“The sun came up upon the left,
Out of the sea came he!
And he shone bright, and on the right
Went down into the sea.”
And the Tuesday came, and was fair;
and under a bright sky the steamer ran down to Gravesend
with Eleanor and her friends on board. Not Julia;
Eleanor had given up all hopes of that; but Mrs. Caxton
was beside her, and on the other side of her was Mrs.
Powle. It was a terribly disagreeable journey
to the latter; every feeling in her somewhat passionless
nature was in a state of fretful rebellion. The
other stronger and deeper characters were ready for
the time and met it bravely. Met it cheerfully
too. The crisping breeze that curled the waters
of the river, the blue sky and fair sunlight, the bright
and beautiful of the scene around them, those two
saw and tasted; with hopeful though very grave hearts.
The other poor lady saw nothing but a dirty steamboat
and a very unpropitious company. Among these however
were Eleanor’s fellow-voyagers, Mr. Amos and
his wife; and she was introduced to them now for the
first time. Various circumstances had prevented
their meeting in London.
“A very common-looking man,” whispered
Mrs. Powle to Eleanor.
“I don’t know, mamma, but very
good,” Eleanor returned.
“You are mad on goodness!”
said Mrs. Powle. “Don’t you see anything
else in a man, or the want of anything else? I
do; a thousand things; and if a man is ever so good,
I want him to be a gentleman too.”
“So do I,” said Eleanor
smiling. “But much more, mamma, if a man
is ever so much a gentleman, I want him to be good.
Isn’t that the more important of the two?”
“No!” said Mrs. Powle.
“I don’t think it is; not for society.”
Eleanor thought of Paul’s words “Henceforth
know I no man after the flesh” What
was the use of talking? she and her mother must have
the same vision before they could see the same things.
And she presently forgot Mr. Amos and all about him;
for in the distance she discerned signs that the steamer
was approaching Gravesend; and knew that the time
of parting drew near.
It came and was gone, and Eleanor
was alone on the deck of the “Diana;”
and in that last moment of trial Mrs. Powle had been
the most overcome of the three. Eleanor’s
sweet face bore itself strongly as well; and Mrs.
Caxton was strong both by life-habit and nature; and
the view of each of them was far above that little
ship-deck. Mrs. Powle saw nothing else.
Her distress was very deep.
“I wish I had taken Julia to
her!” was the outburst of her penitent relentings;
and Mrs. Caxton was only thankful, since they had come
too late, that they were uttered too late for Eleanor
to hear. She went home like a person whose
earthly treasure is all lodged away from her; not
lost at all, indeed, but yet only to be enjoyed and
watched over from a distance. Even then she reckoned
herself rich beyond what she had been before Eleanor
ever came to her.
For Eleanor, left on the ship’s
deck, at first it was hard to realize that she had
any earthly treasure at all. One part of it quitted,
perhaps for ever, with the home and the country of
her childhood; the other, so far, so vague, so uncertainly
grasped in this moment of distraction, that she felt
utterly broken-hearted and alone. She had not
counted upon this; she had not expected her self-command
would so completely fail her; but it was so; and although
without one shadow of a wish to turn back or in any
wise alter her course, the first beginning of her
journey was made amidst mental storms. Julia was
the particular bitter thought over which her tears
poured; but they flooded every image that rose of
home things, and childish things and things at Plassy.
Mr. Amos came to her help.
“It is nothing,” Eleanor
said as well as she could speak, “it
is nothing but the natural feeling which will have
its way. Thank you don’t be
concerned. I don’t want anything if
I only could have seen my sister!”
“Mrs. Amos is about as bad,”
said her comforter with a sigh. “Ah well!
feeling must have its way, and better it should.
You will both be better by and by, I hope.”
They were worse before they were better.
For in a few hours sickness took its place among present
grievances; and perhaps on the whole it acted as a
relief by effecting a diversion from mental to bodily
concerns. It seemed to Eleanor that she felt them
both together; nevertheless, when at the end of a
few days the sea-sickness left her and she was able
to get up again, it was with the sweet fresh quietness
of convalescence in mind as well as in body. She
was herself again. Things took their place.
