I
However sensible it may have been
considered by other people, it certainly was a disagreeable
piece of news to Miss Sydney, that the city authorities
had decided to open a new street from St. Mary Street
to Jefferson. It seemed a most unwarrantable thing
to her that they had a right to buy her property against
her will. It was so provoking, that, after so
much annoyance from the noise of St. Mary Street during
the last dozen years, she must submit to having another
public thoroughfare at the side of her house also.
If it had only been at the other side, she would not
have minded it particularly; for she rarely sat in
her drawing-room, which was at the left of the hall.
On the right was the library, stately, dismal, and
apt to be musty in damp weather; and it would take
many bright people, and a blazing wood-fire, and a
great deal of sunshine, to make it pleasant. Behind
this was the dining-room, which was really bright and
sunny, and which opened by wide glass doors into a
conservatory. The rattle and clatter of St. Mary
Street was not at all troublesome here; and by little
and little Miss Sydney had gathered her favorite possessions
from other parts of the house, and taken one end of
it for her sitting-room. The most comfortable
chairs had found their way here, and a luxurious great
sofa which had once been in the library, as well as
the bookcase which held her favorite books.
The house had been built by Miss Sydney’s
grandfather, and in his day it had seemed nearly out
of the city: now there was only one other house
left near it; for one by one the quiet, aristocratic
old street had seen its residences give place to shops
and warehouses, and Miss Sydney herself had scornfully
refused many offers of many thousand dollars for her
home. It was so changed! It made her so sad
to think of the dear old times, and to see the houses
torn down, or the small-paned windows and old-fashioned
front-doors replaced with French plate-glass to display
better the wares which were to take the places of
the quaint furniture and well-known faces of her friends!
But Miss Sydney was an old woman, and her friends
had diminished sadly. “It seems to me that
my invitations are all for funerals in these days,”
said she to her venerable maid Hannah, who had helped
her dress for her parties fifty years before.
She had given up society little by little. Her
friends had died, or she had allowed herself to drift
away from them, while the acquaintances from whom
she might have filled their places were only acquaintances
still. She was the last of her own family, and,
for years before her father died, he had lived mainly
in his library, avoiding society and caring for nothing
but books; and this, of course, was a check upon his
daughter’s enjoyment of visitors. Being
left to herself, she finally became content with her
own society, and since his death, which followed a
long illness, she had refused all invitations; and
with the exception of the interchange of occasional
ceremonious calls with perhaps a dozen families, and
her pretty constant attendance at church, you rarely
were reminded of her existence. And I must tell
the truth: it was not easy to be intimate with
her. She was a good woman in a negative kind of
way. One never heard of any thing wrong she had
done; and if she chose to live alone, and have nothing
to do with people, why, it was her own affair.
You never seemed to know her any better after a long
talk. She had a very fine, courteous way of receiving
her guests, a way of making you feel at
your ease more than you imagined you should when with
her, and a stately kind of tact that avoided
skilfully much mention of personalities on either
side. But mere hospitality is not attractive,
for it may be given grudgingly, or, as in her case,
from mere habit; for Miss Sydney would never consciously
be rude to any one in her own house or
out of it, for that matter. She very rarely came
in contact with children; she was not a person likely
to be chosen for a confidante by a young girl; she
was so cold and reserved, the elder ladies said.
She never asked a question about the winter fashions,
except of her dressmaker, and she never met with reverses
in housekeeping affairs, and these two facts rendered
her unsympathetic to many. She was fond of reading,
and enjoyed heartily the pleasant people she met in
books. She appreciated their good qualities, their
thoughtfulness, kindness, wit, or sentiment; but the
thought never suggested itself to her mind that there
were living people not far away, who could give her
all this, and more.
