CHAPTER I
The shepherd on the east hill could
shout out lambing intelligence to the shepherd on
the west hill, over the intervening town chimneys,
without great inconvenience to his voice, so nearly
did the steep pastures encroach upon the burghers’
backyards. And at night it was possible to stand
in the very midst of the town and hear from their native
paddocks on the lower levels of greensward the
mild lowing of the farmer’s heifers, and the
profound, warm blowings of breath in which those creatures
indulge. But the community which had jammed itself
in the valley thus flanked formed a veritable town,
with a real mayor and corporation, and a staple manufacture.
During a certain damp evening five-and-thirty
years ago, before the twilight was far advanced, a
pedestrian of professional appearance, carrying a
small bag in his hand and an elevated umbrella, was
descending one of these hills by the turnpike road
when he was overtaken by a phaeton.
‘Hullo, Downe is
that you?’ said the driver of the vehicle, a
young man of pale and refined appearance. ’Jump
up here with me, and ride down to your door.’
The other turned a plump, cheery,
rather self-indulgent face over his shoulder towards
the hailer.
‘O, good evening, Mr. Barnet thanks,’
he said, and mounted beside his acquaintance.
They were fellow-burgesses of the
town which lay beneath them, but though old and very
good friends, they were differently circumstanced.
Barnet was a richer man than the struggling young
lawyer Downe, a fact which was to some extent perceptible
in Downe’s manner towards his companion, though
nothing of it ever showed in Barnet’s manner
towards the solicitor. Barnet’s position
in the town was none of his own making; his father
had been a very successful flax-merchant in the same
place, where the trade was still carried on as briskly
as the small capacities of its quarters would allow.
Having acquired a fair fortune, old Mr. Barnet had
retired from business, bringing up his son as a gentleman-burgher,
and, it must be added, as a well-educated, liberal-minded
young man.
‘How is Mrs. Barnet?’ asked Downe.
‘Mrs. Barnet was very well when
I left home,’ the other answered constrainedly,
exchanging his meditative regard of the horse for one
of self-consciousness.
Mr. Downe seemed to regret his inquiry,
and immediately took up another thread of conversation.
He congratulated his friend on his election as a
council-man; he thought he had not seen him since that
event took place; Mrs. Downe had meant to call and
congratulate Mrs. Barnet, but he feared that she had
failed to do so as yet.
Barnet seemed hampered in his replies.
’We should have been glad to see you.
I my wife would welcome Mrs. Downe at any
time, as you know . . . Yes, I am a member of
the corporation rather an inexperienced
member, some of them say. It is quite true;
and I should have declined the honour as premature having
other things on my hands just now, too if
it had not been pressed upon me so very heartily.’
’There is one thing you have
on your hands which I can never quite see the necessity
for,’ said Downe, with good-humoured freedom.
’What the deuce do you want to build that new
mansion for, when you have already got such an excellent
house as the one you live in?’
Barnets face acquired a warmer shade of colour; but as the
question had been idly asked by the solicitor while regarding the surrounding
flocks and fields, he answered after a moment with no apparent embarrassment
’Well, we wanted to get out
of the town, you know: the house I am living
in is rather old and inconvenient.’ Mr.
Downe declared that he had chosen a pretty site for
the new building. They would be able to see for
miles and miles from the windows. Was he going
to give it a name? He supposed so.
Barnet thought not. There was
no other house near that was likely to be mistaken
for it. And he did not care for a name.
‘But I think it has a name!’
Downe observed: ’I went past when
was it? this morning; and I saw something, “Chateau
Ringdale,” I think it was, stuck up on a board!’
‘It was an idea she we
had for a short time,’ said Barnet hastily.
’But we have decided finally to do without
a name at any rate such a name as that.
It must have been a week ago that you saw it.
It was taken down last Saturday . . . Upon that
matter I am firm!’ he added grimly.
Downe murmured in an unconvinced tone
that he thought he had seen it yesterday.
Talking thus they drove into the town.
The street was unusually still for the hour of seven
in the evening; an increasing drizzle had prevailed
since the afternoon, and now formed a gauze across
the yellow lamps, and trickled with a gentle rattle
down the heavy roofs of stone tile, that bent the
house-ridges hollow-backed with its weight, and in
some instances caused the walls to bulge outwards
in the upper story. Their route took them past
the little town-hall, the Black-Bull Hotel, and onward
to the junction of a small street on the right, consisting
of a row of those two-and-two windowed brick residences
of no particular age, which are exactly alike wherever
found, except in the people they contain.
‘Wait I’ll
drive you up to your door,’ said Barnet, when
Downe prepared to alight at the corner. He thereupon
turned into the narrow street, when the faces of three
little girls could be discerned close to the panes
of a lighted window a few yards ahead, surmounted by
that of a young matron, the gaze of all four being
directed eagerly up the empty street. ‘You
are a fortunate fellow, Downe,’ Barnet continued,
as mother and children disappeared from the window
to run to the door. ’You must be happy
if any man is. I would give a hundred such houses
as my new one to have a home like yours.’
‘Well yes, we get
along pretty comfortably,’ replied Downe complacently.
‘That house, Downe, is none
of my ordering,’ Barnet broke out, revealing
a bitterness hitherto suppressed, and checking the
horse a moment to finish his speech before delivering
up his passenger. ’The house I have already
is good enough for me, as you supposed. It is
my own freehold; it was built by my grandfather, and
is stout enough for a castle. My father was
born there, lived there, and died there. I was
born there, and have always lived there; yet I must
needs build a new one.’
‘Why do you?’ said Downe.
’Why do I? To preserve
peace in the household. I do anything for that;
but I don’t succeed. I was firm in resisting
“Chateau Ringdale,” however; not that
I would not have put up with the absurdity of the name,
but it was too much to have your house christened after
Lord Ringdale, because your wife once had a fancy
for him. If you only knew everything, you would
think all attempt at reconciliation hopeless.
In your happy home you have had no such experiences;
and God forbid that you ever should. See, here
they are all ready to receive you!’
‘Of course! And so will
your wife be waiting to receive you,’ said Downe.
’Take my word for it she will! And with
a dinner prepared for you far better than mine.’
‘I hope so,’ Barnet replied dubiously.
He moved on to Downe’s door,
which the solicitor’s family had already opened.
Downe descended, but being encumbered with his bag
and umbrella, his foot slipped, and he fell upon his
knees in the gutter.
‘O, my dear Charles!’
said his wife, running down the steps; and, quite
ignoring the presence of Barnet, she seized hold of
her husband, pulled him to his feet, and kissed him,
exclaiming, ’I hope you are not hurt, darling!’
The children crowded round, chiming in piteously,
‘Poor papa!’
‘He’s all right,’
said Barnet, perceiving that Downe was only a little
muddy, and looking more at the wife than at the husband.
Almost at any other time certainly during
his fastidious bachelor years he would have
thought her a too demonstrative woman; but those recent
circumstances of his own life to which he had just
alluded made Mrs. Downe’s solicitude so affecting
that his eye grew damp as he witnessed it. Bidding
the lawyer and his family good-night he left them,
and drove slowly into the main street towards his
own house.
The heart of Barnet was sufficiently
impressionable to be influenced by Downe’s parting
prophecy that he might not be so unwelcome home as
he imagined: the dreary night might, at least
on this one occasion, make Downe’s forecast
true. Hence it was in a suspense that he could
hardly have believed possible that he halted at his
door. On entering his wife was nowhere to be
seen, and he inquired for her. The servant informed
him that her mistress had the dressmaker with her,
and would be engaged for some time.
‘Dressmaker at this time of day!’
’She dined early, sir, and hopes
you will excuse her joining you this evening.’
‘But she knew I was coming to-night?’
‘O yes, sir.’
‘Go up and tell her I am come.’
The servant did so; but the mistress
of the house merely transmitted her former words.
Barnet said nothing more, and presently
sat down to his lonely meal, which was eaten abstractedly,
the domestic scene he had lately witnessed still impressing
him by its contrast with the situation here.
His mind fell back into past years upon a certain
pleasing and gentle being whose face would loom out
of their shades at such times as these. Barnet
turned in his chair, and looked with unfocused eyes
in a direction southward from where he sat, as if
he saw not the room but a long way beyond. ‘I
wonder if she lives there still!’ he said.
CHAPTER II
He rose with a sudden rebelliousness,
put on his hat and coat, and went out of the house,
pursuing his way along the glistening pavement while
eight o’clock was striking from St. Mary’s
tower, and the apprentices and shopmen were slamming
up the shutters from end to end of the town.
In two minutes only those shops which could boast
of no attendant save the master or the mistress remained
with open eyes. These were ever somewhat less
prompt to exclude customers than the others: for
their owners’ ears the closing hour had scarcely
the cheerfulness that it possessed for the hired servants
of the rest. Yet the night being dreary the delay
was not for long, and their windows, too, blinked
together one by one.
During this time Barnet had proceeded
with decided step in a direction at right angles to
the broad main thoroughfare of the town, by a long
street leading due southward. Here, though his
family had no more to do with the flax manufacture,
his own name occasionally greeted him on gates and
warehouses, being used allusively by small rising tradesmen
as a recommendation, in such words as ’Smith,
from Barnet & Co.’ ’Robinson,
late manager at Barnet’s.’ The sight
led him to reflect upon his father’s busy life,
and he questioned if it had not been far happier than
his own.
The houses along the road became fewer,
and presently open ground appeared between them on
either side, the track on the right hand rising to
a higher level till it merged in a knoll. On
the summit a row of builders’ scaffold-poles
probed the indistinct sky like spears, and at their
bases could be discerned the lower courses of a building
lately begun. Barnet slackened his pace and
stood for a few moments without leaving the centre
of the road, apparently not much interested in the
sight, till suddenly his eye was caught by a post in
the fore part of the ground bearing a white board
at the top. He went to the rails, vaulted over,
and walked in far enough to discern painted upon the
board ’Chateau Ringdale.’
A dismal irony seemed to lie in the
words, and its effect was to irritate him. Downe,
then, had spoken truly. He stuck his umbrella
into the sod, and seized the post with both hands,
as if intending to loosen and throw it down.
Then, like one bewildered by an opposition which would
exist none the less though its manifestations were
removed, he allowed his arms to sink to his side.
‘Let it be,’ he said to
himself. ’I have declared there shall be
peace if possible.’
Taking up his umbrella he quietly
left the enclosure, and went on his way, still keeping
his back to the town. He had advanced with more
decision since passing the new building, and soon a
hoarse murmur rose upon the gloom; it was the sound
of the sea. The road led to the harbour, at
a distance of a mile from the town, from which the
trade of the district was fed. After seeing
the obnoxious name-board Barnet had forgotten to open
his umbrella, and the rain tapped smartly on his hat,
and occasionally stroked his face as he went on.
Though the lamps were still continued
at the roadside, they stood at wider intervals than
before, and the pavement had given place to common
road. Every time he came to a lamp an increasing
shine made itself visible upon his shoulders, till
at last they quite glistened with wet. The murmur
from the shore grew stronger, but it was still some
distance off when he paused before one of the smallest
of the detached houses by the wayside, standing in
its own garden, the latter being divided from the
road by a row of wooden palings. Scrutinizing
the spot to ensure that he was not mistaken, he opened
the gate and gently knocked at the cottage door.
When he had patiently waited minutes
enough to lead any man in ordinary cases to knock
again, the door was heard to open, though it was impossible
to see by whose hand, there being no light in the passage.