England was behind indeed but Fiji was
forward and Heaven was over all.
As soon as she was able to be up she
went upon deck. Strength came immediately with
the fresh breeze. It was a cool cloudy day; the
ship speeding along under a good spread of canvas;
the sea in a beautiful state of life, but not boisterous.
Nobody was on deck but some of the sailors. Eleanor
took a seat by the guards, and began to drink in refreshment.
It stole in fast, on mind as well as body, she hardly
knew how; only both were braced up together.
She felt now a curious gladness that the parting was
over, the journey begun, and England fairly out of
sight. The going away had been like death; a new
life was rising upon her now; and Eleanor turned herself
towards it with the same sweet readiness as the good
ship whose head is laid upon a new course.
There is a state of mind in which
the soul may be aptly called the garden of the Lord;
when answering to his culture it brings forth flowers
and fruits for his pleasure. In such a state,
the paradise which Adam lost is half re-entered again;
the moral victory is won over “the works of
the devil” which Christ came to destroy.
The body is dead, no doubt, because of sin; but the
spirit is life, because of righteousness. The
air of that garden is peace; no hurricanes blow there;
the sunshine dwells therein; the odours of sweet things
come forth, and make known all abroad whose garden
it is.
Eleanor had sat awhile very still,
very busy looking over into the sea, when she heard
a step near her on the deck. She looked up, and
saw a man whom she recognized as the master of the
vessel. A rather hard-featured man, tall and
strong set, with a pair of small eyes that did not
give forth their expression readily. What there
was struck her as not pleasant.
“So you’ve got up!”
said he, in a voice which was less harsh than his
looks. “Do you feel better?”
“Much better, thank you.”
“Hearty, eh?”
“Pretty well,” said Eleanor
smiling, “since I have got this salt air into
my lungs.”
“Ah! you’ll have enough
of that. ’Tother lady is down yet, eh?
She has not got up.”
“No.”
“Are you all going to the same place?”
“I believe so.”
“Missionaries, eh?”
“Yes.”
“Think you’ll get those dark fellows to
listen to you?”
“Why not?” said Eleanor brightly.
“It’s all make-believe.
They only want to get your axes and hatchets, and
such things.”
“Well, we want their yams and
potatoes and fish and labour,” said Eleanor;
“so it is a fair bargain; and no make-believe
on either side.”
“Why don’t you stay in
the Colonies? there is work enough to be done; people
enough that need it; and a fine country. Everything
in the world that you need; and not so far from home
either.”
Eleanor made no answer.
“Why don’t you stay in the Colonies?”
“One can only be in one place,” said Eleanor
lightly.
“And that must always be the
place where somebody else is,” said the captain
maliciously. “That’s the way people
will congregate together, instead of scattering where
they are wanted.”
“Do you know the Colonies well?”
said Eleanor coolly, in answer to this rude speech.
“I ought. I have spent
about a third of my life in them. I have a brother
at Melbourne too, as rich in flocks and herds almost
as Job was. That’s the place! That’s
a country! But you are going to Sydney?”
“Yes.”
“Friends there?”
“I have one friend there who expects me.”
“Who’s he? Maybe I know him.”
“Egbert Esthwaite is his name.”
“Don’t know him, though.
And so you have left England to find yourself a new
home in the wilderness?”
“Yes.”
“Pretty tough change you’ll find it.
Don’t you find it already?”
“No. Don’t you know,”
said Eleanor giving him a good look, “when one’s
real home is in heaven, it does not make so much difference?”
The captain would have answered the
words fast enough; but in the strong sweet eye that
had looked into his so full, there was something that
silenced him. He turned off abruptly, with the
internal conviction “That
girl thinks what she says, anyhow!”
Eleanor’s eyes left contemplating
the waters, and were busy for some time with the book
which had lain in her lap until her colloquy with
the captain. Somebody came and sat down beside
her.
“Mr. Amos! I am glad to see you,”
said Eleanor.
