The captain and Herrick meanwhile
turned their back upon the lights in Attwater’s
verandah, and took a direction towards the pier and
the beach of the lagoon.
The isle, at this hour, with its smooth
floor of sand, the pillared roof overhead, and the
prevalent illumination of the lamps, wore an air of
unreality like a deserted theatre or a public garden
at midnight. A man looked about him for the statues
and tables. Not the least air of wind was stirring
among the palms, and the silence was emphasised by
the continuous clamour of the surf from the seashore,
as it might be of traffic in the next street.
Still talking, still soothing him,
the captain hurried his patient on, brought him at
last to the lagoon-side, and leading him down the beach,
laved his head and face with the tepid water.
The paroxysm gradually subsided, the sobs became less
convulsive and then ceased; by an odd but not quite
unnatural conjunction, the captain’s soothing
current of talk died away at the same time and by
proportional steps, and the pair remained sunk in
silence. The lagoon broke at their feet in petty
wavelets, and with a sound as delicate as a whisper;
stars of all degrees looked down on their own images
in that vast mirror; and the more angry colour of
the Farallone’s riding lamp burned in the middle
distance. For long they continued to gaze on the
scene before them, and hearken anxiously to the rustle
and tinkle of that miniature surf, or the more distant
and loud reverberations from the outer coast.
For long speech was denied them; and when the words
came at last, they came to both simultaneously.
’Say, Herrick...’the captain was beginning.
But Herrick, turning swiftly towards
his companion, bent him down with the eager cry:
‘Let’s up anchor, captain, and to sea!’
‘Where to, my son?’ said
the captain. ’Up anchor’s easy saying.
But where to?’
‘To sea,’ responded Herrick.
’The sea’s big enough! To sea away
from this dreadful island and that, oh! that sinister
man!’
‘Oh, we’ll see about that,’
said Davis. ’You brace up, and we’ll
see about that. You’re all run down, that’s
what’s wrong with you; you’re all nerves,
like Jemimar; you’ve got to brace up good and
be yourself again, and then we’ll talk.’
‘To sea,’ reiterated Herrick,
‘to sea tonight now this
moment!’
‘It can’t be, my son,’
replied the captain firmly. ’No ship of
mine puts to sea without provisions, you can take
that for settled.’
‘You don’t seem to understand,’
said Herrick. ’The whole thing is over,
I tell you. There is nothing to do here, when
he knows all. That man there with the cat knows
all; can’t you take it in?’
‘All what?’ asked the
captain, visibly discomposed. ’Why, he received
us like a perfect gentleman and treated us real handsome,
until you began with your foolery and I
must say I seen men shot for less, and nobody sorry!
What more do you expect anyway?’
Herrick rocked to and fro upon the
sand, shaking his head.
‘Guying us,’ he said,
’he was guying us only guying us;
it’s all we’re good for.’
‘There was one queer thing,
to be sure,’ admitted the captain, with a misgiving
of the voice; ’that about the sherry. Damned
if I caught on to that. Say, Herrick, you didn’t
give me away?’
‘Oh! give you away!’ repeated
Herrick with weary, querulous scorn. ’What
was there to give away? We’re transparent;
we’ve got rascal branded on us: detected
rascal detected rascal! Why, before
he came on board, there was the name painted out,
and he saw the whole thing. He made sure we would
kill him there and then, and stood guying you and Huish
on the chance. He calls that being frightened!
Next he had me ashore; a fine time I had! The
two wolves, he calls you and Huish. What
is the puppy doing with the
two wolves? he asked. He showed me his
pearls; he said they might be dispersed before morning,
and all hung by A HAIr and
smiled as he said it, such a smile! O, it’s
no use, I tell you! He knows all, he sees through
all; we only make him laugh with our pretences he
looks at us and laughs like God!’
There was a silence. Davis stood
with contorted brows, gazing into the night.
‘The pearls?’ he said
suddenly. ‘He showed them to you? he has
them?’
‘No, he didn’t show them;
I forgot: only the safe they were in,’ said
Herrick. ‘But you’ll never get them!’
‘I’ve two words to say to that,’
said the captain.
’Do you think he would have
been so easy at table, unless he was prepared?’
cried Herrick. ’The servants were both armed.
