Part at least of Julie’s programme was fulfilled to the letter, for they lay long in bed talking desultory, reminiscent talk, which sent Peter’s mind back over the months and the last few days, even after Julie was asleep in the bed next his. Like a pageant, he passed, in review scene after scene, turning it over, and wondering at significances that he had not before, imagined. He recalled their first meeting, that instantaneous attraction, and he asked himself what had caused it. Her spontaneity, freshness, and utter lack of conventionality, he supposed, but that did not seem to explain all. He wondered at the change that had even then come about in himself that he should have been so entranced by her, He went over his early hopes and fears; he thought again of conversations with Langton; and he realised afresh how true it was that the old authorities had dwindled away; that no allegiance had been left; that his had been a citadel without a master. And then Julie moved through his days again Julie at Caudebec, daring, iconoclastic, free; Julie at Abbeville, mysterious, passionate, dominant; Julie at Dieppe ah, Julie at Dieppe! He marvelled that he had held out so long after Dieppe, and then Louise rose before him. He understood Louise less than Julie, perhaps, and with all the threads in his hand he failed to see the pattern. He turned over restlessly. It was easy to see how they had come to be in London; it would have been more remarkable if they had not so come together; but now, what now? He could not sum up Julie amid the shifting scenes of the last few days. She had been so loving, and yet, in a way, their love had reached no climax. It had, indeed, reached what he would once have thought a complete and ultimate climax, but plainly Julie did not think so. And nor did he now. The things of the spirit were, after all, so much greater than the things of the flesh. The Julie of Friday night had been his, but of this night...? He rolled over again. What had she meant at the play? He told himself her tears were simple emotion, her laughter simple reaction, but he knew it was not true....

And for himself? Well, Julie was Julie. He loved her intensely. She could stir him to anything almost. He loved to be with her, to see her, to hear her, but he did not feel satisfied. He knew that. He told himself that he was an introspective fool; that nothing ever would seem to satisfy him; that the centre of his life was and would be Julie; that she was real, tinglingly, intensely real; but he knew that that was not the last word. And then and there he resolved that the last word should be spoken on the morrow, that had, indeed, already come by the clock: she should promise to marry him.

He slept, perhaps, for an hour or two, but he awoke with the dawn. The grey light was stealing in at the windows, and Julie slept beside him in the bed between. He tried to sleep again, but could not, and, on a sudden, had an idea. He got quietly out of bed.

“What is it, Peter?” said Julie sleepily.

He went round and leaned over her. “I can’t sleep any more, dearest,” he said. “I think I’ll dress and go for a bit of a walk. Do you mind? I’ll be in to breakfast.”

“No,” she said. “Go if you want to. You are a restless old thing!”

He dressed silently, and kept the bathroom door closed as he bathed and shaved. She was asleep again as he stole out, one arm flung loosely on the counterpane, her hair untidy on the pillow. He kissed a lock of it, and let himself quietly out of their suite.

It was still very early, and the Circus looked empty and strange. He walked down Piccadilly, and wondered at the clean, soft touch of the dawning day, and recalled another memorable Sunday morning walk. He passed very familiar places, and was conscious of feeling an exile, an inevitable one, but none the less an exile, for all that. And so he came into St. James’s Park, still as aimlessly as he had left the hotel.

Before him, clear as a pointing finger in the morning sky, was the campanile of that stranger among the great cathedrals of England. It attracted him for the first time, and he made all but unconsciously towards it, Peter was not even in the spiritual street that leads to the gates of the Catholic Church, and it was no incipient Romanism that moved him. He was completely ignorant of the greater part of that faith, and, still more, had no idea of the gulf that separates it from all other religions. He would have supposed, if he had stopped to think, that, as with other sects, one considered its tenets, made up one’s mind as to their truth or falsehood one by one, and if one believed a sufficient majority of them joined the Church. It was only, then, the mood of the moment, and when, he found himself really moving towards that finger-post he excused himself by thinking that as he was, by his own act, exiled, from, more familiar temples, he would visit this that would have about it a suggestion of France.

