Of course that was not his name.
Even in the State of Maine, where it is still a custom
to maim a child for life by christening him Arioch
or Shadrach or Ephraim, nobody would dream of calling
a boy “Quite So.” It was merely a
nickname which we gave him in camp; but it stuck to
him with such bur-like tenacity, and is so inseparable
from my memory of him, that I do not think I could
write definitely of John Bladburn if I were to call
him anything but “Quite So.”
It was one night shortly after the
first battle of Bull Run. The Army of the Potomac,
shattered, stunned, and forlorn, was back in its old
quarters behind the earthworks. The melancholy
line of ambulances bearing our wounded to Washington
was not done creeping over Long Bridge; the blue smocks
and the gray still lay in windrows on the field of
Manassas; and the gloom that weighed down our hearts
was like the fog that stretched along the bosom of
the Potomac, and enfolded the valley of the Shenandoah.
A drizzling rain had set in at twilight, and, growing
bolder with the darkness, was beating a dismal tattoo
on the tent the tent of Mess 6, Company
A, th Regiment, N. Y. Volunteers.
Our mess, consisting originally of eight men, was
reduced to four. Little Billy, as one of the
boys grimly remarked, had concluded to remain at Manassas;
Corporal Steele we had to leave at Fairfax Court-House,
shot through the hip; Hunter and Suydam we had said
good-by to that afternoon. “Tell Johnny
Reb,” says Hunter, lifting up the leather side-piece
of the ambulance, “that I ’ll be back
again as soon as I get a new leg.” But
Suydam said nothing; he only unclosed his eyes languidly
and smiled farewell to us.
The four of us who were left alive
and unhurt that shameful July day sat gloomily smoking
our brier-wood pipes, thinking our thoughts, and listening
to the rain pattering against the canvas. That,
and the occasional whine of a hungry cur, foraging
on the outskirts of the camp for a stray bone, alone
broke the silence, save when a vicious drop of rain
detached itself meditatively from the ridge-pole of
the tent, and fell upon the wick of our tallow candle,
making it “cuss,” as Ned Strong described
it. The candle was in the midst of one of its
most profane fits when Blakely, knocking the ashes
from his pipe and addressing no one in particular,
but giving breath, unconsciously as it were, to the
result of his cogitations, observed that “it
was considerable of a fizzle.”
“The ‘on to Richmond’ business?”
“Yes.”
“I wonder what they ’ll
do about it over yonder,” said Curtis, pointing
over his right shoulder. By “over yonder”
he meant the North in general and Massachusetts especially.
Curtis was a Boston boy, and his sense of locality
was so strong that, during all his wanderings in Virginia,
I do not believe there was a moment, day or night,
when he could not have made a bee-line for Faneuil
Hall.
“Do about it?” cried Strong.
“They ’ll make about two hundred thousand
blue flannel trousers and send them along, each pair
with a man in it all the short men in the
long trousers, and all the tall men in the short ones,”
he added, ruefully contemplating his own leg-gear,
which scarcely reached to his ankles.
“That’s so,” said
Blakely. “Just now, when I was tackling
the commissary for an extra candle, I saw a crowd
of new fellows drawing blankets.”
“I say there, drop that!”
cried Strong. “All right, sir, didn’t
know it was you,” he added hastily, seeing it
was Lieutenant Haines who had thrown back the flap
of the tent, and let in a gust of wind and rain that
threatened the most serious bronchial consequences
to our discontented tallow dip.
“You ’re to bunk in here,”
said the lieutenant, speaking to some one outside.
The some one stepped in, and Haines vanished in the
darkness.
When Strong had succeeded in restoring
the candle to consciousness, the light fell upon a
tall, shy-looking man of about thirty-five, with long,
hay-colored beard and mustache, upon which the rain-drops
stood in clusters, like the night-dew on patches of
cobweb in a meadow. It was an honest face, with
unworldly sort of blue eyes, that looked out from
under the broad visor of the infantry cap. With
a deferential glance towards us, the new-comer unstrapped
his knapsack, spread his blanket over it, and sat
down unobtrusively.
