1-The Rencounter by the Pool
The July sun shone over Egdon and
fired its crimson heather to scarlet. It was
the one season of the year, and the one weather of
the season, in which the heath was gorgeous.
This flowering period represented the second or noontide
division in the cycle of those superficial changes
which alone were possible here; it followed the green
or young-fern period, representing the morn, and preceded
the brown period, when the heathbells and ferns would
wear the russet tinges of evening; to be in turn
displaced by the dark hue of the winter period, representing
night.
Clym and Eustacia, in their little
house at Alderworth, beyond East Egdon, were living
on with a monotony which was delightful to them.
The heath and changes of weather were quite blotted
out from their eyes for the present. They were
enclosed in a sort of luminous mist, which hid from
them surroundings of any inharmonious colour, and gave
to all things the character of light. When it
rained they were charmed, because they could remain
indoors together all day with such a show of reason;
when it was fine they were charmed, because they could
sit together on the hills. They were like those
double stars which revolve round and round each other,
and from a distance appear to be one. The absolute
solitude in which they lived intensified their reciprocal
thoughts; yet some might have said that it had the
disadvantage of consuming their mutual affections
at a fearfully prodigal rate. Yeobright did not
fear for his own part; but recollection of Eustacia’s
old speech about the evanescence of love, now apparently
forgotten by her, sometimes caused him to ask himself
a question; and he recoiled at the thought that the
quality of finiteness was not foreign to Eden.
When three or four weeks had been
passed thus, Yeobright resumed his reading in earnest.
To make up for lost time he studied indefatigably,
for he wished to enter his new profession with the
least possible delay.
Now, Eustacia’s dream had always
been that, once married to Clym, she would have the
power of inducing him to return to Paris. He had
carefully withheld all promise to do so; but would
he be proof against her coaxing and argument?
She had calculated to such a degree on the probability
of success that she had represented Paris, and not
Budmouth, to her grandfather as in all likelihood
their future home. Her hopes were bound up in
this dream. In the quiet days since their marriage,
when Yeobright had been poring over her lips, her eyes,
and the lines of her face, she had mused and mused
on the subject, even while in the act of returning
his gaze; and now the sight of the books, indicating
a future which was antagonistic to her dream, struck
her with a positively painful jar. She was hoping
for the time when, as the mistress of some pretty
establishment, however small, near a Parisian Boulevard,
she would be passing her days on the skirts at least
of the gay world, and catching stray wafts from those
town pleasures she was so well fitted to enjoy.
Yet Yeobright was as firm in the contrary intention
as if the tendency of marriage were rather to develop
the fantasies of young philanthropy than to sweep
them away.
Her anxiety reached a high pitch;
but there was something in Clym’s undeviating
manner which made her hesitate before sounding him
on the subject. At this point in their experience,
however, an incident helped her. It occurred
one evening about six weeks after their union, and
arose entirely out of the unconscious misapplication
of Venn of the fifty guineas intended for Yeobright.
A day or two after the receipt of
the money Thomasin had sent a note to her aunt to
thank her. She had been surprised at the largeness
of the amount; but as no sum had ever been mentioned
she set that down to her late uncle’s generosity.
She had been strictly charged by her aunt to say nothing
to her husband of this gift; and Wildeve, as was natural
enough, had not brought himself to mention to his wife
a single particular of the midnight scene in the heath.
Christian’s terror, in like manner, had tied
his tongue on the share he took in that proceeding;
and hoping that by some means or other the money had
gone to its proper destination, he simply asserted
as much, without giving details.
Therefore, when a week or two had
passed away, Mrs. Yeobright began to wonder why she
never heard from her son of the receipt of the present;
and to add gloom to her perplexity came the possibility
that resentment might be the cause of his silence.
She could hardly believe as much, but why did he not
write? She questioned Christian, and the confusion
in his answers would at once have led her to believe
that something was wrong, had not one-half of his
story been corroborated by Thomasin’s note.
Mrs. Yeobright was in this state of
uncertainty when she was informed one morning that
her son’s wife was visiting her grandfather at
Mistover. She determined to walk up the hill,
see Eustacia, and ascertain from her daughter-in-law’s
lips whether the family guineas, which were to Mrs.
Yeobright what family jewels are to wealthier dowagers,
had miscarried or not.
When Christian learnt where she was
going his concern reached its height. At the
moment of her departure he could prevaricate no longer,
and, confessing to the gambling, told her the truth
as far as he knew it-that the guineas had
been won by Wildeve.
“What, is he going to keep them?” Mrs.
Yeobright cried.
“I hope and trust not!”
moaned Christian. “He’s a good man,
and perhaps will do right things. He said you
ought to have gied Mr. Clym’s share to Eustacia,
and that’s perhaps what he’ll do himself.”
To Mrs. Yeobright, as soon as she
could calmly reflect, there was much likelihood in
this, for she could hardly believe that Wildeve would
really appropriate money belonging to her son.
The intermediate course of giving it to Eustacia was
the sort of thing to please Wildeve’s fancy.
But it filled the mother with anger none the less.
That Wildeve should have got command of the guineas
after all, and should rearrange the disposal of them,
placing Clym’s share in Clym’s wife’s
hands, because she had been his own sweetheart, and
might be so still, was as irritating a pain as any
that Mrs. Yeobright had ever borne.
She instantly dismissed the wretched
Christian from her employ for his conduct in the affair;
but, feeling quite helpless and unable to do without
him, told him afterwards that he might stay a little
longer if he chose. Then she hastened off to
Eustacia, moved by a much less promising emotion towards
her daughter-in-law than she had felt half an hour
earlier, when planning her journey. At that time
it was to inquire in a friendly spirit if there had
been any accidental loss; now it was to ask plainly
if Wildeve had privately given her money which had
been intended as a sacred gift to Clym.
She started at two o’clock,
and her meeting with Eustacia was hastened by the
appearance of the young lady beside the pool and bank
which bordered her grandfather’s premises, where
she stood surveying the scene, and perhaps thinking
of the romantic enactments it had witnessed in past
days. When Mrs. Yeobright approached, Eustacia
surveyed her with the calm stare of a stranger.
The mother-in-law was the first to
speak. “I was coming to see you,”
she said.
“Indeed!” said Eustacia
with surprise, for Mrs. Yeobright, much to the girl’s
mortification, had refused to be present at the wedding.
“I did not at all expect you.”
“I was coming on business only,”
said the visitor, more coldly than at first.
“Will you excuse my asking this-Have
you received a gift from Thomasin’s husband?”
“A gift?”
“I mean money!”
“What-I myself?”
“Well, I meant yourself, privately-though
I was not going to put it in that way.”
“Money from Mr. Wildeve?
No-never! Madam, what do you mean by
that?” Eustacia fired up all too quickly, for
her own consciousness of the old attachment between
herself and Wildeve led her to jump to the conclusion
that Mrs. Yeobright also knew of it, and might have
come to accuse her of receiving dishonourable presents
from him now.
“I simply ask the question,”
said Mrs. Yeobright. “I have been -”
“You ought to have better opinions
of me-I feared you were against me from
the first!” exclaimed Eustacia.
“No. I was simply for Clym,”
replied Mrs. Yeobright, with too much emphasis in
her earnestness. “It is the instinct of
everyone to look after their own.”
“How can you imply that he required
guarding against me?” cried Eustacia, passionate
tears in her eyes. “I have not injured him
by marrying him! What sin have I done that you
should think so ill of me? You had no right to
speak against me to him when I have never wronged
you.”
“I only did what was fair under
the circumstances,” said Mrs. Yeobright more
softly. “I would rather not have gone into
this question at present, but you compel me.
I am not ashamed to tell you the honest truth.
I was firmly convinced that he ought not to marry you-therefore
I tried to dissuade him by all the means in my power.
But it is done now, and I have no idea of complaining
any more. I am ready to welcome you.”
“Ah, yes, it is very well to
see things in that business point of view,”
murmured Eustacia with a smothered fire of feeling.
“But why should you think there is anything
between me and Mr. Wildeve? I have a spirit as
well as you. I am indignant; and so would any
woman be. It was a condescension in me to be
Clym’s wife, and not a manoeuvre, let me remind
you; and therefore I will not be treated as a schemer
whom it becomes necessary to bear with because she
has crept into the family.”
“Oh!” said Mrs. Yeobright,
vainly endeavouring to control her anger. “I
have never heard anything to show that my son’s
lineage is not as good as the Vyes’-perhaps
better. It is amusing to hear you talk of condescension.”
“It was condescension, nevertheless,”
said Eustacia vehemently. “And if I had
known then what I know now, that I should be living
in this wild heath a month after my marriage, I-I
should have thought twice before agreeing.”
“It would be better not to say
that; it might not sound truthful. I am not aware
that any deception was used on his part-I
know there was not-whatever might have
been the case on the other side.”
“This is too exasperating!”
answered the younger woman huskily, her face crimsoning,
and her eyes darting light. “How can you
dare to speak to me like that? I insist upon
repeating to you that had I known that my life would
from my marriage up to this time have been as it is,
I should have said no. I don’t complain.
I have never uttered a sound of such a thing to him;
but it is true. I hope therefore that in the future
you will be silent on my eagerness. If you injure
me now you injure yourself.”
“Injure you? Do you think I am an evil-disposed
person?”
“You injured me before my marriage,
and you have now suspected me of secretly favouring
another man for money!”
“I could not help what I thought.
But I have never spoken of you outside my house.”
“You spoke of me within it,
to Clym, and you could not do worse.”
“I did my duty.”
“And I’ll do mine.”
“A part of which will possibly
be to set him against his mother. It is always
so. But why should I not bear it as others have
borne it before me!”
“I understand you,” said
Eustacia, breathless with emotion. “You
think me capable of every bad thing. Who can be
worse than a wife who encourages a lover, and poisons
her husband’s mind against his relative?
Yet that is now the character given to me. Will
you not come and drag him out of my hands?”
Mrs. Yeobright gave back heat for heat.
“Don’t rage at me, madam!
It ill becomes your beauty, and I am not worth the
injury you may do it on my account, I assure you.
I am only a poor old woman who has lost a son.”
“If you had treated me honourably
you would have had him still.” Eustacia
said, while scalding tears trickled from her eyes.
“You have brought yourself to folly; you have
caused a division which can never be healed!”
“I have done nothing. This
audacity from a young woman is more than I can bear.”
“It was asked for; you have
suspected me, and you have made me speak of my husband
in a way I would not have done. You will let him
know that I have spoken thus, and it will cause misery
between us. Will you go away from me? You
are no friend!”
“I will go when I have spoken
a word. If anyone says I have come here to question
you without good grounds for it, that person speaks
untruly. If anyone says that I attempted to stop
your marriage by any but honest means, that person,
too, does not speak the truth. I have fallen on
an evil time; God has been unjust to me in letting
you insult me! Probably my son’s happiness
does not lie on this side of the grave, for he is a
foolish man who neglects the advice of his parent.
You, Eustacia, stand on the edge of a precipice without
knowing it. Only show my son one-half the temper
you have shown me today-and you may before
long-and you will find that though he is
as gentle as a child with you now, he can be as hard
as steel!”
The excited mother then withdrew,
and Eustacia, panting, stood looking into the pool.
2-He Is Set upon by Adversities but He
Sings a Song
The result of that unpropitious interview
was that Eustacia, instead of passing the afternoon
with her grandfather, hastily returned home to Clym,
where she arrived three hours earlier than she had
been expected.
She came indoors with her face flushed,
and her eyes still showing traces of her recent excitement.
Yeobright looked up astonished; he had never seen
her in any way approaching to that state before.
She passed him by, and would have gone upstairs unnoticed,
but Clym was so concerned that he immediately followed
her.
“What is the matter, Eustacia?”
he said. She was standing on the hearthrug in
the bedroom, looking upon the floor, her hands clasped
in front of her, her bonnet yet unremoved. For
a moment she did not answer; and then she replied
in a low voice-
“I have seen your mother; and
I will never see her again!” A weight fell like
a stone upon Clym. That same morning, when Eustacia
had arranged to go and see her grandfather, Clym had
expressed a wish that she would drive down to Blooms-End
and inquire for her mother-in-law, or adopt any other
means she might think fit to bring about a reconciliation.
She had set out gaily; and he had hoped for much.
“Why is this?” he asked.
“I cannot tell-I
cannot remember. I met your mother. And I
will never meet her again.”
“Why?”
“What do I know about Mr. Wildeve
now? I won’t have wicked opinions passed
on me by anybody. O! it was too humiliating to
be asked if I had received any money from him, or
encouraged him, or something of the sort-I
don’t exactly know what!”
“How could she have asked you that?”
“She did.”
“Then there must have been some
meaning in it. What did my mother say besides?”
“I don’t know what she
said, except in so far as this, that we both said
words which can never be forgiven!”
“Oh, there must be some misapprehension.
Whose fault was it that her meaning was not made clear?”
“I would rather not say.
It may have been the fault of the circumstances, which
were awkward at the very least. O Clym-I
cannot help expressing it-this is an unpleasant
position that you have placed me in. But you
must improve it-yes, say you will-for
I hate it all now! Yes, take me to Paris, and
go on with your old occupation, Clym! I don’t
mind how humbly we live there at first, if it can only
be Paris, and not Egdon Heath.”
“But I have quite given up that
idea,” said Yeobright, with surprise. “Surely
I never led you to expect such a thing?”
“I own it. Yet there are
thoughts which cannot be kept out of mind, and that
one was mine. Must I not have a voice in the matter,
now I am your wife and the sharer of your doom?”
“Well, there are things which
are placed beyond the pale of discussion; and I thought
this was specially so, and by mutual agreement.”
“Clym, I am unhappy at what
I hear,” she said in a low voice; and her eyes
drooped, and she turned away.
This indication of an unexpected mine
of hope in Eustacia’s bosom disconcerted her
husband. It was the first time that he had confronted
the fact of the indirectness of a woman’s movement
towards her desire. But his intention was unshaken,
though he loved Eustacia well. All the effect
that her remark had upon him was a resolve to chain
himself more closely than ever to his books, so as
to be the sooner enabled to appeal to substantial
results from another course in arguing against her
whim.
