Norton asked to be allowed to go with
the shopping party, which his mother refused.
To Matilda’s disappointment, she took Miss Judy
instead. Matilda would rather have had any other
one of the household. However, nothing could
spoil the pleasure of driving to Stewart’s.
To know it so cold, and yet feel so comfortable; to
see how the dust flew in whirlwinds and the wind caught
people and staggered them, and yet not to be touched
by a breath; to see how the foot travellers had to
fight with both wind and dust, and to feel at the same
time the easy security, the safe remove from everything
so ugly and disagreeable, which they themselves enjoyed
behind the glass of their Clarence; it was a very
pleasant experience. The other two did not seem
to enjoy it; they were accustomed to the sensation,
or it had ceased to be one for them. Matilda
was in a state of delight every foot of the way. This
was what she had come to, this safety and ease and
elegance and immunity. She was higher than the
street or the street-goers, by just so much as the
height of the axletree of the carriage. How about
those little dust covered street-sweepers?
The thought of them jarred. There
was nothing between them and the roughest of
the rough. How came they to be there, at the street
corners, and Matilda here, behind these clear plates
of glass which enclosed the front of the carriage?
“How very disagreeable it is
to day!” Mrs. Laval said with a shudder.
“This is some of New York’s worst weather.”
“It’s just horrid!” said Judy.
“I would not take a walk to-day,
for all I am worth,” the lady went on.
“There is one thing; there will be fewer people
out, and we shall not have to wait so fearfully long
to be served.”
The carriage stopped before a large
white building, and Matilda followed the others in,
full of curiosity and eager pleasure. In through
the swinging doors, and then through such a crowd of
confusion that she could think of nothing but to keep
close behind Mrs. Laval; till they all stopped at
a counter and Mrs. Laval sat down. What a wonderful
place it seemed to Matilda! A small world that
was all shops or one shop; and the only
business of that world was buying and selling things
to wear. Just at this counter people were getting
silk dresses, it appeared; here, and all round the
room in which Mrs. Laval was seated; blue and rose
silks were displayed in one part; black silks before
some customers; figured and parti-coloured silks were
held up to please others; what colour was there not?
and what beauty? Matilda found that whatever
Mrs. Laval wanted of her that afternoon, it was not
any help in making her purchases; and she was quite
at liberty to use her eyes upon everything. The
beautiful goods on the counters were the great attraction,
however; Matilda could not look away much from the
lustre of the crimson and green and blue and tawny
and grey and lavender which were successively or together
exhibited for Mrs. Laval’s behoof; and she listened
to find out if she could by the quantities ordered,
which of them, if any, were for herself. She was
pretty sure that a dark green and a crimson had that
destination; and her little heart beat high with pleasure.
From the silk room they went on to
another where the articles were not interesting to
look at; and Matilda discovered that the coming and
going people were. She turned her back
upon the counter and watched the stream as it flowed
past and around her. Miss Judith also here found
herself thrown out of amusement, and came round to
Matilda. They had hardly spoken to each other
hitherto. Now Miss Judy’s eye first went
up and down the little figure which was such a new
one in her surroundings. Matilda knew it, but
she could bear it.
“You were never here before?” said her
companion.
“Never,” Matilda answered.
“What do you think of it?”
“I think they have nice things here,”
said Matilda.
Judith did not at all know what to make of this answer.
“What is aunt Zara going to get for you?”
“I do not know some dresses, I think.”
Judith’s eye ran up and down
Matilda’s dress again. “That was made
in the country, wasn’t it?”
“Mrs. Laval had it made.”
“Yes, but you will want another.
Aunt Zara aunt Zara! Aren’t
you going to get her a cloak?”
“A cloak?” said Mrs. Laval
looking round. “Yes; that is what I brought
her for.”
“There!” said Judy, “now
you know something you didn’t know before.
What sort of a cloak would you like?”
“I don’t know,”
said Matilda in a flutter of delight. “Mrs.
Laval knows.”
“I suppose she does, but she
doesn’t know what you would like, unless you
tell her. Let us watch the people coming in and
see if we see anything you would like. Isn’t
it funny?”
“What?” Matilda asked.
“All of it. To see the
people. They are all sorts, you know, and so
funny. There are two Irish women, very
likely they have come in from the shanties near the
Central Park, to buy some calico dresses. Look
at them! ten cent calicoes, and they are
asking the shopman, I dare say, if they can’t
have that one for nine. I suppose the calicoes
are made for them. No, there is somebody else
wanting one. She’s from the country.”
“How do you know?”
“Easy enough. See how she
has got her hands folded over each other; nobody does
that but somebody that has come from the country.
See her hat, too; that’s a country hat.
If you could see her feet, you would see that she
has great thick country shoes.”
