Dolly was, however, partly mistaken.
Lady Brierley was a help. First, for the likenesses.
Dolly painted so charming a little picture of her
ladyship that it was a perpetual letter of recommendation;
Lady Brierley’s friends desired to have Dolly’s
pencil do the same service for them; neighbouring
families saw and admired her work and came to beg
to have her skill exerted on their behalf; and, in
short, orders flowed in upon Dolly to the full occupation
of all the time she had to give to them. They
paid well, too. For that, Dolly had referred to
Lady Brierley to say what the price ought to be; and
Lady Brierley, guessing need on the one hand and knowing
abundance on the other, had set the price at a very
pretty figure; and money quite piled itself up in
Dolly’s secret hoard. She was very glad
of it; for her supplies from her father became more
and more precarious. He seemed to shut his eyes
when he came to Brierley, and not recognise the fact
that anything was wanting or missing. And well
Dolly knew that such wilful oversight could never
happen if Mr. Copley were himself doing true and faithful
work; she knew he was going in false and dangerous
ways, without being able to follow him and see just
what they were. Her one comfort was, that her
mother did not seem to read the signs that were so
terribly legible to herself.
And here too Lady Brierley’s
new-found friendship was of use. She wrought
a diversion for the girl’s troubled spirits.
She was constantly having Dolly at the House.
Dolly objected to leaving her mother; at the same
time Mrs. Copley very much objected to have Dolly stay
at home when such chances offered; so, at first to
paint, and then to give her sweet company, Dolly went
often, and spent hours at a time with Lady Brierley,
who on her part grew more and more fond of having the
little American girl in her society. Dolly was
a novelty, and a mystery, and a beauty. Lady
Brierley’s son was in Russia; so there was no
harm in her being a beauty, but the contrary; it was
pleasant to the eyes. And Dolly was naïve,
and fresh, and independent too, with a manner as fearless
and much more frank than Lady Brierley’s own,
and yet with as simple a reserve of womanly dignity
as any lady could have; and how a girl that painted
likenesses for money, and made her own bread, and
learned cookery of Mrs. Jersey, could talk to Lord
Brierley with such sweet, quiet freedom, was a puzzle
most puzzling to the great lady. So it was to
others, for at Brierley House Dolly often saw a great
deal of company. It did her good; it refreshed
her; it gave her a world of things to tell for the
amusement of her mother; and besides all that, she
felt that Lady Brierley was really a friend, and would
be kind if occasion were; indeed, she was kind now.
Dolly needed it all, for darker days
were coming, and the shadow of them was “cast
before,” as the manner is. With every visit
of Mr. Copley to the cottage, Dolly grew more uneasy.
He was not looking well, nor happy, nor easy; his
manner was constrained, his spirits were forced; and
for all that appeared, he might suppose that Dolly
and her mother could live on air. He gave them
nothing else to live on. What did he live on
himself, Dolly queried, besides wine? and she made
up her mind that, hard as it was, and doubtful as
the effect, she must have a talk with him the next
time he came down. “O father, father!”
she cried to herself in the bitterness of her heart,
“how can you! how can you! how can you!
It never, never ought to be, that a child is ashamed
for her father! The world is turned upside down.”
How intensely bitter it was, the children
who have always been proud of their parents can never
know. Dolly wrung her hands sometimes, in a distress
that was beyond tears; and then devoted herself with
redoubled ardour to her mother, to prevent her from
finding out how things were going. She would
have a plain talk with her father the next time he
came, very difficult as she felt it would be; things
could not go on as they were; or at least, not without
ending in a thorough breakdown. But what we purpose
is one thing; what we are able to execute is often
quite another thing.
It was a week or two before Mr. Copley
made his appearance. Dolly was looking from the
window, and saw the village fly drive up and her father
get out of it. She announced the fact to her mother,
and then ran down to the garden gate to meet him.
As their hands encountered at the gate, Dolly almost
fell back; took her hand from the latch, and only
put it forth again when she saw that her father could
not readily get the gate open. He was looking
ill; his gait was tottering, his eye wavering, and
when he spoke his utterance was confused. Dolly
felt as if a lump of ice had suddenly come where her
heart used to be.
