“This floating life hath but this
port of rest,
A heart prepared, that fears no ill to
come.”
The matter was in skilful hands; for
the days rolled on, after that eventful excursion,
with great smoothness. Mr. Carlisle kept Eleanor
busy, with some pleasant little excitement, every day
varied. She was made to taste the sweets of her
new position, and to depend more and more upon the
hand that introduced her to them. Mr. Carlisle
ministered carefully to her tastes. Eleanor daily
was well mounted, generally on Maggie; and enjoyed
her heart’s delight of a gallop over the moor,
or a more moderate pace through a more rewarding scenery.
Mr. Carlisle entered into the spirit of her gardening
pursuits; took her to his mother’s conservatory;
and found that he never pleased Eleanor better than
when he plunged her into the midst of flowers.
He took good care to advance his own interests all
the time; and advanced them fast and surely.
He had Eleanor’s liking before; and her nature
was too sweet and rich not to incline towards the
person whom she had given such a position with herself,
yielding to him more and more of faith and affection.
And that in spite of what sometimes chafed her; the
quiet sway she felt Mr. Carlisle had over her, beneath
which she was powerless. Or rather, perhaps she
inclined towards him secretly the more on account
of it; for to women of rich natures there is something
attractive in being obliged to look up; and to women
of all natures it is imposing. So Mr. Carlisle’s
threat, by Eleanor so stoutly resisted and resented,
was extremely likely to come to pass. Mrs. Powle
was too wise to touch her finger to the game.
Several weeks went by, during which
Eleanor had no chance to think of anything but Mr.
Carlisle and the matters he presented for her notice.
At the end of that time he was obliged to go up to
London on sudden business. It made a great lull
in the house; and Eleanor began to sit in her garden
parlour again and dream. While dreaming one day,
she heard the voice of her little sister sobbing at
the door-step. She had not observed before that
she was sitting there.
“Julia!” said Eleanor “What
is the matter?”
Julia would not immediately say, but then faltered
out, “Mr. Rhys.”
“Mr. Rhys! What of him?”
“He’s sick. He’s going to die,
I know.”
“How do you know he is sick?
Come, stop crying, Julia, and speak. What makes
you think he is sick?”
“Because he just lies on the
sofa, and looks so white, and he can’t keep
school. He sent away the boys yesterday.”
“Does he see the doctor?”
“No. I don’t know.
No, I know he don’t,” said Julia; “because
the old woman said he ought to see him.”
“What old woman, child?”
“His old woman Mrs.
Williams. And mamma said I might have some jelly
and some sago for him and there is nobody
to take it. Foster is out of the way, and Jack
is busy, and I can’t get anybody.”
Julia’s tears were very sincere.
“Stop crying, child, and I will
go with you myself. I have not had a walk to-day,
or a ride, or anything. Come, get ready, and you
and I will take it.”
Julia did not wait even for thanks;
she was never given to be ceremonious; but sprang
away to do as her sister had said. In a few minutes
they were off, going through the garden, each with
a little basket in her hand. Julia’s tears
were exchanged for the most sunshiny gladness.
It was a sunshiny day altogether,
in the end of summer, and the heat was sultry.
Neither sister minded weather of any sort; nevertheless
they chose the shady side of the road and went very
leisurely, along by the hedgerows and under the elms
and beeches with which all the way to the village
was more or less shaded. It was a long walk, even
to the village. The cottage where Mr. Rhys had
his abode was yet further on. The village must
be passed on the way to it.
It was a long line of cottages, standing
for the most part on one side the street only; the
sweet hedgerow on the other side only here and there
broken by a white wicket gate. The houses were
humble enough; yet in universal neat order on the
outside at least; in many instances grown over with
climbing roses and ivy, and overhung with deep thatched
roofs. They stood scatteringly; gardens and sometimes
small crofts intervening; and noble growth of old
oaks and young elms shading the way; the whole as
neat, fresh, and picturesque in rural comfort and
beauty, as could be seen almost anywhere in England.
The lords of Rythdale held sway here, and nothing
under their rule, of late, was out of order.
But there were poor people in the village, and very
poor old houses, though skilfully turned to the account
of beauty in the outward view. Eleanor was well
known in them; and now Mrs. Benson came out to the
gate and told how she was to move to her new home in
another fortnight; and begged the sisters would come
in to rest themselves from the sun. And old Mrs.
