As I passed through my office a few
minutes later I heard Bob’s voice in Beulah
Sands’s office. It was raised in passionate
eloquence.
“Yes, Beulah, I have done it
single-handed. I have crucified Camemeyer, ‘Standard
Oil,’ and the ‘System’ that spiked
me to the cross a few weeks ago. You have three
millions, and I have seven. Now there is nothing
more but for you to go home to your father, and then
come back to me. Back to me, Beulah, back to
me to be my wife!”
He stopped. There was no sound.
I waited; then, frightened, I stepped to the door
of Beulah Sands’s office. Bob was standing
just inside the threshold, where he had halted to
give her the glad tidings. She had risen from
her desk and was looking at him with an agonised stare.
He seemed to be transfixed by her look, the wild ecstasy
of the outburst of love yet mirrored in his eyes.
She was just saying as I reached the door:
“Bob, in mercy’s name
tell me you got this money fairly, honourably.”
Bob must have realised for the first
time what he had done. He did not speak.
He only stared into her eyes. She was now at his
side.
“Bob, you are unnerved,”
she said; “you have been through a terrible
ordeal. For an hour I have been reading in the
bulletins of the banks and trust companies that have
failed, of the banking-houses that have been ruined.
I have been reading that you did it; that you have
made millions and I knew it was for me,
for father, but in the midst of my joy, my gratitude,
my love for, oh, Bob, I love you,”
she interrupted herself passionately; “it seems
as though I love you beyond the capacity of a human
heart to love. I think that for the right to be
yours for one single moment of this life I would smilingly
endure all the pains and miseries of eternal torture.
Yes, Bob, for the right to have you call me yours
for only while I heard the word, I would do anything,
Bob, anything that was honourable.”
She had drawn his head down close
to her face, and her great blue eyes searched his
as though they would go to his very soul. She
was a child in her simple appeal for him to allow
her to see his heart, to see that there was nothing
black there.
As she gazed, her beautiful hands
played through his hair as do a mother’s through
that of the child she is soothing in sickness.
“Bob, speak to me, speak to
me,” she begged, “tell me there was no
dishonour in the getting of those millions. Tell
me no one was made to suffer as my father and I have
suffered. Tell me that the suicides and the convicts,
the daughters dragged to shame and the mothers driven
to the madhouse as a result of this panic, cannot
be charged to anything unfair or dishonourable that
you have done. Bob, oh, Bob, answer! Answer
no, or my heart will break; or if, Bob, you have made
a mistake, if you have done that which in your great
desire to aid me and my father seemed justifiable,
but which you now see was wrong, tell it to me, Bob
dear, and together we will try to undo it. We
will try to find a way to atone. We will give
the millions to the last, last penny to those upon
whom you have brought misery. Father’s
loss will not matter. Together we will go to him
and tell him what we have done, what we have lived
through, tell him of our mistake, and in our agony
he will forget his own. For such a horror has
my father of anything dishonourable that he will embrace
his misery as happiness when he knows that his teachings
have enabled his daughter to undo this great wrong.
And then, Bob, we will be married, and you and I and
father and mother will be together, and be, oh, so
happy, and we will begin all over again.”
“Beulah, stop; in the name of
God, in the name of your love for me, don’t
say another word. There is a limit to the capacity
of a man to suffer, even if he be a great, strong
brute like myself, and, Beulah, I have reached that
limit. The day has been a hard one.”
His voice softened and became as a tired child’s.
“I must go out into the hustle
of the street, into the din and sound, and get down
my nerves and get back my head. Then I shall be
able to think clear and true, and I will come back
to you, and together we will see if I have done anything
that makes me unfit to touch the cheek and the hands
and the lips of the best and most beautiful woman God
ever put upon earth. Beulah, you know I would
not deceive you to save my body from the fires of
this world, and my soul from the torture of the damned,
and I promise you that if I find that I have done
wrong, what you call wrong, what your father would
call wrong, I will do what you say to atone.”
He took her head between his hands,
gently, reverently, and touching his lips to her glorious
golden hair, he went away.
Beulah Sands turned to me. “Please,
Mr. Randolph, go with him. He is soul-dazed.
One can never tell what a heart sorely perplexed will
prompt its owner to do. Often in the night when
I have got myself into a fever from thinking of my
father’s situation, I have had awful temptations.
The agents of the devil seek the wretched when none
of those they love are by. I have often thought
some of the blackest tragedies of the earth might
have been averted if there had been a true friend to
stand at the wrung one’s elbow at the fatal
minute of decision and point to the sun behind, just
when the black ahead grew unendurable. Please
follow Mr. Brownley that you may be ready, should
his awakening to what he has done become unbearable.
