It was always a mystery to me where
Severance got precisely his combination of qualities.
His father was simply what is called a handsome man,
with stately figure and curly black hair, not without
a certain dignity of manner, but with a face so shallow
that it did not even seem to ripple, and with a voice
so prosy that, when he spoke of the sky, you wished
there were no such thing. His mother was a fair,
little, pallid creature,-wash-blond, as
they say of lace,-patient, meek, and always
fatigued and fatiguing. But Severance, as I first
knew him, was the soul of activity. He had dark
eyes, that had a great deal of light in them, without
corresponding depth; his hair was dark, straight,
and very soft; his mouth expressed sweetness, without
much strength; he talked well; and though he was apt
to have a wandering look, as if his thoughts were
laying a submarine cable to another continent, yet
the young girls were always glad to have the semblance
of conversation with him in this. To me he was
in the last degree lovable. He had just enough
of that subtile quality called genius, perhaps, to
spoil first his companions, and then himself.
His words had weight with you, though you might know
yourself wiser; and if you went to give him the most
reasonable advice, you were suddenly seized with a
slight paralysis of the tongue. Thus it was, at
any rate, with me. We were cemented therefore
by the firmest ties,-a nominal seniority
on my part, and a substantial supremacy on his.
We lodged one summer at an old house
in that odd suburb of Oldport called “The Point.”
It is a sort of Artists’ Quarter of the town,
frequented by a class of summer visitors more addicted
to sailing and sketching than to driving and bowing,-persons
who do not object to simple fare, and can live, as
one of them said, on potatoes and Point. Here
Severance and I made our summer home, basking in the
delicious sunshine of the lovely bay. The bare
outlines around Oldport sometimes dismay the stranger,
but soon fascinate. Nowhere does one feel bareness
so little, because there is no sharpness of perspective;
everything shimmers in the moist atmosphere; the islands
are all glamour and mirage; and the undulating hills
of the horizon seem each like the soft, arched back
of some pet animal, and you long to caress them with
your hand. At last your thoughts begin to swim
also, and pass into vague fancies, which you also
love to caress. Severance and I were constantly
afloat, body and mind. He was a perfect sailor,
and had that dreaminess in his nature which matches
with nothing but the ripple of the waves. Still,
I could not hide from myself that he was a changed
man since that voyage in search of health from which
he had just returned. His mother talked in her
humdrum way about heart disease; and his father, taking
up the strain, bored us about organic lesions, till
we almost wished he had a lesion himself. Severance
ridiculed all this; but he grew more and more moody,
and his eyes seemed to be laying more submarine cables
than ever.
When we were not on the water, we
both liked to mouse about the queer streets and quaint
old houses of that region, and to chat with the fishermen
and their grandmothers. There was one house, however,
which was very attractive to me,-perhaps
because nobody lived in it, and which, for that or
some other reason, he never would approach. It
was a great square building of rough gray stone, looking
like those sombre houses which everyone remembers
in Montreal, but which are rare in “the States.”
It had been built many years before by some millionnaire
from New Orleans, and was left unfinished, nobody
knew why, till the garden was a wilderness of bloom,
and the windows of ivy. Oldport is the only place
in New England where either ivy or traditions will
grow; there were, to be sure, no legends about this
house that I could hear of, for the ghosts in those
parts were feeble-minded and retrospective by reason
of age, and perhaps scorned a mansion where nobody
had ever lived; but the ivy clustered round the projecting
windows as densely as if it had the sins of a dozen
generations to hide.
The house stood just above what were
commonly called (from their slaty color) the Blue
Rocks; it seemed the topmost pebble left by some tide
that had receded,-which perhaps it was.
Nurses and children thronged daily to these rocks,
during the visitors’ season, and the fishermen
found there a favorite lounging-place; but nobody scaled
the wall of the house save myself, and I went there
very often. The gate was sometimes opened by
Paul, the silent Bavarian gardener, who was master
of the keys; and there were also certain great cats
that were always sunning themselves on the steps,
and seemed to have grown old and gray in waiting for
mice that had never come. They looked as if they
knew the past and the future. If the owl is the
bird of Minerva, the cat should be her beast; they
have the same sleepy air of unfathomable wisdom.