Barnet said at random, ‘Does Miss Savile live
here?’
A youthful voice assured him that
she did live there, and by a sudden afterthought asked
him to come in. It would soon get a light, it
said: but the night being wet, mother had not
thought it worth while to trim the passage lamp.
‘Don’t trouble yourself
to get a light for me,’ said Barnet hastily;
’it is not necessary at all. Which is
Miss Savile’s sitting-room?’
The young person, whose white pinafore
could just be discerned, signified a door in the side
of the passage, and Barnet went forward at the same
moment, so that no light should fall upon his face.
On entering the room he closed the door behind him,
pausing till he heard the retreating footsteps of
the child.
He found himself in an apartment which
was simply and neatly, though not poorly furnished;
everything, from the miniature chiffonnier to the
shining little daguerreotype which formed the central
ornament of the mantelpiece, being in scrupulous order.
The picture was enclosed by a frame of embroidered
card-board evidently the work of feminine
hands and it was the portrait of a thin
faced, elderly lieutenant in the navy. From
behind the lamp on the table a female form now rose
into view, that of a young girl, and a resemblance
between her and the portrait was early discoverable.
She had been so absorbed in some occupation on the
other side of the lamp as to have barely found time
to realize her visitor’s presence.
They both remained standing for a
few seconds without speaking. The face that
confronted Barnet had a beautiful outline; the Raffaelesque
oval of its contour was remarkable for an English
countenance, and that countenance housed in a remote
country-road to an unheard-of harbour. But her
features did not do justice to this splendid beginning:
Nature had recollected that she was not in Italy;
and the young lady’s linéaments, though
not so inconsistent as to make her plain, would have
been accepted rather as pleasing than as correct.
The preoccupied expression which, like images on
the retina, remained with her for a moment after the
state that caused it had ceased, now changed into
a reserved, half-proud, and slightly indignant look,
in which the blood diffused itself quickly across
her cheek, and additional brightness broke the shade
of her rather heavy eyes.
‘I know I have no business here,’
he said, answering the look. ’But I had
a great wish to see you, and inquire how you were.
You can give your hand to me, seeing how often I
have held it in past days?’
‘I would rather forget than
remember all that, Mr. Barnet,’ she answered,
as she coldly complied with the request. ’When
I think of the circumstances of our last meeting,
I can hardly consider it kind of you to allude to
such a thing as our past or, indeed, to
come here at all.’
‘There was no harm in it surely?
I don’t trouble you often, Lucy.’
’I have not had the honour of
a visit from you for a very long time, certainly,
and I did not expect it now,’ she said, with
the same stiffness in her air. ‘I hope
Mrs. Barnet is very well?’
‘Yes, yes!’ he impatiently
returned. ’At least I suppose so though
I only speak from inference!’
‘But she is your wife, sir,’
said the young girl tremulously.
The unwonted tones of a man’s
voice in that feminine chamber had startled a canary
that was roosting in its cage by the window; the bird
awoke hastily, and fluttered against the bars.
She went and stilled it by laying her face against
the cage and murmuring a coaxing sound. It might
partly have been done to still herself.
‘I didn’t come to talk
of Mrs. Barnet,’ he pursued; ’I came to
talk of you, of yourself alone; to inquire how you
are getting on since your great loss.’
And he turned towards the portrait of her father.
‘I am getting on fairly well, thank you.’
The force of her utterance was scarcely
borne out by her look; but Barnet courteously reproached
himself for not having guessed a thing so natural;
and to dissipate all embarrassment, added, as he bent
over the table, ‘What were you doing when I
came? painting flowers, and by candlelight?’
‘O no,’ she said, ’not
painting them only sketching the outlines.
I do that at night to save time I have
to get three dozen done by the end of the month.’
Barnet looked as if he regretted it
deeply. ’You will wear your poor eyes
out,’ he said, with more sentiment than he had
hitherto shown. ’You ought not to do it.
There was a time when I should have said you must
not. Well I almost wish I had never
seen light with my own eyes when I think of that!’
‘Is this a time or place for
recalling such matters?’ she asked, with dignity.
’You used to have a gentlemanly respect for
me, and for yourself. Don’t speak any
more as you have spoken, and don’t come again.
I cannot think that this visit is serious, or was closely
considered by you.’
’Considered: well, I came
to see you as an old and good friend not
to mince matters, to visit a woman I loved.
Don’t be angry! I could not help doing
it, so many things brought you into my mind . . .
This evening I fell in with an acquaintance, and when
I saw how happy he was with his wife and family welcoming
him home, though with only one-tenth of my income
and chances, and thought what might have been in my
case, it fairly broke down my discretion, and off
I came here. Now I am here I feel that I am
wrong to some extent. But the feeling that I
should like to see you, and talk of those we used
to know in common, was very strong.’
‘Before that can be the case
a little more time must pass,’ said Miss Savile
quietly; ’a time long enough for me to regard
with some calmness what at present I remember far
too impatiently though it may be you almost
forget it. Indeed you must have forgotten it
long before you acted as you did.’ Her
voice grew stronger and more vivacious as she added:
’But I am doing my best to forget it too, and
I know I shall succeed from the progress I have made
already!’
She had remained standing till now,
when she turned and sat down, facing half away from
him.
Barnet watched her moodily.
‘Yes, it is only what I deserve,’ he said.
’Ambition pricked me on no, it was
not ambition, it was wrongheadedness! Had I but
reflected . . . ’ He broke out vehemently:
’But always remember this, Lucy: if you
had written to me only one little line after that
misunderstanding, I declare I should have come back
to you. That ruined me!’ he slowly walked
as far as the little room would allow him to go, and
remained with his eyes on the skirting.
’But, Mr. Barnet, how could
I write to you? There was no opening for my
doing so.’
‘Then there ought to have been,’
said Barnet, turning. ’That was my fault!’
’Well, I don’t know anything
about that; but as there had been nothing said by
me which required any explanation by letter, I did
not send one. Everything was so indefinite, and
feeling your position to be so much wealthier than
mine, I fancied I might have mistaken your meaning.
And when I heard of the other lady a woman
of whose family even you might be proud I
thought how foolish I had been, and said nothing.’
’Then I suppose it was destiny accident I
don’t know what, that separated us, dear Lucy.
Anyhow you were the woman I ought to have made my
wife and I let you slip, like the foolish
man that I was!’
‘O, Mr. Barnet,’ she said,
almost in tears, ’don’t revive the subject
to me; I am the wrong one to console you think,
sir, you should not be here it
would be so bad for me if it were known!’
‘It would it would,
indeed,’ he said hastily. ’I am not
right in doing this, and I won’t do it again.’
’It is a very common folly of
human nature, you know, to think the course you did
not adopt must have been the best,’ she continued,
with gentle solicitude, as she followed him to the
door of the room. ’And you don’t
know that I should have accepted you, even if you had
asked me to be your wife.’ At this his
eye met hers, and she dropped her gaze. She knew
that her voice belied her. There was a silence
till she looked up to add, in a voice of soothing
playfulness, ’My family was so much poorer than
yours, even before I lost my dear father, that perhaps
your companions would have made it unpleasant for
us on account of my deficiencies.’
‘Your disposition would soon
have won them round,’ said Barnet.
She archly expostulated: ’Now,
never mind my disposition; try to make it up with
your wife! Those are my commands to you.
And now you are to leave me at once.’
‘I will. I must make the
best of it all, I suppose,’ he replied, more
cheerfully than he had as yet spoken. ’But
I shall never again meet with such a dear girl as
you!’ And he suddenly opened the door, and left
her alone. When his glance again fell on the
lamps that were sparsely ranged along the dreary level
road, his eyes were in a state which showed straw-like
motes of light radiating from each flame into
the surrounding air.
On the other side of the way Barnet
observed a man under an umbrella, walking parallel
with himself. Presently this man left the footway,
and gradually converged on Barnet’s course.
The latter then saw that it was Charlson, a surgeon
of the town, who owed him money. Charlson was
a man not without ability; yet he did not prosper.
Sundry circumstances stood in his way as a medical
practitioner: he was needy; he was not a coddle;
he gossiped with men instead of with women; he had
married a stranger instead of one of the town young
ladies; and he was given to conversational buffoonery.
Moreover, his look was quite erroneous. Those
only proper features in the family doctor, the quiet
eye, and the thin straight passionless lips which
never curl in public either for laughter or for scorn,
were not his; he had a full-curved mouth, and a bold
black eye that made timid people nervous. His
companions were what in old times would have been
called boon companions an expression which,
though of irreproachable root, suggests fraternization
carried to the point of unscrupulousness. All
this was against him in the little town of his adoption.
Charlson had been in difficulties,
and to oblige him Barnet had put his name to a bill;
and, as he had expected, was called upon to meet it
when it fell due. It had been only a matter
of fifty pounds, which Barnet could well afford to
lose, and he bore no ill-will to the thriftless surgeon
on account of it. But Charlson had a little too
much brazen indifferentism in his composition to be
altogether a desirable acquaintance.
’I hope to be able to make that
little bill-business right with you in the course
of three weeks, Mr. Barnet,’ said Charlson with
hail-fellow friendliness.
Barnet replied good-naturedly that there was no hurry.
This particular three weeks had moved
on in advance of Charlson’s present with the
precision of a shadow for some considerable time.
‘I’ve had a dream,’
Charlson continued. Barnet knew from his tone
that the surgeon was going to begin his characteristic
nonsense, and did not encourage him. ‘I’ve
had a dream,’ repeated Charlson, who required
no encouragement. ’I dreamed that a gentleman,
who has been very kind to me, married a haughty lady
in haste, before he had quite forgotten a nice little
girl he knew before, and that one wet evening, like
the present, as I was walking up the harbour-road,
I saw him come out of that dear little girl’s
present abode.’
Barnet glanced towards the speaker.
The rays from a neighbouring lamp struck through
the drizzle under Charlson’s umbrella, so as
just to illumine his face against the shade behind,
and show that his eye was turned up under the outer
corner of its lid, whence it leered with impish jocoseness
as he thrust his tongue into his cheek.
‘Come,’ said Barnet gravely, ‘we’ll
have no more of that.’
‘No, no of course
not,’ Charlson hastily answered, seeing that
his humour had carried him too far, as it had done
many times before. He was profuse in his apologies,
but Barnet did not reply. Of one thing he was
certain that scandal was a plant of quick
root, and that he was bound to obey Lucy’s injunction
for Lucy’s own sake.
CHAPTER III
He did so, to the letter; and though,
as the crocus followed the snowdrop and the daffodil
the crocus in Lucy’s garden, the harbour-road
was a not unpleasant place to walk in, Barnet’s
feet never trod its stones, much less approached her
door. He avoided a saunter that way as he would
have avoided a dangerous dram, and took his airings
a long distance northward, among severely square and
brown ploughed fields, where no other townsman came.
Sometimes he went round by the lower lanes of the
borough, where the rope-walks stretched in which his
family formerly had share, and looked at the rope-makers
walking backwards, overhung by apple-trees and bushes,
and intruded on by cows and calves, as if trade had
established itself there at considerable inconvenience
to Nature.
One morning, when the sun was so warm
as to raise a steam from the south-eastern slopes
of those flanking hills that looked so lovely above
the old roofs, but made every low-chimneyed house
in the town as smoky as Tophet, Barnet glanced from
the windows of the town-council room for lack of interest
in what was proceeding within. Several members
of the corporation were present, but there was not
much business doing, and in a few minutes Downe came
leisurely across to him, saying that he seldom saw
Barnet now.
