Candace Arden’s mother
had not only been Mrs. Gray’s cousin, but her
particular friend as well. The two girls had been
brought up together, had shared their studies and
secrets and girlish fun, and had scarcely ever been
separated for a week, until suddenly a change came
which separated them for all the rest of their lives.
Pretty Candace Van Vliet went up to
New Haven on her nineteenth birthday to see what a
college commencement was like, and at the President’s
reception afterward met Henry Arden, the valedictorian
of the graduating class, a handsome fellow just twenty-one
years old. He came of plain farming-people in
the hill country of Connecticut; but he was clever,
ambitious, and his manners had a natural charm, to
which his four years of college life had added ease
and the rubbing away of any little rustic awkwardness
with which he might have begun. Candace thought
him delightful; he thought her more than delightful.
In short, it was one of the sudden love-affairs with
which college commencements not infrequently end,
and in the course of a few weeks they engaged themselves
to each other.
Henry was to be a minister, and his
theological course must be got through with before
they could marry. Three years the course should
have taken, but he managed to do it in a little more
than two, being spurred on by his impatient desire
for home and wife, and a longing, no less urgent,
to begin as soon as possible to earn his own bread
and relieve his father from the burden of his support.
No one knew better than he with what pinching and
saving and self-sacrifice it had been made possible
for him to get a college education and become a clergyman;
what daily self-denials had been endured for his sake
in that old yellow farm-house on the North Tolland
hills. He was the only son, the only child; and
his father and mother were content to bear anything
so long as it gave him a chance to make the most of
himself.
It is not an uncommon story in this
New England of ours. Many and many a farm-house
could tell a similar tale of thrift, hard work, and
parental love. The bare rocky acres are made
to yield their uttermost, the cows to do their full
duty, the scanty apples of the “off year”
are carefully harvested, every pullet and hen is laid
under contribution for the great need of the moment, the
getting the boys through college. It is both
beautiful and pitiful, as all sacrifices must be; but
the years of effort and struggle do not always end,
as in the case of the Ardens, with a disappointment
and a grief so bitter as to make the self-spending
seem all in vain.
For the over-study of those two years
proved too much for Henry Arden’s health.
It was not hard study alone; he stinted himself in
food, in firing as well; he exacted every possible
exertion from his mind, and systematically neglected
his body. The examinations were brilliantly passed;
he was ordained; he received a “call” to
Little Upshire, the village nearest to North Tolland;
there was a pretty wedding in the old Van Vliet mansion
on Second Avenue, at which Kate Van Vliet, herself
just engaged to Courtenay Gray, acted as bridesmaid;
and then the cousins parted. They only met once
again, when Mrs. Arden came down from the country
to see her cousin married. Henry did not come
with her; he was not very well, she explained, and
she must hurry back.
That was the beginning of a long wasting
illness. Some spring of vitality seemed to have
been broken during those two terrible years at the
theological seminary; and though Henry Arden lived
on, and even held his parish for several years, he
was never fit for any severe study or labor.
The last three years of his life were spent in the
old farm-house at North Tolland, where his aunt Myra,
a spare, sinewy, capable old maid, was keeping house
for his father. Mrs. Arden had died soon after
her son’s illness began; her heart was “kind
of broken,” the neighbors said, and perhaps
it was.
And little Candace and her mother
lived on with the old people after the long, sorrowful
nursing was done, and another gray headstone had been
placed beside the rest in the Arden lot in the North
Tolland graveyard, having carved upon it, “Sacred
to the memory of the Rev. Henry Arden, aged thirty-four.
The Lord gave, and the Lord hath taken away. Blessed
be His Holy name.” There seemed nothing
else for them to do but to live on where they were.
Mrs. Gray was in China with her husband, who at that
time was the resident partner in a well-known firm
of tea-importers. Aunt Van Vliet had gone to
Europe after her daughter’s marriage. There
was no one to come to the aid of the drooping young
widow, and carry her away from the lonely life and
the sad memories which were slowly killing her.