Judy’s eye as she spoke glanced
down again at the floor where Matilda’s feet
stood; and it seemed to Matilda that the very leather
of her boots could feel the look. They were
country boots. Did Judy mean, that?
“There’s another country
woman,” the young lady went on. “See? this
one in a velvet cloak. That’s a cotton velvet,
though.”
“But how can you tell she’s from the country?”
“She’s all corners!”
said Judith. “Her cloak was made by a carpenter,
and her head looks as if it was made by a mason.
If you could see her open her mouth, I’ve no
doubt you would find that it is square. There! here! how
would you like a cloak like this one?”
The two were looking at a child who
passed them just then, in a velvet cloak stiff with
gimp and bugle embroidery.
“I don’t think it is pretty,” said
Matilda.
“It is rich,” said Judy.
“But it is not cut by anybody that knew how.
You can see that. Why don’t you ask aunt
Zara to let you have a black satin cloak?”
“Black satin?” said Matilda.
“Yes. Black satin.
It is so rich; and it is not heavy; and there is more
shine to it than silk has. A black satin cloak
trimmed with velvet that is what I should
like if I were you.”
A strong desire for a black satin
cloak forthwith sprang up in Matilda’s mind.
“There is not anything more
fashionable,” Judy went on; “and velvet
is just the prettiest trimming. When we go up
to look at cloaks, you see if you can spy such a one;
if you can’t, it would be easy to get the stuff
and have it made. Just as easy. I don’t
believe we shall find any ready made, for they are
so fashionable, they will be likely to be all bought
up. Dear me! what a figure that is!” exclaimed
Judy, eying a richly dressed lady who brushed by them.
“Isn’t her dress handsome?” Matilda
asked.
“It was handsome before it was
made up it isn’t now. Dresses
are not cut that way now; and the trimming is as old
as the hills. I guess that has been made two
or three years, that dress. And nobody wears a
shawl now unless it’s a camel’s
hair. Nobody would, that knew any better.”
“What is a camel’s hair?” said Matilda.
“A peculiar sort of rough thick
shawl,” said Judy. “People wear them
because they set off the rest of their dress; but country
people don’t know enough to wear them.
Ask aunt Zara to get you a camel’s hair shawl.
I wish she would give me one, too.”
Matilda wondered why Miss Judith’s
mother did not get her one, if they were so desirable;
but she did not feel at home enough with the young
lady to venture any such suggestion. She only
did wish very much privately that Mrs. Laval would
choose for herself a black satin cloak; but on that
score too she did not feel that she could make any
requests. Mrs. Laval knew what was fashionable,
at any rate, as well as her niece; that was one comfort.
Thinking this, Matilda followed her
two companions up the wide staircase. Another
world of shops and buyers and sellers up there!
What a very wonderful place New York must be.
And Stewart’s.
“Does everybody come here?” she whispered
to Judy.
“Pretty much everybody,” said that young
lady. “They have to.”
“Then they can’t buy things anywhere else?”
“What do you mean?” said Judith looking
at her.
“I mean, is this the only place
where people can get things? are there any more stores
beside this?”
Judith’s eyes snapped in a way
that Matilda resolved she would not provoke again.
“More stores?” she said.
“New York is all stores, except the streets
where people live.”
“Does nobody live in the streets
where the stores are?” Matilda could not help
asking.
“No. Nobody but the people
that live in the stores, you know; that’s
nobody.”
Matilda’s thoughts were getting
rather confused than enlightened; however the party
came now, passing by a great variety of counters and
goods displayed, to a region where Matilda saw there
was a small host of cloaks, hung upon frames or stuffed
figures. Here Mrs. Laval sat down on a sofa and
made Matilda sit down, and called for something that
would suit the child’s age and size. Velvet,
and silk and cloth, and shaggy nondescript stuffs,
were in turn brought forward; Matilda saw no satin.
Mrs. Laval was hard to suit; and Matilda thought Judith
was no help, for she constantly put in a word for
the articles which Mrs. Laval disapproved. Matilda
was not consulted at all, and indeed neither was Miss
Judy. At last a cloak was chosen, not satin, nor
even silk, nor even cloth; but of one of those same
shaggy fabrics which looked coarse, Matilda thought.
But she noticed that the price was not low, and that
consoled her. The cloak was taken down to the
carriage, and they left the store.
“Where now, aunt Zara?”
said Judith. “We are pretty well lumbered
up with packages.”
“To get rid of some of them,”
said Mrs. Laval. “I am going to Fournissons’s.”
What that meant, Matilda could not
guess. The drive was somewhat long; and then
the carriage stopped before a plain-looking house in
a very plain-looking street. Here they all got
out again, and taking the various parcels which contained
Matilda’s dresses, they went in. They mounted
to a common little sitting-room, where some litter
was strewn about on the floor. But a personage
met them there for whom Matilda very soon conceived
a high respect; she knew so much. This was Mme.
