Malling went the next day to morning
and evening service at St. Joseph’s. He
was not invited to lunch in Onslow Gardens, and he
did not see Lady Sophia. On the whole, he was
glad of this. He had enough to keep in his mind
that day. The matter in which he was interested
seemed growing before his eyes, like a thing coming
out of the earth, but now beginning to thrust itself
up into regions where perhaps it would eventually be
hidden in darkness, with the great company of mysteries
whose unraveling is beyond the capacity of man.
He had now, he felt sure, a clear
comprehension of Lady Sophia. Their short interview
at Burlington House had been illuminating. She
was a typical example of the Adam’s-rib woman;
that is, of the woman who, intensely, almost exaggeratedly
feminine, can live in any fullness only through another,
and that other a man. Through Mr. Harding Lady
Sophia had hitherto lived, and had doubtless, in her
view, triumphed. Obviously a woman not free from
a nervous vanity, and a woman of hungry ambition,
her vanity and ambition had been fed by his growing
notoriety, his increasing success and influence.
The rib had thrilled with the body to which it belonged.
But that time of happy emotion, of
admiration, of keen looking forward, was the property
of the past. Lawn sleeves, purple, perhaps, for
who is more hopeful than this type of woman in the
golden moments of life? perhaps even an
archiepiscopal throne faded from before the eyes they
had gladdened the eyes of faith in a man.
And a different woman was beginning
to appear a woman who might be as critical
as she had formerly been admiring, a woman capable
of becoming embittered.
On the Sunday of Malling’s visit
to Onslow Gardens, Mr. Harding’s failure in
the pulpit had waked up in his wife eager sympathy
and eager spite, the one directed toward the man who
had failed, the other toward the man who, as Malling
felt sure, had caused the failure.
In Burlington House that woman, whom
men with every reason adore, had given place to another
less favorable toward him who had been her hero.
It seemed to Malling as if in the
future a strange thing might happen, almost as if
it must happen: it seemed to him as if Chichester
might convey his view of his rector to his rector’s
wife.
“Study the link,” Stepton
had said. “There will be development in
the link.”
Already the words had proved true.
There had been a development in Lady Sophia such as
Malling had certainly not anticipated. Where would
it end? Again and again, as he listened to the
morning and evening sermons, Malling had asked himself
that question; again and again he had recalled his
conversation at Burlington House with Lady Sophia.
In the morning at St. Joseph’s
Mr. Harding had preached to a church that was half
filled; in the evening Henry Chichester had preached
to a church that was full to the doors. And each
of the clergymen in turn had listened to the other,
but how differently!
Mr. Harding had ascended to the pulpit
with failure staring him in the face, and whereas
on the Sunday when Malling first heard him he had
obviously fought against the malign influence which
eventually had prevailed over him, this time he had
not had the vigor to make a struggle. Certainly
he had not broken down. It might be said of him,
as it was once said of a nation, that he had “muddled
through.” He had preached a very poor sermon
in a very poor way, nervously, indeed, almost timidly,
and with the manner of a man who was cowed and hopeless.
The powerful optimism for which he had once been distinguished
had given way to an almost unhealthy pessimism, alien
surely to the minds of all believers, of all who profess
to look forward to that life of which, as Tolstoi
long ago said, our present life is but a dream.
Even when he was uttering truths he spoke them as
if he had an uneasy suspicion that they were lies.
At moments he seemed to be almost pleading with his
hearers to tolerate him, to “bear with him.”
Indeed, several times during his disjointed remarks
he made use of the latter expression, promising that
his discourse should be a short one. Very carefully
he included himself among those aware of sin, very
humbly he declared the unworthiness of any man to
set himself up as a teacher and leader of others.
Now, humility is all very well, but
if carried to excess, it suggests something less than
a man. Mr. Harding almost cringed before his
congregation. Malling did not feel that his humility
was a pretense. On the contrary, it struck him
as abominably real, but so excessive as to be not
natural in any thorough man in a normal condition of
mind and of body. It was the sort of humility
that creates in the unregenerate a desire to offer
a good kicking as a corrective.
Very different was the effect created
by Chichester’s sermon in the evening.
Malling, aware though he had become of the great strengthening
of Chichester, was amazed when he heard him preach.
Often it is said of a very fine preacher
that he preached as one inspired. Chichester
preached as one who knew. Never before had Malling
been so impressed with the feeling that he was listening
to truth, absolute truth, as he was while he listened
to Chichester. There was something, though, that
was almost deadly about it. It pierced like a
lancet. It seared like a red-hot iron. It
humbled almost too much. Here was no exaggerated
humility, no pleading to be borne with, no cringing,
and no doubt. A man who knew was standing up,
and, with a sort of indifference to outside opinion
that was almost frightening, was saying some of the
things he knew about men, women and surely
God!