For her child’s sake she did her best to rally;
but her strength had been severely taxed during her
husband’s illness, and dying was easier than
living; so she died when Candace was just eight years
old, and the little girl and the two old people were
left alone in the yellow farm-house.
A twelvemonth later, Grandfather Arden
had a stroke of paralysis. Don’t
be too much discouraged, dear children; this is positively
the last death that I shall have occasion to chronicle
in this story. But it seemed necessary to show
what sort of life Candace had lived, in order to explain
the sort of girl she was. After her grandfather
died, Aunt Myra, aged sixty-nine, and little Cannie,
aged nine, alone remained of the once large household;
and the farm-house seemed very big and empty, and
had strange echoes in all the unused corners.
It was a lonely place, and a lonely
life for a child. Candace had few enjoyments,
and almost no young companions. She had never
been used to either, so she did not feel the want
of them as most little girls would have done.
Aunt Myra was kind enough, and, indeed, fond of her
in a dry, elderly way; but she could not turn herself
into a play-mate. It is not often that a person
who is as old as sixty-nine remembers how it feels
to play. Aunt Myra approved of Cannie especially,
because she was “such a quiet child;”
but I think Cannie’s mother would rather have
had her noisier.
“She’s a nice girl as
I want to see,” Aunt Myra was wont to tell her
cronies. “She’s likely-appearing enough, and
that’s better than being too pretty. And
she’s helpful about the house for such a young
cretur, and she’s not a bit forth-putting or
highty-tighty. I don’t know how I should
have managed if Candace had turned out the sort of
girl some of ’em are, like those
Buell girls, for instance, always raising Ned because
they can’t get down to Hartford or Bridgeport
to shop and see the sights and have a good time.
As if good times couldn’t be had to home as
well as anywhere! Why, I reckon that Miss Buell
has more fuss and trouble in fitting out those girls
every spring of her life than I’ve had with
Cannie since her mother died. She never makes
one mite of difficulty, or bothers with objections.
She just puts on whatever I see fit to get her; and
she likes it, and there’s the end.”
This was not quite as true as Aunt
Myra supposed. Candace wore whatever it was ordained
that she should wear, but she did not always “like”
it. From her mother she inherited a certain instinct
of refinement and taste which only needed the chance
to show itself. But there was little chance to
exercise taste in the old yellow farm-house, and Candace,
from training and long habit, was submissive; so she
accepted the inevitable, and, as her great-aunt said,
“made no difficulty.”
Letters came now and then from “Cousin
Kate,” far away in China, and once a little
box with a carved ivory fan as fine as lace-work, a
dozen gay pictures on rice paper, and a scarf of watermelon-pink
crape, which smelt of sandalwood, and was by far the
most beautiful thing that Cannie had ever seen.
Then, two years before our story opens, the Grays came
back to America to live; and a correspondence began
between Mrs. Gray and Aunt Myra, part of which Candace
heard about and part she did not. Mrs. Gray was
anxious to know her cousin’s child and be of
use to her; but first one thing and then another delayed
their meeting. The first winter the Grays spent
at a hotel looking for a house; the second, they were
all in Florida on account of Mr. Gray’s health.
These difficulties were now settled. A town house
had been chosen, a Newport cottage leased for a term
of years, and Cannie was asked for a long summer visit.
It was Mrs. Gray’s secret desire
that this visit should lead to a sort of adoption,
that Cannie should stay on with them as a fourth daughter,
and share all her cousins’ advantages of education
and society; but before committing herself to such
a step, she wished to see what the girl was like.
“It’s so much easier to
keep out of such an arrangement than to get out of
it,” she told her husband. “My poor
Candace was an angel, all sweetness and charm; but
her child has the blood of those stiff Connecticut
farmers in her. She may be like her father’s
people, and not in the least like her mother; she
may be hopelessly stupid or vulgar or obstinate or
un-improvable. We will wait and see.”
