To pick up once more and tighten and
knot together the loosened threads which represented
the unfinished record that his race had woven into
the social fabric of the metropolis was merely an
automatic matter for Selwyn.
His own people had always been among
the makers of that fabric. Into part of its vast
and intricate pattern they had woven an inconspicuously
honourable record chronicles of births and
deaths and marriages, a plain memorandum of plain
living, and upright dealing with their fellow men.
Some public service of modest nature
they had performed, not seeking it, not shirking;
accomplishing it cleanly when it was intrusted to them.
His forefathers had been, as a rule,
professional men physicians and lawyers;
his grandfather died under the walls of Chapultepec
Castle while twisting a tourniquet for a cursing dragoon;
an uncle remained indefinitely at Malvern Hill; an
only brother at Montauk Point having sickened in the
trenches before Santiago.
His father’s services as division
medical officer in Sheridan’s cavalry had been,
perhaps, no more devoted, no more loyal than the services
of thousands of officers and troopers; and his reward
was a pension offer, declined. He practised until
his wife died, then retired to his country home, from
which house his daughter Nina was married to Austin
Gerard.
Mr. Selwyn, senior, continued to pay
his taxes on his father’s house in Tenth Street,
voted in that district, spent a month every year with
the Gerards, read a Republican morning newspaper,
and judiciously enlarged the family reservation in
Greenwood whither he retired, in due time,
without other ostentation than half a column in the
Evening Post, which paper he had, in life,
avoided.
The first gun off the Florida Keys
sent Selwyn’s only brother from his law office
in hot haste to San Antonio the first étape
on his first and last campaign with Wood’s cavalry.
That same gun interrupted Selwyn’s
connection with Neergard & Co., operators in Long
Island real estate; and, a year later, the captaincy
offered him in a Western volunteer regiment operating
on the Island of Leyte, completed the rupture.
And now he was back again, a chance
career ended, with option of picking up the severed
threads his inheritance at the loom and
of retying them, warp and weft, and continuing the
pattern according to the designs of the tufted, tinted
pile-yarn, knotted in by his ancestors before him.
There was nothing else to do; so he
did it. Civil and certain social obligations
were mechanically reassumed; he appeared in his sister’s
pew for worship, he reenrolled in his clubs as a resident
member once more; the directors of such charities
as he meddled with he notified of his return; he remitted
his dues to the various museums and municipal or private
organisations which had always expected support from
his family; he subscribed to the Sun.
He was more conservative, however,
in mending the purely social strands so long relaxed
or severed. The various registers and blue-books
recorded his residence under “dilatory domiciles”;
he did not subscribe to the opera, preferring to chance
it in case harmony-hunger attacked him; pre-Yuletide
functions he dodged, considering that his sister’s
days in January and attendance at other family formalities
were sufficient.
Meanwhile he was looking for two things an
apartment and a job the first energetically
combated by his immediate family.
It was rather odd the scarcity
of jobs. Of course Austin offered him one which
Selwyn declined at once, comfortably enraging his
brother-in-law for nearly ten minutes.
“But what do I know about the
investment of trust funds?” demanded Selwyn;
“you wouldn’t take me if I were not your
wife’s brother and that’s nepotism.”
Austin’s harmless fury raged
for nearly ten minutes, after which he cheered up,
relighted his cigar, and resumed his discussion with
Selwyn concerning the merits of various boys’
schools the victim in prospective being
Billy.
A little later, reverting to the subject
of his own enforced idleness, Selwyn said: “I’ve
been on the point of going to see Neergard but
somehow I can’t quite bring myself to it slinking
into his office as a rank failure in one profession,
to ask him if he has any use for me again.”
“Stuff and fancy!” growled
Gerard; “it’s all stuff and fancy about
your being any kind of a failure. If you want
to resume with that Dutchman, go to him and say so.
If you want to invest anything in his Long Island
schemes he’ll take you in fast enough. He
took in Gerald and some twenty thousand.”
“Isn’t he very prosperous, Austin?”
“Very on paper.
Long Island farm lands and mortgages on Hampton hen-coops
are not fragrant propositions to me. But there’s
always one more way of making a living after you counted
’em all up on your fingers. If you’ve
any capital to offer Neergard, he won’t shriek
for help.”
“But isn’t suburban property ”
“On the jump? Yes both
ways. Oh, I suppose that Neergard is all right if
he wasn’t I wouldn’t have permitted Gerald
to go into it. Neergard sticks to his commissions
and doesn’t back his fancy in certified checks.
I don’t know exactly how he operates; I only
know that we find nothing in that sort of thing for
our own account. But Fane, Harmon & Co. do.
That’s their affair, too; it’s all a matter
of taste, I tell you.”
Selwyn reflected: “I believe
I’d go and see Neergard if I were perfectly
sure of my personal sentiments toward him. . . .
He’s been civil enough to me, of course, but
I have always had a curious feeling about Neergard that
he’s for ever on the edge of doing something doubtful ”
“His business reputation is
all right. He shaves the dead line like a safety
razor, but he’s never yet cut through it.
On principle, however, look out for an apple-faced
Dutchman with a thin nose and no lips. Neither
Jew, Yankee, nor American stands any chance in a deal
with that type of financier. Personally my feeling
is this: if I’ve got to play games with
Julius Neergard, I’d prefer to be his partner.
And so I told Gerald. By the way ”
Austin checked himself, looked down
at his cigar, turned it over and over several times,
then continued quietly:
“By the way, I suppose
Gerald is like other young men of his age and times immersed
in his own affairs thoughtless perhaps,
perhaps a trifle selfish in the cross-country gallop
after pleasure. . . . I was rather severe with
him about his neglect of his sister. He ought
to have come here to pay his respects to you, too ”
“Oh, don’t put such notions into his head ”
“Yes, I will!” insisted
Austin; “however indifferent and thoughtless
and selfish he is to other people, he’s got
to be considerate toward his own family. And
I told him so. Have you seen him lately?”
“N-o,” admitted Selwyn.
“Not since that first time when he came to do
the civil by you?”
“No; but don’t ”
“Yes, I will,” repeated
his brother-in-law; “and I’m going to have
a thorough explanation with him and learn what he’s
up to. He’s got to be decent to his sister;
he ought to report to me occasionally; that’s
all there is to it. He has entirely too much
liberty with his bachelor quarters and his junior
whipper-snapper club, and his house parties and his
cruises on Neergard’s boat!”
He got up, casting his cigar from
him, and moved about bulkily, muttering of matters
to be regulated, and firmly, too. But Selwyn,
looking out of the window across the Park, knew perfectly
well that young Erroll, now of age, with a small portion
of his handsome income at his mercy, was past the
regulating stage and beyond the authority of Austin.
There was no harm in him; he was simply a joyous,
pleasure-loving cub, chock full of energetic instincts,
good and bad, right and wrong, out of which, formed
from the acts which become habits, character matures.
This was his estimate of Gerald.
The next morning, riding in the Park
with Eileen, he found a chance to speak cordially
of her brother.