He was armed himself; he always is; he told me.
You will never deceive his vigilance. Davis,
I know it! It’s all up; all up. There’s
nothing for it, there’s nothing to be done:
all gone: life, honour, love. Oh, my God,
my God, why was I born?’
Another pause followed upon this outburst.
The captain put his hands to his brow.
‘Another thing!’ he broke
out. ’Why did he tell you all this?
Seems like madness to me!’
Herrick shook his head with gloomy
iteration. ’You wouldn’t understand
if I were to tell you,’ said he.
‘I guess I can understand any
blame’ thing that you can tell me,’ said
the captain.
‘Well, then, he’s a fatalist,’ said
Herrick.
‘What’s that, a fatalist?’ said
Davis.
‘Oh, it’s a fellow that
believes a lot of things,’ said Herrick, ’believes
that his bullets go true; believes that all falls out
as God chooses, do as you like to prevent it; and
all that.’
‘Why, I guess I believe right so myself,’
said Davis.
‘You do?’ said Herrick.
‘You bet I do!’ says Davis.
Herrick shrugged his shoulders.
‘Well, you must be a fool,’ said he, and
he leaned his head upon his knees.
The captain stood biting his hands.
‘There’s one thing sure,’
he said at last. ’I must get Huish out of
that. He’s not fit to hold his end
up with a man like you describe.’
And he turned to go away. The
words had been quite simple; not so the tone; and
the other was quick to catch it.
‘Davis!’ he cried, ’no!
Don’t do it. Spare me, and don’t
do it spare yourself, and leave it alone for
God’s sake, for your children’s sake!’
His voice rose to a passionate shrillness;
another moment, and he might be overheard by their
not distant victim. But Davis turned on him with
a savage oath and gesture; and the miserable young
man rolled over on his face on the sand, and lay speechless
and helpless.
The captain meanwhile set out rapidly
for Attwater’s house. As he went, he considered
with himself eagerly, his thoughts racing. The
man had understood, he had mocked them from the beginning;
he would teach him to make a mockery of John Davis!
Herrick thought him a god; give him a second to aim
in, and the god was overthrown. He chuckled as
he felt the butt of his revolver. It should be
done now, as he went in. From behind? It
was difficult to get there. From across the table?
No, the captain preferred to shoot standing, so as
you could be sure to get your hand upon your gun.
The best would be to summon Huish, and when Attwater
stood up and turned ah, then would be the
moment. Wrapped in his ardent prefiguration of
events, the captain posted towards the house with his
head down.
‘Hands up! Halt!’ cried the voice
of Attwater.
And the captain, before he knew what
he was doing, had obeyed. The surprise was complete
and irremediable. Coming on the top crest of his
murderous intentions, he had walked straight into an
ambuscade, and now stood, with his hands impotently
lifted, staring at the verandah.
The party was now broken up.
Attwater leaned on a post, and kept Davis covered
with a Winchester. One of the servants was hard
by with a second at the port arms, leaning a little
forward, round-eyed with eager expectancy. In
the open space at the head of the stair, Huish was
partly supported by the other native; his face wreathed
in meaningless smiles, his mind seemingly sunk in
the contemplation of an unlighted cigar.
‘Well,’ said Attwater,
‘you seem to me to be a very twopenny pirate!’
The captain uttered a sound in his
throat for which we have no name; rage choked him.
‘I am going to give you Mr Whish or
the wine-sop that remains of him,’ continued
Attwater. ’He talks a great deal when he
drinks, Captain Davis of the Sea Ranger. But
I have quite done with him and return the
article with thanks. Now,’ he cried sharply.
’Another false movement like that, and your
family will have to deplore the loss of an invaluable
parent; keep strictly still, Davis.’
Attwater said a word in the native,
his eye still undeviatingly fixed on the captain;
and the servant thrust Huish smartly forward from the
brink of the stair. With an extraordinary simultaneous
dispersion of his members, that gentleman bounded
forth into space, struck the earth, ricocheted, and
brought up with his arms about a palm. His mind
was quite a stranger to these events; the expression
of anguish that deformed his countenance at the moment
of the leap was probably mechanical; and he suffered
these convulsions in silence; clung to the tree like
an infant; and seemed, by his dips, to suppose himself
engaged in the pastime of bobbing for apples.