Fournissons; the mantua-maker who had the pleasure
of receiving Mrs. Laval’s orders. So she
said; but Matilda thought the orders rather came from
the other side. Mme. Fournissons decided
promptly how everything ought to be made, and just
what trimming would be proper in each case; and proceeded
to take Matilda’s measure with a thorough-bred
air of knowing her business which impressed Matilda
very much. Tapes unrolled themselves deftly,
and pins went infallibly into place and never out of
place; and Madame measured and fitted and talked all
at once, with the smooth rapid working of a first-rate
steam engine. New York mantua-making was very
different from the same thing at Shadywalk! And
here Matilda saw the wealth of her new wardrobe unrolled.
There was a blue merino and a red cashmere and a brown
rep, for daily wear; and there was a most beautiful
crimson silk and a dark green one for other occasions.
There was a blue crape also, with which Miss Judy evidently
fell in love.
“It would not become you, Judy,
with your black eyes,” her aunt said. “Now
Matilda is fair; it will suit her.”
“Charmingly!” Mme.
Fournissons had added. “Just the thing.
There is a delicacy of skin which will set off the
blue, and which the blue will set off. Miss Bartholomew
should wear the colours of the dahlia as
her mother knows.”
“Clear straw colour, for instance,
and purple!” said Judith scornfully.
“Mrs. Bartholomew has not such
bad taste,” said Mme. Fournissons.
“This is? this young lady?”
“My adopted daughter, madame,” said
Mrs. Laval.
“She will not dishonour your
style, madam,” rejoined the mantua-maker approvingly.
Judith pouted. She could do that
well. But Matilda went down the stairs happy.
Now she was sure her dress would be quite as handsome
and quite as fashionable as Judy’s; there would
be no room for glances of depreciation, or such shrugs
of disdain as had been visited upon the country people
coming to Stewart’s. All would be strictly
correct in her attire, and according to the latest
and best mode. The wind blew as hard as ever,
and the dust swept in furious charges against everybody
in the street by turns; but there were folds of silk
and velvet, as well as sheets of plate glass now,
between Matilda and it. When they reached home,
Mrs. Laval called Matilda into her room.
“Here are your five dollars
for December, my darling,” she said. “Have
you any boots beside those?”
“No, ma’am.”
“You want another pair of boots;
and then you will do very well until next month.
Norton can take you to the shoemaker’s to-morrow, he
likes to take you everywhere; tell him it must be
Laddler’s. And you will want to go and
see your sisters, will you not?”
“O yes, ma’am.”
“Where is it?”
Matilda named the place.
“316 Bolivar St.,” repeated
Mrs. Laval. “Bolivar St. Where is that?
Bolivar Street is away over on the other side of the
city, I think, towards what they used to call Chelsea.
You could not possibly walk there. I will let
the carriage take you. Now darling, get ready
for dinner.”
Feeling as if she were ten years older
than she had been the day before, Matilda mounted
the stairs to her room. Her room. This
beautiful, comfortable, luxurious place! It was
a little hard to recognize herself in it. And
when all those dresses should come home
Here there was a knock at the door,
and Sam, the head waiter, handed her the bundle of
her new cloak, in a nice pasteboard box. Matilda
put that in the wardrobe drawer, and made her hair
and dress neat; not without a dim notion, back somewhere
in her heart, that she had a good deal of thinking
to do. A feeling that she was somehow getting
out of her reckoning. There was no time however
now for anything before the bell rang for dinner.
Nor all the evening. Norton was
eager with questions; and Judith was sharp with funny
speeches, about Matilda’s wonder and unusedness
to everything. Matilda winced a little; however,
Norton laughed it off, and the evening on the whole
went pleasantly. He and she arranged schemes
for to-morrow; and all the four got a little more acquainted
with each other. But when Matilda went up to her
room at night, she took out her Bible and opened it,
resolving to find out what those things were she had
to think of; she seemed to have switched off her old
track and to have got a great way from Mr. Richmond
and Shadywalk. She did not like this feeling.
What did it mean?
She tried to think, but she could
not think. Folds of glossy blue silk hung before
her eyes; her new odd little cloak, with its rich buttons
and tassels started up to her vision; Mme. Fournissons
and her tape measure and her face and her words came
putting themselves between her and the very words
of the Bible. And this went on. What was
she to do? Matilda sat back from the table and
tried to call herself to order. This was not
the way to do. And then her mind flew off to the
Menagerie, and the roars of those wild beasts seemed
to go up and down in her ears. Yet underneath
all these things, there was a secret consciousness
of something not right; was it there, or no?
It was all a whirl of confusion. Matilda tried
to recollect Mr. Richmond and some of his words.
“He said I was to go by that
motto, ’Whatsoever ye do, in word or deed, do
all’ Well, but I am not doing anything,
am I, just now? What have I been doing to-day?
