“Julie!” exclaimed Peter,
“I should hardly have known you; you do look
topping!”
“Glad rags make all that difference,
old boy? Well, I am glad you did know me, anyhow.
How are you? Had long to wait?”
“Only ten minutes or so, and
I’m very fit, and just dying for you, Julie.”
She smiled up at him and blushed a
little. “Are you, Peter? It’s
much the same here, my dear. But don’t
you think we had better get a move on, and not stop
here talking all night?”
Peter laughed excitedly. “Rather,”
he said. “But I’m so excited at seeing
you that I hardly know if I’m on my head or my
heels. What about your luggage? What have
you? Have you any idea where it is? There’s
a taxi waiting.”
“I haven’t much:
a big suit-case, most important because it holds an
evening dress it’s marked with my
initials; a small leather trunk, borrowed, with a
big star on it; and my dressing-case, which is here.
And I think they’re behind, but I wouldn’t
swear, because we’ve seemed to turn round three
times in the course of the journey, but it may have
been four!”
Peter chuckled. She was just
the old Julie, but yet with a touch of something more
shining in her eyes, and underlying even the simplest
words.
“Well, you stand aside just
a moment and I’ll go and see,” he said,
and he hurried off in the crowd.
Julie stood waiting patiently by a
lamp-stand while the world bustled about her.
She wore a little hat with a gay pheasant’s wing
in it, a dark green travelling dress and neat brown
shoes, and brown silk stockings. Most people
looked at her as they passed, including several officers,
but there was a different look in her brown eyes from
that usually there, and they all passed on unhesitatingly.
It seemed to her a good while before
Peter came up again, in his wake a railway Amazon
with the trunk on her shoulder and the suit-case in
her hand. “Sorry to keep you, dear,”
he said. “But there was a huge crush and
next to no porters, if these are porters.
It feels rotten to have a woman carrying one’s
luggage, but I suppose it can’t be helped.
Come on. Aren’t you tired? Don’t
you want tea?”
“I am a little,” she said
“And I do a bit. Where are we going to get
it? Do they sell teas in London, Peter, or have
you taken a leaf out of my book?”
They laughed at the reminiscence.
“Julie,” said Peter, “this is my
outfit, and you shall see what you think of it.
Give me your ticket, will you? I want to see
you through myself.”
She handed him a little purse without
a word, and they set off together. She was indulging
in the feeling of surrender as if it were not a victory
she had won, and he was glowing with the sense of acquisition,
as if he had really acquired something.
Julie got into the taxi while Peter
settled the luggage, gave directions, and paid the
Amazon. Then he climbed in and pulled the door
to, and they slipped out of the crowded station-yard
into the roar of London. Julie put her hand in
his. “Peter,” she said, “do
tell me where we’re going. I’m dying
to know. What arrangements have you made?
Is it safe?”
He leaned over her, his eyes sparkling.
“A kiss, first, Julie: no one will see
and it doesn’t matter a damn if they do.
That’s the best of London. My dear, I can
hardly believe we’re both here at last, and that
I’ve really got you.” Their lips met.
Julie flung herself back with a laugh.
“Oh, Peter,” she said, “I shall
never forget that first taxi. If you could have
seen your own face! Really it was too comic,
but I must say you’ve changed since then.”
“I was a fool and a beast,”
he said, more gravely; “I’m only just
beginning to realise how much of a fool. But don’t
rub it in, Julie, or not just now. I’m
starting to live at last, and I don’t want to
be reminded of the past.”
She pressed his hand and looked out
of window. “Where are we, Peter? Whitehall?
Where are we off to?”
“I’ve got the snuggest
little suite in all London, darling,” he said,
“with a fairy palace at our beck and call.
I’ve been revelling in it all day not
exactly in it, you know, but in the thought of it.
I’ve been too busy shopping to be in much; and
Julie, I hope you notice my hands: I’ve
had a special manicure in preparation for you.
And the girl is coming round to-morrow before breakfast
to do me again or at least she wanted to.”
“What are you talking about?
Peter, what have you been doing to-day?” She
sighed a mock sigh. “Really, you’re
getting beyond me; it’s rather trying.”
Peter launched out into the story
to fill up time. He really did not want to speak
of the rooms, that they might give her the greater
surprise. So he kept going till the taxi stopped
before the hotel. He jumped out gaily as the
commissionaire opened the door.
