London lay as if washed with water-colour
that Sunday morning, light blue sky and pale dancing
sunlight wooing the begrimed stones of Westminster
like a young girl with an old lover. The empty
streets, clean-swept, were bathed in the light, and
appeared to be transformed from the streets of week-day
life. Yet the half of Londoners lay late abed,
perhaps because six mornings a week of reality made
them care little for one of magic.
Peter, nevertheless, saw little of
this beauty. He walked swiftly as always, and
he looked about him, but he noticed none of these things.
True, a fluttering sheet of newspaper headlines impaled
on the railings of St. Margaret’s held him for
a second, but that was because its message was the
one that rang continually in his head, and had nothing
at all to do with the beauty of things that he passed
by.
He was a perfectly dressed young man,
in a frock coat and silk hat of the London clergyman,
and he was on his way to preach at St. John’s
at the morning service. Walking always helped
him to prepare his sermons, and this sermon would
ordinarily have struck him as one well worth preparing.
The pulpit of St. John’s marked a rung up in
the ladder for him. That great fashionable church
of mid-Victorian faith and manners held a congregation
on Sunday mornings for which the Rector catered with
care. It said a good deal for Peter that he had
been invited to preach. He ought to have had
his determined scheme plain before him, and a few
sentences, carefully polished, at hand for the beginning
and the end. He could trust himself in the middle,
and was perfectly conscious of that. He frankly
liked preaching, liked it not merely as an actor loves
to sway his audience, but liked it because he always
knew what to say, and was really keen that people
should see his argument. And yet this morning,
when he should have been prepared for the best he could
do, he was not prepared at all.
Strictly, that is not quite true,
for he had a text, and the text absolutely focused
his thought. But it was too big for him.
Like some at least in England that day, he was conscious
of staring down a lane of tragedy that appalled him.
Fragments and sentences came and went in his head.
He groped for words, mentally, as he walked. Over
and over again he repeated his text. It amazed
him by its simplicity; it horrified him by its depth.
Hilda was waiting at the pillar-box
as she had said she would be, and little as she could
guess it, she irritated him. He did not want her
just then. He could hardly tell why, except that,
somehow, she ran counter to his thoughts altogether
that morning. She seemed, even in her excellent
brown costume that fitted her fine figure so well,
out of place, and out of place for the first time.
They were not openly engaged, these
two, but there was an understanding between them,
and an understanding that her family was slowly recognising.
Mr. Lessing, at first, would never have accepted an
engagement, for he had other ideas for his daughter
of the big house in Park Lane. The rich city
merchant, church-warden at St. John’s, important
in his party, and a person of distinction when at his
club, would have been seriously annoyed that his daughter
should consider a marriage with a curate whose gifts
had not yet made him an income. But he recognised
that the young man might go far. “Young
Graham?” he would say, “Yes, a clever
young fellow, with quite remarkable gifts, sir.
Bishop thinks a lot of him, I believe. Preaches
extraordinarily well. The Rector said he would
ask him to St. John’s one morning....”
Peter Graham’s parish ran down
to the river, and included slums in which some of
the ladies of St. John’s (whose congregation
had seen to it that in their immediate neighbourhood
there were no such things) were interested. So
the two had met. She had found him admirable and
likeable; he found her highly respectable and seemingly
unapproachable. From which cold elements much
more may come than one might suppose.
At any rate, now, Mrs. Lessing said
nothing when Hilda went to post a letter in London
on Sunday morning before breakfast. She would
have mildly remonstrated if the girl had gone to meet
the young man. The which was England once, and
may, despite the Kaiser, be England yet once more.
“I was nearly going,” she declared.
“You’re a bit late.”
“I know,” he replied;
“I couldn’t help it. The early service
took longer than usual. But I’m glad to
see you before breakfast. Tell me, what does
your father think of it all?”
The girl gave a little shrug of the
shoulders, “Oh, he says war is impossible.