I will take a piece of paper and put the things down!
and then my thoughts will not slip away so.”
Matilda got the piece of paper and
the pencil; but she did not immediately find out what
she was to put down.
“The Menagerie? I
did not go there of my own head; Norton took me.
Still, ’whatsoever ye do’ I
was getting pleasure, that’s all; it was nothing
but pleasure. What has my motto to do with pleasure?
Well, of course it would make it impossible for me
to take wrong pleasure I see that.
I could not take pleasure that would be wrong in God’s
sight, nor that would make me do wrong to get it.
Other pleasure, right pleasure, he likes me to have.
Yes, and he gives it to me, really. I couldn’t
have it else. Then certainly my motto says that
I must remember that, and thank Him first of all for
everything I have that I like. Did I do so about
the Menagerie? I don’t think I thought about
it at all; only I was very much obliged to Norton.
I did not thank God. And yet it was such a very,
very great pleasure! But I will now.”
And so Matilda did. Before going
any further in her inquiries, she kneeled down and
gave thanks for the rare enjoyment of the morning.
She rose up a little more sober-minded and able for
the other work on hand.
“What next? Those little
street sweepers. I did not have anything to do
with them I had no pennies in my pocket,
and I could not wait. But I shall be seeing them
every day; they are under foot everywhere, Norton
says; how ought I to behave towards them? They
are a great nuisance, Norton says; stopping one at
every corner; and they ought not to be encouraged.
If nobody gave them anything, of course they would
not be encouraged; and they would not be there sweeping
the crossings. But then, we should not have clean
crossings. I wonder which is worst, having them
swept or not having them swept? However, they
will be on the streets, I suppose, those poor children,
whatever I do. Now what ought I to do?
I can’t give pennies to them all; and if not,
how shall I manage?”
Matilda put her head down to think.
And then came floating into her thoughts the words
of her motto, “Do all in the name
of the Lord Jesus.”
“What would He say?” questioned
Matilda with herself. “But I know what
he did say! ’Give to him that asketh thee.’ Must
I? But how can I, to all these children?
I shall not have pennies. Well, of course! when
I haven’t pennies I cannot give them.
But I cannot buy candy much, then, can I! because
I shall want all my odd cents. After all, they
are working hard to get a living; how terribly hard
it must be, to live so dirty and so cold! and
I have cake and ice cream and plenty of everything
I like. I suppose I can do without candy.
I know what Jesus would do too, if he was here; he
would give them kind looks and kind words, as well
as pay. But can I? What could I say to them?
I wonder if Mrs. Laval would like me to speak to them?
Anyhow, I know Jesus would say kind words to
them because He would love them. If
I loved them, I could speak, easy enough. And
then He would try to do them good, and
make them good. I wonder if they go to Sunday
school, any of them? But I don’t go myself
yet, here. I suppose I shall”
Matilda’s wits went off on a
long chase here, about things that had nothing to
do with her piece of paper. At last came back.
“Where was I? what next?
The next thing was the shopping. I had nothing
to do with that. I did not ask for anything; it
was all chosen and done without me. But this
was another pleasure; and I am to take my dresses,
and wear them of course, according to my motto.
How can I? ’Do all in His name?’
How can I? Well, to be sure, I can do it in such
a way as to please him. How would that be?”
There seemed to be a great deal of
confusion in Matilda’s thoughts at this point,
and hard to disentangle; but through it all she presently
felt something like little soft blows of a hammer at
her heart, reminding her of a very eager wish for
black satin, and disappointment at not having it;
of a violent desire to be fashionable, and to escape
being thought unfashionable; and of a secret delight
in rivalling Judith Bartholomew. And though Matilda
tried to reason these thoughts away and explain them
down, those soft blows of the hammer kept on, just
as fast as ever.
“Does the Lord like such feelings?
Does he care that his children should be fashionable?
How are you going to dress to please him, if the object
is to be as fine as Judith Bartholomew, or to escape
her criticism, or to shew yourself a fine lady?
Will that be pleasing him?”
The answer was swift to come; yet
what was Matilda to do? All these things were
at work in her already. And with them came now
an ugly wicked wish, that religion did not require
her to be unlike other people. But Matilda knew
that was wicked, as soon as she felt it; and it humbled
her. And what was she to do? Seeing the wrong
of all these various feelings did not at all take
them out of her heart. She did want to
be fashionable; she was very glad to be as handsomely
dressed as Judith; her heart was very much set on
her silks and trimmings, in a way that conscience
whispered was simply selfish and proud. Were these
things going to change Matilda at once and make her
a different child from the one that had been baptized
in a black dress at Shadywalk, and only cared then
for the “white robes” that are the spirit’s
adornings?
Matilda was determined that should
not be. She prayed a great deal about it; and
at last went to bed, comforting herself with the assurance
that the Lord would certainly help a child that trusted
him, to be all that he had bidden her be.
