“But soon I heard the dash of oars,
I heard the pilot’s cheer;
My head was turned perforce away,
And I saw a boat appear.”
The morning came for the “Queen
Esther” to sail. Mr. and Mrs. Amos were
on board first, and watched with eyes both kind and
anxious to see Eleanor when she should come.
The little bonnet with chocolate ribbands did not
keep them waiting and the first smile and kiss to Mrs.
Amos made her sure that all was right.
She had been able to see scarce anything of Eleanor
during the weeks on shore; it was a refreshment to
have her near again. But Eleanor had turned immediately
to attend to Mr. Esthwaite.
“This is the meanest, most abominable
thing of a vessel,” he said, “that ever
Christians travelled in! It is an absurd proceeding
altogether. Why if the boards don’t part
company and go to pieces before you get to Tonga which
I think they will they don’t give
room for all three of you to sit down in the cabin
at once.”
“The deck is of better capacity,”
Eleanor told him briskly.
“Such a deck! I wonder
you, cousin Eleanor, can make up your mind to
endure it. There is not a man living who is worth
such a sacrifice. Horrid!”
“We hope it won’t last a great while,”
Mr. Amos told him.
“It won’t! That’s
what I say. You will all be deposited in the bottom
of the ocean, to pay you for not having been contented
on shore. I would not send a dog to sea in such
a ship!”
“Cousin Esthwaite, you had better
not stay in a situation so disagreeable to you.
You harass yourself for nothing. Shake hands.
You see the skipper is going to make sail directly.”
Eleanor with a little play in the
manner of this dismissal, was enough in earnest to
secure her point. Mr. Esthwaite felt in a manner
constrained to take his departure. He presumed
however in the circumstances to make interest for
a cousinly kiss for good bye; which was refused him
with a cooler demonstration of dignity than he had
yet met with. It nettled him.
“There was the princess,” whispered Mr.
Amos to his wife.
“Good!” said Mrs. Amos.
“Good bye!” cried Mr.
Esthwaite, disappearing over the schooner’s side.
“You are not fit for a missionary!
I told you so before.”
Eleanor turned to Mrs. Amos, ignoring
entirely this little transaction, and smiled at her.
“I hope he has not made you nervous,” she
said.
“No,” said Mrs. Amos;
“I am not nervous. If I did not get sick
I should enjoy it; but I suppose I shall be sick as
soon as we get out of the harbour.”
“Let us take the good of it
then, until we are out of the harbour,” said
Eleanor. “If the real ‘Queen Esther’
was at all like her namesake, Ahasuerus must have
had a disorderly household.”
They sat down together on the little
vessel’s deck, and watched the beautiful shores
from which they were gliding away. Eleanor was
glad to be off. The stay at Sydney had become
oppressive to her; she wanted to be at the end of
her journey and know her fate; and hope and reason
whispered that she had reason to be glad. For
all that, the poor child had a great many shrinkings
of heart. A vision of Mr. Rhys never came up
in one of its aspects, that of stern and
fastidious delicacy, without her heart
seeming to die away within her. She could not
talk now. She watched the sunny islands and promontories
of the bay, changing and passing as the vessel slowly
moved on; watched the white houses of Sydney, grateful
for the home she had found there, longing exceedingly
for a home once again that should be hers by right;
hope and tremulousness holding her heart together.
This was a conflict that prayer and faith did not
quell; she could only come to a state of humble submissiveness;
and she never thought of reaching Vuliva without a
painful thrill that almost took away her breath.
But she was glad to be on the way.
The vessel was very small, not of
so much as eighty tons burthen; its accommodations
were of course a good deal as Mr. Esthwaite had said;
and more than that, the condition of the vessel and
of its appointments was such that Mrs. Amos felt as
if she could hardly endure to shut herself up in the
cabin. Eleanor resolved immediately that she
would not; the deck was a better plate; and she prevailed
to have a mattress brought there for Mrs. Amos, where
the good lady, though miserably ill as soon as they
were upon the ocean roll, yet could be spared the close
air and other horrors of the place below deck.
Eleanor wrapped herself in her sea cloak, and lived
as she could on deck with her; having a fine opportunity
to read the stars at night, and using it. The
weather was very fine; the wind favouring and steady;
and in the Southern Ocean, under such conditions,
there were some good things to be had, even on board
the “Queen Esther.” There were glorious
hymn-singings in the early night-time; and Eleanor
had never sung with more power on the “Diana.”
