“O’ ever the knightly years
were gone
With the old world to the
grave,
I was a king in Babylon
And you were a Christian slave.”
W. E. Henley.
His name was Charlie Mears; he was
the only son of his mother who was a widow, and he
lived in the north of London, coming into the City
every day to work in a bank. He was twenty years
old and suffered from aspirations. I met him
in a public billiard-saloon where the marker called
him by his given name, and he called the marker “Bulls-eyes.”
Charley explained, a little nervously, that he had
only come to the place to look on, and since looking
on at games of skill is not a cheap amusement for
the young, I suggested that Charlie should go back
to his mother.
That was our first step toward better
acquaintance. He would call on me sometimes in
the evenings instead of running about London with his
fellow-clerks; and before long, speaking of himself
as a young man must, he told me of his aspirations,
which were all literary. He desired to make himself
an undying name chiefly through verse, though he was
not above sending stories of love and death to the
drop-a-penny-in-the-slot journals. It was my
fate to sit still while Charlie read me poems of many
hundred lines, and bulky fragments of plays that would
surely shake the world. My reward was his unreserved
confidence, and the self-revelations and troubles
of a young man are almost as holy as those of a maiden.
Charlie had never fallen in love, but was anxious to
do so on the first opportunity; he believed in all
things good and all things honorable, but, at the
same time, was curiously careful to let me see that
he knew his way about the world as befitted a bank
clerk on twenty-five shillings a week. He rhymed
“dove” with “love” and “moon”
with “June,” and devoutly believed that
they had never so been rhymed before. The long
lame gaps in his plays he filled up with hasty words
of apology and description and swept on, seeing all
that he intended to do so clearly that he esteemed
it already done, and turned to me for applause.
I fancy that his mother did not encourage
his aspirations, and I know that his writing-table
at home was the edge of his washstand. This he
told me almost at the outset of our acquaintance; when
he was ravaging my bookshelves, and a little before
I was implored to speak the truth as to his chances
of “writing something really great, you know.”
Maybe I encouraged him too much, for, one night, he
called on me, his eyes flaming with excitement, and
said breathlessly:
“Do you mind can
you let me stay here and write all this evening?
I won’t interrupt you, I won’t really.
There’s no place for me to write in at my mother’s.”
“What’s the trouble?”
I said, knowing well what that trouble was.
“I’ve a notion in my head
that would make the most splendid story that was ever
written. Do let me write it out here. It’s
such a notion!”
There was no resisting the appeal.
I set him a table; he hardly thanked me, but plunged
into the work at once. For half an hour the pen
scratched without stopping. Then Charlie sighed
and tugged his hair. The scratching grew slower,
there were more erasures, and at last ceased.
The finest story in the world would not come forth.
“It looks such awful rot now”
he said, mournfully. “And yet it seemed
so good when I was thinking about it. What’s
wrong?”
I could not dishearten him by saying
the truth. So I answered: “Perhaps
you don’t feel in the mood for writing.”
“Yes I do except when I look at this
stuff. Ugh!”
“Read me what you’ve done,”
I said. He read, and it was wondrous bad and
he paused at all the specially turgid sentences, expecting
a little approval; for he was proud of those sentences,
as I knew he would be.
“It needs compression,” I suggested, cautiously.
“I hate cutting my things down.
I don’t think you could alter a word here without
spoiling the sense. It reads better aloud than
when I was writing it.”
“Charlie, you’re suffering
from an alarming disease afflicting a numerous class.
Put the thing by, and tackle it again in a week.”
“I want to do it at once. What do you think
of it?”
“How can I judge from a half-written
tale? Tell me the story as it lies in your head.”
Charlie told, and in the telling there
was everything that his ignorance had so carefully
prevented from escaping into the written word.
I looked at him, and wondering whether it were possible,
that he did not know the originality, the power of
the notion that had come in his way? It was distinctly
a Notion among notions. Men had been puffed up
with pride by notions not a tithe as excellent and
practicable. But Charlie babbled on serenely,
interrupting the current of pure fancy with samples
of horrible sentences that he purposed to use.
I heard him out to the end. It would be folly
to allow his idea to remain in his own inept hands,
when I could do so much with it. Not all that
could be done indeed; but, oh so much!
“What do you think?” he
said, at last. “I fancy I shall call it
’The Story of a Ship.’”
“I think the idea’s pretty
good; but you won’t be able to handle it for
ever so long. Now I ”
“Would it be of any use to you?
Would you care to take it? I should be proud,”
said Charlie, promptly.
There are few things sweeter in this
world than the guileless, hot-headed, intemperate,
open admiration of a junior. Even a woman in
her blindest devotion does not fall into the gait of
the man she adores, tilt her bonnet to the angle at
which he wears his hat, or interlard her speech with
his pet oaths. And Charlie did all these things.
Still it was necessary to salve my conscience before
I possessed myself of Charlie’s thoughts.
“Let’s make a bargain.
I’ll give you a fiver for the notion,”
I said. Charlie became a bank-clerk at once.
“Oh, that’s impossible.
Between two pals, you know, if I may call you so,
and speaking as a man of the world, I couldn’t.
Take the notion if it’s any use to you.
I’ve heaps more.”
He had none knew this better
than I but they were the notions of other
men.
“Look at it as a matter of business-between
men of the world,” I returned. “Five
pounds will buy you any number of poetry-books.
Business is business, and you may be sure I shouldn’t
give that price unless ”
“Oh, if you put it that
way,” said Charlie, visibly moved by the thought
of the books. The bargain was clinched with an
agreement that he should at unstated intervals come
to me with all the notions that he possessed, should
have a table of his own to write at, and unquestioned
right to inflict upon me all his poems and fragments
of poems. Then I said, “Now tell me how
you came by this idea.”
“It came by itself.” Charlie’s
eyes opened a little.
“Yes, but you told me a great
deal about the hero that you must have read before
somewhere.”
“I haven’t any time for
reading, except when you let me sit here, and on Sundays
I’m on my bicycle or down the river all day.
There’s nothing wrong about the hero, is there?”
“Tell me again and I shall understand
clearly. You say that your hero went pirating.
How did he live?”
“He was on the lower deck of
this ship-thing that I was telling you about.”
“What sort of ship?”
“It was the kind rowed with
oars, and the sea spurts through the oar-holes and
the men row sitting up to their knees in water.