“Come on,” he said, “as
quick as ever you can.” Then, to the man:
“Have these sent up to N, will you, please?”
And he took Julie’s arm.
They went in at the great door, and
crossed the wide entrance-hall. Everyone glanced
at Julie, Peter noted proudly, even the girls behind
the sweet-counter, and the people waiting about as
always. Julie held her head high and walked more
sedately than usual. She was a bit different,
thought Peter, but even nicer. He glowed at the
thought.
He led her to the lift and gave his
landing number. They walked down the corridor
in silence and in at their door. Peter opened
the door on the left and stood back. Julie went
in. He followed and shut the door behind them.
The maid had lit a fire, which blazed
merrily. Julie took it all in the
flowers, the pile of magazines, even the open box of
cigarettes, and she turned enthusiastically to him
and flung her arms round his neck, kissing him again
and again. “Oh, Peter darling,” she
cried, “I can’t tell you how I love you!
I could hardly sit still in the railway carriage, and
the train seemed worse than a French one. But
now I have you at last, and all to myself. Oh,
Peter, my darling Peter!”
There came a knock at the door.
Julie disengaged her arms from his neck, but slipped
her hand in his, and he said, “Come in.”
The maid entered, carrying tea.
She smiled at them. “I thought madame
might like tea at once, sir,” she said, and placed
the tray on the little table.
“Thank you ever so much,”
said Julie impulsively; “that is good of you.
I’m longing for it. One gets so tired in
the train.” Then she walked to the glass.
“I’ll take off my hat, Peter,” she
said, “and my coat, and then well have tea comfortably.
I do want it, and a cigarette. You’re an
angel to have thought of my own De Reszke.”
She threw herself into a big basket
chair, and leaned over to the table. “Milk
and sugar for you, Peter? By the way, I ought
to know these things; not that it much matters; ours
was a war marriage, and I’ve hardly seen you
at all!”
Peter sat opposite, and watched her
pour out. She leaned back with a piece of toast
in her hands, her eyes on him, and they smiled across
at each other. Suddenly he could bear it no longer.
He put his cup down and knelt forward at her feet,
his arms on her knees, devouring her. “Oh,
Julie,” he said, “I want to worship you I
do indeed. I can’t believe my luck.
I can’t think that you love me.”
Her white teeth bit into the toast.
“You old silly,” she said. “But
I don’t want to be worshipped; I won’t
be worshipped; I want to be loved, Peter.”
He put his arms up, and pulled her
head down to his, kissing her again and again, stroking
her arm, murmuring foolish words that meant nothing
and meant everything. It was she who stopped him.
“Go and sit down,” she said, “and
tell me all the plans.”
“Well,” he said, “I
do hope you’ll like them. First, I’ve
not booked up anything for to-night. I thought
we’d go out to dinner to a place I know and
sit over it, and enjoy ourselves. It’s a
place in Soho, and quite humorous, I think. Then
we might walk back: London’s so perfect
at night, isn’t it? To-morrow I’ve
got seats for the Coliseum matinee. You know it,
of course; it’s a jolly place where one can talk
if one wants to, and smoke; and then I’ve seats
in the evening for Zigzag. Saturday night
we’re going to see Carminetta, which they
say is the best show in town, and Saturday morning
we can go anywhere you please, or do anything.
And we can cut out any of them if you like,”
he added.
She let her arms lie along the chair,
and drew a breath of delight. “You’re
truly wonderful,” she said. “What
a blessing not having to worry what’s to be
done! It’s a perfect programme. I only
wish we could be in Paris for Sunday; it’s so
slow here.”
He smiled. “You’re
sure you’re not bored about to-night?”
he asked. She looked him full in the eyes and
said nothing. He sprang up and rushed towards
her. She laughed her old gay laugh, and avoided
him, jumping up and getting round the table.
“No,” she warned; “no more now.
Come and show me the rest of the establishment.”
Arm in arm they made the tour of inspection.
In the bathroom Julie’s eyes danced. “Thank
the Lord for that bath, Peter,” she said.
“I shall revel in it. That’s one
thing I loathe about France, that one can’t get
decent baths, and in the country here it’s no
better. I had two inches of water in a foot-bath
down in Sussex, and when you sit in the beastly thing
only about three inches of yourself get wet and those
the least important inches. I shall lie in this
for hours and smoke, and you shall feed me with chocolates
and read to me. How will you like that?”