Next day the mystery of the guineas
was explained. Thomasin paid them a hurried visit,
and Clym’s share was delivered up to him by her
own hands. Eustacia was not present at the time.
“Then this is what my mother
meant,” exclaimed Clym. “Thomasin,
do you know that they have had a bitter quarrel?”
There was a little more reticence
now than formerly in Thomasin’s manner towards
her cousin. It is the effect of marriage to engender
in several directions some of the reserve it annihilates
in one. “Your mother told me,” she
said quietly. “She came back to my house
after seeing Eustacia.”
“The worst thing I dreaded has
come to pass. Was Mother much disturbed when
she came to you, Thomasin?”
“Yes.”
“Very much indeed?”
“Yes.”
Clym leant his elbow upon the post
of the garden gate, and covered his eyes with his
hand.
“Don’t trouble about it, Clym. They
may get to be friends.”
He shook his head. “Not
two people with inflammable natures like theirs.
Well, what must be will be.”
“One thing is cheerful in it-the
guineas are not lost.”
“I would rather have lost them twice over than
have had this happen.”
Amid these jarring events Yeobright
felt one thing to be indispensable-that
he should speedily make some show of progress in his
scholastic plans. With this view he read far into
the small hours during many nights.
One morning, after a severer strain
than usual, he awoke with a strange sensation in his
eyes. The sun was shining directly upon the window-blind,
and at his first glance thitherward a sharp pain obliged
him to close his eyelids quickly. At every new
attempt to look about him the same morbid sensibility
to light was manifested, and excoriating tears ran
down his cheeks. He was obliged to tie a bandage
over his brow while dressing; and during the day it
could not be abandoned. Eustacia was thoroughly
alarmed. On finding that the case was no better
the next morning they decided to send to Anglebury
for a surgeon.
Towards evening he arrived, and pronounced
the disease to be acute inflammation induced by Clym’s
night studies, continued in spite of a cold previously
caught, which had weakened his eyes for the time.
Fretting with impatience at this interruption
to a task he was so anxious to hasten, Clym was transformed
into an invalid. He was shut up in a room from
which all light was excluded, and his condition would
have been one of absolute misery had not Eustacia read
to him by the glimmer of a shaded lamp. He hoped
that the worst would soon be over; but at the surgeon’s
third visit he learnt to his dismay that although
he might venture out of doors with shaded eyes in the
course of a month, all thought of pursuing his work,
or of reading print of any description, would have
to be given up for a long time to come.
One week and another week wore on,
and nothing seemed to lighten the gloom of the young
couple. Dreadful imaginings occurred to Eustacia,
but she carefully refrained from uttering them to
her husband. Suppose he should become blind,
or, at all events, never recover sufficient strength
of sight to engage in an occupation which would be
congenial to her feelings, and conduce to her removal
from this lonely dwelling among the hills? That
dream of beautiful Paris was not likely to cohere into
substance in the presence of this misfortune.
As day after day passed by, and he got no better,
her mind ran more and more in this mournful groove,
and she would go away from him into the garden and
weep despairing tears.
Yeobright thought he would send for
his mother; and then he thought he would not.
Knowledge of his state could only make her the more
unhappy; and the seclusion of their life was such
that she would hardly be likely to learn the news
except through a special messenger. Endeavouring
to take the trouble as philosophically as possible,
he waited on till the third week had arrived, when
he went into the open air for the first time since
the attack. The surgeon visited him again at this
stage, and Clym urged him to express a distinct opinion.
The young man learnt with added surprise that the
date at which he might expect to resume his labours
was as uncertain as ever, his eyes being in that peculiar
state which, though affording him sight enough for
walking about, would not admit of their being strained
upon any definite object without incurring the risk
of reproducing ophthalmia in its acute form.
Clym was very grave at the intelligence,
but not despairing. A quiet firmness, and even
cheerfulness, took possession of him. He was not
to be blind; that was enough. To be doomed to
behold the world through smoked glass for an indefinite
period was bad enough, and fatal to any kind of advance;
but Yeobright was an absolute stoic in the face of
mishaps which only affected his social standing; and,
apart from Eustacia, the humblest walk of life would
satisfy him if it could be made to work in with some
form of his culture scheme. To keep a cottage
night-school was one such form; and his affliction
did not master his spirit as it might otherwise have
done.
He walked through the warm sun westward
into those tracts of Egdon with which he was best
acquainted, being those lying nearer to his old home.
He saw before him in one of the valleys the gleaming
of whetted iron, and advancing, dimly perceived that
the shine came from the tool of a man who was cutting
furze. The worker recognized Clym, and Yeobright
learnt from the voice that the speaker was Humphrey.
Humphrey expressed his sorrow at Clym’s
condition, and added, “Now, if yours was low-class
work like mine, you could go on with it just the same.”
“Yes, I could,” said Yeobright
musingly. “How much do you get for cutting
these faggots?”
“Half-a-crown a hundred, and
in these long days I can live very well on the wages.”
During the whole of Yeobright’s
walk home to Alderworth he was lost in reflections
which were not of an unpleasant kind. On his coming
up to the house Eustacia spoke to him from the open
window, and he went across to her.
“Darling,” he said, “I
am much happier. And if my mother were reconciled
to me and to you I should, I think, be happy quite.”
“I fear that will never be,”
she said, looking afar with her beautiful stormy eyes.
“How can you say ‘I am happier,’
and nothing changed?”
“It arises from my having at
last discovered something I can do, and get a living
at, in this time of misfortune.”
“Yes?”
“I am going to be a furze- and turf-cutter.”
“No, Clym!” she said,
the slight hopefulness previously apparent in her
face going off again, and leaving her worse than before.
“Surely I shall. Is it
not very unwise in us to go on spending the little
money we’ve got when I can keep down expenditures
by an honest occupation? The outdoor exercise
will do me good, and who knows but that in a few months
I shall be able to go on with my reading again?”
“But my grandfather offers to
assist us, if we require assistance.”
“We don’t require it.
If I go furze-cutting we shall be fairly well off.”
“In comparison with slaves,
and the Israelites in Egypt, and such people!”
A bitter tear rolled down Eustacia’s face, which
he did not see. There had been nonchalance in
his tone, showing her that he felt no absolute grief
at a consummation which to her was a positive horror.
The very next day Yeobright went to
Humphrey’s cottage, and borrowed of him leggings,
gloves, a whetstone, and a hook, to use till he should
be able to purchase some for himself. Then he
sallied forth with his new fellow-labourer and old
acquaintance, and selecting a spot where the furze
grew thickest he struck the first blow in his adopted
calling. His sight, like the wings in Rasselas,
though useless to him for his grand purpose, sufficed
for this strait, and he found that when a little practice
should have hardened his palms against blistering he
would be able to work with ease.
Day after day he rose with the sun,
buckled on his leggings, and went off to the rendezvous
with Humphrey. His custom was to work from four
o’clock in the morning till noon; then, when
the heat of the day was at its highest, to go home
and sleep for an hour or two; afterwards coming out
again and working till dusk at nine.
This man from Paris was now so disguised
by his leather accoutrements, and by the goggles he
was obliged to wear over his eyes, that his closest
friend might have passed by without recognizing him.
He was a brown spot in the midst of an expanse of
olive-green gorse, and nothing more. Though frequently
depressed in spirit when not actually at work, owing
to thoughts of Eustacia’s position and his mother’s
estrangement, when in the full swing of labour he
was cheerfully disposed and calm.
His daily life was of a curious microscopic
sort, his whole world being limited to a circuit of
a few feet from his person. His familiars were
creeping and winged things, and they seemed to enroll
him in their band. Bees hummed around his ears
with an intimate air, and tugged at the heath and
furze-flowers at his side in such numbers as to weigh
them down to the sod. The strange amber-coloured
butterflies which Egdon produced, and which were never
seen elsewhere, quivered in the breath of his lips,
alighted upon his bowed back, and sported with the
glittering point of his hook as he flourished it up
and down. Tribes of emerald-green grasshoppers
leaped over his feet, falling awkwardly on their backs,
heads, or hips, like unskilful acrobats, as chance
might rule; or engaged themselves in noisy flirtations
under the fern-fronds with silent ones of homely hue.
Huge flies, ignorant of larders and wire-netting,
and quite in a savage state, buzzed about him without
knowing that he was a man. In and out of the fern-dells
snakes glided in their most brilliant blue and yellow
guise, it being the season immediately following the
shedding of their old skins, when their colours are
brightest. Litters of young rabbits came out from
their forms to sun themselves upon hillocks, the hot
beams blazing through the delicate tissue of each
thin-fleshed ear, and firing it to a blood-red transparency
in which the veins could be seen. None of them
feared him. The monotony of his occupation soothed
him, and was in itself a pleasure. A forced limitation
of effort offered a justification of homely courses
to an unambitious man, whose conscience would hardly
have allowed him to remain in such obscurity while
his powers were unimpeded. Hence Yeobright sometimes
sang to himself, and when obliged to accompany Humphrey
in search of brambles for faggot-bonds he would amuse
his companion with sketches of Parisian life and character,
and so while away the time.
On one of these warm afternoons Eustacia
walked out alone in the direction of Yeobright’s
place of work. He was busily chopping away at
the furze, a long row of faggots which stretched downward
from his position representing the labour of the day.
He did not observe her approach, and she stood close
to him, and heard his undercurrent of song.
It shocked her. To see him there,
a poor afflicted man, earning money by the sweat of
his brow, had at first moved her to tears; but to hear
him sing and not at all rebel against an occupation
which, however satisfactory to himself, was degrading
to her, as an educated lady-wife, wounded her through.
Unconscious of her presence, he still went on singing:-
“Le point du jour
A nos bosquets rend toute
leur parure;
Flore est plus belle
a son retour;
L’oiseau reprend doux chant d’amour;
Tout célèbre dans la nature
Le point du jour.
“Le point du
jour
Cause parfois, cause douleur
extreme;
Que l’espace des nuits
est court
Pour lé berger brulant d’amour,
Force de quitter ce
qu’il aime
Au point du jour!”
It was bitterly plain to Eustacia
that he did not care much about social failure; and
the proud fair woman bowed her head and wept in sick
despair at thought of the blasting effect upon her
own life of that mood and condition in him. Then
she came forward.
“I would starve rather than
do it!” she exclaimed vehemently. “And
you can sing! I will go and live with my grandfather
again!”
“Eustacia! I did not see
you, though I noticed something moving,” he
said gently. He came forward, pulled off his huge
leather glove, and took her hand. “Why
do you speak in such a strange way? It is only
a little old song which struck my fancy when I was
in Paris, and now just applies to my life with you.
Has your love for me all died, then, because my appearance
is no longer that of a fine gentleman?”
“Dearest, you must not question
me unpleasantly, or it may make me not love you.”
“Do you believe it possible
that I would run the risk of doing that?”
“Well, you follow out your own
ideas, and won’t give in to mine when I wish
you to leave off this shameful labour. Is there
anything you dislike in me that you act so contrarily
to my wishes? I am your wife, and why will you
not listen? Yes, I am your wife indeed!”
“I know what that tone means.”
“What tone?”
“The tone in which you said,
‘Your wife indeed.’ It meant, ’Your
wife, worse luck.’”
“It is hard in you to probe
me with that remark. A woman may have reason,
though she is not without heart, and if I felt ‘worse
luck,’ it was no ignoble feeling-it
was only too natural. There, you see that at
any rate I do not attempt untruths. Do you remember
how, before we were married, I warned you that I had
not good wifely qualities?”
“You mock me to say that now.
On that point at least the only noble course would
be to hold your tongue, for you are still queen of
me, Eustacia, though I may no longer be king of you.”
“You are my husband. Does not that content
you?”
“Not unless you are my wife without regret.”
“I cannot answer you. I
remember saying that I should be a serious matter
on your hands.”
“Yes, I saw that.”
“Then you were too quick to
see! No true lover would have seen any such thing;
you are too severe upon me, Clym-I won’t
like your speaking so at all.”
“Well, I married you in spite
of it, and don’t regret doing so. How cold
you seem this afternoon! and yet I used to think there
never was a warmer heart than yours.”
“Yes, I fear we are cooling-I
see it as well as you,” she sighed mournfully.
“And how madly we loved two months ago!
You were never tired of contemplating me, nor I of
contemplating you. Who could have thought then
that by this time my eyes would not seem so very bright
to yours, nor your lips so very sweet to mine?
Two months-is it possible? Yes, ’tis
too true!”
“You sigh, dear, as if you were
sorry for it; and that’s a hopeful sign.”
“No. I don’t sigh
for that. There are other things for me to sigh
for, or any other woman in my place.”
“That your chances in life are
ruined by marrying in haste an unfortunate man?”
“Why will you force me, Clym,
to say bitter things? I deserve pity as much
as you. As much?-I think I deserve
it more. For you can sing! It would be a
strange hour which should catch me singing under such
a cloud as this! Believe me, sweet, I could weep
to a degree that would astonish and confound such
an elastic mind as yours. Even had you felt careless
about your own affliction, you might have refrained
from singing out of sheer pity for mine. God!
if I were a man in such a position I would curse rather
than sing.”
Yeobright placed his hand upon her
arm. “Now, don’t you suppose, my
inexperienced girl, that I cannot rebel, in high Promethean
fashion, against the gods and fate as well as you.
I have felt more steam and smoke of that sort than
you have ever heard of. But the more I see of
life the more do I perceive that there is nothing particularly
great in its greatest walks, and therefore nothing
particularly small in mine of furze-cutting.
If I feel that the greatest blessings vouchsafed to
us are not very valuable, how can I feel it to be
any great hardship when they are taken away?
So I sing to pass the time. Have you indeed lost
all tenderness for me, that you begrudge me a few cheerful
moments?”
“I have still some tenderness left for you.”
“Your words have no longer their
old flavour. And so love dies with good fortune!”