“I’ve meant to look up
Gerald,” he said, as though the neglect were
his own fault, “but every time something happens
to switch me on to another track.”
“I’m afraid that I do
a great deal of the switching,” she said; “don’t
I? But you’ve been so nice to me and to
the children that ”
Miss Erroll’s horse was behaving
badly, and for a few moments she became too thoroughly
occupied with her mount to finish her sentence.
The belted groom galloped up, prepared
for emergencies, and he and Selwyn sat their saddles
watching a pretty battle for mastery between a beautiful
horse determined to be bad and a very determined young
girl who had decided he was going to be good.
Once or twice the excitement of solicitude
sent the colour flying into Selwyn’s temples;
the bridle-path was narrow and stiff with freezing
sand, and the trees were too near for such lively manoeuvres;
but Miss Erroll had made up her mind and
Selwyn already had a humorous idea that this was no
light matter. The horse found it serious enough,
too, and suddenly concluded to be good. And the
pretty scene ended so abruptly that Selwyn laughed
aloud as he rejoined her:
“There was a man ’Boots’
Lansing in Bannard’s command.
One night on Samar the bolo-men rushed us, and Lansing
got into the six-foot major’s boots by mistake seven-leaguers,
you know and his horse bucked him clean
out of them.”
“Hence his Christian name, I
suppose,” said the girl; “but why such
a story, Captain Selwyn? I believe I stuck to
my saddle?”
“With both hands,” he
said cordially, always alert to plague her. For
she was adorable when teased especially
in the beginning of their acquaintance, before she
had found out that it was a habit of his and
her bright confusion always delighted him into further
mischief.
“But I wasn’t a bit worried,”
he continued; “you had him so firmly around
the neck. Besides, what horse or man could resist
such a pleading pair of arms around the neck?”
“What you saw,” she said,
flushing up, “is exactly the way I shall do
any pleading with the two animals you mention.”
“Spur and curb and thrash us? Oh, my!”
“Not if you’re bridle-wise,
Captain Selwyn,” she returned sweetly. “And
you know you always are. And sometimes” she
crossed her crop and looked around at him reflectively “sometimes,
do you know, I am almost afraid that you are so very,
very good, that perhaps you are becoming almost goody-good.”
“What!” he exclaimed
indignantly; but his only answer was her head thrown
back and a ripple of enchanting laughter.
Later she remarked: “It’s
just as Nina says, after all, isn’t it?”
“I suppose so,” he replied suspiciously;
“what?”
“That Gerald isn’t really
very wicked, but he likes to have us think so.
It’s a sign of extreme self-consciousness, isn’t
it,” she added innocently, “when a man
is afraid that a woman thinks he is very, very good?”
“That,” he said, “is
the limit. I’m going to ride by myself.”
Her pleasure in Selwyn’s society
had gradually become such genuine pleasure, her confidence
in his kindness so unaffectedly sincere, that, insensibly,
she had fallen into something of his manner of badinage especially
since she realised how much amusement he found in
her own smiling confusion when unexpectedly assailed.
Also, to her surprise, she found that he could be
plagued very easily, though she did not quite dare
to at first, in view of his impressive years and experience.
But once goaded to it, she was astonished
to find how suddenly it seemed to readjust their personal
relations years and experience falling from
his shoulders like a cloak which had concealed a man
very nearly her own age; years and experience adding
themselves to her, and at least an inch to her stature
to redress the balance between them.
It had amused him immensely as he
realised the subtle change; and it pleased him, too,
because no man of thirty-five cares to be treated en
grandpere by a girl of nineteen, even if she has
not yet worn the polish from her first pair of high-heeled
shoes.
“It’s astonishing,”
he said, “how little respect infirmity and age
command in these days.”
“I do respect you,” she
insisted, “especially your infirmity of purpose.
You said you were going to ride by yourself. But,
do you know, I don’t believe you are of a particularly
solitary disposition; are you?”
He laughed at first, then suddenly his face fell.
“Not from choice,” he
said, under his breath. Her quick ear heard, and
she turned, semi-serious, questioning him with raised
eyebrows.
“Nothing; I was just muttering.
I’ve a villainous habit of muttering mushy nothings ”
“You did say something!”
“No; only ghoulish gabble; the mere murky mouthings
of a meagre mind.”
“You did. It’s rude not to
repeat it when I ask you.”
“I didn’t mean to be rude.”
“Then repeat what you said to yourself.”
“Do you wish me to?” he
asked, raising his eyes so gravely that the smile
faded from lip and voice when she answered: “I
beg your pardon, Captain Selwyn. I did not know
you were serious.”
“Oh, I’m not,” he
returned lightly, “I’m never serious.
No man who soliloquises can be taken seriously.
Don’t you know, Miss Erroll, that the crowning
absurdity of all tragedy is the soliloquy?”
Her smile became delightfully uncertain;
she did not quite understand him though
her instinct warned her that, for a second, something
had menaced their understanding.
Riding forward with him through the
crisp sunshine of mid-December, the word “tragedy”
still sounding in her ears, her thoughts reverted
naturally to the only tragedy besides her own which
had ever come very near to her his own.
Could he have meant that?
Did people mention such things after they had happened?
Did they not rather conceal them, hide them deeper
and deeper with the aid of time and the kindly years
for a burial past all recollection?
Troubled, uncomfortably intent on
evading every thought or train of ideas evoked, she
put her mount to a gallop. But thought kept pace
with her.
She was, of course, aware of the situation
regarding Selwyn’s domestic affairs; she could
not very well have been kept long in ignorance of the
facts; so Nina had told her carefully, leaving in the
young girl’s mind only a bewildered sympathy
for man and wife whom a dreadful and incomprehensible
catastrophe had overtaken; only an impression of something
new and fearsome which she had hitherto been unaware
of in the world, and which was to be added to her
small but, unhappily, growing list of sad and incredible
things.
The finality of the affair, according
to Nina, was what had seemed to her the most distressing as
though those two were already dead people. She
was unable to understand it. Could no glimmer
of hope remain that, in that magic “some day”
of all young minds, the evil mystery might dissolve?
Could there be no living “happily ever after”
in the wake of such a storm? She had managed
to hope for that, and believe in it.
Then, in some way, the news of Alixe’s
marriage to Ruthven filtered through the family silence.
She had gone straight to Nina, horrified, unbelieving.
And, when the long, tender, intimate interview was
over, another unhappy truth, very gently revealed,
was added to the growing list already learned by this
young girl.
Then Selwyn came. She had already
learned something of the world’s customs and
manners before his advent; she had learned more since
his advent; and she was learning something else, too to
understand how happily ignorant of many matters she
had been, had better be, and had best remain.
And she harboured no malsane desire to know more than
was necessary, and every innocent instinct to preserve
her ignorance intact as long as the world permitted.
As for the man riding there at her
side, his problem was simple enough as he summed it
up: to face the world, however it might chance
to spin, that small, ridiculous, haphazard world rattling
like a rickety roulette ball among the numbered nights
and days where he had no longer any vital stake at
hazard no longer any chance to win or lose.