“You are not well, father?”
she said as they went up the walk together.
“Well enough,” returned
Mr. Copley “all right directly.
Cursed wet weather got soaked to the bone haven’t
got warm yet.”
“Wet weather!” said Dolly;
“why, it is very sunny and warm. What are
you thinking of, father?”
“Sun don’t always
shine in England,” said Mr. Copley. “Let
me get in and have a cup of tea or coffee. You
don’t keep such a thing as brandy in the house,
do you?”
“You have had brandy enough
already,” said Dolly in a low, grave voice.
“I will make some coffee. Come in why,
you are trembling, father! Are you cold?”
“Haven’t been warm for
three days. Cold? yes. Coffee, Dolly, let
me have some coffee. It’s the vilest climate
a man ever lived in.”
“Why, father,” said Dolly,
laying her hand on his sleeve, “your coat is
wet! What have you done to yourself?”
“Wet? no, it isn’t.
I put on a dry coat to come down wouldn’t
be such a fool as to put on a wet one. Coffee,
Dolly! It’s cold enough for a fire.”
“But how did your coat get wet, father?”
“’Tisn’t wet.
I left a wet coat in London had enough of
it. If you go out in England you must get wet.
Give me some coffee, if you haven’t got any
brandy. I tell you, I’ve never been warm
since.”
Dolly ran up stairs, where Mrs. Copley
was making a little alteration in her dress.
“Mother,” she cried, “will
you go down and take care of father? He is not
well; I am afraid he has taken cold; I am going to
make him some coffee as fast as I can. Get him
to change his coat; it is wet.”
Then Dolly ran down again, every nerve
in her trembling, but forcing herself to go steadily
and methodically to work. She made a cup of strong
coffee, cooked a nice bit of beefsteak she had in the
house, rejoicing that she had it; and while the steak
was doing she made a plate of toast, such as she knew
both father and mother were fond of. In half
an hour she had it all ready and carried it up on a
tray. Mrs. Copley was sitting with an anxious
and perplexed face watching her husband; he had crept
to the empty fireplace and was leaning towards it
as towards a place whence comfort ought to be looked
for. His wife had persuaded him to exchange the
wet coat for an old dressing-gown, which change, however,
seemed to have wrought no bettering of affairs.
“What is the matter?”
said poor Mrs. Copley with a scared face. “I
can’t make out anything from what he says.”
“He has caught cold, I think,”
said Dolly very quietly; though her face was white,
and all the time of her ministrations in the kitchen
she had worked with that feeling of ice at her heart.
“Father, here is your coffee, and it is good;
maybe this will make you feel better.”
She had set her dishes nicely on the
table; she had poured out the coffee and cut a piece
of the steak; but Mr. Copley would look at no food.
He drank a little coffee, and set the cup down.
“Sloppy stuff! Haven’t you got any
brandy?”
“You have had brandy already
this afternoon, father. Take the coffee now.”
“Brandy? my teeth were chattering,
and I took a wretched glass somewhere. Do give
me some more, Dolly! and stop this shaking.”
“Where did you get cold, Mr.
Copley?” asked his wife. “You have
caught a terrible cold.”
“Nothing of the kind. I
am all right. Just been in the rain; rain’ll
wet any man; my coat’s got it.”
“But when, Frank?”
urged his wife. “There has been no rain
to-day; it is clear, hot summer weather. When
were you in the rain?”
“I don’t know. Rain’s
rain. It don’t signify when. Have you
got nothing better than this? I shall not stop
shaking till morning.”
And he did not. They got him
to bed, and sat and watched by him, the mother and
daughter; watching the feverish trembling, and the
feverish flush that gradually rose in his cheeks.