Barnet owned that he was not often present.
Downe looked at the crimson curtain
which hung down beside the panes, reflecting its hot
hues into their faces, and then out of the window.
At that moment there passed along the street a tall
commanding lady, in whom the solicitor recognized
Barnet’s wife. Barnet had done the same
thing, and turned away.
‘It will be all right some day,’
said Downe, with cheering sympathy.
‘You have heard, then, of her last outbreak?’
Downe depressed his cheerfulness to
its very reverse in a moment. ’No, I have
not heard of anything serious,’ he said, with
as long a face as one naturally round could be turned
into at short notice. ’I only hear vague
reports of such things.’
‘You may think it will be all
right,’ said Barnet drily. ’But I
have a different opinion . . . No, Downe, we
must look the thing in the face. Not poppy nor
mandragora however, how are your wife and
children?’
Downe said that they were all well,
thanks; they were out that morning somewhere; he was
just looking to see if they were walking that way.
Ah, there they were, just coming down the street;
and Downe pointed to the figures of two children with
a nursemaid, and a lady walking behind them.
‘You will come out and speak to her?’
he asked.
’Not this morning. The
fact is I don’t care to speak to anybody just
now.’
’You are too sensitive, Mr.
Barnet. At school I remember you used to get
as red as a rose if anybody uttered a word that hurt
your feelings.’
Barnet mused. ‘Yes,’
he admitted, ’there is a grain of truth in that.
It is because of that I often try to make peace at
home. Life would be tolerable then at any rate,
even if not particularly bright.’
‘I have thought more than once
of proposing a little plan to you,’ said Downe
with some hesitation. ’I don’t know
whether it will meet your views, but take it or leave
it, as you choose. In fact, it was my wife who
suggested it: that she would be very glad to call
on Mrs. Barnet and get into her confidence.
She seems to think that Mrs. Barnet is rather alone
in the town, and without advisers. Her impression
is that your wife will listen to reason. Emily
has a wonderful way of winning the hearts of people
of her own sex.’
’And of the other sex too, I
think. She is a charming woman, and you were
a lucky fellow to find her.’
‘Well, perhaps I was,’
simpered Downe, trying to wear an aspect of being
the last man in the world to feel pride. ’However,
she will be likely to find out what ruffles Mrs. Barnet.
Perhaps it is some misunderstanding, you know something
that she is too proud to ask you to explain, or some
little thing in your conduct that irritates her because
she does not fully comprehend you. The truth
is, Emily would have been more ready to make advances
if she had been quite sure of her fitness for Mrs.
Barnet’s society, who has of course been accustomed
to London people of good position, which made Emily
fearful of intruding.’
Barnet expressed his warmest thanks
for the well-intentioned proposition. There was
reason in Mrs. Downe’s fear that he
owned. ’But do let her call,’ he
said. ’There is no woman in England I would
so soon trust on such an errand. I am afraid
there will not be any brilliant result; still I shall
take it as the kindest and nicest thing if she will
try it, and not be frightened at a repulse.’
When Barnet and Downe had parted,
the former went to the Town Savings-Bank, of which
he was a trustee, and endeavoured to forget his troubles
in the contemplation of low sums of money, and figures
in a network of red and blue lines. He sat and
watched the working-people making their deposits,
to which at intervals he signed his name. Before
he left in the afternoon Downe put his head inside
the door.
‘Emily has seen Mrs. Barnet,’
he said, in a low voice. ’She has got Mrs.
Barnet’s promise to take her for a drive down
to the shore to-morrow, if it is fine. Good
afternoon!’
Barnet shook Downe by the hand without
speaking, and Downe went away.
CHAPTER IV
The next day was as fine as the arrangement
could possibly require. As the sun passed the
meridian and declined westward, the tall shadows from
the scaffold-poles of Barnet’s rising residence
streaked the ground as far as to the middle of the
highway. Barnet himself was there inspecting
the progress of the works for the first time during
several weeks. A building in an old-fashioned
town five-and-thirty years ago did not, as in the
modern fashion, rise from the sod like a booth at a
fair. The foundations and lower courses were
put in and allowed to settle for many weeks before
the superstructure was built up, and a whole summer
of drying was hardly sufficient to do justice to the
important issues involved. Barnet stood within
a window-niche which had as yet received no frame,
and thence looked down a slope into the road.
The wheels of a chaise were heard, and then his handsome
Xantippe, in the company of Mrs. Downe, drove past
on their way to the shore. They were driving
slowly; there was a pleasing light in Mrs. Downe’s
face, which seemed faintly to reflect itself upon
the countenance of her companion that politesse
du coeur which was so natural to her having possibly
begun already to work results. But whatever
the situation, Barnet resolved not to interfere, or
do anything to hazard the promise of the day.
He might well afford to trust the issue to another
when he could never direct it but to ill himself.
His wife’s clenched rein-hand in its lemon-coloured
glove, her stiff erect figure, clad in velvet and
lace, and her boldly-outlined face, passed on, exhibiting
their owner as one fixed for ever above the level
of her companion socially by her early breeding,
and materially by her higher cushion.
Barnet decided to allow them a proper
time to themselves, and then stroll down to the shore
and drive them home. After lingering on at the
house for another hour he started with this intention.
A few hundred yards below ‘Chateau Ringdale’
stood the cottage in which the late lieutenant’s
daughter had her lodging. Barnet had not been
so far that way for a long time, and as he approached
the forbidden ground a curious warmth passed into
him, which led him to perceive that, unless he were
careful, he might have to fight the battle with himself
about Lucy over again. A tenth of his present
excuse would, however, have justified him in travelling
by that road to-day.
He came opposite the dwelling, and
turned his eyes for a momentary glance into the little
garden that stretched from the palings to the door.
Lucy was in the enclosure; she was walking and stooping
to gather some flowers, possibly for the purpose of
painting them, for she moved about quickly, as if
anxious to save time. She did not see him; he
might have passed unnoticed; but a sensation which
was not in strict unison with his previous sentiments
that day led him to pause in his walk and watch her.
She went nimbly round and round the beds of anémones,
tulips, jonquils, polyanthuses, and other old-fashioned
flowers, looking a very charming figure in her half-mourning
bonnet, and with an incomplete nosegay in her left
hand. Raising herself to pull down a lilac blossom
she observed him.
‘Mr. Barnet!’ she said,
innocently smiling. ’Why, I have been thinking
of you many times since Mrs. Barnet went by in the
pony-carriage, and now here you are!’
‘Yes, Lucy,’ he said.
Then she seemed to recall particulars
of their last meeting, and he believed that she flushed,
though it might have been only the fancy of his own
supersensitivenesss.
‘I am going to the harbour,’ he added.
‘Are you?’ Lucy remarked
simply. ’A great many people begin to go
there now the summer is drawing on.’
Her face had come more into his view
as she spoke, and he noticed how much thinner and
paler it was than when he had seen it last. ’Lucy,
how weary you look! tell me, can I help you?’
he was going to cry out. ’If I do,’
he thought, ‘it will be the ruin of us both!’
He merely said that the afternoon was fine, and went
on his way.
As he went a sudden blast of air came
over the hill as if in contradiction to his words,
and spoilt the previous quiet of the scene. The
wind had already shifted violently, and now smelt of
the sea.
The harbour-road soon began to justify
its name. A gap appeared in the rampart of hills
which shut out the sea, and on the left of the opening
rose a vertical cliff, coloured a burning orange by
the sunlight, the companion cliff on the right being
livid in shade. Between these cliffs, like the
Libyan bay which sheltered the shipwrecked Trojans,
was a little haven, seemingly a beginning made by
Nature herself of a perfect harbour, which appealed
to the passer-by as only requiring a little human industry
to finish it and make it famous, the ground on each
side as far back as the daisied slopes that bounded
the interior valley being a mere layer of blown sand.
But the Port-Bredy burgesses a mile inland had, in
the course of ten centuries, responded many times
to that mute appeal, with the result that the tides
had invariably choked up their works with sand and
shingle as soon as completed. There were but
few houses here: a rough pier, a few boats, some
stores, an inn, a residence or two, a ketch unloading
in the harbour, were the chief features of the settlement.
On the open ground by the shore stood his wife’s
pony-carriage, empty, the boy in attendance holding
the horse.
When Barnet drew nearer, he saw an
indigo-coloured spot moving swiftly along beneath
the radiant base of the eastern cliff, which proved
to be a man in a jersey, running with all his might.
He held up his hand to Barnet, as it seemed, and
they approached each other. The man was local,
but a stranger to him.
‘What is it, my man?’ said Barnet.
‘A terrible calamity!’
the boatman hastily explained. Two ladies had
been capsized in a boat they were Mrs. Downe
and Mrs. Barnet of the old town; they had driven down
there that afternoon they had alighted,
and it was so fine, that, after walking about a little
while, they had been tempted to go out for a short
sail round the cliff. Just as they were putting
in to the shore, the wind shifted with a sudden gust,
the boat listed over, and it was thought they were
both drowned. How it could have happened was
beyond his mind to fathom, for John Green knew how
to sail a boat as well as any man there.
‘Which is the way to the place?’ said
Barnet.
It was just round the cliff.
’Run to the carriage and tell
the boy to bring it to the place as soon as you can.
Then go to the Harbour Inn and tell them to ride to
town for a doctor. Have they been got out of
the water?’
‘One lady has.’
‘Which?’
‘Mrs. Barnet. Mrs. Downe, it is feared,
has fleeted out to sea.’
Barnet ran on to that part of the
shore which the cliff had hitherto obscured from his
view, and there discerned, a long way ahead, a group
of fishermen standing. As soon as he came up
one or two recognized him, and, not liking to meet
his eye, turned aside with misgiving. He went
amidst them and saw a small sailing-boat lying draggled
at the water’s edge; and, on the sloping shingle
beside it, a soaked and sandy woman’s form in
the velvet dress and yellow gloves of his wife.
CHAPTER V
All had been done that could be done.
Mrs. Barnet was in her own house under medical hands,
but the result was still uncertain. Barnet had
acted as if devotion to his wife were the dominant
passion of his existence. There had been much
to decide whether to attempt restoration
of the apparently lifeless body as it lay on the shore whether
to carry her to the Harbour Inn whether
to drive with her at once to his own house.
The first course, with no skilled help or appliances
near at hand, had seemed hopeless. The second
course would have occupied nearly as much time as
a drive to the town, owing to the intervening ridges
of shingle, and the necessity of crossing the harbour
by boat to get to the house, added to which much time
must have elapsed before a doctor could have arrived
down there. By bringing her home in the carriage
some precious moments had slipped by; but she had
been laid in her own bed in seven minutes, a doctor
called to her side, and every possible restorative
brought to bear upon her.
At what a tearing pace he had driven
up that road, through the yellow evening sunlight,
the shadows flapping irksomely into his eyes as each
wayside object rushed past between him and the west!
Tired workmen with their baskets at their backs had
turned on their homeward journey to wonder at his
speed. Halfway between the shore and Port-Bredy
town he had met Charlson, who had been the first surgeon
to hear of the accident. He was accompanied by
his assistant in a gig. Barnet had sent on the
latter to the coast in case that Downe’s poor
wife should by that time have been reclaimed from
the waves, and had brought Charlson back with him
to the house.