“I cannot listen to this, Clym-it
will end bitterly,” she said in a broken voice.
“I will go home.”
3-She Goes Out to Battle against Depression
A few days later, before the month of August has expired,
Eustacia and
Yeobright sat together at their early dinner.
Eustacia’s manner had become
of late almost apathetic. There was a forlorn
look about her beautiful eyes which, whether she deserved
it or not, would have excited pity in the breast of
anyone who had known her during the full flush of
her love for Clym. The feelings of husband and
wife varied, in some measure, inversely with their
positions. Clym, the afflicted man, was cheerful;
and he even tried to comfort her, who had never felt
a moment of physical suffering in her whole life.
“Come, brighten up, dearest;
we shall be all right again. Some day perhaps
I shall see as well as ever. And I solemnly promise
that I’ll leave off cutting furze as soon as
I have the power to do anything better. You cannot
seriously wish me to stay idling at home all day?”
“But it is so dreadful-a
furze-cutter! and you a man who have lived about the
world, and speak French, and German, and who are fit
for what is so much better than this.”
“I suppose when you first saw
me and heard about me I was wrapped in a sort of golden
halo to your eyes-a man who knew glorious
things, and had mixed in brilliant scenes-in
short, an adorable, delightful, distracting hero?”
“Yes,” she said, sobbing.
“And now I am a poor fellow in brown leather.”
“Don’t taunt me.
But enough of this. I will not be depressed any
more. I am going from home this afternoon, unless
you greatly object. There is to be a village
picnic-a gipsying, they call it-at
East Egdon, and I shall go.”
“To dance?”
“Why not? You can sing.”
“Well, well, as you will. Must I come to
fetch you?”
“If you return soon enough from
your work. But do not inconvenience yourself
about it. I know the way home, and the heath has
no terror for me.”
“And can you cling to gaiety
so eagerly as to walk all the way to a village festival
in search of it?”
“Now, you don’t like my going alone!
Clym, you are not jealous?”
“No. But I would come with
you if it could give you any pleasure; though, as
things stand, perhaps you have too much of me already.
Still, I somehow wish that you did not want to go.
Yes, perhaps I am jealous; and who could be jealous
with more reason than I, a half-blind man, over such
a woman as you?”
“Don’t think like it. Let me go,
and don’t take all my spirits away!”
“I would rather lose all my
own, my sweet wife. Go and do whatever you like.
Who can forbid your indulgence in any whim? You
have all my heart yet, I believe; and because you
bear with me, who am in truth a drag upon you, I owe
you thanks. Yes, go alone and shine. As for
me, I will stick to my doom. At that kind of
meeting people would shun me. My hook and gloves
are like the St. Lazarus rattle of the leper, warning
the world to get out of the way of a sight that would
sadden them.” He kissed her, put on his
leggings, and went out.
When he was gone she rested her head
upon her hands and said to herself, “Two wasted
lives-his and mine. And I am come to
this! Will it drive me out of my mind?”
She cast about for any possible course
which offered the least improvement on the existing
state of things, and could find none. She imagined
how all those Budmouth ones who should learn what had
become of her would say, “Look at the girl for
whom nobody was good enough!” To Eustacia the
situation seemed such a mockery of her hopes that death
appeared the only door of relief if the satire of Heaven
should go much further.
Suddenly she aroused herself and exclaimed,
“But I’ll shake it off. Yes, I will
shake it off! No one shall know my suffering.
I’ll be bitterly merry, and ironically gay,
and I’ll laugh in derision. And I’ll
begin by going to this dance on the green.”
She ascended to her bedroom and dressed
herself with scrupulous care. To an onlooker
her beauty would have made her feelings almost seem
reasonable. The gloomy corner into which accident
as much as indiscretion had brought this woman might
have led even a moderate partisan to feel that she
had cogent reasons for asking the Supreme Power by
what right a being of such exquisite finish had been
placed in circumstances calculated to make of her
charms a curse rather than a blessing.
It was five in the afternoon when
she came out from the house ready for her walk.
There was material enough in the picture for twenty
new conquests. The rebellious sadness that was
rather too apparent when she sat indoors without a
bonnet was cloaked and softened by her outdoor attire,
which always had a sort of nebulousness about it, devoid
of harsh edges anywhere; so that her face looked from
its environment as from a cloud, with no noticeable
lines of demarcation between flesh and clothes.
The heat of the day had scarcely declined as yet, and
she went along the sunny hills at a leisurely pace,
there being ample time for her idle expedition.
Tall ferns buried her in their leafage whenever her
path lay through them, which now formed miniature forests,
though not one stem of them would remain to bud the
next year.
The site chosen for the village festivity
was one of the lawnlike oases which were occasionally,
yet not often, met with on the plateaux of the heath
district. The brakes of furze and fern terminated
abruptly round the margin, and the grass was unbroken.
A green cattletrack skirted the spot, without, however,
emerging from the screen of fern, and this path Eustacia
followed, in order to reconnoitre the group before
joining it. The lusty notes of the East Egdon
band had directed her unerringly, and she now beheld
the musicians themselves, sitting in a blue wagon with
red wheels scrubbed as bright as new, and arched with
sticks, to which boughs and flowers were tied.
In front of this was the grand central dance of fifteen
or twenty couples, flanked by minor dances of inferior
individuals whose gyrations were not always in strict
keeping with the tune.
The young men wore blue and white
rosettes, and with a flush on their faces footed it
to the girls, who, with the excitement and the exercise,
blushed deeper than the pink of their numerous ribbons.
Fair ones with long curls, fair ones with short curls,
fair ones with lovelocks, fair ones with braids, flew
round and round; and a beholder might well have wondered
how such a prepossessing set of young women of like
size, age, and disposition, could have been collected
together where there were only one or two villages
to choose from. In the background was one happy
man dancing by himself, with closed eyes, totally oblivious
of all the rest. A fire was burning under a pollard
thorn a few paces off, over which three kettles hung
in a row. Hard by was a table where elderly dames
prepared tea, but Eustacia looked among them in vain
for the cattle-dealer’s wife who had suggested
that she should come, and had promised to obtain a
courteous welcome for her.
This unexpected absence of the only
local resident whom Eustacia knew considerably damaged
her scheme for an afternoon of reckless gaiety.
Joining in became a matter of difficulty, notwithstanding
that, were she to advance, cheerful dames would
come forward with cups of tea and make much of her
as a stranger of superior grace and knowledge to themselves.
Having watched the company through the figures of two
dances, she decided to walk a little further, to a
cottage where she might get some refreshment, and
then return homeward in the shady time of evening.
This she did, and by the time that
she retraced her steps towards the scene of the gipsying,
which it was necessary to repass on her way to Alderworth,
the sun was going down. The air was now so still
that she could hear the band afar off, and it seemed
to be playing with more spirit, if that were possible,
than when she had come away. On reaching the
hill the sun had quite disappeared; but this made little
difference either to Eustacia or to the revellers,
for a round yellow moon was rising before her, though
its rays had not yet outmastered those from the west.
The dance was going on just the same, but strangers
had arrived and formed a ring around the figure, so
that Eustacia could stand among these without a chance
of being recognized.
A whole village-full of sensuous emotion,
scattered abroad all the year long, surged here in
a focus for an hour. The forty hearts of those
waving couples were beating as they had not done since,
twelve months before, they had come together in similar
jollity. For the time paganism was revived in
their hearts, the pride of life was all in all, and
they adored none other than themselves.
How many of those impassioned but
temporary embraces were destined to become perpetual
was possibly the wonder of some of those who indulged
in them, as well as of Eustacia who looked on.
She began to envy those pirouetters, to hunger for
the hope and happiness which the fascination of the
dance seemed to engender within them. Desperately
fond of dancing herself, one of Eustacia’s expectations
of Paris had been the opportunity it might afford
her of indulgence in this favourite pastime.
Unhappily, that expectation was now extinct within
her for ever.
Whilst she abstractedly watched them
spinning and fluctuating in the increasing moonlight
she suddenly heard her name whispered by a voice over
her shoulder. Turning in surprise, she beheld
at her elbow one whose presence instantly caused her
to flush to the temples.
It was Wildeve. Till this moment
he had not met her eye since the morning of his marriage,
when she had been loitering in the church, and had
startled him by lifting her veil and coming forward
to sign the register as witness. Yet why the
sight of him should have instigated that sudden rush
of blood she could not tell.
Before she could speak he whispered,
“Do you like dancing as much as ever?”
“I think I do,” she replied in a low voice.
“Will you dance with me?”
“It would be a great change for me; but will
it not seem strange?”
“What strangeness can there be in relations
dancing together?”
“Ah-yes, relations. Perhaps
none.”
“Still, if you don’t like
to be seen, pull down your veil; though there is not
much risk of being known by this light. Lots of
strangers are here.”
She did as he suggested; and the act
was a tacit acknowledgment that she accepted his offer.
Wildeve gave her his arm and took
her down on the outside of the ring to the bottom
of the dance, which they entered. In two minutes
more they were involved in the figure and began working
their way upwards to the top. Till they had advanced
halfway thither Eustacia wished more than once that
she had not yielded to his request; from the middle
to the top she felt that, since she had come out to
seek pleasure, she was only doing a natural thing
to obtain it. Fairly launched into the ceaseless
glides and whirls which their new position as top couple
opened up to them, Eustacia’s pulses began to
move too quickly for long rumination of any kind.
Through the length of five-and-twenty
couples they threaded their giddy way, and a new vitality
entered her form. The pale ray of evening lent
a fascination to the experience. There is a certain
degree and tone of light which tends to disturb the
equilibrium of the senses, and to promote dangerously
the tenderer moods; added to movement, it drives
the emotions to rankness, the reason becoming sleepy
and unperceiving in inverse proportion; and this light
fell now upon these two from the disc of the moon.
All the dancing girls felt the symptoms, but Eustacia
most of all. The grass under their feet became
trodden away, and the hard, beaten surface of the
sod, when viewed aslant towards the moonlight, shone
like a polished table. The air became quite still,
the flag above the wagon which held the musicians
clung to the pole, and the players appeared only in
outline against the sky; except when the circular
mouths of the trombone, ophicleide, and French horn
gleamed out like huge eyes from the shade of their
figures. The pretty dresses of the maids lost
their subtler day colours and showed more or less of
a misty white. Eustacia floated round and round
on Wildeve’s arm, her face rapt and statuesque;
her soul had passed away from and forgotten her features,
which were left empty and quiescent, as they always
are when feeling goes beyond their register.
How near she was to Wildeve! it was
terrible to think of. She could feel his breathing,
and he, of course, could feel hers. How badly
she had treated him! yet, here they were treading
one measure. The enchantment of the dance surprised
her. A clear line of difference divided like
a tangible fence her experience within this maze of
motion from her experience without it. Her beginning
to dance had been like a change of atmosphere; outside,
she had been steeped in arctic frigidity by comparison
with the tropical sensations here. She had entered
the dance from the troubled hours of her late life
as one might enter a brilliant chamber after a night
walk in a wood. Wildeve by himself would have
been merely an agitation; Wildeve added to the dance,
and the moonlight, and the secrecy, began to be a
delight. Whether his personality supplied the
greater part of this sweetly compounded feeling, or
whether the dance and the scene weighed the more therein,
was a nice point upon which Eustacia herself was entirely
in a cloud.
People began to say “Who are
they?” but no invidious inquiries were made.
Had Eustacia mingled with the other girls in their
ordinary daily walks the case would have been different:
here she was not inconvenienced by excessive inspection,
for all were wrought to their brightest grace by the
occasion. Like the planet Mercury surrounded
by the lustre of sunset, her permanent brilliancy passed
without much notice in the temporary glory of the
situation.
As for Wildeve, his feelings are easy
to guess. Obstacles were a ripening sun to his
love, and he was at this moment in a delirium of exquisite
misery. To clasp as his for five minutes what
was another man’s through all the rest of the
year was a kind of thing he of all men could appreciate.
He had long since begun to sigh again for Eustacia;
indeed, it may be asserted that signing the marriage
register with Thomasin was the natural signal to his
heart to return to its first quarters, and that the
extra complication of Eustacia’s marriage was
the one addition required to make that return compulsory.
Thus, for different reasons, what
was to the rest an exhilarating movement was to these
two a riding upon the whirlwind. The dance had
come like an irresistible attack upon whatever sense
of social order there was in their minds, to drive
them back into old paths which were now doubly irregular.
Through three dances in succession they spun their
way; and then, fatigued with the incessant motion,
Eustacia turned to quit the circle in which she had
already remained too long. Wildeve led her to
a grassy mound a few yards distant, where she sat down,
her partner standing beside her. From the time
that he addressed her at the beginning of the dance
till now they had not exchanged a word.
“The dance and the walking have
tired you?” he said tenderly.
“No; not greatly.”
“It is strange that we should
have met here of all places, after missing each other
so long.”
“We have missed because we tried to miss, I
suppose.”
“Yes. But you began that proceeding-by
breaking a promise.”
“It is scarcely worth while
to talk of that now. We have formed other ties
since then-you no less than I.”
“I am sorry to hear that your husband is ill.”
“He is not ill-only incapacitated.”
“Yes-that is what
I mean. I sincerely sympathize with you in your
trouble. Fate has treated you cruelly.”
She was silent awhile. “Have
you heard that he has chosen to work as a furze-cutter?”
she said in a low, mournful voice.
“It has been mentioned to me,”
answered Wildeve hesitatingly. “But I hardly
believed it.”
“It is true. What do you
think of me as a furze-cutter’s wife?”
“I think the same as ever of
you, Eustacia. Nothing of that sort can degrade
you-you ennoble the occupation of your husband.”
“I wish I could feel it.”
“Is there any chance of Mr. Yeobright getting
better?”
“He thinks so. I doubt it.”
“I was quite surprised to hear
that he had taken a cottage. I thought, in common
with other people, that he would have taken you off
to a home in Paris immediately after you had married
him. ’What a gay, bright future she has
before her!’ I thought. He will, I suppose,
return there with you, if his sight gets strong again?”