This was an unstable state of mind,
particularly as he had not yet destroyed the photograph
which he kept locked in his despatch box. He
had not returned it, either; it was too late by several
months to do that, but he was still fool enough to
consider the idea at moments sometimes
after a nursery romp with the children, or after a
good-night kiss from Drina on the lamp-lit landing,
or when some commonplace episode of the domesticity
around him hurt him, cutting him to the quick with
its very simplicity, as when Nina’s hand fell
naturally into Austin’s on their way to “lean
over” the children at bedtime, or their frank
absorption in conjugal discussion to his own exclusion
as he sat brooding by the embers in the library.
“I’m like a dead man at
times,” he said to himself; “nothing to
expect of a man who is done for; and worst of all,
I no longer expect anything of myself.”
This was sufficiently morbid, and
he usually proved it by going early to his own quarters,
where dawn sometimes surprised him asleep in his chair,
white and worn, all the youth in his hollow face extinct,
his wife’s picture fallen face downward on the
floor.
But he always picked it up again when
he awoke, and carefully dusted it, too, even when
half stupefied with sleep.
Returning from their gallop, Miss
Erroll had very little to say. Selwyn, too, was
silent and absent-minded. The girl glanced furtively
at him from time to time, not at all enlightened.
Man, naturally, was to her an unknown quantity.
In fact she had no reason to suspect him of being
anything more intricate than the platitudinous dance
or dinner partner in black and white, or any frock-coated
entity in the afternoon, or any flannelled individual
at the nets or on the links or cantering about the
veranda of club, casino, or cottage, in evident anxiety
to be considerate and agreeable.
This one, however, appeared to have
individual peculiarities; he differed from his brother
Caucasians, who should all resemble one another to
any normal girl. For one thing he was subject
to illogical moods apparently not caring
whether she noticed them or not. For another,
he permitted himself the liberty of long and unreasonable
silences whenever he pleased. This she had accepted
unquestioningly in the early days when she was a little
in awe of him, when the discrepancy of their ages
and experiences had not been dissipated by her first
presumptuous laughter at his expense.
Now it puzzled her, appearing as a
specific trait differentiating him from Man in the
abstract.
He had another trick, too, of retiring
within himself, even when smiling at her sallies or
banteringly evading her challenge to a duel of wits.
At such times he no longer looked very young; she had
noticed that more than once. He looked old, and
ill-tempered.
Perhaps some sorrow the
actuality being vague in her mind; perhaps some hidden
suffering but she learned that he had never
been wounded in battle and had never even had measles.
The sudden sullen pallor, the capricious
fits of silent reserve, the smiling aloofness, she
never attributed to the real source. How could
she? The Incomprehensible Thing was a Finality
accomplished according to law. And the woman
concerned was now another man’s wife. Which
conclusively proved that there could be no regret arising
from the Incomprehensible Finality, and that nobody
involved cared, much less suffered. Hence that
was certainly not the cause of any erratic or specific
phenomena exhibited by this sample of man who differed,
as she had noticed, somewhat from the rank and file
of his neutral-tinted brothers.
“It’s this particular
specimen, per se,” she concluded; “it’s
himself, sui generis just as I happen
to have red hair. That is all.”
And she rode on quite happily, content,
confident of his interest and kindness. For she
had never forgotten his warm response to her when she
stood on the threshold of her first real dinner party,
in her first real dinner gown a trivial
incident, trivial words! But they had meant more
to her than any man specimen could understand including
the man who had uttered them; and the violets, which
she found later with his card, must remain for her
ever after the delicately fragrant symbol of all he
had done for her in a solitude, the completeness of
which she herself was only vaguely beginning to realise.
Thinking of this now, she thought
of her brother and the old hurt at his
absence on that night throbbed again. Forgive?
Yes. But how could she forget it?
“I wish you knew Gerald well,”
she said impulsively; “he is such a dear fellow;
and I think you’d be good for him and
besides,” she hastened to add, with instinctive
loyalty, lest he misconstrue, “Gerald would be
good for you. We were a great deal together at
one time.”
He nodded, smilingly attentive.
“Of course when he went away
to school it was different,” she added.
“And then he went to Yale; that was four more
years, you see.”
“I was a Yale man,” remarked
Selwyn; “did he ” but he broke
off abruptly, for he knew quite well that young Erroll
could have made no senior society without his hearing
of it. And he had not heard of it not
in the cane-brakes of Leyte where, on his sweat-soaked
shirt, a small pin of heavy gold had clung through
many a hike and many a scout and by many a camp-fire
where the talk was of home and of the chances of crews
and of quarter-backs.
“What were you going to ask me, Captain Selwyn?”
“Did he row your brother Gerald?”
“No,” she said. She
did not add that he had broken training; that was
her own sorrow, to be concealed even from Gerald.
“No; he played polo sometimes. He rides
beautifully, Captain Selwyn, and he is so clever when
he cares to be at the traps, for example and oh anything.
He once swam oh, dear, I forget; was it
five or fifteen or fifty miles? Is that too
far? Do people swim those distances?”
“Some of those distances,” replied Selwyn.
“Well, then, Gerald swam some
of those distances and everybody was amazed.
. . . I do wish you knew him well.”
“I mean to,” he said.
“I must look him up at his rooms or his club
or perhaps at Neergard & Co.”
“Will you do this?”
she asked, so earnestly that he glanced up surprised.
“Yes,” he said; and after
a moment: “I’ll do it to-day, I think;
this afternoon.”
“Have you time? You mustn’t let me ”
“Time?” he repeated; “I
have nothing else, except a watch to help me get rid
of it.”
“I’m afraid I help you
get rid of it, too. I heard Nina warning the
children to let you alone occasionally and
I suppose she meant that for me, too. But I only
take your mornings, don’t I? Nina is unreasonable;
I never bother you in the afternoons or evenings;
do you know I have not dined at home for nearly a
month except when we’ve asked people?”
“Are you having a good time?”
he asked condescendingly, but without intention.
“Heavenly. How can you
ask that? with every day filled and a chance
to decline something every day. If you’d
only go to one just one of the dances and
teas and dinners, you’d be able to see for yourself
what a good time I am having. . . . I don’t
know why I should be so delightfully lucky, but everybody
asks me to dance, and every man I meet is particularly
nice, and nobody has been very horrid to me; perhaps
because I like everybody ”
She rode on beside him; they were
walking their horses now; and as her silken-coated
mount paced forward through the sunshine she sat at
ease, straight as a slender Amazon in her habit, ruddy
hair glistening at the nape of her neck, the scarlet
of her lips always a vivid contrast to that wonderful
unblemished skin of snow.
He thought to himself, quite impersonally:
“She’s a real beauty, that youngster.
No wonder they ask her to dance and nobody is horrid.
Men are likely enough to go quite mad about her as
Nina predicts: probably some of ’em have
already that chuckle-headed youth who was
there Tuesday, gulping up the tea ”
And, “What was his name?” he asked aloud.