The subject started itself anew the
next morning; for there on her dressing-table lay
her pocket book with the five dollars Mrs. Laval had
given her last evening. There were two dollars
also that were left from November’s five dollars;
that made seven, to go shopping for boots. “I
should think I could do with that,” Matilda thought
to herself.
She asked Norton to go with her to Laddler’s
shoe store.
“Well,” said Norton; “but we must
go to the Park to-day.”
“And Madame Fournissons wants
to see you this afternoon,” said Mrs. Laval.
“I think the Park must wait, Norton.”
“But I have only to-day and to-morrow, mamma.
School begins Monday.”
“To-morrow will do for the Park,”
said Mrs. Laval. “And you will have other
Saturdays, Norton.”
Matilda went upstairs to get ready,
thinking that she was beginning to find out what sort
of “opportunities” were likely to be given
her in her new home. She was going to have opportunity
for self-conquest, for self-denial, harder than she
had ever known hitherto; opportunity to follow the
straight path where it was not always easy to see it,
and where it could only be found by keeping the face
steadily in the right direction. In the midst
of these thoughts, however, she dressed herself with
great glee; put her purse in her pocket; and set out
with Norton, remembering that in this matter of buying
her boots her motto must come in play.
As it was rather early in the morning,
the shoe store of Mr. Laddler was nearly empty, and
Matilda had immediate attention. Matilda told
what she wanted; the shopman glanced an experienced
eye over her little figure, from her hat to the ground;
gave her a seat, and proceeded to fit her. The
very first pair of boots “went on like a glove,”
the man said. And they were very handsome.
But the price was seven dollars! It would take
her whole stock in hand.
“Can’t you give me a pair
that will cost less?” Matilda asked, after a
pause of inward dismay.
“Those are what you want,”
said the man. “They fit, to a T; you cannot
better that fit.”
“But you have some that don’t cost so
much?”
“They would not look so well,”
said the shopman. “We have boots not finished
in the same style, for less money; but you want those.
That’s the article.”
“Please let me see the others.”
He brought some to shew. They
were of less fine and beautifully dressed stuff, were
more coarsely made, and less elegant in their cut.
Matilda saw all that, and hesitated. The man
looked at her.
“There’s a pair here,”
he said, turning back to his drawer, “that I
can let you have for five dollars; just
as good as that first pair.”
He produced them and tried one on.
It seemed to be quite as he had said. Matilda
could see no difference.
“That will do,” said he,
“if you like them. They are exactly as well
made as that first pair; and of the same leather.”
“Then why are they only five
dollars,” Matilda asked, “while the others
are seven?”
“Fashion,” said the man.
“Nothing else. You see, those are wide at
the toe; that was the style worn last winter; these
first, you see, are very narrow at the toe. There
is no demand for these now; so I can let you
have them low. If you like these, I will let you
have them for four and a half. Seven dollar boots.”
Matilda felt a pang of uncertainty.
That would save her two and a half dollars of her
seven, and she would have pennies for street girls
and change for other objects. But Judy would
look at those square toes, and think that Matilda
was from the country and did not know, as she said,
what was what. The thought of Judy’s eyes
and smile was not to be borne.
“I will take the others,”
she said hastily to the shopman “the
first you tried on.”
“I thought so,” said the man. “Those
are what you want.”
Matilda paid, and Norton ordered them
sent home, and the two left the shop.
“If that had been a good shoemaker,”
said Norton, “he would have fitted you in half
the time. We have been half an hour there.”
“O that is my fault, Norton,”
said Matilda; “because I could not decide which
fashion to have.”
“Sure you have got the right one now?”
said Norton.
“I got the newest.”
“That’s the right one,” said Norton,
as if the question was settled.
But it was not settled, in Matilda’s
mind; and all the way home she was trying the boots
over again. Had she done right? It was on
her lips to say she wished there were no such thing
as fashion, but conscience checked her; she felt it
was very delightful to be in the fashion.
Was that wrong? How could it be wrong? But
she had paid for being in the fashion. Had she
paid too much? And was she any the better for
having round toes to her boots, that she should be
so delighted about it? She wanted to be as well
dressed as Judy. She wanted that Judy should
not be able to laugh at her for a country girl.
She could not help feeling that, she thought; but
then, she had paid for it. Was this going to
be the way always?
Matilda was in such a confusion of
thoughts that she did not know what she was passing
in the street. Only, she did know when there were
little street-sweepers at the crossings, and she tried
to slip by without seeming to see them, and to put
Norton between them and herself. Not a penny
had she for one of them. And she would not have,
until the month came round again. Fashion certainly
cost. But she had the narrow-toed boots; she
was glad of that.
“What ails you?” said Norton at last.
“Are you cold?”
“No, Norton. Nothing ails me. I am
thinking.”
