The boat was gone again, and already
half-way to the Farallone, before Herrick turned and
went unwillingly up the pier. From the crown of
the beach, the figure-head confronted him with what
seemed irony, her helmeted head tossed back, her formidable
arm apparently hurling something, whether shell or
missile, in the direction of the anchored schooner.
She seemed a defiant deity from the island, coming
forth to its threshold with a rush as of one about
to fly, and perpetuated in that dashing attitude.
Herrick looked up at her, where she towered above
him head and shoulders, with singular feelings of curiosity
and romance, and suffered his mind to travel to and
fro in her life-history. So long she had been
the blind conductress of a ship among the waves; so
long she had stood here idle in the violent sun, that
yet did not avail to blister her; and was even this
the end of so many adventures? he wondered, or was
more behind? And he could have found in his heart
to regret that she was not a goddess, nor yet he a
pagan, that he might have bowed down before her in
that hour of difficulty.
When he now went forward, it was cool
with the shadow of many well-grown palms; draughts
of the dying breeze swung them together overhead; and
on all sides, with a swiftness beyond dragon-flies
or swallows, the spots of sunshine flitted, and hovered,
and returned. Underfoot, the sand was fairly
solid and quite level, and Herrick’s steps fell
there noiseless as in new-fallen snow. It bore
the marks of having been once weeded like a garden
alley at home; but the pestilence had done its work,
and the weeds were returning. The buildings of
the settlement showed here and there through the stems
of the colonnade, fresh painted, trim and dandy, and
all silent as the grave. Only, here and there
in the crypt, there was a rustle and scurry and some
crowing of poultry; and from behind the house with
the verandahs, he saw smoke arise and heard the crackling
of a fire.
The stone houses were nearest him
upon his right. The first was locked; in the
second, he could dimly perceive, through a window,
a certain accumulation of pearl-shell piled in the
far end; the third, which stood gaping open on the
afternoon, seized on the mind of Herrick with its
multiplicity and disorder of romantic things.
Therein were cables, windlasses and blocks of every
size and capacity; cabin windows and ladders; rusty
tanks, a companion hutch; a binnacle with its brass
mountings and its compass idly pointing, in the confusion
and dusk of that shed, to a forgotten pole; ropes,
anchors, harpoons, a blubber dipper of copper, green
with years, a steering wheel, a tool chest with the
vessel’s name upon the top, the Asia: a
whole curiosity-shop of sea curios, gross and solid,
heavy to lift, ill to break, bound with brass and
shod with iron. Two wrecks at the least must have
contributed to this random heap of lumber; and as
Herrick looked upon it, it seemed to him as if the
two ships’ companies were there on guard, and
he heard the tread of feet and whisperings, and saw
with the tail of his eye the commonplace ghosts of
sailor men.
This was not merely the work of an
aroused imagination, but had something sensible to
go upon; sounds of a stealthy approach were no doubt
audible; and while he still stood staring at the lumber,
the voice of his host sounded suddenly, and with even
more than the customary softness of enunciation, from
behind.
‘Junk,’, it said, ‘only
old junk! And does Mr Hay find a parable?’
‘I find at least a strong impression,’
replied Herrick, turning quickly, lest he might be
able to catch, on the face of the speaker, some commentary
on the words.
Attwater stood in the doorway, which
he almost wholly filled; his hands stretched above
his head and grasping the architrave. He smiled
when their eyes Met, but the expression was inscrutable.
’Yes, a powerful impression.
You are like me; nothing so affecting as ships!’
said he. ’The ruins of an empire would leave
me frigid, when a bit of an old rail that an old shellback
leaned on in the middle watch, would bring me up all
standing. But come, let’s see some more
of the island. It’s all sand and coral
and palm trees; but there’s a kind of a quaintness
in the place.’
‘I find it heavenly,’
said Herrick, breathing deep, with head bared in the
shadow.
‘Ah, that’s because you’re
new from sea,’ said Attwater. ’I dare
say, too, you can appreciate what one calls it.
It’s a lovely name. It has a flavour, it
has a colour, it has a ring and fall to it; it’s
like its author it’s half Christian!
Remember your first view of the island, and how it’s
only woods and water; and suppose you had asked somebody
for the name, and he had answered nemorosa
Zacynthos!’
‘Jam medio apparet
fluctu!’ exclaimed Herrick. ‘Ye gods,
yes, how good!’
‘If it gets upon the chart,
the skippers will make nice work of it,’ said
Attwater. ‘But here, come and see the diving-shed.’
