Hilda’s religion was, like the
religion of a great many Englishwomen of her class,
of a very curious sort. She never, of course,
analysed it herself, and conceivably she would object
very strongly to the description set down here, but
in practical fact there is no doubt about the analysis.
To begin with, this conventional and charming young
lady of Park Lane had in common with Napoleon Bonaparte
that Christianity meant more to them both as the secret
of social order than as the mystery of the Incarnation.
Hilda was convinced that a decent and orderly life
rested on certain agreements and conclusions in respect
to marriage and class and conduct, and that these
agreements and conclusions were admirably stated in
the Book of Common Prayer, and most ably and decorously
advocated from the pulpit of St. John’s.
She would have said that she believed the agreements
and conclusions because of the Prayer Book, but in
fact she had primarily given in her allegiance to a
social system, and supported the Prayer Book because
of its support of that. Once a month she repeated
the Nicene Creed, but only because, in the nature
of things, the Nicene Creed was given her once a month
to repeat, and she never really conceived that people
might worry strenuously about it, any more than she
did. Being an intelligent girl, she knew, of
course, that people did, and occasionally preachers
occupied the pulpit of St. John’s who were apparently
quite anxious that she and the rest of the congregation
should understand that it meant this and not that,
or that and not this, according to the particular enthusiasm
of the clergyman of the moment. Sentence by sentence
she more or less understood what these gentlemen keenly
urged upon her; as a whole she understood nothing.
She was far too much the child of her environment and
age not to perceive that Mr. Lloyd George’s
experiments in class legislation were vastly more
important.
Peter, therefore, had always been
a bit of an enigma to her. As a rule he fitted
in with the scheme of things perfectly well, for he
was a gentleman, he liked nice things, and he was
splendidly keen on charity organisation and the reform
of abuses on right lines. But now and again he
said and did things which perturbed her. It was
as if she had gradually become complete mistress of
a house, and then had suddenly discovered a new room
into which she peeped for a minute before it was lost
to her again and the door shut. It was no Bluebeard’s
chamber into which she looked; it was much more that
she had a suspicion that the room contained a live
mistress who might come out one day and dispute her
own title. She could tell how Peter would act
nine times out of ten; she knew by instinct, a great
deal better than he did, the conceptions that ruled
his life; but now and again he would hesitate perplexedly
as if at the thought of something that she did not
understand, or act suddenly in response to an overwhelming
flood of impulse whose spring was beyond her control
or even her surmise. Women mother all their men
because men are on the whole such big babies, but
from a generation of babies is born occasionally the
master. Women get so used to the rule that they
forget the exception. When he comes, then, they
are troubled.
But this was not all Hilda’s
religion. For some mysterious reason this product
of a highly civilised community had the elemental in
her. Men and women both have got to eliminate
all trace of sex before they can altogether escape
that. In other words, because in her lay latent
the power of birth, in which moment she would be cloistered
alone in a dark and silent room with infinity, she
clung unreasonably and all but unconsciously to certain
superstitions which she shared with primitive savages
and fetish-worshippers. All of which seems a far
cry from the War Intercession Services at wealthy
and fashionable St. John’s, but it was nothing
more or less than this which was causing her to kneel
on a high hassock, elbows comfortably on the prayer-rail,
and her face in her hands, on a certain Friday evening
in the week after Peter’s arrival in France,
while the senior curate (after suitable pauses, during
which her mind was uncontrollably busy with an infinite
number of things, ranging from the doings of Peter
in France to the increasing difficulty of obtaining
silk stockings), intoned the excellent stately English
of the Prayers set forth by Authority in Time of War.
Two pews ahead of her knelt Sir Robert
Doyle, in uniform. That simple soldier was a
bigger child than most men, and was, therefore, still
conscious of a number of unfathomable things about
him, for the which Hilda, his godchild, adored and
loved him as a mother will adore her child who sits
in a field of buttercups and sees, not minted, nor
botanical, but heavenly gold. He was all the more
lovable, because he conceived that he was much bigger
and stronger than she, and perfectly capable of looking
after her. In that, he was like a plucky boy who
gets up from his buttercups to tell his mother not
to be frightened when a cow comes into the field.