They could get no more information as to the cause
of the mischief. The truth was, that two or three
nights previous, Mr. Copley had sat long at play and
drunk freely; lost freely too; so that when at last
he went home, his condition of mind and body was so
encumbered and confused that he took no account of
the fact that it was raining heavily. He was heated,
and the outer air was refreshing; Mr. Copley walked
home to his lodgings; was of course drenched through;
and on getting home had no longer clearness of perception
enough in exercise to know that he must take off his
wet clothes. How he passed the night he never
knew; but the morning found him very miserable, and
he had been miserable ever since. Pains and aches,
flushes of heat, creepings of inexplicable cold, would
not be chased away by any potations his landlady recommended
or by the stronger draughts to which Mr. Copley’s
habits bade him recur; and the third day, with something
of the same sort of dumb instinct which makes a wounded
or sick animal draw back to cover, he threw himself
into the post coach and went down to Brierley.
Naturally, he took advantage of stopping places by
the way to get something to warm him; and so reached
home at last in an altogether muddled and disordered
state of mind and body.
Neither Mrs. Copley nor Dolly would
go to bed that night. Not that there was much
to do, but there was much to fear; and they clung in
their fear to each other’s company. Mrs.
Copley dozed in an easy-chair part of the time; and
Dolly sat at the open window with her head on the
sill and lost herself there in slumber that was hardly
refreshing. The night saw no change; and the
morning was welcome, as the morning is in times of
sickness, because it brought stir and the necessity
of work to be done.
It was still early when Dolly, after
refreshing herself with water and changing her dress,
went downstairs. She opened the hall door, and
stood still a moment. The summer morning met her
outside, fresh with dew, heavy with the scent of roses,
musical with the song of birds; dim, sweet, full of
life, breathing loveliness, folding its loveliness
in mystery. As yet, things could be seen but confusedly;
the dark bank of Brierley Park with its giant trees
rose up against the sky, there was no gleam on the
little river, the outlines of nearer trees and bushes
were merged and indistinct; but what a hum and stir
and warble and chitter of happy creatures! how many
creatures to be happy! and what a warm breath of incense
told of the blessings of the summer day in store for
them! For them, and not for Dolly? It smote
her hard, the question and the answer. It was
for her too; it ought to be for her; the Lord’s
will was that all His creatures should be happy; and
some of his creatures would not! Some refused
the rich invitation, and would neither take themselves
nor let others take the bountiful, tender, blessed
gifts of God. It came to Dolly with an unspeakable
sore pain. Yes, the Lord’s will was peace
and joy and plenty for them all; fulness of gracious
supply; the singing of delighted hearts, loving and
praising Him. And men made their own choice to
have something else, and brought bitterness into what
was meant to be only sweet. Tears came slowly
into her eyes, mournful tears, and rolled down her
cheeks hopelessly. Whatever was to become now
of her little family? Her father, she feared,
was entering upon a serious illness, which might last
no one knew how long. Who would nurse him? and
if Dolly did, who would do the work of the household?
and if her father was laid by for any considerable
time, whence were needful supplies to come from?
Dolly’s little stock would not last for ever.
And how would her mother stand the strain and the
care and the fatigue? It seemed to Dolly as she
stood there at the door, that her sky was closing in
and the ground giving way beneath her feet. Usually
she kept up her courage bravely; just now it failed.
“Dolly,” her mother’s
voice came smothered from over the balusters of the
upper hall.
“Yes, mother?”
“Send Nelly for the doctor as soon as you can.”
“Yes, mother. As soon as it is light enough.”
The doctor! that was another thought.
Then there would be the doctor’s bill.
But at this point Dolly caught herself up. “Take
no thought for the morrow” what
did that mean? “Be careful for nothing;
but in everything by prayer and supplication, with
thanksgiving, let your requests be made known unto
God.” And, “Who shall separate us
from the love of Christ?” The words loosed the
bands which seemed to have bound Dolly’s heart
in iron; she broke down, fell down on her knees in
the porch, resting her head on the seat, and burst
into a thunder-shower of weeping, which greatly cleared
the air and relieved the oppression under which she
had been labouring. This was nearly as uncommon
a thing for Dolly as her former hopeless mood; she
rose up feeling shaken, and yet strengthened.
Ready for duty.
She went into the little sitting-room,
set open the casement, and put the furniture in order,
dusting and arranging. Leaving that all right,
Dolly went down to the kitchen and made the fire.
She was thinking what she should do for breakfast,
when her little handmaid made her appearance.
