“Oh Norton! Oh Norton! do you know what
has happened?”
Matilda had left the study and rushed
out into the dining-room to tell her news, if indeed
it were news to Norton. She had heard his step.
Norton seemed in a preoccupied state of mind.
“Yes!” he said. “I
know that confounded shoemaker has left something in
the heel of my boot which is killing me.”
Matilda was not like some children.
She could wait; and she waited, while Norton pulled
off his boot, made examinations into the interior,
and went stoutly to work with penknife and file.
In the midst of it he looked up, and asked,
“What has happened to you, Pink?”
“Then don’t you know yet, Norton?”
“Of course not. I would
fine all shoemakers who leave their work in such a
slovenly state! If I didn’t limp all the
way from the bridge here, it was because I wouldn’t, not
because I wouldn’t like to.”
“Why not limp, if it saved your foot?”
inquired Matilda.
“You would, Pink, wouldn’t you?”
“Why, yes; certainly I would.”
“Well, you might,” said
Norton. “But did you ever read the story
of the Spartan boy and the fox?”
“No.”
“He stole a fox,” said
Norton, working away at the inside of his boot, which
gave him some trouble.
“But you haven’t stolen a fox.”
“I should think not,”
said Norton. “The boy carried the fox home
under his cloak; and it was not a tame fox, Pink,
by any means, and did not like being .carried, I suppose;
and it cut and bit and tore at the boy all the while,
under his cloak; so that by the time he got the fox
home, it had made an end of him.”
“Why didn’t he let the fox go?”
“Ah! why didn’t he?”
said Norton. “He was a boy, and he would
have been ashamed.”
“And you would have been ashamed to limp in
the street, Norton?”
“For a nail in my boot.
What is a man good for, that can’t stand anything?”
“I should not have been ashamed at all.”
“You’re a girl,”
said Norton approvingly. “It is a different
thing. What is your news, Pink?”
“But Norton, I don’t see
why it is a different thing. Why should not a
woman be as brave as a man, and as strong, in
one way?”
“I suppose, because she is not
as strong in the other way. She hasn’t
got it to do, Pink, that’s all. But a man,
or a boy, that can’t bear anything without limping,
is a muff; that’s the whole of it.”
“A muff’s a nice thing,” said Matilda
laughing.
“Not if it’s a boy,”
said Norton. “Go on with your news, Pink.
What is it?”
“I wonder if you know.
Oh Norton, do you know what your mother and Mr. Richmond
have been talking about?”
“I wasn’t there,”
said Norton. “If you were, you may tell
me.”
“I was not there. But Mr.
Richmond has been talking to me about it. Norton,” and
Matilda’s voice sank, “do you
know, they have been arranging, and your mother wishes
it, that I should stay with her?”
Matilda spoke the last words very
softly, in the manner of one who makes a communication
of somewhat awful character; and in truth it had a
kind of awe for her. Evidently not for Norton.
He had almost finished his boot, and he kept on with
his filing, as coolly as if what Matilda said had
no particular interest or novelty. She would have
been disappointed, but that she had caught one gleam
from Norton’s eye which flashed like an electric
spark. She just caught it, and then Norton went
on calmly,
“I think that is a very sensible
arrangement, Pink. I must say, it is not the
first time it has occurred to me.”
“Then you knew it before?”
“I did not know they had settled it,”
said Norton, still coolly.
“But you knew it was talked about? O Norton!
why didn’t you tell me?”
Norton looked up, smiled, dropped
his boot, and at once took his new little sister in
his arms and clasped her right heartily.
“What for should I tell you,
Pink?” he said, kissing Matilda’s eyes,
where the tears of that incipient disappointment had
gathered.
“How could you help telling me?”
“Ah, that is another thing,”
said Norton. “You couldn’t have helped
it, could you?”
“But it is true now, Norton.”