“Rather damp night out,”
remarked Blakely, whose strong hand was supposed to
be conversation.
“Quite so,” replied the
stranger, not curtly, but pleasantly, and with an
air as if he had said all there was to be said about
it.
“Come from the North recently?”
inquired Blakely, after a pause.
“Yes.”
“From any place in particular?”
“Maine.”
“People considerably stirred
up down there?” continued Blakely, determined
not to give up.
“Quite so.”
Blakely threw a puzzled look over
the tent, and seeing Ned Strong on the broad grin,
frowned severely. Strong instantly assumed an
abstracted air, and began humming softly,
“I wish I was
in Dixie.”
“The State of Maine,”
observed Blakely, with a certain defiance of manner
not at all necessary in discussing a geographical question,
“is a pleasant State.”
“In summer,” suggested the stranger.
“In summer, I mean,” returned
Blakely with animation, thinking he had broken the
ice. “Cold as blazes in winter, though Isn’t
it?”
The new recruit merely nodded.
Blakely eyed the man homicidally for
a moment, and then, smiling one of those smiles of
simulated gayety which the novelists inform us are
more tragic than tears, turned upon him with withering
irony.
“Trust you left the old folks pretty comfortable?”
“Dead.”
“The old folks dead!”
“Quite so.”
Blakely made a sudden dive for his
blanket, tucked it around him with painful precision,
and was heard no more.
Just then the bugle sounded “lights
out,” bugle answering bugle in far-off
camps. When our not elaborate night-toilets were
complete, Strong threw somebody else’s old boot
at the candle with infallible aim, and darkness took
possession of the tent. Ned, who lay on my left,
presently reached over to me, and whispered, “I
say, our friend ’quite so’ is a garrulous
old boy! He’ll talk himself to death some
of these odd times, if he is n’t careful.
How he did run on!”
The next morning, when I opened my
eyes, the new member of Mess 6 was sitting on his
knapsack, combing his blonde beard with a horn comb.
He nodded pleasantly to me, and to each of the boys
as they woke up, one by one. Blakely did not
appear disposed to renew the animated conversation
of the previous night; but while he was gone to make
a requisition for what was in pure sarcasm called
coffee, Curtis ventured to ask the man his name.
“Bladburn, John,” was the reply.
“That’s rather an unwieldy
name for every-day use,” put in Strong.
“If it would n’t hurt your feelings, I
’d like to call you Quite So for
short. Don’t say no, if you don’t
like it. Is it agreeable?”
Bladburn gave a little laugh, all
to himself, seemingly, and was about to say, “Quite
so,” when he caught at the words, blushed like
a girl, and nodded a sunny assent to Strong.
From that day until the end, the sobriquet clung to
him.
The disaster at Bull Bun was followed,
as the reader knows, by a long period of masterly
inactivity, so far as the Army of the Potomac was
concerned. McDowell, a good soldier, but unlucky,
retired to Arlington Heights, and McClellan, who had
distinguished himself in Western Virginia, took command
of the forces in front of Washington, and bent his
energies to reorganizing the demoralized troops.
It was a dreary time to the people of the North, who
looked fatuously from week to week for “the
fall of Richmond;” and it was a dreary time to
the denizens of that vast city of tents and forts
which stretched in a semicircle before the beleaguered
Capitol so tedious and soul-wearing a time
that the hardships of forced marches and the horrors
of battle became desirable things to them.
Roll-call morning and evening, guard-duty,
dress-parades, an occasional reconnoissance, dominoes,
wrestling-matches, and such rude games as could be
carried on in camp made up the sum of our lives.
The arrival of the mail with letters and papers from
home was the event of the day. We noticed that
Bladburn neither wrote nor received any letters.
When the rest of the boys were scribbling away for
dear life, with drum-heads and knapsacks and cracker-boxes
for writing-desks, he would sit serenely smoking his
pipe, but looking out on us through rings of smoke
with a face expressive of the tenderest interest.