Peter made the only possible answer,
and they went back to the bedroom. The man was
bringing up her luggage, and he deposited it on the
luggage-stool. “Heavens!” said Julie,
“where are my keys? Oh, I know, in my purse.
I hope you haven’t lost it. Do give it to
me. The suit-case is beautifully packed, but
the trunk is in an appalling mess. I had to throw
my things in anyhow. By the way, I wonder what
they’ll make of different initials on all our
luggage? Not that it matters a scrap, especially
these days. Besides, I don’t suppose they
noticed.”
She was on her knees by the trunk,
and had undone it. She lifted the lid, and Peter
saw the confusion inside, and caught sight of the unfamiliar
clothes, Julie was rummaging everywhere. “I
know I’ve left them behind!” she exclaimed.
“Whatever shall I do? My scent and powder-puff!
Peter, it’s terrible! I can’t go
to Soho to dinner without them.”
“Let’s go and get some,” he suggested;
“there’s time.”
“No, I can’t,” she
said. “You go. Don’t be long.
I want to sit in front of the fire and be cosy.”
Peter set off on the unfamiliar errand,
smiling grimly to himself. He got the scent easily
enough, and then inquired for a powder-puff. In
the old days he would scarcely have dared; but he
had been in France. He selected a little French
box with a mirror in the lid and a pretty rosebud
pattern, and paid for it unblushingly. Then he
returned.
He opened the door of their sitting-room,
and stood transfixed for a minute. The shaded
reading-lamp was on, the other lights off. The
fire glowed red, and Julie lay stretched out in a
big chair, smoking a cigarette. She turned and
looked up at him over her shoulder. She had taken
off her dress and slipped on a silk kimono, letting
her hair down, which fell in thick tumbled masses
about her. The arm that held the cigarette was
stretched up above her, and the wide, loose sleeve
of the kimono had slipped back, leaving it bare to
her shoulder. Her white frilled petticoat showed
beneath, as she had pushed her feet out before her
to the warmth of the fire. Peter’s blood
pounded in his temples.
“Good boy,” she said;
“you haven’t been long. Come and show
me. I had to get comfortable: I hope you
don’t mind.”
He came slowly forward without a word
and bent over her. The scent of her rose intoxicatingly
around him as he bent down for a kiss. Their lips
clung together, and the wide world stood still.
Julie made room for him beside her.
“You dear old thing,” she exclaimed at
the sight of the powder-puff. “It’s
a gem. You couldn’t have bettered it in
Paris.” She opened it, took out the little
puff, and dabbed her open throat. Then, laughing,
she dabbed at him: “Don’t look so
solemn,” she said, “Solomon!”
Peter slipped one arm round her beneath
the kimono, and felt her warm relaxed waist.
Then he pushed his other hand, unresisted, in where
her white throat gleamed bare and open to him, and
laid his lips on her hair. “Oh, Julie,”
he said, “I had no idea one could love so.
It is almost more than I can bear.”
The clock on the mantelpiece struck
a half-hour, and Julie stirred in his arms and glanced
up. “Good Lord, Peter!” she exclaimed,
“do you know what the time is? Half-past
seven! I shall never be dressed, and we shall
get no dinner. Let me up, for goodness sake,
and give me a drink if you’ve got such a thing.
If not, ring for it. I shall never have energy
enough to get into my things otherwise.”
Peter opened the little door of the
sideboard and got out decanter, siphon, and glasses.
Julie, sitting up and arranging herself, smiled at
him. “Is there a single thing you haven’t
thought of, you old dear?” she said.
“Say when,” said Peter,
coming towards her. Then he poured himself out
a tumbler and stood by the fire, looking at her.
“It’s a pity we have to
go out at all,” he said, “for I suppose
you can’t go like that.”
“A pity? It’s a jolly
good thing. You wait till you’ve seen my
frock, my dear. But, Peter, do you think there’s
likely to be anyone there that we know?”
He shook his head. “Not there, at any rate,”
he said.
“Here?”
“More likely, but it’s
such a big place we’re not likely to meet them,
even so. But if you feel nervous, do you know
the best cure? Come down into the lounge, and
see the crowd of people. You sit there and people
stream by, and you don’t know a face. It’s
the most comfortable, feeling in the world. One’s
more alone than on a desert island. You might
be a ghost that no one sees.”