If calling were not a regulation of
society, if one only went to see the persons one really
cared for, I am afraid Miss Sydney would soon have
been quite forgotten. Her character would puzzle
many people. She put no visible hinderance in
your way; for I do not think she was consciously reserved
and cold. She was thoroughly well-bred, rich,
and in her way charitable; that is, she gave liberally
to public subscriptions which came under her notice,
and to church contributions. But she got on,
somehow, without having friends; and, though the loss
of one had always been a real grief, she learned without
much trouble the way of living the lonely, comfortable,
but very selfish life, and the way of being the woman
I have tried to describe. There were occasional
days when she was tired of herself, and life seemed
an empty, formal, heartless discipline. Her wisest
acquaintances pitied her loneliness; and busy, unselfish
people wondered how she could be deaf to the teachings
of her good clergyman, and blind to all the chances
of usefulness and happiness which the world afforded
her; and others still envied her, and wondered to whom
she meant to leave all her money.
I began by telling you of the new
street. It was suggested that it should bear
the name of Sydney; but the authorities decided finally
to compliment the country’s chief magistrate,
and call it Grant Place. Miss Sydney did not
like the sound of it. Her family had always been
indifferent to politics, and indeed the kite of the
Sydneys had flown for many years high above the winds
that affect commonplace people. The new way from
Jefferson Street to St. Mary was a great convenience,
and it seemed to our friend that all the noisiest vehicles
in the city had a preference for going back and forth
under her windows. You see she did not suspect,
what afterward became so evident, that there was to
be a way opened into her own heart also, and that she
should confess one day, long after, that she might
have died a selfish old woman, and not have left one
sorry face behind her, if it had not been for the
cutting of Grant Place.
The side of her conservatory was now
close upon the sidewalk, and this certainly was not
agreeable. She could not think of putting on her
big gardening-apron, and going in to work among her
dear plants any more, with all the world staring in
at her as it went by. John the coachman, who
had charge of the greenhouse, was at first very indignant;
but, after he found that his flowers were noticed
and admired, his anger was turned into an ardent desire
to merit admiration, and he kept his finest plants
next the street. It was a good thing for the greenhouse,
because it had never been so carefully tended; and
plant after plant was forced into luxuriant foliage
and blossom. He and Miss Sydney had planned at
first to have close wire screens made to match those
in the dining-room; but now, when she spoke of his
hurrying the workmen, whom she supposed had long since
been ordered to make them, John said, “Indeed,
mum, it would be the ruin of the plants shutting out
the light; and they would all be rusted with the showerings
I gives them every day.” And Miss Sydney
smiled, and said no more.
The street was opened late in October,
and, soon after, cold weather began in real earnest.
Down in that business part of the city it was the
strangest, sweetest surprise to come suddenly upon
the long line of blooming plants and tall green lily-leaves
under a roof festooned with roses and trailing vines.
For the first two or three weeks, almost everybody
stopped, if only for a moment. Few of Miss Sydney’s
own friends even had ever seen her greenhouse; for
they were almost invariably received in the drawing-room.
Gentlemen stopped the thought of business affairs,
and went on down the street with a fresher, happier
feeling. And the tired shop-girls lingered longest.
Many a man and woman thought of some sick person to
whom a little handful of the green leaves and bright
blossoms, with their coolness and freshness, would
bring so much happiness. And it was found, long
months afterward, that a young man had been turned
back from a plan of wicked mischief by the sight of
a tall, green geranium, like one that bloomed in his
mother’s sitting-room way up in the country.
He had not thought, for a long time before, of the
dear old woman who supposed her son was turning his
wits to good account in the city. But Miss Sydney
did not know how much he wished for a bit to put in
his buttonhole when she indignantly went back to the
dining-room to wait until that impertinent fellow
stopped staring in.
II.
It was just about this time that Mrs.
Marley made a change in her place of business.
She had sold candy round the corner in Jefferson Street
for a great many years; but she had suffered terribly
from rheumatism all the winter before. She was
nicely sheltered from too much sun in the summer;
but the north winds of winter blew straight toward
her; and after much deliberation, and many fears and
questionings as to the propriety of such an act, she
had decided to find another stand. You or I would
think at first that it could make no possible difference
where she sat in the street with her goods; but in
fact one has regular customers in that business, as
well as in the largest wholesale enterprise.