“About what? You think
a great deal too much. Pink, we will go to the
Park this afternoon; that will give you something to
think about.”
“Norton, we cannot this afternoon,
you know. I have got to go to the dressmaker’s.”
“O so you have! What a
nuisance. Well, to-morrow, then. And I say,
Pink! there is another thing you have to think of Christmas
presents.”
“Christmas presents!” said Matilda.
“Yes; we always have a great
time. Only David and Judy do scowl; it is fun
to see them.”
“Don’t they like Christmas
presents?” said Matilda, very much bewildered.
“Christmas presents all
right; but not Christmas. You know they are Jews.”
“Jews?” said Matilda.
“What then? What has their being Jews to
do with it?”
“Why!” said Norton, “don’t
you know? Do you think Jews love Christmas?
You forget what Christmas is, don’t you?”
“O I remember.
They don’t believe in Christ,” said Matilda
in an awed and sorrowful tone.
“Of course. And that’s
a mild way to put it,” rejoined Norton.
“But grandmamma will always keep Christmas with
all her might, and aunt Judy too; just because Davie
and Judy don’t like it, I believe. So we
have times.”
“But how comes it they don’t
like what you all like, and their mother?” Matilda
asked.
“They have Jew relations, you
see,” said Norton; “and that goes very
much against the grain with aunt Judy. There is
some old Rabbi here in New York that is David’s
great uncle and makes much of him; and so David has
been taught about Jewish things, and told, I suppose,
that he must never forget he is a Jew; and he don’t,
I guess. Not often.”
“Is he good?” asked Matilda.
“Good? David Bartholomew?
Not particularly. Yes, he is good in a way.
He knows how to behave himself.”
“Then how is he not good?”
“He has a mind of his own,”
said Norton; “and if you try him, you will find
he has a temper. I have seen him fight I
tell you! like that Bengal tiger if he
was a Jew; when a fellow tried him a little too hard.
His mother don’t know, and you mustn’t
tell mamma. The boys let him alone now.”
“At school, was it?” said Matilda.
“At school. You see, fellows
try a boy at school, all round, till they find where
they can have him; and then he has got to shew what
he is made of.”
“Do they try you?”
“Well, no; they like me pretty well at St. Giles’.”
“And they don’t like David?”
“They let him alone,”
said Norton. “No, they don’t like
him much. He keeps himself to himself too much
for their liking. They would forget he is a Jew,
if he would forget it; but he never does.”
Matilda’s thoughts had got into
a new channel and ran along fast, till Norton brought
them back.
“So we have got to look out
for Christmas, Pink, as I told you. It’s
only just three weeks from to-morrow.”
“What then, Norton? What do you do?”
“Everything we can think of,”
said Norton; “and to begin, everybody in the
house gives something to every other body. That
makes confusion, I should think!”
“Do you give things to your mother? and
to Mrs. Lloyd?”
“To every one of ’em,”
said Norton; “and it’s a job. I shall
begin next week to get ready; and so must you.”
Matilda had it on her tongue to say
that she had no money and therefore nothing to get
ready; but she remembered in time that if she said
that or anything like it, Norton would report and
ask for a supply for her. So she held her tongue.
But how delightful it must be to get presents for
everybody! Not for Mrs. Lloyd, exactly; Matilda
had no special longings to bestow any tokens upon
her; or Mrs. Bartholomew; but Maria, and Anne, and
Letitia! And Norton himself. How she would
like to give him something! And if she could,
what in the world would it be? On this question
Matilda’s fancy fairly went off and lost itself,
and Norton got no more talk from her till they reached
home.
She mused about it again when she
was alone in the carriage that afternoon driving to
Mme. Fournisson’s. As she had not the
money, she thought she might as well have the comfort
of fancying she had it and thinking what she would
do with it; and so she puzzled in delightful mazes
of dreamland, thinking what she would get for Norton
if she had the power. It was so difficult a point
to decide that the speculation gave her a great deal
to do. Norton was pretty well supplied with things
a boy might wish for; he did not want any of
the class of presents Matilda had carried to Maria.
But Norton was very fond of pretty things. Matilda
knew that; yet her experience of delicate matters
of art was too limited, and her knowledge of the resources
of New York stores too unformed, to give her fancy
much scope. She had a vague idea that there were
pretty things that he might like, if only she knew
where they were to be found. In the mean time,
it was but the other day, she had heard him complaining
that the guard of his watch was broken. Matilda
knew how to make a very pretty, strong sort of watch
guard; if she only had some strong brown silk to weave
it of. That was easy to get, and would not cost
much; if she had but a few shillings. Those round
toed boots! It darted into her mind, how the two
dollars and a half she had paid for those round toes,
would have bought the silk for a watch guard and left
a great deal to spare. There was a little sharp
regret just here. It would have been such pleasure!