“Ay, it is true; and you belong
to mamma and me now, Pink; and to nobody else in the
wide world. Isn’t that jolly?”
“And to Mr. Richmond,” Matilda added.
“Not a bit to Mr. Richmond;
not a fraction,” said Norton. “He
may be your guardian and your minister if you like;
and I like him too; he’s a brick; but you belong
to nobody in the whole world but mamma and me.”
“Well, Norton,” said Matilda,
with a sigh of pleasure “I’m
glad.”
“Glad!” said Norton.
“Now come, let us sit right down and
see some of the things we’ll do.”
“Yes. But no, Norton; I
must get Mr. Richmond’s supper. I shall
not have many times more to do that; Miss Redwood
will be soon home, you know.”
“And we too, I hope. I
declare, Pink, I believe you like getting supper.
Here goes! What is to do?”
“Nothing, for you, Norton.”
“Kettle on?”
“On ages ago. You may see if it is boiling.”
“How can an iron kettle boil? If you’ll
tell me that.”
“Why, the water boils that is in it. The
kettle is put for the water.”
“And what right have you to
put the kettle for the water? At that rate, one
might do all sorts of things Now Pink, how
can I tell if the water boils? The steam is coming
out of the nose.”
“That’s no sign, Norton. Does
it sing?”
“Sing!” said Norton.
“I never learned kettle music. No, I don’t
think it does. It bubbles; the water in it I
mean.”
Matilda came in laughing. “No,”
she said, “it has stopped singing; and now it
boils. The steam is coming out from under the
cover. That’s a sign. Now, Norton,
if you like, you may make a nice plate of toast, and
I’ll butter it. Mr. Richmond likes toast,
and he is tired to-night, I know.”
“I can’t make a plate,”
said Norton; “but I’ll try for the toast.
Is it good for people that are tired?”
“Anything comfortable is, Norton.”
“I wouldn’t be a minister!”
said Norton softly, as he carefully turned and toasted
the bread, “I would not be a minister,
for as much as you could give me.”
“Why, Norton? I think I would if
I was a man.”
“He has no comfort of his life,”
said Norton. “This sort of a minister doesn’t
have. He is always going, going; and running to
see people that want him, and stupid people too; he
has to talk to them, all the same as if they were
clever, and put up with them; and he’s always
working at his sermons and getting broken off.
What comfort of his life does Mr. Richmond have now?
except when you and I make toast for him?”
“O Norton, I think he has a great deal.”
“I don’t see it.”
Matilda stood wondering, and then
smiled; the comfort of her life was so much
just then. The slices of toast were getting brown
and buttered, and made a savory smell all through
the kitchen; and now Matilda made the tea, and the
flowery fragrance of that added another item to what
seemed the great stock of pleasure that afternoon.
As Miss Redwood had once said, the minister knew a
cup of good tea when he saw it; and it was one of
the few luxuries he ever took pains to secure; and
the sweetness of it now in the little parsonage kitchen
was something very delicious. Then Matilda went
and put her head in at the study door.
“Tea is ready, Mr. Richmond.”
But the minister did not immediately
obey the summons, and the two children stood behind
their respective chairs, waiting. Matilda’s
face was towards the western windows.
“Are you very miserable, Pink?” said Norton,
watching her.
“I am so happy, Norton!”
“I want to get home now,”
said Norton, drumming upon his chair. “I
want you there. You belong to mamma and me, and
to nobody else in the whole world, Pink; do you know
that?”
Except Mr. Richmond was
again in Matilda’s thoughts; but she did not
say it this time. It was nothing against Norton’s
claim.
“Where is the minister?”
Norton went on. “You called him.”
“O he has got some stupid body
with him, keeping him from tea.”
“That is what I said,”
Norton repeated. “I wouldn’t live
such a life not for money.”
Mr. Richmond came however at this
moment, looking not at all miserable; glanced at the
two happy faces with a bright eye; then for an instant
they were still, while the sweet willing words of prayer
went up from lips and heart to bless the board.