“Whose name?” she inquired,
roused by his voice from smiling retrospection.
“That chuckle head the
young man who continued to haunt you so persistently
when you poured tea for Nina on Tuesday. Of course
they all haunted you,” he explained politely,
as she shook her head in sign of non-comprehension;
“but there was one who ah gulped
at his cup.”
“Please you are rather dreadful,
aren’t you?”
“Yes. So was he; I mean
the infatuated chinless gentleman whose facial ensemble
remotely resembled the features of a pleased and placid
lizard of the Reptilian period.”
“Oh, George Fane! That
is particularly disagreeable of you, Captain Selwyn,
because his wife has been very nice to me Rosamund
Fane and she spoke most cordially of you ”
“Which one was she?”
“The Dresden china one.
She looks she simply cannot look as though
she were married. It’s most amusing for
people always take her for somebody’s youngest
sister who will be out next winter. . . . Don’t
you remember seeing her?”
“No, I don’t. But
there were dozens coming and going every minute whom
I didn’t know. Still, I behaved well, didn’t
I?”
“Pretty badly to
Kathleen Lawn, whom you cornered so that she couldn’t
escape until her mother made her go without any tea.”
“Was that the reason
that old lady looked at me so queerly?”
“Probably. I did, too,
but you were taking chances, not hints. . . .
She is attractive, isn’t she?”
“Very fetching,” he said,
leaning down to examine his stirrup leathers which
he had already lengthened twice. “I’ve
got to have Cummins punch these again,” he muttered;
“or am I growing queer-legged in my old age?”
As he straightened up, Miss Erroll
said: “Here comes Mr. Fane now with
a strikingly pretty girl. How beautifully they
are mounted” smilingly returning
Fane’s salute “and she oh!
so you do know her, Captain Selwyn? Who
is she?”
Crop raised mechanically in dazed
salute, Selwyn’s light touch on the bridle had
tightened to a nervous clutch which brought his horse
up sharply.
“What is it?” she asked,
drawing bridle in her turn and looking back into his
white, stupefied face.
“Pain,” he said, unconscious
that he spoke. At the same instant the stunned
eyes found their focus and found her beside
his stirrup, leaning wide from her seat in sweet concern,
one gloved hand resting on the pommel of his saddle.
“Are you ill?” she asked;
“shall we dismount? If you feel dizzy, please
lean against me.”
“I am all right,” he said
coolly; and as she recovered her seat he set his horse
in motion. His face had become very red now; he
looked at her, then beyond her, with all the deliberate
concentration of aloof indifference.
Confused, conscious that something
had happened which she did not comprehend, and sensitively
aware of the preoccupation which, if it did not ignore
her, accepted her presence as of no consequence, she
permitted her horse to set his own pace.
Neither self-command nor self-control
was lacking now in Selwyn; he simply was too self-absorbed
to care what she thought whether she thought
at all. And into his consciousness, throbbing
heavily under the rushing reaction from shock, crowded
the crude fact that Alixe was no longer an apparition
evoked in sleeplessness, in sun-lit brooding; in the
solitude of crowded avenues and swarming streets; she
was an actual presence again in his life she
was here, bodily, unchanged unchanged! for
he had conceived a strange idea that she must have
changed physically, that her appearance had altered.
He knew it was a grotesquely senseless idea, but it
clung to him, and he had nursed it unconsciously.
He had, truly enough, expected to
encounter her in life again somewhere;
though what he had been preparing to see, Heaven alone
knew; but certainly not the supple, laughing girl he
had known that smooth, slender, dark-eyed,
dainty visitor who had played at marriage with him
through a troubled and unreal dream; and was gone when
he awoke so swift the brief two years had
passed, as swift in sorrow as in happiness.
Two vision-tinted years! ended
as an hour ends with the muffled chimes of a clock,
leaving the air of an empty room vibrant. Two
years! a swift, restless dream aglow with
exotic colour, echoing with laughter and bugle-call
and the noise of the surf on Samar rocks a
dream through which stirred the rustle of strange
brocades and the whisper of breezes blowing over the
grasses of Leyte; and the light, dry report of rifles,
and the shuffle of bare feet in darkened bungalows,
and the whisper of dawn in Manila town.
Two years! wherever they
came from, wherever they had gone. And now, out
of the ghostly, shadowy memory, behold her stepping
into the world again! living, breathing,
quickening with the fire of life undimmed in her.
And he had seen the bright colour spreading to her
eyes, and the dark eyes widen to his stare; he had
seen the vivid blush, the forced smile, the nod, the
voiceless parting of her stiffened lips. Then
she was gone, leaving the whole world peopled with
her living presence and the very sky ringing with
the words her lips had never uttered, never would
utter while sun and moon and stars endured.
Shrinking from the clamouring tumult
of his thoughts he looked around, hard-eyed and drawn
of mouth, to find Miss Erroll riding a length in advance,
her gaze fixed resolutely between her horse’s
ears.
How much had she noticed? How
much had she divined? this straight, white-throated
young girl, with her self-possession and her rounded,
firm young figure, this child with the pure, curved
cheek, the clear, fearless eyes, untainted, ignorant,
incredulous of shame, of evil.
Severe, confident, untroubled in the
freshness of adolescence, she rode on, straight before
her, symbolic innocence leading the disillusioned.
And he followed, hard, dry eyes narrowing, ever narrowing
and flinching under the smiling gaze of the dark-eyed,
red-mouthed ghost that sat there on his saddle bow,
facing him, almost in his very arms.
Luncheon had not been served when
they returned. Without lingering on the landing
as usual, they exchanged a formal word or two, then
Eileen mounted to her own quarters and Selwyn walked
nervously through the library, where he saw Nina evidently
prepared for some mid-day festivity, for she wore
hat and furs, and the brougham was outside.
“Oh, Phil,” she said,
“Eileen probably forgot that I was going out;
it’s a directors’ luncheon at the exchange.
Please tell Eileen that I can’t wait for her;
where is she?”
“Dressing, I suppose. Nina, I ”
“One moment, dear. I promised
the children that you would lunch with them in the
nursery. Do you mind? I did it to keep them
quiet; I was weak enough to compromise between a fox
hunt or fudge; so I said you’d lunch with them..
Will you?”
“Certainly. . . . And,
Nina what sort of a man is this George Fane?”
“Fane?”
“Yes the chinless
gentleman with gentle brown and protruding eyes and
the expression of a tame brontosaurus.”
“Why how do you mean,
Phil? What sort of man? He’s a banker.
He isn’t very pretty, but he’s popular.”
“Oh, popular!” he nodded,
as close to a sneer as he could ever get.
“He has a very popular wife,
too; haven’t you met Rosamund? People like
him; he’s about everywhere very useful,
very devoted to pretty women; but I’m really
in a hurry, Phil. Won’t you please explain
to Eileen that I couldn’t wait? You and
she were almost an hour late. Now I must pick
up my skirts and fly, or there’ll be some indignant
dowagers downtown. . . . Good-bye, dear. . .