And she would not have been quite empty handed in
the great Christmas festival. But the round toes?
Could she have done without them?
The question was not settled when
she got to the dressmaker’s; and for a good
while there Matilda could think of nothing but her
new dresses and the fashion and style which belonged
to them. All that while the dressmaker, not Mme.
Fournissons by any means, but one of her women, was
trying on the bodies of these dresses, measuring lengths,
fitting trimmings, and trying effects. It was
done at last; and then Matilda desired the coachman
to take her to 316 Bolivar street.
It was very grand, to ride in a carriage
all alone by herself; to sink back on those luxurious
cushions and look out at the people who were getting
along in the world less easily; trudging over the stones
and going through the dirt. And it was very pleasant
to feel that she had a stock of rich and elegant dresses
getting ready for her wear, and such a home of comfort,
instead of the old last summer’s life at Mrs.
Candy’s. Matilda was grown strong and well,
her cheeks filled out and fresh-coloured; she felt
like another Matilda. But as she drove along
with these thoughts, the other thought came up to her,
of her new opportunities. The Lord’s child, yes,
that was not changed; she was that still; what was
the work she ought to do, here and now? Opportunities
for what, had she? Matilda thought carefully about
it. And one thing which she had expected she
could do, she feared was going out of her reach.
How was she ever to have more money to spare for people
needing it, if the demands of her new position kept
pace with her increased means? If her boots must
always cost seven dollars instead of three, having
twice as much money to buy them with would not much
help the matter. “And they must,”
said Matilda to herself. “With such dresses
as these I am to have, and in such a house as Mrs.
Lloyd’s, those common boots I used to wear at
Shadywalk would not do at all. And to wear with
my red and green silks, I know I must have a new pair
of slippers, with bows, like Judy’s. I wonder
how much they will cost? And then I shall
hardly have even pennies for the little girls that
sweep the street, at that rate.”
Opportunities? were all her opportunities
gone from her at once? That could not be; and
yet Matilda did not see her way out of the question.
So the carriage rolled along with
her, and she by and by got tired of thinking and began
to examine more carefully into what there was to see.
She was coming into a quarter of the city unlike those
where she had been before. The house of Mme.
Fournissons was in a very quiet street certainly;
but what she was passing now was far below that in
pretension. These streets were very uncomfortable,
she thought, even to ride through. Yet the houses
themselves were as good and as large as many houses
in Shadywalk. But nothing in Shadywalk, no, not
Lilac lane itself, was so repelling. Nothing
in Shadywalk was so dingy and dark. Lilac lane
was dirty, and poor; yet it was broad enough and the
cottages stood far enough apart to let the sky look
in. Here, in these streets, houses and people
seemed to be packed. There was a bare look of
want; a forlorn abandonment of every sort of pleasantness;
what must it be to go in at one of those doors?
Matilda thought; and to live there? the
idea was too disagreeable to dwell upon. Yet
people lived there. What sort? Dingy people,
as far as Matilda could see; dirty people, and as
hopeless looking as the houses. It was not however
a region of the wretchedly poor through which her
course lay; the windows were whole and the roofs were
decent; but it made the little girl’s heart sick
to look at it all, and read the signs she could not
read. Through street after street of this general
character the carriage went; narrow streets, very
full of mud and dirt; where the horses stepped round
an overturned basket of garbage in one place, and
in another stopped for a dray to get out of their
path; where children looked as if their heads were
never brushed, and often the women looked as if their
clothes were never clean. Matilda could never
walk to see her sisters, that was plain; she
was glad nobody was in the carriage with her; and she
was much disappointed to see even a part of New York
look like this.
In a street a little wider, a little
cleaner, a shade or two more respectable, the carriage
stopped at last. It stopped, and Matilda got
out. Was this Bolivar street? But she looked
and saw that 316 was the number of the house.
So she rang the bell.
It was the right place; and she was
shewn into a parlour, where she had to wait a little.
It was respectable, and yet it oppressed all Matilda’s
senses. The room was full of buckwheat cake smoke,
to begin with, which had filled it that morning and
probably every morning of the week, and was never
encouraged, nor indeed had ever a chance, to pass
away. So each morning made its addition to the
stock, till now Matilda felt as if it could be almost
seen as well as felt. It certainly was in the
carpet, the dingy old brown carpet, in which the worn
holes were too many and too evident to be hidden by
rug or crumb cloth or concealed by disposition of
furniture. It wreathed the lamps on the mantelpiece
and the picture on the wall, which last represented
a very white monument with a very green willow tree
drooping limp tresses over it, and a lady in black
pressing a white handkerchief to her eyes. An
old mahogany chest of drawers and a table with some
books on it did not help the effect; for the chest
of drawers was out of place, the cotton table cover
was dingy and hung awry, and the books were soiled
and dog’s eared. Matilda felt all this in
three minutes; then she forgot it in the joy of seeing
her sisters. The greeting on her part was very
warm; too warm for her to find out that on their part
it was a little constrained. They were interested
enough, however, in all that had befallen Matilda,
to give talk full flow; and made her tell them the
whole story of the past months; the ship fever, the
visit at Briery Bank, the adoption of herself to be
a child of the house, the coming to New York, and
the composition of the family circle in Mrs. Lloyd’s
house. The elder sisters said very little all
the while, except to ask questions.