He wondered if it would be open as he turned into Ashley Gardens. He glanced at his watch; it was only just after seven. Perhaps an early Mass might be beginning. He went to the central doors and found them fast; then he saw little groups of people and individuals like himself making for the door in the great tower, and these he followed within.

He stood amazed for a few minutes. The vast soaring space, so austere in its bare brick, gripped his imagination. The white and red and gold of the painted Christ that hung so high and monstrous before the entrance to the marbles of the sanctuary almost troubled him. It dominated everything so completely that he felt he could not escape it. He sought one of the many chairs and knelt down.

A little bell tinkled, Peter glanced sideways towards the sound, and saw that a Mass was in progress in a side-chapel of gleaming mosaics, and that a soldier in uniform served. Hardly had he taken the details in, when another bell claimed his attention. It came from across the wide nave, and he perceived that another chapel had its Mass, and a considerable congregation. And then, his attention aroused, he began to spy about and to take in the thing.

The whole vast cathedral was, as it were, alive. Seven or eight Masses were in progress. One would scarcely finish before another priest, preceded by soldier in uniform or server in cassock and cotta, would appear from beyond the great pulpit and make his way to yet another altar. The small handbells rang out again and again and again, and still priest after priest was there to take his place. Peter began cautiously to move about. He became amazed at the size of the congregation. They had been lost in that great place, but every chapel had its people, and there were, in reality, hundreds scattered about in the nave alone.

He knelt for awhile and watched the giving of Communion in the guarded chapel to the north of the high altar. Its gold and emblazoned gates were not for him, but he could at least kneel and watch those who passed in and out. They were of all sorts and classes, of all ranks and ages; men, women, children, old and young, rich and poor, soldier and civilian, streamed in and out again. Peter sighed and left them. He found an altar at which Mass was about to begin, and he knelt at the back on a mosaic pavement in which fishes and strange beasts were set in a marble stream, and watched. And it was not one Mass that he watched, but two or three, and it was there that a vision grew on his inner understanding, as he knelt and could not pray.

It is hard and deceptive to write of those subconscious imaginings that convict the souls of most men some time or another. In that condition things are largely what we fashion them to be, and one may be thought to be asserting their ultimate truth in speaking of their influence. But there is no escaping from the fact that Peter Graham of a lost allegiance began that Sunday morning to be aware of another claimant. And this is what dawned upon him, and how.

A French memory gave him a starting-point. Here, at these Low Masses, it was more abundantly plain than ever that these priests did not conceive themselves to be serving a congregation, but an altar. One after the other they moved through a ritual, and spoke low sentences that hardly reached him, with their eyes holden by that which they did. At first he was only conscious of this, but then he perceived the essential change that came over each in his turn. The posturing and speaking was but introductory to the moment when they raised the Host and knelt before it. It was as if they were but functionaries ushering in a King, and then effacing themselves before Him.

Here, then, the Old Testament of Peter’s past became to him a schoolmaster. He heard himself repeating again the comfortable words of the Prayer-Book service: “Come unto Me....” “God so loved....” “If any man sin....” Louise’s hot declaration forced itself upon him: “It is He Who is there.” And it was then that the eyes of his mind were enlightened and he saw a vision not, indeed, of the truth of the Roman Mass (if it be true), and not of the place of the Sacrament in the Divine scheme of things, but the conception of a love so great that it shook him as if it were a storm, and bowed him before it as if he were a reed.