Then there’s a bench running down between the
two lines of oars and an overseer with a whip walks
up and down the bench to make the men work.”
“How do you know that?”
“It’s in the tale.
There’s a rope running overhead, looped to the
upper deck, for the overseer to catch hold of when
the ship rolls. When the overseer misses the
rope once and falls among the rowers, remember the
hero laughs at him and gets licked for it. He’s
chained to his oar of course the hero.”
“How is he chained?”
“With an iron band round his
waist fixed to the bench he sits on, and a sort of
handcuff on his left wrist chaining him to the oar.
He’s on the lower deck where the worst men are
sent, and the only light comes from the hatchways
and through the oar-holes. Can’t you imagine
the sunlight just squeezing through between the handle
and the hole and wobbling about as the ship moves?”
“I can, but I can’t imagine your imagining
it.”
“How could it be any other way?
Now you listen to me. The long oars on the upper
deck are managed by four men to each bench, the lower
ones by three, and the lowest of all by two.
Remember it’s quite dark on the lowest deck
and all the men there go mad. When a man dies
at his oar on that deck he isn’t thrown overboard,
but cut up in his chains and stuffed through the oar-hole
in little pieces.”
“Why?” I demanded, amazed,
not so much at the information as the tone of command
in which it was flung out.
“To save trouble and to frighten
the others. It needs two overseers to drag a
man’s body up to the top deck; and if the men
at the lower deck oars were left alone, of course
they’d stop rowing and try to pull up the benches
by all standing up together in their chains.”
“You’ve a most provident
imagination. Where have you been reading about
galleys and galley-slaves?”
“Nowhere that I remember.
I row a little when I get the chance. But, perhaps,
if you say so, I may have read something.”
He went away shortly afterward to
deal with booksellers, and I wondered how a bank clerk
aged twenty could put into my hands with a profligate
abundance of detail, all given with absolute assurance,
the story of extravagant and bloodthirsty adventure,
riot, piracy, and death in unnamed seas. He had
led his hero a desperate dance through revolt against
the overseas, to command of a ship of his own, and
ultimate establishment of a kingdom on an island “somewhere
in the sea, you know”; and, delighted with my
paltry five pounds, had gone out to buy the notions
of other men, that these might teach him how to write.
I had the consolation of knowing that this notion
was mine by right of purchase, and I thought that
I could make something of it.
When next he came to me he was drunk royally
drunk on many poets for the first time revealed to
him. His pupils were dilated, his words tumbled
over each other, and he wrapped himself in quotations.
Most of all was he drunk with Longfellow.
“Isn’t it splendid?
Isn’t it superb?” he cried, after hasty
greetings. “Listen to this
“‘Wouldst thou,’ so
the helmsman answered,
’Know the secret of
the sea?
Only those who brave its dangers
Comprehend its mystery.’
By gum!
“’Only those who brave its
dangers
Comprehend its mystery.’”
he repeated twenty times, walking
up and down the room and forgetting me. “But
I can understand it too,” he said to himself.
“I don’t know how to thank you for that
fiver. And this; listen
“’I remember the black wharves
and the ships
And the sea-tides tossing
free,
And the Spanish sailors with bearded lips,
And the beauty and mystery of the ships,
And the magic of the sea.’
“I haven’t braved any
dangers, but I feel as if I knew all about it.”
“You certainly seem to have
a grip of the sea. Have you ever seen it?”
“When I was a little chap I
went to Brighton once; we used to live in Coventry,
though, before we came to London. I never saw
it,
’When descends on the Atlantic
The gigantic
Storm-wind of the Equinox.’”
He shook me by the shoulder to make
me understand the passion that was shaking himself.
“When that storm comes,”
he continued, “I think that all the oars in
the ship that I was talking about get broken, and the
rowers have their chests smashed in by the bucking
oar-heads. By the way, have you done anything
with that notion of mine yet?”
“No. I was waiting to hear
more of it from you. Tell me how in the world
you re so certain about the fittings of the ship.
You know nothing of ships.”
“I don’t know. It’s
as real as anything to me until I try to write it
down. I was thinking about it only last night
in bed, after you had loaned me ‘Treasure Island’;
and I made up a a whole lot of new things to go into
the story.”
“What sort of things?”
“About the food the men ate;
rotten figs and black beans and wine in a skin bag,
passed from bench to bench.”
“Was the ship built so long ago as that?”
“As what? I don’t
know whether it was long ago or not. It’s
only a notion, but sometimes it seems just as real
as if it was true. Do I bother you with talking
about it?”
“Not in the least. Did you make up anything
else?”
“Yes, but it’s nonsense.” Charlie
flushed a little.
“Never mind; let’s hear about it.”
“Well, I was thinking over the
story, and after awhile I got out of bed and wrote
down on a piece of paper the sort of stuff the men
might be supposed to scratch on their oars with the
edges of their handcuffs. It seemed to make the
thing more lifelike. It is so real to me, y’know.”
“Have you the paper on you?”
“Ye es, but
what’s the use of showing it? It’s
only a lot of scratches. All the same, we might
have ’em reproduced in the book on the front
page.”
“I’ll attend to those details. Show
me what your men wrote.”
He pulled out of his pocket a sheet
of note-paper, with a single line of scratches upon
it, and I put this carefully away.
“What is it supposed to mean in English?”
I said.
“Oh, I don’t know.
Perhaps it means ‘I’m beastly tired.’
It’s great nonsence,” he repeated, “but
all those men in the ship seem as real people to me.
Do do something to the notion soon; I should like to
see it written and printed.”
“But all you’ve told me would make a long
book.”
“Make it then. You’ve only to sit
down and write it out.”
“Give me a little time. Have you any more
notions?”
“Not just now. I’m reading all the
books I’ve bought. They’re splendid.”
When he had left I looked at the sheet
of note-paper with the inscription upon it. Then
I took my head tenderly between both hands, to make
certain that it was not coming off or turning round.
Then... but there seemed to be no interval between
quitting my rooms and finding myself arguing with
a policeman outside a door marked Private in a corridor
of the British Museum. All I demanded, as politely
as possible, was “the Greek antiquity man.”
The policeman knew nothing except the rules of the
Museum, and it became necessary to forage through all
the houses and offices inside the gates. An elderly
gentleman called away from his lunch put an end to
my search by holding the note-paper between finger
and thumb and sniffing at it scornfully.