Observing that she did not reply he
regarded her more closely. She was almost weeping.
Images of a future never to be enjoyed, the revived
sense of her bitter disappointment, the picture of
the neighbour’s suspended ridicule which was
raised by Wildeve’s words, had been too much
for proud Eustacia’s equanimity.
Wildeve could hardly control his own
too forward feelings when he saw her silent perturbation.
But he affected not to notice this, and she soon recovered
her calmness.
“You do not intend to walk home by yourself?”
he asked.
“O yes,” said Eustacia.
“What could hurt me on this heath, who have
nothing?”
“By diverging a little I can
make my way home the same as yours. I shall be
glad to keep you company as far as Throope Corner.”
Seeing that Eustacia sat on in hesitation he added,
“Perhaps you think it unwise to be seen in the
same road with me after the events of last summer?”
“Indeed I think no such thing,”
she said haughtily. “I shall accept whose
company I choose, for all that may be said by the miserable
inhabitants of Egdon.”
“Then let us walk on-if
you are ready. Our nearest way is towards that
holly bush with the dark shadow that you see down there.”
Eustacia arose, and walked beside
him in the direction signified, brushing her way over
the damping heath and fern, and followed by the strains
of the merrymakers, who still kept up the dance.
The moon had now waxed bright and silvery, but the
heath was proof against such illumination, and there
was to be observed the striking scene of a dark, rayless
tract of country under an atmosphere charged from its
zenith to its extremities with whitest light.
To an eye above them their two faces would have appeared
amid the expanse like two pearls on a table of ebony.
On this account the irregularities
of the path were not visible, and Wildeve occasionally
stumbled; whilst Eustacia found it necessary to perform
some graceful feats of balancing whenever a small tuft
of heather or root of furze protruded itself through
the grass of the narrow track and entangled her feet.
At these junctures in her progress a hand was invariably
stretched forward to steady her, holding her firmly
until smooth ground was again reached, when the hand
was again withdrawn to a respectful distance.
They performed the journey for the
most part in silence, and drew near to Throope Corner,
a few hundred yards from which a short path branched
away to Eustacia’s house. By degrees they
discerned coming towards them a pair of human figures,
apparently of the male sex.
When they came a little nearer Eustacia
broke the silence by saying, “One of those men
is my husband. He promised to come to meet me.”
“And the other is my greatest enemy,”
said Wildeve.
“It looks like Diggory Venn.”
“That is the man.”
“It is an awkward meeting,”
said she; “but such is my fortune. He knows
too much about me, unless he could know more, and so
prove to himself that what he now knows counts for
nothing. Well, let it be-you must
deliver me up to them.”
“You will think twice before
you direct me to do that. Here is a man who has
not forgotten an item in our meetings at Rainbarrow-he
is in company with your husband. Which of them,
seeing us together here, will believe that our meeting
and dancing at the gipsy party was by chance?”
“Very well,” she whispered
gloomily. “Leave me before they come up.”
Wildeve bade her a tender farewell,
and plunged across the fern and furze, Eustacia slowly
walking on. In two or three minutes she met her
husband and his companion.
“My journey ends here for tonight,
reddleman,” said Yeobright as soon as he perceived
her. “I turn back with this lady. Good
night.”
“Good night, Mr. Yeobright,”
said Venn. “I hope to see you better soon.”
The moonlight shone directly upon
Venn’s face as he spoke, and revealed all its
lines to Eustacia. He was looking suspiciously
at her. That Venn’s keen eye had discerned
what Yeobright’s feeble vision had not-a
man in the act of withdrawing from Eustacia’s
side-was within the limits of the probable.
If Eustacia had been able to follow
the reddleman she would soon have found striking confirmation
of her thought. No sooner had Clym given her
his arm and led her off the scene than the reddleman
turned back from the beaten track towards East Egdon,
whither he had been strolling merely to accompany
Clym in his walk, Diggory’s van being again in
the neighbourhood. Stretching out his long legs,
he crossed the pathless portion of the heath somewhat
in the direction which Wildeve had taken. Only
a man accustomed to nocturnal rambles could at this
hour have descended those shaggy slopes with Venn’s
velocity without falling headlong into a pit, or snapping
off his leg by jamming his foot into some rabbit burrow.
But Venn went on without much inconvenience to himself,
and the course of his scamper was towards the Quiet
Woman Inn. This place he reached in about half
an hour, and he was well aware that no person who
had been near Throope Corner when he started could
have got down here before him.
The lonely inn was not yet closed,
though scarcely an individual was there, the business
done being chiefly with travellers who passed the
inn on long journeys, and these had now gone on their
way. Venn went to the public room, called for
a mug of ale, and inquired of the maid in an indifferent
tone if Mr. Wildeve was at home.
Thomasin sat in an inner room and
heard Venn’s voice. When customers were
present she seldom showed herself, owing to her inherent
dislike for the business; but perceiving that no one
else was there tonight she came out.
“He is not at home yet, Diggory,”
she said pleasantly. “But I expected him
sooner. He has been to East Egdon to buy a horse.”
“Did he wear a light wideawake?”
“Yes.”
“Then I saw him at Throope Corner,
leading one home,” said Venn drily. “A
beauty, with a white face and a mane as black as night.
He will soon be here, no doubt.” Rising
and looking for a moment at the pure, sweet face of
Thomasin, over which a shadow of sadness had passed
since the time when he had last seen her, he ventured
to add, “Mr. Wildeve seems to be often away
at this time.”
“O yes,” cried Thomasin
in what was intended to be a tone of gaiety.
“Husbands will play the truant, you know.
I wish you could tell me of some secret plan that
would help me to keep him home at my will in the evenings.”
“I will consider if I know of
one,” replied Venn in that same light tone which
meant no lightness. And then he bowed in a manner
of his own invention and moved to go. Thomasin
offered him her hand; and without a sigh, though with
food for many, the reddleman went out.
When Wildeve returned, a quarter of
an hour later Thomasin said simply, and in the abashed
manner usual with her now, “Where is the horse,
Damon?”
“O, I have not bought it, after
all. The man asks too much.”
“But somebody saw you at Throope
Corner leading it home-a beauty, with a
white face and a mane as black as night.”
“Ah!” said Wildeve, fixing
his eyes upon her; “who told you that?”
“Venn the reddleman.”
The expression of Wildeve’s
face became curiously condensed. “That is
a mistake-it must have been someone else,”
he said slowly and testily, for he perceived that
Venn’s countermoves had begun again.
4-Rough Coercion Is Employed
Those words of Thomasin, which seemed
so little, but meant so much, remained in the ears
of Diggory Venn: “Help me to keep him home
in the evenings.”
On this occasion Venn had arrived
on Egdon Heath only to cross to the other side-he
had no further connection with the interests of the
Yeobright family, and he had a business of his own
to attend to. Yet he suddenly began to feel himself
drifting into the old track of manoeuvring on Thomasin’s
account.
He sat in his van and considered.
From Thomasin’s words and manner he had plainly
gathered that Wildeve neglected her. For whom
could he neglect her if not for Eustacia? Yet
it was scarcely credible that things had come to such
a head as to indicate that Eustacia systematically
encouraged him. Venn resolved to reconnoitre somewhat
carefully the lonely road which led along the vale
from Wildeve’s dwelling to Clym’s house
at Alderworth.
At this time, as has been seen, Wildeve
was quite innocent of any predetermined act of intrigue,
and except at the dance on the green he had not once
met Eustacia since her marriage. But that the
spirit of intrigue was in him had been shown by a
recent romantic habit of his-a habit of
going out after dark and strolling towards Alderworth,
there looking at the moon and stars, looking at Eustacia’s
house, and walking back at leisure.
Accordingly, when watching on the
night after the festival, the reddleman saw him ascend
by the little path, lean over the front gate of Clym’s
garden, sigh, and turn to go back again. It was
plain that Wildeve’s intrigue was rather ideal
than real. Venn retreated before him down the
hill to a place where the path was merely a deep groove
between the heather; here he mysteriously bent over
the ground for a few minutes, and retired. When
Wildeve came on to that spot his ankle was caught
by something, and he fell headlong.
As soon as he had recovered the power
of respiration he sat up and listened. There
was not a sound in the gloom beyond the spiritless
stir of the summer wind. Feeling about for the
obstacle which had flung him down, he discovered that
two tufts of heath had been tied together across the
path, forming a loop, which to a traveller was certain
overthrow. Wildeve pulled off the string that
bound them, and went on with tolerable quickness.
On reaching home he found the cord to be of a reddish
colour. It was just what he had expected.
Although his weaknesses were not specially
those akin to physical fear, this species of coup-de-Jarnac
from one he knew too well troubled the mind of Wildeve.
But his movements were unaltered thereby. A night
or two later he again went along the vale to Alderworth,
taking the precaution of keeping out of any path.
The sense that he was watched, that craft was employed
to circumvent his errant tastes, added piquancy to
a journey so entirely sentimental, so long as the danger
was of no fearful sort. He imagined that Venn
and Mrs. Yeobright were in league, and felt that there
was a certain legitimacy in combating such a coalition.
The heath tonight appeared to be totally
deserted; and Wildeve, after looking over Eustacia’s
garden gate for some little time, with a cigar in
his mouth, was tempted by the fascination that emotional
smuggling had for his nature to advance towards the
window, which was not quite closed, the blind being
only partly drawn down. He could see into the
room, and Eustacia was sitting there alone. Wildeve
contemplated her for a minute, and then retreating
into the heath beat the ferns lightly, whereupon moths
flew out alarmed. Securing one, he returned to
the window, and holding the moth to the chink, opened
his hand. The moth made towards the candle upon
Eustacia’s table, hovered round it two or three
times, and flew into the flame.
Eustacia started up. This had
been a well-known signal in old times when Wildeve
had used to come secretly wooing to Mistover.
She at once knew that Wildeve was outside, but before
she could consider what to do her husband came in
from upstairs. Eustacia’s face burnt crimson
at the unexpected collision of incidents, and filled
it with an animation that it too frequently lacked.
“You have a very high colour,
dearest,” said Yeobright, when he came close
enough to see it. “Your appearance would
be no worse if it were always so.”
“I am warm,” said Eustacia.
“I think I will go into the air for a few minutes.”
“Shall I go with you?”
“O no. I am only going to the gate.”
She arose, but before she had time
to get out of the room a loud rapping began upon the
front door.
“I’ll go-I’ll
go,” said Eustacia in an unusually quick tone
for her; and she glanced eagerly towards the window
whence the moth had flown; but nothing appeared there.
“You had better not at this
time of the evening,” he said. Clym stepped
before her into the passage, and Eustacia waited, her
somnolent manner covering her inner heat and agitation.
She listened, and Clym opened the
door. No words were uttered outside, and presently
he closed it and came back, saying, “Nobody was
there. I wonder what that could have meant?”
He was left to wonder during the rest
of the evening, for no explanation offered itself,
and Eustacia said nothing, the additional fact that
she knew of only adding more mystery to the performance.
Meanwhile a little drama had been
acted outside which saved Eustacia from all possibility
of compromising herself that evening at least.
Whilst Wildeve had been preparing his moth-signal another
person had come behind him up to the gate. This
man, who carried a gun in his hand, looked on for
a moment at the other’s operation by the window,
walked up to the house, knocked at the door, and then
vanished round the corner and over the hedge.
“Damn him!” said Wildeve.
“He has been watching me again.”
As his signal had been rendered futile
by this uproarious rapping Wildeve withdrew, passed
out at the gate, and walked quickly down the path
without thinking of anything except getting away unnoticed.
Halfway down the hill the path ran near a knot of
stunted hollies, which in the general darkness of
the scene stood as the pupil in a black eye. When
Wildeve reached this point a report startled his ear,
and a few spent gunshots fell among the leaves around
him.
There was no doubt that he himself
was the cause of that gun’s discharge; and he
rushed into the clump of hollies, beating the bushes
furiously with his stick; but nobody was there.
This attack was a more serious matter than the last,
and it was some time before Wildeve recovered his
equanimity. A new and most unpleasant system of
menace had begun, and the intent appeared to be to
do him grievous bodily harm. Wildeve had looked
upon Venn’s first attempt as a species of horseplay,
which the reddleman had indulged in for want of knowing
better; but now the boundary line was passed which
divides the annoying from the perilous.
Had Wildeve known how thoroughly in
earnest Venn had become he might have been still more
alarmed. The reddleman had been almost exasperated
by the sight of Wildeve outside Clym’s house,
and he was prepared to go to any lengths short of
absolutely shooting him, to terrify the young innkeeper
out of his recalcitrant impulses. The doubtful
legitimacy of such rough coercion did not disturb
the mind of Venn. It troubles few such minds
in such cases, and sometimes this is not to be regretted.
From the impeachment of Strafford to Farmer Lynch’s
short way with the scamps of Virginia there have been
many triumphs of justice which are mockeries of law.
About half a mile below Clym’s
secluded dwelling lay a hamlet where lived one of
the two constables who preserved the peace in the parish
of Alderworth, and Wildeve went straight to the constable’s
cottage. Almost the first thing that he saw on
opening the door was the constable’s truncheon
hanging to a nail, as if to assure him that here were
the means to his purpose. On inquiry, however,
of the constable’s wife he learnt that the constable
was not at home. Wildeve said he would wait.
The minutes ticked on, and the constable
did not arrive. Wildeve cooled down from his
state of high indignation to a restless dissatisfaction
with himself, the scene, the constable’s wife,
and the whole set of circumstances. He arose
and left the house. Altogether, the experience
of that evening had had a cooling, not to say a chilling,
effect on misdirected tenderness, and Wildeve was
in no mood to ramble again to Alderworth after nightfall
in hope of a stray glance from Eustacia.
Thus far the reddleman had been tolerably
successful in his rude contrivances for keeping down
Wildeve’s inclination to rove in the evening.