He opened a door, and Herrick saw
a large display of apparatus neatly ordered:
pumps and pipes, and the leaded boots, and the huge
snouted helmets shining in rows along the wall; ten
complete outfits.
‘The whole eastern half of my
lagoon is shallow, you must understand,’ said
Attwater; ’so we were able to get in the dress
to great advantage. It paid beyond belief, and
was a queer sight when they were at it, and these
marine monsters’ tapping the nearest
of the helmets ’kept appearing and
reappearing in the midst of the lagoon. Fond of
parables?’ he asked abruptly.
‘O yes!’ said Herrick.
’Well, I saw these machines
come up dripping and go down again, and come up dripping
and go down again, and all the while the fellow inside
as dry as toast!’ said Attwater; ’and
I thought we all wanted a dress to go down into the
world in, and come up scatheless. What do you
think the name was?’ he inquired.
‘Self-conceit,’ said Herrick.
‘Ah, but I mean seriously!’ said Attwater.
‘Call it self-respect, then!’ corrected
Herrick, with a laugh.
‘And why not Grace? Why
not God’s Grace, Hay?’ asked Attwater.
’Why not the grace of your Maker and Redeemer,
He who died for you, He who upholds you, He whom you
daily crucify afresh? There is nothing here,’ striking
on his bosom ’nothing there’ smiting
the wall ’and nothing there’ stamping ’nothing
but God’s Grace! We walk upon it, we breathe
it; we live and die by it; it makes the nails and axles
of the universe; and a puppy in pyjamas prefers self-conceit!’
The huge dark man stood over against Herrick by the
line of the divers’ helmets, and seemed to swell
and glow; and the next moment the life had gone from
him. ‘I beg your pardon,’ said he;
‘I see you don’t believe in God?’
‘Not in your sense, I am afraid,’ said
Herrick.
‘I never argue with young atheists
or habitual drunkards,’ said Attwater flippantly.
‘Let us go across the island to the outer beach.’
It was but a little way, the greatest
width of that island scarce exceeding a furlong, and
they walked gently. Herrick was like one in a
dream. He had come there with a mind divided;
come prepared to study that ambiguous and sneering
mask, drag out the essential man from underneath,
and act accordingly; decision being till then postponed.
Iron cruelty, an iron insensibility to the suffering
of others, the uncompromising pursuit of his own interests,
cold culture, manners without humanity; these he had
looked for, these he still thought he saw. But
to find the whole machine thus glow with the reverberation
of religious zeal, surprised him beyond words; and
he laboured in vain, as he walked, to piece together
into any kind of whole his odds and ends of knowledge to
adjust again into any kind of focus with itself, his
picture of the man beside him.
‘What brought you here to the
South Seas?’ he asked presently.
‘Many things,’ said Attwater.
’Youth, curiosity, romance, the love of the
sea, and (it will surprise you to hear) an interest
in missions. That has a good deal declined, which
will surprise you less. They go the wrong way
to work; they are too parsonish, too much of the old
wife, and even the old apple wife. Clothes,
clothes, are their idea; but clothes are not
Christianity, any more than they are the sun in heaven,
or could take the place of it! They think a parsonage
with roses, and church bells, and nice old women bobbing
in the lanes, are part and parcel of religion.
But religion is a savage thing, like the universe it
illuminates; savage, cold, and bare, but infinitely
strong.’
‘And you found this island by an accident?’
said Herrick.
‘As you did!’ said Attwater.
’And since then I have had a business, and a
colony, and a mission of my own. I was a man of
the world before I was a Christian; I’m a man
of the world still, and I made my mission pay.
No good ever came of coddling. A man has to stand
up in God’s sight and work up to his weight
avoirdupois; then I’ll talk to him, but not
before. I gave these beggars what they wanted:
a judge in Israel, the bearer of the sword and scourge;
I was making a new people here; and behold, the angel
of the Lord smote them and they were not!’
With the very uttering of the words,
which were accompanied by a gesture, they came forth
out of the porch of the palm wood by the margin of
the sea and full in front of the sun which was near
setting. Before them the surf broke slowly.
All around, with an air of imperfect wooden things
inspired with wicked activity, the crabs trundled and
scuttled into holes. On the right, whither Attwater
pointed and abruptly turned, was the cemetery of the
island, a field of broken stones from the bigness
of a child’s hand to that of his head, diversified
by many mounds of the same material, and walled by
a rude rectangular enclosure. Nothing grew there
but a shrub or two with some white flowers; nothing
but the number of the mounds, and their disquieting
shape, indicated the presence of the dead.