There were beautiful Bible discussions between her
and Mr. Amos Bible contemplations, rather;
in which they brought Scripture to Scripture to illustrate
their point; until Mr. Amos declared he thought it
would be a grand way of holding a Bible-class; and
poor Mrs. Amos listened, delighted, though too sick
to put in more than a word now and then. And
Eleanor’s heart gave a throb every time she recollected
that another day had gone, so many more
miles were travelled over, they were so
much nearer the journey’s end. Her companions
found no fault in her. There was nothing of the
princess now, but a gentle, thoughtful, excellent
nurse, and capital cook. On board the “Diana”
there had been little need of her services for Mrs.
Amos; little indeed that could be done. Now,
in the fresh air on the open deck of the little schooner,
Mrs. Amos suffered less in one way; but all the party
were sharers in the discomforts of close accommodations
and utter want of nicety in anything done or furnished
on board. The condition of everything was such
that it was scarcely possible to eat at all for well
people. Poor Mrs. Amos would have had no chance
except for Eleanor’s helpfulness and clever
management. As on board the “Diana,”
there was nobody in the schooner that would refuse
her anything; and Mr. Amos smiled to himself to see
where she would go and what she would do to secure
some little comfort for her sick friend, and how placidly
she herself munched sea biscuit and bad bread, after
their little stock of fruit from Sydney had given
out. She would bring a cup of tea and a bit of
toast to Mrs. Amos, and herself take a crust with
the equanimity of a philosopher. Eleanor did
not care much what she eat, those days. Her own
good times were when everybody else was asleep except
the man at the wheel; and she would kneel by the guards
and watch the strange constellations, and pray, and
sometimes weep a flood of tears. Julia, her mother
and Alfred, Mrs. Caxton, her own intense loneliness
and shrinking delicacy in the uncertainty of her position,
they were all well watered in tears at some of those
watching hours when nobody saw.
The “Queen Esther” made
the Friendly Islands in something less than a month,
notwithstanding Mr. Esthwaite’s unfavourable
predictions. At Tonga she was detained a week
and more; unlading and taking in stores. The
party improved the time in a survey of the island and
mission premises and in pleasant intercourse with
their friends stationed there. Or what would
have been pleasant intercourse; it was impossible
for Eleanor to enjoy it. So near her destination
now, she was impatient to be off; and drew short breaths
until the days of delay were ended, and the little
schooner once more made sail and turned her head towards
Vuliva. She had seen Tonga with but half an eye.
Two or three days would finish their
journey now. The weather and wind continued fair;
they dipped Tonga in the salt wave, and stood on and
on towards the unseen haven of their hopes and duties.
A new change came over Eleanor. It could not
be reason, for reason had striven in vain. Perhaps
it was nature, which turning a corner took a new view
of the subject. But from the time of their leaving
Tonga, she was unable to entertain such troublesome
apprehensions of what the end of the voyage might
have in store for her. Something whispered it
could be nothing very bad; and that point that she
had so dreaded began to gather a glow of widely different
promise. A little nervousness and trepidation
remained about the thought of it; the determination
abode fast to see the very first word and look and
know what they portended; but in place of the rest
of Eleanor’s downhearted fear, there came now
an overwhelming sense of shamefacedness. This
was something quite new and unexpected; she had never
known in her life more than a slight touch of it before;
and now it consumed her. Even before Mr. and Mrs.
Amos she felt it; and her eyes shunned theirs the
last day or two as if she had been a shy child.
Why was it? She could not help it. This seemed
to be as natural and as unreasonable as the other;
and in her lonely night watches, instead of trembling
and sinking of heart, Eleanor was conscious that her
cheeks dyed themselves with that unconquerable feeling
of shame. Very inconsistent indeed with her former
state of feeling; and that was according to Mrs. Caxton’s
words; not being reasonable, reason could not be expected
from them in anything. Her friends had not penetrated
her former mood; this they saw and smiled at; and
indeed it made Eleanor very lovely. There was
a shy, blushing grace about her the last day or two
of the voyage which touched all she did; indeed Mrs.
Amos declared she could see it through the little
close straw bonnet, and it made her want to take Eleanor
in her arms and keep her there. Mr. Amos responded
in his way of subdued fun, that it was lucky she could
not; as it would be likely to be a disputed possession,
and he did not want to get into a quarrel with his
brethren the first minute of his getting to land.