The silent, waiting Jesus.... All these centuries, in every land.... How He had been mocked, forgotten, spurned, derided, denied, cast out; and still He waited. Prostitutes of the streets, pardoned in a word, advanced towards Him, and He knew that so shortly again, within the secret place of their hearts, He would be crucified; but still He waited. Careless men, doubtless passion-mastered, came up to Him, and He knew the sort that came; but still He waited. He, Peter, who had not known He was here at all, and who had gone wandering off in search of any mistress, spent many days, turned in by chance, and found Him here. What did He wait for? Nothing; there was nothing that anyone could give, nothing but a load of shame, the offering of a body spent by passionate days, the kiss of traitor-lips; but still He waited. He did more than wait. He offered Himself to it all. He had bound Himself by an oath to be kissed if Judas planned to kiss Him, and He came through the trees to that bridal with the dawn of every day. He had foreseen the chalice, foreseen that it would be filled at every moon and every sun by the bitter gall of ingratitude and wantonness and hate, but He had pledged Himself “Even so, Father” and He was here to drink it. Small wonder, then, that the paving on which Peter Graham knelt seemed to swim before his eyes until it was in truth a moving ocean of love that streamed from the altar and enclosed of every kind, and even him.

The movement of chairs and the gathering of a bigger congregation than usual near a chapel that Peter perceived to be for the dead aroused him. He got up to go. He walked quickly up Victoria Street, and marvelled over the scene he had left. In sight of Big Ben he glanced up twenty to nine! He had been, then, an hour and a half in the cathedral. He recalled having read that a Mass took half an hour, and he began to reckon how many persons had heard Mass even while he had been there. Not less than five hundred at every half-hour, and most probably more. Fifteen hundred to two thousand souls, of every sort and kind, then, had been drawn in to that all but silent ceremony, to that showing of Jesus crucified. A multitude and what compassion!

Thus he walked home, thinking of many things, but the vision he had seen was uppermost and would not be displaced. It was still in his eyes as he entered their bedroom and found Julie looking at a magazine as she lay in bed, smoking a cigarette.

“Lor’, Peter, are you back? I suppose I ought to be up, but I was so sleepy. What’s the time? Why, what’s the matter? Where have you been?”

Peter did not go over to her at once as she had expected. It was not that he felt he could not, or anything like that, but simply that he was only thinking of her in a secondary way. He walked to the dressing-table and lifted the flowers she had worn the night before and put there in a little glass.

“Where have you been, old Solomon?” demanded Julie again.

“Seeing wonders, Julie,” said Peter, looking dreamily at the blossoms.

“No? Really? What? Do tell me. If it was anything I might have seen, you were a beast not to come back for me, d’you hear?”

Peter turned and stared at her, but she knew as he looked that he hardly saw her. Her tone changed, and she made a little movement with her hand, “Tell me, Peter,” she said again.

“I’ve seen,” said Peter slowly, “a bigger thing than I thought the world could hold, I’ve seen something so wonderful, Julie, that it hurt oh, more than I can say. I’ve seen Love, Julie.”

She could not help it. It was a foolish thing to say just then, she knew, but it came out. “Oh, Peter,” she said, “did you have to leave me to see that?”

“Leave you?” he questioned, and for a moment so lost in his thought was he that he did not understand what she meant. Then it dawned on him, and he smiled. He did not see as he stood there, the clumsy Peter, how the two were related. So he smiled, and he came over to her, and took her hand, and sat on the bed, his eyes still full of light. “Oh, you’ve nothing to do with it,” he said. “It’s far bigger than you or I, Julie. Our love is like a candle held up to the sun beside it. Our love wants something, doesn’t it? It burns, it it intoxicates, Julie. But this love waits, waits, do you understand? It asks nothing; it gives, it suffices all. Year after year it just waits, Julie, waits for anyone, waits for everyone. And you can spurn it, spit on it, crucify it, and it is still there when you need, Julie.” And Peter leaned forward, and buried his face in her little hand.

Julie heard him through, and it was well that before the end he did not see her eyes. Then she moved her other hand which held the half-burnt cigarette and dropped the smoking end (so that it made a little hiss) into her teacup on the glass-topped table, and brought her hand back, and caressed his hair as he lay bent forward there. “Dear old Peter,” she said tenderly, “how he thinks things! And when you saw this this love, Peter, how did you feel?”

