’So
flesh
Conjures tempest-flails to
thresh
Good from worthless.
Some clear lamps
Light it; more of dead marsh-damps.’
GEORGE MEREDITH.
Through the black, slow hours Betty
stared with wide unswerving eyes at the other arm-chair.
On one of its arms lay a pipe, on the other a half-finished
drawing. Between them, it was strange how Tommy
sat, drawing, with face bent down, saying nothing.
His presence grew, till the loneliness of the room
was conquered. How should it be lonely? It
held, as always, a companionship of two. As always,
one had only to look up to see the other. So
had all the past been; so would all the future be.
No other state was within the bounds of imagination.
As Betty once, at Baja by the sea, had looked up swiftly
and seen, for life and all it meant, all it contained,
herself and Tommy on warm sand, and a sand-castle
dotted with pumice-stone like a plum-pudding, and had
then been lit by a flash of vivid insight, of great
certainty; so now she came, by slower steps, through
the black night to the same realization. For
it was after all a thing always known, if unexpressed,
this companionship of two which should endure, stronger
than death, surer than the thing called love, failing
nowhere. It had been from the dawn of the days.
To the further north there lay, in
sunshine, a little warm bay of blue sea, and a Ligurian
fishing-city, pink and yellow and white and green,
was set curving round it Santa Caterina,
of deep stone-paved streets, where odours dwelt of
roasting coffee, and drying fish, and cheese, and
drains, and tar, and the breath of the brown seaweed,
and of the nets that had drawn in shoals of bianchetti
at daybreak, and lay through the day drying on the
hot sands.
A town of people most companionable,
who played a kind of croquet (it is more amusing than
ordinary croquet; you kneel in the road, and use boards
for mallets) in the piazzas, and along the dusty roads
where the white walls shaded them; who sat and talked
outside the church on Sunday mornings, while their
women tied their handkerchiefs over their heads and
went in to Mass. During Mass the sweetness of
the church smothered the saltness of the sea, but
when the church-goers came out again into the hot
piazza the sea’s breath caught theirs, stealing
up to meet them, calling most insistently, through
deep little arches, that framed blue glimpses like
pictures in a row. Going down on to the shore it
lay just outside the stone streets one
saw how, from the point of Savona in the west, across
to the white gleaming of Genoa, the city of ships,
all the blue bay stretched. Down by the tideless
still edge of it a white canoe with a red stripe waited a
canoe for two (but it held five quite nicely, if some
one sat astride on each end, so that its owners, being
sociably inclined, sometimes took parties of friends).
In the canoe the owners came to Mass,
from their house at the very end of the long town,
well outside the stone streets, with a stretch of
white dusty road to be traversed, unless they took
the sea-way. Paddling back across the bay, the
canoe landed beneath a little square, dark red house,
with green shutters and a wide veranda and a small
sweet-smelling garden of close-crowded flowers roses
and tall lilies and evening primroses; and for the
trees, oranges and lemons, pomegranates, and fragrant
eucalyptus, and fluttering bamboos, with vine trellises
overhead. The house stood literally on the seashore,
so that when the waves were high they came in through
the green iron bars of the gate and washed the growing
things with brine. On one memorable occasion they
flowed in through the basement windows; the exultant
household then went downstairs and floated about on
tubs.
Inside, the house was artistic, in
an unconventional way of its own; its owner had been
called an eccentric of genius. He had been a lovable
person, wrapped in his own thoughts and his own work,
giving his children most of the things it occurred
to them to demand, spoiling them entirely, and leaving
them for the rest to shift for themselves, which they
did, with infinite enjoyment, on the sea and on the
hills, and chiefly in the companionable streets of
the town, where they played in the piazza and talked
in the farmacia, and loved many friends, and
learnt the art of how to be happy though doing nothing.
No one inquired after their movements,
except on occasional mornings when it occurred to
the master of the house that he would teach them something.
Even then they had all the hot afternoons and long,
still evenings for their own, with a warm, happy,
gay world to play in, with rocks half a mile up the
shore, where the white canoe paddled about and turned
over suddenly in the warm water (one then navigated
it upside down, which was quite as agreeable), with
the cheerful town waiting always; and just behind
the house steep hills of silver olive-gardens, walling
the bay from the trans-Apennine winds.
Climbing the stony paths that led
straight up from the stone streets of the town, one
passed through gardens of oranges and sweet-smelling
lemons and long vineyards, and above the grey olive
terraces and chestnut woods, to the place of rocks
and dark cypresses and green stone-pines. Up
there was a little lake of deep green water, with red
pine-bark lying in heaps by the edge, so that one made
boats and raced them across.
Thus, however much the Crevequers
enjoyed the kind, gay and amusing world and
they enjoyed it, as a rule, tremendously they
were always aware that there was a better place waiting
for them. Some day they meant to go back there
for good, in the days of repose that age should bring
them, and live together in the house beyond the long
town (it belonged to them; they had little other heritage),
and cross the bay in the canoe with the red stripe,
that lay in the basement now and horribly needed caulking,
and land on the beach below the little city, and go
up to Mass in Sant’ Ambrogio, and afterwards
play games in the piazza and sit outside the parrucchiere’s
in the sun.
