She had offered him her hand; he had
bent over it, seated himself, and they smilingly exchanged
the formal banalities of a pleasantly renewed acquaintance.
A waiter laid a cover for him.
She continued to concern herself, leisurely, with
her strawberries.
“When did you leave Paris?” she enquired.
“Nearly two years ago.”
“Before war was declared?”
“Yes, in June of that year.”
She looked up at him very seriously;
but they both smiled as she said:
“It was a momentous month for you then-the
month of June, 1914?”
“Very. A charming young
girl broke my heart in 1914; and so I came home, a
wreck-to recuperate.”
At that she laughed outright, glancing
at his youthful, sunburnt face and lean, vigorous
figure.
“When did you come over?” he asked
curiously.
“I have been here longer than
you have. In fact, I left France the day I last
saw you.”
“The same day?”
“I started that very same day-shortly
after sunrise. I crossed the Belgian frontier
that night, and I sailed for New York the morning
after. I landed here a week later, and I’ve
been here ever since. That, monsieur, is my history.”
“You’ve been here in New
York for two years!” he repeated in astonishment.
“Have you really left the stage then? I
supposed you had just arrived to fill an engagement
here.”
“They gave me a try-out this afternoon.”
“You? A try-out!” he exclaimed,
amazed.
She carelessly transfixed a berry with her fork:
“If I secure an engagement I
shall be very glad to fill it ... and my stomach,
also. If I don’t secure one-well-charity
or starvation confronts me.”
He smiled at her with easy incredulity.
“I had not heard that you were
here!” he repeated. “I’ve read
nothing at all about you in the papers -”
“No ... I am here incognito....
I have taken my sister’s name. After all,
your American public does not know me.”
“But -”
“Wait! I don’t wish it to know me!”
“But if you -”
The girl’s slight gesture checked
him, although her smile became humorous and friendly:
“Please! We need not discuss
my future. Only the past!” She laughed:
“How it all comes back to me now, as you speak-that
crazy evening of ours together! What children
we were-two years ago!”
Smilingly she clasped her hands together
on the table’s edge, regarding him with that
winning directness which was a celebrated part of
her celebrated personality; and happened to be natural
to her.
“Why did I not recognise you
immediately?” she demanded of herself, frowning
in self-reproof. “I am stupid!
Also I have, now and then, thought about you -”
She shrugged her shoulders, and again her face faltered
subtly:
“Much has happened to distract
my memories,” she added carelessly, impaling
a strawberry, “-since you and I took
the key to the fields and the road to the moon-like
the pair of irresponsibles we were that night in June.”
“Have you really had trouble?”
Her slim figure straightened as at
a challenge, then became adorably supple again; and
she rested her elbows on the table’s edge and
took her cheeks between her hands.
“Trouble?” she repeated,
studying his face. “I don’t know that
word, trouble. I don’t admit such a word
to the honour of my happy vocabulary.”
They both laughed a little.
She said, still looking at him, and
at first speaking as though to herself:
“Of course, you are that same,
delightful Garry! My youthful American accomplice!...
Quite unspoiled, still, but very, very irresponsible
... like all painters-like all students.
And the mischief which is in me recognised the mischief
in you, I suppose.... I did surprise you
that night, didn’t I?... And what a night!
What a moon! And how we danced there on the wet
lawn until my skirts and slippers and stockings were
drenched with dew!... And how we laughed!
Oh, that full-hearted, full-throated laughter of ours!
How wonderful that we have lived to laugh like that!
It is something to remember after death. Just
think of it!-you and I, absolute strangers,
dancing every dance there in the drenched grass to
the music that came through the open windows....
And do you remember how we hid in the flowering bushes
when my sister and the others came out to look for
me? How they called, ‘Nihla! Nihla!
Little devil, where are you?’ Oh, it was funny-funny!
And to see him come out on the lawn-do
you remember? He looked so fat and stupid and
anxious and bad-tempered! And you and I expiring
with stifled laughter! And he, with his sash,
his decorations and his academic palms! He’d
have shot us both, you know....”