There was some uncertainty whether these friends would
follow her if she went away. Mrs. Marley’s
specialty was molasses-candy; and I am sure, if you
ever chanced to eat any of it, you would look out
for the old lady next time you went along the street.
Times seemed very hard this winter. Not that trade
had seriously diminished; but still the outlook was
very dark. Mrs. Marley was old, and had been
so for some years, so she was used to that; but somehow
this fall she seemed to be growing very much older
all of a sudden. She found herself very tired
at night, and she was apt to lose her breath if she
moved quickly; besides this, the rheumatism tortured
her. She had saved only a few dollars, though
she and her sister had had a comfortable living, what
they had considered comfortable, at least, though
they sometimes had been hungry, and very often cold.
They would surely go to the almshouse sooner or later, she
and her lame old sister Polly.
It was Polly who made the candy which
Mrs. Marley sold. Their two little rooms were
up three flights of stairs; and Polly, being too lame
to go down herself, had not been out of doors in seven
years. There was nothing but roofs and sky to
be seen from the windows; and, as there was a manufactory
near, the sky was apt to be darkened by its smoke.
Some of the neighbors dried their clothes on the roofs,
and Polly used to be very familiar with the apparel
of the old residents, and exceedingly interested when
a strange family came, and she saw something new.
There was a little bright pink dress that the trig
young French woman opposite used to hang out to dry;
and somehow poor old Polly used always to be brightened
and cheered by the sight of it. Once in a while
she caught a glimpse of the child who wore it.
She hardly ever thought now of the outside world when
left to herself, and on the whole she was not discontented.
Sister Becky used to have a great deal to tell her
sometimes of an evening. When Mrs. Marley told
her in the spring twilight that the grass in the square
was growing green, and that she had heard a robin,
it used to make Polly feel homesick; for she was apt
to think much of her childhood, and she had been born
in the country. She was very deaf, poor soul,
and her world was a very forlorn one. It was
nearly always quite silent, it was very small and
smoky out of doors, and very dark and dismal within.
Sometimes it was a hopeless world, because the candy
burnt; and if there had not been her Bible and hymn-book,
and a lame pigeon that lit on the window-sill to be
fed every morning, Miss Polly would have found her
time go heavily.
One night Mrs. Marley came into the
room with a cheerful face, and said very loud, “Polly,
I’ve got some news!” Polly knew by her
speaking so loud that she was in good-humor. When
any thing discouraging had happened, Becky spoke low,
and then was likely to be irritated when asked to
repeat her remark.
“Dear heart!” said Mrs.
Marley, “now I am glad you had something hot
for supper. I was turning over in my mind what
we could cook up, for I feel real hollow. It’s
a kind of chilly day.” And she sat down
by the stove, while Polly hobbled to the table, with
one hand to her ear to catch the first sound of the
good news, and the other holding some baked potatoes
in her apron. That hand was twisted with rheumatism,
for the disease ran in the family. She was afraid
every day that she should have to give up making the
candy on the next; for it hurt her so to use it.
She was continually being harrowed by the idea of its
becoming quite useless, and that the candy might not
be so good; and then what would become of them?
Becky Marley was often troubled by the same thought.
Yet they were almost always good-natured, poor old
women; and, though Polly Sharpe’s pleasures and
privileges were by far the fewest of anybody’s
I ever knew, I think she was as glad in those days
to know the dandelions were in bloom as if she could
see them; and she got more good from the fragments
of the Sunday-morning sermon that sister Becky brought
home than many a listener did from the whole service.
The potatoes were done to a turn,
Mrs. Marley shouted; and then Polly sat down close
by her to hear the news.
“You know I have been worrying
about the cold weather a-coming, and my rheumatics;
and I was afeared to change my stand, on account of
losing custom. Well, to-day it all come over
me to once that I might move down a piece on Grant
Place, that new street that’s cut
through to St. Mary. I’ve noticed for some
time past that almost all my reg’lar customers
turns down that way, so this morning I thought I’d
step down that way too, and see if there was a chance.