He did not answer for a minute, and when he did he did not raise his head. “Oh, I don’t know, Julie,” he said. “It went through and through me. It was like a big sea, and it flooded me away. It filled me. I seemed to drink it in at every pore. I felt satisfied just to be there.”

“And then you came back to Julie, eh, Peter?” she questioned.

“Why, of course,” he said, sitting up with a smile. “Why not?” He gave a little laugh. “Why, Julie,” he said, “I never thought of that before. I suppose I ought to have been oh, I don’t know, but our days together didn’t seem to make any difference. That Love was too big. It seemed to me to be too big to be well, jealous, I suppose.”

She nodded. “That would be just it, Peter. That’s how it would seem to you. You see, I know. It’s strange, my dear, but I don’t feel either jealous.”

He frowned. “What do you mean?” he said. “Don’t you understand? It was God’s Love that I saw.”

She hesitated a second, and then her face relaxed into a smile. “You’re as blind as a bat, my dear, but I suppose all men are, and so you can’t help it. Now go and ring for breakfast and smoke a cigarette in the sitting-room while I dress.” And Peter, because he hated to be called a bat and did not feel in the least like one, went.

He rang the bell, and the maid answered it. She did not wait for him to give his order, but advanced towards him, her eyes sparkling. “Oh, sir,” she said, “is madame up? I don’t know how to thank her, and you too. I’ve wanted a frame for Jack’s picture, but I couldn’t get a real good one, I couldn’t. When I sees this parcel I couldn’t think what it was. I forgot even as how I’d give the lady my name. Oh, she’s the real good one, she is. You’ll forgive me, sir, but I know a real lady when I see one. They haven’t got no airs, and they know what a girl feels like, right away. I put Jack in it, sir, on me table, and if there’s anything I can do for you or your lady, now or ever, I’ll do it, sir.”

Peter smiled at the little outburst, but his heart warmed within him. How just like Julie it was! “Well,” he said, “it’s the lady you’ve really to thank. Knock, if you like; I expect she’ll let you in. And then order breakfast, will you? Bacon and eggs and some fish. Thanks.” And he turned away.

She made for the door, but stopped, “I near forgot, sir,” she said. “A gentleman left this for you last night, and they give it to me at the office this morning. There was no answer, he said. He went by this morning’s train.” She handed Peter an unstamped envelope bearing the hotel’s name, and left the room as he opened it. He did not recognise the handwriting, but he tore it open and glanced at once at the signature, and got a very considerable surprise, not to say a shock. It was signed “Jack Donovan.”

“MY DEAR GRAHAM, [the letter ran],

“Forgive me for writing, but I must tell you that I’ve seen you twice with Julie (and each time neither of you saw anyone else but yourselves!). It seems mean to see you and not say so, but for the Lord’s sake don’t think it’ll go further, or that I reproach you. I’ve been there myself, old bird, and in any case I don’t worry about other people’s shows. But I want to tell you a bit of news Tommy Raynard and I have fixed it up. I know you’ll congratulate me. She’s topping, and just the girl for me no end wiser than I, and as jolly as anyone, really. I don’t know how you and Julie are coming out of it, and I won’t guess, for it’s a dreadful war; but maybe you’ll be able to sympathise with me at having to leave my girl in France! However, I’m off back to-morrow, a day before you. If you hadn’t run off to Paris, you’d have known. My leave order was from Havre.

“Well, cheerio. See you before long. And just one word, my boy, from a fellow who has seen a bit more than you (if you’ll forgive me): remember, Julie’ll know best.

“Yours, ever,
“JACK DONOVAN.”