“What does this mean? H’mm,”
said he. “So far as I can ascertain it is
an attempt to write extremely corrupt Greek on the
part” here he glared at me with intention “of
an extremely illiterate-ah-person.” He read
slowly from the paper, “Pollock, Erckman, Tauchnitz,
Henniker” four names familiar to
me.
“Can you tell me what the corruption
is supposed to mean the gist of the thing?”
I asked.
“I have been many
times overcome with weariness in this particular
employment. That is the meaning.” He
returned me the paper, and I fled without a word of
thanks, explanation, or apology.
I might have been excused for forgetting
much. To me of all men had been given the chance
to write the most marvelous tale in the world, nothing
less than the story of a Greek galley-slave, as told
by himself. Small wonder that his dreaming had
seemed real to Charlie. The Fates that are so
careful to shut the doors of each successive life behind
us had, in this case, been neglectful, and Charlie
was looking, though that he did not know, where never
man had been permitted to look with full knowledge
since Time began. Above all he was absolutely
ignorant of the knowledge sold to me for five pounds;
and he would retain that ignorance, for bank-clerks
do not understand metempsychosis, and a sound commercial
education does not include Greek. He would supply
me here I capered among the dumb gods of
Egypt and laughed in their battered faces with
material to make my tale sure so sure that
the world would hail it as an impudent and vamped
fiction. And I I alone would know that
it was absolutely and literally true. I I
alone held this jewel to my hand for the cutting and
polishing. Therefore I danced again among the
gods till a policeman saw me and took steps in my
direction.
It remained now only to encourage
Charlie to talk, and here there was no difficulty.
But I had forgotten those accursed books of poetry.
He came to me time after time, as useless as a surcharged
phonograph drunk on Byron, Shelley, or
Keats. Knowing now what the boy had been in his
past lives, and desperately anxious not to lose one
word of his babble, I could not hide from him my respect
and interest. He misconstrued both into respect
for the present soul of Charlie Mears, to whom life
was as new as it was to Adam, and interest in his
readings; and stretched my patience to breaking point
by reciting poetry not his own now, but
that of others. I wished every English poet blotted
out of the memory of mankind. I blasphemed the
mightiest names of song because they had drawn Charlie
from the path of direct narrative, and would, later,
spur him to imitate them; but I choked down my impatience
until the first flood of enthusiasm should have spent
itself and the boy returned to his dreams.
“What’s the use of my
telling you what I think, when these chaps wrote
things for the angels to read?” he growled, one
evening. “Why don’t you write something
like theirs?”
“I don’t think you’re
treating me quite fairly,” I said, speaking under
strong restraint.
“I’ve given you the story,”
he said, shortly replunging into “Lara.”
“But I want the details.”
“The things I make up about
that damned ship that you call a galley? They’re
quite easy. You can just make ’em up yourself.
Turn up the gas a little, I want to go on reading.”
I could have broken the gas globe
over his head for his amazing stupidity. I could
indeed make up things for myself did I only know what
Charlie did not know that he knew. But since the
doors were shut behind me I could only wait his youthful
pleasure and strive to keep him in good temper.
One minute’s want of guard might spoil a priceless
revelation: now and again he would toss his books
aside he kept them in my rooms, for his
mother would have been shocked at the waste of good
money had she seen them and launched into
his sea dreams. Again I cursed all the poets
of England. The plastic mind of the bank-clerk
had been overlaid, colored and distorted by that which
he had read, and the result as delivered was a confused
tangle of other voices most like the muttered song
through a City telephone in the busiest part of the
day.
He talked of the galley his
own galley had he but known it with illustrations
borrowed from the “Bride of Abydos.”
He pointed the experiences of his hero with quotations
from “The Corsair,” and threw in deep
and desperate moral reflections from “Cain”
and “Manfred,” expecting me to use them
all. Only when the talk turned on Longfellow
were the jarring cross-currents dumb, and I knew that
Charlie was speaking the truth as he remembered it.
“What do you think of this?”
I said one evening, as soon as I understood the medium
in which his memory worked best, and, before he could
expostulate read him the whole of “The Saga of
King Olaf!”
He listened open-mouthed, flushed
his hands drumming on the back of the sofa where he
lay, till I came to the Songs of Emar Tamberskelver
and the verse:
“Emar then, the arrow taking
From the loosened string,
Answered: ’That was Norway
breaking
‘Neath thy hand, O King.’”
He gasped with pure delight of sound.
“That’s better than Byron, a little,”
I ventured.
“Better? Why it’s true! How
could he have known?”
I went back and repeated:
“‘What was that?’ said
Olaf, standing
On the quarter-deck,
’Something heard I like the stranding
Of a shattered wreck.’”
“How could he have known how
the ships crash and the oars rip out and go z-zzp
all along the line? Why only the other night....
But go back please and read ‘The Skerry of Shrieks’
again.”
“No, I’m tired. Let’s talk.
What happened the other night?”
“I had an awful nightmare about
that galley of ours. I dreamed I was drowned
in a fight. You see we ran alongside another ship
in harbor. The water was dead still except where
our oars whipped it up. You know where I always
sit in the galley?” He spoke haltingly at first,
under a fine English fear of being laughed at.
“No. That’s news to me,” I
answered, meekly, my heart beginning to beat.
“On the fourth oar from the
bow on the right side on the upper deck. There
were four of us at the oar, all chained. I remember
watching the water and trying to get my handcuffs
off before the row began. Then we closed up on
the other ship, and all their fighting men jumped over
our bulwarks, and my bench broke and I was pinned
down with the three other fellows on top of me, and
the big oar jammed across our backs.”
“Well?” Charlie’s
eyes were alive and alight. He was looking at
the wall behind my chair.
“I don’t know how we fought.
The men were trampling all over my back, and I lay
low. Then our rowers on the left side tied
to their oars, you know began to yell and
back water. I could hear the water sizzle, and
we spun round like a cockchafer and I knew, lying where
I was, that there was a galley coming up bow-on, to
ram us on the left side. I could just lift up
my head and see her sail over the bulwarks. We
wanted to meet her bow to bow, but it was too late.
We could only turn a little bit because the galley
on our right had hooked herself on to us and stopped
our moving. Then, by gum! there was a crash!
Our left oars began to break as the other galley,
the moving one y’know, stuck her nose into them.