And after I gets into the street I sees people stopping
and looking at something as they went along; and so
I goes down to see; and it is one of them hothouses,
full of plants a-growing like it was mid-summer.
It belongs to the big Sydney house on the corner.
There’s a good place to sit right at the corner
of it, and I’m going to move over there to-morrow.
I thought as how I wouldn’t leave Jefferson
Street to-day, for it was too sudden. You see
folks stops and looks at the plants, and there wasn’t
any wind there to-day. There! I wish you
could see them flowers.”
Sister Polly was very pleased, and,
after the potatoes and bread were eaten, she brought
on an apple pie that had been sent up by Mrs. Welch,
the washer-woman who lived on the floor next but one
below. She was going away for three or four days,
having been offered good pay to do some cleaning in
a new house, and her board besides, near her work.
So you see that evening was quite a jubilee.
The next day Mrs. Marley’s wildest
expectations were realized; for she was warm as toast
the whole morning, and sold all her candy, and went
home by two o’clock. That had never happened
but once or twice before. “Why, I shouldn’t
wonder if we could lay up considerable this winter,”
said she to Polly.
Miss Sydney did not like the idea
of the old candy-woman’s being there. Children
came to buy of her, and the street seemed noisier than
ever at times. Perhaps she might have to leave
the house, after all. But one may get used to
almost any thing; and as the days went by she was
surprised to find that she was not half so much annoyed
as at first; and one afternoon she found herself standing
at one of the dining-room windows, and watching the
people go by. I do not think she had shown so
much interest as this in the world at large for many
years. I think it must have been from noticing
the pleasure her flowers gave the people who stopped
to look at them that she began to think herself selfish,
and to be aware how completely indifferent she had
grown to any claims the world might have upon her.
And one morning, when she heard somebody say, “Why,
it’s like a glimpse into the tropics! Oh!
I wish I could have such a conservatory!” she
thought, “Here I have kept this all to myself
for all these years, when so many others might have
enjoyed it too!” But then the old feeling of
independence came over her. The greenhouse was
out of people’s way; she surely couldn’t
have let people in whom she didn’t know; however,
she was glad, now that the street was cut, that some
one had more pleasure, if she had not. After all,
it was a satisfaction to our friend; and from this
time the seeds of kindness and charity and helpfulness
began to show themselves above the ground in the almost
empty garden of her heart. I will tell you how
they grew and blossomed; and as strangers came to
see her real flowers, and to look in at the conservatory
windows from the cold city street, instead of winter
to see a bit of imprisoned summer, so friend after
friend came to find there was another garden in her
own heart, and Miss Sydney learned the blessedness
there is in loving and giving and helping.
For it is sure we never shall know
what it is to lack friends, if we keep our hearts
ready to receive them. If we are growing good
and kind and helpful, those who wish for help and
kindness will surely find us out. A tree covered
with good fruit is never unnoticed in the fields.
If we bear thorns and briers, we can’t expect
people to take very great pains to come and gather
them. It is thought by many persons to be not
only a bad plan, but an ill-bred thing, to give out
to more than a few carefully selected friends.
But it came to her more and more that there was great
selfishness and short-sightedness in this. One
naturally has a horror of dragging the secrets and
treasures of one’s heart and thought out to
the light of day. One may be willing to go without
the good that may come to one’s own self through
many friendships; but, after all, God does not teach
us, and train our lives, only that we may come to
something ourselves. He helps men most through
other men’s lives; and we must take from him,
and give out again, all we can, wherever we can, remembering
that the great God is always trying to be the friend
of the least of us. The danger is, that we oftenest
give our friendship selfishly; we do not think of our
friends, but of ourselves. One never can find
one’s self beggared; love is a treasure that
does not lessen, but grows, as we spend it.
The passers-by seemed so delighted
with some new plants which she and John had arranged
one day, that, as she was going out in the afternoon
to drive, she stopped just as she was going to step
into the carriage, and said she thought she would
go round and look at the conservatory from the outside.