The subject was somewhat akin to that
of the first sermon of Mr. Harding which Malling had
heard. The rector then had preached on self-knowledge.
The curate, now, preached on hypocrisy. Incidentally
he destroyed his rector’s sermon, flung it away
on the scrap-heap, and passed on. This was not
done viciously, but it was done relentlessly.
Indeed, that was the note of the whole sermon.
It was relentless, as truth is relentless, as death
is relentless. And besides being terribly true,
it was imaginative. But the preacher almost succeeded
in conveying the impression to his congregation that
what is generally called imagination is really vision,
that the true imagination is seeing what is, but is
often hidden, knowing what is, but is often unknown.
The latter part of the sermon struck Malling as very
unusual, even as very daring.
The preacher had spoken of the many
varieties of hypocrisy. Finally he drew a picture
of a finished hypocrite. And the man lived as
a man lives in the pages of a great writer. One
could walk round him, one knew him. And then
Chichester treated him as the writer treats his creation;
he proceeded to show his hypocrite in action.
The man, happy, almost triumphant, for
he now often looked upon himself with the eyes of
others who knew him not, was walking to
his home on a winter’s evening along a country
road, passing now and then rustics who respectfully
saluted him, neighbors who grasped his hand, children
who innocently smiled at him, women who whispered
that he was a fine fellow, the clergyman of his parish,
who gave him God-speed upon his way as to one who
deserved that God should speed him because his way
was right. Snow was upon the ground. Such
light as there was began to fade. It was evident
that the night, which was very still, was going to
be very dark. And the man stepped out briskly.
Presently, at a lonely part of the road, happening
to look down, he saw footprints in the freshly fallen
snow. They were of feet that had recently passed
on the way he was following. They had attracted,
they continued to attract, his attention, he knew not
why. And as he went on, his eyes were often upon
them.
Presently he began to wonder about
the feet which had made the prints he saw. Did
they belong to a man or a woman? The prints were
too large to have been made by the feet of a child.
He gazed at them searchingly, and made up his mind
that it was a man who had recently trodden this road.
And what sort of man was it that thus preceded him
not very far away? He became deeply engrossed
with this question. His mind revolved about this
unknown traveler, floating forward in surmises, till,
by chance, he happened to set his right foot in one
of the prints left in the snow. His foot exactly
filled it. This fact, he knew not why, startled
him. He stopped, bent down, examined the snow
closely, measured very carefully his feet with the
prints before him, now rather faintly discerned in
the gathering darkness. The prints might have
been made by his own feet. Having ascertained
this, and reflected for a moment, he went forward,
now assailed by a growing curiosity as to the personality
and character of the stranger. But perhaps he
was not a stranger. He might surely well be a
neighbor, an acquaintance, perhaps even a friend.
The man meant, if possible, to come up with him, whoever
he was, and he now hurried along with the intention
of joining the unknown whose footprints were the same
as his own.
At this point in his sermon Chichester
paused for a moment. And Malling, who seldom
felt any thrill at a séance, and who had often remained
calmly watchful and alert during manifestations which
amazed or terrified others, was aware of a feeling
of cold, which seemed to pass like a breath through
his spirit. The congregation about him, perhaps
struck by the unusual form of the sermon, remained
silent and motionless, waiting. In his stall
sat the rector with downcast eyes. Malling could
not at that moment discern his expression. His
large figure and important powerful head and face
showed almost like those of a carven effigy in the
lowered light of the chancel. The choirboys did
not stir, and the small, fair man in the pulpit, raising
his thin hands, and resting them on the marble ledge,
continued quietly, taking up his sermon with a repetition
of the last words uttered, “whose footprints
were the same as his own.”
Again the cold breath went through
Malling’s spirit. He leaned slightly forward
and gazed at Chichester.
For some time the man thus went onward,
following the footprints in the snow, but not overtaking
any one, and becoming momentarily more eager to satisfy
his curiosity. Then, on a sudden, he started,
stopped, and listened. It had now become very
dark, and in this darkness, and the great stillness
of night, he heard the faint sound of a footfall before
him, brushing through the crisp snow, which lay lightly,
and not very deep, on the hard highroad leading to
the village on the farther outskirts of which his
house was situated. He could not yet see any one,
but he felt sure that the person who made this faint
sound was no other than he in whose steps he had been
treading. It would now be a matter of only a
minute or two to come up with him. And the man
went on, but more slowly, whether because he was now
certain of attaining his object or for some other
reason.
The sound of the footfall persisted,
and was certainly not far off. The prints in
the snow were so fresh that they seemed not quite motionless,
as if the snow were only now settling after the pressure
it had just suffered. The man slackened his pace.