Peter frowned over his letter, and then smiled, and then frowned again. He was still at it when he heard Julie’s footstep outside, and he thrust the envelope quickly into his pocket, thinking rapidly. He did not in the least understand what the other meant, especially by the last sentence, and he wanted to consider it before showing Julie. Also, he wondered if it was meant to be shown to Julie at all. He thought not; probably Donovan was absolutely as good as his word, and would not even mention anything to Tommy. But he thought no more, for Julie was on him.

“Peter, it’s started to rain! I knew it would. Why does it always rain on Sundays in London? Probably the heavens themselves weep at the sight of so gloomy a city. However, I don’t care a damn! I’ve made up my mind what we’re going to do. We shall sit in front of the fire all the morning, and you shall read to me. Will you?”

“Anything you like, my darling,” he said; “and we couldn’t spend a better morning. But bacon and eggs first, eh? No, fish first, I mean. But pour out a cup of tea at once, for Heaven’s sake. I haven’t had a drop this morning.”

“Poor old thing! No wonder you’re a bit off colour. No early tea after that champagne last night! But, oh, Peter, wasn’t Carminetta a dream?”

Breakfast over, Peter sat in a chair and bent over her. “What do you want me to read, Julie darling?” he demanded.

She considered. “Not a magazine, not La Vie Parisienne, though we might perhaps look at the pictures part of the time. I know! Stop! I’ll get it,” She ran out and returned with a little leather-covered book. “Read it right through, Peter,” she said. “I’ve read it heaps of times, but I want to hear it again to-day. Do you mind?”

“Omar Khayyam!” exclaimed Peter. “Good idea! He’s a blasphemous old pagan, but the verse is glorious and it fits in at times. Do you want me to start at once?”

“Give me a cigarette! no, put the box there. Stir up the fire. Come and sit on the floor with your back to me. That’s right. Now fire away.”

She leaned back and he began. He read for the rhythm; she listened for the meaning. He read to the end; she hardly heard more than a stanza:

“Oh, threats of Hell and Hopes of Paradise!
One thing at least is certain this Life flies;
One thing is certain, and the rest is lies
The flower that once has blown for ever dies.”

They lunched in the hotel, and at the table Peter put the first necessary questions that they both dreaded. “I’m going to tell them to make out my bill, Julie,” he said. “I’ve to be at Victoria at seven-thirty a.m. to-morrow, you know. You’ve still got some leave, haven’t you, dear; what are you going to do? How long will you stay on here?”

“Not after you’ve gone, Peter,” she said. “Let them make it out for me till after breakfast to-morrow.”

“But what are we going to do?” he demanded.

“Oh, don’t ask. It spoils to-day to think of to-morrow. Go to my friends, perhaps yes, I think that. It’s only for a few days now.”

“Oh, Julie, I wish I could stay.”

“So do I, but you can’t, so don’t worry. What about this afternoon?”

“If it’s stopped raining, let’s go for a walk, shall we?”

They settled on that, and it was Julie who took him again to St. James’s Park. As they walked: “Where did you go to church this morning, Peter?” she asked.

He pointed to the campanile. “Over there,” he said.

“Then let’s go together to-night,” she said.

“Do you mean it, Julie?”

“Of course I do. I’m curious. Besides, it’s Sunday, and I want to go to church.”

“But you’ll miss dinner,” objected Peter. “It begins at six-thirty.”

“Well, let’s get some food out Victoria Station, for instance. Won’t that do? We can have some supper sent up afterwards in the hotel.”

Peter agreed, but they did not go to the station. In a little cafe outside Julie saw a South African private eating eggs and bacon, and nothing would do but that they must do the same. So they went in. They ate off thick plates, and Julie dropped the china pepper-pot on her eggs and generally behaved as if she were at a school-treat. But it was a novelty, and it kept their thoughts off the fact that it was the last night. And finally they went to church.