He had nipped in the bud the possible meeting between
Eustacia and her old lover this very night. But
he had not anticipated that the tendency of his action
would be to divert Wildeve’s movement rather
than to stop it. The gambling with the guineas
had not conduced to make him a welcome guest to Clym;
but to call upon his wife’s relative was natural,
and he was determined to see Eustacia. It was
necessary to choose some less untoward hour than ten
o’clock at night. “Since it is unsafe
to go in the evening,” he said, “I’ll
go by day.”
Meanwhile Venn had left the heath
and gone to call upon Mrs. Yeobright, with whom he
had been on friendly terms since she had learnt what
a providential countermove he had made towards the
restitution of the family guineas. She wondered
at the lateness of his call, but had no objection
to see him.
He gave her a full account of Clym’s
affliction, and of the state in which he was living;
then, referring to Thomasin, touched gently upon the
apparent sadness of her days. “Now, ma’am,
depend upon it,” he said, “you couldn’t
do a better thing for either of ’em than to make
yourself at home in their houses, even if there should
be a little rebuff at first.”
“Both she and my son disobeyed
me in marrying; therefore I have no interest in their
households. Their troubles are of their own making.”
Mrs. Yeobright tried to speak severely; but the account
of her son’s state had moved her more than she
cared to show.
“Your visits would make Wildeve
walk straighter than he is inclined to do, and might
prevent unhappiness down the heath.”
“What do you mean?”
“I saw something tonight out
there which I didn’t like at all. I wish
your son’s house and Mr. Wildeve’s were
a hundred miles apart instead of four or five.”
“Then there was an understanding
between him and Clym’s wife when he made a fool
of Thomasin!”
“We’ll hope there’s no understanding
now.”
“And our hope will probably be very vain.
O Clym! O Thomasin!”
“There’s no harm done
yet. In fact, I’ve persuaded Wildeve to
mind his own business.”
“How?”
“O, not by talking-by a plan of mine
called the silent system.”
“I hope you’ll succeed.”
“I shall if you help me by calling
and making friends with your son. You’ll
have a chance then of using your eyes.”
“Well, since it has come to
this,” said Mrs. Yeobright sadly, “I will
own to you, reddleman, that I thought of going.
I should be much happier if we were reconciled.
The marriage is unalterable, my life may be cut short,
and I should wish to die in peace. He is my only
son; and since sons are made of such stuff I am not
sorry I have no other. As for Thomasin, I never
expected much from her; and she has not disappointed
me. But I forgave her long ago; and I forgive
him now. I’ll go.”
At this very time of the reddleman’s
conversation with Mrs. Yeobright at Blooms-End another
conversation on the same subject was languidly proceeding
at Alderworth.
All the day Clym had borne himself
as if his mind were too full of its own matter to
allow him to care about outward things, and his words
now showed what had occupied his thoughts. It
was just after the mysterious knocking that he began
the theme. “Since I have been away today,
Eustacia, I have considered that something must be
done to heal up this ghastly breach between my dear
mother and myself. It troubles me.”
“What do you propose to do?”
said Eustacia abstractedly, for she could not clear
away from her the excitement caused by Wildeve’s
recent manoeuvre for an interview.
“You seem to take a very mild
interest in what I propose, little or much,”
said Clym, with tolerable warmth.
“You mistake me,” she
answered, reviving at his reproach. “I am
only thinking.”
“What of?”
“Partly of that moth whose skeleton
is getting burnt up in the wick of the candle,”
she said slowly. “But you know I always
take an interest in what you say.”
“Very well, dear. Then
I think I must go and call upon her."...He went on
with tender feeling: “It is a thing I am
not at all too proud to do, and only a fear that I
might irritate her has kept me away so long. But
I must do something. It is wrong in me to allow
this sort of thing to go on.”
“What have you to blame yourself about?”
“She is getting old, and her life is lonely,
and I am her only son.”
“She has Thomasin.”
“Thomasin is not her daughter;
and if she were that would not excuse me. But
this is beside the point. I have made up my mind
to go to her, and all I wish to ask you is whether
you will do your best to help me-that is,
forget the past; and if she shows her willingness to
be reconciled, meet her halfway by welcoming her to
our house, or by accepting a welcome to hers?”
At first Eustacia closed her lips
as if she would rather do anything on the whole globe
than what he suggested. But the lines of her mouth
softened with thought, though not so far as they might
have softened, and she said, “I will put nothing
in your way; but after what has passed it, is asking
too much that I go and make advances.”
“You never distinctly told me what did pass
between you.”
“I could not do it then, nor
can I now. Sometimes more bitterness is sown
in five minutes than can be got rid of in a whole life;
and that may be the case here.” She paused
a few moments, and added, “If you had never
returned to your native place, Clym, what a blessing
it would have been for you!... It has altered
the destinies of -”
“Three people.”
“Five,” Eustacia thought; but she kept
that in.
5-The Journey across the Heath
Thursday, the thirty-first of August,
was one of a series of days during which snug houses
were stifling, and when cool draughts were treats;
when cracks appeared in clayey gardens, and were called
“earthquakes” by apprehensive children;
when loose spokes were discovered in the wheels of
carts and carriages; and when stinging insects haunted
the air, the earth, and every drop of water that was
to be found.
In Mrs. Yeobright’s garden large-leaved
plants of a tender kind flagged by ten o’clock
in the morning; rhubarb bent downward at eleven; and
even stiff cabbages were limp by noon.
It was about eleven o’clock
on this day that Mrs. Yeobright started across the
heath towards her son’s house, to do her best
in getting reconciled with him and Eustacia, in conformity
with her words to the reddleman. She had hoped
to be well advanced in her walk before the heat of
the day was at its highest, but after setting out she
found that this was not to be done. The sun had
branded the whole heath with its mark, even the purple
heath-flowers having put on a brownness under the dry
blazes of the few preceding days. Every valley
was filled with air like that of a kiln, and the clean
quartz sand of the winter water-courses, which formed
summer paths, had undergone a species of incineration
since the drought had set in.
In cool, fresh weather Mrs. Yeobright
would have found no inconvenience in walking to Alderworth,
but the present torrid attack made the journey a heavy
undertaking for a woman past middle age; and at the
end of the third mile she wished that she had hired
Fairway to drive her a portion at least of the distance.
But from the point at which she had arrived it was
as easy to reach Clym’s house as to get home
again. So she went on, the air around her pulsating
silently, and oppressing the earth with lassitude.
She looked at the sky overhead, and saw that the sapphirine
hue of the zenith in spring and early summer had been
replaced by a metallic violet.
Occasionally she came to a spot where
independent worlds of ephemerons were passing their
time in mad carousal, some in the air, some on the
hot ground and vegetation, some in the tepid and stringy
water of a nearly dried pool. All the shallower
ponds had decreased to a vaporous mud amid which the
maggoty shapes of innumerable obscure creatures could
be indistinctly seen, heaving and wallowing with enjoyment.
Being a woman not disinclined to philosophize she
sometimes sat down under her umbrella to rest and
to watch their happiness, for a certain hopefulness
as to the result of her visit gave ease to her mind,
and between important thoughts left it free to dwell
on any infinitesimal matter which caught her eyes.
Mrs. Yeobright had never before been
to her son’s house, and its exact position was
unknown to her. She tried one ascending path and
another, and found that they led her astray.
Retracing her steps, she came again to an open level,
where she perceived at a distance a man at work.
She went towards him and inquired the way.
The labourer pointed out the direction,
and added, “Do you see that furze-cutter, ma’am,
going up that footpath yond?”
Mrs. Yeobright strained her eyes,
and at last said that she did perceive him.
“Well, if you follow him you
can make no mistake. He’s going to the same
place, ma’am.”
She followed the figure indicated.
He appeared of a russet hue, not more distinguishable
from the scene around him than the green caterpillar
from the leaf it feeds on. His progress when actually
walking was more rapid than Mrs. Yeobright’s;
but she was enabled to keep at an equable distance
from him by his habit of stopping whenever he came
to a brake of brambles, where he paused awhile.
On coming in her turn to each of these spots she found
half a dozen long limp brambles which he had cut from
the bush during his halt and laid out straight beside
the path. They were evidently intended for furze-faggot
bonds which he meant to collect on his return.
The silent being who thus occupied
himself seemed to be of no more account in life than
an insect. He appeared as a mere parasite of
the heath, fretting its surface in his daily labour
as a moth frets a garment, entirely engrossed with
its products, having no knowledge of anything in the
world but fern, furze, heath, lichens, and moss.
The furze-cutter was so absorbed in
the business of his journey that he never turned his
head; and his leather-legged and gauntleted form at
length became to her as nothing more than a moving
handpost to show her the way. Suddenly she was
attracted to his individuality by observing peculiarities
in his walk. It was a gait she had seen somewhere
before; and the gait revealed the man to her, as the
gait of Ahimaaz in the distant plain made him known
to the watchman of the king. “His walk
is exactly as my husband’s used to be,”
she said; and then the thought burst upon her that
the furze-cutter was her son.
She was scarcely able to familiarize
herself with this strange reality. She had been
told that Clym was in the habit of cutting furze, but
she had supposed that he occupied himself with the
labour only at odd times, by way of useful pastime;
yet she now beheld him as a furze-cutter and nothing
more-wearing the regulation dress of the
craft, and thinking the regulation thoughts, to judge
by his motions. Planning a dozen hasty schemes
for at once preserving him and Eustacia from this mode
of life, she throbbingly followed the way, and saw
him enter his own door.
At one side of Clym’s house
was a knoll, and on the top of the knoll a clump of
fir trees so highly thrust up into the sky that their
foliage from a distance appeared as a black spot in
the air above the crown of the hill. On reaching
this place Mrs. Yeobright felt distressingly agitated,
weary, and unwell. She ascended, and sat down
under their shade to recover herself, and to consider
how best to break the ground with Eustacia, so as
not to irritate a woman underneath whose apparent
indolence lurked passions even stronger and more active
than her own.
The trees beneath which she sat were
singularly battered, rude, and wild, and for a few
minutes Mrs. Yeobright dismissed thoughts of her own
storm-broken and exhausted state to contemplate theirs.
Not a bough in the nine trees which composed the group
but was splintered, lopped, and distorted by the fierce
weather that there held them at its mercy whenever
it prevailed. Some were blasted and split as if
by lightning, black stains as from fire marking their
sides, while the ground at their feet was strewn with
dead fir-needles and heaps of cones blown down in
the gales of past years. The place was called
the Devil’s Bellows, and it was only necessary
to come there on a March or November night to discover
the forcible reasons for that name. On the present
heated afternoon, when no perceptible wind was blowing,
the trees kept up a perpetual moan which one could
hardly believe to be caused by the air.
Here she sat for twenty minutes or
more ere she could summon resolution to go down to
the door, her courage being lowered to zero by her
physical lassitude. To any other person than a
mother it might have seemed a little humiliating that
she, the elder of the two women, should be the first
to make advances. But Mrs. Yeobright had well
considered all that, and she only thought how best
to make her visit appear to Eustacia not abject but
wise.
From her elevated position the exhausted
woman could perceive the roof of the house below,
and the garden and the whole enclosure of the little
domicile. And now, at the moment of rising, she
saw a second man approaching the gate. His manner
was peculiar, hesitating, and not that of a person
come on business or by invitation. He surveyed
the house with interest, and then walked round and
scanned the outer boundary of the garden, as one might
have done had it been the birthplace of Shakespeare,
the prison of Mary Stuart, or the Chateau of Hougomont.
After passing round and again reaching the gate he
went in. Mrs. Yeobright was vexed at this, having
reckoned on finding her son and his wife by themselves;
but a moment’s thought showed her that the presence
of an acquaintance would take off the awkwardness of
her first appearance in the house, by confining the
talk to general matters until she had begun to feel
comfortable with them. She came down the hill
to the gate, and looked into the hot garden.
There lay the cat asleep on the bare
gravel of the path, as if beds, rugs, and carpets
were unendurable. The leaves of the hollyhocks
hung like half-closed umbrellas, the sap almost simmered
in the stems, and foliage with a smooth surface glared
like metallic mirrors. A small apple tree, of
the sort called Ratheripe, grew just inside the gate,
the only one which throve in the garden, by reason
of the lightness of the soil; and among the fallen
apples on the ground beneath were wasps rolling drunk
with the juice, or creeping about the little caves
in each fruit which they had eaten out before stupefied
by its sweetness. By the door lay Clym’s
furze-hook and the last handful of faggot-bonds she
had seen him gather; they had plainly been thrown
down there as he entered the house.
6-A Conjuncture, and Its Result upon the
Pedestrian
Wildeve, as has been stated, was determined
to visit Eustacia boldly, by day, and on the easy
terms of a relation, since the reddleman had spied
out and spoilt his walks to her by night. The
spell that she had thrown over him in the moonlight
dance made it impossible for a man having no strong
puritanic force within him to keep away altogether.
He merely calculated on meeting her and her husband
in an ordinary manner, chatting a little while, and
leaving again. Every outward sign was to be conventional;
but the one great fact would be there to satisfy him-he
would see her. He did not even desire Clym’s
absence, since it was just possible that Eustacia
might resent any situation which could compromise
her dignity as a wife, whatever the state of her heart
towards him. Women were often so.
He went accordingly; and it happened
that the time of his arrival coincided with that of
Mrs. Yeobright’s pause on the hill near the
house. When he had looked round the premises in
the manner she had noticed he went and knocked at
the door. There was a few minutes’ interval,
and then the key turned in the lock, the door opened,
and Eustacia herself confronted him.
Nobody could have imagined from her
bearing now that here stood the woman who had joined
with him in the impassioned dance of the week before,
unless indeed he could have penetrated below the surface
and gauged the real depth of that still stream.
“I hope you reached home safely?” said
Wildeve.
“O yes,” she carelessly returned.
“And were you not tired the next day? I
feared you might be.”
“I was rather. You need
not speak low-nobody will over-hear us.
My small servant is gone on an errand to the village.”
“Then Clym is not at home?”
“Yes, he is.”