Shepherd curtsied in her doorway; and Matthew Grimson’s
wife, the blacksmith that was, came to stop Eleanor
with a roundabout representation how her husband’s
business would thrive so much better in another situation.
Eleanor was seldom on foot in the village now.
She passed that as soon as she could and went on.
From her window on the other side of the lane, Miss
Broadus nodded, and beckoned too; but the sisters
would not be delayed.
“It is good Mr. Carlisle has
gone to London,” said Julia. “He would
not have let you come.”
Eleanor felt stung.
“Why do you say so, Julia?”
“Why, you always do what he
tells you,” said Julia, who was not apt to soften
her communications. “He says ’Eleanor’ and
you go that way; and he says ’Eleanor’ and
you go the other way.”
“And why do you suppose he would
have any objection to my going this way?”
“I know” said
Julia. “I am glad he is in London.
I hope he’ll stay there.”
Eleanor made no answer but to switch
her dress and the bushes as they went by, with a little
rod in her hand. There was more truth in the
allegation than it pleased her to remember. She
did not always feel her bonds at the time, they were
so gently put on and the spell of another’s
will was so natural and so irresistible. But it
chafed her to be reminded of it and to feel that it
was so openly exerted and her own subjugation so complete.
The switching went on vigorously, taking the bushes
and her muslin dress impartially; and Eleanor’s
mind was so engrossed that she did not perceive how
suddenly the weather was changing. They had passed
through the village and left it behind, when Julia
exclaimed, “There’s a storm coming, Eleanor!
maybe we can get in before it rains.” It
was an undeniable fact; and without further parley
both sisters set off to run, seeing that there were
very few minutes to accomplish Julia’s hope.
It began sprinkling already.
“It’s going to be a real
storm,” said Julia gleefully. “Over
the moor it’s as black as thunder. I saw
it through the trees.”
“But where are you going?” For
Julia had left the road, or rather lane, and dashed
down a path through the trees leading off from it.
“O this is the best this
leads round to the other side of the house,”
Julia said.
Just as well, to go in at the kitchen,
Eleanor thought; and let Julia find her way with her
sago and jelly to Mr. Rhys’s room, if she so
inclined. So they ran on, reached a little strip
of open ground at the back of the cottage, and rushed
in at the door like a small tornado; for the rain
was by this time coming down merrily.
The first thing Eleanor saw when she
had pulled off her flat, was that she was
not in a kitchen. A table with writing implements
met her eye; and turning, she discovered the person
one of them at least had come to see, lying on a sort
of settee or rude couch, with a pillow under his head.
He looked pale enough, and changed, and lay wrapped
in a dressing-gown. If Eleanor was astonished,
so certainly was he. But he rose to his feet,
albeit scarce able to stand, and received his visitors
with a simplicity and grace of nature which was in
singular contrast with all the dignities of conventional
life.
“Mr. Rhys!” stammered
Eleanor, “I had no idea we were breaking into
your room. I thought Julia was taking me into
Mrs. Williams’s part of the house.”
“I am very glad to see you!”
he said; and the words were endorsed by the pleasant
grave face and the earnest grasp of the hand.
But how ill and thin he looked! Eleanor was shocked.
“It was beginning to rain,”
she repeated, “and I followed where Julia led
me. I thought she was bringing me to Mrs. Williams’s
premises. I beg you will excuse me.”
“I have made Mrs. Williams give
me this part of the house because I think it is the
pleasantest. Won’t you do me the honour
to sit down?”
He was bringing a chair for her, but
looked so little able for it that Eleanor took it
from his hand.
“Please put yourself on the
sofa again, Mr. Rhys We will not interrupt
you a moment.”
“Yes you will,” said Julia,
“unless you want to walk in the rain. Mr.
Rhys, are you better to-day?”
“I am as well as usual, thank you, Julia.”
“I am sorry to see that is not very well, Mr.
Rhys,” said Eleanor.
“Not very strong ”
he said with the smile that she remembered, as he
sank back in the corner of the couch and rested his
head on his hand. His look and manner altogether
gave her a strange feeling. Ill and pale and
grave as he was, there was something else about him
different from all that she had touched in her own
life for weeks. It was a new atmosphere.
“Ladies, I hope you are not wet?” he said
presently.
“Not at all,” said Eleanor;
“nothing to signify. We shall dry ourselves
in the sun walking back.”
“I think the sun is not going to be out immediately.”
He rose and with slow steps made his
way to the inner door and spoke to some one within.