A more finely sympathetic mind or a more observant
eye might have remarked, a little in front of him on
the sand, and still quite beyond reach, the unlighted
cigar.
‘There is your Whitechapel
carrion!’ said Attwater. ’And now
you might very well ask me why I do not put a period
to you at once, as you deserve. I will tell you
why, Davis. It is because I have nothing to do
with the Sea Ranger and the people you drowned, or
the Farallone and the champagne that you stole.
That is your account with God, He keeps it, and He
will settle it when the clock strikes. In my own
case, I have nothing to go on but suspicion, and I
do not kill on suspicion, not even vermin like you.
But understand! if ever I see any of you again, it
is another matter, and you shall eat a bullet.
And now take yourself off. March! and as you
value what you call your life, keep your hands up as
you go!’
The captain remained as he was, his
hands up, his mouth open: mesmerised with fury.
‘March!’ said Attwater. ‘One two three!’
And Davis turned and passed slowly
away. But even as he went, he was meditating
a prompt, offensive return. In the twinkling of
an eye, he had leaped behind a tree; and was crouching
there, pistol in hand, peering from either side of
his place of ambush with bared teeth; a serpent already
poised to strike. And already he was too late.
Attwater and his servants had disappeared; and only
the lamps shone on the deserted table and the bright
sand about the house, and threw into the night in
all directions the strong and tall shadows of the palms.
Davis ground his teeth. Where
were they gone, the cowards? to what hole had they
retreated beyond reach? It was in vain he should
try anything, he, single and with a second-hand revolver,
against three persons, armed with Winchesters, and
who did not show an ear out of any of the apertures
of that lighted and silent house? Some of them
might have already ducked below it from the rear,
and be drawing a bead upon him at that moment from
the low-browed crypt, the receptacle of empty bottles
and broken crockery. No, there was nothing to
be done but to bring away (if it were still possible)
his shattered and demoralised forces.
‘Huish,’ he said, ‘come along.’
‘’S lose my ciga’,’ said Huish,
reaching vaguely forward.
The captain let out a rasping oath. ‘Come
right along here,’ said he.
‘’S all righ’.
Sleep here ‘th Atty-Attwa. Go boar’
t’morr’,’ replied the festive one.
‘If you don’t come, and
come now, by the living God, I’ll shoot you!’
cried the captain.
It is not to be supposed that the
sense of these words in any way penetrated to the
mind of Hulsh; rather that, in a fresh attempt upon
the cigar, he overbalanced himself and came flying
erratically forward: a course which brought him
within reach of Davis.
‘Now you walk straight,’
said the captain, clutching him, ’or I’ll
know why not!’
‘’S lose my ciga’,’ replied
Huish.
The captain’s contained fury
blazed up for a moment. He twisted Huish round,
grasped him by the neck of the coat, ran him in front
of him to the pier end, and flung him savagely forward
on his face.
‘Look for your cigar then, you
swine!’ said he, and blew his boat call till
the pea in it ceased to rattle.
An immediate activity responded on
board the Farallone; far away voices, and soon the
sound of oars, floated along the surface of the lagoon;
and at the same time, from nearer hand, Herrick aroused
himself and strolled languidly up. He bent over
the insignificant figure of Huish, where it grovelled,
apparently insensible, at the base of the figure-head.
‘Dead?’ he asked.
‘No, he’s not dead,’ said Davis.
‘And Attwater?’ asked Herrick.
‘Now you just shut your head!’
replied Davis. ’You can do that, I fancy,
and by God, I’ll show you how! I’ll
stand no more of your drivel.’
They waited accordingly in silence
till the boat bumped on the furthest piers; then raised
Huish, head and heels, carried him down the gangway,
and flung him summarily in the bottom. On the
way out he was heard murmuring of the loss of his
cigar; and after he had been handed up the side like
baggage, and cast down in the alleyway to slumber,
his last audible expression was: ‘Splen’l
fl’ Attwa’!’ This the expert construed
into ‘Splendid fellow, Attwater’; with
so much innocence had this great spirit issued from
the adventures of the evening.
The captain went and walked in the
waist with brief, irate turns; Herrick leaned his
arms on the taffrail; the crew had all turned in.