‘The rude forefathers of the hamlet
sleep!’
quoted Attwater as he entered by the
open gateway into that unholy close. ‘Coral
to coral, pebbles to pebbles,’ he said, ’this
has been the main scene of my activity in the South
Pacific. Some were good, and some bad, and the
majority (of course and always) null. Here was
a fellow, now, that used to frisk like a dog; if you
had called him he came like an arrow from a bow; if
you had not, and he came unbidden, you should have
seen the deprecating eye and the little intricate dancing
step. Well, his trouble is over now, he has lain
down with kings and councillors; the rest of his acts,
are they not written in the book of the chronicles?
That fellow was from Penrhyn; like all the Penrhyn
islanders he was ill to manage; heady, jealous, violent:
the man with the nose! He lies here quiet enough.
And so they all lie.
“And darkness was the burier of the dead!"’
He stood, in the strong glow of the
sunset, with bowed head; his voice sounded now sweet
and now bitter with the varying sense.
‘You loved these people?’
cried Herrick, strangely touched.
‘I?’ said Attwater.
’Dear no! Don’t think me a philanthropist.
I dislike men, and hate women. If I like the
islands at all, it is because you see them here plucked
of their lendings, their dead birds and cocked hats,
their petticoats and coloured hose. Here was one
I liked though,’ and he set his foot upon a
mound. ’He was a fine savage fellow; he
had a dark soul; yes, I liked this one. I am
fanciful,’ he added, looking hard at Herrick,
‘and I take fads. I like you.’
Herrick turned swiftly and looked
far away to where the clouds were beginning to troop
together and amass themselves round the obsequies of
day. ‘No one can like me,’ he said.
‘You are wrong there,’
said the other, ’as a man usually is about himself.
You are attractive, very attractive.’
‘It is not me,’ said Herrick;
’no one can like me. If you knew how I
despised myself and why!’ His voice
rang out in the quiet graveyard.
‘I knew that you despised yourself,’
said Attwater. ’I saw the blood come into
your face today when you remembered Oxford. And
I could have blushed for you myself, to see a man,
a gentleman, with these two vulgar wolves.’
Herrick faced him with a thrill. ‘Wolves?’
he repeated.
‘I said wolves and vulgar wolves,’
said Attwater. ’Do you know that today,
when I came on board, I trembled?’
‘You concealed it well,’ stammered Herrick.
‘A habit of mine,’ said
Attwater. ’But I was afraid, for all that:
I was afraid of the two wolves.’ He raised
his hand slowly. ’And now, Hay, you poor
lost puppy, what do you do with the two wolves?’
‘What do I do? I don’t
do anything,’ said Herrick. ’There
is nothing wrong; all is above board; Captain Brown
is a good soul; he is a... he is...’ The
phantom voice of Davis called in his ear: ’There’s
going to be a funeral’ and the sweat burst forth
and streamed on his brow. ’He is a family
man,’ he resumed again, swallowing; ’he
has children at home and a wife.’
‘And a very nice man?’
said Attwater. ‘And so is Mr Whish, no doubt?’
‘I won’t go so far as
that,’ said Herrick. ’I do not like
Huish. And yet... he has his merits too.’
’And, in short, take them for
all in all, as good a ship’s company as one
would ask?’ said Attwater.
‘O yes,’ said Herrick, ‘quite.’
‘So then we approach the other
point of why you despise yourself?’ said Attwater.
‘Do we not all despise ourselves?’
cried Herrick. ‘Do not you?’
‘Oh, I say I do. But do
I?’ said Attwater. ’One thing I know
at least: I never gave a cry like yours.
Hay! it came from a bad conscience! Ah, man,
that poor diving dress of self-conceit is sadly tattered!
Today, now, while the sun sets, and here in this burying
place of brown innocents, fall on your knees and cast
your sins and sorrows on the Redeemer. Hay ’
‘Not Hay!’ interrupted
the other, strangling. ’Don’t call
me that! I mean... For God’s sake,
can’t you see I’m on the rack?’
’I see it, I know it, I put
and keep you there, my fingers are on the screws!’
said Attwater. ’Please God, I will bring
a penitent this night before His throne. Come,
come to the mercy-seat! He waits to be gracious,
man waits to be gracious!’
He spread out his arms like a crucifix,
his face shone with the brightness of a seraph’s;
in his voice, as it rose to the last word, the tears
seemed ready.
Herrick made a vigorous call upon
himself. ‘Attwater,’ he said, ’you
push me beyond bearing. What am I to do?