. And don’t let the children eat
too fast! Make Drina take thirty-six chews to
every bite; and Winthrop is to have no bread if he
has potatoes ” Her voice dwindled
and died, away through the hall; the front door clanged.
He went to his quarters, drove out
Austin’s man, arranged his own fresh linen,
took a sulky plunge; and, an unlighted cigarette between
his teeth, completed his dressing in sullen introspection.
When he had tied his scarf and bitten
his cigarette to pieces, he paced the room once or
twice, squared his shoulders, breathed deeply, and,
unbending his eyebrows, walked off to the nursery.
“Hello, you kids!” he
said, with an effort. “I’ve come to
luncheon. Very nice of you to want me, Drina.”
“I wanted you, too!” said
Billy; “I’m to sit beside you ”
“So am I,” observed Drina,
pushing Winthrop out of the chair and sliding in close
to Selwyn. She had the cat, Kit-Ki, in her arms.
Kit-Ki, divining nourishment, was purring loudly.
Josephine and Clemence, in pinafores
and stickout skirts, sat wriggling, with Winthrop
between them; the five dogs sat in a row behind; Katie
and Bridget assumed the functions of Hibernian Hebes;
and luncheon began with a clatter of spoons.
It being also the children’s
dinner supper and bed occurring from five
to six meat figured on the card, and Kit-Ki’s
purring increased to an ecstatic and wheezy squeal,
and her rigid tail, as she stood up on Drina’s
lap, was constantly brushing Selwyn’s features.
“The cat is shedding, too,”
he remarked, as he dodged her caudal appendage for
the twentieth time; “it will go in with the next
spoonful, Drina, if you’re not careful about
opening your mouth.”
“I love Kit-Ki,” said
Drina placidly. “I have written a poem to
her where is it? hand it to me,
Bridget.”
And, laying down her fork and crossing
her bare legs under the table, Drina took breath and
read rapidly:
“LINES TO MY CAT
“Why
Do I love Kit-Ki
And run after
Her with laughter
And rub her fur
So she will purr?
Why do I know
That Kit-Ki loves me
so?
I know it if
Her tail stands up stiff
And she beguiles
Me with smiles ”
“Huh!” said Billy, “cats don’t
smile!”
“They do. When they look
pleasant they smile,” said Drina, and continued
reading from her own works:
“Be kind in all
You say and do
For God made Kit-Ki
The same as you.
“Yours truly,
“ALEXANDRINA GERARD.
She looked doubtfully at Selwyn.
“Is it all right to sign a poem? I believe
that poets sign their works, don’t they, Uncle
Philip?”
“Certainly. Drina, I’ll give you
a dollar for that poem.”
“You may have it, anyway,”
said Drina, generously; and, as an after-thought:
“My birthday is next Wednesday.”
“What a hint!” jeered
Billy, casting a morsel at the dogs.
“It isn’t a hint.
It had nothing to do with my poem, and I’ll write
you several more, Uncle Philip,” protested the
child, cuddling against him, spoon in hand, and inadvertently
decorating his sleeve with cranberry sauce.
Cat hairs and cranberry are a great
deal for a man to endure, but he gave Drina a reassuring
hug and a whisper, and leaned back to remove traces
of the affectionate encounter just as Miss Erroll entered.
“Oh, Eileen! Eileen!”
cried the children; “are you coming to luncheon
with us?”
As Selwyn rose, she nodded, amused.
“I am rather hurt,” she
said. “I went down to luncheon, but as soon
as I heard where you all were I marched straight up
here to demand the reason of my ostracism.”
“We thought you had gone with
mother,” explained Drina, looking about for
a chair.
Selwyn brought it. “I was
commissioned to say that Nina couldn’t wait dowagers
and cakes and all that, you know. Won’t
you sit down? It’s rather messy and the
cat is the guest of honour.”
“We have three guests of honour,”
said Drina; “you, Eileen, and Kit-Ki. Uncle
Philip, mother has forbidden me to speak of it, so
I shall tell her and be punished but wouldn’t
it be splendid if Aunt Alixe were only here with us?”
Selwyn turned sharply, every atom
of colour gone; and the child smiled up at him. “Wouldn’t
it?” she pleaded.
“Yes,” he said, so quietly
that something silenced the child. And Eileen,
giving ostentatious and undivided attention to the
dogs, was now enveloped by snooping, eager muzzles
and frantically wagging tails.
“My lap is full of paws!”
she exclaimed; “take them away, Katie! And
oh! my gown, my gown! Billy,
stop waving your tumbler around my face! If you
spill that milk on me I shall ask your Uncle Philip
to put you in the guard-house!”
“You’re going to bolo
us, aren’t you, Uncle Philip?” inquired
Billy. “It’s my turn to be killed,
you remember ”
“I have an idea,” said
Selwyn, “that Miss Erroll is going to play for
you to sing.”
They liked that. The infant Gerards
were musically inclined, and nothing pleased them
better than to lift their voices in unison. Besides,
it always distressed Kit-Ki, and they never tired
laughing to see the unhappy cat retreat before the
first minor chord struck on the piano. More than
that, the dogs always protested, noses pointed heavenward.
It meant noise, which was always welcome in any form.
“Will you play, Miss Erroll?” inquired
Selwyn.
Miss Erroll would play.
“Why do you always call her
’Miss Erroll’?” asked Billy.
“Why don’t you say ’Eileen’?”
Selwyn laughed. “I don’t know, Billy;
ask her; perhaps she knows.”
Eileen laughed, too, delicately embarrassed
and aware of his teasing smile. But Drina, always
impressed by formality, said: “Uncle Philip
isn’t Eileen’s uncle. People who are
not relations say Miss and Mrs.”
“Are faver and muvver relations?” asked
Josephine timidly.
“Y-es no! I don’t
know,” admitted Drina; “are they,
Eileen?”
“Why, yes that is that
is to say ” And turning to Selwyn:
“What dreadful questions. Are they relations,
Captain Selwyn? Of course they are!”
“They were not before they were married,”
he said, laughing.
“If you married Eileen,”
began Billy, “you’d call her Eileen, I
suppose.”
“Certainly,” said Selwyn.
“Why don’t you?”
“That is another thing you must ask her, my
son.”
“Well, then, Eileen ”
But Miss Erroll was already seated
at the nursery piano, and his demands were drowned
in a decisive chord which brought the children clustering
around her, while their nurses ran among them untying
bibs and scrubbing faces and fingers in fresh water.
They sang like seraphs, grouped around
the piano, fingers linked behind their backs.
First it was “The Vicar of Bray.”
Then and the cat fled at the first chord “Lochleven
Castle”:
“Put off, put
off,
And row with speed
For now is the time
and the hour of need.”
Miss Erroll sang, too; her voice leading a
charmingly trained, but childlike voice, of no pretensions,
as fresh and unspoiled as the girl herself.
There was an interval after “Castles
in the Air”; Eileen sat, with her marvellously
white hands resting on the keys, awaiting further
suggestion.