The credit system makes it impossible. But if
he really thinks so, I don’t see why he should
say it so often and so violently. Oh, Peter,
what do you think?”
The young man unconsciously quickened
his pace. “I think it is certain,”
he said. “We must come in. I should
say, more likely, the credit system makes it impossible
for us to keep out. I mean, half Europe can’t
go to war and we sit still. Not in these days.
And if it comes Good Lord, Hilda, do you
know what it means? I can’t see the end,
only it looks to me like being a fearful smash....
Oh, we shall pull through, but nobody seems to see
that our ordinary life will come down like a pack of
cards. And what will the poor do? And can’t
you see the masses of poor souls that will be thrown
into the vortex like, like....” He broke
off. “I can’t find words,”
he said, gesticulating nervously. “It’s
colossal.”
“Peter, you’re going to
preach about it: I can see you are. But do
take care what you say. I should hate father
to be upset. He’s so oh, I don’t
know! British, I think. He hates
to be thrown out, you know, and he won’t think
all that possible.”
She glanced up (the least little bit
that she had to) anxiously. Graham smiled.
“I know Mr. Lessing,” he said. “But,
Hilda, he’s got to be moved. Why,
he may be in khaki yet!”
“Oh, Peter, don’t be silly.
Why, father’s fifty, and not exactly in training,”
she laughed. Then, seriously: “But
for goodness’ sake don’t say such things for
my sake, anyway.”
Peter regarded her gravely, and held
open the gate. “I’ll remember,”
he said, “but more unlikely things may happen
than that.”
They went up the path together, and
Hilda slipped a key into the door. As it opened,
a thought seemed to strike her for the first time.
“What will you do?” she demanded
suddenly.
Mrs. Lessing was just going into the
dining-room, and Peter had no need to reply.
“Good-morning, Mr. Graham,” she said, coming
forward graciously. “I wondered if Hilda
would meet you: she wanted to post a letter.
Come in. You must be hungry after your walk.”
A manservant held the door open, and
they all went in. That magic sun shone on the
silver of the breakfast-table, and lit up the otherwise
heavy room. Mrs. Lessing swung the cover of a
silver dish and the eggs slipped in to boil.
She touched a button on the table and sat down, just
as Mr. Lessing came rather ponderously forward with
a folded newspaper in his hand.
“Morning, Graham,” he
said. “Morning, Hilda. Been out, eh?
Well, well, lovely morning out; makes one feel ten
years younger. But what do you think of all this,
Graham?” waving the paper as he spoke.
Peter just caught the portentous headline
“Germany declares war on
Russia,”
as he pulled up to the table, but
he did not need to see it. There was really no
news: only that. “It is certain, I
think, sir,” he said.
“Oh, certain, certain,”
said Lessing, seating himself. “The telegrams
say they are over the frontier of Luxembourg and massing
against France. Grey can’t stop ’em
now, but the world won’t stand it can’t
stand it. There can’t be a long war.
Probably it’s all a big bluff again; they know
in Berlin that business can’t stand a war, or
at any rate a long war. And we needn’t
come in. In the City, yesterday, they said the
Government could do more by standing out. We’re
not pledged. Anderson told me Asquith said so
distinctly. And, thank God, the Fleet’s
ready! It’s madness, madness, and we must
keep our heads. That’s what I say, anyway.”
Graham cracked an egg mechanically.
His sermon was coming back to him. He saw a congregation
of Lessings, and more clearly than ever the other
things. “What about Belgium?” he queried.
“Surely our honour is engaged there?”
Mr. Lessing pulled up his napkin,
visibly perturbed. “Yes, but what can we
do?” he demanded. “What is the good
of flinging a handful of troops overseas, even if
we can? It’s incredible English
troops in Flanders in this century. In my opinion in
my opinion, I say we should do better to
hold ourselves in readiness. Germany would never
really dare antagonise us. They know what it
involves. Why, there’s hundreds of millions
of pounds at stake. Grey has only to be firm,
and things must come right. Must absolutely
must.”