Up came Eleanor with some trifle for
Mrs. Amos which she had been preparing.
“We are almost in, sister Eleanor!”
said Mr. Amos. “The captain says he sees
the land.”
Eleanor’s start was somewhat
prompt, to look in the direction of ’Queen Esther’s’
figure-head.
“The light is failing I
don’t believe you can see it,” said Mr.
Amos; “not to know it from the clouds.
The captain says he shall stand off and on through
the night, so as to have daylight to go in. The
entrance is narrow. I suppose, if all is well,
we shall have a wedding to-morrow?”
Eleanor asked Mrs. Amos somewhat hastily,
if what she had brought her was good?
“Delicious!” Mrs. Amos
said; and pulling Eleanor’s face down to her
she gave it a kiss which spoke more things than her
mere thanks. She was rewarded with the sight
of that crimson veil which spread itself over Eleanor’s
cheeks, which most people thought it was a pleasure
to see.
Eleanor thought she should get little
sleep that night; but she was disappointed. She
slept long and sweetly on her mattress; and awoke to
find it quite day, with fair wind, and the schooner
setting her head full on the land which rose up before
her fresh and green, yes, and exceeding lovely.
Eleanor got up and shook herself out; her companions
were still sleeping. She rolled her mattress together
and sat down upon it, to watch the approaches to the
land. Fresher and fairer and greener every moment
it lifted itself to her view; she could hardly bear
to look steadily; her head went down for a minute
often under the pressure of the thoughts that crowded
together. And when she raised it up, the lovely
hills of the island, with their novel outline and green
luxuriance, were nearer and clearer and higher than
they had been a minute before. Now she could
discern here and there, she thought, something that
must be a dwelling-house; then trees began to detach
themselves from the universal mass; she saw smoke rising;
and she became aware too, that along the face of the
island, fronting the approach of the schooner, was
a wall of surf; and a line of breakers that seemed
to stretch right and left and to be without an interval
in their white continuity. Eleanor did not see
how the schooner was going to get in; for the surf
did not break evidently on the shore of the island,
but on a reef extending around the shore and at some
little distance from it. Yet the vessel stood
straight on; and the sweet smell of the land began
to come with the freshness of the morning air.
“Is this Vuliva before us?”
she asked of the skipper whom she found standing near.
“Ay, ay!”
“Where are you going to get in? I see no
opening.”
“Ay, ay! There is an opening, though.”
And soon, looking keenly, Eleanor
thought she could discern it. Not until they
were almost upon it however; and then it was a place
of rough water enough, though the regular fall of
the surf was interrupted and there was only a general
upheaving and commotion of the waves among themselves.
It was nothing very terrific; the tide was in a good
state; and presently Eleanor saw that they had passed
the barrier, they were in smooth water, and making
for an opening in the land immediately opposite which
might be either the mouth of a river or an inlet of
the sea. They neared it fast, sailed up into
it; and there to Eleanor’s mortification the
skipper dropped anchor and swung to. She saw no
settlement. Some few scattered houses were plain
enough now to be seen; but nothing even like a village.
Tufts of trees waved gracefully; rock and hill and
rich-coloured lowland spread out a variety of beauty;
where was Vuliva, the station? This might be the
island. Where were the people? Could they
come no nearer than this?
Mr. Amos made enquiry. The village,
the skipper said, was “round the pint;”
in other words, behind a woody headland which just
before them bent the course of the river into a sharp
angle. The schooner would go no further; passengers
and effects were to be transported the rest of the
way in boats. People they would see soon enough;
so the master of the “Queen Esther” advised
them.
“I suppose the natives will
carry the news of the schooner being here, and our
friends will come and look after us,” Mr. Amos
said.
Eleanor changed colour, and sat with
a beating heart looking at the fair fresh landscape
which was to be perhaps the scene
of her future home. The scene was peace itself.
Still water after the upheavings of the ocean; the
smell and almost the fluttering sound of the green
leaves in the delicious wind; the ripple on the surface
of the little river; the soft stillness of land sounds,
with the heavy beat of the surf left behind on the
reef outside. Eleanor drew a long breath.
People would find them out soon, the skipper had said.
She was exceedingly disposed to get rid of her sea
dress and put on something that looked like the summer
morning; for without recollecting what the seasons
were in the Southern Ocean, that was what the time
seemed like to her. She looked round at Mrs.