“O! I thought that perhaps
you had locked the door because you were alone and
were afraid of tramps.”
“No-here is my husband.”
They had been standing in the entry.
Closing the front door and turning the key, as before,
she threw open the door of the adjoining room and
asked him to walk in. Wildeve entered, the room
appearing to be empty; but as soon as he had advanced
a few steps he started. On the hearthrug lay
Clym asleep. Beside him were the leggings, thick
boots, leather gloves, and sleeve-waistcoat in which
he worked.
“You may go in; you will not
disturb him,” she said, following behind.
“My reason for fastening the door is that he
may not be intruded upon by any chance comer while
lying here, if I should be in the garden or upstairs.”
“Why is he sleeping there?” said Wildeve
in low tones.
“He is very weary. He went
out at half-past four this morning, and has been working
ever since. He cuts furze because it is the only
thing he can do that does not put any strain upon
his poor eyes.” The contrast between the
sleeper’s appearance and Wildeve’s at this
moment was painfully apparent to Eustacia, Wildeve
being elegantly dressed in a new summer suit and light
hat; and she continued: “Ah! you don’t
know how differently he appeared when I first met
him, though it is such a little while ago. His
hands were as white and soft as mine; and look at them
now, how rough and brown they are! His complexion
is by nature fair, and that rusty look he has now,
all of a colour with his leather clothes, is caused
by the burning of the sun.”
“Why does he go out at all!” Wildeve whispered.
“Because he hates to be idle;
though what he earns doesn’t add much to our
exchequer. However, he says that when people are
living upon their capital they must keep down current
expenses by turning a penny where they can.”
“The fates have not been kind
to you, Eustacia Yeobright.”
“I have nothing to thank them for.”
“Nor has he-except for their one
great gift to him.”
“What’s that?”
Wildeve looked her in the eyes.
Eustacia blushed for the first time
that day. “Well, I am a questionable gift,”
she said quietly. “I thought you meant the
gift of content-which he has, and I have
not.”
“I can understand content in
such a case-though how the outward situation
can attract him puzzles me.”
“That’s because you don’t
know him. He’s an enthusiast about ideas,
and careless about outward things. He often reminds
me of the Apostle Paul.”
“I am glad to hear that he’s
so grand in character as that.”
“Yes; but the worst of it is
that though Paul was excellent as a man in the Bible
he would hardly have done in real life.”
Their voices had instinctively dropped
lower, though at first they had taken no particular
care to avoid awakening Clym. “Well, if
that means that your marriage is a misfortune to you,
you know who is to blame,” said Wildeve.
“The marriage is no misfortune
in itself,” she retorted with some little petulance.
“It is simply the accident which has happened
since that has been the cause of my ruin. I have
certainly got thistles for figs in a worldly sense,
but how could I tell what time would bring forth?”
“Sometimes, Eustacia, I think
it is a judgment upon you. You rightly belonged
to me, you know; and I had no idea of losing you.”
“No, it was not my fault!
Two could not belong to you; and remember that, before
I was aware, you turned aside to another woman.
It was cruel levity in you to do that. I never
dreamt of playing such a game on my side till you
began it on yours.”
“I meant nothing by it,”
replied Wildeve. “It was a mere interlude.
Men are given to the trick of having a passing fancy
for somebody else in the midst of a permanent love,
which reasserts itself afterwards just as before.
On account of your rebellious manner to me I was tempted
to go further than I should have done; and when you
still would keep playing the same tantalizing part
I went further still, and married her.”
Turning and looking again at the unconscious form of
Clym, he murmured, “I am afraid that you don’t
value your prize, Clym....He ought to be happier than
I in one thing at least. He may know what it is
to come down in the world, and to be afflicted with
a great personal calamity; but he probably doesn’t
know what it is to lose the woman he loved.”
“He is not ungrateful for winning
her,” whispered Eustacia, “and in that
respect he is a good man. Many women would go
far for such a husband. But do I desire unreasonably
much in wanting what is called life-music,
poetry, passion, war, and all the beating and pulsing
that are going on in the great arteries of the world?
That was the shape of my youthful dream; but I did
not get it. Yet I thought I saw the way to it
in my Clym.”
“And you only married him on that account?”
“There you mistake me.
I married him because I loved him, but I won’t
say that I didn’t love him partly because I thought
I saw a promise of that life in him.”
“You have dropped into your old mournful key.”
“But I am not going to be depressed,”
she cried perversely. “I began a new system
by going to that dance, and I mean to stick to it.
Clym can sing merrily; why should not I?”
Wildeve looked thoughtfully at her.
“It is easier to say you will sing than to do
it; though if I could I would encourage you in your
attempt. But as life means nothing to me, without
one thing which is now impossible, you will forgive
me for not being able to encourage you.”
“Damon, what is the matter with
you, that you speak like that?” she asked, raising
her deep shady eyes to his.
“That’s a thing I shall
never tell plainly; and perhaps if I try to tell you
in riddles you will not care to guess them.”
Eustacia remained silent for a minute,
and she said, “We are in a strange relationship
today. You mince matters to an uncommon nicety.
You mean, Damon, that you still love me. Well,
that gives me sorrow, for I am not made so entirely
happy by my marriage that I am willing to spurn you
for the information, as I ought to do. But we
have said too much about this. Do you mean to
wait until my husband is awake?”
“I thought to speak to him;
but it is unnecessary, Eustacia, if I offend you by
not forgetting you, you are right to mention it; but
do not talk of spurning.”
She did not reply, and they stood
looking musingly at Clym as he slept on in that profound
sleep which is the result of physical labour carried
on in circumstances that wake no nervous fear.
“God, how I envy him that sweet
sleep!” said Wildeve. “I have not
slept like that since I was a boy-years
and years ago.”
While they thus watched him a click
at the gate was audible, and a knock came to the door.
Eustacia went to a window and looked out.
Her countenance changed. First
she became crimson, and then the red subsided till
it even partially left her lips.
“Shall I go away?” said Wildeve, standing
up.
“I hardly know.”
“Who is it?”
“Mrs. Yeobright. O, what
she said to me that day! I cannot understand
this visit-what does she mean? And
she suspects that past time of ours.”
“I am in your hands. If
you think she had better not see me here I’ll
go into the next room.”
“Well, yes-go.”
Wildeve at once withdrew; but before
he had been half a minute in the adjoining apartment
Eustacia came after him.
“No,” she said, “we
won’t have any of this. If she comes in
she must see you-and think if she likes
there’s something wrong! But how can I open
the door to her, when she dislikes me-wishes
to see not me, but her son? I won’t open
the door!”
Mrs. Yeobright knocked again more loudly.
“Her knocking will, in all likelihood,
awaken him,” continued Eustacia, “and
then he will let her in himself. Ah-listen.”
They could hear Clym moving in the
other room, as if disturbed by the knocking, and he
uttered the word “Mother.”
“Yes-he is awake-he
will go to the door,” she said, with a breath
of relief. “Come this way. I have
a bad name with her, and you must not be seen.
Thus I am obliged to act by stealth, not because I
do ill, but because others are pleased to say so.”
By this time she had taken him to
the back door, which was open, disclosing a path leading
down the garden. “Now, one word, Damon,”
she remarked as he stepped forth. “This
is your first visit here; let it be your last.
We have been hot lovers in our time, but it won’t
do now. Good-bye.”
“Good-bye,” said Wildeve.
“I have had all I came for, and I am satisfied.”
“What was it?”
“A sight of you. Upon my eternal honour
I came for no more.”
Wildeve kissed his hand to the beautiful
girl he addressed, and passed into the garden, where
she watched him down the path, over the stile at the
end, and into the ferns outside, which brushed his
hips as he went along till he became lost in their
thickets. When he had quite gone she slowly turned,
and directed her attention to the interior of the house.
But it was possible that her presence
might not be desired by Clym and his mother at this
moment of their first meeting, or that it would be
superfluous. At all events, she was in no hurry
to meet Mrs. Yeobright. She resolved to wait
till Clym came to look for her, and glided back into
the garden. Here she idly occupied herself for
a few minutes, till finding no notice was taken of
her she retraced her steps through the house to the
front, where she listened for voices in the parlour.
But hearing none she opened the door and went in.
To her astonishment Clym lay precisely as Wildeve
and herself had left him, his sleep apparently unbroken.
He had been disturbed and made to dream and murmur
by the knocking, but he had not awakened. Eustacia
hastened to the door, and in spite of her reluctance
to open it to a woman who had spoken of her so bitterly,
she unfastened it and looked out. Nobody was to
be seen. There, by the scraper, lay Clym’s
hook and the handful of faggot-bonds he had brought
home; in front of her were the empty path, the garden
gate standing slightly ajar; and, beyond, the great
valley of purple heath thrilling silently in the sun.
Mrs. Yeobright was gone.
Clym’s mother was at this time
following a path which lay hidden from Eustacia by
a shoulder of the hill. Her walk thither from
the garden gate had been hasty and determined, as
of a woman who was now no less anxious to escape from
the scene than she had previously been to enter it.
Her eyes were fixed on the ground; within her two sights
were graven-that of Clym’s hook and
brambles at the door, and that of a woman’s
face at a window. Her lips trembled, becoming
unnaturally thin as she murmured, “’Tis
too much-Clym, how can he bear to do it!
He is at home; and yet he lets her shut the door against
me!”
In her anxiety to get out of the direct
view of the house she had diverged from the straightest
path homeward, and while looking about to regain it
she came upon a little boy gathering whortleberries
in a hollow. The boy was Johnny Nunsuch, who
had been Eustacia’s stoker at the bonfire, and,
with the tendency of a minute body to gravitate towards
a greater, he began hovering round Mrs. Yeobright as
soon as she appeared, and trotted on beside her without
perceptible consciousness of his act.
Mrs. Yeobright spoke to him as one
in a mesmeric sleep. “’Tis a long way
home, my child, and we shall not get there till evening.”
“I shall,” said her small
companion. “I am going to play marnels afore
supper, and we go to supper at six o’clock, because
Father comes home. Does your father come home
at six too?”
“No, he never comes; nor my son either, nor
anybody.”
“What have made you so down? Have you seen
a ooser?”
“I have seen what’s worse-a
woman’s face looking at me through a windowpane.”
“Is that a bad sight?”
“Yes. It is always a bad
sight to see a woman looking out at a weary wayfarer
and not letting her in.”
“Once when I went to Throope
Great Pond to catch effets I seed myself
looking up at myself, and I was frightened and jumped
back like anything.”
..."If they had only shown signs of
meeting my advances halfway how well it might have
been done! But there is no chance. Shut out!
She must have set him against me. Can there be
beautiful bodies without hearts inside? I think
so. I would not have done it against a neighbour’s
cat on such a fiery day as this!”
“What is it you say?”
“Never again-never! Not even
if they send for me!”
“You must be a very curious woman to talk like
that.”
“O no, not at all,” she
said, returning to the boy’s prattle. “Most
people who grow up and have children talk as I do.
When you grow up your mother will talk as I do too.”
“I hope she won’t; because ’tis
very bad to talk nonsense.”
“Yes, child; it is nonsense,
I suppose. Are you not nearly spent with the
heat?”
“Yes. But not so much as you be.”
“How do you know?”
“Your face is white and wet, and your head is
hanging-down-like.”
“Ah, I am exhausted from inside.”
“Why do you, every time you
take a step, go like this?” The child in speaking
gave to his motion the jerk and limp of an invalid.
“Because I have a burden which is more than
I can bear.”
The little boy remained silently pondering,
and they tottered on side by side until more than
a quarter of an hour had elapsed, when Mrs. Yeobright,
whose weakness plainly increased, said to him, “I
must sit down here to rest.”
When she had seated herself he looked
long in her face and said, “How funny you draw
your breath-like a lamb when you drive him
till he’s nearly done for. Do you always
draw your breath like that?”
“Not always.” Her
voice was now so low as to be scarcely above a whisper.
“You will go to sleep there,
I suppose, won’t you? You have shut your
eyes already.”
“No. I shall not sleep
much till-another day, and then I hope to
have a long, long one-very long. Now
can you tell me if Rimsmoor Pond is dry this summer?”
“Rimsmoor Pond is, but Oker’s
Pool isn’t, because he is deep, and is never
dry-’tis just over there.”
“Is the water clear?”
“Yes, middling-except where the heath-croppers
walk into it.”
“Then, take this, and go as
fast as you can, and dip me up the clearest you can
find. I am very faint.”
She drew from the small willow reticule
that she carried in her hand an old-fashioned china
teacup without a handle; it was one of half a dozen
of the same sort lying in the reticule, which she had
preserved ever since her childhood, and had brought
with her today as a small present for Clym and Eustacia.
The boy started on his errand, and
soon came back with the water, such as it was.
Mrs. Yeobright attempted to drink, but it was so warm
as to give her nausea, and she threw it away.
Afterwards she still remained sitting, with her eyes
closed.
The boy waited, played near her, caught
several of the little brown butterflies which abounded,
and then said as he waited again, “I like going
on better than biding still. Will you soon start
again?”
“I don’t know.”
“I wish I might go on by myself,”
he resumed, fearing, apparently, that he was to be
pressed into some unpleasant service. “Do
you want me any more, please?”
Mrs. Yeobright made no reply.
“What shall I tell Mother?” the boy continued.
“Tell her you have seen a broken-hearted woman
cast off by her son.”
Before quite leaving her he threw
upon her face a wistful glance, as if he had misgivings
on the generosity of forsaking her thus. He gazed
into her face in a vague, wondering manner, like that
of one examining some strange old manuscript the key
to whose characters is undiscoverable. He was
not so young as to be absolutely without a sense that
sympathy was demanded, he was not old enough to be
free from the terror felt in childhood at beholding
misery in adult quarters hither-to deemed impregnable;
and whether she were in a position to cause trouble
or to suffer from it, whether she and her affliction
were something to pity or something to fear, it was
beyond him to decide. He lowered his eyes and
went on without another word. Before he had gone
half a mile he had forgotten all about her, except
that she was a woman who had sat down to rest.