I do not believe. It is living truth to you;
to me, upon my conscience, only folk-lore. I do
not believe there is any form of words under heaven
by which I can lift the burthen from my shoulders.
I must stagger on to the end with the pack of my responsibility;
I cannot shift it; do you suppose I would not, if I
thought I could? I cannot cannot cannot and
let that suffice.’
The rapture was all gone from Artwater’s
countenance; the dark apostle had disappeared; and
in his place there stood an easy, sneering gentleman,
who took off his hat and bowed. It was pertly
done, and the blood burned in Herrick’s face.
‘What do you mean by that?’ he cried.
‘Well, shall we go back to the
house?’ said Attwater. ’Our guests
will soon be due.’
Herrick stood his ground a moment
with clenched fists and teeth; and as he so stood,
the fact of his errand there slowly swung clear in
front of him, like the moon out of clouds. He
had come to lure that man on board; he was failing,
even if it could be said that he had tried; he was
sure to fail now, and knew it, and knew it was better
so. And what was to be next?
With a groan he turned to follow his
host, who was standing with polite smile, and instantly
and somewhat obsequiously led the way in the now darkened
colonnade of palms. There they went in silence,
the earth gave up richly of her perfume, the air tasted
warm and aromatic in the nostrils; and from a great
way forward in the wood, the brightness of lights
and fire marked out the house of Attwater.
Herrick meanwhile resolved and resisted
an immense temptation to go up, to touch him on the
arm and breathe a word in his ear: ’Beware,
they are going to murder you.’ There would
be one life saved; but what of the two others?
The three lives went up and down before him like buckets
in a well, or like the scales of balances. It
had come to a choice, and one that must be speedy.
For certain invaluable minutes, the wheels of life
ran before him, and he could still divert them with
a touch to the one side or the other, still choose
who was to live and who was to die. He considered
the men. Attwater intrigued, puzzled, dazzled,
enchanted and revolted him; alive, he seemed but a
doubtful good; and the thought of him lying dead was
so unwelcome that it pursued him, like a vision, with
every circumstance of colour and sound. Incessantly,
he had before him the image of that great mass of
man stricken down in varying attitudes and with varying
wounds; fallen prone, fallen supine, fallen on his
side; or clinging to a doorpost with the changing face
and the relaxing fingers of the death-agony.
He heard the click of the trigger, the thud of the
ball, the cry of the victim; he saw the blood flow.
And this building up of circumstance was like a consecration
of the man, till he seemed to walk in sacrificial
fillets. Next he considered Davis, with his thick-fingered,
coarse-grained, oat-bread commonness of nature, his
indomitable valour and mirth in the old days of their
starvation, the endearing blend of his faults and
virtues, the sudden shining forth of a tenderness
that lay too deep for tears; his children, Adar and
her bowel complaint, and Adar’s doll. No,
death could not be suffered to approach that head
even in fancy; with a general heat and a bracing of
his muscles, it was borne in on Herrick that Adar’s
father would find in him a son to the death.
And even Huish showed a little in that sacredness;
by the tacit adoption of daily life they were become
brothers; there was an implied bond of loyalty in
their cohabitation of the ship and their passed miseries,
to which Herrick must be a little true or wholly dishonoured.
Horror of sudden death for horror of sudden death,
there was here no hesitation possible: it must
be Attwater. And no sooner was the thought formed
(which was a sentence) than his whole mind of man ran
in a panic to the other side: and when he looked
within himself, he was aware only of turbulence and
inarticulate outcry.
In all this there was no thought of
Robert Herrick. He had complied with the ebb-tide
in man’s affairs, and the tide had carried him
away; he heard already the roaring of the maelstrom
that must hurry him under. And in his bedevilled
and dishonoured soul there was no thought of self.
For how long he walked silent by his
companion Herrick had no guess. The clouds rolled
suddenly away; the orgasm was over; he found himself
placid with the placidity of despair; there returned
to him the power of commonplace speech; and he heard
with surprise his own voice say: ’What
a lovely evening!’
‘Is it not?’ said Attwater.
’Yes, the evenings here would be very pleasant
if one had anything to do. By day, of course,
one can shoot.’
‘You shoot?’ asked Herrick.
‘Yes, I am what you would call
a fine shot,’ said Attwater. ’It is
faith; I believe my balls will go true; if I were to
miss once, it would spoil me for nine months.’
‘You never miss, then?’ said Herrick.