“Annie said, this morning, that
she heard everyone in the streets last night say we
must fight, father,” put in Hilda.
“Pooh!” exclaimed the
city personage, touched now on the raw. “What
do the fools know about it? I suppose the Daily
Mail will scream, but, thank God, this country
has not quite gone to the dogs yet. The people,
indeed! The mass of the country is solid for sense
and business, and trusts the Government. Of course,
the Tory press will make the whole question a party
lever if it can, but it can’t. What!
Are we going to be pushed into war by a mob and a
few journalists? Why, Labour even will be dead
against it. Come, Graham, you ought to know something
about that. More in your line than mine don’t
you think so?”
“You really ought not to let
the maids talk so,” said Mrs. Lessing gently.
Peter glanced at her with a curiously
hopeless feeling, and looked slowly round the room
until his eyes rested on Mr. Lessing’s portrait
over the mantelshelf, presented by the congregation
of St. John’s on some occasion two years before.
From the portrait he turned to the gentleman, but it
was not necessary for him to speak. Mr. Lessing
was saying something to the man probably
ordering the car. He glanced across at Hilda,
who had made some reply to her mother and was toying
with a spoon. He thought he had never seen her
look more handsome and.... He could not find the
word: thought of “solid,” and then
smiled at the thought. It did not fit in with
the sunlight on her hair.
“Well, well,” said Mr.
Lessing; “we ought to make a move. It won’t
do for either of us to be late, Mr. Preacher.”
The congregation of St. John’s
assembled on a Sunday morning as befitted its importance
and dignity. Families arrived, or arrived by two
or three representatives, and proceeded with due solemnity
to their private pews. No one, of course, exchanged
greetings on the way up the church, but every lady
became aware, not only of the other ladies present,
but of what each wore. A sidesman, with an air
of portentous gravity, as one who, in opening doors,
performed an office more on behalf of the Deity than
the worshippers, was usually at hand to usher the party
in. Once there, there was some stir of orderly
bustle: kneelers were distributed according to
requirements, books sorted out after the solemn unlocking
of the little box that contained them, sticks and
hats safely stowed away. These duties performed,
paterfamilias cast one penetrating glance round the
church, and leaned gracefully forward with a kind of
circular motion. Having suitably addressed Almighty
God (it is to be supposed), he would lean back, adjust
his trousers, possibly place an elbow on the pew-door,
and contemplate with a fixed and determined gaze the
distant altar.
Peter, of course, wound in to solemn
music with the procession of choir boys and men, and,
accorded the honour of a beadle with a silver mace,
since he was to preach, was finally installed in a
suitably cushioned seat within the altar-rails.
He knelt to pray, but it was an effort to formulate
anything. He was intensely conscious that morning
that a meaning hitherto unfelt and unguessed lay behind
his world, and even behind all this pomp and ceremony
that he knew so well. Rising, of course, when
the senior curate began to intone the opening sentence
in a manner which one felt was worthy even of St.
John’s, he allowed himself to study his surroundings
as never before.
The church had, indeed, an air of
great beauty in the morning sunlight. The Renaissance
galleries and woodwork, mellowed by time, were dusted
by that soft warm glow, and the somewhat sparse congregation,
in its magnificently isolated groups, was humanised
by it too. The stone of the chancel, flecked
with colour, had a quiet dignity, and even the altar,
ecclesiastically ludicrous, had a grace of its own.
There was to be a celebration after Matins. The
historic gold plate was therefore arranged on the
retable with something of the effect of show pieces
at Mappin and Webb’s. Peter noticed three
flagons, and between them two patens of great
size. A smaller pair for use stood on the credence-table.
The gold chalice and paten, veiled, stood on the altar-table
itself, and above them, behind, rose the cross and
two vases of hot-house lilies. Suggesting one
of the great shields of beaten gold that King Solomon
had made for the Temple of Jerusalem, an alms-dish
stood on edge, and leant against the retable to the
right of the veiled chalice. Peter found himself
marvelling at its size, but was recalled to his position
when it became necessary to kneel for the Confession.