Barnet’s presence was not needed
here, and he felt it to be his next duty to set off
at once and find Downe, that no other than himself
might break the news to him.
He was quite sure that no chance had
been lost for Mrs. Downe by his leaving the shore.
By the time that Mrs. Barnet had been laid in the
carriage, a much larger group had assembled to lend
assistance in finding her friend, rendering his own
help superfluous. But the duty of breaking the
news was made doubly painful by the circumstance that
the catastrophe which had befallen Mrs. Downe was
solely the result of her own and her husband’s
loving-kindness towards himself.
He found Downe in his office.
When the solicitor comprehended the intelligence
he turned pale, stood up, and remained for a moment
perfectly still, as if bereft of his faculties; then
his shoulders heaved, he pulled out his handkerchief
and began to cry like a child. His sobs might
have been heard in the next room. He seemed to
have no idea of going to the shore, or of doing anything;
but when Barnet took him gently by the hand and proposed
to start at once, he quietly acquiesced, neither uttering
any further word nor making any effort to repress his
tears.
Barnet accompanied him to the shore,
where, finding that no trace had as yet been seen
of Mrs. Downe, and that his stay would be of no avail,
he left Downe with his friends and the young doctor,
and once more hastened back to his own house.
At the door he met Charlson. ‘Well!’
Barnet said.
‘I have just come down,’
said the doctor; ’we have done everything, but
without result. I sympathize with you in your
bereavement.’
Barnet did not much appreciate Charlson’s
sympathy, which sounded to his ears as something of
a mockery from the lips of a man who knew what Charlson
knew about their domestic relations. Indeed there
seemed an odd spark in Charlson’s full black
eye as he said the words; but that might have been
imaginary.
‘And, Mr. Barnet,’ Charlson
resumed, ’that little matter between us I
hope to settle it finally in three weeks at least.’
‘Never mind that now,’
said Barnet abruptly. He directed the surgeon
to go to the harbour in case his services might even
now be necessary there: and himself entered the
house.
The servants were coming from his
wife’s chamber, looking helplessly at each other
and at him. He passed them by and entered the
room, where he stood mutely regarding the bed for
a few minutes, after which he walked into his own
dressing-room adjoining, and there paced up and down.
In a minute or two he noticed what a strange and
total silence had come over the upper part of the
house; his own movements, muffled as they were by
the carpet, seemed noisy, and his thoughts to disturb
the air like articulate utterances. His eye
glanced through the window. Far down the road
to the harbour a roof detained his gaze: out of
it rose a red chimney, and out of the red chimney
a curl of smoke, as from a fire newly kindled.
He had often seen such a sight before. In that
house lived Lucy Savile; and the smoke was from the
fire which was regularly lighted at this time to make
her tea.
After that he went back to the bedroom,
and stood there some time regarding his wife’s
silent form. She was a woman some years older
than himself, but had not by any means overpassed
the maturity of good looks and vigour. Her passionate
features, well-defined, firm, and statuesque in life,
were doubly so now: her mouth and brow, beneath
her purplish black hair, showed only too clearly that
the turbulency of character which had made a bear-garden
of his house had been no temporary phase of her existence.
While he reflected, he suddenly said to himself, I
wonder if all has been done?
The thought was led up to by his having
fancied that his wife’s features lacked in its
complete form the expression which he had been accustomed
to associate with the faces of those whose spirits
have fled for ever. The effacement of life was
not so marked but that, entering uninformed, he might
have supposed her sleeping. Her complexion was
that seen in the numerous faded portraits by Sir Joshua
Reynolds; it was pallid in comparison with life, but
there was visible on a close inspection the remnant
of what had once been a flush; the keeping between
the cheeks and the hollows of the face being thus
preserved, although positive colour was gone.
Long orange rays of evening sun stole in through chinks
in the blind, striking on the large mirror, and being
thence reflected upon the crimson hangings and woodwork
of the heavy bedstead, so that the general tone of
light was remarkably warm; and it was probable that
something might be due to this circumstance.
Still the fact impressed him as strange. Charlson
had been gone more than a quarter of an hour:
could it be possible that he had left too soon, and
that his attempts to restore her had operated so sluggishly
as only now to have made themselves felt? Barnet
laid his hand upon her chest, and fancied that ever
and anon a faint flutter of palpitation, gentle
as that of a butterfly’s wing, disturbed the
stillness there ceasing for a time, then
struggling to go on, then breaking down in weakness
and ceasing again.
Barnet’s mother had been an
active practitioner of the healing art among her poorer
neighbours, and her inspirations had all been derived
from an octavo volume of Domestic Medicine, which
at this moment was lying, as it had lain for many
years, on a shelf in Barnet’s dressing-room.
He hastily fetched it, and there read under the head
’Drowning:’-
’Exertions for the recovery of
any person who has not been immersed for a longer
period than half-an-hour should be continued for at
least four hours, as there have been many cases
in which returning life has made itself visible
even after a longer interval.
’Should, however, a weak action
of any of the organs show itself when the case
seems almost hopeless, our efforts must be redoubled;
the feeble spark in this case requires to be solicited;
it will certainly disappear under a relaxation
of labour.’
Barnet looked at his watch; it was
now barely two hours and a half from the time when
he had first heard of the accident. He threw
aside the book and turned quickly to reach a stimulant
which had previously been used. Pulling up the
blind for more light, his eye glanced out of the window.
There he saw that red chimney still smoking cheerily,
and that roof, and through the roof that somebody.
His mechanical movements stopped, his hand remained
on the blind-cord, and he seemed to become breathless,
as if he had suddenly found himself treading a high
rope.
While he stood a sparrow lighted on
the windowsill, saw him, and flew away. Next
a man and a dog walked over one of the green hills
which bulged above the roofs of the town. But
Barnet took no notice.
We may wonder what were the exact
images that passed through his mind during those minutes
of gazing upon Lucy Savile’s house, the sparrow,
the man and the dog, and Lucy Savile’s house
again. There are honest men who will not admit
to their thoughts, even as idle hypotheses, views of
the future that assume as done a deed which they would
recoil from doing; and there are other honest men
for whom morality ends at the surface of their own
heads, who will deliberate what the first will not
so much as suppose. Barnet had a wife whose
pretence distracted his home; she now lay as in death;
by merely doing nothing by letting the intelligence
which had gone forth to the world lie undisturbed he
would effect such a deliverance for himself as he
had never hoped for, and open up an opportunity of
which till now he had never dreamed. Whether
the conjuncture had arisen through any unscrupulous,
ill-considered impulse of Charlson to help out of
a strait the friend who was so kind as never to press
him for what was due could not be told; there was nothing
to prove it; and it was a question which could never
be asked. The triangular situation himself his
wife Lucy Savile was the one
clear thing.
From Barnet’s actions we may
infer that he supposed such and such a result, for
a moment, but did not deliberate. He withdrew
his hazel eyes from the scene without, calmly turned,
rang the bell for assistance, and vigorously exerted
himself to learn if life still lingered in that motionless
frame. In a short time another surgeon was in
attendance; and then Barnet’s surmise proved
to be true. The slow life timidly heaved again;
but much care and patience were needed to catch and
retain it, and a considerable period elapsed before
it could be said with certainty that Mrs. Barnet lived.
When this was the case, and there was no further room
for doubt, Barnet left the chamber. The blue
evening smoke from Lucy’s chimney had died down
to an imperceptible stream, and as he walked about
downstairs he murmured to himself, ’My wife was
dead, and she is alive again.’
It was not so with Downe. After
three hours’ immersion his wife’s body
had been recovered, life, of course, being quite extinct.
Barnet on descending, went straight to his friend’s
house, and there learned the result. Downe was
helpless in his wild grief, occasionally even hysterical.
Barnet said little, but finding that some guiding
hand was necessary in the sorrow-stricken household,
took upon him to supervise and manage till Downe should
be in a state of mind to do so for himself.
CHAPTER VI
One September evening, four months
later, when Mrs. Barnet was in perfect health, and
Mrs. Downe but a weakening memory, an errand-boy paused
to rest himself in front of Mr. Barnet’s old
house, depositing his basket on one of the window-sills.
The street was not yet lighted, but there were lights
in the house, and at intervals a flitting shadow fell
upon the blind at his elbow. Words also were
audible from the same apartment, and they seemed to
be those of persons in violent altercation. But
the boy could not gather their purport, and he went
on his way.
Ten minutes afterwards the door of
Barnet’s house opened, and a tall closely-veiled
lady in a travelling-dress came out and descended the
freestone steps. The servant stood in the doorway
watching her as she went with a measured tread down
the street. When she had been out of sight for
some minutes Barnet appeared at the door from within.
‘Did your mistress leave word
where she was going?’ he asked.
‘No, sir.’
‘Is the carriage ordered to meet her anywhere?’
‘No, sir.’
‘Did she take a latch-key?’
‘No, sir.’
Barnet went in again, sat down in
his chair, and leaned back. Then in solitude
and silence he brooded over the bitter emotions that
filled his heart. It was for this that he had
gratuitously restored her to life, and made his union
with another impossible! The evening drew on,
and nobody came to disturb him. At bedtime he
told the servants to retire, that he would sit up
for Mrs. Barnet himself; and when they were gone he
leaned his head upon his hand and mused for hours.
The clock struck one, two; still his
wife came not, and, with impatience added to depression,
he went from room to room till another weary hour
had passed. This was not altogether a new experience
for Barnet; but she had never before so prolonged
her absence. At last he sat down again and fell
asleep.
He awoke at six o’clock to find
that she had not returned. In searching about
the rooms he discovered that she had taken a case of
jewels which had been hers before her marriage.
At eight a note was brought him; it was from his
wife, in which she stated that she had gone by the
coach to the house of a distant relative near London,
and expressed a wish that certain boxes, articles
of clothing, and so on, might be sent to her forthwith.
The note was brought to him by a waiter at the Black-Bull
Hotel, and had been written by Mrs. Barnet immediately
before she took her place in the stage.
By the evening this order was carried
out, and Barnet, with a sense of relief, walked out
into the town. A fair had been held during the
day, and the large clear moon which rose over the
most prominent hill flung its light upon the booths
and standings that still remained in the street, mixing
its rays curiously with those from the flaring naphtha
lamps. The town was full of country-people who
had come in to enjoy themselves, and on this account
Barnet strolled through the streets unobserved.
With a certain recklessness he made for the harbour-road,
and presently found himself by the shore, where he
walked on till he came to the spot near which his
friend the kindly Mrs. Downe had lost her life, and
his own wife’s life had been preserved.
A tremulous pathway of bright moonshine now stretched
over the water which had engulfed them, and not a
living soul was near.
Here he ruminated on their characters,
and next on the young girl in whom he now took a more
sensitive interest than at the time when he had been
free to marry her. Nothing, so far as he was
aware, had ever appeared in his own conduct to show
that such an interest existed. He had made it
a point of the utmost strictness to hinder that feeling
from influencing in the faintest degree his attitude
towards his wife; and this was made all the more easy
for him by the small demand Mrs. Barnet made upon his
attentions, for which she ever evinced the greatest
contempt; thus unwittingly giving him the satisfaction
of knowing that their severance owed nothing to jealousy,
or, indeed, to any personal behaviour of his at all.