Eleanor took a view of her position. The rain
was coming down furiously; no going home just yet
was possible. That was the out-of-door prospect.
Within, she was a prisoner. The room was a plain
little room, plain as a room could be; with no adornments
or luxuries. Some books were piled on deal shelves;
others covered two tables. A large portfolio
stood in one corner. On one of the tables were
pens, ink and paper, not lying loose, but put up in
order; as not used nor wanted at present. Several
boxes of various sorts and sizes made up the rest
of the furniture, with a few chairs of very simple
fashion. It was Mr. Rhys’s own room they
were in; and all that could be said of it was its
nicety of order. Two little windows with the door
might give view of something in fair weather; at present
they shewed little but grey rain and a dim vision
of trees seen through the rain. Eleanor wanted
to get away; but it was impossible. She must talk.
“You cannot judge of my prospect
now,” Mr. Rhys said as she turned to him.
“Not in this rain. But
I should think you could not see much at any time,
except trees.”
“‘Much’ is comparative.
No, I do not see much; but there is an opening from
my window, through which the eye goes a long way across
a long distance of the moor. It is but a gleam;
however it serves a good purpose for me.”
An old woman here came in with a bundle
of sticks and began to lay them for a fire. She
was an old crone-looking person. Eleanor observed
her, and thought what it must be to have no nurse
or companion but that.
“We have missed you at the Lodge, Mr. Rhys.”
“Thank you. I am missing
from all my old haunts,” he answered gravely.
And the thought and the look went to something from
which he was very sorry to be missing.
“But you will be soon well again will
you not? and among us again.”
“I do not know,” he said.
“I am sometimes inclined to think my work is
done.”
“What work, Mr. Rhys?” said Julia.
“Ferns, do you mean?”
“No.”
“What work, Mr. Rhys?”
“I mean the Lord’s work, Julia, which
he has given me to do.”
“Do you mean preaching?”
“That is part of it.”
“What else is your work, Mr.
Rhys?” said Julia, hanging about the couch with
an affectionate eye. So affectionate, that her
sister’s rebuke of her forwardness was checked.
“Doing all I can, Julia, in
every way, to tell people of the Lord Jesus.”
“Was that the work you were going to that horrid
place to do?”
“Yes.”
“Then I am glad you are sick!”
“That is very unkind of you,”
said he with a gravity which Eleanor was not sure
was real.
“It is better for you to be
sick than to go away from England,” said Julia
decidedly.
“But if I am not well enough to go there, I
shall go somewhere else.”
“Where?”
“What have you got in that saucer?”
“Jelly for you. Won’t
you eat it, Mr. Rhys? There is sago in the basket.
It will do you good.”
“Will you not offer your sister some?”
“No. She gets plenty at home. Eat
it, Mr. Rhys, won’t you?”
He took a few spoonfuls, smiled at
her, and told her it was very good. It was a
smile worth having. But both sisters saw that
he looked fearfully pale and worn.
“I must see if Mrs. Williams
has not some berries to offer you,” he said.
“Where are you going, Mr. Rhys,
if you do not go to that place?” Julia persisted.
“If I do not go there, I think I shall go home.”
“Home?”
“Yes.”
“Where is that?” said Julia hanging about
him.
“I meant my everlasting home, Julia.”
“O don’t, Mr. Rhys!”
cried the child in a half vexed tone. “Eat
some more jelly do!”
“I am very willing to stay, Julia, if my Master
has work for me to do.”
“You had charge of a chapel
at Lily Dale, Mr. Rhys, I am told?” Eleanor
said, feeling awkward.
“No at Croydon, beyond.”
“At Croydon! that is nine miles off. How
did you get there?”
The question escaped Eleanor.
He hesitated, and answered simply, “I had no
way but to walk. I found that very pleasant in
summer mornings.”
“Walk to Croydon and back, and
preach there! I do not wonder you are sick, Mr.
Rhys.”
“I did not walk back the same day.”
“But then where did you go in the evenings to
preach?” said Julia.
“That was not so far off.”
“Did you serve two chapels on the same
day, Mr. Rhys?” Eleanor asked.
“No. The evenings Julia speaks of I preached
nearer home.”
“And school all the week!” said Eleanor.
“It was no hardship,”
he said with a most pleasant smile at her. “The
King’s work required haste there were
many people at both places who had not heard the truth
or had not learned to love it. There are still.”