Julie shuddered. “Peter
don’t! You make me feel creepy.”
She got up “Go and find that maid, will you?
I want her to help me dress.”
Peter walked to the bell and rang
it, “Where do I come in?” he asked.
“Well, you can go and wash in
the bathroom, and if you’re frightened of her
you can dress there!” And she walked to the door
laughing.
“I’ll just finish my drink,”
he said. “You will be heaps longer than
I.”
Five minutes later, having had no
answer to his ring, he switched off the light, and
walked out into the hall He hesitated at Julie’s
door, then he tapped. “Come in,”
she said.
She was standing half-dressed in front
of the glass doing her hair, “Oh, it’s
you, is it?” she said. “Wherever is
that maid? I can’t wait all night for her;
you’ll have to help.”
Peter sat down and began to change.
Half-surreptitiously he watched Julie moving about,
and envied her careless abandon. He was much the
more nervous of the two.
Presently she called him from the
bathroom to fasten her dress. When it was done,
she stood back for him to examine her.
“That all right?” she
demanded, putting a touch here and there.
Not every woman could have worn her
gown. It was a rose pink with some rich flame-coloured
material in front, and was held by two of the narrowest
bands on her shoulders. In the deep decollete
she pushed two rosebuds from the big bunch, and hung
round her neck a pendant of mother-of-pearl and silver.
She wore no other jewellery, and she needed none.
She faced him, a vision of loveliness.
They went down the stairs together
and out into the crush of people, some of the women
in evening dress, but few of the men. The many
uniforms looked better, Peter thought, despite the
drab khaki. They had to stand for awhile while
a taxi was found, Julie laughing and chatting vivaciously.
She had a wrap for her shoulders that she had bought
in Port Said, set with small metallic points, and
it sparkled about her in the blaze of light.
She flattered him by seeming unconscious of anyone
else, and put her hand on his arm as they went out.
They drove swiftly through back-streets
to the restaurant that Peter had selected, and stopped
in a quiet, dark, narrow road off Greek Street.
Julie got out and looked around with pretended fear.
“Where in the world have you brought me?”
she demanded. “However did you find the
place? It’s worse than some of your favourite
places in Havre.”
Inside, however, she looked round
appreciatively. “Really, Peter, it’s
splendid,” she said under her breath “just
the place,” and smiled sweetly on the padrone
who came forward, bowing. Peter had engaged a
table, and they were led to it.
“I had almost given you up,
sir,” said the man, “but by good fortune,
some of our patrons are late too.”
They sat down opposite to each other,
and studied the menu held out to them by a waiter.
“I don’t know the meaning of half the dishes,”
laughed Julie. “You order. It’ll
be more fun if I don’t know what’s coming.”
“We must drink Chianti,”
said Peter, and ordered a bottle. “You can
think you are in Italy.”
Elbows on the table as she waited,
Julie looked round. In the far corner a gay party
of four were halfway through dinner. Two officers,
an elderly lady and a young one, she found rather
hard to place, but Julie decided the girl was the
fiancee of one who had brought his friend to meet her.
At other tables were mostly couples, and across the
room from her, with an elderly officer, sat a well-made-up
woman, very plainly demimonde. Immediately
before her were four men, two of them foreigners, in
morning dress, talking and eating hare. It was
evidently a professional party, and one of the four
now and again hummed out a little air to the rest,
and once jotted down some notes on the back of a programme.
They took no notice of anyone, but the eyes of the
woman with the officer, who hardly spoke to her, searched
Julie unblushingly.
Julie, gave a little sigh of happiness.
“This is lovely, Peter,” she said.
“We’ll be ages over dinner. It’s
such fun to be in nice clothes just for dinner sometimes
and not to have to worry about the time, and going
on elsewhere. But I do wish my friends could see
me, I must say. They’d be horrified.
They thought I was going to a stodgy place in West
Kensington. I was must careful to be vague, but
that was the idea. Peter, how would you like
to live in a suburb and have heaps of children, and
dine out with city men and their wives once or twice
a month for a treat?”
Peter grimaced. Then he looked
thoughtful. “It wouldn’t have been
any so remarkable for me at one time, Julie,”
he said.
She shook her head. “It
would, my dear. You’re not made for it.”
“What am I made for, then?”
She regarded him solemnly, and then
relaxed into a smile. “I haven’t a
notion, but not that. The thing is never to worry.
You get what you’re made for in the end, I think.”