They went out together, and greeted
each other in the porch. “Good-evening,
child,” said the soldier, with a smile.
“And how’s Peter?”
Hilda smiled back, but after a rather
wintry fashion, which the man was quick to note.
“I couldn’t have told you fresh news yesterday,”
she said, “but I had a letter this morning all
about his first Sunday. He’s at Rouen at
a rest camp for the present, though he thinks he’s
likely to be moved almost at once; and he’s
quite well.”
“And then?” queried the other affectionately.
“Oh, he doesn’t know at
all, but he says he doesn’t think there’s
any chance of his getting up the line. He’ll
be sent to another part where there is likely to be
a shortage of chaplains soon.”
“Well, that’s all right,
isn’t it? He’s in no danger at Rouen,
at any rate. If we go on as we’re going
on now, they won’t even hear the guns down there
soon. Come, little girl, what’s worrying
you? I can see there’s something.”
They were in the street now, walking
towards the park, and Hilda did not immediately reply.
Then she said: “What are you going to do?
Can’t you come in for a little? Father
and mother will be out till late, and you can keep
me company.”
He glanced at his watch. “I’ve
got to be at the War Office later,” he said,
“but my man doesn’t reach town till after
ten, so I will. The club’s not over-attractive
these days. What with the men who think one knows
everything and won’t tell, and the men who think
they know everything and want to tell, it’s
a bit trying.”
Hilda laughed merrily. “Poor
Uncle Bob,” she said, giving him her childhood’s
name that had never been discontinued between them.
“You shall come home with me, and sit in father’s
chair, and have a still decent whisky and a cigar,
and if you’re very good I’ll read you part
of Peter’s letter.”
“What would Peter say?”
“Oh, he wouldn’t mind
the bits I’ll read to you. Indeed, I think
he’d like it: he’d like to know what
you think. You see, he’s awfully depressed;
he feels he’s not wanted out there, and though
I don’t know what he means that things,
religious things, you know, aren’t real.”
“Not wanted, eh?” queried
the old soldier. “Now, I wonder why he resents
that. Is it because he feels snubbed? I shouldn’t
be surprised if he had a bit of a swelled head, your
young man, you know, Hilda.”
“Sir Robert Doyle, if you’re
going to be beastly, you can go to your horrid old
club, and I only hope you’ll be worried to death.
Of course it isn’t that. Besides, he says
everyone is very friendly and welcomes him only
he feels that that makes it worse. He thinks they
don’t want well, what he has to give,
I suppose.”
“What he has to give? But
what in the world has he to give? He has to take
parade services, and visit hospitals and” (he
was just going to say “bury the dead,”
but thought it hardly sounded pleasant), “make
himself generally decent and useful, I suppose.
That’s what chaplains did when I was a subaltern,
and jolly decent fellows they usually were.”
“Well, I know. That’s
what I should feel, and that’s what I don’t
quite understand. I suppose he feels he’s
responsible for making the men religious it
reads like that. But you shall hear the letter
yourself.”
Doyle digested this for a while in
silence. Then he gave a sort of snort, which
is inimitable, but always accompanied his outbursts
against things slightly more recent than the sixties.
It had the effect of rousing Hilda, at any rate.
“Don’t, you dear old thing,”
she said, clutching his arm. “I know exactly
what you’re going to say. Young men of your
day minded their business and did their duty, and
didn’t theorise so much. Very likely.
But, you see, our young men had the misfortune to be
born a little later than you. And they can’t
help it.” She sighed a little. “It
is trying sometimes.... But they’re
all right really, and they’ll come back to things.”
They were at the gate by now.