Mrs. Yeobright’s exertions,
physical and emotional, had well-nigh prostrated her;
but she continued to creep along in short stages with
long breaks between. The sun had now got far to
the west of south and stood directly in her face,
like some merciless incendiary, brand in hand, waiting
to consume her. With the departure of the boy
all visible animation disappeared from the landscape,
though the intermittent husky notes of the male grasshoppers
from every tuft of furze were enough to show that
amid the prostration of the larger animal species an
unseen insect world was busy in all the fullness of
life.
In two hours she reached a slope about
three-fourths the whole distance from Alderworth to
her own home, where a little patch of shepherd’s-thyme
intruded upon the path; and she sat down upon the
perfumed mat it formed there. In front of her
a colony of ants had established a thoroughfare across
the way, where they toiled a never-ending and heavy-laden
throng. To look down upon them was like observing
a city street from the top of a tower. She remembered
that this bustle of ants had been in progress for years
at the same spot-doubtless those of the
old times were the ancestors of these which walked
there now. She leant back to obtain more thorough
rest, and the soft eastern portion of the sky was
as great a relief to her eyes as the thyme was to
her head. While she looked a heron arose on that
side of the sky and flew on with his face towards
the sun. He had come dripping wet from some pool
in the valleys, and as he flew the edges and lining
of his wings, his thighs and his breast were so caught
by the bright sunbeams that he appeared as if formed
of burnished silver. Up in the zenith where he
was seemed a free and happy place, away from all contact
with the earthly ball to which she was pinioned; and
she wished that she could arise uncrushed from its
surface and fly as he flew then.
But, being a mother, it was inevitable
that she should soon cease to ruminate upon her own
condition. Had the track of her next thought been
marked by a streak in the air, like the path of a meteor,
it would have shown a direction contrary to the heron’s,
and have descended to the eastward upon the roof of
Clym’s house.
7-The Tragic Meeting of Two Old Friends
He in the meantime had aroused himself
from sleep, sat up, and looked around. Eustacia
was sitting in a chair hard by him, and though she
held a book in her hand she had not looked into it
for some time.
“Well, indeed!” said Clym,
brushing his eyes with his hands. “How
soundly I have slept! I have had such a tremendous
dream, too-one I shall never forget.”
“I thought you had been dreaming,” said
she.
“Yes. It was about my mother.
I dreamt that I took you to her house to make up differences,
and when we got there we couldn’t get in, though
she kept on crying to us for help. However, dreams
are dreams. What o’clock is it, Eustacia?”
“Half-past two.”
“So late, is it? I didn’t
mean to stay so long. By the time I have had
something to eat it will be after three.”
“Ann is not come back from the
village, and I thought I would let you sleep on till
she returned.”
Clym went to the window and looked
out. Presently he said, musingly, “Week
after week passes, and yet Mother does not come.
I thought I should have heard something from her long
before this.”
Misgiving, regret, fear, resolution,
ran their swift course of expression in Eustacia’s
dark eyes. She was face to face with a monstrous
difficulty, and she resolved to get free of it by
postponement.
“I must certainly go to Blooms-End
soon,” he continued, “and I think I had
better go alone.” He picked up his leggings
and gloves, threw them down again, and added, “As
dinner will be so late today I will not go back to
the heath, but work in the garden till the evening,
and then, when it will be cooler, I will walk to Blooms-End.
I am quite sure that if I make a little advance Mother
will be willing to forget all. It will be rather
late before I can get home, as I shall not be able
to do the distance either way in less than an hour
and a half. But you will not mind for one evening,
dear? What are you thinking of to make you look
so abstracted?”
“I cannot tell you,” she
said heavily. “I wish we didn’t live
here, Clym. The world seems all wrong in this
place.”
“Well-if we make
it so. I wonder if Thomasin has been to Blooms-End
lately. I hope so. But probably not, as she
is, I believe, expecting to be confined in a month
or so. I wish I had thought of that before.
Poor Mother must indeed be very lonely.”
“I don’t like you going tonight.”
“Why not tonight?”
“Something may be said which will terribly injure
me.”
“My mother is not vindictive,” said Clym,
his colour faintly rising.
“But I wish you would not go,”
Eustacia repeated in a low tone. “If you
agree not to go tonight I promise to go by myself to
her house tomorrow, and make it up with her, and wait
till you fetch me.”
“Why do you want to do that
at this particular time, when at every previous time
that I have proposed it you have refused?”
“I cannot explain further than
that I should like to see her alone before you go,”
she answered, with an impatient move of her head, and
looking at him with an anxiety more frequently seen
upon those of a sanguine temperament than upon such
as herself.
“Well, it is very odd that just
when I had decided to go myself you should want to
do what I proposed long ago. If I wait for you
to go tomorrow another day will be lost; and I know
I shall be unable to rest another night without having
been. I want to get this settled, and will.
You must visit her afterwards-it will be
all the same.”
“I could even go with you now?”
“You could scarcely walk there
and back without a longer rest than I shall take.
No, not tonight, Eustacia.”
“Let it be as you say, then,”
she replied in the quiet way of one who, though willing
to ward off evil consequences by a mild effort, would
let events fall out as they might sooner than wrestle
hard to direct them.
Clym then went into the garden; and
a thoughtful languor stole over Eustacia for the remainder
of the afternoon, which her husband attributed to
the heat of the weather.
In the evening he set out on the journey.
Although the heat of summer was yet intense the days
had considerably shortened, and before he had advanced
a mile on his way all the heath purples, browns, and
greens had merged in a uniform dress without airiness
or graduation, and broken only by touches of white
where the little heaps of clean quartz sand showed
the entrance to a rabbit burrow, or where the white
flints of a footpath lay like a thread over the slopes.
In almost every one of the isolated and stunted thorns
which grew here and there a nighthawk revealed his
presence by whirring like the clack of a mill as long
as he could hold his breath, then stopping, flapping
his wings, wheeling round the bush, alighting, and
after a silent interval of listening beginning to
whirr again. At each brushing of Clym’s
feet white millermoths flew into the air just high
enough to catch upon their dusty wings the mellowed
light from the west, which now shone across the depressions
and levels of the ground without falling thereon to
light them up.
Yeobright walked on amid this quiet
scene with a hope that all would soon be well.
Three miles on he came to a spot where a soft perfume
was wafted across his path, and he stood still for
a moment to inhale the familiar scent. It was
the place at which, four hours earlier, his mother
had sat down exhausted on the knoll covered with shepherd’s-thyme.
While he stood a sound between a breathing and a moan
suddenly reached his ears.
He looked to where the sound came
from; but nothing appeared there save the verge of
the hillock stretching against the sky in an unbroken
line. He moved a few steps in that direction,
and now he perceived a recumbent figure almost close
to his feet.
Among the different possibilities
as to the person’s individuality there did not
for a moment occur to Yeobright that it might be one
of his own family. Sometimes furze-cutters had
been known to sleep out of doors at these times, to
save a long journey homeward and back again; but Clym
remembered the moan and looked closer, and saw that
the form was feminine; and a distress came over him
like cold air from a cave. But he was not absolutely
certain that the woman was his mother till he stooped
and beheld her face, pallid, and with closed eyes.
His breath went, as it were, out of
his body and the cry of anguish which would have escaped
him died upon his lips. During the momentary
interval that elapsed before he became conscious that
something must be done all sense of time and place
left him, and it seemed as if he and his mother were
as when he was a child with her many years ago on this
heath at hours similar to the present. Then he
awoke to activity; and bending yet lower he found
that she still breathed, and that her breath though
feeble was regular, except when disturbed by an occasional
gasp.
“O, what is it! Mother,
are you very ill-you are not dying?”
he cried, pressing his lips to her face. “I
am your Clym. How did you come here? What
does it all mean?”
At that moment the chasm in their
lives which his love for Eustacia had caused was not
remembered by Yeobright, and to him the present joined
continuously with that friendly past that had been
their experience before the division.
She moved her lips, appeared to know
him, but could not speak; and then Clym strove to
consider how best to move her, as it would be necessary
to get her away from the spot before the dews were
intense. He was able-bodied, and his mother was
thin. He clasped his arms round her, lifted her
a little, and said, “Does that hurt you?”
She shook her head, and he lifted
her up; then, at a slow pace, went onward with his
load. The air was now completely cool; but whenever
he passed over a sandy patch of ground uncarpeted
with vegetation there was reflected from its surface
into his face the heat which it had imbibed during
the day. At the beginning of his undertaking he
had thought but little of the distance which yet would
have to be traversed before Blooms-End could be reached;
but though he had slept that afternoon he soon began
to feel the weight of his burden. Thus he proceeded,
like Aeneas with his father; the bats circling round
his head, nightjars flapping their wings within a
yard of his face, and not a human being within call.
While he was yet nearly a mile from
the house his mother exhibited signs of restlessness
under the constraint of being borne along, as if his
arms were irksome to her. He lowered her upon
his knees and looked around. The point they had
now reached, though far from any road, was not more
than a mile from the Blooms-End cottages occupied by
Fairway, Sam, Humphrey, and the Cantles. Moreover,
fifty yards off stood a hut, built of clods and covered
with thin turves, but now entirely disused. The
simple outline of the lonely shed was visible, and
thither he determined to direct his steps. As
soon as he arrived he laid her down carefully by the
entrance, and then ran and cut with his pocketknife
an armful of the dryest fern. Spreading this within
the shed, which was entirely open on one side, he
placed his mother thereon; then he ran with all his
might towards the dwelling of Fairway.
Nearly a quarter of an hour had passed,
disturbed only by the broken breathing of the sufferer,
when moving figures began to animate the line between
heath and sky. In a few moments Clym arrived with
Fairway, Humphrey, and Susan Nunsuch; Olly Dowden,
who had chanced to be at Fairway’s, Christian
and Grandfer Cantle following helter-skelter behind.
They had brought a lantern and matches, water, a pillow,
and a few other articles which had occurred to their
minds in the hurry of the moment. Sam had been
despatched back again for brandy, and a boy brought
Fairway’s pony, upon which he rode off to the
nearest medical man, with directions to call at Wildeve’s
on his way, and inform Thomasin that her aunt was
unwell.
Sam and the brandy soon arrived, and
it was administered by the light of the lantern; after
which she became sufficiently conscious to signify
by signs that something was wrong with her foot.
Olly Dowden at length understood her meaning, and
examined the foot indicated. It was swollen and
red. Even as they watched the red began to assume
a more livid colour, in the midst of which appeared
a scarlet speck, smaller than a pea, and it was found
to consist of a drop of blood, which rose above the
smooth flesh of her ankle in a hemisphere.
“I know what it is,” cried
Sam. “She has been stung by an adder!”
“Yes,” said Clym instantly.
“I remember when I was a child seeing just such
a bite. O, my poor mother!”
“It was my father who was bit,”
said Sam. “And there’s only one way
to cure it. You must rub the place with the fat
of other adders, and the only way to get that is by
frying them. That’s what they did for him.”
“’Tis an old remedy,”
said Clym distrustfully, “and I have doubts about
it. But we can do nothing else till the doctor
comes.”
“’Tis a sure cure,”
said Olly Dowden, with emphasis. “I’ve
used it when I used to go out nursing.”
“Then we must pray for daylight,
to catch them,” said Clym gloomily.
“I will see what I can do,” said Sam.
He took a green hazel which he had
used as a walking stick, split it at the end, inserted
a small pebble, and with the lantern in his hand went
out into the heath. Clym had by this time lit
a small fire, and despatched Susan Nunsuch for a frying
pan. Before she had returned Sam came in with
three adders, one briskly coiling and uncoiling in
the cleft of the stick, and the other two hanging
dead across it.
“I have only been able to get
one alive and fresh as he ought to be,” said
Sam. “These limp ones are two I killed today
at work; but as they don’t die till the sun
goes down they can’t be very stale meat.”
The live adder regarded the assembled
group with a sinister look in its small black eye,
and the beautiful brown and jet pattern on its back
seemed to intensify with indignation. Mrs. Yeobright
saw the creature, and the creature saw her-she
quivered throughout, and averted her eyes.
“Look at that,” murmured
Christian Cantle. “Neighbours, how do we
know but that something of the old serpent in God’s
garden, that gied the apple to the young woman with
no clothes, lives on in adders and snakes still?
Look at his eye-for all the world like a
villainous sort of black currant. ’Tis
to be hoped he can’t ill-wish us! There’s
folks in heath who’ve been overlooked already.
I will never kill another adder as long as I live.”
“Well, ’tis right to be
afeard of things, if folks can’t help it,”
said Grandfer Cantle. “’Twould have saved
me many a brave danger in my time.”
“I fancy I heard something outside
the shed,” said Christian. “I wish
troubles would come in the daytime, for then a man
could show his courage, and hardly beg for mercy of
the most broomstick old woman he should see, if he
was a brave man, and able to run out of her sight!”
“Even such an ignorant fellow
as I should know better than do that,” said
Sam.
“Well, there’s calamities
where we least expect it, whether or no. Neighbours,
if Mrs. Yeobright were to die, d’ye think we
should be took up and tried for the manslaughter of
a woman?”
“No, they couldn’t bring
it in as that,” said Sam, “unless they
could prove we had been poachers at some time of our
lives. But she’ll fetch round.”
“Now, if I had been stung by
ten adders I should hardly have lost a day’s
work for’t,” said Grandfer Cantle.
“Such is my spirit when I am on my mettle.
But perhaps ’tis natural in a man trained for
war. Yes, I’ve gone through a good deal;
but nothing ever came amiss to me after I joined the
Locals in four.” He shook his head and smiled
at a mental picture of himself in uniform. “I
was always first in the most galliantest scrapes in
my younger days!”
“I suppose that was because
they always used to put the biggest fool afore,”
said Fairway from the fire, beside which he knelt,
blowing it with his breath.
“D’ye think so, Timothy?”
said Grandfer Cantle, coming forward to Fairway’s
side with sudden depression in his face. “Then
a man may feel for years that he is good solid company,
and be wrong about himself after all?”