“Sing that funny song, Uncle
Philip!” pleaded Billy; “you know the
one about:
“She
hit him with a shingle
Which made
his breeches tingle
Because he pinched his
little baby brother;
And he ran
down the lane
With his
pants full of pain.
Oh, a boy’s best
friend is his mother!”
“Billy!” gasped Miss Erroll.
Selwyn, mortified, said severely:
“That is a very dreadful song, Billy ”
“But you taught it to me ”
Eileen swung around on the piano stool,
but Selwyn had seized Billy and was promising to bolo
him as soon as he wished.
And Eileen, surveying the scene from
her perch, thought that Selwyn’s years seemed
to depend entirely upon his occupation, for he looked
very boyish down there on his knees among the children;
and she had not yet forgotten the sunken pallor of
his features in the Park no, nor her own
question to him, still unanswered. For she had
asked him who that woman was who had been so direct
in her smiling salute. And he had not yet replied;
probably never would; for she did not expect to ask
him again.
Meanwhile the bolo-men were rushing
the outposts to the outposts’ intense satisfaction.
“Bang-bang!” repeated
Winthrop; “I hit you, Uncle Philip. You
are dead, you know!”
“Yes, but here comes another!
Fire!” shouted Billy. “Save the flag!
Hurrah! Pound on the piano, Eileen, and pretend
it’s cannon.”
Chord after chord reverberated through
the big sunny room, punctuated by all the cavalry
music she had picked up from West Point and her friends
in the squadron.
“We can’t get ’em
up!
We can’t get ’em up!
We can’t get ’em up
In the morning!”
she sang, calmly watching the progress
of the battle, until Selwyn disengaged himself from
the melee and sank breathlessly into a chair.
“All over,” he said, declining
further combat. “Play the ’Star-spangled
Banner,’ Miss Erroll.”
“Boom!” crashed the chord
for the sunset gun; then she played the anthem; Selwyn
rose, and the children stood up at salute.
The party was over.
Selwyn and Miss Erroll, strolling
together out of the nursery and down the stairs, fell
unconsciously into the amiable exchange of badinage
again; she taunting him with his undignified behaviour,
he retorting in kind.
“Anyway that was a perfectly
dreadful verse you taught Billy,” she concluded.
“Not as dreadful as the chorus,” he remarked,
wincing.
“You’re exactly like a
bad small boy, Captain Selwyn; you look like one now so
sheepish! I’ve seen Gerald attempt to avoid
admonition in exactly that fashion.”
“How about a jolly brisk walk?”
he inquired blandly; “unless you’ve something
on. I suppose you have.”
“Yes, I have; a tea at the Fanes,
a function at the Grays. . . . Do you know Sudbury
Gray? It’s his mother.”
They had strolled into the living
room a big, square, sunny place, in golden
greens and browns, where a bay-window overlooked the
Park.
Kneeling on the cushions of the deep
window seat she flattened her delicate nose against
the glass, peering out through the lace hangings.
“Everybody and his family are
driving,” she said over her shoulder. “The
rich and great are cornering the fresh-air supply.
It’s interesting, isn’t it, merely to
sit here and count coteries! There is Mrs. Vendenning
and Gladys Orchil of the Black Fells set; there is
that pretty Mrs. Delmour-Carnes; Newport! Here
come some Cedarhurst people the Fleetwoods.
It always surprises one to see them out of the saddle.
There is Evelyn Cardwell; she came out when I did;
and there comes Sandon Craig with a very old lady there,
in that old-fashioned coach oh, it is Mrs.
Jan Van Elten, senior. What a very, very quaint
old lady! I have been presented at court,”
she added, with a little laugh, “and now all
the law has been fulfilled.”
For a while she kneeled there, silently
intent on the passing pageant with all the unconscious
curiosity of a child. Presently, without turning:
“They speak of the younger set but
what is its limit? So many, so many people!
The hunting crowd the silly crowd the
wealthy sets the dreadful yellow set then
all those others made out of metals copper
and coal and iron and ” She shrugged
her youthful shoulders, still intent on the passing
show.
“Then there are the intellectuals the
artistic, the illuminated, the musical sorts.
I I wish I knew more of them. They
were my father’s friends some of
them.” She looked over her shoulder to see
where Selwyn was, and whether he was listening; smiled
at him, and turned, resting one hand on the window
seat. “So many kinds of people,” she
said, with a shrug.
“Yes,” said Selwyn lazily,
“there are all kinds of kinds. You remember
that beautiful nature-poem:
“’The sea-gull
And the
eagul
And the dipper-dapper-duck
And the
Jew-fish
And the
blue-fish
And the turtle in the
muck;
And the
squir’l
And the
girl
And the flippy floppy
bat
Are differ-ent
As gent
from gent.
So let it go at that!’”
“What hideous nonsense,”
she laughed, in open encouragement; but he could recall
nothing more or pretended he couldn’t.
“You asked me,” he said,
“whether I know Sudbury Gray. I do, slightly.
What about him?” And he waited, remembering Nina’s
suggestion as to that wealthy young man’s eligibility.
“He’s one of the nicest men I know,”
she replied frankly.
“Yes, but you don’t know ‘Boots’
Lansing.”
“The gentleman who was bucked out of his footwear?
Is he attractive?”
“Rather. Shrieks rent the air when ‘Boots’
left Manila.”
“Feminine shrieks?”
“Exclusively. The men were
glad enough. He has three months’ leave
this winter, so you’ll see him soon.”
She thanked him mockingly for the
promise, watching him from amused eyes. After
a moment she said:
“I ought to arise and go forth
with timbrels and with dances; but, do you know, I
am not inclined to revels? There has been a little just
a very little bit too much festivity so far. . . .
Not that I don’t adore dinners and gossip and
dances; not that I do not love to pervade bright and
glittering places. Oh, no. Only I ”
She looked shyly a moment at Selwyn:
“I sometimes feel a curious desire for other
things. I have been feeling it all day.”
“What things?”
“I don’t know exactly;
substantial things. I’d like to learn about
things. My father was the head of the American
School of Archaeology in Crete. My mother was
his intellectual equal, I believe ”
Her voice had fallen as she spoke.
“Do you wonder that physical pleasure palls
a little at times? I inherit something besides
a capacity for dancing.”
He nodded, watching her with an interest
and curiosity totally new.
“When I was ten years old I
was taken abroad for the winter. I saw the excavations
in Crete for the buried city which father discovered
near Praesos. We lived for a while with Professor
Flanders in the Fayum district; I saw the ruins of
Kahun, built nearly three thousand years before the
coming of Christ; I myself picked up a scarab as old
as the ruins! . . . Captain Selwyn I
was only a child of ten; I could understand very little
of what I saw and heard, but I have never, never forgotten
the happiness of that winter! . . . And that is
why, at times, pleasures tire me a little; and a little
discontent creeps in. It is ungrateful and ungracious
of me to say so, but I did wish so much to go to college to
have something to care for as mother cared
for father’s work. Why, do you know that
my mother accidentally discovered the thirty-seventh
sign in the Karian Signary?”