The ship had a gentle, cradling motion; at times a
block piped like a bird. On shore, through the
colonnade of palm stems, Attwater’s house was
to be seen shining steadily with many lamps.
And there was nothing else visible, whether in the
heaven above or in the lagoon below, but the stars
and their reflections. It might have been minutes
or it might have been hours, that Herrick leaned there,
looking in the glorified water and drinking peace.
‘A bath of stars,’ he was thinking; when
a hand was laid at last on his shoulder.
‘Herrick,’ said the captain,
‘I’ve been walking off my trouble.’
A sharp jar passed through the young
man, but he neither answered nor so much as turned
his head.
‘I guess I spoke a little rough
to you on shore,’ pursued the captain; ’the
fact is, I was real mad; but now it’s over, and
you and me have to turn to and think.’
‘I will not think,’ said Herrick.
‘Here, old man!’ said
Davis, kindly; ’this won’t fight, you know!
You’ve got to brace up and help me get things
straight. You’re not going back on a friend?
That’s not like you, Herrick!’
‘O yes, it is,’ said Herrick.
‘Come, come!’ said the
captain, and paused as if quite at a loss. ’Look
here,’ he cried, ’you have a glass of champagne.
I won’t touch it, so that’ll show you
if I’m in earnest. But it’s just the
pick-me-up for you; it’ll put an edge on you
at once.’
‘O, you leave me alone!’ said Herrick,
and turned away.
The captain caught him by the sleeve;
and he shook him off and turned on him, for the moment,
like a demoniac.
‘Go to hell in your own way!’ he cried.
And he turned away again, this time
unchecked, and stepped forward to where the boat rocked
alongside and ground occasionally against the schooner.
He looked about him. A corner of the house was
interposed between the captain and himself; all was
well; no eye must see him in that last act. He
slid silently into the boat; thence, silently, into
the starry water.
Instinctively he swam a little; it
would be time enough to stop by and by.
The shock of the immersion brightened
his mind immediately. The events of the ignoble
day passed before him in a frieze of pictures, and
he thanked ‘whatever Gods there be’ for
that open door of suicide. In such a little while
he would be done with it, the random business at an
end, the prodigal son come home. A very bright
planet shone before him and drew a trenchant wake
along the water. He took that for his line and
followed it. That was the last earthly thing that
he should look upon; that radiant speck, which he
had soon magnified into a City of Laputa, along whose
terraces there walked men and women of awful and benignant
features, who viewed him with distant commiseration.
These imaginary spectators consoled him; he told himself
their talk, one to another; it was of himself and
his sad destiny.
From such flights of fancy, he was
aroused by the growing coldness of the water.
Why should he delay? Here, where he was now, let
him drop the curtain, let him seek the ineffable refuge,
let him lie down with all races and generations of
men in the house of sleep. It was easy to say,
easy to do. To stop swimming: there was no
mystery in that, if he could do it. Could he?
And he could not. He knew it instantly. He
was aware instantly of an opposition in his members,
unanimous and invincible, clinging to life with a
single and fixed resolve, finger by finger, sinew
by sinew; something that was at once he and not he at
once within and without him; the shutting
of some miniature valve in his brain, which a single
manly thought should suffice to open and
the grasp of an external fate ineluctable as gravity.
To any man there may come at times a consciousness
that there blows, through all the articulations of
his body, the wind of a spirit not wholly his; that
his mind rebels; that another girds him and carries
him whither he would not. It came now to Herrick,
with the authority of a revelation. There was
no escape possible. The open door was closed
in his recreant face. He must go back into the
world and amongst men without illusion. He must
stagger on to the end with the pack of his responsibility
and his disgrace, until a cold, a blow, a merciful
chance ball, or the more merciful hangman, should
dismiss him from his infamy. There were men who
could commit suicide; there were men who could not;
and he was one who could not.
For perhaps a minute, there raged
in his mind the coil of this discovery; then cheerless
certitude followed; and, with an incredible simplicity
of submission to ascertained fact, he turned round
and struck out for shore. There was a courage
in this which he could not appreciate; the ignobility
of his cowardice wholly occupying him. A strong
current set against him like a wind in his face; he
contended with it heavily, wearily, without enthusiasm,
but with substantial advantage; marking his progress
the while, without pleasure, by the outline of the
trees. Once he had a moment of hope. He heard
to the southward of him, towards the centre of the
lagoon, the wallowing of some great fish, doubtless
a shark, and paused for a little, treading water.