The service did not impress Peter, and every time he looked at Julie’s face he wanted to laugh; but the atmosphere of the place did, though he could not catch the impression of the morning. For the sermon, a stoutish, foreign-looking ecclesiastic mounted the pulpit, and they both prepared to be bored. However, he gave out his text, and Peter sat bolt upright at once. It would have delighted the ears of his Wesleyan corporal of the Forestry; and more than that it was the text he had quoted in the ears of the dying Jenks. He prepared keenly to listen. As for Julie, she was regarding the altar with a far-away look in her eyes, and she scarcely moved the whole time.

Outside, as soon as they were out of the crowd, Peter began at once.

“Julie,” he said, “whatever did you think of that sermon?”

“What did you?” she said. “Tell me first.”

“I don’t believe you listened at all, but I can’t help talking of it. It was amazing. He began by speaking about Adam and Eve and original sin and the Garden of Eden as if he’d been there. There might never have been a Higher Critic in existence. Then he said what sin did, and that sin was only truly sin if it did do that. That was to hide the face of God, to put Him and a human being absolutely out of communication, so to speak. And then he came to Christ, to the Cross. Did you hear him, Julie? Christ comes in between He got in between God and man. All the anger that darted out of God against sin hit Him; all the blows that man struck back against God hit Him. Do you see that, Julie? That was wonderfully put, but the end was more wonderful. Both, ultimately, cannot kill the Heart of Jesus. There’s no sin there to merit or to feel the anger, and we can hurt, but we can’t destroy His love.”

Peter stopped, “That’s what I saw a little this morning,” he said after a minute.

“Well?” said Julie.

“Oh, it’s all so plain! If there was a way to that Heart, one would be safe. I mean, a way that is not an emotional idea, not a subjective experience, but something practical. Some way that a Tommy could travel, as easily as anyone, and get to a real thing. And he said there was a way, and just sketched it, the Sacraments more than ours, of course, their seven, all of them more or less, I suppose. He meant that the Sacraments were not signs of salvation, but salvation itself. Julie, I never saw the idea before. It’s colossal. It’s a thing to which one might dedicate one’s life. It’s a thing to live and die gladly for. It fills one. Don’t you think so, Julie?” He spoke exultantly.

“Peter, to be honest,” said Julie, “I think you’re talking fanatical rubbish.”

“Do you really, Julie? You can’t, surely you can’t.”

“But I do, Peter,” she said sadly; “it makes no appeal to me. I can only see one great thing in life, and it’s not that. ‘The rest is lies,’ But, oh! surely that great thing might not be false too. But why do you see one thing, and I another, my dear?”

“I don’t know,” said Peter, “unless well, perhaps it’s a kind of gift, Julie, ‘If thou knewest the gift of God...’ Not that I know, only I can just see a great wonderful vision, and it fills my sight.”

“I, too,” she said; “but it’s not your vision.”

“What is it, then?” said he, carried away by his own ideas and hardly thinking of her.

Her voice brought him back. “Oh, Peter, don’t you know even yet?”

He took her arm very tenderly at that. “My darling,” he said, “the two aren’t incompatible. Julie, don’t be sad. I love you; you know I love you. I wish we’d never gone to the place if you think I don’t, but I haven’t changed towards you a bit, Julie. I love you far, far more than anyone else. I won’t give you up, even to God!”

It was dark where they were. Julie lifted her face to him just there. He thought he had never heard her speak as she spoke now, there, in a London street, under the night sky. “Peter, my darling,” she said, “my brave boy. How I love you, Peter! I know you won’t give me up, Peter, and I adore you for it. Peter, hell will be heaven with the memory of that!” There, then, he sealed her with his kiss.

Julie stirred in his arms, but the movement did not wake him any more than the knock of the door had done. “All right,” she called. “Thank you,” and, leaning over, she switched on the light. It was 5.30, and necessary. In its radiance she bent over him, and none of her friends had ever seen her look as she did then. She kissed him, and he opened his eyes.