The service followed its accustomed
course, and throughout the whole of it Peter was conscious
of his chaotic sermon. He glanced at his notes
occasionally, and then put them resolutely away, well
aware that they would be all but useless to him.
Either he would, at the last, be able to formulate
the thoughts that raced through his head, or else he
could do no more than occupy the pulpit for the conventional
twenty minutes with a conventional sermon. At
times he half thought he would follow this easier
course, but then the great letters of the newspaper
poster seemed to frame themselves before him, and
he knew he could not. And so, at last, there
was the bowing beadle with the silver mace, and he
must set out on the little dignified procession to
the great Jacobean pulpit with its velvet cushion
at the top.
Hilda’s mind was a curious study
during that sermon. At first, as her lover’s
rather close-cropped, dark-haired head appeared in
sight, she had studied him with an odd mixture of
pride and apprehension. She held her hymn-book,
but she did not need it, and she watched surreptitiously
while he opened the Bible, arranged some papers, and,
in accordance with custom, knelt to pray. She
began to think half-thoughts of the days that might
be, when perhaps she would be the wife of the Rector
of some St. John’s, and later, possibly, of
a Bishop. Peter had it in him to go far, she
knew. She half glanced round with a self-conscious
feeling that people might be guessing at her thoughts,
and then back, wondering suddenly if she really knew
the man, or only the minister. And then there
came the rustle of shutting books and of people composing
themselves to listen, the few coughs, the vague suggestion
of hassocks and cushions being made comfortable.
And then, in a moment, almost with the giving out
of the text, the sudden stillness and that tense sensation
which told that the young orator had gripped his congregation.
Thereafter she hardly heard him, as
it were, and she certainly lost the feeling of ownership
that had been hers before. As he leaned over the
pulpit, and the words rang out almost harshly from
their intensity, she began to see, as the rest of
the congregation began to see, the images that the
preacher conjured up before her. A sense of coming
disaster riveted her the feeling that she
was already watching the end of an age.
“Jesus had compassion on the
multitude” that had been the short
and simple text. Simple words, the preacher had
said, but how when one realised Who had had compassion,
and on what? Almighty God Himself, with His incarnate
Mind set on the working out of immense and agelong
plans, had, as it were, paused for a moment to have
compassion on hungry women and crying babies and folk
whose petty confused affairs could have seemed of
no consequence to anyone in the drama of the world.
And then, with a few terse sentences, the preacher
swung from that instance to the world drama of to-day.
Did they realise, he asked, that peaceful bright Sunday
morning, that millions of simple men were at that moment
being hurled at each other to maim and kill?
At the bidding of powers that even they could hardly
visualise, at the behest of world politics that not
one in a thousand would understand and scarcely any
justify, houses were being broken up, women were weeping,
and children playing in the sun before cottage doors
were even now being left fatherless. It was incredible,
colossal, unimaginable, but as one tried to picture
it, Hell had opened her mouth and Death gone forth
to slay. It was terrible enough that battlefields
of stupendous size should soon be littered with the
dying and the dead, but the aftermath of such a war
as this would be still more terrible. No one
could say how near it would come to them all.
No one could tell what revolution in morals and social
order such a war as this might not bring. That
day God Himself looked down on the multitude as sheep
having no shepherd, abandoned to be butchered by the
wolves, and His heart beat with a divine compassion
for the infinite sorrows of the world.
There was little more to it.
An exhortation to go home to fear and pray and set
the house in order against the Day of Wrath, and that
was all. “My brethren,” said the
young man and the intensity of his thought
lent a certain unusual solemnity to the conventional
title “no one can tell how the events
of this week may affect us. Our feet may even
now be going down into the Valley of the Shadow of
temptation, of conflict, of death, and even now there
may be preparing for us a chalice such as we shall
fear to drink. Let us pray that in that hour the
compassion of Jesus may be real to us, and we ourselves
find a sure place in that sorrowful Heart.”