“I wonder,” said Peter.
“Perhaps, but not always. The world’s
full of square pegs in round holes.”
“Then they’re stodgy pegs,
without anything in them. If I was a square peg
I’d never go into a round hole.”
“Suppose there was no other
hole to go into,” demanded Peter.
“Then I’d fall out, or
I wouldn’t go into any hole at all. I’d
sooner be anything in the world than stodgy, Peter.
I’d sooner be like that woman over there who
is staring at me so!”
Peter glanced to one side, and then
back at Julie. He was rather grave. “Would
you really?” he questioned.
The waiter brought the Chianti and
poured out glasses. Julie waited till he had
gone, and then lifted hers and looked at Peter across
it. “I would,” she said. “I
couldn’t live without wine and excitement and
song. I’m made that way. Cheerio,
Solomon!”
They drank to each other. Then:
“And love?” queried Peter softly.
Julie did not reply for a minute.
She set her wine-glass down and toyed with the stem.
Then she looked up at him under her eyelashes with
that old daring look of hers, and repeated: “And
love, Peter. But real love, not stodgy humdrum
liking, Peter. I want the love that’s like
the hot sun, and the wide, tossing blue sea east of
Suez, and the nights under the moon where the real
world wakes up and doesn’t go to sleep, like
it does in the country in the cold, hard North.
Do you know,” she went on, “though I love
the cities, and bands, and restaurants, and theatres,
and taxis, and nice clothes, I love best of all the
places where one has none of these things. I
once went with a shooting-party to East Africa, Peter,
and that’s what I love. I shall never forget
the nights at Kilindini, with the fireflies dancing
among the bushes, and the moon glistening on the palms
as if they were wet, and the insects shrilling in the
grass, and the hot, damp air. Or by day, up in
the forest, camped under the great trees, with the
strange few flowers and the silence, while the sun
trickled through the leaves and made pools of light
on the ground. Do you know, I saw the most beautiful
thing I’ve ever seen or, I think, shall see
in that forest.”
“What was that?” asked
Peter, under her spell, for she was speaking like
a woman in a dream.
“It was one day when we were
marching. We came on a glade among the trees,
and at the end of it, a little depression of damp green
grass, only the grass was quite hidden beneath a sheet
of blue such blue, I can’t describe
it that quivered and moved in the sun.
We stood quite still, and then a boy threw a little
stone. And the blue all rose in the air, silently,
like magic. It was a swarm of hundreds and hundreds
of blue butterflies, Peter. Do you know what
I did? I cried I couldn’t help
it. It was too beautiful to see, Peter.”
A little silence fell between them.
She broke it in another tone.
“And the natives I
love the natives. I just love the all but naked
girls carrying the water up to the village in the
evening, tall and straight, like Greek statues; and
the men, in a string of beads and a spear. I
wanted to go naked myself there at least,
I did till one day I tried it, and the sun skinned
me in no time. But at least one needn’t
wear much cool loose things, and it doesn’t
matter what one does or says.”
Peter laughed. “Who was
with you when you tried the experiment?” he
demanded.
Julie threw her head back, and even
the professional four glanced up and looked at her.
“Ah, wouldn’t you like to know?”
she laughed. “Well, I won’t tease
you two native girls if you want to know,
that was all. The rest of the party were having
a midday sleep. But I never can sleep at midday.
I don’t mind lying in a hammock or a deck-chair,
and reading, but I can’t sleep. One feels
so beastly when one wakes up, doesn’t one?”
Peter nodded, but steered her back.
“Tell me more,” he said. “You
wake something up in me; I feel as if I was born to
be there.”
“Well,” she said reflectively,
“I don’t know that anything can beat the
great range that runs along our border in Natal.
It’s different, of course, but it’s very
wonderful. There’s one pass I know see
here, you go up a wide valley with a stream that runs
in and out, and that you have to cross again and again
until it narrows and narrows to a small footpath between
great kranzes. At first there are queer stunted
trees and bushes about, with the stream, that’s
now a tiny thing of clear water, singing among them,
and there the trees stop, and you climb up and up among
the boulders, until you think you can do no more,
and at the last you come out on the top.”
“And then?”
“You’re in wonderland.