Sir Robert stood aside to let her pass. “I
know, dear,” he said, “I’m an old
fogey. Besides, young Graham has good stuff in
him I always said so. But if he’s
on the tack of trying to stick his fingers into people’s
souls, he’s made a mistake in going to France.
I know Tommy or I did know him. (The Lord
alone knows what’s in the Army these days.)
He doesn’t want that sort of thing. He swears
and he grouses and he drinks, but he respects God
Almighty more than you’d think, and he serves
his Queen I mean his King. A parade
service is a parade, and it’s a bore at times,
but it’s discipline, and it helps in the end.
Like that little ‘do’ to-night, it helps.
One comes away feelin’ one can stand a bit more
for the sake of the decent, clean things of life.”
Hilda regarded the fine, straight
old man for a second as they stood, on the top of
the steps. Then her eyes grew a little misty.
“God bless you, Uncle Bob,” she said.
“You do understand.” And the
two went in together.
Hilda opened the door of the study.
“I’m going to make you comfortable myself,”
she said. She pulled a big armchair round; placed
a reading-lamp on a small table and drew it close;
and she made the old soldier sit in the chair.
Then she unlocked a little cupboard, and got out a
decanter and siphon and glass, and a box of cigars.
She placed these by his side, and stood back quizzically
a second. Then she threw a big leather cushion
at his feet and walked to the switches, turning off
the main light and leaving only the shaded radiance
of the reading-lamp. She turned the shade of
it so that the light would fall on the letter while
she sat on the cushion, and then she bent down, kissed
her godfather, and went to the door. “I
won’t be a moment, Uncle Bob,” she said.
“Help yourself, and get comfortable.”
Five minutes later the door opened
and she came in. As she moved into the circle
of light, the man felt an absurd satisfaction, as if
he were partly responsible for the dignified figure
with its beautifully waved soft, fair hair, of which
he was so proud. She smiled on him, and sat down
at his feet, leaning back against his chair and placing
her left elbow on his knees. He laid a caressing
hand on her arm, and then looked steadily in front
of him lest he should see more than she wished.
Hilda rustled the sheets. “The
first is all about me,” she explained, “and
I’ll skip that. Let me see yes,
here we are. Now listen. It’s rather
long, but you mustn’t say anything till I’ve
finished.”
“‘Saturday’ (Peter’s
letter ran) I gave up to getting ready for Sunday,
though Harold’ (he’s the O.C. of the camp,
Peter says, a jolly decent sort of man) ’wanted
me to go up town with him. I had had a talk with
him about the services, and had fixed up to have a
celebration in the morning in the Y.M.C.A. in camp they
have a quiet room, and there is a table in it that
one puts against the wall and uses for an altar and
an evening service in the canteen-hall part of the
place. I couldn’t have a morning service,
as I was to go out to the forest camp, as I have told
you.’ He said in his first letter how he
had been motored out to see a camp in the forest where
they are cutting wood for something, and he had fixed
up a parade,” said Hilda, looking up. Doyle
nodded gravely, and she went on reading: “’Harold
said he’d like to take Communion, and that I
could put up a notice in the anteroom of the Officers’
Mess.
“’Well, I spent the morning
preparing sermons. I thought I’d preach
from “The axe is laid to the root of the tree”
in the forest, and make a sort of little parable out
of it for the men. I planned to say how Christ
was really watching and testing each one of us, especially
out here, and to begin by talking a bit about Germany,
and how the axe was being laid to that tree because
it wouldn’t bear good fruit. I couldn’t
get much for the evening, so I thought I’d leave
it, and perhaps say much the same as the morning,
only differently introduced. I went and saw the
hut manager, a very decent fellow who is a Baptist
minister at home, and he said he’d like to come
in the morning. Well, I didn’t know what
to say to that; I hated to hurt him, and, of course,
he has no Baptist chapel out here; but I didn’t
know what the regulations might be, and excused myself
on those grounds.