Then the lower-deck oars shot up through the deck-planking,
but first, and one of them jumped clean up into the
air and came down again close to my head.”
“How was that managed?”
“The moving galley’s bow
was plunking them back through their own oarholes,
and I could hear the devil of a shindy in the decks
below. Then her nose caught us nearly in the
middle, and we tilted sideways, and the fellows in
the right-hand galley unhitched their hooks and ropes,
and threw things on to our upper deck arrows,
and hot pitch or something that stung, and we went
up and up and up on the left side, and the right side
dipped, and I twisted my head round and saw the water
stand still as it topped the right bulwarks, and then
it curled over and crashed down on the whole lot of
us on the right side, and I felt it hit my back, and
I woke.”
“One minute, Charlie. When
the sea topped the bulwarks, what did it look like?”
I had my reasons for asking. A man of my acquaintance
had once gone down with a leaking ship in a still
sea, and had seen the water-level pause for an instant
ere it fell on the deck.
“It looked just like a banjo-string
drawn tight, and it seemed to stay there for years,”
said Charlie.
Exactly! The other man had said:
“It looked like a silver wire
laid down along the bulwarks, and I thought it was
never going to break.” He had paid everything
except the bare life for this little valueless piece
of knowledge, and I had traveled ten thousand weary
miles to meet him and take his knowledge at second
hand. But Charlie, the bank-clerk, on twenty-five
shillings a week, he who had never been out of sight
of a London omnibus, knew it all. It was no consolation
to me that once in his lives he had been forced to
die for his gains. I also must have died scores
of times, but behind me, because I could have used
my knowledge, the doors were shut.
“And then?” I said, trying to put away
the devil of envy.
“The funny thing was, though,
in all the mess I didn’t feel a bit astonished
or frightened. It seemed as if I’d been
in a good many fights, because I told my next man
so when the row began. But that cad of an overseer
on my deck wouldn’t unloose our chains and give
us a chance. He always said that we’d all
be set free after a battle, but we never were; We
never were.” Charlie shook his head mournfully.
“What a scoundrel!”
“I should say he was. He
never gave us enough to eat, and sometimes we were
so thirsty that we used to drink salt-water. I
can taste that salt-water still.”
“Now tell me something about
the harbor where the fight was fought.”
“I didn’t dream about
that. I know it was a harbor, though; because
we were tied up to a ring on a white wall and all
the face of the stone under water was covered with
wood to prevent our ram getting chipped when the tide
made us rock.”
“That’s curious.
Our hero commanded the galley? Didn’t he?”
“Didn’t he just!
He stood by the bows and shouted like a good ’un.
He was the man who killed the overseer.”
“But you were all drowned together,
Charlie, weren’t you?”
“I can’t make that fit
quite,” he said with a puzzled look. “The
galley must have gone down with all hands and yet
I fancy that the hero went on living afterward.
Perhaps he climbed into the attacking ship. I
wouldn’t see that, of course. I was dead,
you know.”
He shivered slightly and protested
that he could remember no more.
I did not press him further, but to
satisfy myself that he lay in ignorance of the workings
of his own mind, deliberately introduced him to Mortimer
Collins’s “Transmigration,” and gave
him a sketch of the plot before he opened the pages.
“What rot it all is!”
he said, frankly, at the end of an hour. “I
don’t understand his nonsense about the Red
Planet Mars and the King, and the rest of it.
Chuck me the Longfellow again.”
I handed him the book and wrote out
as much as I could remember of his description of
the sea-fight, appealing to him from time to time for
confirmation of fact or detail. He would answer
without raising his eyes from the book, as assuredly
as though all his knowledge lay before flint on the
printed page. I spoke under the normal key of
my voice that the current might not be broken, and
I know that he was not aware of what he was saying,
for his thoughts were out on the sea with Longfellow.
“Charlie,” I asked, “when
the rowers on the galleys mutinied how did they kill
their overseers?”
“Tore up the benches and brained
’em. That happened when a heavy sea was
running. An overseer on the lower deck slipped
from the centre plank and fell among the rowers.
They choked him to death against the side of the ship
with their chained hands quite quietly, and it was
too dark for the other overseer to see what had happened.
When he asked, he was pulled down too and choked,
and the lower deck fought their way up deck by deck,
with the pieces of the broken benches banging behind
’em. How they howled!”
“And what happened after that?”
“I don’t know. The
hero went away red hair and red beard and
all. That was after he had captured our galley,
I think.”
The sound of my voice irritated him,
and he motioned slightly with his left hand as a man
does when interruption jars.
“You never told me he was redheaded
before, or that he captured your galley,” I
said, after a discreet interval.
Charlie did not raise his eyes.
“He was as red as a red bear,”
said he, abstractedly. “He came from the
north; they said so in the galley when he looked for
rowers not slaves, but free men. Afterward years
and years afterward news came from another
ship, or else he came back ”
His lips moved in silence. He was rapturously
retasting some poem before him.
“Where had he been, then?”
I was almost whispering that the sentence might come
gentle to whichever section of Charlie’s brain
was working on my behalf.
“To the Beaches the
Long and Wonderful Beaches!” was the reply, after
a minute of silence.
“To Furdurstrandi?” I asked, tingling
from head to foot.
“Yes, to Furdurstrandi,”
he pronounced the word in a new fashion “And
I too saw ” The voice failed.
“Do you know what you have said?”
I shouted, incautiously.
He lifted his eyes, fully roused now.
“No!” he snapped. “I wish you’d
let a chap go on reading. Hark to this:
“’But Othere, the old sea
captain,
He neither paused nor stirred
Till the king listened, and
then
’Once more took up his
pen
And wrote down every word.
“’And to the King of the Saxons
In witness of the truth,
Raising his noble head,
He stretched his brown hand
and said,
“Behold this walrus tooth.”
By Jove, what chaps those must have
been, to go sailing all over the shop never knowing
where they’d fetch the land! Hah!”
“Charlie,” I pleaded,
“if you’ll only be sensible for a minute
or two I’ll make our hero in our tale every
inch as good as Othere.”
“Umph! Longfellow wrote
that poem. I don’t care about writing things
any more. I want to read.” He was thoroughly
out of tune now, and raging over my own ill-luck,
I left him.