Dolly gave her some bread and butter and cold coffee,
and sent her off to the village with a note to the
doctor which she had meanwhile prepared. Left
to herself then, she put on her kettle, and looked
at the untouched pieces of beefsteak she had cooked
last night. She knew what to do with them, thanks
to Mrs. Jersey. The next thing was to go out
into the dewy garden and get a handful of different
herbs and vegetables growing there; and what she did
with them I will not say; but in a little while Dolly
had a most savoury mess prepared. Then she crept
upstairs to her mother. Here everything was just
as it had been all night. Dolly whispered to
her mother to come down and have some breakfast.
Mrs. Copley shook her head.
“You must, mother, dear.
I have got something nice and father is
sleeping; he don’t want you. Come!
I have got it in the kitchen, for Nelly is away, and
it’s less trouble, and keeps the coffee hot.
Come! father won’t want anything for a little
while, and you and I do, and must have it, or we cannot
stand what is on our hands. Come, mother.
Wash your face, and it will refresh you, and come right
down.”
The little kitchen was very neat;
the window was open and the summer morning looking
in; nobody was there but themselves; and so there might
be many a worse place to take breakfast in. And
the meal prepared was dainty, though simple.
Mrs. Copley could not eat much, nor Dolly; and yet
the form of coming to breakfast and the nicety of the
preparation were a comfort; they always are; they
seem to say that all things are not confusion, and
give a kind of guaranty for the continuance of old
ways. Still, Mrs. Copley did not eat much, and
soon went back to her watch; and Dolly cleared the
table and considered what she could have for dinner.
For dinner must be as usual; on that she was determined.
But the doctor’s coming was the next thing on
the programme.
The doctor came and made his visit,
and Dolly met him in the hall as he was going away.
He was a comfortable-looking man, with the long English
whiskers; ruddy and fleshy; one who, Dolly was sure,
had no objection, for his own part, to a good glass
of wine, or even a good measure of beer, if the wine
were not forthcoming.
“Your father, is it?”
said the doctor. “Well, take care of him take
care of him.”
“How shall we take care of him, sir?”
“Well, I’ve left medicines
upstairs. He won’t want much to eat; nor
much of anything, for a day or two.”
“What is it? Cold?”
“No, my young lady. Fever.”
“He got himself wet in the rain,
a few days ago. He was shivering last night.”
“Very likely. That’s
fever. Must take its course. He’s not
shivering now.”
“Will he be long ill, sir, probably?”
“Impossible to say. These
things are not to be counted upon. May get up
in a day or two, but far more likely not in a week
or two. Good morning!”
A week or two! Dolly stood and
looked after the departing chaise which carried the
functionary who gave judgment so easily on matters
of life and death. The question came back.
What would become of her mother and her, if watching
and nursing had to be kept up for weeks? with
all the rest there was to do. Dolly felt very
blue for a little while; then she shook it off again
and took hold of her work. Nelly had returned
by this time, with a knuckle of veal from the butcher’s.
Dolly put it on, to make the nicest possible delicate
stew for her mother; and even for her father she thought
the broth might, do. She gathered herbs and vegetables
in the garden again, and a messenger came from Mrs.
Jersey with a basket of strawberries; Dolly wrote
a note to go back with the basket, and altogether
had a busy morning of it. For bread had also to
be made; and her small helpmate was good for only the
simplest details of scrubbing and sweeping and washing
dishes. It was with the greatest difficulty after
all that Dolly coaxed her mother to come down to dinner;
Nelly being left to keep watch the while and call them
if anything was wanted.
“I can’t eat, Dolly!”
Mrs. Copley said, when she was seated at Dolly’s
board.
“Mother, it is necessary.
See this is what you like, and it is very
good, I know. And these potatoes are excellent.”
“But, Dolly, he may be sick
for weeks, for aught we can tell; it is a low fever.
Oh, this is the worst of all we have had yet!”
cried Mrs. Copley, wringing her hands.
It did look so, and for a moment Dolly
could not speak. Her heart seemed to stand still.
“Mother, we don’t know,”
she said. “We do not know anything.