‘Not unless I mean to,’
said Attwater. ’But to miss nicely is the
art. There was an old king one knew in the western
islands, who used to empty a Winchester all round
a man, and stir his hair or nick a rag out of his
clothes with every ball except the last; and that went
plump between the eyes. It was pretty practice.’
‘You could do that?’ asked Herrick, with
a sudden chill.
‘Oh, I can do anything,’
returned the other. ’You do not understand:
what must be, must.’
They were now come near to the back
part of the house. One of the men was engaged
about the cooking fire, which burned with the clear,
fierce, essential radiance of cocoanut shells.
A fragrance of strange meats was in the air.
All round in the verandahs lamps were lighted, so that
the place shone abroad in the dusk of the trees with
many complicated patterns of shadow.
‘Come and wash your hands,’
said Attwater, and led the way into a clean, matted
room with a cot bed, a safe, or shelf or two of books
in a glazed case, and an iron washing-stand.
Presently he cried in the native, and there appeared
for a moment in the doorway a plump and pretty young
woman with a clean towel.
‘Hullo!’ cried Herrick,
who now saw for the first time the fourth survivor
of the pestilence, and was startled by the recollection
of the captain’s orders.
‘Yes,’ said Attwater,
’the whole colony lives about the house, what’s
left of it. We are all afraid of devils, if you
please! and Taniera and she sleep in the front parlour,
and the other boy on the verandah.’
‘She is pretty,’ said Herrick.
‘Too pretty,’ said Attwater.
’That was why I had her married. A man
never knows when he may be inclined to be a fool about
women; so when we were left alone, I had the pair
of them to the chapel and performed the ceremony.
She made a lot of fuss. I do not take at all the
romantic view of marriage,’ he explained.
‘And that strikes you as a safeguard?’
asked Herrick with amazement.
’Certainly. I am a plain
man and very literal. Whom god hath
joined together, are the words, I fancy.
So one married them, and respects the marriage,’
said Attwater.
‘Ah!’ said Herrick.
‘You see, I may look to make
an excellent marriage when I go home,’ began
Attwater, confidentially. ’I am rich.
This safe alone’ laying his hand
upon it ’will be a moderate fortune,
when I have the time to place the pearls upon the
market. Here are ten years’ accumulation
from a lagoon, where I have had as many as ten divers
going all day long; and I went further than people
usually do in these waters, for I rotted a lot of
shell, and did splendidly. Would you like to see
them?’
This confirmation of the captain’s
guess hit Herrick hard, and he contained himself with
difficulty. ‘No, thank you, I think not,’
said he. ‘I do not care for pearls.
I am very indifferent to all these...’
‘Gewgaws?’ suggested Attwater.
’And yet I believe you ought to cast an eye
on my collection, which is really unique, and which oh!
it is the case with all of us and everything about
us! hangs by a hair. Today it groweth
up and flourisheth; tomorrow it is cut down and cast
into the oven. Today it is here and together
in this safe; tomorrow tonight! it
may be scattered. Thou fool, this night thy soul
shall be required of thee.’
‘I do not understand you,’ said Herrick.
‘Not?’ said Attwater.
‘You seem to speak in riddles,’
said Herrick, unsteadily. ’I do not understand
what manner of man you are, nor what you are driving
at.’
Attwater stood with his hands upon
his hips, and his head bent forward. ‘I
am a fatalist,’ he replied, ’and just now
(if you insist on it) an experimentalist. Talking
of which, by the bye, who painted out the schooner’s
name?’ he said, with mocking softness, ’because,
do you know? one thinks it should be done again.
It can still be partly read; and whatever is worth
doing, is surely worth doing well. You think with
me? That is so nice! Well, shall we step
on the verandah? I have a dry sherry that I would
like your opinion of.’
Herrick followed him forth to where,
under the light of the hanging lamps, the table shone
with napery and crystal; followed him as the criminal
goes with the hangman, or the sheep with the butcher;
took the sherry mechanically, drank it, and spoke
mechanical words of praise. The object of his
terror had become suddenly inverted; till then he had
seen Attwater trussed and gagged, a helpless victim,
and had longed to run in and save him; he saw him
now tower up mysterious and menacing, the angel of
the Lord’s wrath, armed with knowledge and threatening
judgment. He set down his glass again, and was
surprised to see it empty.
‘You go always armed?’
he said, and the next moment could have plucked his
tongue out.
‘Always,’ said Attwater.
’I have been through a mutiny here; that was
one of my incidents of missionary life.’
And just then the sound of voices
reached them, and looking forth from the verandah
they saw Huish and the captain drawing near.