
and, reaching for a box of cigars, took one and lit
it. Long watched him expectantly.
“Shall you stay on here much
longer?” the doctor asked at last, in his usual
composed manner.
“Oh, I don’t much know.
I want to get back to Paris in the winter if ”
“Don’t bother about that,”
the doctor interrupted him, hastily. “You
can trust me to find the amount, you know, until you
are squarely on your feet; only,” his voice
grew sharper, “you won’t do much here.
You should go at once.”
The young man stared.
“Sail next week,” the
doctor continued, blandly, but fixing his eyes steadily
on Long’s face.
“I don’t know that I can accept ”
The older man waved his hand hastily.
“You can from me. I have been your father
for a good many years.”
There was a pause. Then Long
blushed slowly. “I don’t know that
I can,” he said at length. “Why are
you so anxious to get rid of me?” It was the
doctor’s turn for silence.
“If you don’t go now,
you will not be likely to go for a long time.”
His eyes kept firmly on the young man’s face.
“And if I have a reason to stay here?”
“There can be no reason stronger than your success.”
“But there is at
least,” he paused, awkwardly “I
feel there is, I hope there is.”
“Do you know why I have backed you so persistently?”
“You have been awfully kind!”
“It was not altogether on your
father’s account,” the doctor interrupted
him. “I might have put you in some business
and left you to fight your own way. That kind
of experience we all know makes men, the successful
men, who are tried and found capable of bearing strains.
I have saved you so far from that struggle. Why?
“Because,” continued the
doctor authoritatively, “there are some men
who care more to do some one thing, who love one object,
more than they care for success, for fame, for pleasure.
If they are defeated, if they never have the chance
to do that one thing perhaps the world
is no poorer there are plenty to take their
places, but they are capable of misery, real misery,
such as no common failure ever brings to the common
man. They may be foolish; they may be idle and
be drawn aside and think they are happier in doing
what comes along, but that is never true. They
are wretched. Such men can never love, except
as an interlude. Do you understand me?”
The doctor paused at this sharp interrogation;
Long’s eyes had followed him wonderingly during
his long monologue.
“So you thought ” he
stammered.
“That you were made in that
way,” nodded the doctor; “an undomesticated
animal.”
Long sat brooding over this idea.
The doctor went on in his low, swift tones.
“You have the hunger and the
thirst for that work over there. You would play
with a woman and then put her out of your heart into
the street, or try to tame yourself. Which would
be worse.”
“And if I am not so sure that
I am built like that? Suppose I am willing to
make the sacrifice, if you call it that?”
The doctor’s tone became neutral again.
“You refer to a possible interest in my daughter.”
Long’s face slowly flushed under the word “possible.”
“Yes! at least, perhaps I
have never put it to myself exactly indeed
why do you ask?”
“May I ask how far that interest has gone?”
The younger man half rose from his chair.
“If it had gone at all,” he said,
hotly, “you would have known it.”
“Yes,” the doctor knitted
his eyebrows, “that’s all right. Don’t
feel disturbed. If I didn’t consider you
to be a gentleman in a more intensive sense of the
word than is usual, I shouldn’t be talking to
you like this. Have a cigar.” There
was another long pause. The doctor debated quickly
with himself what course to take. When he resumed,
he used his rough weapon.
“You ought to know that my daughter
will have very little in case of my death.” This
time the young man rose entirely from his seat.
The doctor smiled and waved him back. “And
nothing until my death, which won’t come while
you are a young man. The world reports me well
to do, and I am, but I am taxed by society heavily.
I mean I have large demands on my income, and aside
from certain properties that must be left in trust
for other people and a modest provision for my wife
and child, there isn’t likely to be much.
I tell you all this, partly because I like you, and
partly because I think it is only fair. I don’t
think you are after money. But you must realize
now that money will make a great difference in your
career.”
When Long moved hastily, the doctor smiled.
“I don’t say that you
should hunt a fortune, but you should keep out of
the way of attractive women without fortune.”