“’Then in the afternoon
I went round the camp. Oh, Hilda, I was fearfully
nervous I don’t know why exactly,
but I was. The men were playing “crown
and anchor,” and sleeping, and cleaning kit (this
is a rest camp you know), and it seemed so cold-blooded
somehow. I told them anyone could come in the
evening if he wanted to, but that in the morning the
service was for Church of England communicants.
I must say I was very bucked up over the result.
I had no end of promises, and those who were going
to be out in the evening said so straight out.
Quite thirty said they’d come in the morning,
and they were very respectful and decent. Then
I wrote out and put up my notices. The mess ragged
a bit about it, but quite decently ("Here’s
the padre actually going to do a bit of work!”
and the usual “I shall be a chaplain in the
next war!"); and I mentioned to one or two whom I
knew to be Church of England that Captain Harold had
said he would come to the early service. Someone
had told me that if the O.C. of a camp comes, the
others often will. After dinner we settled down
to bridge, and about ten-thirty I was just going off
to bed when Harold came in with two or three other
men. Well, I hate to tell you, dear, but I promised
I’d write, and, besides, I do want to talk to
somebody. Anyway, he was what they call “merry,”
and he and his friends were full of talk about what
they’d done up town. I don’t know
that it was anything very bad, but it was awful to
me to think that this chap was going to communicate
next day. I didn’t know what to do, but
I couldn’t say anything then, and I slipped
off to bed as soon as I could. They made a huge
row in the anteroom for some time, but at last I got
to sleep.
“’Next morning I was up
early, and got things fixed up nicely. At eight
o’clock one man came rather sheepishly a
young chap I’d seen the day before and
I waited for some five minutes more. Then I began.
About the Creed, Harold came in, and so we finished
the service. Neither of them seemed to know the
responses at all, and I don’t think I have ever
felt more miserable. However, I had done all
I could do, and I let it go at that. I comforted
myself that I would get on better in the forest, where
I thought there was to be a parade.
“’We got out about eleven
o’clock, and I went to the O.C.’s hut.
He was sitting in a deck chair reading a novel.
He jumped up when he saw me, and was full of apologies.
He’d absolutely forgotten I was coming, and
so no notice had been given, and, anyway, apparently
it isn’t the custom in these camps to have ordered
parade services. He sent for the Sergeant-Major,
who said the men were mostly cleaning camp, but he
thought he could get some together. So I sat and
talked for about twenty minutes, and then went over.
The canteen had been opened, and there were about
twenty men there. They all looked as if they had
been forced in, except one, who turned out to be a
Wesleyan, and chose the hymns out of the Y.M.C.A.
books in the place. They had mission hymns, and
the only one that went well was “Throw out the
life-line,” which is really a rather ghastly
thing. We had short Matins, and I preached as
I had arranged. The men sat stiffly and looked
at me. I don’t know why, but I couldn’t
work up any enthusiasm and it all seemed futile.
Afterwards I tried to talk to this Wesleyan corporal.
He was great on forming a choir to learn hymns, and
then I said straight out that I was new to this sort
of work, and I hoped what I had said was all right.
He said: “Yes, sir, very nice, I’m
sure; but, if you’ll excuse me, what the men
need is converting.”
“’Said I: “What exactly do
you mean by that, corporal?”
“’"Well, sir,” he
said “they want to be led to put their trust
in the Lord and get right with God. There’s
many a rough lad in this camp, sir. If you knew
what went on, you’d see it.”
“I said that I had told them
God was watching them, and that we had to ask His
daily help to live clean, honest lives, and truly repent
of our sins.
“’"Yes, you did, sir,”
he said. “That’s what I say, sir,
it was very nice; only somehow these chaps have heard
that before. It don’t grip, sir. Now,
we had a preacher in our chapel once....”
And he went on to tell me of some revival mission.
“’Well, I went back to
the O.C. He wanted me to have a drink, and I did,
for, to tell you the truth, I felt like it. Then
I got back to camp.