Amos, who was sitting up and beginning to realize
that she had done with the sea for the present.
“How do you do?” said Eleanor.
“I should feel better if I could get on something
clean.”
“Come, then!”
The two ladies disappeared down the
companion way, into one of the most sorry tiring rooms,
surely, that ever nicety used for that purpose.
But it served two purposes with Eleanor just now;
and the second was a hiding place. She did not
want to be taken unawares, nor to be seen before she
could see. So under the circumstances she made
both Mrs. Amos and herself comfortable, and was as
helpful as usual in a new line. Then she went
to look out; but nobody was in sight yet, gentle or
savage; all was safe; she went back to Mrs. Amos and
fastened the door.
“Let us kneel down and pray
together, will you?” she said. “I
cannot get my breath freely till we have done that.”
Mrs. Amos’s lips trembled as
she knelt. And Eleanor and she joined in many
petitions there, while the very stillness of their
little cabin floor reminded them they were come to
their desired haven, and the long sea journey was
over. They rose up and kissed each other.
“I am so glad I have known you!”
said Mrs. Amos. “What a blessing you have
been to us! I wish we might be stationed somewhere
together.”
“I suppose that would be too
good to hope for,” said Eleanor. “I
am going to reconnoitre again.”
Mrs. Amos half guessed why, and smiled
to herself at Eleanor’s blushing shyness.
“Poor child, her hands were all trembling too,”
she said in her thoughts. They were broken off
by a low summons to the cabin door, which Eleanor
held slightly ajar. Through the crack of the door
they had a vision.
On the deck of the “Queen Esther”
stood a specimen of the native inhabitants of the
land. A man of tall stature, nobly developed in
limbs and muscles, he looked in his native undress
almost of giant proportions. His clothing was
only a long piece of figured native cloth wound about
his loins, one end falling like a train to the very
sloop’s deck. A thorough black skin was
the only covering of the rest of his person, and shewed
his breadth of shoulder and strength of muscle to
good advantage; as if carved in black marble; only
there was sufficient graceful mobility and dignified
ease of carriage and attitude; no marble rigidity.
Black he was, this savage, but not negro. The
features were well cut and good. What the hair
might be naturally could only be guessed at; the work
of a skilful hair-dresser had left it something for
the uninitiated to marvel at. A band of three
or four inches in breadth, completely white, bordered
the face; the rest, a very luxuriant head, was jet
black and dressed into a perfectly regular and smooth
roundish form, projecting everywhere beyond the white
inner border. He had an uncouth necklace, made
of what it was impossible to say, except that part
of it looked like shells and part like some animal’s
teeth; rings of one or two colours were on his fingers;
he carried no weapon. But in his huge, powerful
black frame, uncouth hair-dressing, and strange uncoveredness,
he was a sufficiently terrible object to unused eyes.
In Tonga the ladies had seen no such sight.
“Do shut the door!” said
Mrs. Amos. “He may come this way, and there
is nobody that knows how to speak to him.”
Eleanor shut the door, and looked
round at her friend with a smile.
“I am foolish!” said Mrs.
Amos laughing; “but I don’t want to see
him just yet till there is somebody to
talk to him.”
The door being fast, Eleanor applied
herself to a somewhat large knot-hole she had long
ago discovered in it; one which she strongly suspected
the skipper had fostered, if not originated, for his
own convenience of spying what was going on.
Through this knot-hole Eleanor had a fair view of
a good part of the deck, savage and all. He was
gesticulating now and talking, evidently to the captain
and Mr. Amos, the former of whom either did not understand
or did not agree with him. Mr. Amos, of course,
was in the former condition. Eleanor watched them
with absorbed interest; when suddenly this vision was
crossed by another, that looked to her eyes much as
a white angel might, coming across a cloud of both
moral and physical blackness. Mr. Rhys himself;
his very self, and looking very much like it; only
in a white dress literally, which in England she had
never seen him wear. But the white dress alone
did not make the impression to her eyes; there was
that air of freshness and purity which some people
always carry about with them, and which has to do
with the clear look of temperance as well as with
great particularity of personal care, and in part also
grows out of the moral condition. In three breathless
seconds Eleanor took note of it all, characteristics
well known, but seen now with the novelty of long
disuse and with the background of that huge black savage,
to whom Mr. Rhys was addressing some words, of explanation
or exhortation Eleanor could not tell which.