Tell him the dreaded morrows are never as terrible
actually as they seem in anticipation.”
I overtook Bob just outside the office.
I did not speak to him, for I realised that he was
in no mood for company. I dropped in behind,
determined that I would not lose sight of him.
It was almost one o’clock. Wall Street
was at its meridian of frenzy, every one on a wild
rush. The day’s doing had packed the always-crowded
money lane. The newsboys were shouting afternoon
editions. “Terrible panic in Wall Street.
One man against millions. Robert Brownley broke
‘the Street.’ Made twenty millions
in an hour. Banks failed. Wreck and ruin
everywhere. President Snow of Asterfield National
a suicide.” Bob gave no sign of hearing.
He strode with a slow, measured gait, his head erect,
his eyes staring ahead at space, a man thinking, thinking,
thinking for his salvation. Many hurrying men
looked at him, some with an expression of unutterable
hatred, as though they wanted to attack him.
Then again there were those who called him by name
with a laugh of joy; and some turned to watch him in
curiosity. It was easy to pick the wounded from
those who shared in his victory, and from those who
knew the frenzied finance buzz-saw only by its buzz.
Bob saw none. Where could he be going? He
came to the head of the street of coin and crime and
crossed Broadway. His path was blocked by the
fence surrounding old Trinity’s churchyard.
Grasping the pickets in either hand he stared at the
crumbling headstones of those guardsmen of Mammon
who once walked the earth and fought their heart battles,
as he was walking and fighting, but who now knew no
ten o’clock, no three, who looked upon the stock-gamblers
and dollar-trailers as they looked upon the worms
that honeycombed their headstones’ bases.
What thoughts went through Bob Brownley’s mind
only his Maker knew. For minutes he stood motionless,
then he walked on down Broadway. He went into
the Battery. The benches were crowded with that
jetsam and flotsam of humanity that New York’s
mighty sewers throw in armies upon her inland beaches
at every sunrise: Here a sodden brute sleeping
off a prolonged debauch, there a lad whose frankness
of face and homespun clothes and bewildered eyes spelt,
“from the farm and mother’s watchful love.”
On another bench an Italian woman who had a half-dozen
future dollar kings and social queens about her, and
whose clothes told of the immigrant ship just into
port. Bob Brownley apparently saw none.
But suddenly he stopped. Upon a bench sat a sweet-faced
mother holding a sleeping babe in her arms, while a
curly-pated boy nestled his head in her lap and slept
through the magic lanes and fairy woods of dreamland.
The woman’s face was one of those that blend
the confidence of girlhood with the uncertainty of
womanhood. ’Twas a pretty face, which had
been plainly tagged by its Maker for a light-hearted
trip through this world, but it had been seared by
the iron of the city.
“Mr. Brownley ” She started
to rise.
He gently pushed her back with a “hush,”
unwilling to rob the sleepers of their heaven.
“What are you doing here, Mrs. ?”
He halted.
“Mrs. Chase. Mr. Brownley,
when I went away from Randolph & Randolph’s
office I married John Chase; you may remember him as
delivery clerk. I had such a happy home and my
husband was so good; I did not have to typewrite any
longer. These are our two children.”
“What are you doing here?”
The tears sprang to her eyes; she dropped them, but
did not answer.
“Don’t mind me, woman.
I, too, have hidden hells I don’t want the world
to see. Don’t mind me; tell me your story.
It may do you good; it may do me good; yes, it may
do me good.”
I had dropped into a seat a few feet
away. Both were too much occupied with their
own thoughts to notice me or any one else. I could
not overhear their conversation, but long afterward,
when I mentioned our old stenographer, Bessie Brown,
to Bob, he told me of the incident at the Battery.
Her husband, after their marriage, had become infected
with the stock-gambling microbe, the microbe that
gnaws into its victim’s mind and heart day and
night, while ever fiercer grows the “get rich,
get rich” fever. He had plunged with their
savings and had drawn a blank. He had lost his
position in disgrace and had landed in the bucket-shop,
the sub-cellar pit of the big Stock Exchange hell.
From there a week before he had been sent to prison
for theft, and that morning she had been turned into
the street by her landlord. I saw Bob take from
his pocket his memorandum-book, write something upon
a leaf, tear it out and hand it to the woman, touch
his hat, and before she could stop him, stride away.
I saw her look at the paper, clap her hands to her
forehead, look at the paper again and at the retreating
form of Bob Brownley. Then I saw her, yes, there
in the old Battery Park, in the drizzling rain and
under the eyes of all, drop upon her knees in prayer.