This secret doubt and question was,
I think, the reason why Mrs. Gray was so pleased at
Cannie’s little speech about Miss Joy and her
friend.
“That was the true, honorable
feeling,” she thought to herself; “the
child is a lady by instinct. It wasn’t easy
for her to say it, either; she’s a shy little
thing. Well, if she has the instinct, the rest
can be added. It’s easy enough to polish
a piece of mahogany, but you may rub all day at a
pine stick and not make much out of it.”
As these thoughts passed rapidly through
her mind, she stole her arm across Candace’s
shoulders and gave them a little warm pressure; but
all she said was,
“Dinner in twenty minutes, children.
You would better run up at once and make ready.
Cannie, you and I will go to the library, you
haven’t seen my husband yet.”
The library was a big, airy room,
with an outlook to the sea. There were not many
books in it, only enough to fill a single low range
of book-shelves; but the tables were covered with
freshly cut magazines and pamphlet novels; there was
a great file of “Punch” and other illustrated
papers, and that air of light-reading-in-abundance
which seems to suit a house in summer-time. A
little wood-fire was snapping on a pair of very bright
andirons, and, June though it was, its warmth was agreeable.
Beside it, in an enormous Russia-leather armchair,
sat Mr. Gray, an iron-whiskered, shrewd-looking
man of the world, with a pair of pleasant, kindly
eyes, and that shining bald spot on his head which
seems characteristic of the modern business man.
“Court, here is our new child,”
said Mrs. Gray; “poor Candace’s daughter,
you know.”
Mr. Gray understood, from his wife’s
tone, that she was pleased with her little visitor
so far, and he greeted her in a very friendly fashion.
“You have your mother’s
eyes,” he said. “I recollect her perfectly,
though we only met two or three times, and that was
seventeen let me see nearly
eighteen years ago it must have been. Her hair,
too, I should say,” glancing at Cannie’s
chestnut mop; “it was very thick, I remember,
and curled naturally.”
“Aunt Myra always says that
my hair is the same color as mother’s,”
replied Candace.
“It is almost exactly the same.
Do you remember her at all, Cannie?” asked Mrs.
Gray.
“Just a little. I recollect
things she used to wear, and where she used to sit,
and one or two things she said. But perhaps I
don’t recollect them, but think I do because
Aunt Myra told them to me.”
“Is there no picture of her?”
“Only a tin-type, and it isn’t
very good. It’s almost faded out; you can
hardly see the face.”
“What a pity!”
“Le diner est servi, Madame,”
said the voice of Frederic at the door.
“We won’t wait for the
girls. They will be down in a moment,” said
Mrs. Gray, as she led the way to the dining-room.
The sound of their feet on the staircase was heard
as she spoke; and down they ran, the elder two in
pretty dresses of thin white woollen stuff, which Candace
in her unworldliness thought fine enough for a party.
People in North Tolland did not dine
in the modern sense of the word. They took in
supplies of food at stated intervals, very much as
a locomotive stops for wood and water when it cannot
go on any longer without such replenishment; but it
was a matter of business and necessity to do so rather
than of pleasure.
Candace, who had sat down opposite
Aunt Myra every day as long as she could remember
at the small pine table in the yellow-painted kitchen,
with always the same thick iron-stone ware plates and
cups, the same little black tray to hold the tea-things,
the same good, substantial, prosaic fare, served without
the least attempt at grace or decoration, had never
dreamed of such a dinner as was usual at the Grays’.
She said not a word to express her astonishment; but
she glanced at the thick cluster of maiden-hair ferns
which quivered in the middle of the table from an
oval stand of repousse brass, at the slender glasses
of tea-roses which stood on either side, at the Sevres
dishes of fruit, sweet biscuits, and dried ginger,
and wondered if this were to be all the dinner.
Did fashionable people never eat anything more substantial
than grapes and crackers? She felt very hungry,
and yet it seemed coarse not to be satisfied when
everything was so pretty.