“Half-past five, Peter,” she said, as gaily as she could. “You’ve got to get a move on, my dear. Two hours to dress and pack and breakfast no, I suppose you can do that on the train. But you’ve got to get there. Oh, Lord, how it brings the war home, doesn’t it? Jump up!”

Peter sighed. “Blast the war!” he said lazily. “I shan’t move. Kiss me again, you darling, and let your hair fall over my face.”

She did so, and its glossy curtain hid them. Beneath the veil she whispered; “Come, darling, for my sake. The longer you stay here now, the harder it will be.”

He threw his arms round her, and then jumped out of bed yawning.

“That’s it,” she said. “Now go and shave and bath while I pack for you. Hurry up; then we’ll get more time.”

While he splashed about she sought for his things, and packed for him as she never packed for herself. As she gathered them she thought of the night before, when, overwhelmed in a tempest of love, it had all been left for the morning. She filled the suit-case, but she could not fasten it.

“Come and help, Peter,” she called.

He came out. She was kneeling on it in her loose kimono, her hair all about her, her nightdress open at the throat. He drank her beauty in, and then mastered himself for a minute and shut the case. “That all?” she queried.

“Yes,” he said. “You get back into bed, my darling, or you’ll catch cold. I’ll be ready in a second, and then we can have a few minutes together.”

At the glass he marshalled his arguments, and then he came over to her. He dropped by the bedside and wound his arms about her. “Julie,” he whispered, “my darling, say you’ll marry me please, please!”

She made no reply. He kissed her, unresisting, again and again.

“Julie,” he said, “you know how I love you. You do know it. You know I’m not begging you to marry me because I’ve got something out of you, perhaps when you were carried away, and now I feel I must make reparation. My darling, it isn’t that. I love you so much that I can’t live without you. I’ll give up everything for you. I want to start a new life with you. I can’t go back to the old, anyhow; I don’t want to: it’s a sham to me now, and I hate shams you know I do. But you’re not a sham; our love isn’t a sham. I’d die for you, Julie, my own Julie; I’d die for the least little bit of this hair of yours, I think! But I want to live for you. I want to put you right in the centre of everything, and live for you, Julie. Say ‘Yes,’ my love, my own. You must say ‘Yes,’ Why don’t you, Julie?”

And still she made no reply.

A kind of despair seized him. “Oh, Julie,” he cried, “what can I say or what can I do? You’re cruel, Julie; you’re killing me! You must say ‘Yes’ before I go. We’ll meet in Havre, I know; but that will be so different. I must have my answer now. Oh, my darling, please, please, speak! You love me, Julie, don’t you?”

“Peter,” said Julie slowly, “I love you so much that I hardly dare speak, lest my love should carry me away. But listen, my dear, listen. Peter, I’ve watched you these days; I’ve watched you in France. I’ve watched you from the moment when I called you over to me because I was interested and felt my fate, I suppose. I’ve watched you struggling along, Peter, and I understand why you’ve struggled. You’re built for great things, my dear how great I can’t see and I can’t even understand. No, Peter, I can’t even understand that’s part of the tragedy of it. Peter, I love you so that my love for you is my centre, it’s my all in all, it’s my hope of salvation, Peter. Do you hear, my darling? my love, it’s my one hope! If I can’t keep that pure and clean, Peter, I ruin both of us. I love you so, Peter, that I won’t marry you!”

He gave a little cry, but swiftly she put a hand over his mouth. She smiled at him as she did so, a daring little smile. “Be quiet, you Solomon, you,” she said; “I haven’t finished. There! Now listen again, Peter: you can’t help it, but you can’t love me as I love you. I see it. I I hate it, I think; but I know it, and there’s an end. You, my dear, you would put me in the centre, but you can’t. I can’t put you out of my centre, Peter. You would give up God for me, Peter, but you can’t, or if you did, you’d lose us both. But I, Peter oh, my darling, I have no god but you. And that’s why I’ll worship you, Peter, and sacrifice to you, Peter, sacrifice to your only ultimate happiness, Peter, and sacrifice my all.”