His face grew very grave as he spoke;
grave even to sadness as he added, “They are
dying without the knowledge of the true life!”
“Where was the other chapel you went to?”
“Rythmoor.”
Eleanor hurried on. “But
Mr. Rhys, will you allow me to ask you a question
that puzzles me?”
“I beg you will do so!”
“It is just this. If there
are so many in England that want teaching But
I beg your pardon! I am afraid talking tires you.”
“I assure you it is very pleasant to me.
Will you go on.”
“If there are so many in England
that want teaching, why should you go to such a place
as that Julia talks of?”
“They are further yet from help.”
“But is not the work here as good as the work
there?”
“I am cut off from both,”
he said. “I long to go to them. But
the Lord has his own plans. ’Why art thou
cast down, O my soul; and why art thou disquieted
within me? Hope thou in God!’ ”
The grave, sweet, tender, strong intonation
of these words, slowly uttered, moved Eleanor much.
Not towards tears; the effect was rather a great shaking
of heart. She saw a glimpse of a life she had
never dreamed of; a power touched her that had never
touched her before. This life was something quite
unearthly in its spirit and aims; the power was the
power of holiness.
It is difficult or impossible to say
in words how this influence made itself felt.
In the writing of the lines of the face, in the motion
of the lips, in the indefinable tones of voice, in
the air and manner, there comes out constantly in
all characters an atmosphere of the truth, which the
words spoken, whether intended or not intended, do
not convey. Even unintentional feigning fails
here, and even self-deception is belied. The
truth of a character will make itself felt and influential,
for good or evil, through all disguises. So it
was, that though the words of Mr. Rhys might have
been said by anybody, the impression they produced
belonged to him alone, of all the people Eleanor had
ever seen in her life. The “helmet of salvation”
was on this man’s head, and gave it a dignity
more than that of a kingly crown. She sat thinking
so, and recalling her lost wishes of the early summer;
forgetting to carry on the conversation.
Meanwhile the old woman of the cottage
came in again with a fresh supply of sticks, and a
blaze began to brighten in the chimney. Julia
exclaimed in delight. Eleanor looked at the window.
The rain still came down heavily. She remembered
the thunderstorm in June, and her fears. Then
Mr. Rhys begged her to go to the fire and dry herself,
and again spoke some unintelligible words to the old
attendant.
“What is that, Mr. Rhys?”
said Julia, who seldom refrained from asking anything
she wished to know.
“I was enquiring of Mrs. Williams
whether she had not some fresh-gathered berries she
could bring for your refreshment.”
“But I mean, what language did you speak to
her?”
“Welsh.”
“Are you Welsh?”
“No,” said he smiling;
“but I have Welsh blood; and I had a Welsh nurse,
Julia.”
“I do not want any refreshment,
Mr. Rhys; but I would like some berries.”
“I hope you would like to ask
pardon of Mr. Rhys for your freedom,” said Eleanor.
“I am sure you need it.”
“Why Mrs. Williams very often
gives me berries,” said Julia; “and they
always taste better than ours. I mean, Mr. Rhys
gives me some.”
Eleanor busied herself over the fire,
in drying her muslin dress. That did very well
instead of talking. Mrs. Williams presently came
in again, bearing a little tray with berries and a
pot of cream. Julia eagerly played hostess and
dealt them out. The service was most homely;
nevertheless the wild berries deserved her commendation.
The girls sat by the fire and eat, and their host
from the corner of his couch watched them with his
keen eyes. It was rather a romantic adventure
altogether, Eleanor thought, in the midst of much graver
thoughts. But Julia had quite got her spirits
up.
“Aren’t they good, Eleanor?
They are better berries than those that came from
the Priory. Mr. Rhys, do you know that after Eleanor
is Mrs. Carlisle, she will be Lady Rythdale?”
This shot drove Eleanor into desperation.
She would have started aside, to hide her cheeks,
but it was no use. Mr. Rhys had risen to add some
more cream to her saucer perhaps on purpose.
“I understand,” he said
simply. “Has she made arrangements to secure
an everlasting crown, after the earthly coronet shall
have faded away?”
The question was fairly put to Eleanor.
It gave a turn to her confusion, yet hardly more manageable;
for the gentle, winning tones in which it was made
found their way down to some very deep and unguarded
spot in her consciousness. No one had ever probed
her as this man dared to do. Eleanor could hardly
sit still. The berries had no more any taste
to her after that. Yet the question demanded an
answer; and after hesitating long she found none better
than to say, as she set down her saucer,
“No, Mr. Rhys.”