“Look here, Quite So,”
Strong would say, “the mail-bag closes in half
an hour. Ain’t you going to write?”
“I believe not to-day,”
Bladburn would reply, as if he had written yesterday,
or would write to-morrow: but he never wrote.
He had become a great favorite with
us, and with all the officers of the regiment.
He talked less than any man I ever knew, but there
was nothing sinister or sullen in his reticence.
It was sunshine, warmth and brightness,
but no voice. Unassuming and modest to the verge
of shyness, he impressed every one as a man of singular
pluck and nerve.
“Do you know,” said Curtis
to me one day, “that that fellow Quite So is
clear grit, and when we come to close quarters with
our Palmetto brethren over yonder, he’ll do
something devilish?”
“What makes you think so?”
“Well, nothing quite explainable;
the exasperating coolness of the man, as much as anything.
This morning the boys were teasing Muffin Fan [a small
mulatto girl who used to bring muffins into camp three
times a week, at the peril of her life!]
and Jemmy Blunt of Company K you know him was
rather rough on the girl, when Quite So, who had been
reading under a tree, shut one finger in his book,
walked over to where the boys were skylarking, and
with the smile of a juvenile angel on his face lifted
Jemmy out of that and set him down gently in front
of his own tent. There Blunt sat speechless,
staring at Quite So, who was back again under the
tree, pegging away at his little Latin grammar.”
That Latin grammar! He always
had it about him, reading it or turning over its dog’s-eared
pages at odd intervals and in out-of-the-way places.
Half a dozen times a day he would draw it out from
the bosom of his blouse, which had taken the shape
of the book just over the left breast, look at it
as if to assure himself it was all right, and then
put the thing back. At night the volume lay beneath
his pillow. The first thing in the morning, before
he was well awake, his hand would go groping instinctively
under his knapsack in search of it.
A devastating curiosity seized upon
us boys concerning that Latin grammar, for we had
discovered the nature of the book. Strong wanted
to steal it one night, but concluded not to. “In
the first place,” reflected Strong, “I
haven’t the heart to do it, and in the next place
I have n’t the moral courage. Quite So
would placidly break every bone in my body.”
And I believe Strong was not far out of the way.
Sometimes I was vexed with myself
for allowing this tall, simple-hearted country fellow
to puzzle me so much. And yet, was he a simple-hearted
country fellow? City bred he certainly was not;
but his manner, in spite of his awkwardness, had an
indescribable air of refinement. Now and then,
too, he dropped a word or a phrase that showed his
familiarity with unexpected lines of reading.
“The other day,” said Curtis, with the
slightest elevation of eyebrow, “he had the cheek
to correct my Latin for me.” In short,
Quite So was a daily problem to the members of Mess
6. Whenever he was absent, and Blakely and Curtis
and Strong and I got together in the tent, we discussed
him, evolving various theories to explain why he never
wrote to anybody and why nobody ever wrote to him.
Had the man committed some terrible crime, and fled
to the army to hide his guilt? Blakely suggested
that he must have murdered “the old folks.”
What did he mean by eternally conning that tattered
Latin grammar? And was his name Bladburn, anyhow?
Even his imperturbable amiability became suspicious.
And then his frightful reticence! If he was the
victim of any deep grief or crushing calamity, why
did n’t he seem unhappy? What business
had he to be cheerful?
“It’s my opinion,”
said Strong, “that he ’s a rival Wandering
Jew; the original Jacobs, you know, was a dark fellow.”
Blakely inferred from something Bladburn
had said, or something he had not said which
was more likely that he had been a schoolmaster
at some period of his life.
“Schoolmaster be hanged!”
was Strong’s comment. “Can you fancy
a schoolmaster going about conjugating baby verbs
out of a dratted little spelling-book? No, Quite
So has evidently been a a Blest
if I can imagine what he ’s been!”
Whatever John Bladburn had been, he
was a lonely man. Whenever I want a type of perfect
human isolation, I shall think of him, as he was in
those days, moving remote, self-contained, and alone
in the midst of two hundred thousand men.