Chitraand arjuna

Chitra [cloaked]

My lord, has the cup been drained to the last drop?  Is this,
indeed, the end?  No, when all is done something still remains,
and that is my last sacrifice at your feet.

I brought from the garden of heaven flowers of incomparable beauty with which to worship you, god of my heart.  If the rites are over, if the flowers have faded, let me throw them out of the temple [unveiling in her original male attire].  Now, look at your worshipper with gracious eyes.

I am not beautifully perfect as the flowers with which I worshipped.  I have many flaws and blemishes.  I am a traveller in the great world-path, my garments are dirty, and my feet are bleeding with thorns.  Where should I achieve flower-beauty, the unsullied loveliness of a moment’s life?  The gift that I proudly bring you is the heart of a woman.  Here have all pains and joys gathered, the hopes and fears and shames of a daughter of the dust; here love springs up struggling toward immortal life.  Herein lies an imperfection which yet is noble and grand.  If the flower-service is finished, my master, accept this as your servant for the days to come!

I am Chitra, the king’s daughter.  Perhaps you will remember the day when a woman came to you in the temple of Shiva, her body loaded with ornaments and finery.  That shameless woman came to court you as though she were a man.  You rejected her; you did well.  My lord, I am that woman.  She was my disguise.  Then by the boon of gods I obtained for a year the most radiant form that a mortal ever wore, and wearied my hero’s heart with the burden of that deceit.  Most surely I am not that woman.

I am Chitra.  No goddess to be worshipped, nor yet the object of common pity to be brushed aside like a moth with indifference.  If you deign to keep me by your side in the path of danger and daring, if you allow me to share the great duties of your life, then you will know my true self.  If your babe, whom I am nourishing in my womb be born a son, I shall myself teach him to be a second Arjuna, and send him to you when the time comes, and then at last you will truly know me.  Today I can only offer you Chitra, the daughter of a king.

Arjuna

Beloved, my life is full.