“I am glad to see you, sister,”
he replied; “and glad to see you able to be
here. You look well again.”
“O I am.”
“Mrs. Amos cannot raise her
head. What are you doing? if I may
ask so blunt a question upon so short an acquaintance.”
“This is the first time I have
been on deck. I was studying the sea, in the
first place; and then something drove me
to study the Bible.”
“Ah, we are driven to that on
every hand,” he answered. “Now go
on, and tell me the point of your studies, will you?”
There was something in the utmost
genial and kind in his look and way; he was not a
person from whom one would keep back anything he wanted
to know; as also evidently he was not one to ask anything
he should not. The request did not even startle
Eleanor. She looked thoughtfully over the heaving
sea while she answered.
“I had been taking a great new
view of the glory of creation over the
ship’s side here. Then I had the sorrow
to find or fear that we have
an unbeliever in our captain. From that, I suppose,
I took hold of Paul’s reasoning how
without excuse people are in unbelief; how the invisible
things of God from the creation of the world are clearly
seen, being understood by the things that are made;
even his eternal power and Godhead. And those
glorious last words were what my heart fixed upon.”
“‘His eternal power and Godhead.’”
Eleanor looked round without speaking;
a look full of the human echo to those words; the
joy of weakness, the strength of ignorance, the triumph
of humility.
“What a grand characterizing
Paul gives in those other words,” said Mr. Amos “‘the
King eternal, immortal, invisible, the only wise God.’
Unto him be honour and glory forever!”
“And then those other words,”
said Eleanor low, “’The eternal
God is thy refuge.’”
“That is a good text for us
to keep,” said Mr. Amos. “But really,
with that refuge, I don’t see what we should
be afraid of.”
“Not even of want of success,” said Eleanor.
“No. If faith didn’t
fail. Paul could give thanks that he was made
always to triumph in Christ, and by the
power that wrought with him, so may we.”
He spoke very gravely, as if looking into himself and
pondering his own responsibilities and privileges and
short-comings. Eleanor kept silence.
“How do you like this way of
life?” Mr. Amos said presently.
“The sea is beautiful. I have hardly tried
the ship.”
“Haven’t you?” said
Mr. Amos smiling. “That speaks a candid
good traveller. Another would have made the first
few days the type of the whole.”
And he also took to his book, and
the silence lasted this time.
Mrs. Amos continued prostrated by
sea-sickness; unable to raise her head from her pillow.
Eleanor could do little for her. The evil was
remediless, and admitted of very small amelioration.
But the weather was very fine and the ship’s
progress excellent; and Eleanor spent great part of
her time on deck. All day, except when she was
at the side of Mrs. Amos, she was there. The
sailors watched the figure in the dark neat sea-dress
and cloak and the little close straw bonnet with chocolate
ribbands; and every now and then made pretences to
get near and see how the face looked that was hidden
under it. The report of the first venturers was
so favourable that Eleanor had an unconscious sort
of levee the next day or two; and then, the fresh sweet
face that was so like a flower was found to have more
attractions when known than it had before when unknown.
There was not a hand on board but seized or made opportunities
every day and as often as he could to get near her;
if a chance offered and he could edge in a word and
have a smile and word in answer, that man went away
esteemed both by himself and his comrades a lucky
fellow. Eleanor awoke presently to the sense of
her opportunities, though too genuinely humble to
guess at the cause of them; and she began to make
every one tell for her work. Every sailor on
board soon knew what Eleanor valued more than all other
things; every one knew, “sure as guns,”
as he would have expressed it, that if she had a chance
of speaking to him, she would one way or another contrive
before it was ended to make him think of his duty and
to remember to whom it was owed; and yet strange
to say there was not one of them that for
any such reason was willing to lose or to shun one
of those chances. “If all were like she” was
the comment of one Jack tar; and the rest were precisely
of his opinion. The captain himself was no exception.
He could not help frequently coming to Eleanor’s
side, to break off her studies or her musings with
some information or some suggestion of his own and
have a bit of a talk. His manners mended.
He grew thoroughly civil to her.
