When you have read, you carry away
with you a memory of the man himself; it is as though
you had touched a loyal hand, looked into brave eyes,
and made a noble friend; there is another bond on you
thenceforward, binding you to life and to the love
of virtue.
It is to some more specific memory
that youth looks forward in its vigils. Old kings
are sometimes disinterred in all the emphasis of life,
the hands untainted by decay, the beard that had so
often wagged in camp or senate still spread upon the
royal bosom; and in busts and pictures, some similitude
of the great and beautiful of former days is handed
down. In this way, public curiosity may be gratified,
but hardly any private aspiration after fame.
It is not likely that posterity will fall in love
with us, but not impossible that it may respect or
sympathise; and so a man would rather leave behind
him the portrait of his spirit than a portrait of
his face, Figura animi magis Quam
corporis.
The pleasure that we take in beautiful
nature is essentially capricious. It comes sometimes
when we least look for it; and sometimes, when we
expect it most certainly, it leaves us to gape joylessly
for days together, in the very homeland of the beautiful.
We may have passed a place a thousand times and one;
and on the thousand and second it will be transfigured,
and stand forth in a certain splendour of reality from
the dull circle of surroundings; so that we see it
’with a child’s first pleasure,’
as Wordsworth saw the daffodils by the lake-side.
But every one sees the world in his
own way. To some the glad moment may have arrived
on other provocations; and their recollection may be
most vivid of the stately gait of women carrying burthens
on their heads; of tropical effect, with caves and
naked rock and sunlight; of the relief of cypresses;
of the troubled, busy-looking groups of sea-pines,
that seem always as if they were being wielded and
swept together by a whirlwind; of the air coming,
laden with virginal perfumes, over the myrtles and
the scented underwoods; of the empurpled hills standing
up, solemn and sharp, out of the green-gold air of
the east at evening. There go many elements,
without doubt, to the making of one such moment of
intense perception; and it is on the happy agreement
of these many elements, on the harmonious vibration
of many nerves, that the whole delight of the moment
must depend.
You should have heard him speak of
what he loved; of the tent pitched beside the talking
water; of the stars overhead at night; of the blest
return of morning, the peep of day over the moors,
the awaking birds among the birches; how he abhorred
the long winter shut in cities; and with what delight,
at the return of the spring, he once more pitched his
camp in the living out-of-doors.
It was one of the best things I got
from my education as an engineer: of which, however,
as a way of life, I wish to speak with sympathy.
It takes a man into the open air; it keeps him hanging
about harbour-sides, which is the richest form of
idling; it carries him to wild islands; it gives him
a taste of the genial dangers of the sea; it supplies
him with dexterities to exercise; it makes demands
upon his ingenuity; it will go far to cure him of
any taste (if ever he had one) for the miserable life
of cities. And when it has done so, it carries
him back and shuts him in an office! From the
roaring skerry and the wet thwart of the tossing boat,
he passes to the stool and desk; and with a memory
full of ships, and seas, and perilous headlands, and
the shining Pharos, he must apply his long-sighted
eyes to the pretty niceties of drawing, or measure
his inaccurate mind with several pages of consecutive
figures. He is a wise youth, to be sure, who
can balance one part of genuine life against two parts
of drudgery between four walls, and for the sake of
the one, manfully accept the other.
No one knows the stars who has not
slept, as the French happily put it, A La Belle
Etoile. He may know all their names and distances
and magnitudes, and yet be ignorant of what alone
concerns mankind, their serene and gladsome
influence on the mind. The greater part of poetry
is about the stars; and very justly, for they are themselves
the most classical of poets.
He surprised himself by a sudden impulse
to write poetry he did so sometimes, loose,
galloping octosyllabics in the vein of Scott and
when he had taken his place on a boulder, near some
fairy falls, and shaded by a whip of a tree that was
already radiant with new leaves, it still more surprised
him that he should find nothing to write. His
heart perhaps beat in time to some vast indwelling
rhythm of the universe.
No man can find out the world, says
Solomon, from beginning to end, because the world
is in his heart; and so it is impossible for any of
us to understand, from beginning to end, that agreement
of harmonious circumstances that creates in us the
highest pleasure of admiration, precisely because
some of these circumstances are hidden from us for
ever in the constitution of our own bodies. After
we have reckoned up all that we can see or hear or
feel, there still remains to be taken into account
some sensibility more delicate than usual in the nerves
affected, or some exquisite refinement in the architecture
of the brain, which is indeed to the sense of the
beautiful as the eye or the ear to the sense of hearing
or sight. We admire splendid views and great
pictures; and yet what is truly admirable is rather
the mind within us, that gathers together these scattered
details for its delight, and snakes out of certain
colours, certain distributions of graduated light
and darkness, that intelligible whole which alone we
call a picture or a view. Hazlitt, relating in
one of his essays how he went on foot from one great
man’s house to another’s in search of works
of art, begins suddenly to triumph over these noble
and wealthy owners, because he was more capable of
enjoying their costly possessions than they were;
because they had paid the money and he had received
the pleasure. And the occasion is a fair one
for self-complacency. While the one man was working
to be able to buy the picture, the other was working
to be able to enjoy the picture. An inherited
aptitude will have been diligently improved in either
case; only the one man has made for himself a fortune,
and the other has made for himself a living spirit.
It is a fair occasion for self-complacency, I repeat,
when the event shows a man to have chosen the better
part, and laid out his life more wisely, in the long-run,
than those who have credit for most wisdom. And
yet even this is not a good unmixed; and like all
other possessions, although in a less degree, the
possession of a brain that has been thus improved and
cultivated, and made into the prime organ of a man’s
enjoyment, brings with it certain inevitable cares
and disappointments. The happiness of such an
one comes to depend greatly upon those fine shades
of sensation that heighten and harmonise the coarser
elements of beauty. And thus a degree of nervous
prostration, that to other men would be hardly disagreeable,
is enough to overthrow for him the whole fabric of
his life, to take, except at rare moments, the edge
off his pleasures, and to meet him wherever he goes
with failure, and the sense of want, and disenchantment
of the world and life.