“What is it that you would not
do for money, Norton?” Mr. Richmond asked as
he received his cup of tea.
Norton hesitated and coloured. Matilda spoke
for him.
“Mr. Richmond, may we ask you something?”
“Certainly!” said the minister, with a
quick look at the two faces.
“If you wouldn’t think
it wrong for us to ask. Is the I
mean, do you think, the life of a minister
is a very hard one?”
“So that is the question, is
it?” said Mr. Richmond smiling. “Is
Norton thinking of taking the situation?”
“Norton thinks it cannot be
a comfortable life, Mr. Richmond; and I thought he
was mistaken.”
“What do you suppose a minister’s
business is, Norton? that is the first consideration.
You must know what a man has to do, before you can
judge whether it is hard to do it.”
“I thought I knew, sir.”
“Yes, I suppose so; but it don’t follow
that you do.”
“I know part,” said Norton.
“A minister has to preach sermons, and marry
people, and baptize children, and read prayers at funerals
and ”
“Go on,” said Mr. Richmond.
“I was going to say, it seems
to me, he has to talk to everybody that wants to talk
to him.”
“How do you get along with that
difficulty?” said Mr. Richmond. “It
attacks other people besides ministers.”
“I dodge them,” said Norton.
“But a minister cannot, can he, sir?”
Mr. Richmond laughed.
“Well, Norton,” he said,
“you have given a somewhat sketchy outline of
a minister’s life; but my question remains yet, what
is the business of his life. You would not say
that planing and sawing are the business of a carpenter’s
life would you?”
“No, sir.”
“What then?”
“Building houses, and ships, and barns, and
bridges.”
“And a tailor’s life is
not cutting and snipping, but making clothes.
So my commission is not to make sermons. What
is it?”
Norton looked at a loss, and expectant; Matilda enjoying.
“The same that was given to
the apostle Paul, and no worse. I am sent to
people ’to open their eyes, and to turn them
from darkness to light, and from the power of Satan
to God, that they may receive forgiveness of sins,
and inheritance among them which are sanctified.’”
“But I do not understand, Mr.
Richmond,” said Norton, after a little pause.
“What?”
“If you will excuse me.
I do not understand that. Can you open people’s
eyes?”
“He who sends me does that,
by means of the message which I carry. ’How
can they believe on him of whom they have not heard?’”
“I see ” said Norton very respectfully.
“You see, I am the King’s
messenger. And my business is, to carry the King’s
message. It is possible to make sermons, and not
do that.”
“I don’t think I ever
heard the message, or anything that sounded like a
message, in our church,” said Norton.
“Do you know what the message is?”
Norton looked up from his toast and seemed a little
taken aback.
“You might have heard it without knowing it”
“Might I? What is the message, sir?”
“This is it. That God wants
and calls for the love of every human heart; and that
on his part he loves us so well, as to give his own
Son to die for us, that we might be saved through
him.”
“Why to die for us?” inquired Norton.
“Because we all deserved to
die, and he took our place. ’He tasted
death for every man.’ So for you and for
me. What do we owe to one who gave his life to
ransom ours?”
“I see,” said
Norton again thoughtfully. “But Mr. Richmond,
people do not always hear the message do
they?”
“You can tell,” said Mr. Richmond, shortly.
“I see!” repeated Norton.
“It isn’t making sermons. I don’t
see, though, why it isn’t a hard life.”
“That requires another explanation,
but it is not difficult. How would one naturally
feel, Norton, towards another, who by his own suffering
and death had saved him when he was bound to die?”
“You mean, who had done it on purpose?”
said Norton.
“On purpose. Just because he loved the
lost one.”
“Why,” said Norton, “if the man
had any heart in him”
“Well? What then?”
“Why, he wouldn’t think that his hand
was his own.”
“He would belong to his redeemer?”
“Yes, sir.”