“’In the afternoon I went
round the lines again. Hilda, I wish I
could tell you what I felt. Everyone was decent
enough, but the men would get up and salute as I came
up, and by the very sound of their voices you could
tell how their talk changed as soon as they saw me.
Mind you, they were much more friendly than men at
home, but I felt all the time out of touch. They
didn’t want me, and somehow Christ and the Gospel
seemed a long way off. However, we had the evening
service. The hut was fairly full, which pleased
me, and I preached a much more “Gospel”
address than in the morning. Some officers came,
and then afterwards two or three of us went out for
a stroll and a talk.
“’Among these officers
was a tall chap I had met at the club, named Langton.
He had come down to see somebody in our mess, and had
come on to service. He is an extraordinarily
nice person, different from most, a man who thinks
a lot and controls himself. He did most of the
talking, and began as we strolled up the hill.
“’"Padre,” he said, “how does
Christ save us?”
“’I said He had died to
obtain our forgiveness from God, and that, if we trusted
in Him, He would forgive and help us to live nobler
and manlier lives. (Of course, I said much more, but
I see plainly that that is what it all comes to.)
“’When I had done, he
walked on for a bit in silence, and then he said,
“Do you think the men understand that?”
“’I said I thought and
hoped they might. It was simple enough.
“’"Well,” he said,
“it’s hopeless jargon to me. If I
try to analyse it, I am knocked out right and left
by countless questions; but leave that. It is
when I try to take you practically at your word that
I find you are mumbling a fetish. Forgive me,
but it is so.”
“’I was a little annoyed
and very troubled. “Do explain,” I
said.
“’"All right, only you
mustn’t mind if I hurt you,” he said.
“Take Trust in Christ well,
that either means that a man gets intoxicated by an
idea which does control his life, just as it would
if he were intoxicated by the idea Trust in Buddha,
or else it comes to nothing. I can’t really
trust in a dead man, or a man on the right hand of
the throne of God. What Tommy wants is a pal
to lean on in the canteen and the street. He
wants somebody more real and more lovable and more
desirable than the girl who tempts him into sin.
And he can’t be found. Was he in your service
to-night? Can he be emotionally conjured up by
’Yield not to temptation’ or ‘Dare
to be a Daniel’? Be honest, padre the
thing is a spectre of the imagination.”
“’I was absolutely silent. He went
on:
“’"You make much talk
of sin and forgiveness. Well, Tommy doesn’t
understand what you mean by sin. He is confused
to bits about it; but the main thing that stands out
is that a man may break all the Ten Commandments theologically
and yet be a rattling good pal, as brave as a lion,
as merry as a cricket, and the life and soul and Christ
of a platoon. That’s the fact, and it is
the one thing that matters. But there is another
thing: if a man sins, how is he to get forgiveness?
What sort of a God is it Who will wipe the whole blessed
thing out because in a moment of enthusiasm the sinner
says he is sorry? If that’s all sin is,
it isn’t worth worrying about, and if that is
all God is, He’s not got the makings of a decent
O.C.”
“’"Good for you, skipper,” said
the other man.
“’Langton rounded on him.
“It isn’t good for me or for anyone,”
he said. “And I’ll tell you what,
my boy: all that I’ve said doesn’t
justify a man making a beast of himself, which is
what the majority of us do. I can see that a
man may very wisely get drunk at times, but he’s
a fool to get himself sodden
with drink.” (And he went on to more, Hilda,
that I can’t write to you.)
“’Well, I don’t
know what I said. I went back utterly miserable.
Oh, Hilda, I think I never ought to have come out
here. Langton’s right in a way. We
clergy have said the same thing so often that we forget
how it strikes a practical common-sense man.
But there must be an answer somewhere, if I only knew
it. Meantime I’m like a doctor among the
dying who cannot diagnose the disease. I’m
like a salesman with a shop full of goods that nobody
wants because they don’t fulfil the advertisement.
And I never felt more utterly alone in my life.