And he was gone from the pulpit without
another word. It would have been almost ridiculous
if one had noted that the surprised beadle had had
no “And now to God the Father ...” in
which to reach the pulpit, and had been forced to
meet his victim hurrying halfway up the chancel; but
perhaps no one but that dignitary, whom the fall of
thrones would not shake, had noticed it. The
congregation paid the preacher the great compliment
of sitting on in absolute silence for a minute or two.
For a moment it still stared reality in the face.
And then Mr. Lessing shifted in his pew and coughed,
and the Rector rose, pompously as usual, to announce
the hymn, and Hilda became conscious of unaccustomed
tears in her eyes.
The senior curate solemnly uncovered
and removed the chalice. Taking bread and wine,
he deposited the sacred vessels at the north end of
the altar, returned to the centre, unfolded the corporal,
received the alms, and as solemnly set the great gold
dish on the corporal itself, after the unmeaning custom
of the church. And then came the long prayer and
the solemn procession to the vestry, while a dozen
or two stayed with the senior curate for the Communion.
Graham found himself in the little
inner vestry, with its green-cloth table and massive
inkstand and registers, and began to unvest mechanically.
He got his coat out of the beautiful carved wardrobe,
and was folding up his hood and surplice, when the
Rector laid a patronising hand on his shoulder.
“A good sermon, Graham,” he said “a
good sermon, if a little emotional. It was a
pity you forgot the doxology. But it is a great
occasion, I fear a greater occasion than we know, and
you rose to it very well. Last night I had half
a mind to ’phone you not to come, and to preach
myself, but I am glad now I did not. I am sure
we are very grateful. Eh, Sir Robert?”
Sir Robert Doyle, the other warden,
was making neat piles of sovereigns on the green cloth,
while Mr. Lessing counted the silver as to the manner
born. He was a pillar of the church, too, was
Sir Robert, but a soldier and a straight speaker.
He turned genially to the young man.
“From the shoulder, Rector,”
he said. “Perhaps it will make a few of
us sit up a little. Coming down to church I met
Arnold of the War Office, and he said war was certain.
Of course it is. Germany has been playing up
for it for years, and we fools have been blind and
mad. But it’ll come now. Thank God,
I can still do a bit, and maybe we shall meet out there
yet eh, Mr. Graham?”
Somehow or another that aspect of
the question had not struck Peter forcibly till now.
He had been so occupied with visualising the march
of world events that he had hardly thought of himself
as one of the multitude. But now the question
struck home. What would he do? He was at
a loss for the moment.
The Rector saved him, however.
“Well, well, of course, Sir Robert, apart from
the chaplains, the place of the clergy will be almost
certainly at home. Hospital visiting, and so
on, will take a lot of time. I believe the Chaplain-General’s
Department is fully staffed, but doubtless, if there
is any demand, the clergy will respond. It is,
of course, against Canon Law for them to fight, though
doubtless our young friend would like to do his share
in that if he could. You were in the O.T.C. at
Oxford, weren’t you, Graham?”
“Yes,” said Graham shortly.
“The French priests are mobilising with the
nation,” said Sir Robert.
“Ah, yes, naturally,”
replied the Rector; “that is one result of the
recent anti-clerical legislation. Thank God, this
country has been spared that, and in any case we shall
never have conscription. Probably the Army will
have to be enlarged half a million will
be required at least, I should think. That will
mean more chaplains, but I should suppose the Bishops
will select oh, yes, surely their lordships
will select. It would be a pity for you to go,
Graham; it’s rough work with the Tommies,
and your gifts are wanted at home. The Vicar of
St. Thomas’s speaks very highly of your gifts
as an organiser, and doubtless some sphere will be
opened up for you. Well, well, these are stirring
times. Good-morning, Mr. Graham.”