Meanwhile the vessel was speeding
southwards. Fast, fast, every day they lowered
their latitude. Higher and higher rose the sun;
the stars that had been Eleanor’s familiars
ever since she had eyes to see them, sank one by one
below the northern horizon; and the beauty of the new,
strange, brilliant constellations of the southern sky
began to tell her in curious language of her approach
to her new home. They had a most magical charm
for Eleanor. She studied and watched them unweariedly;
they had for her that curious interest which we give
to any things that are to be our life-companions.
Here Mr. Amos could render her some help; but with
or without help, Eleanor nightly studied the southern
stars, watched and pondered them till she knew them
well; and then she watched them because she knew them,
as well as because she was to know them all the rest
of her life.
By day she studied other things; and
the days were not weary. The ocean was a storehouse
of pleasure for her; and Captain Fox declared his ship
had never carried such a clever passenger; “a
girl who had plenty of stuff, and knew what to do
with herself.” Certainly the last piece
of praise was true; for Eleanor had no weary moments.
She had interests on board, as well as outside the
ship. She picked up the sailors’ legends
and superstitions; ay, and many a little bit of life
history came in too, by favour of the sympathy and
friendliness they saw in those fine brown eyes.
Never a voyage went better; and the sailors if not
the captain were very much of the mind that they had
a good angel on board.
“Well how do you like this?”
said Mr. Amos coming up one day. N.B. It
was the seventh day of a calm in the tropics.
“I would like a wind better,” Eleanor
said smiling.
“Can you possess your soul in patience?”
“Yes,” she said, but gently
and with a slight intonation that spoke of several
latent things.
“We are well on our way now, if a
wind would come!”
“It will come.”
“I have never asked you,”
said Mr. Amos. “How do you expect to find
life in the islands?”
“In what respect? In general, I should
say, as unlike this as possible.”
“Of course. I understand
there is no stagnation there. But as to hardships as
to the people?”
“The people are part Christianized
and part unchristianized; that gives every variety
of experience among them, I suppose. The unchristianized
are as bad as they can be, very nearly; the good, very
good. As to hardships, I have no expectation.”
“You have not data to form one?”
“I cannot say that; but things
are so different according to circumstances; and there
is so great a change going on continually in the character
of the people.”
“How do you feel about leaving
behind you all the arts and refinements and delights
of taste in the old world?”
“Will you look over the side
of the ship, Mr. Amos? down below there do
you see anything?”
“Dolphin ,” said Mr. Amos.
“What do you think of them?”
“Beautiful!” said Mr.
Amos. “Beautiful, undoubtedly! as brilliant
as if they had just come out of the jeweller’s
shop, polished silver. How clear the water is!
I can see them perfectly far below.”
“Isn’t the sea better than a jeweller’s
shop?”
“I never thought of it before,”
said Mr. Amos laughing; “but it certainly is;
though I think it is the first time the comparison
has been made.”
“Did you ever go to Tenby?”
“I never did.”
“Nor I; but I have heard the
sea-caves in its neighbourhood described as more splendid
in their natural treasures of vegetable and animal
growth, than any jeweller’s shop could be were
he the richest in London.”
“Splendid?” said Mr. Amos.
“Yes for brilliance and variety of
colour.”
“Is it possible? These are things that
I do not know.”
“You will be likely to know
them. The lagoons around the Polynesian islands the
still waters within the barrier-reefs, you understand are
lined with most gorgeous and wonderful displays of
this kind. One seems to be sailing over a mine
of gems only not in the rough, but already
cut and set as no workman of earth could do them.”
“Ah,” said Mr. Amos, “I
fancy you have had advantages of hearing about these
islands, that I have not enjoyed.”
Eleanor was checked, and coloured a little; then rallied
herself.
“Look now over yonder, Mr. Amos at
those clouds.”
“I have looked at them every evening,”
he said.
Their eyes were turned towards the
western heavens, where the setting sun was gathering
his mantle of purple and gold around him before saying
good night to the world. Every glory of light
and colouring was there, among the thick folds of
his vapourous drapery; and changing and blending and
shifting softly from one hue of richness to another.