Before you lies peak on peak, grass-grown and rocky,
so clear in the rare, still air. There is nothing
there but mountain and rock and grass, and the blue
sky, with perhaps little clouds being blown across
it, and a wind that’s cool and vast you
feel it fills everything. And you look down the
way you’ve come, and there’s all Natal
spread out at your feet like a tiny picture, lands
and woods and rivers, till it’s lost in the
mist of the distance.”
She ceased, staring at her wine-glass.
At last the chatter of the place broke in on Peter.
“My dear,” he exclaimed, “one can
see it. But what do you do there?”
She laughed and broke the spell.
“What would one do?” she demanded.
“Eat and drink and sleep, and make love, Peter,
if there’s anybody to make love to.”
“But you couldn’t do that all your life,”
he objected.
“Why not? Why do anything
else? I never can see. And when you’re
tired for you do get tired at last back
to Durban for a razzle-dazzle, or back farther still,
to London or Paris for a bit. That’s the
life for me, Peter!”
He smiled: “Provided somebody
is there with the necessary, I suppose?” he
said.
“Solomon,” she mocked,
“Solomon, Solomon! Why do you spoil it all?
But you’re right, of course, Peter, though I
hate to think of that.”
“I see how we’re like,
and how we’re unlike, Julie,” said Peter
suddenly, “You like real things, and so do I.
You hate to feel stuffy and tied up in conventions,
and so do I. But you’re content with just that,
and I’m not.”
“Am I?” she queried, looking at him a
little strangely.
Peter did not notice; he was bent
on pursuing his argument. “Yes, you are,”
he said. “When you’re in the grip
of real vital things nature naked and unashamed you
have all you want. You don’t stop to think
of to-morrow. You live. But I, I feel that
there is something round the corner all the time.
I feel as if there must be something bigger than just
that. I’d love your forest and your range
and your natives, I think, but only because one is
nearer something else with them than here. I
don’t know how to put it, but when you think
of those things you feel full, and I still
feel empty.”
“Peter,” said Julie softly, “do
you remember Caudebec?”
He looked up at her then. “I shall never
forget it, dear,” he said.
“Then you’ll remember our talk in the
car?”
He nodded. “When you talked
about marriage and human nature and men, and so on,”
he said.
“No, I don’t mean that.
I did talk of those things, and I gave you a little
rather bitter philosophy that is more true than you
think; but I don’t mean that. Afterwards,
when we spoke about shams and playing. Do you
remember, I hinted that a big thing might come along do
you remember?”
He nodded again, but he did not speak.
“Well,” she said, “it’s come that’s
all.”
“Another bottle of Chianti, sir?” queried
the padrone at his elbow.
Peter started. “What?
Oh, yes, please,” he said. “We can
manage another bottle, Julie? And bring on the
dessert now, will you? Julie, have a cigarette.”
“If we have another bottle you
must drink most of it,” she laughed, almost
as if they had not been interrupted, but with a little
vivid colour in her cheeks. “Otherwise,
my dear, you’ll have to carry me upstairs, which
won’t look any too well. But I want another
glass. Oh, Peter, do look at that woman now!”
Peter looked. The elderly officer
had dined to repletion and drank well too. The
woman had roused herself; she was plainly urging him
to come on out; and as Peter glanced over, she made
an all but imperceptible sign to a waiter, who bustled
forward with the man’s cap and stick. He
took them stupidly, and the woman helped him up, but
not too noticeably. Together they made for the
door, which the waiter held wide open. The woman
tipped him, and he bowed. The door closed, and
the pair disappeared into the street.
“A damned plucky sort,”
said Julie; “I don’t care what anyone says.”
“I didn’t think so once,
Julie,” said Peter, “but I believe you’re
right now. It’s a topsy-turvy world, little
girl, and one never knows where one is in it.”
“Men often don’t,”
said Julie, “but women make fewer mistakes.
Come, Peter, let’s get back. I want the
walk, and I want that cosy little room.”
He drained his glass and got up.
Suddenly the thought of the physical Julie ran through
him like fire. “Rather!” he said gaily.
“So do I, little girl.”
The waiter pulled back the chairs.
The padrone came up all bows and smiles. He hoped
the Captain would come again any time.
It was better to ring up, as they were often very
full. A taxi? No? Well, the walk through
the streets was enjoyable after dinner, even now, when
the lights were so few. Good-evening, madame;
he hoped everything had been to her liking.
Julie sauntered across the now half-empty
little room, and took Peter’s arm in the street.
“Do you know the way?” she demanded.