This time he gave Long an opportunity
to vent his feelings. When he had finished, he
began again quietly.
“What you say is singularly
like what I said myself about nineteen years ago.
I think I will tell you the story,” and he proceeded
coldly to give him an outline of his life. Long
listened respectfully. At the close he said,
“But the cases are not similar, exactly.”
“No two human cases ever are,
but the theme is the same. You might arrange
a different compromise; it would be a compromise.”
“Your difficulties were enormous!
Why need I plan for such misfortunes?”
“You mean the outside affairs,
the money? That might be arranged of course.
There would remain my daughter, a subject which I can
discuss with precision. She is in fair health,
and while I live to look after her she will probably
continue so. Her nerves are morbid, her egotism
is excessive, her restlessness is abnormal. She
is rather a brilliant girl, I think, and to me a very
dear one. But her career needs to be guided,
or some decided smash will come.”
“You have no confidence in me?”
“The greatest. It is not
her welfare only which I am considering, but yours.
Besides, if she were normal or dull, not an exacting
young American, yet she would be a woman. And
as such her interests must be opposed to yours forever.
Should you marry her, I would be forced to agree with
her and oppose you wherever you stepped beyond conventionality.”
Suddenly Long turned on his tormentor
with a bold question.
“Your marriage you would not
consider a failure, even under worse conditions?”
The doctor winced at this thrust,
which he considered legitimate.
He had had his moments of doubt even
in the thick of his loyalty to his wife and child
when this question had tormented him. Miasmatic
moments that come to firm men also, and make them dizzy
with the thought of the mere waywardness of life.
Had he been any better or wiser than Roper Ellwell?
When the test of a vital passion had come he had acted
like any other inconsiderate, purposeless young man,
like any one with a chaotic will-less past!
But this temptation he had mastered,
as he had mastered almost all the elements of his
fate.
“That kind of a question can
never be answered fairly. No one has the complete
data. No! I can honestly say no.
Yet it has altered my life profoundly, that I can
say.”
“Then why are you so pessimistic for me?”
“Because,” the doctor
replied, slowly, “such a marriage as mine has
been, such a marriage as yours would be, is a career
in itself. Beyond that nothing understand,
nothing.”
“Love is a great career!”
“It is; but there is hardly
a man I have ever known who could embrace it, and
that only, for a lifetime. You could not, I think,
and you would be miserable. It is a humble career
though it is rich. The man who wins does not
devote his life to an exacting passion for a neurotic
woman. You are the man to win: go in.”
The doctor rose.
“Now I must leave you to see
a patient who has been waiting. Think you
don’t love her, poor child; what do you know
of love? You are putting your mind in order for
love, and it will come quickly enough.”
Long stared irresponsibly at the floor.
“I am glad we have been able to talk this over
without passion. You have not obliged me to use
any coarse authority, or any influence except your
own sane judgment. We have been unsentimental
men. You have confessed to nothing more than a
liking for a pretty girl. You have committed yourself
to nothing.”
The doctor paused, resting his hands
firmly on the table between them. He read the
young man’s face eagerly, and he felt sure that
he had gained his point.
“Now, go,” he continued
kindly, “and God-speed to you! Go in to
win!”
He turned. Long rose mechanically
as if ordered by a superior, opened the door, and
disappeared into the dark hall. The doctor listened
for the sound of his footsteps. When he heard
the tread on the ground beneath the office window,
he sighed and stepped out into the hall. His
daughter was standing in the doorway at the farther
end, as if looking for some one.
“Where is Mr. Long, papa?”
“He has gone.”
The doctor’s voice dwelt slightly
on the last word. The girl glanced at him sharply,
and then turned back into the lighted drawing-room.
“Dinner is waiting, Jarvis,”
Mrs. Thornton spoke from a lounge within the room.
“Why didn’t you keep Mr. Long?”
The doctor walked over to his wife
and stood for a moment by her side. She smiled
in further interrogation; the doctor bent and kissed
her.
“Long didn’t care to stay,”
he replied. Then he went back to his patient.