Doubtless he read deeper than the
words of her answer, but he made no remark. She
would have been glad he had.
The shower seemed to be slackening;
and while Julia entered into lively conversation over
her berries, Eleanor went to the window. She was
doubtfully conscious of anything but discomfort; however
she did perceive that the rain was falling less thickly
and light beginning to break through the clouds.
As she turned from the window she forced herself to
speak.
“What is there we can do for
you at home, Mr. Rhys? Mrs. Williams’ resources,
I am sure, must be very insufficient.”
“I am very much obliged to you!”
he said heartily. “There is nothing that
I know of. I have all that I require.”
“You are better than you were? you are gaining
strength?”
“No, I think not. I am quite useless now.”
“But you will get better soon, and be useful
again.”
“If it pleases my Master; but I think
not.”
“Do you consider yourself so
seriously ill, Mr. Rhys?” said Eleanor looking
shocked.
“Do not take it so seriously,”
said he smiling at her. “No harm can come
to me any way. It is far worse than death for
me, to be cut off from doing my work; and a while
ago the thought of this troubled me; it gave me some
dark hours. But at last I rested myself on that
word, ’Why art thou cast down, O my soul?
Hope thou in God!’ and now I am content about
it. Life or death neither can bring
but good to me; for my Father sends it. You know,”
he said, again with a smile at her, but with a keen
observant eye, “they who are the Lord’s
wear an invisible casque, which preserves them from
all fear.”
He saw that Eleanor’s face was
grave and troubled; he saw that at this last word
there was a sort of avoidance of feature, as if it
reached a spot of feeling somewhere that was sensitive.
He added nothing more, except the friendly grasp of
the hand, which drove the weapon home.
The rain had ceased; the sun was out;
and the two girls set forward on their return.
They hurried at first, for the afternoon had worn away.
The rain drops lay thick and sparkling on every blade
of grass, and dripped upon them from the trees.
“Now you will get your feet
wet again,” said Julia; “and then you will
have another sickness; and Mr. Carlisle will be angry.”
“Do let Mr. Carlisle’s
anger alone!” said Eleanor. “I shall
not sit down in wet shoes, so I shall not get hurt.
Did you ever see him angry?”
“No,” said Julia; “and
I am glad he won’t be angry with me?”
In spite of her words, the wet grass
gave Eleanor a disagreeable reminder of what wet grass
had done for her some months before. The remembrance
of her sickness came up with the immediate possibility
of its returning again; the little feeling of danger
and exposure gave power to the things she had just
heard. She could not banish them; she recalled
freshly the miserable fear and longing of those days
when she lay ill and knew not how her illness would
turn; the fearful want of a shelter; the comparative
littleness of all things under the sun. Rythdale
Priory had not been worth a feather in that day; all
the gay pleasures and hopes of the summer could have
found no entrance into her heart then. And as
she was then, so Eleanor knew herself now defenceless,
if danger came. And the wet grass into which every
footstep plunged said that danger might be at any time
very near. Eleanor wished bitterly that she had
not come this walk with Julia. It was strange,
how utterly shaken, miserable, forlorn, her innermost
spirit felt, at this possible approach of evil to her
shelterless head. And with double force, though
they had been forcible at the time, Mr. Rhys’s
words recurred to her the words that he
had spoken half to himself as it were “Hope
thou in God.” Eleanor had heard those words,
read by different lips, at different times; they were
not new; but the meaning of them had never struck
her before. Now for the first time, as she heard
the low, sweet, confident utterance of a soul fleeing
to its stronghold, of a spirit absolutely secure there,
she had an idea of what “hope in God”
meant; and every time she remembered the tones of
those words, spoken by failing lips too, it gave a
blow to her heart. There was something she wanted.
What else could be precious like that? And with
them belonged in this instance, Eleanor felt, a purity
of character till now unimagined. Thoughts and
footsteps hurrying along together, they were past
the village and far on their way towards home, the
two sisters, before much was said between them.
“I wish Mr. Rhys would get well
and stay here,” said Julia. “It is
nice to go to see him, isn’t it, Eleanor?
He is so good.”
“I don’t know whether
it is nice,” said Eleanor. “I wish
almost I had not gone with you. I have not thought
of disagreeable things before in a great while.”
“But isn’t he good?”
“Good!” said Eleanor. “He makes
me feel as black as night.”