They had left Santa Caterina ten years
ago; a sudden pricking of duty had come to the hermit
of the red house; his obedience to it had, as Mrs.
Venables said, cost him his life shortly afterwards.
Three most forlorn things Betty had
in her memory, following on each other: the leaving
of Santa Caterina, Tommy’s going away to school,
and the death, a year later, of the careless, indulgent
eccentric. At the first and last she and Tommy
had wept together pitifully; at the middle tragedy
of the three the iron had entered into her soul, too
deep for tears. It had mattered infinitely most.
But there had been, through those
four years, the holidays holidays mostly
spent in an untrammelled and lawless liberty in London,
with a light-hearted and irresponsible old Irish gentleman,
their grandfather. It was in those days that
they learnt to love the glamour of a great city.
London they had known, as they now knew Naples, with
a vagabond intimacy for the most part denied to the
children of their class. The gamin strain that
seemed innate in their blood was developed and strengthened
thus.
Part of these years had been spent
with a family of cousins in a country vicarage.
The memory of this portion of their career still lay
like a heavy load on the Crevequers’ consciousness.
The atmosphere an atmosphere, one would
think, of fairly ordinary respectability had
not till then come their way. They stifled under
it. No one in the household but themselves was
in the least degree foolish, and they, being frankly
babyish, and quite disreputable in their tastes, were
more than ever driven to one another, facing the rest
of the world hand-in-hand, hopelessly recognizing
the impossibility of explanations, hopelessly failing
to arrive at any perception of the civilized and usual
code. It was to them merely an oppression, but
from the oppression each had the other to fall back
upon, and they were content. But, notwithstanding
the smothering weight of civilization, they had always,
even in those days, got on extremely amicably with
the world in general. The failure to achieve
friendship had not entered into their view of life
as it was lived by them. That was a thing they
had had to learn later, and at first with blank non-comprehension.
The little of decency that had in
these days penetrated into them no one
can quite escape the impress of the educative years had
during their life in Naples slipped quite out of sight.
In Naples they had entered into a feckless, laughing
world, where they had lived from hand to mouth, and
made friends in every street, and ’drifted about
the bottom.’ So drifting, they had been
still together. For that reason everything had
so greatly amused them; jests coming their way had,
in passing from the eyes of one to the eyes of the
other, acquired an overpowering humour; the world
had been a merry playroom for two. Any friend
made by one of them had been introduced, as a matter
of course, into a three-cornered party; no other way
could ever have occurred to either.
And now, out of life the crucible,
immutable values seemed to evolve themselves.
That story which Tommy had found so tedious on the
beach at Baja had been fulfilling itself of late.
Life had truly proved a furnace, whose pitiless flames
melted one’s bright metal and horribly burnt
one’s hands.
Those who in the end emerged from
that furnace would certainly know their metal for
what it was. Betty, still in the flames, could
look ahead: she saw with increasing clearness
the result of that testing and the gold that would
remain gold that could not, by any alchemy
of newly acquired knowledge, be proved base.
But if one lost that gold, then life the
essential interpretation of it would end
there. It were better that the name of it the
poor kernelless shell should be swiftly
crushed too. It would, no doubt, find itself
crushed somehow before long, because no continuance
of it was in the least degree imaginable. One
cannot separate two lives so tied together.
So, through the slow hours, life resolved
itself into certainties, that rose like sharp rocks
out of the mists of doubt. With their increasing
clearness of outline, the emptiness of the other arm-chair
became a jarring outrage; it was as if, to one who
has learnt to say, ’This one thing matters,
this one thing I must have,’ the curt reply is
flung, ‘This one thing for the present you must
go lacking.’ The solitude became an offence,
insupportable, oppressive.
Betty horribly wanted Tommy; it seemed
that she had never wanted anything else, so the slow
hours had stretched.
Between two and three the city shook
with a stronger motion, more violent and prolonged.
In the streets buildings must surely be falling....
Betty went out to see.
Others, too, had gone out, fleeing
from the danger of roofs and walls, or merely seeking
companionship in blind fear. The streets were
thronged; the churches were full of praying and crying.
The carabinieri and the guardie municipali
kept order as best they could among a crowd on the
verge of hysteria. Here and there trooped in file
homeless peasants from the ruined villages, their possessions
bound on their backs or the backs of their beasts.
From the comments tossed about one might infer this
disaster to be probably the work of the good God or
of the Evil One, or merely the spontaneous freakish
rage of the eternally cursed mountain. Each view
had its adherents.
Betty, at a street corner, ran into
Luli. Like all the others, he was a shadow to
her, a shadow to whom she said:
‘Have you seen Tommy?’