“So I think, Norton. Then,
tell me, do you think it would be hard work to do
anything to please or serve such a friend? Would
even hardships seem hard?”
“I can’t think what would seem
hard,” said Norton eagerly.
But then a silence fell upon the little
party. Matilda had opened all her ears to hear
Norton speak in this manner; she was excited; she
almost thought that he was about to enter into the
life he seemed to understand so well; but Mr. Richmond
went on with his tea quite composedly, and Norton
was a little embarrassed. What was the matter?
Matilda wished some one would speak again; but Mr.
Richmond sent his cup to be filled, and stirred it,
and took another piece of toast, and Norton never
raised his eyes from his plate.
“That idea is new to you, my boy?” said
Mr. Richmond at last, smiling.
“I never well, yes; I
do not understand those things,” said Norton.
“You understood this?”
“Your words; yes, sir.”
“And the thing which my words meant?”
“I suppose yes, I suppose I do,”
said Norton.
“Do you understand the bearing of it on all
of us three at the table.”
Norton looked up inquiringly.
“You comprehend how it touches me?”
“Yes, sir,” Norton answered
with profound respect in eye and voice.
“And Matilda?”
The boy’s eye went quick and
sharp to the little figure at the head of the table.
What his look meant, Matilda could not tell; and he
did not speak.
“You comprehend how it touches Matilda?”
Mr. Richmond repeated.
“No, sir,” was answered
rather stoutly. It had very much the air of not
wanting to know.
“You should understand, if you
are to live in the same house together. The same
Friend has done the same kindness for Matilda that
he has done for me; he has given himself to death
that she might live; and she has heard it and believed
it, and obeyed his voice and become his servant.
What sort of life ought she to live?”
Norton stared at Mr. Richmond, not
in the least rudely, but like one very much discomfited.
He looked as if he were puzzling to find his way out
of a trap. But Matilda clapped her hands together,
exclaiming,
“I am so glad Norton understands
that! I never could make him understand it.”
“Why you never tried,” said Norton.
“O yes, I did, Norton; in different
ways. I suppose I never said it so that you could
understand it.”
“I don’t understand it now,” said
Norton.
“O Mr. Richmond! don’t he?” said
Matilda.
“Tell him,” said the minister.
“Perhaps you put it too cautiously. Tell
him in words that he cannot mistake, what sort of life
you mean to lead.”
The little girl hesitated and looked
at Norton. Norton, like one acting under protest,
looked at her. They waited, questioning each other’s
faces.
“It is that, Norton,”
Matilda said at last very gently, and with a sort
of tenderness in tone and manner which spoke for her.
“It is just that you said. I do not think
that my hand is my own.”
Norton looked at the little hand unconsciously
extended to point her words, as if he would have liked
to confiscate it; he made no reply, but turned to
his supper again. The conversation had taken a
turn he did not welcome.
“We have not done with the subject,”
Mr. Richmond went on. “You see how it touches
me now, and how it touches Matilda. You know by
your own shewing, what sort of life she ought to lead;
and so you will know how you ought to help her and
not hinder her in it. But Norton, how
does it touch you?”
The boy was not ready with an answer. Then he
said,
“I don’t see that it touches me any way,
sir.”
“On honour?” said Mr.
Richmond gently. “That same Friend has done
the same kindness for you.”
Norton looked as if he wished it were
not true; and as if very unwilling to admit anything.
“I wish you could hear what
I hear,” said Mr. Richmond. “So many
voices! ”
“What, sir?” asked both the children at
once.