Conceive yourself at the door of the
world’s treasure-house guarded by a child an
idle irresponsible child playing knuckle-bones on
whose favor depends the gift of the key, and you will
imagine one-half my torment. Till that evening
Charlie had spoken nothing that might not lie within
the experiences of a Greek galley-slave. But now,
or there was no virtue in books, he had talked of
some desperate adventure of the Vikings, of Thorfin
Karlsefne’s sailing to Wineland, which is America,
in the ninth or tenth century. The battle in
the harbor he had seen; and his own death he had described.
But this was a much more startling plunge into the
past. Was it possible that he had skipped half
a dozen lives and was then dimly remembering some
episode of a thousand years later? It was a maddening
jumble, and the worst of it was that Charlie Mears
in his normal condition was the last person in the
world to clear it up. I could only wait and watch,
but I went to bed that night full of the wildest imaginings.
There was nothing that was not possible if Charlie’s
detestable memory only held good.
I might rewrite the Saga of Thorfin
Karlsefne as it had never been written before, might
tell the story of the first discovery of America,
myself the discoverer. But I was entirely at Charlie’s
mercy, and so long as there was a three-and-six-penny
Bohn volume within his reach Charlie would not tell.
I dared not curse him openly; I hardly dared jog his
memory, for I was dealing with the experiences of a
thousand years ago, told through the mouth of a boy
of to-day; and a boy of to-day is affected by every
change of tone and gust of opinion, so that he lies
even when he desires to speak the truth.
I saw no more of him for nearly a
week. When next I met him it was in Gracechurch
Street with a billbook chained to his waist. Business
took him over London Bridge and I accompanied him.
He was very full of the importance of that book and
magnified it. As we passed over the Thames we
paused to look at a steamer’ unloading great
slabs of white and brown marble. A barge drifted
under the steamer’s stern and a lonely cow in
that barge bellowed. Charlie’s face changed
from the face of the bank-clerk to that of an unknown
and though he would not have believed this a
much shrewder man. He flung out his arm across
the parapet of the bridge, and laughing very loudly,
said:
“When they heard our
bulls bellow the Skroelings ran away!”
I waited only for an instant, but
the barge and the cow had disappeared under the bows
of the steamer before I answered.
“Charlie, what do you suppose are Skroelings?”
“Never heard of ’em before.
They sound like a new kind of seagull. What a
chap you are for asking questions!” he replied.
“I have to go to the cashier of the Omnibus
Company yonder. Will you wait for me and we can
lunch somewhere together? I’ve a notion
for a poem.”
“No, thanks. I’m
off. You’re sure you know nothing about
Skroelings?”
“Not unless he’s been
entered for the Liverpool Handicap.” He
nodded and disappeared in the crowd.
Now it is written in the Saga of Eric
the Red or that of Thorfin Karlsefne, that nine hundred
years ago when Karlsefne’s galleys came to Leif’s
booths, which Leif had erected in the unknown land
called Markland, which may or may not have been Rhode
Island, the Skroelings and the Lord He
knows who these may or may not have been came
to trade with the Vikings, and ran away because they
were frightened at the bellowing of the cattle which
Thorfin had brought with him in the ships. But
what in the world could a Greek slave know of that
affair? I wandered up and down among the streets
trying to unravel the mystery, and the more I considered
it, the more baffling it grew. One thing only
seemed certain and that certainty took away my breath
for the moment. If I came to full knowledge of
anything at all, it would not be one life of the soul
in Charlie Mears’s body, but half a dozen half
a dozen several and separate existences spent on blue
water in the morning of the world!
Then I walked round the situation.
Obviously if I used my knowledge I
should stand alone and unapproachable until all men
were as wise as myself. That would be something,
but manlike I was ungrateful. It seemed bitterly
unfair that Charlie’s memory should fail me
when I needed it most. Great Powers above I
looked up at them through the fog smoke did
the Lords of Life and Death know what this meant to
me? Nothing less than eternal fame of the best
kind; that comes from One, and is shared by one alone.
I would be content remembering Clive, I
stood astounded at my own moderation, with
the mere right to tell one story, to work out one
little contribution to the light literature of the
day. If Charlie were permitted full recollection
for one hour for sixty short minutes of
existences that had extended over a thousand years I
would forego all profit and honor from all that I
should make of his speech. I would take no share
in the commotion that would follow throughout the particular
corner of the earth that calls itself “the world.”
The thing should be put forth anonymously. Nay,
I would make other men believe that they had written
it. They would hire bull-hided self-advertising
Englishmen to bellow it abroad. Preachers would
found a fresh conduct of life upon it, swearing that
it was new and that they had lifted the fear of death
from all mankind. Every Orientalist in Europe
would patronize it discursively with Sanskrit and
Pali texts. Terrible women would invent unclean
variants of the men’s belief for the elevation
of their sisters. Churches and religions would
war over it. Between the hailing and re-starting
of an omnibus I foresaw the scuffles that would arise
among half a dozen denominations all professing “the
doctrine of the True Metempsychosis as applied to
the world and the New Era”; and saw, too, the
respectable English newspapers shying, like frightened
kine, over the beautiful simplicity of the tale.
The mind leaped forward a hundred two hundred a
thousand years. I saw with sorrow that men would
mutilate and garble the story; that rival creeds would
turn it upside down till, at last, the western world
which clings to the dread of death more closely than
the hope of life, would set it aside as an interesting
superstition and stampede after some faith so long
forgotten that it seemed altogether new. Upon
this I changed the terms of the bargain that I would
make with the Lords of Life and Death. Only let
me know, let me write, the story with sure knowledge
that I wrote the truth, and I would burn the manuscript
as a solemn sacrifice. Five minutes after the
last line was written I would destroy it all.
But I must be allowed to write it with absolute certainty.
There was no answer. The flaming
colors of an Aquarium poster caught my eye and I wondered
whether it would be wise or prudent to lure Charlie
into the hands of the professional mesmerist, and whether,
if he were under his power, he would speak of his
past lives. If he did, and if people believed
him... but Charlie would be frightened and flustered,
or made conceited by the interviews. In either
case he would begin to lie, through fear or vanity.
He was safest in my own hands.
“They are very funny fools,
your English,” said a voice at my elbow, and
turning round I recognized a casual acquaintance, a
young Bengali law student, called Grish Chunder, whose
father had sent him to England to become civilized.