They were laughing unrestrainedly
now at the memory of that impossible night a year
ago; and the girl seemed suddenly transformed into
an irresponsible gamine of eighteen. Her eyes
grew brighter with mischief and laughter-laughter,
the greatest magician and doctor emeritus of them
all! The immortal restorer of youth and beauty.
Bluish shadows had gone from under
her lower lashes; her eyes were starry as a child’s.
“Oh, Garry,” she gasped,
laying one slim hand across his on the table-cloth,
“it was one of those encounters-one
of those heavenly accidents that reconcile one to
living.... I think the moon had made me a perfect
lunatic.... Because you don’t yet know what
I risked.... Garry!... It ruined me-ruined
me utterly-our night together under the
June moon!”
“What!” he exclaimed, incredulously.
But she only laughed her gay, undaunted little laugh:
“It was worth it! Such
moments are worth anything we pay for them! I
laughed; I pay. What of it?”
“But if I am partly responsible I wish to know -”
“You shall know nothing about
it! As for me, I care nothing about it.
I’d do it again to-night! That is living-to
go forward, laugh, and accept what comes-to
have heart enough, gaiety enough, brains enough to
seize the few rare dispensations that the niggardly
gods fling across this calvary which we call life!
Tenez, that alone is living; the rest is making
the endless stations on bleeding knees.”
“Yet, if I thought-”
he began, perplexed and troubled, “-if
I thought that through my folly -”
“Folly! Non pas! Wisdom!
Oh, my blessed accomplice! And do you remember
the canoe? Were we indeed quite mad to embark
for Paris on the moonlit Seine, you and I?-I
in evening gown, soaked with dew to the knees!-you
with your sketching block and easel! Quelle déménagement
en famille! Oh, Garry, my friend of gayer days,
was that really folly! No, no, no, it was infinite
wisdom; and its memory is helping me to live through
this very moment!”
She leaned there on her elbows and
laughed across the cloth at him. The mockery
began to dance again and glimmer in her eyes:
“After all I’ve told you,”
she added, “you are no wiser, are you?
You don’t know why I never went to the Fountain
of Marie de Medicis-whether I forgot to
go-whether I remembered but decided that
I had had quite enough of you. You don’t
know, do you?”
He shook his head, smiling. The
girl’s face grew gradually serious:
“And you never heard anything
more about me?” she demanded.
“No. Your name simply disappeared
from the billboards, kiosques, and newspapers.”
“And you heard no malicious
gossip? None about my sister, either?”
“None.”
She nodded:
“Europe is a senile creature
which forgets overnight. Tant mieux....
You know, I shall sing and dance under my sister’s
name here. I told you that, didn’t I?”
“Oh! That would be a great mistake -”
“Listen! Nihla Quellen
disappeared-married some fat bourgeois,
died, perhaps,”-she shrugged,-“anything
you wish, my friend. Who cares to listen to what
is said about a dancing girl in all this din of war?
Who is interested?”
It was scarcely a question, yet her eyes seemed to
make it so.
“Who cares?” she repeated impatiently.
“Who remembers?”
“I have remembered you,”
he said, meeting her intently questioning gaze.
“You? Oh, you are not like
those others over there. Your country is not
at war. You still have leisure to remember.
But they forget. They haven’t time to remember
anything-anybody-over there.
Don’t you think so?” She turned in her
chair unconsciously, and gazed eastward. “-They
have forgotten me over there-” And
her lips tightened, contracted, bitten into silence.
The strange beauty of the girl left
him dumb. He was recalling, now, all that he
had ever heard concerning her. The gossip of Europe
had informed him that, though Nihla Quellen was
passionately and devotedly French in soul and heart,
her mother had been one of those unmoral and lovely
Georgians, and her father an Alsatian, named Dunois-a
French officer who entered the Russian service ultimately,
and became a hunting cheetah for the Grand Duke Cyril,
until himself hunted into another world by that old
bag of bones on the pale and shaky nag. His daughter
took the name of Nihla Quellen and what money
was left, and made her debut in Constantinople.