How long she prayed I do not know. I only know
that as I followed Bob I looked back and the woman
was still upon her knees. I thought at the time
how queer and unnatural the whole thing seemed.
Later, I learned to know that nothing is queer and
unnatural in the world of human suffering; that great
human suffering turns all that is queer and unnatural
into commonplace. Next day Bessie Brown came
to our office to see Bob. Not being able to get
at him she asked for me.
“Mr. Randolph, tell me, please,
what shall I do with this paper?” she said.
“I met Mr. Brownley in the Battery yesterday.
He saw I was in distress and he gave me this, but
I cannot believe he meant it,” and she showed
me an order on Randolph & Randolph for a thousand dollars.
I cashed her check and she went away.
From the Battery Bob sought the wharves,
the Bowery, Five Points, the hothouses of the under-worldlings
of America. He seemed bent on picking out the
haunts of misery in the misery-infested metropolis
of the new world. For two hours he tramped and
I followed. A number of times I thought to speak
to him and try to win him from his mood, but I refrained.
I could see there was a soul battle waging and I realised
that upon its outcome might depend Bob’s salvation.
Some seek the quiet of the woods, the soothing rustle
of the leaves, the peaceful ripple of the brook when
battling for their soul, but Bob’s woods appeared
to be the shadowy places of misery, his rustling leaves
the hoarse din of the multitude, and his brook’s
ripple the tears and tales of the man-damned of the
great city, for he stopped and conversed with many
human derelicts that he met on his course. The
hand of the clock on Trinity’s steeple pointed
to four as we again approached the office of Randolph
& Randolph. Bob was now moving with a long, hurried
stride, as though consumed with a fever of desire to
get to Beulah Sands. For the last fifteen minutes
I had with difficulty kept him in sight. Had
he arrived at a decision, and if so, what was it?
I asked myself over and over again as I plowed through
the crowds.
Bob went straight to Beulah Sands’s
office, I to mine. I had been there but a moment
when I heard deep, guttural groans. I listened.
The sound came louder than before. It came from
Beulah Sands’s office. With a bound I was
at the open door. My God, the sight that met my
gaze! It haunts me even now when years have dulled
its vividness. The beautiful, quiet, gray figure
that had grown to be such a familiar picture to Bob
and me of late, sat at the flat desk in the centre
of the room. She faced the door. Her elbows
rested on the desk; in her hand was an afternoon paper
that she had evidently been reading when Bob entered.
God knows how long she had been reading it before
he came. Bob was kneeling at the side of her chair,
his hands clasped and uplifted in an agony of appeal
that was supplemented by the awful groans. His
face showed unspeakable terror and entreaty; the eyes
were bursting from their sockets and were riveted on
hers as those of a man in a dungeon might be fixed
upon an approaching spectre of one whom he had murdered.
His chest rose and fell, as though trying to burst
some unseen bonds that were crushing out his life.
With every breath would come the awful groan that
had first brought me to him. Beulah Sands had
half turned her face until her eyes gazed into Bob’s
with a sweet, childish perplexity. I looked at
her, surprised that one whom I had always seen so
intelligently masterful should be passive in the face
of such anguish. Then, horror of horrors!
I saw that there was something missing from her great
blue eyes. I looked; gasped. Could it possibly
be? With a bound I was at her side. I gazed
again into those eyes which that morning had been
all that was intelligent, all that was godlike, all
that was human. Their soul, their life was gone.
Beulah Sands was a dead woman; not dead in body, but
in soul; the magic spark had fled. She was but
an empty shell a woman of living flesh
and blood; but the citadel of life was empty, the
mind was gone. What had been a woman was but a
child. I passed my hand across my now damp forehead.
I closed my eyes and opened them again. Bob’s
figure, with clasped, uplifted hands, and bursting
eyes, was still there. There still resounded
through the room the awful guttural groans. Beulah
Sands smiled, the smile of an infant in the cradle.
She took one beautiful hand from the paper and passed
it over Bob’s bronzed cheek, just as the infant
touches its mother’s face with its chubby fingers.
In my horror I almost expected to hear the purling
of a babe. My eyes in their perplexity must have
wandered from her face, for I suddenly became aware
of a great black head-line spread across the top of
the paper that she had been reading:
“Friday, the 13th.”
And beneath in one of the columns:
“Terrible tragedy
in Virginia”
“The most prominent
citizen of the state, ex-united
States senator and
ex-Governor, judge
Lee Sands of Sands landing,
while temporarily insane
from the loss of
his fortune and millions of
the funds for which he was
trustee, cut the
throat of his invalid wife,
his daughter’s, and then
his own. All
three died instantly.”
In another column:
“Robert Brownley
creates the most disastrous panic
in the history of
wall street and spreads
wreck and ruin throughout the
country.”