“So many voices!” repeated
Mr. Richmond. “I hear the voice of love
now, from the skies, speaking that soft, sweet ‘Come!’
in the heart. I hear my own voice giving the
message. I hear the promise to them who seek
for glory, honour, and immortality. And I hear
the sound of the harps of those who have a new song
to sing, which none can learn but the hundred and
forty and four thousand which have been redeemed from
the earth. And I hear the rejoicing in heaven
of those who will say, ’Thou wast slain, and
hast redeemed us to God by thy blood, out of every
kindred and tongue and people and nation; and hast
made us unto our God kings and priests, and we shall
reign on the earth.’ And then there is
a throne and a judgment seat, and I hear a voice that
says, ’Well done, good and faithful servant;
enter thou into the joy of thy Lord.’ ”
Mr. Richmond’s voice had fallen
a little; his eyes were cast down. Norton’s
eyes were downcast too, and his face; it did not respond,
as Matilda’s face did; and when the party rose
from table a minute or two afterwards, Norton made
use of his liberty to quit the room and the house.
Matilda brought her tub of water to wash up the cups
and plates. Mr. Richmond had gone off to his
study.
The little girl touched the china
with soft delicate fingers; lifted each piece and
set it down with gentle noiselessness; the little clink
of the china keeping measure, perhaps, with the thoughts
which moved and touched, so gently, in her heart.
Presently Mr. Richmond came out again. He walked
up and down the little room several times; it was a
small walk, for a very few of his steps took him from
one corner to the other; then he came and stood beside
the table where Matilda was at work. The child
stopped and looked up at him wistfully. Their
eyes met; and a smile of much love and confidence
was exchanged between the two.
“Mr. Richmond,” said
Matilda, “isn’t it difficult, sometimes,
to keep hearing those voices?”
You could see the light spring into
the young man’s eyes; but he answered very quietly,
“Why, Matilda?”
“I think it is difficult,” the child repeated.
“You find it so?”
“I think, sometimes, Mr. Richmond, I don’t
hear them at all.”
“It is not necessary to be always thinking about
them.”
“No, I know that; but sometimes I seem to get
out of the sound of them.”
“How comes that?”
“I don’t know. I
think it must be because I am hearing other voices
so much.”
“You are right.”
Mr. Richmond began his pacing up and down again.
Matilda stood with a cup in her hands which she had
been washing, the water dripping from her fingers
and it into the tub.
“How can I help it, Mr. Richmond?”
Mr. Richmond was thinking perhaps
of Fenelon’s words: “O how rare is
it, to find a soul still enough to hear God speak!” but
he did not quote them to the child. He stood
still again.
“Tilly, when one gets out of
hearing of those voices, the enemy has a good chance
to whisper to us; and he never loses a chance.
That was what happened to Eve in the garden of Eden.”
“How can I do, Mr. Richmond?”
“I should say, dear, don’t get out of
hearing of them.”
“But, sometimes” Matilda
paused in difficulty. “Sometimes I am thinking
of so many other things, and my head gets full; and
then I do not know where I am.”
Mr. Richmond smiled. “You
could not have given a better description of the case,”
he said. “But Matilda, when you find that
you do not know where you are, run away, shut yourself
up, and find out. It isn’t safe to get
out of hearing of the Lord’s voice.”
“O Mr. Richmond!” said
the child. “I want to be where I can hear
it all the time.”
“There is one way. Don’t you know
it?”
“No, sir; I don’t think I do.”
“My dear child, it is very simple.
Only obey his voice when you hear it, and it will
always be with you. Obedience is the little key
that unlocks the whole mystery, the whole
mystery,” said Mr. Richmond, beginning to walk
up and down again. “When you hear ever so
soft a whisper in your heart, saying, ‘This
is the way,’ follow there; and so the Lord will
lead you always.”
Mr. Richmond went off to his study,
but paused again to say, “Study the twenty third
verse of the fourteenth chapter of John, Matilda; and
take that for your rule.”
Matilda went about softly, putting
the china in the pantry, making the table clean, hanging
up her towel and putting away her tub. Just as
she had finished, Mr. Richmond opened the door.
He had his hat and great coat on.
“Tilly, look after my fire,
will you?” he said. “I shall be gone
some time probably.”