As the young fellow sat there watching
her, all the petty gossip of Europe came back to him-anecdotes,
panegyrics, eulogies, scandals, stage chatter, Quarter
“divers,” paid reclames-all
that he had ever read and heard about this notorious
young girl, now seated there across the table, with
her pretty head framed by slender, unjewelled fingers.
He remembered the gems she had worn that June night,
a year ago, and their magnificence.
“Well,” she said, “life
is a pleasantry, a jest, a bon-mot flung over his
shoulder by some god too drunk with nectar to invent
a better joke. Life is an Olympian epigram made
between immortal yawns. What do you think of
my epigram, Garry?”
“I think you are just as clever
and amusing as I remember you, Nihla.”
“Amusing to you, perhaps.
But I don’t entertain myself very successfully.
I don’t think poverty is a very funny joke.
Do you?”
“Poverty!” he repeated, smiling his unbelief.
She smiled too, displayed her pretty,
ringless hands humorously, for his inspection, then
framed her oval face between them again and made a
deliberate grimace.
“All gone,” she said.
“I am, as you say, here on my uppers.”
“I can’t understand, Nihla -”
“Don’t try to. It
doesn’t concern you. Also, please forget
me as Nihla Quellen. I told you that I’ve
taken my sister’s name, Thessalie Dunois.”
“But all Europe knows you as Nihla Quellen -”
“Listen!” she interrupted
sharply. “I have troubles enough. Don’t
add to them, or I shall be sorry I met you again.
I tell you my name is Thessa. Please remember
it.”
“Very well,” he said, reddening under
the rebuke.
She noted the painful colour in his
face, then looked elsewhere, indifferently. Her
features remained expressionless for a while.
After a few moments she looked around at him again,
and her smile began to glimmer:
“It’s only this,”
she said; “the girl you met once in your life-the
dancing singing-girl they knew over there-is
already an episode to be forgotten. End her career
any way you wish, Garry,-natural death,
suicide-or she can repent and take the veil,
if you like-or perish at sea-only
end her.... Please?” she added, with the
sweet, trailing inflection characteristic of her.
He nodded. The girl smiled mischievously.
“Don’t nod your head so
owlishly and pretend to understand. You don’t
understand. Only two or three people do.
And I hope they’ll believe me dead, even if
you are not polite enough to agree with them.”
“How can you expect to maintain
your incognito?” he insisted. “There
will be plenty of people in your very first audience -”
“I had a sister, did I not?”
“Was she your sister?-the
one who danced with you-the one called
Thessa?”
“No. But the play-bills
said she was. Now, I’ve told you something
that nobody knows except two or three unpleasant devils-”
She dropped her arms on the table and leaned a trifle
forward:
“Oh, pouf!” she said.
“Don’t let’s be mysterious and dramatic,
you and I. I’ll tell you: I gave that woman
the last of my jewels and she promised to disappear
and leave her name to me to use. It was my own
name, anyway, Thessalie Dunois. Now, you know.
Be as discreet and nice as I once found you.
Will you?”
“Of course.”
“‘Of course,’”
she repeated, smiling, and with a little twitch of
her shoulders, as though letting fall a burdensome
cloak. “Allons! With a free heart,
then! I am Thessalie Dunois; I am here; I am poor-don’t
be frightened! I shall not borrow -”
“That’s rotten, Thessa!” he said,
turning very red.
“Oh, go lightly, please, my
friend Garry. I have no claim on you. Besides,
I know men -”
“You don’t appear to!”
“Tiens! Our first
quarrel!” she exclaimed, laughingly. “This
is indeed serious -”
“If you need aid -”
“No, I don’t! Please,
why do you scowl at me? Do you then wish I needed
aid? Yours? Allez, Monsieur Garry, if I did
I’d venture, perhaps, to say so to you.