“I suppose you will tell me
now,” said Mr. Amos with a smile of some humour,
“that no upholsterer’s hangings can rival
that. I give up as the schoolboys
say. Yet we do lose some things. What do
you say to a land without churches?”
“O it is not,” said Eleanor.
“Chapels are rising everywhere in
every village, on some islands; and very neat ones.”
“I am afraid,” said Mr.
Amos with his former look of quiet humour, “you
would not be of the mind of a lady I heard rejoicing
once over the celebration of the church service at
Oxford. She remarked, that it was a subject of
joyful thought and remembrance, to know that praise
so near perfection was offered somewhere on the earth.
There was the music, you know, and the beautiful building
in which we heard it, and all the accessories.
You will have nothing like that in Fiji.”
“She must have forgotten those
words,” said Eleanor “’Where
is the house that ye build unto me, and where is the
place of my rest? ... to this man will I look,
even to him that is poor and of a contrite spirit,
and trembleth at my word.’ You will find
that in Fiji.”
“Ah,” said Mr. Amos, “I
see. My friend will have a safe wife in you.
Do you know, when I first saw you I stood in doubt.
I thought you looked like Well, never mind!
It’s all right.”
“Right!” said Captain
Fox coming up behind them. “I am glad somebody
thinks so. Right! lying broiling here
all day, and sleeping all night as if we were in port
and had nothing to do when we’re a
long way from that. Drove you down to-day, didn’t
it?” said he turning to Eleanor.
“It was so hot; I could not
get a bit of permanent shade anywhere. I went
below for a little while.”
“And yet it’s all right!”
said the captain. “I am afraid you are not
in a hurry to get to the end of the voyage.”
Mr. Amos smiled and Eleanor blushed.
The truth was, she never let herself think of the
end of the voyage. The thought would come the
image standing there would start up but
she always put it aside and kept to the present; and
that was one reason certainly why Eleanor’s
mind was so quiet and free and why the enjoyable and
useful things of the hour were not let slip and wasted.
So her spirits maintained their healthy tone; no doubt
spurred to livelier action by the abiding consciousness
of that spot of brightness in the future towards which
she would not allow herself to look in bewildering
imaginations.
Meanwhile the calm came to an end,
as all things will; the beneficent trade wind took
charge of the vessel again, and they sped on, south,
south; till the sky over Eleanor’s head was a
new one from that all her life had known, and the
bright stars at night looked at her as strangers.
For study them as she would, she could not but feel
theirs were new faces. The captain one day shewed
her St. Helena in the distance; then the Cape of Good
Hope was neared and rounded and
in the Indian Ocean the travellers ploughed their
way eastward. The island of St. Paul was passed;
and still the ship sailed on and on to the east.
Eleanor had observed for a day or
two that there was an unusual degree of activity among
the sailors. They seemed to be getting things
into new trim; clearing up and cleaning; and the chain
cable one day made its appearance on deck, where room
had been made for it. Eleanor looked on at the
proceedings, with a half guess at their meaning that
made her heart beat.
“What is it?” she asked Captain Fox.
“What’s all this rigging
up? Why, we expect to see land soon. You
like the sea so well, you’ll be sorry.”
“How soon?”
“I shouldn’t wonder, in
a day or two. You will stop in Sydney till you
get a chance to go on?”
“Yes.”
“I wish I could take you the
whole way, I declare! but I would not take an angel
into those awful islands. Why if you get shipwrecked
there, they will kill and eat you.”
“There would be little danger
of that now, Captain Fox; none at all in most of the
islands. Instead of killing and eating, they relieve
and comfort their shipwrecked countrymen.”
“Believe that?” said the captain.
“I know it. I know instances.”
“Whereabouts are you going among
them?” said he looking at her. “If
I get driven out of my reckoning ever and find myself
in those latitudes, I’d like to know which way
to steer. Where’s your place?”
He was not uncivil; but he liked to
see, when he could manage to bring it, that beautiful
tinge of rose in Eleanor’s cheeks which answered
such an appeal as this.