He held out his hand to the young
man. Mr. Lessing, carefully smoothing his silk
hat, looked up. “Come in to luncheon with
us, will you, Graham?” he said.
Peter assented, and shook hands all
round. Sir Robert and he moved out together,
and the baronet caught his eye in the porch. “This’ll
jog him up a bit, I’m thinking,” he said
to himself. “There’s stuff in that
chap, but he’s got to feel his legs.”
Outside the summer sun was now powerful,
and the streets were dusty and more busy. The
crowd had thinned at the church door, but Hilda and
Mrs. Lessing were waiting for the car.
“Don’t let’s drive,”
said Hilda as they came up; “I’d much sooner
walk home to-day.”
Her father smiled paternally.
“Bit cramped after church, eh?” he said.
“Well, what do you say, dear?” he asked
his wife.
“I think I shall drive,”
Mrs. Lessing replied; “but if Mr. Graham is
coming to luncheon, perhaps he will walk round with
Hilda. Will you, Mr. Graham?”
“With pleasure,” said
Peter. “I agree with Miss Lessing, and the
walk will be jolly. We’ll go through the
park. It’s less than half an hour, isn’t
it?”
It was arranged at that, and the elders
drove off. Peter raised his hat to Sir Robert,
who turned up the street, and together he and Hilda
crossed over the wide thoroughfare and started down
for the park.
There was silence for a little, and
it was Peter who broke it.
“Just before breakfast,”
he said, “you asked me what I should do, and
I had no chance to reply. Well, they were talking
of it in the vestry just now, and I’ve made
up my mind. I shall write to-night to the Bishop
and ask for a chaplaincy.”
They walked on a hundred yards or
so in silence again. Then Hilda broke it.
“Peter,” she began, and stopped. He
glanced at her quickly, and saw in a minute that the
one word had spoken truly to him.
“Oh, Hilda,” he said,
“do you really care all that? You can’t
possibly! Oh, if we were not here, and I could
tell you all I feel! But, dear, I love you; I
know now that I have loved you for months, and it is
just because I love you that I must go.”
“Peter,” began Hilda again,
and again stopped. Then she took a grip of herself,
and spoke out bravely. “Oh, Peter,”
she said, “you’ve guessed right.
I never meant you to at least, not yet,
but it is terrible to think of you going out there.
I suppose I ought to be glad and proud, and in a way
I am, but you don’t seem the right person for
it. It’s wasting you. And I don’t
know what I shall do without you. You’ve
become the centre of my life. I count on seeing
you, and on working with you. If you go, you,
you may ... Oh, I can’t say it! I ought
not to say all this. But...” She broke
off abruptly.
Graham glanced round him. They
were in the park now, and no one in particular was
about in the quiet of the sidewalk. He put his
hand out, and drew her gently to a seat. Then,
leaning forward and poking at the ground with his
stick, he began. “Hilda, darling,”
he said, “it’s awful to have to speak
to you just now and just like this, but I must.
First, about ourselves. I love you with all my
heart, only that’s so little to say; I love
you so much that you fill my life. And I have
planned my life with you. I hardly knew it, but
I had. I thought I should just go on and get
a living and marry you perhaps, if you would
(I can hardly speak of it now I know you would) and and oh,
I don’t know make a name in the Church,
I suppose. Well, and I hope we shall one day,
but now this has come along. I really feel all
I said this morning, awfully. I shall go out I
must. The men must be helped; one can’t
sit still and imagine them dying, wounded, tempted,
and without a priest. It’s a supreme chance.
We shall be fighting for honour and truth, and the
Church must be there to bear her witness and speak
her message. There will be no end to do.
And it is a chance of a lifetime to get into touch
with the men, and understand them. You do see
that, don’t you? And, besides forgive
me, but I must put it so if He had
compassion on the multitude, ought we not to have
too? He showed it by death; ought we to fear
even that too?”
The girl stole out a hand, and his
gripped it hard. Then she remembered the conventions
and pulled it away, and sat a little more upright.