So John turned the horses, and followed. It was
a very cold day, and there were few people in the
street. Every thing was so cheerless out of doors,
and the flowers looked so summer-like! No wonder
the people liked to stop, poor souls! For the
richer, more comfortable ones lived farther up town.
It was not in the shopping region; and, except the
business-men who went by morning and evening, almost
every one was poor.
Miss Sydney had never known what the
candy-woman sold before, for she could not see any
thing but the top of her rusty black bonnet from the
window. But now she saw that the candy was exactly
like that she and her sister used to buy years upon
years ago; and she stopped to speak to the old woman,
and to buy some, to the utter amazement of her coachman.
Mrs. Marley was excited by so grand a customer, and
was a great while counting out the drumsticks, and
wrapping them up. While Miss Sydney stood there,
a thin, pitiful little girl came along, carrying a
clumsy baby. They stopped, and the baby tried
to reach down for a piece. The girl was quite
as wistful; but she pulled him back, and walked on
to the flowers. “Oh! pitty, pitty!”
said the baby, while the dirty little hands patted
the glass delightedly.
“Move along there,” said
John gruffly; for it was his business to keep that
glass clean and bright.
The girl looked round, frightened,
and, seeing that the coachman was big and cross-looking,
the forlorn little soul went away. “Baby
want to walk? You’re so heavy!” said
she in a fretful, tired way. But the baby was
half crying, and held her tight. He had meant
to stay some time longer, and look at those pretty,
bright things, since he could not have the candy.
Mrs. Marley felt as if her customer
might think her stingy, and proceeded to explain that
she couldn’t think of giving her candy away.
“Bless you, ma’am, I wouldn’t have
a stick left by nine o’clock.”
Miss Sydney “never gave money
to street-beggars.” But these children
had not begged, and somehow she pitied them very much,
they looked so hungry. And she called them back.
There was a queer tone to her voice; and she nearly
cried after she had given the package of candy to them,
and thrown a dollar upon the board in front of Mrs.
Marley, and found herself in the carriage, driving
away. Had she been very silly? and what could
John have thought? But the children were so glad;
and the old candy-woman had said, “God bless
you, mum!”
After this, Miss Sydney could not
keep up her old interest in her own affairs.
She felt restless and dissatisfied, and wondered how
she could have done the same things over and over
so contentedly for so many years. You may be
sure, that, if Grant Place had been unthought of,
she would have lived on in the same fashion to the
end of her days. But after this she used to look
out of the window; and she sat a great deal in the
conservatory, when it was not too warm there, behind
some tall callas. The servants found her usually
standing in the dining-room; for she listened for
footsteps, and was half-ashamed to have them notice
that she had changed in the least. We are all
given to foolish behavior of this kind once in a while.
We are often restrained because we feel bound to conform
to people’s idea of us. We must be such
persons as we imagine our friends think us to be.
They believe that we have made up our minds about
them, and are apt to show us only that behavior which
they think we expect. They are afraid of us sometimes.
They think we cannot sympathize with them. Our
friend felt almost as if she were yielding to some
sin in this strange interest in the passers-by.
She had lived so monotonous a life, that any change
could not have failed to be somewhat alarming.
She told Bessie Thorne afterward, that one day she
came upon that verse of Keble’s Hymn for St.
Matthew’s Day. Do you remember it?
“There are, in this loud, stunning
tide
Of human care
and crime,
With whom the melodies abide
Of the everlasting
chime;
Who carry music in their heart
Through dusky lane and wrangling
mart,
Plying their daily
task with busier feet
Because their
secret souls a holy strain repeat.”
It seemed as if it were a message
to herself, and she could not help going to the window
a few minutes afterward. The faces were mostly
tired-looking and dissatisfied. Some people looked
very eager and hurried, but none very contented.
