“I love the Lord, because
he hath heard my voice
and my supplications.” Psalm
116:1.
When a very little child, so
young I can remember nothing earlier, a severe thunderstorm
passed over our home. Terrified, I ran to my mother,
who placed my hands together, and pointing upward repeated
over and over again the one word “Jesus.”
More than fifty years have passed
since that day, but the impression left upon my child-mind,
of a Being invisible but able to hear and help, has
never been effaced.
The most precious recollections of
early childhood are associated with stories told us
by our mother, many of which illustrated the power
of prayer.
One that made a specially deep impression
upon me was about our grandfather, who as a little
boy went to visit cousins in the south of England,
their home being situated close to a dense forest.
One day the children, lured by the beautiful wild
flowers, became hopelessly lost in the woods.
After trying in vain to find a way out, the eldest,
a young girl, called the frightened, crying little
ones around her and said: “When mother
died she told us to always tell Jesus if we were in
any trouble. Let us kneel down, and ask him to
take us home.”
They knelt, and as she prayed one
of the little ones opened his eyes, to find a bird
so close to his hand that he reached out for it.
The bird hopped away, but kept so close to the child
as to lead him on. Soon all were joining in the
chase after the bird, which flew or hopped in front
or just above, and sometimes on the ground almost within
reach. Then suddenly it flew into the air and
away. The children looked up to find themselves
on the edge of the woods and in sight of home.
With such influences bearing upon
one at an impressionable age, it is not surprising
that I came even as a very little child to just “tell
Jesus” when in trouble.
Through the mists of memory one incident
comes out clearly, which occurred when I was six or
seven years of age. While playing one day in
the garden, I was seized with what we then called “jumping”
toothache. I ran to my mother for comfort, but
nothing she could do seemed to ease the pain.
The nerve must have become exposed,
for the pain was acute. Suddenly I thought, “Jesus
can help me,” and just as I was, with my face
pressed against my mother’s breast, I said in
my heart:
“Lord Jesus, if you will take
away this toothache right now, now, I will
be your little girl for three years.”
Before the prayer was well uttered
the pain was entirely gone. I believed that Jesus
had taken it away; and the result was that for years,
when tempted to be naughty, I was afraid to do what
I knew was wrong lest, if I broke my side of what
I felt to be a compact, the toothache would return.
This little incident had a real influence over my
early life, gave me a constant sense of the reality
of a divine presence, and so helped to prepare me
for the public confession of Christ as my Saviour
a few years later, at the age of eleven.
About a year after my confession of
Christ an incident occurred which greatly strengthened
my faith, and led me to look to God as a Father in
a new way.
When Easter Sunday morning came it
was so warm only spring clothes could be worn.
My sister and I decided at breakfast that we would
not go to church, as we had only our old winter dresses.
Going to my room, I turned to my Bible to study it,
when it opened at the sixth chapter of Matthew, and
my eye rested on these words: “Why take
ye thought for raiment . . . seek ye first the kingdom
of God, and all these things shall be added unto you.”
It was as if God spoke the words directly
to me. I determined to go to church, even if
I had to humiliate myself by going in my old winter
dress. The Lord was true to his promise; I can
still feel the power the resurrection messages had
upon my heart that day so long ago. And further,
on the following day a box came from a distant aunt,
containing not only new dresses but much else that
might well be included in the “all these things.”
An unforgetable proof of God’s
loving care came to us as a family about this time,
when my parents were face to face with a serious financial
crisis. Isaiah 65:24 was literally fulfilled:
“Before they call, I will answer; and while
they are yet speaking, I will hear.”
At that time, it is necessary to state,
we depended on a quarterly income, which came through
my mother’s lawyer in England. Unusual
circumstances had so drained our resources that we
found ourselves, in the middle of the quarter, with
barely sufficient to meet a week’s needs.
My dear mother assured us that the Lord would provide;
that he would not forsake those who put their trust
in him. That very day a letter came from the
lawyer in England, enclosing a draft for a sum ample
to meet our needs till the regular remittance should
arrive. This unexpected and timely draft proved
to be a bonus, which did not occur again.