The old man was a retired native official, and on an
income of five pounds a month contrived to allow his
son two hundred pounds a year, and the run of his
teeth in a city where he could pretend to be the cadet
of a royal house, and tell stories of the brutal Indian
bureaucrats who ground the faces of the poor.
Grish Chunder was a young, fat, full-bodied
Bengali dressed with scrupulous care in frock coat,
tall hat, light trousers and tan gloves. But
I had known him in the days when the brutal Indian
Government paid for his university education, and
he contributed cheap sedition to Sachi Durpan,
and intrigued with the wives of his schoolmates.
“That is very funny and very
foolish,” he said, nodding at the poster.
“I am going down to the Northbrook Club.
Will you come too?”
I walked with him for some time.
“You are not well,” he said. “What
is there in your mind? You do not talk.”
“Grish Chunder, you’ve
been too well educated to believe in a God, haven’t
you?”
“Oah, yes, here!
But when I go home I must conciliate popular superstition,
and make ceremonies of purification, and my women will
anoint idols.”
“And bang up tulsi and
feast the purohit, and take you back into caste
again and make a good khuttrj of you again,
you advanced social Free-thinker. And you’ll
eat desi food, and like it all, from the smell
in the courtyard to the mustard oil over you.”
“I shall very much like it,”
said Grish Chunder, unguardedly. “Once a
Hindu always a Hindu. But I like to
know what the English think they know.”
“I’ll tell you something
that one Englishman knows. It’s an old tale
to you.”
I began to tell the story of Charlie
in English, but Grish Chunder put a question in the
vernacular, and the history went forward naturally
in the tongue best suited for its telling. After
all it could never have been told in English.
Grish Chunder heard me, nodding from time to time,
and then came up to my rooms where I finished the tale.
“Beshak,” he said,
philosophically. “Lekin darwaza band hai.
(Without doubt, but the door is shut.) I have heard
of this remembering of previous existences among my
people. It is of course an old tale with us,
but, to happen to an Englishman a cow-fed
Malechk an outcast. By Jove,
that is most peculiar!”
“Outcast yourself, Grish Chunder!
You eat cow-beef every day. Let’s think
the thing over. The boy remembers his incarnations.”
“Does he know that?” said
Grish Chunder, quietly, swinging his legs as he sat
on my table. He was speaking in English now.
“He does not know anything.
Would I speak to you if he did? Go on!”
“There is no going on at all.
If you tell that to your friends they will say you
are mad and put it in the papers. Suppose, now,
you prosecute for libel.”
“Let’s leave that out
of the question entirely. Is there any chance
of his being made to speak?”
“There is a chance. Oah,
yes! But if he spoke it would mean that all this
world would end now instanto fall
down on your head. These things are not allowed,
you know. As I said, the door is shut.”
“Not a ghost of a chance?”
“How can there be? You
are a Christi-an, and it is forbidden to eat, in your
books, of the Tree of Life, or else you would never
die. How shall you all fear death if you all
know what your friend does not know that he knows?
I am afraid to be kicked, but I am not afraid to die,
because I know what I know. You are not afraid
to be kicked, but you are afraid to die. If you
were not, by God! you English would be all over the
shop in an hour, upsetting the balances of power,
and making commotions. It would not be good.
But no fear. He will remember a little and a little
less, and he will call it dreams. Then he will
forget altogether. When I passed my First Arts
Examination in Calcutta that was all in the cram-book
on Wordsworth. ‘Trailing clouds of glory,’
you know.”
“This seems to be an exception to the rule.”
“There are no exceptions to
rules. Some are not so hard-looking as others,
but they are all the same when you touch. If this
friend of yours said so-and-so and so-and-so, indicating
that he remembered all his lost lives, or one piece
of a lost life, he would not be in the bank another
hour. He would be what you called sack because
he was mad, and they would send him to an asylum for
lunatics. You can see that, my friend.”
“Of course I can, but I wasn’t
thinking of him. His name need never appear in
the story.”
“Ah! I see. That story
will never be written. You can try.”
“I am going to.”
“For your own credit and for the sake of money,
of course?”
“No. For the sake of writing the story.
On my honor that will be all.”
“Even then there is no chance.
You cannot play with the Gods. It is a very pretty
story now. As they say, Let it go on that I
mean at that. Be quick; he will not last long.”
“How do you mean?”
“What I say. He has never, so far, thought
about a woman.”
“Hasn’t he, though!” I remembered
some of Charlie’s confidences.
“I mean no woman has thought
about him. When that comes; bus hogya all
up! I know. There are millions of women here.
Housemaids, for instance.”
I winced at the thought of my story
being ruined by a housemaid. And yet nothing
was more probable.
Grish Chunder grinned.
“Yes also pretty
girls cousins of his house, and perhaps
not of his house. One kiss that he gives back
again and remembers will cure all this nonsense, or
else ”
“Or else what? Remember he does not know
that he knows.”
“I know that. Or else,
if nothing happens he will become immersed in the
trade and the financial speculations like the rest.
It must be so. You can see that it must be so.
But the woman will come first, I think.”
There was a rap at the door, and Charlie
charged in impetuously. He had been released
from office, and by the look in his eyes I could see
that he had come over for a long talk; most probably
with poems in his pockets. Charlie’s poems
were very wearying, but sometimes they led him to
talk about the galley.
Grish Chunder looked at him keenly for a minute.
“I beg your pardon,” Charlie
said, uneasily; “I didn’t know you had
any one with you.”
“I am going,” said Grish Chunder.
He drew me into the lobby as he departed.
“That is your man,” he
said, quickly. “I tell you he will never
speak all you wish. That is rot-bosh. But
he would be most good to make to see things.
Suppose now we pretend that it was only play” I
had never seen Grish Chunder so excited “and
pour the ink-pool into his hand. Eh, what do
you think? I tell you that he could see anything
that a man could see. Let me get the ink and
the camphor. He is a seer and he will tell us
very many things.”
“He may be all you say, but
I’m not going to trust him to your Gods and
devils.”
“It will not hurt him.
He will only feel a little stupid and dull when he
wakes up. You have seen boys look into the ink-pool
before.”
“That is the reason why I am
not going to see it any more. You’d better
go, Grish Chunder.”
He went, declaring far down the staircase
that it was throwing away my only chance of looking
into the future.
This left me unmoved, for I was concerned
for the past, and no peering of hypnotized boys into
mirrors and ink-pools would help me do that. But
I recognized Grish Chunder’s point of view and
sympathized with it.