It was the literal daily bread they thought of; and,
when two fashionably-dressed ladies chanced to go by
the window, their faces were strangely like their poorer
neighbors in expression. Miss Sydney wondered
what the love for one’s neighbor could be; if
she could ever feel it herself. She did not even
like these people whom she watched, and yet every
day, for years and years, she had acknowledged them
her brothers and sisters when she said, “Our
Father who art in heaven.”
It seemed as if Miss Sydney, of all
people, might have been independent and unfettered.
It is so much harder for us who belong to a family
for we are hindered by the thought of people’s
noticing our attempts at reform. It is like surrendering
some opinion ignominiously which we have fought for.
It is a kind of “giving in.” But when
she had acknowledged to herself that she had been
in the wrong, that she was a selfish, thoughtless
old woman, that she was alone, without friends, and
it had been her own fault, she was puzzled to know
how to do better. She could not begin to be very
charitable all at once. The more she realized
what her own character had become, the more hopeless
and necessary seemed reform.
Such times as this come to many of
us, both in knowing ourselves and our friends.
An awakening, one might call it, an opening
of the blind eyes of our spiritual selves. And
our ears are open to some of the voices which call
us; while others might as well be silent, for all
the heed we give them. We go on, from day to day,
doing, with more or less faithfulness, that part of
our work we have wit enough to comprehend; but one
day suddenly we are shown a broader field, stretching
out into the distance, and know that from this also
we may bring in a harvest by and by, and with God’s
help.
Miss Sydney meant to be better, not
alone for the sake of having friends, not alone to
quiet her conscience, but because she knew she had
been so far from living a Christian life, and she was
bitterly ashamed. This was all she needed, all
any of us need, to know that we must be
better men and women for God’s sake; that we
cannot be better without his help, and that his help
may be had for the asking. But where should she
begin? She had always treated her servants kindly,
and they were the people she knew best. She would
surely try to be more interested in the friends she
met; but it was nearly Christmas time, and people
rarely came to call. Every one was busy.
Becky Marley’s cheery face haunted her; and one
day after having looked down from the window on the
top of her bonnet, she remembered that she did not
get any candy, after all, and she would go round to
see the old lady again, she looked poor, and she would
give her some money. Miss Sydney dressed herself
for the street, and closed the door behind her very
carefully, as if she were a mischievous child running
away. It was very cold, and there were hardly
a dozen persons to be seen in the streets, and Mrs.
Marley had evidently been crying.
“I should like some of your
candy,” said our friend. “You know
I didn’t take any, after all, the other day.”
And then she felt very conscious and awkward, fearing
that the candy-woman thought she wished to remind
her of her generosity.
“Two of the large packages,
if you please. But, dear me! aren’t you
very cold, sitting here in the wind?” and Miss
Sydney shivered, in spite of her warm wrappings.
It was the look of sympathy that was
answered first, for it was more comforting than even
the prospect of money, sorely as Mrs. Marley needed
that.
“Yes, mum, I’ve had the
rheumatics this winter awful. But the wind here! why,
it ain’t nothing to what it blows round in Jefferson
Street, where I used to sit. I shouldn’t
be out to-day, but I was called upon sudden to pay
my molasses bill, when I’d just paid my rent;
and I don’t know how ever I can. There’s
sister Polly she’s dead lame and
deaf. I s’pose we’ll both be in the
almshouse afore spring. I’m an old woman
to be earning a living out o’ doors in winter
weather.”
There was no mistaking the fact that
Miss Sydney was in earnest when she said, “I’m
so sorry! Can’t I help you?”
Somehow she did not feel so awkward,
and she enjoyed very much hearing this bit of confidence.
“But my trade has improved wonderful
since I came here. People mostly stops to see
them beautiful flowers; and then they sees me, and
stops and buys something. Well, there’s
some days when I gets down-hearted, and I just looks
up there, and sees them flowers blooming so cheerful,
and I says, ’There! this world ain’t all
cold and poor and old, like I be; and the Lord he
ain’t never tired of us, with our worrying about
what he’s a-doing with us; and heaven’s
a-coming before long anyhow!’” And the
Widow Marley stopped to dry her eyes with the corner
of her shawl.