She was extraordinarily conscious of herself, and
she felt as if she had two selves that day. One
was Hilda Lessing, a girl she knew quite well, a well-trained
person who understood life, and the business of society
and of getting married, quite correctly; and the other
was somebody she did not know at all, that could not
reason, and who felt naked and ashamed. It was
inexplicable, but it was so. That second self
was listening to heroics and even talking them, and
surely heroics were a little out of date.
She looked across a wide green space,
and saw, through the distant trees, the procession
of the church parade. She felt as if she ought
to be there, and half unconsciously glanced at her
dress. A couple of terriers ran scurrying across
the grass, and a seat-ticket man came round the corner.
Behind them a taxi hooted, and some sparrows broke
out into a noisy chatter in a bush. And here
was Peter talking of death, and the Cross and
out of church, too.
She gave a little shudder, and glanced
at a wrist-watch. “Peter,” she said,
“we must go. Dear, for my sake, do think
it over. Wait a little, and see what happens.
I quite understand your point of view, but you must
think of others even your Vicar, my parents,
and of me. And Peter, shall we say anything about
our our love? What do you think?”
Peter Graham looked at her steadily,
and as she spoke he, too, felt the contrast between
his thoughts and ordinary life. The London curate
was himself again. He got up. “Well,
darling,” he said, “just as you like,
but perhaps not at any rate until I know
what I have to do. I’ll think that over.
Only, we shan’t change, shall we, whatever happens?
You do love me, don’t you? And I
do love you.”
Hilda met his gaze frankly and blushed
a little. She held out a hand to be helped up.
“My dear boy,” she said.
After luncheon Peter smoked a cigar
in the study with Mr. Lessing before departure.
Every detail of that hour impressed itself upon him
as had the events of the day, for his mind was strung
up to see the inner meaning of things clearly.
They began with the usual ritual of
the selection of chairs and cigars, and Mr. Lessing
had a glass of port with his coffee, because, as he
explained, his nerves were all on edge. Comfortably
stretched out in an armchair, blowing smoke thoughtfully
towards the empty grate, his fat face and body did
not seem capable of nerves, still less to be suffering
from them, but then one can never tell from appearances.
At any rate he chose his words with care, and Graham,
opposite but sitting rather upright, could not but
sense his meaning.
“Well, well, well,” he
said, “to think we should come to this!
A European war in this century, and we in it!
Not that I’ll believe it till I hear it officially.
While there’s life there’s hope, eh, Graham?”
Peter nodded, for he did not know what to say.
“The question is,” went
on the other, “that if we are carried into war,
what is the best policy? Some fools will lose
their heads, of course, and chuck everything to run
into it. But I’ve no use for fools, Graham.”
“No, sir,” said Peter.
“No use for fools,” repeated
Mr. Lessing. “I shall carry on with business
as usual, and I hope other people will carry on with
theirs. There are plenty of men who can fight,
and who ought to, without disorganising everything.
Hilda would see that too she’s such
a sensible girl. Look at that Boer affair, and
all that foolery about the C.I.V. Why, I met a
South African at the club the other day who said we’d
have done ten times as well without ’em.
You must have trained men these days, and, after all,
it’s the men behind the armies that win the war.
Men like you and I, Graham, each doing his ordinary
job without excitement. That’s the type
that’s made old England. You ought to preach
about it, Graham. Come to think, it fits in with
what you said this morning, and a good sermon too,
young man. Every man’s got to put his house
in order and carry on. You meant that, didn’t
you?”
“Something like that,”
said Peter; “but as far as the clergy are concerned,
I still think the Bishops ought to pick their men.”
“Yes, yes, of course,”
said Mr. Lessing, stretching himself a bit. “But
I don’t think the clergy could be much use over
there. As the Canon said, there will be plenty
to do at home. In any case it would be no use
rushing the Bishops. Let them see what’s
needed, and then let them choose their men, eh?
A man like London’s sure to be in the know.