He did not like the sound which he heard. He
began to feel as if he by whom it was made would not
prove a companion to his taste. Yet his curiosity
continued. There began within him a struggle
between his curiosity and another sensation, which
was of repugnance, almost of fear. And so equal
were the combatants that the lights of the village
were in sight, and he had not decreased the distance
between himself and the other. Seeing the lights,
however, his curiosity got the upper hand. He
slightly quickened his pace, and almost immediately
beheld the shape of a man relieved against the night,
and treading onward through the snow. And as
the sound of the footsteps had been disagreeable to
his nerves, so the contours of the moving blackness
repelled him. He did not like the look of this
man whose footprints were the same as his own, and
he decided not to join him. But, moving rather
cautiously, he gained a little upon him, in order to
make sure, if possible, whether or not he was a neighbor
or an acquaintance.
The figure seemed somehow familiar
to our man, indeed, oddly familiar. Nevertheless,
he was unable to identify it. As he followed it,
more and more certain did he become that he had seen
it, that he knew it. And yet did he
know it? Had he seen it? It was almost as
if one part of him denied while the other affirmed.
He longed, yet feared, to see the face. But the
face never looked back. And so, one at a little
distance behind the other, they came into the village.
Here a strange thing occurred.
There were very few people about,
but there were a few, and two or three of them, meeting
the person our man was following, greeted him respectfully.
But these same people, when immediately afterward they
encountered the other, who had known them for years,
and whom they of course knew, showed the greatest
perturbation; one, a woman, even signs of terror.
They gave him no greeting, shrank from him as he passed,
and stared after him, as if bemused, when he was gone
by. Their behavior was almost incredible.
But he was so set on what was before him that he stopped
to ask no questions.
The village was a long one. Always
one behind the other, walking at an even pace, the
two men traversed it, approaching at last the outskirts,
where, separated from the other habitations, and surrounded
by a garden in which the trees were laden with snow,
stood the house of the man who now watched and followed,
with a growing wonder and curiosity, combined with
an ever-growing repugnance, him who made the footprints,
who had been saluted by the villagers, whose figure
and general aspect seemed in somewise familiar to
him, and yet whom he could not recognize. Where
could this person be going? The man asked himself,
and came to a resolve not to follow on into the darkness
of the open country, not to proceed beyond his own
home, of which now he saw the lights, but to make an
effort to see the face of the other before the garden
gate was reached.
In this attempt, however, he was destined
to be frustrated. For as he determinedly quickened
his steps, so did the other, who gained the gate of
the garden, unlatched it, turned in, and walked on
among the trees going toward the principal door.
A visitor, then! The man paused
by his garden gate, whence he could see his house
front, with the light from the window of his own sitting-room
streaming over the porch. The stranger stood before
it, made a movement as if searching in his pocket,
drew out his hand, lifted it. The door opened
at once. He disappeared within, and the door closed
after him.
He had opened the door with a key.
The man at the gate felt overcome
by a sensation almost of horror, which he could not
explain to himself. It was not that he was horrified
by the certainly extraordinary fact of some one possessing
a key to his house, and using it in this familiar
fashion. It was not even that he was horrified
at seeing a man, perhaps a stranger, disappearing thus
into his home by night, uninvited, unexpected.
What horrified him was that this particular man, whose
footprints he had followed and measured with his foot,
whose footfalls he had heard, whose form he had seen
outlined against the night, should be within his house,
where his wife and his children were, and where his
venerable mother was sitting beside the fire.
That this man should be there! He knew now that
from the first moment when he had been aware of his
existence he had hated him, that his subconscious
mind had hated him.
But who was he? The natural thing
would have been to follow quickly into the house,
to see who had entered, to demand an explanation.
But he could not do this. Why? He himself
did not know why. But he knew that he dared not
do this. And he waited, expecting he knew not
what; a cry, a summons, perhaps, some manifestation
that would force him to approach.
None came. Steadily the lights
shone from the house. There was no sound but
the soft fall of a block of snow from an overladen
fir branch in the garden. The man began to marvel.
Who could this be whose familiar entry into his his
home thus at night caused no disturbance? There
were dogs within: they had not barked. There
were servants: apparently they had not stirred.
It was almost as if this stranger’s permanence
was accepted by the household. A long, long time
had slipped by.
The man at length, making an almost
fierce effort, partly dominated the unreasoning sense
of horror which possessed him. He opened the gate,
stepped into the garden, and made his way slowly and
softly toward the house door. But suddenly he
stopped. Through the unshuttered window of his
sitting-room, the room in which for years he had spent
much of his time, in which he had concocted many schemes
to throw dust in the eyes of his neighbors, and even
of his own relatives, in which he had learned very
perfectly to seem what he was not, and to hide what
he really was, he perceived the figure of a man.