“No,” said Selwyn, “I
did not know that.” He forbore to add that
he did not know what a Signary resembled or where
Karia might be.
Miss Erroll’s elbow was on her
knee, her chin resting within her open palm.
“Do you know about my parents?”
she asked. “They were lost in the Argolis
off Cyprus. You have heard. I think they
meant that I should go to college as well
as Gerald; I don’t know. Perhaps after all
it is better for me to do what other young girls do.
Besides, I enjoy it; and my mother did, too, when
she was my age, they say. She was very much gayer
than I am; my mother was a beauty and a brilliant woman.
. . . But there were other qualities. I have
her letters to father when Gerald and I were very
little; and her letters to us from London. . . .
I have missed her more, this winter, it seems to me,
than even in that dreadful time ”
She sat silent, chin in hand, delicate
fingers restlessly worrying her red lips; then, in
quick impulse:
“You will not mistake me, Captain
Selwyn! Nina and Austin have been perfectly sweet
to me and to Gerald.”
“I am not mistaking a word you utter,”
he said.
“No, of course not. . . . Only there are
times . . . moments . . .”
Her voice died; her clear eyes looked
out into space while the silent seconds lengthened
into minutes. One slender finger had slipped between
her lips and teeth; the burnished strand of hair which
Nina dreaded lay neglected against her cheek.
“I should like to know,”
she began, as though to herself, “something
about everything. That being out of the question,
I should like to know everything about something.
That also being out of the question, for third choice
I should like to know something about something.
I am not too ambitious, am I?”
Selwyn did not offer to answer.
“Am I?” she repeated, looking directly
at him.
“I thought you were asking yourself.”
“But you need not reply; there is no sense in
my question.”
She stood up, indifferent, absent-eyed,
half turning toward the window; and, raising her hand,
she carelessly brought the rebel strand of hair under
discipline.
“You said you were going to look up Gerald,”
she observed.
“I am; now. What are you going to do?”
“I? Oh, dress, I suppose.
Nina ought to be back now, and she expects me to go
out with her.”
She nodded a smiling termination of
their duet, and moved toward the door. Then,
on impulse, she turned, a question on her lips left
unuttered through instinct. It had to do with
the identity of the pretty woman who had so directly
saluted him in the Park a perfectly friendly,
simple, and natural question. Yet it remained
unuttered.
She turned again to the doorway; a
maid stood there holding a note on a salver.
“For Captain Selwyn, please,” murmured
the maid.
Miss Erroll passed out.
Selwyn took the note and broke the seal:
“MY DEAR SELWYN: I’m
in a beastly fix an I.O.U. due to-night
and pas de quoi! Obviously I don’t
want Neergard to know, being associated as I
am with him in business. As for Austin, he’s
a peppery old boy, bless his heart, and I’m
not very secure in his good graces at present.
Fact is I got into a rather stiff game last night and
it’s a matter of honour. So can you help
me to tide it over? I’ll square it
on the first of the month.
“Yours sincerely,
“GERALD ERROLL.
“P.S. I’ve
meant to look you up for ever so long, and will the
first moment I have
free.”
Below this was pencilled the amount
due; and Selwyn’s face grew very serious.
The letter he wrote in return ran:
“DEAR GERALD:
Check enclosed to your order. By the way, can’t
you
lunch with me at the
Lenox Club some day this week? Write, wire, or
telephone when.
“Yours,
“SELWYN.”
When he had sent the note away by
the messenger he walked back to the bay-window, hands
in his pockets, a worried expression in his gray eyes.
This sort of thing must not be repeated; the boy must
halt in his tracks and face sharply the other way.
Besides, his own income was limited much
too limited to admit of many more loans of that sort.
He ought to see Gerald at once, but
somehow he could not in decency appear personally
on the heels of his loan. A certain interval must
elapse between the loan and the lecture; in fact he
didn’t see very well how he could admonish and
instruct until the loan had been cancelled that
is, until the first of the New Year.
Pacing the floor, disturbed, uncertain
as to the course he should pursue, he looked up presently
to see Miss Erroll descending the stairs, fresh and
sweet in her radiant plumage. As she caught his
eye she waved a silvery chinchilla muff at him a
marching salute and passed on, calling
back to him: “Don’t forget Gerald!”
“No,” he said, “I
won’t forget Gerald.” He stood a moment
at the window watching the brougham below where Nina
awaited Miss Erroll. Then, abruptly, he turned
back into the room and picked up the telephone receiver,
muttering: “This is no time to mince matters
for the sake of appearances.” And he called
up Gerald at the offices of Neergard & Co.
“Is it you, Gerald?” he
asked pleasantly. “It’s all right
about that matter; I’ve sent you a note by your
messenger. But I want to talk to you about another
matter something concerning myself I
want to ask your advice, in a way. Can you be
at the Lenox by six? . . . You have an engagement
at eight? Oh, that’s all right; I won’t
keep you. . . . It’s understood, then;
the Lenox at six. . . . Good-bye.”
There was the usual early evening
influx of men at the Lenox who dropped in for a glance
at the ticker, or for a cocktail or a game of billiards
or a bit of gossip before going home to dress.
Selwyn sauntered over to the basket,
inspected a yard or two of tape, then strolled toward
the window, nodding to Bradley Harmon and Sandon Craig.
As he turned his face to the window
and his back to the room, Harmon came up rather effusively,
offering an unusually thin flat hand and further hospitality,
pleasantly declined by Selwyn.
“Horrible thing, a cocktail,”
observed Harmon, after giving his own order and seating
himself opposite Selwyn. “I don’t
usually do it. Here comes the man who persuades
me! my own partner ”
Selwyn looked up to see Fane approaching;
and instantly a dark flush overspread his face.
“You know George Fane, don’t
you?” continued Harmon easily; “well,
that’s odd; I thought, of course Captain
Selwyn, Mr. Fane. It’s not usual but
it’s done.”
They exchanged formalities dry
and brief on Selwyn’s part, gracefully urbane
on Fane’s.
“I’ve heard so pleasantly
of you from Gerald Erroll,” he said, “and
of course our people have always been on cordial terms.
Neither Mrs. Fane nor I was fortunate enough to meet
you last Tuesday at the Gerards such a
crush, you know. Are you not joining us, Captain
Selwyn?” as the servant appeared to take orders.
Selwyn declined again, glancing at
Harmon a large-framed, bony young man with
blond, closely trimmed and pointed beard, and the fair
colour of a Swede. He had the high, flat cheek-bones
of one, too; and a thicket of corn-tinted hair, which
was usually damp at the ends, and curled flat against
his forehead. He seemed to be always in a slight
perspiration he had been, anyway, every
time Selwyn met him anywhere.
Sandon Craig and Billy Fleetwood came
wandering up and joined them; one or two other men,
drifting by, adhered to the group.
Selwyn, involved in small talk, glanced
sideways at the great clock, and gathered himself
together for departure.
Fleetwood was saying to Craig:
“Certainly it was a stiff game Bradley,
myself, Gerald Erroll, Mrs. Delmour-Carnes, and the
Ruthvens.”