Might not this be the hangman? he thought. But
the wallowing died away; mere silence succeeded; and
Herrick pushed on again for the shore, raging as he
went at his own nature. Ay, he would wait for
the shark; but if he had heard him coming!...
His smile was tragic. He could have spat upon
himself.
About three in the morning, chance,
and the set of the current, and the bias of his own
right-handed body, so decided it between them that
he came to shore upon the beach in front of Attwater’s.
There he sat down, and looked forth into a world without
any of the lights of hope. The poor diving dress
of self-conceit was sadly tattered! With the fairy
tale of suicide, of a refuge always open to him, he
had hitherto beguiled and supported himself in the
trials of life; and behold! that also was only a fairy
tale, that also was folk-lore. With the consequences
of his acts he saw himself implacably confronted for
the duration of life: stretched upon a cross,
and nailed there with the iron bolts of his own cowardice.
He had no tears; he told himself no stories.
His disgust with himself was so complete that even
the process of apologetic mythology had ceased.
He was like a man cast down from a pillar, and every
bone broken. He lay there, and admitted the facts,
and did not attempt to rise.
Dawn began to break over the far side
of the atoll, the sky brightened, the clouds became
dyed with gorgeous colours, the shadows of the night
lifted. And, suddenly, Herrick was aware that
the lagoon and the trees wore again their daylight
livery; and he saw, on board the Farallone, Davis
extinguishing the lantern, and smoke rising from the
galley.
Davis, without doubt, remarked and
recognised the figure on the beach; or perhaps hesitated
to recognise it; for after he had gazed a long while
from under his hand, he went into the house and fetched
a glass. It was very powerful; Herrick had often
used it. With an instinct of shame, he hid his
face in his hands.
‘And what brings you here, Mr
Herrick-Hay, or Mr Hay-Herrick?’ asked the voice
of Attwater. ’Your back view from my present
position is remarkably fine, and I would continue
to present it. We can get on very nicely as we
are, and if you were to turn round, do you know?
I think it would be awkward.’
Herrick slowly rose to his feet; his
heart throbbed hard, a hideous excitement shook him,
but he was master of himself. Slowly he turned,
and faced Attwater and the muzzle of a pointed rifle.
’Why could I not do that last night?’
he thought.
‘Well, why don’t you fire?’
he said aloud, with a voice that trembled.
Attwater slowly put his gun under
his arm, then his hands in his pockets.
‘What brings you here?’ he repeated.
‘I don’t know,’
said Herrick; and then, with a cry: ’Can
you do anything with me?’
‘Are you armed?’ said
Attwater. ‘I ask for the form’s sake.’
‘Armed? No!’ said
Herrick. ‘O yes, I am, too!’ And he
flung upon the beach a dripping pistol.
‘You are wet,’ said Attwater.
‘Yes, I am wet,’ said Herrick. ‘Can
you do anything with me?’
Attwater read his face attentively.
‘It would depend a good deal upon what you are,’
said he.
‘What I am? A coward!’ said Herrick.
‘There is very little to be
done with that,’ said Attwater. ’And
yet the description hardly strikes one as exhaustive.’
‘Oh, what does it matter?’
cried Herrick. ’Here I am. I am broken
crockery; I am a burst drum; the whole of my life is
gone to water; I have nothing left that I believe
in, except my living horror of myself. Why do
I come to you? I don’t know; you are cold,
cruel, hateful; and I hate you, or I think I hate
you. But you are an honest man, an honest gentleman.
I put myself, helpless, in your hands. What must
I do? If I can’t do anything, be merciful
and put a bullet through me; it’s only a puppy
with a broken leg!’
’If I were you, I would pick
up that pistol, come up to the house, and put on some
dry clothes,’ said Attwater.
‘If you really mean it?’
said Herrick. ’You know they we they.
.. But you know all.’
‘I know quite enough,’
said Attwater. ‘Come up to the house.’
And the captain, from the deck of
the Farallone, saw the two men pass together under
the shadow of the grove.