“We can’t miss it,”
he said. “Up here will lead us to Shaftesbury
Avenue somewhere, and then we go down. Sure you
want to walk, darling?”
“Yes, and see the people, Peter,
I love seeing them. Somehow by night they’re
more natural than they are by day. I hate seeing
people going to work in droves, and men rushing about
the city with dollars written all across their faces.
At night that’s mostly finished with. One
can see ugly things, but some rather beautiful ones
as well. Let’s cross over. There are
more people that side.”
They passed together down the big
street. Even the theatres were darkened to some
extent, but taxis were about, and kept depositing their
loads of men and smiling women. The street-walks
held Tommies, often plainly with a sweet-heart
from down east; men who sauntered along and scanned
the faces of the women; a newsboy or two; a few loungers
waiting to pick up odd coppers; and here and there
a woman by herself. It was the usual crowd, but
they were in the mood to see the unusual in usual things.
In the Circus they lingered a little.
Shrouded as it was, an atmosphere of mystery hung
over everything. Little groups that talked for
a while at the corners or made appointments, or met
and broke up again, had the air of conspirators in
some great affair. The rush of cars down Regent
Street, and then this way and that, lent colour to
the thought, and it affected both of them. “What’s
brooding over it all, Julie?” Peter half-whispered.
“Can’t you feel that there is something?”
She shrugged her shoulders, and then
gave a little shiver. “Love, or what men
take for love,” she said.
He clasped the hand that lay along
his arm passionately. “Come along,”
he said.
“Oh, this is good, Peter,”
said Julie a few minutes later. She had thrown
off her wrap, and was standing by the fire while he
arranged the cigarettes, the biscuits, and a couple
of drinks on the little table with its shaded light.
“Did you lock the door? Are we quite alone,
we two, at last, with all the world shut out?”
He came swiftly over to her, and took
her in his arms for answer. He pressed kisses
on her hair, her lips, her neck, and she responded
to them.
“Oh, love, love,” he said,
“let’s sit down and forget that there is
anything but you and I.”
She broke from him with a little laugh
of excitement. “We will, Peter,”
she said; “but I’m going to take off this
dress and one or two other things, and let my hair
down. Then I’ll come back.”
“Take them off here,” he said; “you
needn’t go away.”
She looked at him and laughed again.
“Help me, then,” she said, and turned
her back for him to loosen her dress.
Clumsily he obeyed. He helped
her off with the shimmering beautiful thing, and put
it carefully over a chair. With deft fingers she
loosened her hair, and he ran his fingers through
it, and buried his face in the thick growth of it.
She untied a ribbon at her waist, and threw from her
one or two of her mysterious woman’s things.
Then, with a sigh of utter abandonment, she threw
herself into his arms.
They sat long over the fire.
Outside the dull roar of the sleepless city came faintly
up to them, and now and again a coal fell in the grate.
At long last Peter pushed her back a little from him.
“Little girl,” he said, “I must
ask one thing. Will you forgive me? That
night at Abbeville, after we left Langton, what was
it you wouldn’t tell me? What was it you
thought he would have known about you, but not I?
Julie, I thought, to-night was it anything
to do with East Africa those tropical nights
under the moon? Oh, tell me, Julie!”
The girl raised her eyes to his.
That look of pain and knowledge that he had seen from
the beginning was in them again. Her hand clasped
the lappet of his tunic convulsively, and she seemed
to him indeed but a little girl.
“Peter! could you not have asked?
But no, you couldn’t, not you.... But you
guess now, don’t you? Oh, Peter, I was so
young, and I thought oh, I thought:
the big thing had come, and since then life’s
been all one big mockery. I’ve laughed
at it, Peter: it was the only way. And then
you came along. I haven’t dared to think,
but there’s something about you oh,
I don’t know what! But you don’t play
tricks, do you, Peter? And you’ve given
me all, at last, without a question.... Oh, Peter,
tell me you love me still! It’s your love,
Peter, that can make me clean and save my soul if
I’ve any soul to save,” she added brokenly.
Peter caught her to him. He crushed
he so that she caught her breath with the pain of
it, and he wound his hand all but savagely in her hair.
He got up and she never guessed he had
the strength and carried her out in his
arms, and into the other room.
And hours later, staring into the
blackness while she slept as softly as a child by
his side, he could not help smiling a little to himself.
It was all so different from what he had imagined.