Does that make amends?” she added sweetly.
She clasped her white hands on the
cloth and looked at him with that engaging, humorous
little air which had so easily captivated her audiences
in Europe-that, and her voice with the hint
of recklessness ever echoing through its sweetness
and youthful gaiety.
“What are you doing in New York?” she
asked. “Painting?”
“I have a studio, but -”
“But no clients? Is that
it? Pouf! Everybody begins that way.
I sang in a cafe at Dijon for five francs and my soup!
At Rennes I nearly starved. Oh, yes, Garry, in
spite of a number of obliging gentlemen who, like
you, offered-first aid -”
“That is absolutely rotten of you, Thessa.
Did I ever -”
“No! For goodness’
sake let me jest with you without flying into tempers!”
“But -”
“Oh, pouf! I shall not
quarrel with you! Whatever you and I were going
to say during the next ten minutes shall remain unsaid!...
Now, the ten minutes are over; now, we’re reconciled
and you are in good humour again. And now, tell
me about yourself, your painting-in other
words, tell me the things about yourself that would
interest a friend.”
“Are you?”
“Your friend? Yes, I am-if you
wish.”
“I do wish it.”
“Then I am your friend.
I once had a wonderful evening with you.... I’m
having a very good time now. You were nice
to me, Garry. I really was sorry not to see you
again.”
“At the fountain of Marie de Medicis,”
he said reproachfully.
“Yes. Flatter yourself,
monsieur, because I did not forget our rendezvous.
I might have forgotten it easily enough-there
was sufficient excuse, God knows-a girl
awakened by the crash of ruin-springing
out of bed to face the end of the world without a
moment’s warning-yes, the end of all
things-death, too! Tenez, it was permissible
to forget our rendezvous under such circumstances,
was it not? But-I did not forget.
I thought about it in a dumb, calm way all the while-even
while he stood there denouncing me, threatening
me, noisy, furious-with the button of the
Legion in his lapel-and an ugly pistol
which he waved in the air-” She laughed:
“Oh, it was not at all gay,
I assure you.... And even when I took to my heels
after he had gone-for it was a matter of
life or death, and I hadn’t a minute to lose-oh,
very dramatic, of course, for I ran away in disguise
and I had a frightful time of it leaving France!
Well, even then, at top speed and scared to death,
I remembered the fountain of Marie de Medicis, and
you. Don’t be too deeply flattered.
I remembered these items principally because they had
caused my downfall.”
“I? I caused -”
“No. I caused it!
It was I who went out on the lawn. It was I who
came across to see who was painting by moonlight.
That began it-seeing you there-in
moonlight bright enough to read by-bright
enough to paint by. Oh, Garry-and you
were so good-looking! It was the moon-and
the way you smiled at me. And they all were dancing
inside, and he was so big and fat and complacent,
dancing away in there!... And so I fell a prey
to folly.”
“Was it really our escapade that-that
ruined you?”
“Well-it was partly
that. Pouf! It is over. And I am here.
So are you. It’s been nice to see you....
Please call our waiter.” She glanced at
her cheap, leather wrist watch.
As they rose and left the dining-room,
he asked her if they were not to see each other again.
A one-eyed man, close behind them, listened for her
reply.
She continued to walk on slowly beside
him without answering, until they reached the rotunda.
“Do you wish to see me again?” she enquired
abruptly.
“Don’t you also wish it?”
“I don’t know, Garry....
I’ve been annoyed in New York-bothered-seriously....
I can’t explain, but somehow-I don’t
seem to wish to begin a friendship with anybody....”
“Ours began two years ago.”
“Did it?”
“Did it not, Thessa?”
“Perhaps.... I don’t
know. After all-it doesn’t matter.
I think-I think we had better say good-bye-until
some happy hazard-like to-day’s encounter-”
She hesitated, looked up at him, laughed:
“Where is your studio?” she asked mischievously.
The one-eyed man at their heels was listening.