“’These men talk a different
language from mine; they belong to another world.
They are such jolly good fellows that they are prepared
to accept me as a comrade without question, but as
for my message, I might as well be trying to cure
smallpox by mouthing sonorous Virgil only
it is worse than that, for they no longer even believe
that the diagnosis is what I say. And what gets
over me is that they are, on the whole, decent chaps.
There’s Harold he’s probably
immoral and he certainly drinks too much, but he’s
as unselfish as possible, and I feel in my bones he’d
do anything to help a friend.
“’Of course, I hate their
vices. The sights in the streets make me feel
positively sick. I wouldn’t touch what they
touch with a stick. When I think of you, so honest
and upright and clean....’ Oh, but I needn’t
read that, Uncle Bob.” She turned over
a page or so. “I think that’s all.
No, just this:
“’I’ve been made
mess secretary, and I serve out coffee in the canteen
for a couple of hours every other day. That’s
about all there is to do. I wish to Heaven I
had an ordinary commission!”
The girl’s voice ceased with
a suspicious suddenness, and the man’s hand
tightened on her arm. For a minute they remained
so, and then, impulsively and unrestrained, she half-turned
and sobbed out against his knees:
“Oh, Uncle Bob, I’m so
unhappy! I feel so sorry for him. And and the
worst is, I don’t really understand....
I don’t see what worries him. Our religion
is good enough, I’m sure. Oh, I hate
those beasts of men out there! Peter’s
too good for them. I wish he’d never gone.
I feel as if he’d never come back!”
“There, there, my dear,”
said the old soldier, uncomfortably. “Don’t
take on so. He’ll find his feet, you know.
It’s not so bad as that. You can trust
him, can’t you?”
She nodded vigorously. “But
what do you think of it all?” she demanded.
Sir Robert Doyle cleared his throat.
“Well,” he began, but stopped. To
him it was an extraordinarily hard thing to speak of
religion, partly because he cherished so whole-heartedly
what he had got, and partly because he had never formulated
it, probably for that very reason. Sir Robert
could hardly have told his Maker what he believed about
Him. When he said the Creed he always said it
with lowered voice and bowed head, as one who considered
very deeply of the matter, but in fact he practically
never considered at all....
“Well,” he began again,
“you see, dear, it’s a strange time out
there, and it is a damned unpleasant age, if you’ll
excuse me. People can’t take anything these
days without asking an infernal number of questions.
Some blessed Socialist’ll begin to ask why a
man should love his mother next, and, not getting
a scientific answer, argue that one shouldn’t.
As for the men, they’re all right, or they used
to be. ’Love the Brotherhood. Fear
God. Honour the King’ that’s
about enough for you and me, I take it, and Graham’ll
find it’s enough for him. And he’ll
play the game, and decent men will like him and get er helped,
my dear. That’s all there is to it.
But it’s a pity,” added the old Victorian
Regular, “that these blessed labour corps, and
rest camps, and all the rest of it, don’t have
parade services. The boy’s bound to miss
that. I’m hanged if I don’t speak
about it!... And that reminds me.... Good
Lord, it’s ten o’clock! I must go.”
He started up, Hilda rose, smiling a little.
“That’s better,”
said the old fellow; “must be a man, what?
It’s all a bit of the war, you know.”
“Oh, Uncle Bob, you are
a dear. You do cheer one up, somehow. I wish
men were more like you.”
“No, you don’t, my dear,
don’t you think it. I’m a back number,
and you know it, as well as any.”
“You’re not, Uncle Bob.
I won’t have you say it. Give me a kiss
and say you don’t mean it.”
“Well, well, Hilda, there is
life in the old dog yet, and I must be off and show
it. No, I won’t have another, not before
duty. Good-night, dear, and don’t worry.”
Hilda saw him off, and waved her hand
from the door. Then she went back slowly to the
study and looked round. She stood a few moments
and then switched off the lights, and went out and
slowly upstairs. The maid was in the bedroom,
and she dismissed her, keeping her face turned away.