Miss Sydney asked her to go round
to the kitchen, and warm herself; and, on finding
out more of her new acquaintance’s difficulties,
she sent her home happy, with money enough to pay
the dreaded bill, and a basket of good things which
furnished such a supper for herself and sister Polly
as they had not seen for a long time. And their
fortunes were bettered from that day. “If
it hadn’t been for the flowers, I should ha’
been freezing my old bones on Jefferson Street this
minute, I s’pose,” said the Widow Marley.
Miss Sydney went back to the dining-room
after her protegee had gone, and felt a comfortable
sense of satisfaction in what she had done. It
had all come about in such an easy way too! A
little later she went into the conservatory, and worked
among her plants. She really felt so much younger
and happier; and once, as she stood still, looking
at some lilies-of-the-valley that John had been forcing
into bloom, she did not notice that a young lady was
looking through the window at her very earnestly.
III.
That same evening Mrs. Thorne and
Bessie were sitting up late in their library.
It was snowing very fast, and had been since three
o’clock; and no one had called. They had
begun the evening by reading and writing, and now
were ending it with a talk.
“Mamma,” said Bessie,
after there had been a pause, “whom do you suppose
I have taken a fancy to? And do you know, I pity
her so much! Miss Sydney.”
“But I don’t know that
she is so much to be pitied,” said Mrs. Thorne,
smiling at the enthusiastic tone. “She must
have every thing she wants. She lives all alone,
and hasn’t any intimate friends, but, if a person
chooses such a life, why, what can we do? What
made you think of her?”
“I have been trying to think
of one real friend she has. Everybody is polite
enough to her, and I never heard that any one disliked
her; but she must be forlorn sometimes. I came
through that new street by her house to-day:
that’s how I happened to think of her. Her
greenhouse is perfectly beautiful, and I stopped to
look in. I always supposed she was cold as ice
(I’m sure she looks so); but she was standing
out in one corner, looking down at some flowers with
just the sweetest face. Perhaps she is shy.
She used to be very good-natured to me when I was
a child, and used to go there with you. I don’t
think she knows me since I came home: at any
rate, I mean to go to see her some day.”
“I certainly would,” said
Mrs. Thorne. “She will be perfectly polite
to you, at all events. And perhaps she may be
lonely, though I rather doubt it; not that I wish
to discourage you, my dear. I haven’t seen
her in a long time, for we have missed each other’s
calls. She never went into society much; but
she used to be a very elegant woman, and is now, for
that matter.”
“I pity her,” said Bessie
persistently. “I think I should be very
fond of her if she would let me. She looked so
kind as she stood among the flowers to-day! I
wonder what she was thinking about. Oh! do you
think she would mind if I asked her to give me some
flowers for the hospital?”
Bessie Thorne is a very dear girl.
Miss Sydney must have been hard-hearted if she had
received her coldly one afternoon a few days afterward,
she seemed so refreshingly young and girlish a guest
as she rose to meet the mistress of that solemn, old-fashioned
drawing-room. Miss Sydney had had a re-action
from the pleasure her charity had given her, and was
feeling bewildered, unhappy, and old that day.
“What can she wish to see me for, I wonder?”
thought she, as she closed her book, and looked at
Miss Thorne’s card herself, to be sure the servant
had read it right. But, when she saw the girl
herself, her pleasure showed itself unmistakably in
her face.
“Are you really glad to see
me?” said Bessie in her frankest way, with a
very gratified smile. “I was afraid you
might think it was very odd in me to come. I
used to like so much to call upon you with mamma when
I was a little girl! And the other day I saw you
in your conservatory, and I have wished to come and
see you ever since.”
“I am very glad to see you,
my dear,” said Miss Sydney, for the second time.
“I have been quite forgotten by the young people
of late years. I was sorry to miss Mrs. Thorne’s
call. Is she quite well? I meant to return
it one day this week, and I thought only last night
I would ask about you. You have been abroad,
I think?”