It may be no such matter; it may not last so;
the doctor cannot tell; and anyhow, mother, God does
know and He will take care. We can trust Him,
can’t we? and meanwhile what you and I have to
do is to keep up our strength and our faith and our
spirits. Eat your dinner like a good woman.
I am going to make a cup of tea for you. Perhaps
father would take some.”
“And you,” said Mrs. Copley,
eyeing her. Dolly had a white kitchen apron on,
it is true, but she was otherwise in perfect order
and looked very lovely. “What about me?”
she said.
“Doing kitchen work! You,
who are fit for something so different!”
Mrs. Copley had to get rid of some tears here.
“Doing kitchen work? Yes,
certainly, if that is the thing given me to do.
Why not? Isn’t my veal good? I’ll
do anything, mother, that comes to hand, provided
I can do it. Mother, we don’t trust
half enough. Remember who it is gives me the
cooking to do. Shall I not do what He gives me?
And I can tell you one little secret I like
to do cooking. Isn’t it good?”
Mrs. Copley made a very respectable dinner after all.
This was the manner of the beginning
of Mr. Copley’s illness. Faith and courage
were well tried as the days went on; for though never
violently ill, he never mended. Day and night
the same tedious low fever held him, wearing down
not his strength only but that of the two whose unaided
hands had to manage all that was done. Dolly did
not know where to look for a nurse, and Mrs. Copley
was utterly unwilling to have one called in.
She herself roused to the emergency and ceased to complain
about her own troubles; she sat up night after night,
with only partial help from Dolly, who had her hands
full with the care of the house and the day duty and
the sick cookery. And as day after day went by,
and night after night was watched through, and days
and nights began to run into weeks, the strength and
nervous energy of them both began at times to fail.
Neither showed it to the other, except as pale faces
and weary eyes told their story. Mrs. Copley
cried in secret, at night, with her head on the window-sill;
and Dolly went with slow foot to gather her herbs
and vegetables, and sat down sometimes in the porch,
in the early dawn or the evening gloom, and allowed
herself to own that things were looking very dark
indeed. The question was, how long would it be
possible to go on as they were doing? how long would
strength hold out? and money? The
doctor’s fees took great pinches out of Dolly’s
fund; and for the present there was no adding to it.
Lady Brierley was away; she had gone to the seaside.
Mrs. Jersey was very kind; fruit and eggs and vegetables
came almost daily from the House to Dolly’s help,
and the kind housekeeper herself had offered to sit
up with the sick man; but this offer was refused.
Mr. Copley did not like to see any stranger about
him. And Dolly and her mother were becoming now
very tired. As the weeks went on, they ceased
to look in each other’s faces any more with
questioning eyes; they knew too well how anxiety and
effort had told upon both of them, and each was too
conscious of what the other was thinking and fearing.
They did not meet each other’s eyes with those
mute demands in them any more; but they stole stealthy
glances sometimes each to see how the other face looked;
what tokens of wear and tear it was showing; taking
in at a rapid view the lines of weariness, the marks
of anxiety, the faded colour, the languor of spirit
which had gradually taken the place of the earlier
energy. In word and action they showed none of
all this. All the more, no doubt, when each was
alone and the guard might be relaxed, a very grave
and sorrowful expression took possession of their
faces. Nothing else might be relaxed. Day
and night the labour and the watch were unintermitting.
And so the summer wore on to an end.
Dolly was patient, but growing very sad; perhaps taking
a wider view of things than her mother, who for the
present was swallowed up in the one care about her
husband’s condition. Dolly, managing the
finances and managing the household, had both parents
to think of; and was sometimes almost in despair.
She was sitting so one afternoon in
the kitchen, in a little lull of work before it was
time to get supper, looking out into the summer glow.
It was warm in the small kitchen, but Dolly had not
energy to go somewhere else for coolness. She
sat gazing out, and almost querying whether all things
were coming to an end at once; life and the means to
live together, and the strength to get means.
And yet she remembered that it is written “Trust
in the Lord, and do good; so shalt thou dwell in the
land, and verily thou shalt be fed.”
But then, it came cold into her heart, it
could not be said that her father and mother had ever
fulfilled those conditions; could the promise be good
for her faith alone? And truly, where
was Dolly’s faith just now? Withal, as
she sat gazing out of the window, she saw that full
wealth of summer, which was a pledge and proof of
the riches of the hand from which it came.