“What a big black brute that
was!” said Charlie, when I returned to him.
“Well, look here, I’ve just done a poem;
did it instead of playing dominoes after lunch.
May I read it?”
“Let me read it to myself.”
“Then you miss the proper expression.
Besides, you always make my things sound as if the
rhymes were all wrong.
“Read it aloud, then. You’re like
the rest of ’em.”
Charlie mouthed me his poem, and it
was not much worse than the average of his verses.
He had been reading his book faithfully, but he was
not pleased when I told him that I preferred my Longfellow
undiluted with Charlie.
Then we began to go through the MS.
line by line; Charlie parrying every objection and
correction with:
“Yes, that may be better, but
you don’t catch what I’m driving at.”
Charlie was, in one way at least,
very like one kind of poet.
There was a pencil scrawl at the back
of the paper and “What’s that?” I
said.
“Oh that’s not poetry
’t all. It’s some rot I wrote last
night before I went to bed and it was too much bother
to hunt for rhymes; so I made it a sort of a blank
verse instead.”
Here is Charlie’s “blank verse”:
“We pulled for you when the wind
was against us and the sails
were low.
Will you never let us go?
We ate bread and onions when you took
towns or ran aboard
quickly when you were beaten back by the
foe.
The captains walked up and down the deck
in fair weather singing
songs, but we were below.
We fainted with our chins on the oars
and you did not see that we
were idle for we still swung to and fro.
Will you never let us go?
The salt made the oar handles like sharkskin;
our knees were cut to the bone with salt cracks;
our hair was stuck to our foreheads; and our lips
were cut to our gums and you whipped us because we
could not row.
Will you never let us go?
But in a little time we shall run out
of the portholes as the water runs along the oarblade,
and though you tell the others to row after us you
will never catch us till you catch the oar-thresh and
tie up the winds in the belly of the sail.
Aho!
Will you never let us go?”
“H’m. What’s oar-thresh, Charlie?”
“The water washed up by the
oars. That’s the sort of song they might
sing in the galley, y’know. Aren’t
you ever going to finish that story and give me some
of the profits?”
“It depends on yourself.
If you had only told me more about your hero in the
first instance it might have been finished by now.
You’re so hazy in your notions.”
“I only want to give you the
general notion of it the knocking about
from place to place and the fighting and all that.
Can’t you fill in the rest yourself? Make
the hero save a girl on a pirate-galley and marry
her or do something.”
“You’re a really helpful
collaborator. I suppose the hero went through
some few adventures before he married.”
“Well then, make him a very
artful card a low sort of man a
sort of political man who went about making treaties
and breaking them a black-haired chap who
hid behind the mast when the fighting began.”
“But you said the other day that he was red-haired.”
“I couldn’t have.
Make him black-haired of course. You’ve
no imagination.”
Seeing that I had just discovered
the entire principles upon which the half-memory falsely
called imagination is based, I felt entitled to laugh,
but forbore, for the sake of the tale.
“You’re right. You’re
the man with imagination. A black-haired chap
in a decked ship,” I said.
“No, an open ship like a big boat.”
This was maddening.
“Your ship has been built and
designed, closed and decked in; you said so yourself,”
I protested.
“No, no, not that ship.
That was open, or half decked because .
By Jove you’re right. You made me think
of the hero as a red-haired chap. Of course if
he were red, the ship would be an open one with painted
sails.”
Surely, I thought he would remember
now that he had served in two galleys at least in
a three-decked Greek one under the black-haired “political
man,” and again in a Viking’s open sea-serpent
under the man “red as a red bear” who
went to Markland. The devil prompted me to speak.
“Why, ‘of course,’ Charlie?”
said I.
“I don’t know. Are you making fun
of me?”
The current was broken for the time
being. I took up a notebook and pretended to
make many entries in it.
“It’s a pleasure to work
with an imaginative chap like yourself,” I said
after a pause. “The way that you’ve
brought out the character of the hero is simply wonderful.”
“Do you think so?” he
answered, with a pleased flush. “I often
tell myself that there’s more in me than my
mo than people think.”
“There’s an enormous amount in you.”
“Then, won’t you let me
send an essay on The Ways of Bank Clerks to Tit-Bits,
and get the guinea prize?”
“That wasn’t exactly what
I meant, old fellow: perhaps it would be better
to wait a little and go ahead with the galley-story.”
“Ah, but I sha’n’t
get the credit of that. ‘Tit-Bits’
would publish my name and address if I win. What
are you grinning at? They would.”
“I know it. Suppose you
go for a walk. I want to look through my notes
about our story.”
Now this reprehensible youth who left
me, a little hurt and put back, might for aught he
or I knew have been one of the crew of the Argo had
been certainly slave or comrade to Thorfin Karlsefne.
Therefore he was deeply interested in guinea competitions.
Remembering what Grish Chunder had said I laughed
aloud. The Lords of Life and Death would never
allow Charlie Mears to speak with full knowledge of
his pasts, and I must even piece out what he had told
me with my own poor inventions while Charlie wrote
of the ways of bank-clerks.
I got together and placed on one file
all my notes; and the net result was not cheering.
I read them a second time. There was nothing that
might not have been compiled at second-hand from other
people’s books except, perhaps, the
story of the fight in the harbor. The adventures
of a Viking had been written many times before; the
history of a Greek galley-slave was no new thing,
and though I wrote both, who could challenge or confirm
the accuracy of my details? I might as well tell
a tale of two thousand years hence. The Lords
of Life and Death were as cunning as Grish Chunder
had hinted. They would allow nothing to escape
that might trouble or make easy the minds of men.
Though I was convinced of this, yet I could not leave
the tale alone. Exaltation followed reaction,
not once, but twenty times in the next few weeks.
My moods varied with the March sunlight and flying
clouds. By night or in the beauty of a spring
morning I perceived that I could write that tale and
shift continents thereby. In the wet, windy afternoons,
I saw that the tale might indeed be written, but would
be nothing more than a faked, false-varnished, sham-rusted
piece of Wardour Street work at the end. Then
I blessed Charlie in many ways though it
was no fault of his. He seemed to be busy with
prize competitions, and I saw less and less of him
as the weeks went by and the earth cracked and grew
ripe to spring, and the buds swelled in their sheaths.