In front of her glass, she held her letter irresolutely
a moment, and then folded it and slipped it into a
drawer. She lifted a photo from the dressing-table
and looked at it for a few minutes earnestly.
Then she went to her window, threw it up, and leaned
on the sill, staring hard over the dark and empty
park.
Outside, the General walked some distance
before he found a taxi. He walked fast for a
man of his age, and ruminated as he went. It was
his way, and the way of his kind. Most of the
modern sciences left him unmoved, and although he
would vehemently have denied it, he was the most illogical
of men. He held fast by a few good, sound, old-fashioned
principles, and the process of thought, to him, meant
turning over a new thing until he had got it into
line with these principles. It was an excellent
method as far as it went, and it made him what he was a
thoroughly sound and dependable servant of the State
in any routine business.
At the War Office he climbed more
slowly up the steps and into the lobby. An officer
was just coming out, and they recognised each other
under the shaded lights. “Hullo, Chichester,
what are you doing here?” demanded Doyle heartily.
“Thought you were in France.”
“So I was, up to yesterday. I’ve
just arrived. Orders.”
“Where have you been?”
“Rouen. It’s a big
show now. Place full of new troops and mechanics
in uniform. To tell you the truth, Doyle, the
Army’s a different proposition from what it
was when you and I were in Egypt and India. But
that’s a long time ago, old friend.”
“Rouen, eh? Now, that’s
a coincidence. A young chap I know has just gone
there, in your department. Graham Peter
Graham. Remember him?”
“Oh, quite well. A very
decent chap, I thought. Joined us ten days ago
or so. What about it? I forget for the moment
where we put him.”
“Oh, nothing, nothing.
He’ll find his feet all right. But what’s
this about no parade services these days?”
“No parade services? We
have ’em all right, when we can. Of course,
it depends a bit on the O.C., and in the Labour Corps
especially it isn’t usually possible. It
isn’t like the line, old fellow, and even the
line isn’t what we knew it. You can’t
have parade services in trenches, and you can’t
have them much when the men are off-loading bully beef
or mending aeroplanes and that sort of thing.
This war’s a big proposition, and it’s
got to go on. Why? Young Graham grousing?”
“No, no oh, no,”
hastily asserted Doyle, the soul of honour. “No,
not at all. Only mentioned not getting a parade,
and it seemed to me a pity. There’s a lot
in the good old established religion.”
“Is there?” said the other
thoughtfully. “I’m not so sure to-day.
The men don’t like being ordered to pray.
They prefer to come voluntarily.”
Doyle got fierce. “Don’t
like being ordered, don’t they? Then what
the deuce are they there for? Good Lord, man!
the Army isn’t a debating society or a mothers’
meeting. You might as well have voluntary games
at a public school!”
The A.C.G. smiled. “That’s
it, old headstrong! No, my boy, the Army isn’t
a mothers’ meeting at any rate, Fritz
doesn’t think so. But times have changed,
and in some ways they’re better. I’d
sooner have fifty men at a voluntary service than
two hundred on a parade.”
“Well, I wouldn’t,”
exploded Doyle. “I know your voluntary
services Moody and Sankey hymns on a Sunday
night. The men had better be in a decent bar.
But turn ’em out in the morning, clean and decent
on parade, and give ’em the old service, and
it’ll tighten ’em up and do ’em
good. Voluntary service! You’ll have
volunteer evangelists instead of Army chaplains next!”
Colonel Chichester still smiled, but
a little grimly. “We’ve got them,”
he said. “And no doubt there’s something
in what you say; but times change, and the Church
has got to keep abreast of the times. But, look
here, I must go. What about a luncheon? I’ve
not got much leave.”
“So must I; I’ve an appointment,”
said Doyle. “But all right, old friend,
to-morrow at the club. But you’re younger
than I, Chichester, or perhaps you parsons don’t
get old as quickly!”