“Consomme, Mademoiselle?”
murmured Frederic in her ear, as he placed before
her a plate full of some clear liquid which smelt deliciously,
and offered a small dish of grated cheese for her acceptance.
“Oh, thank you, sir,”
said Candace, wondering confusedly if cheese in soup
was the correct thing.
Mrs. Gray’s quick ear caught
the “sir.” She did not even turn her
head, but she mentally added another to the hints
which must be administered to Candace as soon as she
was sufficiently at home to bear them.
Spanish mackerel was the next course.
Candace inadvertently took up the steel knife placed
beside her plate, instead of the silver one meant for
use with fish. The result was that when the saddle
of mutton was served, she had no usable knife.
Mr. Gray observed her difficulty, and directed Frederic
to bring a steel knife for Mademoiselle, which Frederic
did, first casting a scrutinizing glance about as
if in search of something; and again Candace felt
that she was somehow out of the way.
The climax of her discomfort came
with the pretty tinted fruit plates and finger-bowls.
Candace’s tumbler was empty, and without particularly
thinking about the matter she took a drink out of her
finger-bowl, which she mistook for some sort of lemonade,
from the bit of lemon which floated in the water.
The moment after, she was conscious
of her blunder. She saw Georgie dabbling her
fingers in her bowl. She saw Gertrude with difficulty
keeping back a smile which would flicker in her eyes,
though her lips were rigidly grave. Little Marian
giggled outright, and then relapsed into a frightened
solemnity. Candace felt utterly miserable.
She looked toward Mrs. Gray apprehensively, but that
lady only gave her an encouraging smile. Mr.
Gray put a bunch of hot-house grapes on her plate.
She ate them without the least idea of their flavor.
With the last grape a hot tear splashed down; and
the moment Mrs. Gray moved, Candace fled upstairs
to her own room, where she broke down into a fit of
homesick crying.
How she longed for the old customary
home among the hills, where nobody minded what she
did, or how she ate, or “had any manners in particular,”
as she phrased it to her own mind, or thought her ignorant
or awkward. And yet, on sober second thought,
did she really wish so much to go back? Was it
not better to stay on where she was, and learn to be
graceful and low-spoken and at ease always, like her
cousin Kate, if she could, even if she had to undergo
some mortification in the process? Candace was
not sure.
She had stopped crying, and was cooling
her eyes with a wet towel when she heard a little
tap at the door. It was Mrs. Gray herself.
“Where are you, Cannie?”
she said, looking about the room with her short-sighted
eyes. “You are so dark here that I cannot
see you.”
“I’m here by the washstand,”
faltered Candace; and then, to her dismay, she began
to cry again. She tried to subdue it; but a little
sob, which all her efforts could not stifle, fell
upon her cousin’s observant ear.
“My dear child, you are crying,”
she exclaimed; and in another minute Candace, she
scarcely knew how, was in Mrs. Gray’s arms, they
were sitting on the sofa together, and she was finishing
her cry with her head on the kindest of shoulders
and an unexpected feeling of comfort at her heart.
Anything so soft and tender as Cousin Kate’s
arms she had never known before; there was a perfume
of motherliness about them which to a motherless girl
was wholly irresistible. Gertrude declared that
mamma always stroked people’s trouble away with
those hands of hers, and that they looked just like
the hands of the Virgin in Holbein’s Madonna,
as if they could mother the whole world.
“Now, tell me, Cannie, tell
me, dear child,” said Mrs. Gray, when the shower
was over and the hard sobs had grown faint and far
between, “what made you cry? Was it because
you are tired and a little homesick among us all,
or were you troubled about anything? Tell me,
Cannie.”
“Oh, it’s only because
I’m so stupid and and countrified,”
said Candace, beginning to sob again. “I
made such horrid mistakes at dinner, and Gertrude
wanted to laugh, she didn’t laugh,
but I saw her want to, and Marian did laugh,
and I felt so badly.”
“Marian is such a little girl
that you must forgive her this once,” said Mrs.