“There’s a gentleman,
mum,” Dolly’s little helpmate announced
in her ear. Dolly started.
“A gentleman? what gentleman?
It isn’t the doctor? He has been here.”
“It’s no him. I knows Dr. Hopley.
It’s no him.”
“I cannot see company. Is it company, Nelly?”
“The gentleman didn’t say, mum.”
“Where is he?”
“He’s a standin’ there at the door.”
Dolly slowly rose up and doubtfully
took off her great kitchen apron; doubtfully went
upstairs. Perhaps she had better see who it was.
Mrs. Jersey might have sent a messenger, or
Lady Brierley! She went on to the hall door,
which was open, and where indeed she saw a tall figure
against the summer glow which filled all out of doors.
A tall figure, a tall, upright figure; at first Dolly
could see only the silhouette of him against the warm
outer light. She came doubtfully close up to the
open door. Then she could see a little more besides
the tallness; a peculiar uprightness of bearing, a
manly, frank face, a head of close curling dark hair,
and an expression of pleasant expectation; there was
a half smile on the face, and a deferential look of
waiting. He stood bareheaded before her, and
had not the air of a stranger; but Dolly was quite
bewildered. Somebody altogether strange, and yet
somehow familiar. She said nothing; her eyes
questioned why, being a stranger, he should stand
there with such a look upon his face.
“I am afraid I am not remembered,”
said the gentleman, with the smile coming out a little
more. His look, too, was steady and straightforward
and observant, where had Dolly seen that
mixture of quietness and resoluteness? Her eyes
fell to the little cap in his hand, an officer’s
cap, and then light came into them.
“Oh!” she cried, “Mr.
Shubrick!”
“It is a long time since that
Christmas Day at Rome,” he said; a more wistful
gravity coming into his face as he better scanned the
face opposite to him, which the evening light revealed
very fully.
“Oh, I know now,” said
Dolly. “I do not need to be reminded; but
I could not expect to see you here. I thought
you were in the Mediterranean. Will you come
in, Mr. Shubrick? I am very glad to see you;
but my thoughts were so far away”
“You thought I was in the Mediterranean?”
he said as he followed Dolly in. “May I
ask, why?”
“Your ship was there.”
“Was there; but ships are not stationary
things.”
“No, of course not,” said
Dolly, throwing open the blinds and letting the summer
light and fragrance stream in. “Then, when
did you see Christina?”
“Not for months. The Red
Chief has been ordered to the Baltic and is there
now; and I got a furlough to come to England.
But how do you do, Miss Copley?”
“I am well, thank you.”
“Forgive me for asking, if that information
can be depended on?”
“Yes, indeed I am well.
I suppose I look tired. We have had sickness
here for a good while my father. Mother
and I are tired, no doubt.”
“You look very tired. I
am afraid I ought not to be here. Can you make
me of use? What is the matter? Please remember
that I am not a stranger.”
“I am very glad to remember
it,” said Dolly. “No, I do not feel
as if you were a stranger, Mr. Shubrick, after that
day we spent together. You asked what was the
matter oh, I don’t know! a sort of
slow, nervous fever, not infectious at all, nor very
alarming; only it must be watched, and he always wants
some one with him, and of course after a while one
gets tired. That cannot be helped. We have
managed very well.”
“Not Mrs. Copley and you alone?”
“Yes.”
“How long?”
“It is five weeks now.”
“And no improvement yet?”
“I do not know. Mother
thinks a little,” said Dolly, faltering.
This speaking to eyes and ears of sympathy, after
so long an interval, rather upset her; her lips trembled,
tears came, she was upon the point of breaking down;
she struggled for self-command, but her lips trembled
more and more.
“I have come in good time,” said her visitor.
“It is pleasant to see somebody,
to be able to speak to somebody, that is so good as
to care,” said Dolly, brushing her hand over
her eyes swiftly.
“You are worn out,” said
the other gently. “I am not going to be
simply somebody to speak to. Miss Copley, I am
a countryman, and a sort of a friend, you know.