There was such a quiet and potent spell about the place
that one could almost fancy these constant animals
to be the transformed bodies of human visitors who
had stayed too long. Who knew what tales might
be told by these tall, slender birches, clustering
so closely by the sombre walls?-birches
which were but whispering shrubs when the first gray
stones were laid, and which now reared above the eaves
their white stems and dark boughs, still whispering
and waiting till a few more years should show them,
across the roof, the topmost blossoms of other birches
on the other side.
Before the great western doorway spread
the outer harbor, whither the coasting vessels came
to drop anchor at any approach of storm. These
silent visitors, which arrived at dusk and went at
dawn, and from which no boat landed, seemed fitting
guests before the portals of the silent house.
I was never tired of watching them from the piazza;
but Severance always stayed outside the wall.
It was a whim of his, he said; and once only I got
out of him something about the resemblance of the
house to some Portuguese mansion,-at Madeira,
perhaps, or at Rio Janeiro, but he did not say,-with
which he had no pleasant associations. Yet he
afterwards seemed to wish to deny this remark, or
to confuse my impressions of it, which naturally fixed
it the better in my mind.
I remember well the morning when he
was at last coaxed into approaching the house.
It was late in September, and a day of perfect calm.
As we looked from the broad piazza, there was a glassy
smoothness over all the bay, and the hills were coated
with a film, or rather a mere varnish, inconceivably
thin, of haze more delicate than any other climate
in America can show. Over the water there were
white gulls flying, lazy and low; schools of young
mackerel displayed their white sides above the surface;
and it seemed as if even a butterfly might be seen
for miles over that calm expanse. The bay was
covered with mackerel-boats, and one man sculled indolently
across the foreground a scarlet skiff. It was
so still that every white sail-boat rested where its
sail was first spread; and though the tide was at half-ebb,
the anchored boats swung idly different ways from
their moorings. Yet there was a continuous ripple
in the broad sail of some almost motionless schooner,
and there was a constant melodious plash along the
shore. From the mouth of the bay came up slowly
the premonitory line of bluer water, and we knew that
a breeze was near.
Severance seemed to rise in spirits
as we approached the house, and I noticed no sign
of shrinking, except an occasional lowering of the
voice. Seeing this, I ventured to joke him a little
on his previous reluctance, and he replied in the
same strain. I seated myself at the corner, and
began sketching old Fort Louis, while he strolled along
the piazza, looking in at the large, vacant windows.
As he approached the farther end, I suddenly heard
him give a little cry of amazement or dismay, and,
looking up, saw him leaning against the wall, with
pale face and hands clenched.
A minute sometimes appears a long
while; and though I sprang to him instantly, yet I
remember that it seemed as if, during that instant,
the whole face of things had changed. The breeze
had come, the bay was rippled, the sail-boats careened
to the wind, fishes and birds were gone, and a dark
gray cloud had come between us and the sun. Such
sudden changes are not, however, uncommon after an
interval of calm; and my only conscious thought at
the time was of wonder at the strange aspect of my
companion.
“What was that?” asked
Severance in a bewildered tone. I looked about
me, equally puzzled. “Not there,”
he said. “In the window.”
I looked in at the window, saw nothing,
and said so. There was the great empty drawing-room,
across which one could see the opposite window, and
through this the eastern piazza and the garden beyond.
Nothing more was there. With some persuasion,
Severance was induced to look in. He admitted
that he saw nothing peculiar; but he refused all explanation,
and we went home.
“Never let me go to that house
again,” he said abruptly, as we entered our
own door.
I pointed out to him the absurdity
of thus yielding to a nervous delusion, which was
already in part conquered, and he finally promised
to revisit the scene with me the next day. To
clear all possible misgivings from my own mind, I
got the key of the house from Paul, explored it thoroughly,
and was satisfied that no improper visitor had recently
entered the drawing-room at least, as the windows were
strongly bolted on the inside, and a large cobweb,
heavy with dust, hung across the doorway. This
did no great credit to Paul’s stewardship, but
was, perhaps, a slight relief to me. Nor could
I see a trace of anything uncanny outside the house.
When Severance went with me, next day, the coast was
equally clear, and I was glad to have cured him so
easily.