“And it’s for good and
all!” said Letitia, when Matilda had done.
“Yes. For good and all!”
“And what is Maria doing?” said Anne.
“Maria is in Poughkeepsie, you know, learning
mantua-making.”
“Is she happy? does she get along well?”
“I don’t know,”
replied Matilda dubiously. She had not known Maria
to seem happy for a very long period; certainly not
at the time of her last visit to her.
“And we are here,”
said Letitia. “I don’t know why all
the good should come to Matilda, for my part.”
Matilda could say nothing. It was a dash of cold
water.
“I suppose you have everything in the world
you want?” Letitia went on.
“Does she treat you really exactly
as if you were her child?” said Anne. “Mrs.
Laval, I mean.”
“Just as if I were,” said Matilda.
“And you can have everything
you want?” asked Letitia; but not as if she
were glad of it.
“If Mrs. Laval knows it,” said Matilda.
“You can let her know it, I
suppose. It ain’t fair!” cried Letitia;
“it ain’t fair! Why should Matilda
have all the good that comes to anybody? Here
this child can have everything she wants; and you and
I, and Maria, have to work and work and pinch and
pinch, and can’t get it then.”
“Is that your dress for every
day?” said Anne, after she had lifted Matilda’s
cloak to see what was underneath.
“I don’t know, Anne.”
“You don’t know? Don’t you
know what you wear every day?”
“Yes, but I don’t know
what will be my every day frock. I do not wear
the same in the morning and in the afternoon.”
“You don’t!” said Anne. “How
many dresses have you?”
“And what are they?” added Letitia.
Matilda was obliged to tell.
“Think of it!” said Letty.
“This child! She has silks and cashmeres
and reps, more than she can use; and I, old as I am,
haven’t a dress to go to church in, but one
that I have worn a whole winter. I could get
one for twenty shillings, and I haven’t money
to spare for that!”
“Hush,” said Anne; “we
shall do better by and by, when we have gone further
into the business.”
“We shall be delving in the
business though, for it, all the while. And Matilda
is to do nothing and live grand. She’ll
be too grand to look at us and Maria.”
“Where do you live?” Anne asked.
“It’s the corner of 40th street and Blessington
Avenue.”
Anne’s face darkened.
“Where is Blessington Avenue?” asked Letitia.
“It’s away over the other side of the
city,” Anne answered.
“Well, I suppose there is all
New York between us,” said Letitia. “Don’t
you think this is a delightful part of the town,
Matilda?”
“I should think you would go
back to Shadywalk, Anne and Letty, when you have learned
what you want to learn; it would be pleasanter to make
dresses for the people there, wouldn’t it, than
for people here?”
“Speak for yourself,”
said Letty. “Do you think nobody wants to
be in New York but you?”
“I don’t want to live
where Mrs. Candy lives,” said Anne. “That’s
enough for me.”
The conversation had got into a very
disagreeable channel, where Matilda could not deal
with it. Perhaps that helped her to remember
that it was getting late and she must go.
“How did you get here?”
asked Letitia. “You could not find your
way alone. I declare! you don’t mean to
say that carriage is for you?”
“I couldn’t come any other
way,” said Ma-tilda, as meekly as if it had
been a sin to ride in a carriage.
“I declare!” said Letitia.
“Look, Anne, what a carriage. It is a close
carriage, just as handsome as it can be.”
“Was nobody with you?” said Anne.
“No, she has it all to herself,”
said Letitia. “Well, I hope she’ll
enjoy it. And I would be glad of twenty shillings
to get a dress to walk to church in.”
Matilda was glad to bid good bye and
to find the carriage door shut upon her. She
was very glad to be alone again. Was it any wrong
in her, that she had so much more than her sisters?
It was not her own doing; she did not make Mrs. Laval’s
wealth, nor gain Mrs. Laval’s affection, by
any intent of her own; and further, Matilda could not
understand how Anne and Letitia were any worse off
for her better circumstances. If she could have
helped it, indeed, that would have been another affair;
and here one thorn pricked into Matilda’s heart.
She might not have thought of it if the amount named
had not been just what it was; but twenty shillings? that
was exactly the two dollars and a half she had paid
to be in the fashion as to her toes. Now was it
right, or not? Ought she to have those two and
a half dollars in hand to give to Letty for her dress?
The thorn pricked rather sharp.