Was not this an auspicious beginning?
I cannot tell you all that happened that afternoon,
for I have told so long a story already. But
you will imagine it was the beginning of an intimacy
that gave great pleasure, and did great good, to both
the elder woman and the younger. It is hard to
tell the pleasure which the love and friendship of
a fresh, bright girl like Bessie Thorne, may give
an older person. There is such a satisfaction
in being convinced that one is still interesting and
still lovable, though the years that are gone have
each kept some gift or grace, and the possibilities
of life seem to have been realized and decided.
There are days of our old age when there seems so
little left in life, that living is a mere formality.
This busy world seems done with the old, however dear
their memories of it, however strong their claims
upon it. They are old: their life now is
only waiting and resting. It may be quite right
that we sometimes speak of second childhood, because
we must be children before we are grown; and the life
to come must find us, will find us, ready for service.
Our old people have lived in the world so long; they
think they know it so well: but the young man
is master of the trade of living, and the old man
only his blundering apprentice.
Miss Sydney’s solemnest and
most unprepared servant was startled to find Bessie
Thorne and his mistress sitting cosily together before
the dining-room fire. Bessie had a paper full
of cut flowers to leave at the Children’s Hospital
on her way home. Miss Sydney had given liberally
to the contribution for that object; but she never
had suspected how interesting it was until Bessie
told her, and she said she should like to go some
day, and see the building and its occupants for herself.
And the girl told her of other interests that were
near her kind young heart, not all charitable
interests, and they parted intimate friends.
“I never felt such a charming
certainty of being agreeable,” wrote Bessie
that night to a friend of hers. “She seemed
so interested in every thing, and, as I told you,
so pleased with my coming to see her. I have
promised to go there very often. She told me in
the saddest way that she had been feeling so old and
useless and friendless, and she was very confidential.
Imagine her being confidential with me! She seemed
to me just like myself as I was last year, you
remember, just beginning to realize what
life ought to be, and trying, in a frightened, blind
kind of way, to be good and useful. She said she
was just beginning to understand her selfishness.
She told me I had done her ever so much good; and
I couldn’t help the tears coming into my eyes.
I wished so much you were there, or some one who could
help her more; but I suppose God knew when he sent
me. Doesn’t it seem strange that an old
woman should talk to me in this way, and come to me
for help? I am afraid people would laugh at the
very idea. And only to think of her living on
and on, year after year, and then being changed so!
She kissed me when I came away, and I carried the flowers
to the hospital. I shall always be fond of that
conservatory, because, if I hadn’t stopped to
look in that day, I might never have thought of her.
“There was one strange thing
happened, which I must tell you about, though it is
so late. She has grown very much interested in
an old candy-woman, and told me about her; and do
you know that this evening uncle Jack came in, and
asked if we knew of anybody who would do for janitress at
the Natural History rooms, I think he said. There
is good pay, and she would just sell catalogues, and
look after things a little. Of course the candy-woman
may not be competent; but, from what Miss Sydney told
me, I think she is just the person.”
The next Sunday the minister read
this extract from “Queen’s Gardens”
in his sermon. Two of his listeners never had
half understood its meaning before as they did then.
Bessie was in church, and Miss Sydney suddenly turned
her head, and smiled at her young friend, to the great
amazement of the people who sat in the pews near by.
What could have come over Miss Sydney?
“The path of a good woman is
strewn with flowers; but they rise behind her
steps, not before them. ’Her feet have touched
the meadow, and left the daisies rosy.’
Flowers flourish in the garden of one who loves them.
A pleasant magic it would be if you could flush flowers
into brighter bloom by a kind look upon them; nay,
more, if a look had the power not only to cheer but
to guard them. This you would think a great thing?
And do you think it not a greater thing that all this,
and more than this, you can do for fairer flowers than
these, flowers that could bless you for
having blessed them, and will love you for having
loved them, flowers that have eyes like
yours, and thoughts like yours, and lives like yours?”