You will let me take the watch to-night.”
“You!” said Dolly, starting. “Oh
no!”
“I beg your pardon. You
ought to say ‘Oh yes.’ I have had
experience. I think you may trust me.”
“Oh, I cannot. We have no right to let
you do so.”
“You have a right to make any
use of me you can; for I place myself at your disposal.”
“You are very kind, Mr. Shubrick!”
“Don’t say anything more.
That is settled,” said he, taking up his cap,
as if in preparation for departure. Dolly was
a little bewildered by the quiet, decided manner,
just like what she remembered of Mr. Shubrick; unobtrusive
and undemonstrative, but if he moved, moving straight
to his goal. She rose as he rose.
“But,” she stammered,
“I don’t think you can. Father likes
nobody but mother and me about him.”
“He will like me to-morrow,”
Mr. Shubrick answered with a smile. “Don’t
fear; I will manage that.”
“You are very kind!” said
Dolly. “You are very kind!” Already
her heart was leaping towards this offered help, and
Mr. Shubrick looked so resolute and strong and ready;
she could hardly oppose him. “But you are
too kind!” she said suddenly.
“No,” said he gravely;
“that is impossible. Remember, in the family
we belong to, the rule is one which we can never reach.
’That ye love one another, even as I have loved
you.’”
What it was, I do not know, in these
words which overcame Dolly. In the words and
the manner together. She was very tired and overstrung,
and they found some unguarded spot and reached the
strained nerves. Dolly put both hands to her
face and burst into tears, and for a moment was terribly
afraid that she was going to be hysterical. But
that was not Dolly’s way at all, and she made
resolute fight against her nerves. Meanwhile,
she felt herself taken hold of and placed in a chair
by the window; and the sense that somebody was watching
her and waiting, helped the return of self-control.
With a sort of childish sob, Dolly presently took
down her hands and looked up through the glistening
tears at the young man standing over her.
“There!” she said, forcing
a smile on the lips that quivered, “I
am all right now. I do not know how I could be
so foolish.”
“I know,” said
Mr. Shubrick. “Then I will just return to
the village for half and hour, and be back here as
soon as possible.”
“But” said
Dolly doubtfully. “Why don’t you send
for what you want?”
“Difficult,” said the
other. “I am going to get some supper.”
“Oh!” said Dolly.
“If that is what you want sit
down, Mr. Shubrick. Or send off your fly first,
and then sit down. If you are going to stay here
to-night, I’ll give you your supper. Send
away the fly, Mr. Shubrick, please!”
“I do not think I can.
And you cannot possibly do such a thing as you propose.
I shall be back here in a very little time.”
Dolly put her hand upon Mr. Shubrick’s
cap and softly took it from him.
“No,” she said. “It’s
a bargain. If I let you do one thing, you must
let me do the other. It would trouble me to have
you go. It is too pleasant to see a friend here,
to lose sight of him in this fashion. There will
be supper, of some sort, and you shall have the best
we can. Will you send away your fly, please,
and sit down and wait for it?”
If Dolly could not withstand him,
so on this point there was no resisting her.
Mr. Shubrick yielded to her evident urgent wish; and
Dolly went back to her preparations. The question
suddenly struck her, where should she have
supper? Down here in the kitchen? But to
have it in order, upstairs, would involve a great
deal more outlay of strength and trouble. The
little maid could not set the table up there, and
Dolly could not, with the stranger looking on.
That would never do. She debated, and finally
decided to put her pride in her pocket and bring her
visitor down to the kitchen. It was not a bad
place, and if he was going to be a third nurse in
the house, it would be out of keeping to make any
ceremony with him. Dolly’s supper itself
was faultless. She had some cold game, sent by
Lady Brierley or by her order; she had fresh raspberries
sent by Mrs. Jersey, and a salad of cresses.
But Mrs. Copley would not be persuaded to make her
appearance. She did not want to see strangers;
she did not like to leave Mr. Copley; in short, she
excused herself obstinately, to Dolly’s distress.
However, she made no objection to having Mr. Shubrick
take her place for the night; and she promised Dolly
that if she got a good night’s sleep and was
rested, she would appear at breakfast.