He had not seen Tommy; he walked with
her, helping her to look for Tommy; he was to her
a shadow moving at her side, who spoke and was answered
nothing. His speaking was:
’How should we find him to-night?
It’s hopeless. He’ll turn up all right
in the morning; there’s nothing to be frightened
about.’
It was irrelevant; Betty heard it
as from a great distance; she was looking for Tommy looking
for him at street corners, going up steep climbing
vicoli and down again, searching all the faces
in the crowd. The shadow kept patiently at her
side, with a shrug for the folly of it. The storm
and the earthquake had certainly dazed her, set her
wits wandering; he advised her many times to go home
and sleep, since the shocks were now over and would
very likely not recur.
‘Tommy may be home by now,’ the shadow
said.
Betty shook her head; she knew that
in the dim room nothing stirred but the flickering
lamp. She looked for Tommy.
Out of the Toledo they came into the
Piazza del Plebiscito, and so down
the Strada del Gigante to Santa Lucia by
the sea, where Tommy was so often, but was not now.
Looking from Santa Lucia across the black bay, they
saw the blazing game that the fiery cone was still
playing untired; the earth’s groaning sounded
above the sweeping of the shaken sea.
Into the town they plunged again,
Betty and the protesting shadow, who wanted to go
to bed. The storm had dropped; upon the wind of
dawn came the red rain of the cinders, the black clouds
of the dust, blinding and choking. Behind these
the grey morning grew; a dim day broke slowly on the
tired, shaken city.
Since he could not prevail on Betty
to go home, Luli went home himself; he could not walk
the streets all night looking for Tommy, who was, no
doubt, well amused somewhere.
‘It isn’t a fit night
for you to be out,’ he told Betty, ’but
I am falling asleep: I must have rest. What
would you have? You’d much better go home
too.’
So they parted.
Betty took to going into all the churches
she came to, to see if Tommy was there. She would
sit down by the door and look at the praying people the
churches were thronged to-night and dreamily
wander into hazy speculations, soothed by the chanting
voices and the sweet, heavy air, till she woke with
a start, and so out again into the dim city, where
the ashes came riding on the east wind like rain.
Once a carabiniere asked her
where she was going, why she walked alone so in the
disturbed city. She said:
’I am looking for my brother.
Have you seen him? He is like me, only he carries
a sketch-book and a pencil; and what do you suppose
is likely to have happened to him?’
The carabiniere conveyed by
a shrug that he could not say.
’But something is more likely
to happen to you. It’s a bad night to be
walking in the town. All kinds of ruffians are
about.’
That, being irrelevant, Betty did not hear.
It was strange how every one was abroad
in Naples to-night. In the Piazza Sant’
Angelo, a little after five o’clock, Betty met
Warren Venables. She said to him:
‘Help me, please, to find Tommy.’
He looked gently at her they
had hurt one another so badly that nothing but gentleness
seemed possible between them now and divined
(it was a fresh hurt to him) how entirely he was a
shadow to her; how the world was a crowded shadow-land,
through which she moved alone, seeking the one reality,
her other self. His discernment let him realize
how all things but one must have slipped away through
the wild hours of the night. He knew it by her
wide, unseeing eyes, her strained, sallow face, the
mechanic words, which were her only greeting.
He was glad to be able to do her at least this service;
he was glad to be at her side, taking care of her,
though it might be only as an unnoticed shadow.
It was in his mind, but not in hers, how she had not
long since begged him not to see her any more.
He said gently:
‘You’re tired; you must go home.
Tommy is all right.’
She said:
‘I want Tommy. Help me, please, to find
Tommy.’
He walked at her side, through the
rain of the dust, which lay thick on the streets and
gritted underfoot as they walked. Neither ever
forgot that harsh gritting, or the sulphurous breath
of that dim dawn. It hurt them both in memory
for always.
There is a narrow alley which leads
up out of the Strada San Biagio, climbing a little.
They went up it Betty neglected no street and
there they found Tommy.
Some scaffolding had fallen, tossed
down by the storm or the earthquake, in a corner where
no one passed. Tommy lay with his face to the
street, his sketch-book clutched in the hand of one
flung-out arm, the other arm pinned to his side, with
a twelve-foot plank across his back and two poles
across his legs. Tommy and the scaffolding both
wore a coat an inch deep of black dust.
Venables lifted away the plank:
it took most of his strength; then he moved the poles.
Then he turned Tommy over very gently, and the black
dust drifted down on to the upturned face. Betty
raised it on to her lap and shielded it with her two
hands, saying always, and not knowing what she said:
‘Tommy Tommy Tommy.’
Venables said:
‘I will fetch help. I will be as quick
as I can.’
She looked at him with unseeing eyes.
He paused a moment, then turned and left her, slipping
away into the shadows, one of a world of shadows,
leaving those two alone together, as, for her, they
had been alone together through all the long night.
She looked down into her lap, and
made a shield of her two hands, and muttered:
‘Tommy Tommy.’