It crossed the lighted space slowly, and disappeared
with a downward movement. He knew it was the
man he had been following and whom he had seen enter
his house.
For a long while he remained where
he was on the path of the garden. The night deepened
about him. A long way off, at the other end of
the village, a clock chimed the hours. In the
cottages the lights were extinguished. The few
loungers disappeared from the one long street vanishing
over the snow. And the man never moved. A
numb terror possessed him. Yet, despite his many
faults and his life of evil, he had never been physically
a coward. Always the light shone steadily from
the window of his study, making a patch of yellow
upon the snow. Always the occupant of the room
must be seated tranquilly there, like an owner.
For no figure had risen, had repassed across the unshuttered
space.
The man told himself again and again
that he must go forward till he gained the window,
that he must at least look into the room; if he dared
not enter the house to confront the intruder, to demand
an explanation. But again and again something
within him, which seemed to be a voice from the innermost
chamber of his soul, whispered to him not to go, whispered
to him to leave the intruder alone, to let the intruder
do what he would, but not to approach him, above all,
not to look upon his face. And the man obeyed
the voice till a thing happened which roused in him
a powerful beast, called by many the natural man.
He saw his wife, whom he loved in
his way, though he had tricked and deceived her again
and again, cross the window space, smiling, and disappear
with a downward movement, as the other had disappeared.
Then she rose into his range of vision, and stood
for a moment so that he could see her clearly, smiling,
talking, making little gestures that he knew, carrying
her hand to her face, stretching it out, dropping it.
Finally she lifted it to her lips, half-closing her
eyes at the same time, took it away quickly, with
a sort of butterfly motion, and vanished, going toward
the left, where the room door was.
So had she many and many a time bidden
him, her husband, good night. Instantly, with
an impulse which seemed combined of rage and terror,
both now full of a driving force which was irresistible,
the man sprang forward to the window, seized the stone
coping with his hands and stared into his room.
Seated in a round chair at his writing-table,
by a lamp with a green shade, was the man who had
entered his house. He was writing busily in a
book with a silver clasp that could be locked with
a key, and he leaned a little over the table with
his head turned away. The shape of his head,
his posture, even the manner in which he used his pen
as he traced line after line in the book, made an
abominable impression upon the man staring in at the
window. But the face the face!
He must see that! And he leaned forward, trembling,
but fiercely, and, pressing his own face against the
pane, he looked at the occupant of his room as men
look sometimes with their souls.
The man at the table lifted his head.
He laid down the pen, blotted the book in which he
had been writing, shut it up, clasped it, locked it
with a tiny key, and put it carefully into a drawer
of the table, which also he locked. He got up,
stood for an instant by the table with one hand upon
it, then turned slowly toward the window, smiling,
as men smile to themselves when they are thinking
of their own ingenuities.
The man outside the window fell back
into the snow as if God’s hand had touched him.
He had seen his own face! So he smiled sometimes
at the end of a day, when he had finished writing
down in his diary some of the hidden things of his
life.
He turned, and as the window through
which he had been looking suddenly darkened, he fled
away into the night.
When the lights, which at St. Joseph’s
were always kept lowered during the sermon, once more
strongly illuminated the chancel, Mr. Harding turned
a ghastly face toward the pulpit. In the morning
Chichester had listened to him, as a man of truth
might listen to a man who is trying to lie, but who
cannot deceive him. In the evening Mr. Harding
had listened to Chichester how? What
had been the emotions only shadowed faintly forth
in that ghastly face?
When Malling got home, he asked himself
why Chichester had made such an impression upon his
mind. His story of the double, strange enough,
no doubt, in a sermon, could not surely have come upon
Malling with any of the force and the interest of
the new. For years he had been familiar with
tales of ghosts, of voices, of appearances at the hour
of death, of doubles. Of course in the sermon
there had been a special application of the story.
It had been very short. Chichester had suggested
that if, as by a miracle, the average self-contented
man could look at himself with the eyes of his soul
full of subliminal self-knowledge and with the bodily
eyes, he would be stricken down by a great horror.
And he had spoken as a man who knew.
Indeed, it seemed to Malling that he had spoken as
might have delivered himself the man who had followed
his double through the snow, who had looked in upon
him by night from the garden, if he had faced, instead
of flying from, the truth; if he had stayed, if he
had persistently watched his double leading the life
he had led, if he had learned a great lesson that
perhaps only his double could teach him.
But if the man had stayed, what would
have been the effect on the double? Malling sat
till deep in the night pondering these things.