“Well, you aren’t black,”
said Julia, pleased; “and I’ll tell Mr.
Carlisle what you say. He won’t be angry
that time.”
“Julia!” said Eleanor.
“Do if you dare! You shall repeat no words
of mine to Mr. Carlisle.”
Julia only laughed; and Eleanor hoped
that the gentleman would stay in London till her purpose,
whatever it might be, was forgotten. He did stay
some days; the Lodge had a comparatively quiet time.
Perhaps Eleanor missed the constant excitement of
the weeks past. She was very restless, and her
thoughts would not be diverted from the train into
which the visit to Mr. Rhys had thrown them. Obstinately
the idea kept before her, that a defence was wanting
to her which she had not, and might have. She
wanted some security greater than dry shoes could
afford. Yea, she could not forget, that beyond
that earthly coronet which of necessity must some
time fade, she might want something that would endure
in the air of eternity. Her musings troubled Eleanor.
As Black Maggie did not wait upon her, these days,
she ordered up her own little pony, and went off upon
long rides by herself. It soothed her to be alone.
She let no servant attend her; she took the comfort
of good stirring gallops all over the moor; and then
when she and the pony were both tired she let him
walk and her thoughts take up their train. But
it did not do her any good. Eleanor grew only
more uneasy from day to day. The more she thought,
the deeper her thoughts went; and still the contrast
of purity and high Christian hope rose up to shame
her own heart and life. Eleanor felt her danger
as a sinner; her exposure as guilty; and the insufficiency
of all she had or hoped for, to meet future and coming
contingencies. So far she got; there she stopped;
except that her sense of these things grew more keen
and deep day by day; it did not fade out. Friends
she had none to help her. She wanted to see Dr.
Cairnes and attack him in private and bring him to
a point on the subjects which agitated her; but she
could not. Dr. Cairnes too was absent from Wiglands
at this time; and Eleanor had to think and wait all
by herself. She had her Bible, it is true; but
she did not know how to consult it. She took
care not to go near Mr. Rhys again; though she was
sorry to hear through Julia that he was not mending.
She wished herself a little girl, to have Julia’s
liberty; but she must do without it. And what
would Mr. Carlisle say to her thoughts? She must
not ask him. He could do nothing with them.
She half feared, half wished for his influence to
overthrow them.
He came; but Eleanor did not find
that he could remove the trouble, the existence of
which he did not suspect. His presence did not
remove it. In all her renewed engagements and
gaieties, there remained a secret core of discomfort
in her heart, whatever she might be about.
They were taking tea one evening,
half in and half out of the open window, when Julia
came up.
“Mr. Carlisle,” said she,
“I am going to pay you my forfeit.”
He had caught her in some game of forfeits the day
before. “I am going to give you something
you will like very much.”
“What can it be, Julia?”
“You don’t believe me.
Now you do not deserve to have it. I am going
to give you something Eleanor said.”
Eleanor’s hand was on her lips
immediately, and her voice forbade the promised forfeit;
but there were two words to that bargain. Mr.
Carlisle captured the hand and gave a counter order.
“Now you don’t believe
me, but you believe Eleanor,” said the lawless
child. “She said, she said it
when you went away, that she had not thought
of anything disagreeable in a long while!”
Mr. Carlisle looked delighted, as
well he might. Eleanor’s temples flushed
a painful scarlet.
“Dear me, how interesting these
goings away and comings home are, I suppose!”
exclaimed Miss Broadus, coming up to the group.
“I see! there is no need to say anything.
Mr. Carlisle, we are all rejoiced to see you back
at Wiglands. Or at the Lodge for you
do not honour Wiglands much, except when I see you
riding through it on that beautiful brown horse of
yours. The black and the brown; I never saw such
a pair. And you do ride! I should think
you would be afraid that creature would lose a more
precious head than its own.”
“I take better care than that, Miss Broadus.”
“Well, I suppose you do; though
for my part I cannot see how a person on one horse
can take care of a person on another horse; it is
something I do not understand. I never did ride
myself; I suppose that is the reason. Mr. Carlisle,
what do you say to this lady riding all alone by herself without
any one to take care of her?”
Mr. Carlisle’s eyes rather opened
at this question, as if he did not fully take in the
idea.
“She does it you
should see her going by as I did as straight
as a grenadier, and her pony on such a jump!
I thought to myself, Mr. Carlisle is in London, sure
enough. But it was a pretty sight to see.
