“My husband! my dear husband!
and it was my imprudence that brought you to this!”
cried Sophy, as she fell weeping upon the neck of the
felon, clasping him in her arms, and kissing with
passionate grief the tears from his haggard unshaven
face.
“Hush! my precious lamb,”
he replied, folding her in his embrace. “It
was not you who betrayed me, it was the voice of God
speaking through a guilty conscience. I am thankful! oh,
so thankful that it has taken place that
the dreadful secret is known at last! I enjoyed
last night the first quiet sleep I have known for
years slept without being haunted by him!”
“And with death staring you in the face, Noah?”
“What is death, Sophy, to the
agonies I have endured? the fear of detection
by day the eyes of the dead glaring upon
me all night? No; I feel happy, in comparison,
now. I have humbled myself to the dust have
wept and prayed for pardon, and oh, my sweet wife,
I trust I am forgiven have found peace!”
“When was this?” whispered Sophy.
“The night before last.”
“How strange!” murmured
Sophy. “We were together in spirit that
night. I never knew how dear you were to me,
Noah, until that night. How painful it would
be to me to part with you for ever!”
“It was cruel and selfish in
me, Sophy, to join your fate to mine, a monster, stained with the blackest
crimes. But I thought myself secure from detection; thought that my sin would
never find me out, that I had managed matters with such incomparable skill that
discovery was impossible, that the wide earth did not contain a witness of my
guilt. Fool that I was! The voice of blood never sleeps; from out the silent
dust it calls night and day in its ceaseless appeals for vengeance at the throne
of God. I have heard it in the still dark night, and above the roar of the crowd
in the swarming streets of London at noon-day; and ever felt a shadowy hand upon
my throat, and a cry in my ear Thou art the man!
“There were moments when, goaded
to madness by that voice, I felt inclined to give
myself up to justice, but pride withheld me, and the
dismal fear of those haunting fiends chasing me through
eternity, was a hell I dared not encounter. My
soul was parched with an unquenchable fire; I was
too hardened to pray.”
“Noah,” said Sophy, looking
earnestly into his hollow eyes, “you are not
a cruel man; you were kind to your old mother have
been very kind to me. How came you to
commit such a dreadful crime?”
The man groaned heavily, as he replied
“It was pride, a
foolish, false shame of low birth and honest poverty,
that led me to the desperate act.”
“I have felt something of this,”
said Sophy, and her tears flowed afresh. “I
now see that sinful thoughts are but the seeds of sinful
deeds, ripened and matured by bad passions. Perhaps
I only needed a stronger temptation to be guilty of
crimes as great as that of which you stand charged.”
“Sophy,” said her husband,
solemnly, “I wish my fate to serve as a warning
to others. Listen to me. In the long winter
evenings after my mother died, I wrote a history of
my life. I did this in fear and trembling, lest
any human eye should catch me at my task, and learn
my secret. But now that I am called upon to answer
for my crime, I wish to make this sad history beneficial
to my fellow-creatures.
After I am gone, dear Sophy, and you return to F , lose no time
in taking to your home, and making comfortable, your
poor afflicted mother and sister for the remainder
of their days. This key” (and he drew one
from his pocket) “opens the old-fashioned bureau
in our sleeping-room. In the drawer nearest to
the window you will find my will, in which I have
settled upon you all that I possess. I have no
relations who can dispute with you the legal right
to this property. There is a slight indenture
in the wood that forms the bottom of this drawer; press
it hard with your thumb, and draw it back at the same
time, and it will disclose an inner place of concealment,
in which you will find a roll of Bank of England notes,
to the amount of 500_l._ This was the money stolen
from Mr. Carlos, the night I murdered him. It
is stained with his blood, and I have never looked
at it or touched it since I placed it there upwards
of twenty years ago. I never had the heart to
use it, and I wish it to be returned to the family.
“In this drawer you will likewise
find the papers containing an account of the circumstances
which led to the commission of the crime. You
and Mary can read them together; and oh! as you read,
pity and pray for the unhappy murderer.”
He stopped, and wiped the drops of
perspiration from his brow; and the distress of his
young wife almost equalled his own, as she kissed away
the tears that streamed down his pale face. His
breath came in quick, convulsive sobs, and he trembled
in every limb.
“I feel ill,” he said,
in a faint voice; “these recollections make me
so. There is a strange fluttering at my heart,
as if a bird beat its wings within my breast.
Sophy, my wife my blessed wife! can this
be death?”
Sophy screamed with terror, as he
reeled suddenly forward, and fell to the ground at
her feet. Her cries brought the gaoler to her
assistance. They raised the felon, and laid him
on his bed; but life was extinct. The agitation
of his mind had been too great for his exhausted frame.
The criminal had died self-condemned, under the arrows
of remorse!