Good thing he’s your Bishop, Graham: you
can leave it to him easily?”
“I should think so, sir,” said Peter forlornly.
“Oh, well, glad to hear you
say it, I’m sure, Graham, and so will Mrs. Lessing
be, and Hilda. We’re old-fashioned folk,
you know.... Well, well, and I suppose I oughtn’t
to keep you. I’ll come with you to the door,
my boy.”
He walked ahead of the young man into
the hall, and handed him his hat himself. On
the steps they shook hands to the fire of small sentences.
“Drop in some evening, won’t you?
Don’t know if I really congratulated you on
the sermon; you spoke extraordinarily well, Graham.
You’ve a great gift. After all, this war
will give you a bit of a chance, eh? We must
hear you again in St. John’s.... Good-afternoon.”
“Good-afternoon, Mr. Lessing,”
said Graham, “and thank you for all you’ve
said.”
In the street he walked slowly, and
he thought of all Mr. Lessing had not said as well
as all he had. After all, he had spoken sound
sense, and there was Hilda. He couldn’t
lose Hilda, and if the old man turned out obstinate well,
it would be all but impossible to get her. Probably
things were not as bad as he had imagined. Very
likely it would all be over by Christmas. If
so, it was not much use throwing everything up.
Perhaps he could word the letter to the Bishop a little
differently. He turned over phrases all the way
home, and got them fairly pat. But it was a busy
evening, and he did not write that night.
Monday always began as a full day,
what with staff meeting and so on, and its being Bank
Holiday did not make much difference to them.
But in the afternoon he was free to read carefully
the Sunday papers, and was appalled with the swiftness
of the approach of the universal cataclysm. After
Evensong and supper, then, he got out paper and pen
and wrote, though it took much longer than he thought
it would. In the end he begged the Bishop to
remember him if it was really necessary to find more
chaplains, and expressed his readiness to serve the
Church and the country when he was wanted. When
it was written, he sat long over the closed envelope
and smoked a couple of pipes. He wondered if men
were killing each other, even now, just over the water.
He pictured a battle scene, drawing from imagination
and what he remembered of field-days at Aldershot.
He shuddered a little as he conceived himself crawling
through heather to reach a man in the front line who
had been hit, while the enemies’ guns on the
crest opposite were firing as he had seen them fire
in play. He tried to imagine what it would be
like to be hit.
Then he got up and stretched himself.
He looked round curiously at the bookcase, the Oxford
group or two, the hockey cap that hung on the edge
of one. He turned to the mantelpiece and glanced
over the photos. Probably Bob Scarlett would
be out at once; he was in some Irish regiment or other.
Old Howson was in India; he wouldn’t hear or
see much. Jimmy what would Jimmy do,
now? He picked up the photograph and looked at
it the clean-shaven, thoughtful, good-looking
face of the best fellow in the world, who had got
his fellowship almost at once after his brilliant
degree, and was just now, he reflected, on holiday
in the South of France. Jimmy, the idealist,
what would Jimmy do? He reached for a hat and
made for the door. He would post his letter that
night under the stars.
Once outside, he walked on farther
down Westminster way. At the Bridge he leaned
for a while and watched the sullen, tireless river,
and then turned to walk up past the House. It
was a clear, still night, and the street was fairly
empty. Big Ben boomed eleven, and as he crossed
in front of the gates to reach St. Margaret’s
he wondered what was doing in there. He had the
vaguest notion where people like the Prime Minister
and Sir Edward Grey would be that night. He thought
possibly with the King, or in Downing Street.
And then he heard his name being called, and turned
to see Sir Robert Doyle coming towards him.
The other’s face arrested him.
“Is there any news, Sir Robert?” he asked.
Sir Robert glanced up in his turn
at the great shining dial above them. “Our
ultimatum has gone or is just going to Germany, and
in twenty-four hours we shall be at war,” he
said tersely. “I’m just going home;
I’ve been promised a job.”