She noticed the quiet pleasant manner of his speech,
which certainly looked not as if Mrs. Amos had any
reason for her fears; but he was speaking earnestly,
and she observed too the unbending look of the savage
in answer and a certain pleasant deference with which
he appeared to be listening. Mr. Rhys had taken
off his hat for a moment it hung in his
hand while the other brushed the hair from his forehead.
Eleanor’s eye even in that moment fell to the
hand which carried the hat; it was the same, she
recognized it with a curious sense of bringing great
and little things together, it was the same
white and carefully looked-after hand that she remembered
it in England. Mr. Rhys’s own personal
civilization went about with him.
Eleanor did not hear any of Mrs. Amos’s
words to her, which were several; and though Mrs.
Amos, half alarmed by her deafness, did not know but
she might be witnessing something dreadful on deck,
and spoke with some importunity. Eleanor was
thinking she had not a minute to lose. Beyond
the time of Mr. Rhys’s talking to the other visitor
on the schooner’s deck, there could be but small
interval before he would learn all about her being
on board; two words to the skipper or Mr. Amos would
bring it out; and if she wished to gain that first
minute’s testimony of look and word, she must
be beforehand with them. She thought of all that
with a beating heart in one instant’s flash of
thought, hastily caught up her ship cloak without daring
to stop to put it on, slipped back the bolt of the
door, and noiselessly passed out upon the deck.
She neither heard nor saw anybody else; she was conscious
of an intense and pitiful shame at being there and
at thus presenting herself; but everything else was
second to that necessity, to know from Mr. Rhys’s
look, with an absolute certainty, where he
stood. She was not at that moment much afraid;
yet the look she must see. She went forward while
he was yet speaking to his black neighbour, she stood
still a little behind him, and waited. She longed
to hide her eyes, yet she looked steadfastly. How
she looked, neither she nor perhaps anybody else knew.
There was short opportunity for observation.
Mr. Rhys had no sooner finished his
business with his sable friend, when he turned the
other way; and of course the motionless figure standing
so near his elbow, the woman’s bonnet and drapery,
caught his first glance. Eleanor was watching,
with eyes that were strained already with the effort;
they got leave to go down now. The flash of joy
in those she had been looking at, the deep tone of
the low uttered, “Oh, Eleanor!” which
burst from him, made her feel on the instant as if
she were paid to the full, not only for all she had
done, but for all that life might have of disagreeable
in store for her. Her eyes fell; she stood still
in a sudden trance of contentment which made her as
blind and deaf as another feeling had made her just
before. Those two words there had
been such a depth in them, of tenderness and gladness;
and somehow she felt in them too an appreciation of
all she had done and gone through. Eleanor was
satisfied. She felt it as well in the hold of
her hand, which was taken and kept in a clasp as who
should say, ‘This is mine.’
Perhaps it was out of consideration
for her state, that without any further reference
to her he turned to Mr. Amos and claimed acquaintance
and brotherhood with him; and for a little while talked,
informing himself of various particulars of their
journey and welfare; never all the while loosing his
hold of that hand, though not bringing her into the
conversation, and indeed standing so as somewhat to
shield her. The question of landing came up and
was discussed. The skipper objected to send the
schooner’s boat, on the score that it would leave
too few men on board to take care of the vessel.
Mr. Rhys had only a small canoe with him, manned by
a single native. So he decided forthwith to return
to the village and despatch boats large enough to bring
the missionaries and their effects to land; but about
that there might be some delay. Then for the
first time he bent down and spoke to Eleanor; again
that subdued, tender tone.
“Are you ready to go ashore?”
“Yes.”
“I will take you with me.
Do you want anything out of this big ship? The
canoes may not be immediately obtained, for anything
but the live freight.”
He took the grey ship cloak from Eleanor’s
arm and put it round her shoulders. She felt
that she was alone and forlorn no more; she had got
home. She was a different creature that went into
the cabin to kiss Mrs. Amos, from the Eleanor that
had come out.
“I’ve seen him!”
whispered Mrs. Amos. “Eleanor! you will
not be married till we come, will you?”
“I hope not I don’t
know,” said Eleanor hurriedly seizing her bag
and passing out again. Another minute, and it
and she were taken down the side of the schooner and
lodged in the canoe; and their dark oarsman paddled
off.