Her concern was not with him or his feelings, as she
frequently told him; but that she had, in a moment
of weakness, thrown herself away upon a common burgher
when she might have aimed at, and possibly brought
down, a peer of the realm. Her frequent depreciation
of Barnet in these terms had at times been so intense
that he was sorely tempted to retaliate on her egotism
by owning that he loved at the same low level on which
he lived; but prudence had prevailed, for which he
was now thankful.
Something seemed to sound upon the
shingle behind him over and above the raking of the
wave. He looked round, and a slight girlish shape
appeared quite close to him, He could not see her
face because it was in the direction of the moon.
‘Mr. Barnet?’ the rambler
said, in timid surprise. The voice was the voice
of Lucy Savile.
‘Yes,’ said Barnet.
‘How can I repay you for this pleasure?’
‘I only came because the night
was so clear. I am now on my way home.’
’I am glad we have met.
I want to know if you will let me do something for
you, to give me an occupation, as an idle man?
I am sure I ought to help you, for I know you are
almost without friends.’
She hesitated. ‘Why should you tell me
that?’ she said.
‘In the hope that you will be frank with me.’
’I am not altogether without
friends here. But I am going to make a little
change in my life to go out as a teacher
of freehand drawing and practical perspective, of
course I mean on a comparatively humble scale, because
I have not been specially educated for that profession.
But I am sure I shall like it much.’
‘You have an opening?’
‘I have not exactly got it, but I have advertised
for one.’
‘Lucy, you must let me help you!’
‘Not at all.’
’You need not think it would
compromise you, or that I am indifferent to delicacy.
I bear in mind how we stand. It is very unlikely
that you will succeed as teacher of the class you
mention, so let me do something of a different kind
for you. Say what you would like, and it shall
be done.’
’No; if I can’t be a drawing-mistress
or governess, or something of that sort, I shall go
to India and join my brother.’
’I wish I could go abroad, anywhere,
everywhere with you, Lucy, and leave this place and
its associations for ever!’
She played with the end of her bonnet-string,
and hastily turned aside. ‘Don’t
ever touch upon that kind of topic again,’ she
said, with a quick severity not free from anger.
’It simply makes it impossible for me to see
you, much less receive any guidance from you.
No, thank you, Mr. Barnet; you can do nothing for
me at present; and as I suppose my uncertainty will
end in my leaving for India, I fear you never will.
If ever I think you can do anything, I will take
the trouble to ask you. Till then, good-bye.’
The tone of her latter words was equivocal,
and while he remained in doubt whether a gentle irony
was or was not inwrought with their sound, she swept
lightly round and left him alone. He saw her
form get smaller and smaller along the damp belt of
sea-sand between ebb and flood; and when she had vanished
round the cliff into the harbour-road, he himself
followed in the same direction.
That her hopes from an advertisement
should be the single thread which held Lucy Savile
in England was too much for Barnet. On reaching
the town he went straight to the residence of Downe,
now a widower with four children. The young
motherless brood had been sent to bed about a quarter
of an hour earlier, and when Barnet entered he found
Downe sitting alone. It was the same room as
that from which the family had been looking out for
Downe at the beginning of the year, when Downe had
slipped into the gutter and his wife had been so enviably
tender towards him. The old neatness had gone
from the house; articles lay in places which could
show no reason for their presence, as if momentarily
deposited there some months ago, and forgotten ever
since; there were no flowers; things were jumbled
together on the furniture which should have been in
cupboards; and the place in general had that stagnant,
unrenovated air which usually pervades the maimed home
of the widower.
Downe soon renewed his customary full-worded
lament over his wife, and even when he had worked
himself up to tears, went on volubly, as if a listener
were a luxury to be enjoyed whenever he could be caught.
’She was a treasure beyond compare,
Mr. Barnet! I shall never see such another.
Nobody now to nurse me nobody to console
me in those daily troubles, you know, Barnet, which
make consolation so necessary to a nature like mine.
It would be unbecoming to repine, for her spirit’s
home was elsewhere the tender light in her
eyes always showed it; but it is a long dreary time
that I have before me, and nobody else can ever fill
the void left in my heart by her loss nobody nobody!’
And Downe wiped his eyes again.
‘She was a good woman in the
highest sense,’ gravely answered Barnet, who,
though Downe’s words drew genuine compassion
from his heart, could not help feeling that a tender
reticence would have been a finer tribute to Mrs.
Downe’s really sterling virtues than such a second-class
lament as this.
‘I have something to show you,’
Downe resumed, producing from a drawer a sheet of
paper on which was an elaborate design for a canopied
tomb. ’This has been sent me by the architect,
but it is not exactly what I want.’
’You have got Jones to do it,
I see, the man who is carrying out my house,’
said Barnet, as he glanced at the signature to the
drawing.
’Yes, but it is not quite what
I want. I want something more striking more
like a tomb I have seen in St. Paul’s Cathedral.
Nothing less will do justice to my feelings, and
how far short of them that will fall!’
Barnet privately thought the design
a sufficiently imposing one as it stood, even extravagantly
ornate; but, feeling that he had no right to criticize,
he said gently, ’Downe, should you not live more
in your children’s lives at the present time,
and soften the sharpness of regret for your own past
by thinking of their future?’
‘Yes, yes; but what can I do
more?’ asked Downe, wrinkling his forehead hopelessly.
It was with anxious slowness that
Barnet produced his reply the secret object
of his visit to-night. ’Did you not say
one day that you ought by rights to get a governess
for the children?’
Downe admitted that he had said so,
but that he could not see his way to it. ‘The
kind of woman I should like to have,’ he said,
’would be rather beyond my means. No;
I think I shall send them to school in the town when
they are old enough to go out alone.’
’Now, I know of something better
than that. The late Lieutenant Savile’s
daughter, Lucy, wants to do something for herself in
the way of teaching. She would be inexpensive,
and would answer your purpose as well as anybody for
six or twelve months. She would probably come
daily if you were to ask her, and so your housekeeping
arrangements would not be much affected.’
‘I thought she had gone away,’
said the solicitor, musing. ’Where does
she live?’
Barnet told him, and added that, if
Downe should think of her as suitable, he would do
well to call as soon as possible, or she might be
on the wing. ‘If you do see her,’
he said, ’it would be advisable not to mention
my name. She is rather stiff in her ideas of
me, and it might prejudice her against a course if
she knew that I recommended it.’
Downe promised to give the subject
his consideration, and nothing more was said about
it just then. But when Barnet rose to go, which
was not till nearly bedtime, he reminded Downe of
the suggestion and went up the street to his own solitary
home with a sense of satisfaction at his promising
diplomacy in a charitable cause.
CHAPTER VII
The walls of his new house were carried
up nearly to their full height. By a curious
though not infrequent reaction, Barnet’s feelings
about that unnecessary structure had undergone a change;
he took considerable interest in its progress as a
long-neglected thing, his wife before her departure
having grown quite weary of it as a hobby. Moreover,
it was an excellent distraction for a man in the unhappy
position of having to live in a provincial town with
nothing to do. He was probably the first of
his line who had ever passed a day without toil, and
perhaps something like an inherited instinct disqualifies
such men for a life of pleasant inaction, such as
lies in the power of those whose leisure is not a
personal accident, but a vast historical accretion
which has become part of their natures.
Thus Barnet got into a way of spending
many of his leisure hours on the site of the new building,
and he might have been seen on most days at this time
trying the temper of the mortar by punching the joints
with his stick, looking at the grain of a floor-board,
and meditating where it grew, or picturing under what
circumstances the last fire would be kindled in the
at present sootless chimneys. One day when thus
occupied he saw three children pass by in the company
of a fair young woman, whose sudden appearance caused
him to flush perceptibly.
‘Ah, she is there,’ he thought.
‘That’s a blessed thing.’
Casting an interested glance over
the rising building and the busy workmen, Lucy Savile
and the little Downes passed by; and after that time
it became a regular though almost unconscious custom
of Barnet to stand in the half-completed house and
look from the ungarnished windows at the governess
as she tripped towards the sea-shore with her young
charges, which she was in the habit of doing on most
fine afternoons. It was on one of these occasions,
when he had been loitering on the first-floor landing,
near the hole left for the staircase, not yet erected,
that there appeared above the edge of the floor a
little hat, followed by a little head.
Barnet withdrew through a doorway,
and the child came to the top of the ladder, stepping
on to the floor and crying to her sisters and Miss
Savile to follow. Another head rose above the
floor, and another, and then Lucy herself came into
view. The troop ran hither and thither through
the empty, shaving-strewn rooms, and Barnet came forward.
Lucy uttered a small exclamation:
she was very sorry that she had intruded; she had
not the least idea that Mr. Barnet was there:
the children had come up, and she had followed.
Barnet replied that he was only too
glad to see them there. ’And now, let
me show you the rooms,’ he said.
She passively assented, and he took
her round. There was not much to show in such
a bare skeleton of a house, but he made the most of
it, and explained the different ornamental fittings
that were soon to be fixed here and there. Lucy
made but few remarks in reply, though she seemed pleased
with her visit, and stole away down the ladder, followed
by her companions.
After this the new residence became
yet more of a hobby for Barnet. Downe’s
children did not forget their first visit, and when
the windows were glazed, and the handsome staircase
spread its broad low steps into the hall, they came
again, prancing in unwearied succession through every
room from ground-floor to attics, while Lucy stood
waiting for them at the door. Barnet, who rarely
missed a day in coming to inspect progress, stepped
out from the drawing-room.
‘I could not keep them out,’
she said, with an apologetic blush. ’I
tried to do so very much: but they are rather
wilful, and we are directed to walk this way for the
sea air.’
‘Do let them make the house
their regular playground, and you yours,’ said
Barnet. ’There is no better place for children
to romp and take their exercise in than an empty house,
particularly in muddy or damp weather such as we shall
get a good deal of now; and this place will not be
furnished for a long long time perhaps never.
I am not at all decided about it.’
‘O, but it must!’ replied
Lucy, looking round at the hall. ’The rooms
are excellent, twice as high as ours; and the views
from the windows are so lovely.’
‘I daresay, I daresay,’ he said absently.
‘Will all the furniture be new?’ she asked.
’All the furniture be new that’s
a thing I have not thought of. In fact I only
come here and look on. My father’s house
would have been large enough for me, but another person
had a voice in the matter, and it was settled that
we should build. However, the place grows upon
me; its recent associations are cheerful, and I am
getting to like it fast.’
A certain uneasiness in Lucy’s
manner showed that the conversation was taking too
personal a turn for her. ’Still, as modern
tastes develop, people require more room to gratify
them in,’ she said, withdrawing to call the
children; and serenely bidding him good afternoon she
went on her way.
Barnet’s life at this period
was singularly lonely, and yet he was happier than
he could have expected. His wife’s estrangement
and absence, which promised to be permanent, left
him free as a boy in his movements, and the solitary
walks that he took gave him ample opportunity for
chastened reflection on what might have been his lot
if he had only shown wisdom enough to claim Lucy Savile
when there was no bar between their lives, and she
was to be had for the asking. He would occasionally
call at the house of his friend Downe; but there was
scarcely enough in common between their two natures
to make them more than friends of that excellent sort
whose personal knowledge of each other’s history
and character is always in excess of intimacy, whereby
they are not so likely to be severed by a clash of
sentiment as in cases where intimacy springs up in
excess of knowledge. Lucy was never visible at
these times, being either engaged in the school-room,
or in taking an airing out of doors; but, knowing
that she was now comfortable, and had given up the,
to him, depressing idea of going off to the other
side of the globe, he was quite content.