“Never mind that question, Grandfer.
Stir your stumps and get some more sticks. ’Tis
very nonsense of an old man to prattle so when life
and death’s in mangling.”
“Yes, yes,” said Grandfer
Cantle, with melancholy conviction. “Well,
this is a bad night altogether for them that have done
well in their time; and if I were ever such a dab
at the hautboy or tenor viol, I shouldn’t have
the heart to play tunes upon ’em now.”
Susan now arrived with the frying
pan, when the live adder was killed and the heads
of the three taken off. The remainders, being
cut into lengths and split open, were tossed into
the pan, which began hissing and crackling over the
fire. Soon a rill of clear oil trickled from the
carcases, whereupon Clym dipped the corner of his handkerchief
into the liquid and anointed the wound.
8-Eustacia Hears of Good Fortune, and Beholds
Evil
In the meantime Eustacia, left alone
in her cottage at Alderworth, had become considerably
depressed by the posture of affairs. The consequences
which might result from Clym’s discovery that
his mother had been turned from his door that day
were likely to be disagreeable, and this was a quality
in events which she hated as much as the dreadful.
To be left to pass the evening by
herself was irksome to her at any time, and this evening
it was more irksome than usual by reason of the excitements
of the past hours. The two visits had stirred
her into restlessness. She was not wrought to
any great pitch of uneasiness by the probability of
appearing in an ill light in the discussion between
Clym and his mother, but she was wrought to vexation,
and her slumbering activities were quickened to the
extent of wishing that she had opened the door.
She had certainly believed that Clym was awake, and
the excuse would be an honest one as far as it went;
but nothing could save her from censure in refusing
to answer at the first knock. Yet, instead of
blaming herself for the issue she laid the fault upon
the shoulders of some indistinct, colossal Prince
of the World, who had framed her situation and ruled
her lot.
At this time of the year it was pleasanter
to walk by night than by day, and when Clym had been
absent about an hour she suddenly resolved to go out
in the direction of Blooms-End, on the chance of meeting
him on his return. When she reached the garden
gate she heard wheels approaching, and looking round
beheld her grandfather coming up in his car.
“I can’t stay a minute,
thank ye,” he answered to her greeting.
“I am driving to East Egdon; but I came round
here just to tell you the news. Perhaps you have
heard-about Mr. Wildeve’s fortune?”
“No,” said Eustacia blankly.
“Well, he has come into a fortune
of eleven thousand pounds-uncle died in
Canada, just after hearing that all his family, whom
he was sending home, had gone to the bottom in the
Cassiopeia; so Wildeve has come into everything, without
in the least expecting it.”
Eustacia stood motionless awhile.
“How long has he known of this?” she asked.
“Well, it was known to him this
morning early, for I knew it at ten o’clock,
when Charley came back. Now, he is what I call
a lucky man. What a fool you were, Eustacia!”
“In what way?” she said,
lifting her eyes in apparent calmness.
“Why, in not sticking to him when you had him.”
“Had him, indeed!”
“I did not know there had ever
been anything between you till lately; and, faith,
I should have been hot and strong against it if I had
known; but since it seems that there was some sniffing
between ye, why the deuce didn’t you stick to
him?”
Eustacia made no reply, but she looked
as if she could say as much upon that subject as he
if she chose.
“And how is your poor purblind
husband?” continued the old man. “Not
a bad fellow either, as far as he goes.”
“He is quite well.”
“It is a good thing for his
cousin what-d’ye-call-her? By George, you
ought to have been in that galley, my girl! Now
I must drive on. Do you want any assistance?
What’s mine is yours, you know.”
“Thank you, Grandfather, we
are not in want at present,” she said coldly.
“Clym cuts furze, but he does it mostly as a
useful pastime, because he can do nothing else.”
“He is paid for his pastime,
isn’t he? Three shillings a hundred, I
heard.”
“Clym has money,” she
said, colouring, “but he likes to earn a little.”
“Very well; good night.” And the
captain drove on.
When her grandfather was gone Eustacia
went on her way mechanically; but her thoughts were
no longer concerning her mother-in-law and Clym.
Wildeve, notwithstanding his complaints against his
fate, had been seized upon by destiny and placed in
the sunshine once more. Eleven thousand pounds!
From every Egdon point of view he was a rich man.
In Eustacia’s eyes, too, it was an ample sum-one
sufficient to supply those wants of hers which had
been stigmatized by Clym in his more austere moods
as vain and luxurious. Though she was no lover
of money she loved what money could bring; and the
new accessories she imagined around him clothed Wildeve
with a great deal of interest. She recollected
now how quietly well-dressed he had been that morning-he
had probably put on his newest suit, regardless of
damage by briars and thorns. And then she thought
of his manner towards herself.
“O I see it, I see it,”
she said. “How much he wishes he had me
now, that he might give me all I desire!”
In recalling the details of his glances
and words-at the time scarcely regarded-it
became plain to her how greatly they had been dictated
by his knowledge of this new event. “Had
he been a man to bear a jilt ill-will he would have
told me of his good fortune in crowing tones; instead
of doing that he mentioned not a word, in deference
to my misfortunes, and merely implied that he loved
me still, as one superior to him.”
Wildeve’s silence that day on
what had happened to him was just the kind of behaviour
calculated to make an impression on such a woman.
Those delicate touches of good taste were, in fact,
one of the strong points in his demeanour towards
the other sex. The peculiarity of Wildeve was
that, while at one time passionate, upbraiding, and
resentful towards a woman, at another he would treat
her with such unparalleled grace as to make previous
neglect appear as no discourtesy, injury as no insult,
interference as a delicate attention, and the ruin
of her honour as excess of chivalry. This man,
whose admiration today Eustacia had disregarded, whose
good wishes she had scarcely taken the trouble to
accept, whom she had shown out of the house by the
back door, was the possessor of eleven thousand pounds-a
man of fair professional education, and one who had
served his articles with a civil engineer.
So intent was Eustacia upon Wildeve’s
fortunes that she forgot how much closer to her own
course were those of Clym; and instead of walking on
to meet him at once she sat down upon a stone.
She was disturbed in her reverie by a voice behind,
and turning her head beheld the old lover and fortunate
inheritor of wealth immediately beside her.
She remained sitting, though the fluctuation
in her look might have told any man who knew her so
well as Wildeve that she was thinking of him.
“How did you come here?”
she said in her clear low tone. “I thought
you were at home.”
“I went on to the village after
leaving your garden; and now I have come back again-that’s
all. Which way are you walking, may I ask?”
She waved her hand in the direction
of Blooms-End. “I am going to meet my husband.
I think I may possibly have got into trouble whilst
you were with me today.”
“How could that be?”
“By not letting in Mrs. Yeobright.”
“I hope that visit of mine did you no harm.”
“None. It was not your fault,” she
said quietly.
By this time she had risen; and they
involuntarily sauntered on together, without speaking,
for two or three minutes; when Eustacia broke silence
by saying, “I assume I must congratulate you.”
“On what? O yes; on my
eleven thousand pounds, you mean. Well, since
I didn’t get something else, I must be content
with getting that.”
“You seem very indifferent about
it. Why didn’t you tell me today when you
came?” she said in the tone of a neglected person.
“I heard of it quite by accident.”
“I did mean to tell you,”
said Wildeve. “But I-well, I
will speak frankly-I did not like to mention
it when I saw, Eustacia, that your star was not high.
The sight of a man lying wearied out with hard work,
as your husband lay, made me feel that to brag of my
own fortune to you would be greatly out of place.
Yet, as you stood there beside him, I could not help
feeling too that in many respects he was a richer man
than I.”
At this Eustacia said, with slumbering
mischievousness, “What, would you exchange with
him-your fortune for me?”
“I certainly would,” said Wildeve.
“As we are imagining what is
impossible and absurd, suppose we change the subject?”
“Very well; and I will tell
you of my plans for the future, if you care to hear
them. I shall permanently invest nine thousand
pounds, keep one thousand as ready money, and with
the remaining thousand travel for a year or so.”
“Travel? What a bright idea! Where
will you go to?”
“From here to Paris, where I
shall pass the winter and spring. Then I shall
go to Italy, Greece, Egypt, and Palestine, before the
hot weather comes on. In the summer I shall go
to America; and then, by a plan not yet settled, I
shall go to Australia and round to India. By that
time I shall have begun to have had enough of it.
Then I shall probably come back to Paris again, and
there I shall stay as long as I can afford to.”
“Back to Paris again,”
she murmured in a voice that was nearly a sigh.
She had never once told Wildeve of the Parisian desires
which Clym’s description had sown in her; yet
here was he involuntarily in a position to gratify
them. “You think a good deal of Paris?”
she added.
“Yes. In my opinion it
is the central beauty-spot of the world.”
“And in mine! And Thomasin will go with
you?”
“Yes, if she cares to. She may prefer to
stay at home.”
“So you will be going about, and I shall be
staying here!”
“I suppose you will. But we know whose
fault that is.”
“I am not blaming you,” she said quickly.
“Oh, I thought you were.
If ever you should be inclined to blame me, think
of a certain evening by Rainbarrow, when you promised
to meet me and did not. You sent me a letter;
and my heart ached to read that as I hope yours never
will. That was one point of divergence. I
then did something in haste....But she is a good woman,
and I will say no more.”
“I know that the blame was on
my side that time,” said Eustacia. “But
it had not always been so. However, it is my
misfortune to be too sudden in feeling. O, Damon,
don’t reproach me any more-I can’t
bear that.”
They went on silently for a distance
of two or three miles, when Eustacia said suddenly,
“Haven’t you come out of your way, Mr.
Wildeve?”
“My way is anywhere tonight.
I will go with you as far as the hill on which we
can see Blooms-End, as it is getting late for you to
be alone.”
“Don’t trouble. I
am not obliged to be out at all. I think I would
rather you did not accompany me further. This
sort of thing would have an odd look if known.”
“Very well, I will leave you.”
He took her hand unexpectedly, and kissed it-for
the first time since her marriage. “What
light is that on the hill?” he added, as it
were to hide the caress.
She looked, and saw a flickering firelight
proceeding from the open side of a hovel a little
way before them. The hovel, which she had hitherto
always found empty, seemed to be inhabited now.
“Since you have come so far,”
said Eustacia, “will you see me safely past
that hut? I thought I should have met Clym somewhere
about here, but as he doesn’t appear I will
hasten on and get to Blooms-End before he leaves.”
They advanced to the turf-shed, and
when they got near it the firelight and the lantern
inside showed distinctly enough the form of a woman
reclining on a bed of fern, a group of heath men and
women standing around her. Eustacia did not recognize
Mrs. Yeobright in the reclining figure, nor Clym as
one of the standers-by till she came close.
Then she quickly pressed her hand up on Wildeve’s
arm and signified to him to come back from the open
side of the shed into the shadow.
“It is my husband and his mother,”
she whispered in an agitated voice. “What
can it mean? Will you step forward and tell me?”
Wildeve left her side and went to
the back wall of the hut. Presently Eustacia
perceived that he was beckoning to her, and she advanced
and joined him.
“It is a serious case,” said Wildeve.
From their position they could hear what was proceeding
inside.
“I cannot think where she could
have been going,” said Clym to someone.
“She had evidently walked a long way, but even
when she was able to speak just now she would not
tell me where. What do you really think of her?”
“There is a great deal to fear,”
was gravely answered, in a voice which Eustacia recognized
as that of the only surgeon in the district. “She
has suffered somewhat from the bite of the adder; but
it is exhaustion which has overpowered her. My
impression is that her walk must have been exceptionally
long.”
“I used to tell her not to overwalk
herself this weather,” said Clym, with distress.
“Do you think we did well in using the adder’s
fat?”
“Well, it is a very ancient
remedy-the old remedy of the viper-catchers,
I believe,” replied the doctor. “It
is mentioned as an infallible ointment by Hoffman,
Mead, and I think the Abbe Fontana. Undoubtedly
it was as good a thing as you could do; though I question
if some other oils would not have been equally efficacious.”
“Come here, come here!”
was then rapidly said in anxious female tones, and
Clym and the doctor could be heard rushing forward
from the back part of the shed to where Mrs. Yeobright
lay.
“Oh, what is it?” whispered Eustacia.
“’Twas Thomasin who spoke,”
said Wildeve. “Then they have fetched her.
I wonder if I had better go in-yet it might
do harm.”
For a long time there was utter silence
among the group within; and it was broken at last
by Clym saying, in an agonized voice, “O Doctor,
what does it mean?”
The doctor did not reply at once;
ultimately he said, “She is sinking fast.
Her heart was previously affected, and physical exhaustion
has dealt the finishing blow.”
Then there was a weeping of women,
then waiting, then hushed exclamations, then a strange
gasping sound, then a painful stillness.
“It is all over,” said the doctor.
Further back in the hut the cotters whispered, “Mrs.
Yeobright is dead.”
Almost at the same moment the two
watchers observed the form of a small old-fashioned
child entering at the open side of the shed. Susan
Nunsuch, whose boy it was, went forward to the opening
and silently beckoned to him to go back.
“I’ve got something to
tell ’ee, Mother,” he cried in a shrill
tone. “That woman asleep there walked along
with me today; and she said I was to say that I had
seed her, and she was a broken-hearted woman and cast
off by her son, and then I came on home.”
A confused sob as from a man was heard
within, upon which Eustacia gasped faintly, “That’s
Clym-I must go to him-yet dare
I do it? No-come away!”
When they had withdrawn from the neighbourhood
of the shed she said huskily, “I am to blame
for this. There is evil in store for me.”
“Was she not admitted to your
house after all?” Wildeve inquired.
“No, and that’s where
it all lies! Oh, what shall I do! I shall
not intrude upon them-I shall go straight
home. Damon, good-bye! I cannot speak to
you any more now.”
They parted company; and when Eustacia
had reached the next hill she looked back. A
melancholy procession was wending its way by the light
of the lantern from the hut towards Blooms-End.
Wildeve was nowhere to be seen.