Some years later, having moved to
a strange city, a great longing came to do some definite
service for my Master. One day there came to the
Bible class I attended a call for teachers, to aid
in a Sunday-school near by. When I presented
myself before the superintendent of this Sunday-school
the following Sunday, and offered my services, it is
not much wonder I received a rebuff, for I was young
and quite unknown. I was told that if I wished
a class, it would be well for me to find my own scholars.
I can remember how a lump seemed choking me all the
way home that day.
At last, determining not to be baffled,
I prayed the Lord to help me get some scholars.
I went forth praying every step of the way, the following
Saturday afternoon; and canvassing just one short street
near our home, I received the promise of nineteen
children for Sunday-school. The next day a rather
victorious young woman walked up to the Sunday-school
superintendent with seventeen children following.
Needless to say I was given a class.
In the autumn of 1885 the Toronto
Mission Union, a faith mission, decided to establish
a branch mission in the East End slums of that city.
Three others with myself were deputed to open this
work. Everything connected with it was entirely
new to me; but most helpful and inspiring I found
it. For in face of tremendous difficulties, that
seemed to my inexperienced eyes insurmountable, I learned
that prayer was the secret which overcame every obstacle,
the key that unlocked every closed door.
I felt like a child learning a new
and wonderful lesson as I saw benches,
tables, chairs, stove, fuel, lamps, oil, even an organ,
coming in answer to definite prayer for these things.
But best sight of all was when men and women, deep
in sin, were converted and changed into workers for
God, in answer to prayer. Praise God for the lessons
then learned, which were invaluable later when facing
the heathen.
The time came when two diverse paths
lay before me one to England, as an artist;
one to China, as a missionary. Circumstances made
a definite decision most difficult. I thought
I had tried every means to find out God’s will
for me, and no light had come.
But in a day of great trouble, when
my precious mother’s very life seemed to hang
in the balance, I shut myself up with God’s Word,
praying definitely for him to guide me to some passage
by which I might know his will for my life. My
Bible opening at the fifteenth chapter of John’s
Gospel, the sixteenth verse seemed to come as a message
to me: “Ye have not chosen me, but I have
chosen you, and ordained you, that ye should go and
bring forth fruit.” Going to my dear mother
and telling her of the message God had given me, she
said: “I dare not fight against God.”
From that time the last hindrance
from going to China was removed. Surely the wonderful
way God has kept his child for more than thirty years
in China is proof that this “call” was
not a mistaken one. “In all thy ways acknowledge
him, and he will make plain thy paths” (Prov
3: 6, marg.).
During the summer of 1887 a book written
by Dr. Hudson Taylor came into my hands. In “China’s
Spiritual Needs and Claims” the writer told many
instances of God’s gracious provision in answer
to prayer. The incidents related impressed me
deeply. A little later, a few weeks before my
marriage, when I found I was short fifty dollars of
what I would need to be married free of debt, I resolved
not to let others know of my need, but to just trust
God to send it to me. The thought came if
you cannot trust God for this, when Hudson Taylor
could trust for so much more, are you worthy to be
a missionary?
It was my first experience of trusting
quite alone for money. I was sorely tempted to
give others just a hint of my need. But I was
kept back from doing so; and though I had a week or
more of severe testing, peace of mind and the assurance
that God would supply my need, came at length.
The answer, however, did not come till the very last
night before the wedding.
That evening a number of my fellow-workers
from the East End Mission called, and presented me
with a beautifully illuminated address and a purse.
After these friends had left I returned to my home
circle assembled in the back parlor, and showed them
the address and the purse unopened! Not for a
moment did I think there was anything in the purse
till my brother said: “You foolish girl,
why don’t you open it?” I opened the purse,
and found it contained a check for fifty dollars!
This incident has ever remained peculiarly
precious; for it seemed to us a seal of God upon the
new life opening before us.