The new house had so far progressed
that the gardeners were beginning to grass down the
front. During an afternoon which he was passing
in marking the curve for the carriage-drive, he beheld
her coming in boldly towards him from the road.
Hitherto Barnet had only caught her on the premises
by stealth; and this advance seemed to show that at
last her reserve had broken down.
A smile gained strength upon her face
as she approached, and it was quite radiant when she
came up, and said, without a trace of embarrassment,
’I find I owe you a hundred thanks and
it comes to me quite as a surprise! It was through
your kindness that I was engaged by Mr. Downe.
Believe me, Mr. Barnet, I did not know it until yesterday,
or I should have thanked you long and long ago!’
‘I had offended you just
a trifle at the time, I think?’ said
Barnet, smiling, ‘and it was best that you should
not know.’
‘Yes, yes,’ she returned
hastily. ’Don’t allude to that; it
is past and over, and we will let it be. The
house is finished almost, is it not? How beautiful
it will look when the evergreens are grown! Do
you call the style Palladian, Mr. Barnet?’
’I really don’t
quite know what it is. Yes, it must be Palladian,
certainly. But I’ll ask Jones, the architect;
for, to tell the truth, I had not thought much about
the style: I had nothing to do with choosing
it, I am sorry to say.’
She would not let him harp on this
gloomy refrain, and talked on bright matters till
she said, producing a small roll of paper which he
had noticed in her hand all the while, ’Mr.
Downe wished me to bring you this revised drawing
of the late Mrs. Downe’s tomb, which the architect
has just sent him. He would like you to look
it over.’
The children came up with their hoops,
and she went off with them down the harbour-road as
usual. Barnet had been glad to get those words
of thanks; he had been thinking for many months that
he would like her to know of his share in finding
her a home such as it was; and what he could not do
for himself, Downe had now kindly done for him.
He returned to his desolate house with a lighter
tread; though in reason he hardly knew why his tread
should be light.
On examining the drawing, Barnet found
that, instead of the vast altar-tomb and canopy Downe
had determined on at their last meeting, it was to
be a more modest memorial even than had been suggested
by the architect; a coped tomb of good solid construction,
with no useless elaboration at all. Barnet was
truly glad to see that Downe had come to reason of
his own accord; and he returned the drawing with a
note of approval.
He followed up the house-work as before,
and as he walked up and down the rooms, occasionally
gazing from the windows over the bulging green hills
and the quiet harbour that lay between them, he murmured
words and fragments of words, which, if listened to,
would have revealed all the secrets of his existence.
Whatever his reason in going there, Lucy did not
call again: the walk to the shore seemed to be
abandoned: he must have thought it as well for
both that it should be so, for he did not go anywhere
out of his accustomed ways to endeavour to discover
her.
CHAPTER VIII
The winter and the spring had passed,
and the house was complete. It was a fine morning
in the early part of June, and Barnet, though not in
the habit of rising early, had taken a long walk before
breakfast; returning by way of the new building.
A sufficiently exciting cause of his restlessness
to-day might have been the intelligence which had reached
him the night before, that Lucy Savile was going to
India after all, and notwithstanding the representations
of her friends that such a journey was unadvisable
in many ways for an unpractised girl, unless some more
definite advantage lay at the end of it than she could
show to be the case. Barnet’s walk up
the slope to the building betrayed that he was in
a dissatisfied mood. He hardly saw that the dewy
time of day lent an unusual freshness to the bushes
and trees which had so recently put on their summer
habit of heavy leafage, and made his newly-laid lawn
look as well established as an old manorial meadow.
The house had been so adroitly placed between six
tall elms which were growing on the site beforehand,
that they seemed like real ancestral trees; and the
rooks, young and old, cawed melodiously to their visitor.
The door was not locked, and he entered.
No workmen appeared to be present, and he walked
from sunny window to sunny window of the empty rooms,
with a sense of seclusion which might have been very
pleasant but for the antecedent knowledge that his
almost paternal care of Lucy Savile was to be thrown
away by her wilfulness. Footsteps echoed through
an adjoining room; and bending his eyes in that direction,
he perceived Mr. Jones, the architect. He had
come to look over the building before giving the contractor
his final certificate. They walked over the house
together. Everything was finished except the
papering: there were the latest improvements
of the period in bell-hanging, ventilating, smoke-jacks,
fire-grates, and French windows. The business
was soon ended, and Jones, having directed Barnet’s
attention to a roll of wall-paper patterns which lay
on a bench for his choice, was leaving to keep another
engagement, when Barnet said, ‘Is the tomb finished
yet for Mrs. Downe?’
‘Well yes: it
is at last,’ said the architect, coming back
and speaking as if he were in a mood to make a confidence.
’I have had no end of trouble in the matter,
and, to tell the truth, I am heartily glad it is over.’
Barnet expressed his surprise.
’I thought poor Downe had given up those extravagant
notions of his? then he has gone back to the altar
and canopy after all? Well, he is to be excused,
poor fellow!’
‘O no he has not
at all gone back to them quite the reverse,’
Jones hastened to say. ’He has so reduced
design after design, that the whole thing has been
nothing but waste labour for me; till in the end it
has become a common headstone, which a mason put up
in half a day.’
‘A common headstone?’ said Barnet.
’Yes. I held out for some
time for the addition of a footstone at least.
But he said, “O no he couldn’t
afford it."’
’Ah, well his family
is growing up, poor fellow, and his expenses are getting
serious.’
‘Yes, exactly,’ said Jones,
as if the subject were none of his. And again
directing Barnet’s attention to the wall-papers,
the bustling architect left him to keep some other
engagement.
‘A common headstone,’
murmured Barnet, left again to himself. He mused
a minute or two, and next began looking over and selecting
from the patterns; but had not long been engaged in
the work when he heard another footstep on the gravel
without, and somebody enter the open porch.
Barnet went to the door it
was his manservant in search of him.
‘I have been trying for some
time to find you, sir,’ he said. ’This
letter has come by the post, and it is marked immediate.
And there’s this one from Mr. Downe, who called
just now wanting to see you.’ He searched
his pocket for the second.
Barnet took the first letter it
had a black border, and bore the London postmark.
It was not in his wife’s handwriting, or in
that of any person he knew; but conjecture soon ceased
as he read the page, wherein he was briefly informed
that Mrs. Barnet had died suddenly on the previous
day, at the furnished villa she had occupied near
London.
Barnet looked vaguely round the empty
hall, at the blank walls, out of the doorway.
Drawing a long palpitating breath, and with eyes downcast,
he turned and climbed the stairs slowly, like a man
who doubted their stability. The fact of his
wife having, as it were, died once already, and lived
on again, had entirely dislodged the possibility of
her actual death from his conjecture. He went
to the landing, leant over the balusters, and after
a reverie, of whose duration he had but the faintest
notion, turned to the window and stretched his gaze
to the cottage further down the road, which was visible
from his landing, and from which Lucy still walked
to the solicitor’s house by a cross path.
The faint words that came from his moving lips were
simply, ‘At last!’
Then, almost involuntarily, Barnet
fell down on his knees and murmured some incoherent
words of thanksgiving. Surely his virtue in restoring
his wife to life had been rewarded! But, as if
the impulse struck uneasily on his conscience, he
quickly rose, brushed the dust from his trousers and
set himself to think of his next movements. He
could not start for London for some hours; and as
he had no preparations to make that could not be made
in half-an-hour, he mechanically descended and resumed
his occupation of turning over the wall-papers.
They had all got brighter for him, those papers.
It was all changed who would sit in the
rooms that they were to line? He went on to muse
upon Lucy’s conduct in so frequently coming
to the house with the children; her occasional blush
in speaking to him; her evident interest in him.
What woman can in the long run avoid being interested
in a man whom she knows to be devoted to her?
If human solicitation could ever effect anything,
there should be no going to India for Lucy now.
All the papers previously chosen seemed wrong in
their shades, and he began from the beginning to choose
again.
While entering on the task he heard
a forced ‘Ahem!’ from without the porch,
evidently uttered to attract his attention, and footsteps
again advancing to the door. His man, whom he
had quite forgotten in his mental turmoil, was still
waiting there.
‘I beg your pardon, sir,’
the man said from round the doorway; ’but here’s
the note from Mr. Downe that you didn’t take.
He called just after you went out, and as he couldn’t
wait, he wrote this on your study-table.’
He handed in the letter no
black-bordered one now, but a practical-looking note
in the well-known writing of the solicitor.
’Dear Barnet’ it
ran ’Perhaps you will be prepared
for the information I am about to give that
Lucy Savile and myself are going to be married
this morning. I have hitherto said nothing as
to my intention to any of my friends, for reasons
which I am sure you will fully appreciate.
The crisis has been brought about by her expressing
her intention to join her brother in India.
I then discovered that I could not do without
her.
’It is to be quite a private wedding;
but it is my particular wish that you come down
here quietly at ten, and go to church with us; it
will add greatly to the pleasure I shall experience
in the ceremony, and, I believe, to Lucy’s
also. I have called on you very early to make
the request, in the belief that I should find you at
home; but you are beforehand with me in your early
rising. Yours sincerely, C. Downe.’
‘Need I wait, sir?’ said the servant after
a dead silence.
‘That will do, William. No answer,’
said Barnet calmly.
When the man had gone Barnet re-read
the letter. Turning eventually to the wall-papers,
which he had been at such pains to select, he deliberately
tore them into halves and quarters, and threw them
into the empty fireplace. Then he went out of
the house; locked the door, and stood in the front
awhile. Instead of returning into the town, he
went down the harbour-road and thoughtfully lingered
about by the sea, near the spot where the body of
Downe’s late wife had been found and brought
ashore.
Barnet was a man with a rich capacity
for misery, and there is no doubt that he exercised
it to its fullest extent now. The events that
had, as it were, dashed themselves together into one
half-hour of this day showed that curious refinement
of cruelty in their arrangement which often proceeds
from the bosom of the whimsical god at other times
known as blind Circumstance. That his few minutes
of hope, between the reading of the first and second
letters, had carried him to extraordinary heights of
rapture was proved by the immensity of his suffering
now. The sun blazing into his face would have
shown a close watcher that a horizontal line, which
he had never noticed before, but which was never to
be gone thereafter, was somehow gradually forming
itself in the smooth of his forehead. His eyes,
of a light hazel, had a curious look which can only
be described by the word bruised; the sorrow that looked
from them being largely mixed with the surprise of
a man taken unawares.
The secondary particulars of his present
position, too, were odd enough, though for some time
they appeared to engage little of his attention.
Not a soul in the town knew, as yet, of his wife’s
death; and he almost owed Downe the kindness of not
publishing it till the day was over: the conjuncture,
taken with that which had accompanied the death of
Mrs. Downe, being so singular as to be quite sufficient
to darken the pleasure of the impressionable solicitor
to a cruel extent, if made known to him. But
as Barnet could not set out on his journey to London,
where his wife lay, for some hours (there being at
this date no railway within a distance of many miles),
no great reason existed why he should leave the town.
Impulse in all its forms characterized
Barnet, and when he heard the distant clock strike
the hour of ten his feet began to carry him up the
harbour-road with the manner of a man who must do something
to bring himself to life. He passed Lucy Savile’s
old house, his own new one, and came in view of the
church. Now he gave a perceptible start, and
his mechanical condition went away. Before the
church-gate were a couple of carriages, and Barnet
then could perceive that the marriage between Downe
and Lucy was at that moment being solemnized within.