Gray, “though I am rather ashamed of her myself.
I saw all your ‘mistakes,’ as you call
them, Cannie, even one or two that you didn’t
see yourself. They were very little mistakes,
dear, not worth crying about, small blunders
in social etiquette, which is a matter of minor importance, not
failures in good feeling or good manners, which are
of real consequence. They did not make anybody
uncomfortable except yourself.”
“Cousin Kate,” Candace
ventured to ask, “will you tell me why there
is such a thing as etiquette? Why must everybody
eat and behave and speak in the same way, and make
rules about it? Is it any real use?”
“That is rather a large question,
and leads back to the beginning of things,”
said Mrs. Gray, smiling. “I don’t
suppose I quite understand it myself, but I think
I can make you understand a part of it. I imagine,
when the world was first peopled, in the strange faraway
times of which we know almost nothing except the hints
we get in the Bible, that the few people there were
did pretty much as they liked. Noah and his family
in the ark, for instance, probably never set any tables
or had any regular meals, but just ate when they were
hungry, each one by himself. Savage tribes do
the same to this day; they seize their bone or their
handful of meat and gnaw it in a corner, or as they
walk about. This was the primitive idea of comfort.
But after a time people found that it was less trouble
to have the family food made ready at a certain time
for everybody at once, and have all come together to
eat it. Perhaps at first it was served in one
great pot or dish, and each one dipped in his hand
or spoon. The Arabs still do this. Then,
of course, the strongest and greediest got the most
of everything, and it may have been some weak or slow
person who went hungry in consequence, who invented
the idea of separate plates and portions.”
“But that is not etiquette,”
objected Cannie. “People have plates and
set tables everywhere now, in this country,
I mean.”
“Yes, but can’t you imagine
a time when to have a bowl or a saucer to yourself
was considered finical and ‘stuck up,’
and when some rough Frank or Gaul from the mountains
looked on disapprovingly, and said that the world
was coming to a pretty pass if such daintiness was
to be allowed? A bowl to one’s self was
etiquette then. All sorts of things which to
us seem matter of course and commonplace, began by
being novelties and subjects for discussion and wonderment.
Remember that tea, potatoes, carpets, tobacco, matches,
almost all our modern conveniences, were quite unknown
even so lately as four or five hundred years ago.
As the world grew richer, people went on growing more
refined. The richest folks tried to make their
houses more beautiful than the houses of their neighbors.
They gave splendid feasts, and hired sculptors and
artists to invent decorations for their tables, and
all kinds of little elegant usages sprang up which
have gradually become the custom of our own day, even
among people who are not rich and do not give feasts.”
“But do they mean anything?
Are they of any real use?” persisted Cannie.
“I confess that some of them
do not seem to mean a great deal. Still, if we
look closely, I think we shall find that almost every
one had its origin in one of two causes, either
it was a help to personal convenience, or in some
way it made people more agreeable or less disagreeable
to their neighbors. We have to study, and to guess
a little sometimes, to make out just why it has become
customary to do this or that, for the original reason
has been forgotten or perhaps does not exist any longer,
while the custom remains.”
“I wonder,” said Cannie,
whose mind was still running on her own mishaps, “why
people mustn’t cut fish with a steel knife.
I read in a book once that it was not genteel to do
so, and I couldn’t think why. And then
to-night I didn’t see the little silver one ”
“I imagine that in the first
instance some old gourmet discovered or fancied
that a steel knife gave a taste to fish which injured
it. So people gave up using knives, and it grew
to be said that it was vulgar and a mark of ignorance
to cut fish with them. Then, later, it was found
not to be quite comfortable always to tear your bit
of fish apart with a fork and hold it down with a
piece of bread while you did so, and the custom arose
of having a silver knife to cut fish with. It
is a convenient custom, too, for some reasons.