My dear, how sorry we are to miss some one else from
our circle, and he did honour us at Wiglands my
sister and me. How sorry I am poor Mr. Rhys is
so ill. Have you heard from him to-day, Eleanor?”
“You should ask Julia, Miss
Broadus. Is he much more ill than he was?
Julia hears of him every day, I believe.”
“Ah, the children all love him.
I see Julia and Alfred going by very often; and the
other boys come to see him constantly, I believe.
And my dear Eleanor, how kind it was of you to go
yourself with something for him! I saw you and
Julia go past with your basket don’t
you remember? that day before the rain;
and I said to myself no, I said to Juliana,
some very complimentary things about you. Benevolence
has flourished in your absence, Mr. Carlisle.
Here was this lady, taking jelly with her own hands
to a sick man. Now I call that beautiful.”
Mr. Carlisle preferred to make his
own compliments; for he did not echo those of the
talkative lady.
“But I am afraid he is very
ill, my dear,” Miss Broadus went on, turning
to Eleanor again. “He looked dreadfully
when I saw him; and he is so feeble, I think there
is very little hope of his life left. I think
he has just worked himself to death. But I do
not believe, Eleanor, he is any more afraid of death,
than I am of going to sleep. I don’t believe
he is so much.”
Miss Broadus was called off; Mr. Carlisle
had left the window; Eleanor sat sadly thinking.
The last words had struck a deeper note than all the
vexations of Miss Broadus’s previous talk.
“No more afraid of death than of going to sleep.”
Ay! for his head was covered from danger. Eleanor
knew it saw it felt it; and felt
it to be blessed. Oh how should she make that
same covering her own? There was an engagement
to spend the next afternoon at the Priory the
whole family. Dr. Cairnes would most probably
be there to meet them. Perhaps she might catch
or make an opportunity of speaking to him in private
and asking him what she wanted to know. Not very
likely, but she would try. Dr. Cairnes was her
pastor; it ought to be in his power to resolve her
difficulties; it must be. At any rate, Eleanor
would apply to him and see. She had no one else
to apply to. Unless Mr. Rhys would get well.
Eleanor wished that might be. He could help
her, she knew, without a peradventure.
Mr. Carlisle appeared again, and the
musings were banished. He took her hand and put
it upon his arm, and drew her out into the lawn.
The action was caressingly done; nevertheless Eleanor
felt that an inquiry into her behaviour would surely
be the next thing. So half shrinking and half
rebellious, she suffered herself to be led on into
the winding walks of the shrubbery. The evening
was delicious; nothing could be more natural or pleasant
than sauntering there.
“I am going to have Julia at
the Priory to-morrow, as a reward for her good gift
to me,” was Mr. Carlisle’s opening remark.
“I am sure she does not deserve
it,” said Eleanor very sincerely.
“What do you deserve?”
“Nothing in the way of rewards.”
Mr. Carlisle did not think so, or
else regarded the matter in the light of a reward
to himself.
“Have you been good since I have been away?”
“No!” said Eleanor bluntly.
“Do you always speak truth after this fashion?”
“I speak it as you will find it, Mr. Carlisle.”
The questions were put between caresses;
but in all his manner nevertheless, in kisses and
questions alike, there was that indefinable air of
calm possession and power, before which Eleanor always
felt unable to offer any resistance. He made
her now change “Mr. Carlisle” for a more
familiar name, before he would go on. Eleanor
felt as a colt may be supposed to feel, which is getting
a skilful “breaking in;” yielding obedience
at every step, and at every step secretly wishing to
refuse obedience, to refuse which is becoming more
and more impossible.
“Haven’t you been a little
too good to somebody else, while I have been away?”
“No!” said Eleanor. “I never
am.”
“Darling, I do not wish you
to honour any one so far as that woman reports you
to have done.”
“That!” said Eleanor.
“That was the merest act of common kindness Julia
wanted some one to go with her to take some things
to a sick man; and I wanted a walk, and I went.”
“You were too kind. I must
unlearn you a little of your kindness. You are
mine, now, darling; and I want all of you for myself.”
“But the better I am,”
said Eleanor, “I am sure the more there is to
have.”
“Be good for me,”
said he kissing her, “and in my way.
I will dispense with other goodness. I am in
no danger of not having enough in you.”
Eleanor walked back to the house,
feeling as if an additional barrier were somehow placed
between her and the light her mind wanted and the
relief her heart sought after.