He tried to speak, but he could not. The past days lay before him in a clear light at last. Her love shone on them, and shone too plainly for mistake. He tried to deny, but he couldn’t; contradict, but his heart cried the truth, and his eyes could not hide it. But he could and did vent his passion. “Damn God! Curse Him!” he cried. “I hate Him! Why should He master me? I want you, Julie; I will have you; I will worship you, Julie!”

She let him speak; and, being Julie, his words only brought a more tender light into her face. “Peter,” she said, “one minute. Do you remember where you first kissed me, my darling? the first real kiss, I mean,” and her eyes sparkled with fun even then. “You know ah, I see you do! You will never forget that, will you? Perhaps you thought I didn’t notice, but I did. Neither you nor I chose it; it was Fate; perhaps it was your God, Peter. But, anyway, look at me now as you looked then. What do you see?”

He stared at her, and he saw how clearly he saw! Her sweet back-bent head, her shining eyes, the lamp-light falling on her hair out of the night. He even heard the sea as it beat on the stones of the quay or thought he did and felt the whip of the wind. And behind her, dominating, arms outspread, the harbour crucifix. And she saw that he saw, and she whispered: “Do you hate Him, Peter?” And he sank his head into her hands and sobbed great dry sobs.

“Ah, don’t, don’t,” he heard her say “don’t Peter! It’s not so bad as that. Your life is going to be full, my beloved, with a great and burning love; and you were right this morning, Peter, more right than you knew. When that is there you will have place even for me yes, even for me, the love of what you will call your sin. And I, my dear, dear boy, I have something even now which no devil, Peter, and no god can take away.”

He looked up. “Then there’s a chance, Julie. You won’t say ‘Yes,’ but don’t say ‘No.’ Let us see. I shall take no vows, Julie. I haven’t an idea what I shall do, and maybe it won’t be quite as you think, and there will be a little room for you one day. Oh, say you’ll wait a while, Julie, just to see!”

It was the supreme moment. She saw no crucifix to sustain her, but she did see the bastard Spanish dancing-girl. And she did not hesitate. “No, Peter,” she said, “I would not take that, and you never could give it. I did not mean such place as that. It never can be, Peter; you are not made for me.”

And thus did Julie, who knew no God, but Julie of the brave, clean, steadfast heart, give Peter to Him.

The maid came in answer to her ring. “Will you light a fire, please?” said Julie. “I suppose Captain Graham has gone?”

“Yes, mam, he’s gone, and he felt it terrible, I could see. But don’t you fear, mam, he’ll be kept, I know he will. You’re that good, he’ll come back to you, never fear. But it’s ’ard on those they leave, ain’t it, mam? their wives an’ all.”

“Yes,” said Julie, and she never spoke more bravely. “But it’s got to be, hasn’t it? Would you pull the blind up? Ah, thanks; why, it’s sunny! I’m so glad. It will be good for the crossing.”

“It will be that, ’m. We gets the sun first up here. Shall I bring up the tea, madame?”

“I’ll ring,” said Julie, “when I want it. It won’t be for a few minutes yet.”

The girl went out, and the door shut behind her. Julie lay on still for a little, and then she got up. She walked to the window and looked out, and she threw her arms wide with a gesture, and shut her eyes, and let the sun fall on her. Then she walked to her little trunk, and rummaged in it. From somewhere far down she drew out a leather case, and with it in her hand she went over and sat by the fire. She held it without moving for a minute, and then she slowly opened it. One by one she drew out a few worthless things a withered bunch of primroses, a couple of little scribbled notes, a paper cap from a cracker, a menu card, a handkerchief of her own that she had lent to him, and that he (just like Peter) had given back. She held them all in her hand a minute, and then she bent forward and dropped them in the open fire.

And the sun rose a little higher, and fell on the tumbled brown hair that Peter had kissed and that now hid her eyes.