He did not care to read or talk of what he had read,
and there was a new ring of self-assertion in his
voice. I hardly cared to remind him of the galley
when we met; but Charlie alluded to it on every occasion,
always as a story from which money was to be made.
“I think I deserve twenty-five
per cent., don’t I, at least,” he said,
with beautiful frankness. “I supplied all
the ideas, didn’t I?”
This greediness for silver was a new
side in his nature. I assumed that it had been
developed in the City, where Charlie was picking up
the curious nasal drawl of the underbred City man.
“When the thing’s done
we’ll talk about it. I can’t make
anything of it at present. Red-haired or black-haired
hero are equally difficult.”
He was sitting by the fire staring
at the red coals. “I can’t understand
what you find so difficult. It’s all as
clean as mud to me,” he replied. A jet
of gas puffed out between the bars, took light and
whistled softly. “Suppose we take the red-haired
hero’s adventures first, from the time that
he came south to my galley and captured it and sailed
to the Beaches.”
I knew better now than to interrupt
Charlie. I was out of reach of pen and paper,
and dared not move to get them lest I should break
the current. The gas-jet puffed and whinnied,
Charlie’s voice dropped almost to a whisper,
and he told a tale of the sailing of an open galley
to Furdurstrandi, of sunsets on the open sea, seen
under the curve of the one sail evening after evening
when the galley’s beak was notched into the
centre of the sinking disc, and “we sailed by
that for we had no other guide,” quoth Charlie.
He spoke of a landing on an island and explorations
in its woods, where the crew killed three men whom
they found asleep under the pines. Their ghosts,
Charlie said, followed the galley, swimming and choking
in the water, and the crew cast lots and threw one
of their number overboard as a sacrifice to the strange
gods whom they had offended. Then they ate sea-weed
when their provisions failed, and their legs swelled,
and their leader, the red-haired man, killed two rowers
who mutinied, and after a year spent among the woods
they set sail for their own country, and a wind that
never failed carried them back so safely that they
all slept at night. This and much more Charlie
told. Sometimes the voice fell so low that I could
not catch the words, though every nerve was on the
strain. He spoke of their leader, the red-haired
man, as a pagan speaks of his God; for it was he who
cheered them and slew them impartially as he thought
best for their needs; and it was he who steered them
for three days among floating ice, each floe crowded
with strange beasts that “tried to sail with
us,” said Charlie, “and we beat them back
with the handles of the oars.”
The gas-jet went out, a burned coal
gave way, and the fire settled down with a tiny crash
to the bottom of the grate. Charlie ceased speaking,
and I said no word.
“By Jove!” he said, at
last, shaking his head. “I’ve been
staring at the fire till I’m dizzy. What
was I going to say?”
“Something about the galley.”
“I remember now. It’s 25 per cent.
of the profits, isn’t it?”
“It’s anything you like when I’ve
done the tale.”
“I wanted to be sure of that.
I must go now. I’ve, I’ve an appointment.”
And he left me.
Had my eyes not been held I might
have know that that broken muttering over the fire
was the swan-song of Charlie Mears. But I thought
it the prelude to fuller revelation. At last
and at last I should cheat the Lords of Life and Death!
When next Charlie came to me I received
him with rapture. He was nervous and embarrassed,
but his eyes were very full of light, and his lips
a little parted.
“I’ve done a poem,”
he said; and then quickly: “it’s the
best I’ve ever done. Read it.”
He thrust it into my hand and retreated to the window.
I groaned inwardly. It would
be the work of half an hour to criticise that
is to say praise the poem sufficiently to
please Charlie. Then I had good reason to groan,
for Charlie, discarding his favorite centipede metres,
had launched into shorter and choppier verse, and
verse with a motive at the back of it. This is
what I read:
“The day is most fair, the cheery
wind
Halloos behind the hill,
Where he bends the wood as seemeth good,
And the sapling to his will!
Riot O wind; there is that in my blood
That would not have thee still!
“She gave me herself, O Earth, O
Sky;
Grey sea, she is mine alone!
Let the sullen boulders hear my cry,
And rejoice tho’ they
be but stone!
“Mine! I have won her, O good
brown earth,
Make merry! ’Tis
hard on Spring;
Make merry; my love is doubly worth
All worship your fields can
bring!
Let the bind that tills you feel my mirth
At the early harrowing.”
“Yes, it’s the early harrowing,
past a doubt,” I said, with a dread at my heart.
Charlie smiled, but did not answer.
“Red cloud of the sunset, tell it
abroad;
I am victor. Greet me,
O Sun,
Dominant master and absolute lord
Over the soul of one!”
“Well?” said Charlie, looking over my
shoulder.
I thought it far from well, and very
evil indeed, when he silently laid a photograph on
the paper the photograph of a girl with
a curly head, and a foolish slack mouth.
“Isn’t it isn’t
it wonderful?” he whispered, pink to the tips
of his ears, wrapped in the rosy mystery of first
love. “I didn’t know; I didn’t
think it came like a thunderclap.”
“Yes. It comes like a thunderclap.
Are you very happy, Charlie?”
“My God she she
loves me!” He sat down repeating the last words
to himself. I looked at the hairless face, the
narrow shoulders already bowed by desk-work, and wondered
when, where, and how he had loved in his past lives.
“What will your mother say?” I asked,
cheerfully.
“I don’t care a damn what she says.”
At twenty the things for which one
does not care a damn should, properly, be many, but
one must not include mothers in the list. I told
him this gently; and he described Her, even as Adam
must have described to the newly named beasts the
glory and tenderness and beauty of Eve. Incidentally
I learned that She was a tobacconist’s assistant
with a weakness for pretty dress, and had told him
four or five times already that She had never been
kissed by a man before.
Charlie spoke on, and on, and on;
while I, separated from him by thousands of years,
was considering the beginnings of things. Now
I understood why the Lords of Life and Death shut
the doors so carefully behind us. It is that
we may not remember our first wooings. Were it
not so, our world would be without inhabitants in
a hundred years.
“Now, about that galley-story,”
I said, still more cheerfully, in a pause in the rush
of the speech.
Charlie looked up as though he had
been hit. “The galley what galley?
Good heavens, don’t joke, man! This is serious!
You don’t know how serious it is!”
Grish Chunder was right. Charlie
had tasted the love of woman that kills remembrance,
and the finest story in the world would never be written.