A hideous picture seared its every
light and shade on my mind, through my heart, into
all my soul. A frenzied-finance harvest scene
with its gory crop; in the centre one living-dead,
part of the picture, yet the ghost left to haunt the
painters, one of whom was already cowering before the
black and bloody canvas.
Well did the word-artist who wrote
over the door of the madhouse, “Man can suffer
only to the limit, then he shall know peace,”
understand the wondrous wisdom of his God. Beulah
Sands had gone beyond her limit and was at peace.
The awful groaning stopped and an
ashen pallor spread over Bob Brownley’s face.
Before I could catch him he rolled backward upon the
floor as dead. Bob Brownley, too, had gone beyond
his limit. I bent over him and lifted his head,
while the sweet woman-child knelt and covered his face
with kisses, calling in a voice like that of a tiny
girl speaking to her doll, “Bob, my Bob, wake
up, wake up; your Beulah wants you.” As
I placed my hand upon Bob’s heart and felt its
beats grow stronger, as I listened to Beulah Sands’s
childish voice, joyously confident, as it called upon
the one thing left of her old world, some of my terror
passed. In its place came a great mellowing sense
of God’s marvellous wisdom. I thought gratefully
of my mother’s always ready argument that the
law of all laws, of God and nature, is that of compensation.
I had allowed Bob’s head to sink until it rested
in Beulah’s lap, and from his calm and steady
breathing I could see that he had safely passed a crisis,
that at least he was not in the clutches of death,
as I had at first feared.
Bob slept. Beulah Sands ceased
her calling and with a smile raised her fingers to
her lips and softly said, “Hush, my Bob’s
asleep.” Together we held vigil over our
sleeping lover and friend, she with the happiness of
a child who had no fear of the awakening, I with a
silent terror of what should come next. I had
seen one mind wafted to the unknown that day.
Was it to have a companion to cheer and solace it
on its far journey to the great beyond? How long
we waited Bob’s awakening I could not tell.
The clock’s hands said an hour; it seemed to
me an age. At last his magnificent physique,
his unpoisoned blood and splendid brain pulled him
through to his new world of mind and heart torture.
His eyelids lifted. He looked at me, then at
Beulah Sands, with eyes so sad, so awful in their
perplexed mournfulness, that I almost wished they had
never opened, or had opened to let me see the childlike
look that now shone from the girl’s. His
gaze finally rested on her and his lips murmured “Beulah.”
“There, Bob, I thought you would
know it was time to wake up.” She bent
over and kissed him on the eyes again and again with
the loving ardour a child bestows upon its pets.
He slowly rose to his feet. I
could see from his eyes and the shudder that went
over him as he caught sight of the paper on the desk
that he was himself; that memory of the happenings
of the day had not fled in his sleep. He rose
to his full height, his head went up, and his shoulders
back, but only from habit and for an instant.
Then he folded Beulah Sands to his breast and dropped
his head upon her shoulder. He sobbed like a
father with the corpse of his child.
“Why, Bob, my Bob, is this the
way you treat your Beulah when she’s let you
sleep so your beautiful eyes would be pretty for the
wedding? Is this the way to act before this kind
man who has come to take us to the church? Naughty,
naughty Bob.”
I looked at her, at Bob, in horror.
I was beginning to realise the absolute deadness of
this woman. From the first look I had known that
her mind had fled, but knowledge is not always realisation.
She did not even know who I was. Her mind was
dead to all but the man she loved, the man who through
all those long days of her suffering she had silently
worshiped. To all but him she was new-born.
At the sound of “wedding,”
“church,” Bob’s head slowly rose
from her shoulder. I saw his decision the instant
I caught his eye; I realised the uselessness of opposing
it, and, sick at heart and horrified, I listened as
he said in a voice now calm and soothing as that of
a father to his child, “Yes, Beulah, my darling,
I have slept too long. Bob has been naughty,
but we will make up for lost time. Get your hat
and cloak and we’ll hurry to the church or we
will be late.”
With a laugh of joy she followed him
to the closet where hung the little gray turban and
the pretty gray jacket. He took them from their
peg and gave them to her.
“Not a word, Jim,” he
bade me. “In the name of God and all our
friendship, not a word. Beulah Sands will be
my wife as soon as I can find a minister to marry
us. It is best, best. It is right. It
is as God would have it, or I am not capable of knowing
right from wrong. Anyway, it is what will be.
She has no father, no mother, no sister, no one to
protect and shield her. The ‘System’
has robbed her of all in life, even of herself, of
everything, Jim, but me. I must try to win her
back for herself, or to make her new world a happy
one a happy one for her.”