Waiting on table is quite an art, now-a-days, when
there are so many changes of plates, and a good waiter
always tries to simplify what he has to do, by providing
as much as possible beforehand. You can see that
if each person has beside his plate a silver knife
for fish and a steel knife for meat and two forks
these two courses will go on more easily and quietly
than if the waiter has to stop and bring a fresh knife
and fork for each person before he helps to the dish,
whatever it is.”
“But why is there nothing on
the table but flowers and pretty little things?
And why do they put lemon-peel in the bowls of water?”
“Well, the lemon is supposed
to take the smell of dinner away from the fingers.
And it isn’t always lemon. Frederic is apt
to drop in a geranium leaf or a sprig of lemon-verbena,
and those are nicer. As for the other thing,
it is more convenient for many reasons not to have
the carving done on the table; but aside from that,
I imagine that in the first instance the custom was
a matter of economy.”
“Economy!” repeated Candace, opening wide
her eyes.
“Yes, economy, though it seems
droll to say so. In the old days, when the meat
came on in a big platter, and the vegetables each in
its large covered dish, people had to put more on
table than was really wanted, for the sake of not
looking mean and giving their neighbors occasion for
talk. Now, when everything is carved on a side-table
and a nice little portion carried to each person,
you are able to do with exactly what is needed.
There need not be a great piece of everything left
over for look’s sake. One chicken is enough
for four or five people if it is skilfully carved,
but the chicken would look rather scanty on a platter
by itself; don’t you think so?”
“Yes,” said Cannie, with
a little laugh. She had forgotten her troubles
in the interest of the discussion.
“A dish containing one mutton-chop
and a spoonful of peas for each person would be called
a stingy dish in the country, where every one sees
his food on the table before him,” continued
Mrs. Gray; “but it is quite enough for the single
course it is meant to be at a city dinner. There
is no use in having three or four chops left over to
toughen and grow cold.”
“I see,” said Cannie,
thoughtfully; “what else did I do that was wrong,
Cousin Kate?”
“You called Frederic ‘sir,’”
replied her cousin, with a smile. “That
was not wrong, but not customary. Servants are
expected to say ‘sir’ and ‘ma’am’
to their employers as a mark of respect; and people
not servants use the word less frequently than they
formerly did. They keep such terms for elderly
or distinguished persons, to whom they wish to show
special deference.”
“But Aunt Myra always made
me say ‘sir’ and ‘ma’am’
to her and grandpapa. She said it was impolite
not to.”
“She was quite right; for she
and your grandfather were a great deal older than
yourself, and it was only respectful to address them
so. But you need not use the phrase to everybody
to whom you speak.”
“Not to you?”
“Well, I would quite as soon
that in speaking to me you said, ’Yes, Cousin
Kate,’ as ‘Yes, ma’am.’
That is what I have taught my children to do.
They say, ‘Yes, mamma;’ ‘Did you
call me, papa?’ I like the sound of it better;
but it is only a matter of taste. There is no
real right or wrong involved in it.”
Candace sat for a moment in silence,
revolving these new ideas in her mind.
“Cousin Kate,” she said
timidly, “will you tell me when I make little
mistakes, like that about the knife? I’d
like to learn to do things right if I could, and if
it wouldn’t trouble you too much.”
“Dear Cannie,” and
Mrs. Gray kissed her, “I will, of
course; and I am glad you like to have me. Your
mother was the sweetest, most refined little lady
that I ever knew. I loved her dearly; and I should
love to treat you as I do my own girls, to whom I
have to give a hint or a caution or a little lecture
almost every day of their lives. No girl ever
grew into a graceful, well-bred woman without many
such small lessons from somebody. If your mother
had lived, all these things would have come naturally
to you from the mere fact of being with her and noticing
what she did. You would have needed no help from
any one else. But are you sure,” she went
on, after a little pause, “that you won’t
end by thinking me tiresome or interfering or worrisome,
if I do as I say?”
“No, indeed, I won’t!”
cried Candace, to whom this long talk had been like
the clearing up after a thunder-shower. “I
think it would be too mean if I felt that way
when you are so kind.”