A feeling of sudden, proud self-confidence, an indocile
wish to walk unmoved in spite of grim environments,
plainly possessed him, and when he reached the wicket-gate
he turned in without apparent effort. Pacing
up the paved footway he entered the church and stood
for a while in the nave passage. A group of people
was standing round the vestry door; Barnet advanced
through these and stepped into the vestry.
There they were, busily signing their
names. Seeing Downe about to look round, Barnet
averted his somewhat disturbed face for a second or
two; when he turned again front to front he was calm
and quite smiling; it was a creditable triumph over
himself, and deserved to be remembered in his native
town. He greeted Downe heartily, offering his
congratulations.
It seemed as if Barnet expected a
half-guilty look upon Lucy’s face; but no, save
the natural flush and flurry engendered by the service
just performed, there was nothing whatever in her
bearing which showed a disturbed mind: her gray-brown
eyes carried in them now as at other times the well-known
expression of common-sensed rectitude which never went
so far as to touch on hardness. She shook hands
with him, and Downe said warmly, ’I wish you
could have come sooner: I called on purpose to
ask you. You’ll drive back with us now?’
‘No, no,’ said Barnet;
’I am not at all prepared; but I thought I would
look in upon you for a moment, even though I had not
time to go home and dress. I’ll stand
back and see you pass out, and observe the effect of
the spectacle upon myself as one of the public.’
Then Lucy and her husband laughed,
and Barnet laughed and retired; and the quiet little
party went gliding down the nave and towards the porch,
Lucy’s new silk dress sweeping with a smart rustle
round the base-mouldings of the ancient font, and
Downe’s little daughters following in a state
of round-eyed interest in their position, and that
of Lucy, their teacher and friend.
So Downe was comforted after his Emily’s
death, which had taken place twelve months, two weeks,
and three days before that time.
When the two flys had driven off and
the spectators had vanished, Barnet followed to the
door, and went out into the sun. He took no more
trouble to preserve a spruce exterior; his step was
unequal, hesitating, almost convulsive; and the slight
changes of colour which went on in his face seemed
refracted from some inward flame. In the churchyard
he became pale as a summer cloud, and finding it not
easy to proceed he sat down on one of the tombstones
and supported his head with his hand.
Hard by was a sexton filling up a
grave which he had not found time to finish on the
previous evening. Observing Barnet, he went up
to him, and recognizing him, said, ‘Shall I
help you home, sir?’
‘O no, thank you,’ said
Barnet, rousing himself and standing up. The
sexton returned to his grave, followed by Barnet, who,
after watching him awhile, stepped into the grave,
now nearly filled, and helped to tread in the earth.
The sexton apparently thought his
conduct a little singular, but he made no observation,
and when the grave was full, Barnet suddenly stopped,
looked far away, and with a decided step proceeded
to the gate and vanished. The sexton rested
on his shovel and looked after him for a few moments,
and then began banking up the mound.
In those short minutes of treading
in the dead man Barnet had formed a design, but what
it was the inhabitants of that town did not for some
long time imagine. He went home, wrote several
letters of business, called on his lawyer, an old
man of the same place who had been the legal adviser
of Barnet’s father before him, and during the
evening overhauled a large quantity of letters and
other documents in his possession. By eleven
o’clock the heap of papers in and before Barnet’s
grate had reached formidable dimensions, and he began
to burn them. This, owing to their quantity,
it was not so easy to do as he had expected, and he
sat long into the night to complete the task.
The next morning Barnet departed for
London, leaving a note for Downe to inform him of
Mrs. Barnet’s sudden death, and that he was gone
to bury her; but when a thrice-sufficient time for
that purpose had elapsed, he was not seen again in
his accustomed walks, or in his new house, or in his
old one. He was gone for good, nobody knew whither.
It was soon discovered that he had empowered his
lawyer to dispose of all his property, real and personal,
in the borough, and pay in the proceeds to the account
of an unknown person at one of the large London banks.
The person was by some supposed to be himself under
an assumed name; but few, if any, had certain knowledge
of that fact.
The elegant new residence was sold
with the rest of his possessions; and its purchaser
was no other than Downe, now a thriving man in the
borough, and one whose growing family and new wife
required more roomy accommodation than was afforded
by the little house up the narrow side street.
Barnet’s old habitation was bought by the trustees
of the Congregational Baptist body in that town, who
pulled down the time-honoured dwelling and built a
new chapel on its site. By the time the last
hour of that, to Barnet, eventful year had chimed,
every vestige of him had disappeared from the precincts
of his native place, and the name became extinct in
the borough of Port-Bredy, after having been a living
force therein for more than two hundred years.
CHAPTER IX
Twenty-one years and six months do
not pass without setting a mark even upon durable
stone and triple brass; upon humanity such a period
works nothing less than transformation. In Barnet’s
old birthplace vivacious young children with bones
like india-rubber had grown up to be stable men and
women, men and women had dried in the skin, stiffened,
withered, and sunk into decrepitude; while selections
from every class had been consigned to the outlying
cemetery. Of inorganic differences the greatest
was that a railway had invaded the town, tying it on
to a main line at a junction a dozen miles off.
Barnet’s house on the harbour-road, once so
insistently new, had acquired a respectable mellowness,
with ivy, Virginia creepers, lichens, damp patches,
and even constitutional infirmities of its own like
its elder fellows. Its architecture, once so
very improved and modern, had already become stale
in style, without having reached the dignity of being
old-fashioned. Trees about the harbour-road had
increased in circumference or disappeared under the
saw; while the church had had such a tremendous practical
joke played upon it by some facetious restorer or other
as to be scarce recognizable by its dearest old friends.
During this long interval George Barnet
had never once been seen or heard of in the town of
his fathers.
It was the evening of a market-day,
and some half-dozen middle-aged farmers and dairymen
were lounging round the bar of the Black-Bull Hotel,
occasionally dropping a remark to each other, and less
frequently to the two barmaids who stood within
the pewter-topped counter in a perfunctory attitude
of attention, these latter sighing and making a private
observation to one another at odd intervals, on more
interesting experiences than the present.
‘Days get shorter,’ said
one of the dairymen, as he looked towards the street,
and noticed that the lamp-lighter was passing by.
The farmers merely acknowledged by
their countenances the propriety of this remark, and
finding that nobody else spoke, one of the barmaids
said ‘yes,’ in a tone of painful duty.
‘Come fair-day we shall have
to light up before we start for home-along.’
‘That’s true,’ his
neighbour conceded, with a gaze of blankness.
‘And after that we shan’t
see much further difference all’s winter.’
The rest were not unwilling to go even so far as this.
The barmaid sighed again, and raised
one of her hands from the counter on which they rested
to scratch the smallest surface of her face with the
smallest of her fingers. She looked towards the
door, and presently remarked, ’I think I hear
the ‘bus coming in from station.’
The eyes of the dairymen and farmers
turned to the glass door dividing the hall from the
porch, and in a minute or two the omnibus drew up
outside. Then there was a lumbering down of luggage,
and then a man came into the hall, followed by a porter
with a portmanteau on his poll, which he deposited
on a bench.
The stranger was an elderly person,
with curly ashen white hair, a deeply-creviced outer
corner to each eyelid, and a countenance baked by
innumerable suns to the colour of terra-cotta,
its hue and that of his hair contrasting like heat
and cold respectively. He walked meditatively
and gently, like one who was fearful of disturbing
his own mental equilibrium. But whatever lay
at the bottom of his breast had evidently made him
so accustomed to its situation there that it caused
him little practical inconvenience.
He paused in silence while, with his
dubious eyes fixed on the barmaids, he seemed
to consider himself. In a moment or two he addressed
them, and asked to be accommodated for the night.
As he waited he looked curiously round the hall,
but said nothing. As soon as invited he disappeared
up the staircase, preceded by a chambermaid and candle,
and followed by a lad with his trunk. Not a
soul had recognized him.
A quarter of an hour later, when the
farmers and dairymen had driven off to their homesteads
in the country, he came downstairs, took a biscuit
and one glass of wine, and walked out into the town,
where the radiance from the shop-windows had grown
so in volume of late years as to flood with cheerfulness
every standing cart, barrow, stall, and idler that
occupied the wayside, whether shabby or genteel.
His chief interest at present seemed to lie in the
names painted over the shop-fronts and on door-ways,
as far as they were visible; these now differed to
an ominous extent from what they had been one-and-twenty
years before.
The traveller passed on till he came
to the bookseller’s, where he looked in through
the glass door. A fresh-faced young man was standing
behind the counter, otherwise the shop was empty.
The gray-haired observer entered, asked for some
periodical by way of paying for admission, and with
his elbow on the counter began to turn over the pages
he had bought, though that he read nothing was obvious.
At length he said, ‘Is old Mr.
Watkins still alive?’ in a voice which had a
curious youthful cadence in it even now.
‘My father is dead, sir,’ said the young
man.
‘Ah, I am sorry to hear it,’
said the stranger. ’But it is so many years
since I last visited this town that I could hardly
expect it should be otherwise.’ After
a short silence he continued ’And
is the firm of Barnet, Browse, and Company still in
existence? they used to be large flax-merchants
and twine-spinners here?’
’The firm is still going on,
sir, but they have dropped the name of Barnet.
I believe that was a sort of fancy name at
least, I never knew of any living Barnet. ‘Tis
now Browse and Co.’
‘And does Andrew Jones still keep on as architect?’
‘He’s dead, sir.’
‘And the Vicar of St. Mary’s Mr.
Melrose?’
‘He’s been dead a great many years.’
‘Dear me!’ He paused
yet longer, and cleared his voice. ’Is
Mr. Downe, the solicitor, still in practice?’
‘No, sir, he’s dead. He died about
seven years ago.’
Here it was a longer silence still;
and an attentive observer would have noticed that
the paper in the stranger’s hand increased its
imperceptible tremor to a visible shake. That
gray-haired gentleman noticed it himself, and rested
the paper on the counter. ’Is Mrs. Downe
still alive?’ he asked, closing his lips firmly
as soon as the words were out of his mouth, and dropping
his eyes.
‘Yes, sir, she’s alive and well.
She’s living at the old place.’
‘In East Street?’
’O no; at Chateau Ringdale.
I believe it has been in the family for some generations.’
‘She lives with her children, perhaps?’
’No; she has no children of
her own. There were some Miss Downes; I think
they were Mr. Downe’s daughters by a former wife;
but they are married and living in other parts of
the town. Mrs. Downe lives alone.’
‘Quite alone?’
‘Yes, sir; quite alone.’
The newly-arrived gentleman went back
to the hotel and dined; after which he made some change
in his dress, shaved back his beard to the fashion
that had prevailed twenty years earlier, when he was
young and interesting, and once more emerging, bent
his steps in the direction of the harbour-road.
Just before getting to the point where the pavement
ceased and the houses isolated themselves, he overtook
a shambling, stooping, unshaven man, who at first
sight appeared like a professional tramp, his shoulders
having a perceptible greasiness as they passed under
the gaslight. Each pedestrian momentarily turned
and regarded the other, and the tramp-like gentleman
started back.
’Good why is that Mr.
Barnet? ‘Tis Mr. Barnet, surely!’
‘Yes; and you are Charlson?’
’Yes ah you
notice my appearance. The Fates have rather ill-used
me. By-the-bye, that fifty pounds. I never
paid it, did I? . . . But I was not ungrateful!’