They shook hands and parted.
Sir Robert was busy for an hour, and came out again
with his head full of the proposed plans for the aerial
defence of London. “Taxi, sir?” he
was asked at the door. “No,” he replied;
“I’ll walk home.”
“Best way to think, walking
at night,” he said to himself as he turned down
Whitehall, through the all but empty streets, darkened
as they were. The meaning of those great familiar
spaces struck him as he walked. Hardly formulating
it, he became aware of a sense of pride and responsibility
as he passed scene after scene of England’s past
glory. The old Abbey towered up in the moonlight,
solemn and still, but almost as if animate and looking
at him. He felt small and old as he passed into
Victoria Street. There the Stores by night made
him smile at the contrast, but in Ashley Gardens Westminster
Cathedral made him frown. If he hated anything,
it was that for which it stood. Romanism meant
to him something effeminate, sneaking, monstrous....
That there should be Englishmen to build such a place
positively angered him. He was not exactly a
bigot or a fanatic; he would not have repealed the
Emancipation Acts; and he would have said that if
anyone wanted to be a Romanist, he had better be one.
But he would not have had time for anyone who did
so want, and if he should have had to have by any chance
dealings with a priest, he would have been so frigidly
polite that the poor fellow would probably have been
frozen solid. Of course, Irishmen were different,
and he had known some capital fellows, Irish priests
and chaplains....
And then he saw two men ahead of him.
They were privates on leave and drunk, but not hopelessly
drunk. They were trying to negotiate the blank
of the entrance to the Catholic Soldiers’ Hut
in the protecting wall which guarded the pavement
just beyond the cathedral. As Sir Robert came
within earshot, one of them stumbled through it and
collapsed profanely. He halted for a second irresolutely,
with the officer’s hesitancy at meddling with
a drunken man.
The fellow on the ground tried to
raise himself, and got one elbow on the gravel.
This brought him into such a position that he stared
straight at the illuminated crucifix across the path,
and but little farther in.
“Lor’, blimey, Joe,”
he said, “I’m blasted drunk, I am!
Thought I was in old Wipers, I did, and see one of
them blessed cru-crushifixes!”
The other, rather less away, pulled
at his arm. “So yer did, olé pal,”
he said. “It’s there now. This
’ere’s some Cartholic place or other.
Come hon.”
“Strike me dead, so it is, Joe,
large as life! Christ! oo’d ’ave
thought it? A bloody cru-cru-chifix! Wat’s
old England comin’ to, Joe?” And with
drunken solemnity he began to make a sign of the cross,
as he had seen it done in Belgium.
The other, in the half-light, plainly
started. “Shut your bloody jaw, ’Enery,”
he said, “It’s bad luck to swear near a
cruchifix. I saw three chaps blotted out clean
next second for it, back behind Lar Basay. Come
on, will yer? We carn’t stay ’ere
all the blasted night.”
“You are down on a chap, you
are,” said the other. “Hi don’t
mean no ’arm. ’E ought to know
that, any’ow.” He got unsteadily to
his feet. “’E died to save us, ’E
did. I ’eard a Y.M.C.A. bloke say them very
words, ’E died on the cru-cru-chifix to save
us.”
“’Ere, cheese it, you
fool! We’ll have somebody out next.
Come away with yer. I’ve got some Bass
in my place, if we git there.”
At this the other consented to come.
Together they staggered out, not seeing Sir Robert,
and went off down the street, “’Enery”
talking as they went. The General stood and listened
as the man’s voice died down.
“Good for yer, old pal.
But ’E died to save us hall, ’E
did. Made a bloomer of it, I reckon. Didn’t
save us from the bloody trenches not as
I can see, any’ow. If that chap could ’ave
told us ’ow to get saved from the blasted rats
an’ bugs an’....”
Sir Robert pulled himself together
and walked away sharply. By the cathedral the
carven Christ hung on in the wan yellow light, very
still.