“Were you hit?” asked Craig, interested.
“No; about even. Gerald
got it good and plenty, though. The Ruthvens
were ahead as usual ”
Selwyn, apparently hearing nothing,
quietly rose and stepped out of the circle, paused
to set fire to a cigarette, and then strolled off toward
the visitors’ room, where Gerald was now due.
Fane stretched his neck, looking curiously
after him. Then he said to Fleetwood: “Why
begin to talk about Mrs. Ruthven when our friend yonder
is about? Rotten judgment you show, Billy.”
“Well, I clean forgot,”
said Fleetwood; “what did I say, anyway?
A man can’t always remember who’s divorced
from who in this town.”
Harmon, whose civility to Selwyn had
possibly been based on his desire for pleasant relations
with Austin Gerard and the Arickaree Loan and Trust
Company, looked at Fleetwood thoroughly vexed.
But nobody could have suspected vexation in that high-boned
smile which showed such very red lips through the
blond beard.
Fane, too, smiled; his prominent soft
brown eyes expressed gentlest good-humour, and he
passed his hand reflectively over his unusually small
and retreating chin. Perhaps he was thinking of
the meeting in the Park that morning. It was
amusing; but men do not speak of such things at their
clubs, no matter how amusing. Besides, if the
story were aired and were traced to him, Ruthven might
turn ugly. There was no counting on Ruthven.
Meanwhile Selwyn, perplexed and worried,
found young Erroll just entering the visitors’
room, and greeted him with nervous cordiality.
“If you can’t stay and
dine with me,” he said, “I won’t
put you down. You know, of course, I can only
ask you once in a year, so we’ll stay here and
chat a bit.”
“Right you are,” said
young Erroll, flinging off his very new and very fashionable
overcoat a wonderfully handsome boy, with
all the attraction that a quick, warm, impulsive manner
carries. “And I say, Selwyn, it was awfully
decent of you to ”
“Bosh! Friends are for
that sort of thing, Gerald. Sit here ”
He looked at the young man hesitatingly; but Gerald
calmly took the matter out of his jurisdiction by
nodding his order to the club attendant.
“Lord, but I’m tired,”
he said, sinking back into a big arm-chair; “I
was up till daylight, and then I had to be in the office
by nine, and to-night Billy Fleetwood is giving oh,
something or other. By the way, the market isn’t
doing a thing to the shorts! You’re not
in, are you, Selwyn?”
“No, not that way. I hope
you are not, either; are you, Gerald?”
“Oh, it’s all right,”
replied the young fellow confidently; and raising
his glass, he nodded at Selwyn with a smile.
“You were mighty nice to me,
anyhow,” he said, setting his glass aside and
lighting a cigar. “You see, I went to a
dance, and after a while some of us cleared out, and
Jack Ruthven offered us trouble; so half a dozen of
us went there. I had the worst cards a man ever
drew to a kicker. That was all about it.”
The boy was utterly unconscious that
he was treading on delicate ground as he rattled on
in his warmhearted, frank, and generous way. Totally
oblivious that the very name of Ruthven must be unwelcome
if not offensive to his listener, he laughed through
a description of the affair, its thrilling episodes,
and Mrs. Jack Ruthven’s blind luck in the draw.
“One moment,” interrupted
Selwyn, very gently; “do you mind saying whether
you banked my check and drew against it?”
“Why, no; I just endorsed it over.”
“To to whom? if I may
venture ”
“Certainly,” he said,
with a laugh; “to Mrs. Jack ”
Then, in a flash, for the first time the boy realised
what he was saying, and stopped aghast, scarlet to
his hair.
Selwyn’s face had little colour
remaining in it, but he said very kindly: “It’s
all right, Gerald; don’t worry ”
“I’m a beast!” broke
out the boy; “I beg your pardon a thousand times.”
“Granted, old chap. But,
Gerald, may I say one thing or perhaps two?”
“Go ahead! Give it to me good and plenty!”
“It’s only this:
couldn’t you and I see one another a little oftener?
Don’t be afraid of me; I’m no wet blanket.
I’m not so very aged, either; I know something
of the world I understand something of men.
I’m pretty good company, Gerald. What do
you say?”
“I say, sure!” cried the boy warmly.
“It’s a go, then.
And one thing more: couldn’t you manage
to come up to the house a little oftener? Everybody
misses you, of course; I think your sister is a trifle
sensitive ”
“I will!” said Gerald,
blushing. “Somehow I’ve had such a
lot on hand all day at the office, and
something on every evening. I know perfectly
well I’ve neglected Eily and everybody.
But the first moment I can find free ”
Selwyn nodded. “And last
of all,” he said, “there’s something
about my own affairs that I thought you might advise
me on.”
Gerald, proud, enchanted, stood very
straight; the older man continued gravely:
“I’ve a little capital
to invest not very much. Suppose and
this, I need not add, is in confidence between us suppose
I suggested to Mr. Neergard ”
“Oh,” cried young Erroll,
delighted, “that is fine! Neergard would
be glad enough. Why, we’ve got that Valleydale
tract in shape now, and there are scores of schemes
in the air scores of them important
moves which may mean anything!” he
ended, excitedly.
“Then you think it would be
all right in case Neergard likes the idea?”
Gerald was enthusiastic. After
a while they shook hands, it being time to separate.
And for a long time Selwyn sat there alone in the visitors’
room, absent-eyed, facing the blazing fire of cannel
coal.
How to be friends with this boy without
openly playing the mentor; how to gain his confidence
without appearing to seek it; how to influence him
without alarming him! No; there was no great harm
in him yet; only the impulse of inconsiderate youth;
only an enthusiastic capacity for pleasure.
One thing was imperative the
boy must cut out his card-playing for stakes at once;
and there was a way to accomplish that by impressing
Gerald with the idea that to do anything behind Neergard’s
back which he would not care to tell him about was
a sort of treachery.
Who were these people, anyway, who
would permit a boy of that age, and in a responsible
position, to play for such stakes? Who were they
to encourage such ?
Selwyn’s tightening grasp on
his chair suddenly relaxed; he sank back, staring
at the brilliant coals. He, too, had forgotten.
Now he remembered, in humiliation
unspeakable, in bitterness past all belief.
Time sped, and he sat there, motionless;
and gradually the bitterness became less perceptible
as he drifted, intent on drifting, back through the
exotic sorcery of dead years back into the
sun again, where honour was bright and life was young where
all the world awaited happy conquest where
there was no curfew in the red evening glow; no end
to day, because the golden light had turned to silver;
but where the earliest hint of dawn was a challenge,
and where every yellow star whispered “Awake!”
And out of the magic she had come into his
world again!
Sooner or later he would meet her
now. That was sure. When? Where?
And of what significance was it, after all?
Whom did it concern? Him?
Her? And what had he to say to her, after all?
Or she to him?
Not one word.
About midnight he roused himself and
picked up his hat and coat.
“Do you wish a cab, please?”
whispered the club servant who held his coat; “it
is snowing very hard, sir.”