Here the stooping man laid one hand emphatically on
the palm of the other. ’I gave you a chance,
Mr. George Barnet, which many men would have thought
full value received the chance to marry
your Lucy. As far as the world was concerned,
your wife was a drowned woman, hey?’
‘Heaven forbid all that, Charlson!’
’Well, well, ’twas a wrong
way of showing gratitude, I suppose. And now
a drop of something to drink for old acquaintance’
sake! And Mr. Barnet, she’s again free there’s
a chance now if you care for it ha, ha!’
And the speaker pushed his tongue into his hollow
cheek and slanted his eye in the old fashion.
‘I know all,’ said Barnet
quickly; and slipping a small present into the hands
of the needy, saddening man, he stepped ahead and was
soon in the outskirts of the town.
He reached the harbour-road, and paused
before the entrance to a well-known house.
It was so highly bosomed in trees and shrubs planted
since the erection of the building that one would
scarcely have recognized the spot as that which had
been a mere neglected slope till chosen as a site
for a dwelling. He opened the swing-gate, closed
it noiselessly, and gently moved into the semicircular
drive, which remained exactly as it had been marked
out by Barnet on the morning when Lucy Savile ran in
to thank him for procuring her the post of governess
to Downe’s children. But the growth of
trees and bushes which revealed itself at every step
was beyond all expectation; sun-proof and moon-proof
bowers vaulted the walks, and the walls of the house
were uniformly bearded with creeping plants as high
as the first-floor windows.
After lingering for a few minutes
in the dusk of the bending boughs, the visitor rang
the door-bell, and on the servant appearing, he announced
himself as ‘an old friend of Mrs. Downe’s.’
The hall was lighted, but not brightly,
the gas being turned low, as if visitors were rare.
There was a stagnation in the dwelling; it seemed
to be waiting. Could it really be waiting for
him? The partitions which had been probed by
Barnet’s walking-stick when the mortar was green,
were now quite brown with the antiquity of their varnish,
and the ornamental woodwork of the staircase, which
had glistened with a pale yellow newness when first
erected, was now of a rich wine-colour. During
the servant’s absence the following colloquy
could be dimly heard through the nearly closed door
of the drawing-room.
‘He didn’t give his name?’
‘He only said “an old friend,” ma’am.’
‘What kind of gentleman is he?’
‘A staidish gentleman, with gray hair.’
The voice of the second speaker seemed
to affect the listener greatly. After a pause,
the lady said, ‘Very well, I will see him.’
And the stranger was shown in face
to face with the Lucy who had once been Lucy Savile.
The round cheek of that formerly young lady had, of
course, alarmingly flattened its curve in her modern
representative; a pervasive grayness overspread her
once dark brown hair, like morning rime on heather.
The parting down the middle was wide and jagged; once
it had been a thin white line, a narrow crevice between
two high banks of shade. But there was still
enough left to form a handsome knob behind, and some
curls beneath inwrought with a few hairs like silver
wires were very becoming. In her eyes the only
modification was that their originally mild rectitude
of expression had become a little more stringent than
heretofore. Yet she was still girlish a
girl who had been gratuitously weighted by destiny
with a burden of five-and-forty years instead of her
proper twenty.
‘Lucy, don’t you know me?’ he said,
when the servant had closed the door.
‘I knew you the instant I saw
you!’ she returned cheerfully. ’I
don’t know why, but I always thought you would
come back to your old town again.’
She gave him her hand, and then they
sat down. ’They said you were dead,’
continued Lucy, ’but I never thought so.
We should have heard of it for certain if you had
been.’
‘It is a very long time since we met.’
’Yes; what you must have seen,
Mr. Barnet, in all these roving years, in comparison
with what I have seen in this quiet place!’
Her face grew more serious. ’You know
my husband has been dead a long time? I am a
lonely old woman now, considering what I have been;
though Mr. Downe’s daughters all
married manage to keep me pretty cheerful.’
‘And I am a lonely old man,
and have been any time these twenty years.’
’But where have you kept yourself?
And why did you go off so mysteriously?’
’Well, Lucy, I have kept myself
a little in America, and a little in Australia, a
little in India, a little at the Cape, and so on; I
have not stayed in any place for a long time, as it
seems to me, and yet more than twenty years have flown.
But when people get to my age two years go like one! Your
second question, why did I go away so mysteriously,
is surely not necessary. You guessed why, didn’t
you?’
‘No, I never once guessed,’
she said simply; ’nor did Charles, nor did anybody
as far as I know.’
’Well, indeed! Now think
it over again, and then look at me, and say if you
can’t guess?’
She looked him in the face with an
inquiring smile. ’Surely not because of
me?’ she said, pausing at the commencement of
surprise.
Barnet nodded, and smiled again; but
his smile was sadder than hers.
‘Because I married Charles?’ she asked.
’Yes; solely because you married
him on the day I was free to ask you to marry me.
My wife died four-and-twenty hours before you went
to church with Downe. The fixing of my journey
at that particular moment was because of her funeral;
but once away I knew I should have no inducement to
come back, and took my steps accordingly.’
Her face assumed an aspect of gentle
reflection, and she looked up and down his form with
great interest in her eyes. ‘I never thought
of it!’ she said. ’I knew, of course,
that you had once implied some warmth of feeling towards
me, but I concluded that it passed off. And I
have always been under the impression that your wife
was alive at the time of my marriage. Was it
not stupid of me! But you will have some
tea or something? I have never dined late, you
know, since my husband’s death. I have
got into the way of making a regular meal of tea.
You will have some tea with me, will you not?’
The travelled man assented quite readily,
and tea was brought in. They sat and chatted
over the meal, regardless of the flying hour.
’Well, well!’ said Barnet presently,
as for the first time he leisurely surveyed the room;
’how like it all is, and yet how different!
Just where your piano stands was a board on a couple
of trestles, bearing the patterns of wall-papers,
when I was last here. I was choosing them standing
in this way, as it might be. Then my servant
came in at the door, and handed me a note, so.
It was from Downe, and announced that you were just
going to be married to him. I chose no more
wall-papers tore up all those I had selected,
and left the house. I never entered it again
till now.’
‘Ah, at last I understand it all,’ she
murmured.
They had both risen and gone to the
fireplace. The mantel came almost on a level
with her shoulder, which gently rested against it,
and Barnet laid his hand upon the shelf close beside
her shoulder. ‘Lucy,’ he said, ‘better
late than never. Will you marry me now?’
She started back, and the surprise
which was so obvious in her wrought even greater surprise
in him that it should be so. It was difficult
to believe that she had been quite blind to the situation,
and yet all reason and common sense went to prove
that she was not acting.
‘You take me quite unawares
by such a question!’ she said, with a forced
laugh of uneasiness. It was the first time she
had shown any embarrassment at all. ‘Why,’
she added, ’I couldn’t marry you for the
world.’
‘Not after all this! Why not?’
’It is I would I
really think I may say it I would upon the
whole rather marry you, Mr. Barnet, than any other
man I have ever met, if I ever dreamed of marriage
again. But I don’t dream of it it
is quite out of my thoughts; I have not the least
intention of marrying again.’
‘But on my account couldn’t
you alter your plans a little? Come!’
‘Dear Mr. Barnet,’ she
said with a little flutter, ’I would on your
account if on anybody’s in existence. But
you don’t know in the least what it is you are
asking such an impracticable thing I
won’t say ridiculous, of course, because I see
that you are really in earnest, and earnestness is
never ridiculous to my mind.’
‘Well, yes,’ said Barnet
more slowly, dropping her hand, which he had taken
at the moment of pleading, ’I am in earnest.
The resolve, two months ago, at the Cape, to come
back once more was, it is true, rather sudden, and
as I see now, not well considered. But I am in
earnest in asking.’
’And I in declining. With
all good feeling and all kindness, let me say that
I am quite opposed to the idea of marrying a second
time.’
‘Well, no harm has been done,’
he answered, with the same subdued and tender humorousness
that he had shown on such occasions in early life.
‘If you really won’t accept me, I must
put up with it, I suppose.’ His eye fell
on the clock as he spoke. ’Had you any
notion that it was so late?’ he asked.
‘How absorbed I have been!’
She accompanied him to the hall, helped
him to put on his overcoat, and let him out of the
house herself.
‘Good-night,’ said Barnet,
on the doorstep, as the lamp shone in his face.
‘You are not offended with me?’
‘Certainly not. Nor you with me?’
‘I’ll consider whether I am or not,’
he pleasantly replied. ‘Good-night.’
She watched him safely through the
gate; and when his footsteps had died away upon the
road, closed the door softly and returned to the room.
Here the modest widow long pondered his speeches,
with eyes dropped to an unusually low level.
Barnet’s urbanity under the blow of her refusal
greatly impressed her. After having his long
period of probation rendered useless by her decision,
he had shown no anger, and had philosophically taken
her words as if he deserved no better ones. It
was very gentlemanly of him, certainly; it was more
than gentlemanly; it was heroic and grand. The
more she meditated, the more she questioned the virtue
of her conduct in checking him so peremptorily; and
went to her bedroom in a mood of dissatisfaction.
On looking in the glass she was reminded that there
was not so much remaining of her former beauty as to
make his frank declaration an impulsive natural homage
to her cheeks and eyes; it must undoubtedly have arisen
from an old staunch feeling of his, deserving tenderest
consideration. She recalled to her mind with
much pleasure that he had told her he was staying
at the Black-Bull Hotel; so that if, after waiting
a day or two, he should not, in his modesty, call
again, she might then send him a nice little note.
To alter her views for the present was far from her
intention; but she would allow herself to be induced
to reconsider the case, as any generous woman ought
to do.
The morrow came and passed, and Mr.
Barnet did not drop in. At every knock, light
youthful hues flew across her cheek; and she was abstracted
in the presence of her other visitors. In the
evening she walked about the house, not knowing what
to do with herself; the conditions of existence seemed
totally different from those which ruled only four-and-twenty
short hours ago. What had been at first a tantalizing
elusive sentiment was getting acclimatized within
her as a definite hope, and her person was so informed
by that emotion that she might almost have stood as
its emblematical representative by the time the clock
struck ten. In short, an interest in Barnet
precisely resembling that of her early youth led her
present heart to belie her yesterday’s words
to him, and she longed to see him again.
The next day she walked out early,
thinking she might meet him in the street. The
growing beauty of her romance absorbed her, and she
went from the street to the fields, and from the fields
to the shore, without any consciousness of distance,
till reminded by her weariness that she could go no
further. He had nowhere appeared. In the
evening she took a step which under the circumstances
seemed justifiable; she wrote a note to him at the
hotel, inviting him to tea with her at six precisely,
and signing her note ‘Lucy.’
In a quarter of an hour the messenger
came back. Mr. Barnet had left the hotel early
in the morning of the day before, but he had stated
that he would probably return in the course of the
week.
The note was sent back, to be given
to him immediately on his arrival.
There was no sign from the inn that
this desired event had occurred, either on the next
day or the day following. On both nights she
had been restless, and had scarcely slept half-an-hour.
On the Saturday, putting off all diffidence,
Lucy went herself to the Black-Bull, and questioned
the staff closely.
Mr. Barnet had cursorily remarked
when leaving that he might return on the Thursday
or Friday, but they were directed not to reserve a
room for him unless he should write.
He had left no address.
Lucy sorrowfully took back her note went home, and
resolved to wait.
She did wait years and years but
Barnet never reappeared.
April 1880.