Unfortunately, it did not last.
A few days after, there was a brilliant sunset, after
a storm, with gorgeous yellow light slanting everywhere,
and the sun looking at us between bars of dark purple
cloud, edged with gold where they touched the pale
blue sky; all this fading at last into a great whirl
of gray to the northward, with a cold purple ground.
At the height of the show, I climbed the wall to my
favorite piazza, and was surprised to find Severance
already there.
He sat facing the sunset, but with
his head sunk between his hands. At my approach,
he looked up, and rose to his feet. “Do
not deceive me any more,” he said, almost savagely,
and pointed to the window.
I looked in, and must confess that,
for a moment, I too was startled. There was a
perceptible moment of time during which it seemed as
if no possible philosophy could explain what appeared
in sight. Not that any object showed itself within
the great drawing-room, but I distinctly saw-across
the apartment, and through the opposite window-the
dark figure of a man about my own size, who leaned
against the long window, and gazed intently on me.
Above him spread the yellow sunset light, around him
the birch-boughs hung and the ivy-tendrils swayed,
while behind him there appeared a glimmering water-surface,
across which slowly drifted the tall masts of a schooner.
It looked strangely like a view I had seen of some
foreign harbor,-Amalfi, perhaps,-with
a vine-clad balcony and a single human figure in the
foreground. So real and startling was the sight
that at first it was not easy to resolve the whole
scene into its component parts. Yet it was simply
such a confused mixture of real and reflected images
as one often sees from the window of a railway carriage,
where the mirrored interior seems to glide beside
the train, with the natural landscape for a background.
In this case, also, the frame and foliage of the picture
were real, and all else was reflected; the sunlit
bay behind us was reproduced as in a camera, and the
dark figure was but the full-length image of myself.
It was easy to explain all this to
Severance, but he shook his head. “So cool
a philosopher as yourself,” he said, “should
remember that this image is not always visible.
At our last visit, we looked for it in vain.
When we first saw it, it appeared and disappeared within
ten minutes. On your mechanical theory it should
be other-wise.”
This staggered me for a moment.
Then the ready solution occurred, that the reflection
depended on the strength and direction of the light;
and I proved to him that, in our case, it had appeared
and disappeared with the sunshine. He was silenced,
but evidently not convinced; yet time and common-sense,
it seemed, would take care of that.
Soon after all this, I was called
out of town for a week or two. If Severance would
go with me, it would doubtless complete the cure, I
thought; but this he obstinately declined. After
my departure, my sister wrote, he seemed absolutely
to haunt the empty house by the Blue Rocks. He
undoubtedly went here to sketch, she thought.
The house was in charge of a real-estate agent,-a
retired landscape-painter, whose pictures did not
sell so profitably as their originals; and her theory
was, that this agent hoped to make our friend buy the
place, and so allured him there under pretence of
sketching. Moreover, she surmised, he was studying
some effect of shadow, because, unlike most men, he
appeared in decent spirits only on cloudy days.
It is always so easy to fit a man out with a set of
ready-made motives! But I drew my own conclusions,
and was not surprised to hear, soon after, that Severance
was seriously ill.
This brought me back at once,-sailing
down from Providence in an open boat, I remember,
one lovely moonlight night. Next day I saw Severance,
who declared that he had suffered from nothing worse
than a prolonged sick-headache. I soon got out
of him all that had happened. He had seen the
figure in the window every sunny day, he said.
Of course he had, if he chose to look for it, and
I could only smile, though it perhaps seemed unkind.
But I stopped smiling when he went on to tell that,
not satisfied with these observations, he had visited
the house by moonlight also, and had then seen, as
he averred, a second figure standing beside the first.
Of course, there was no defence against
such a theory as this, except simply to laugh it down;
but it made me very anxious, for it showed that he
was growing thoroughly morbid. “Either it
was pure fancy,” I said, “or it was Paul
the gardener.”
But here he was prepared for me.
It seemed that, on seeing the two figures, Severance
had at once left the piazza, and, with an instinct
of common-sense that was surprising, had crossed the
garden, scaled the wall, and looked in at the window
of Paul’s little cottage, where the man and
his wife were quietly seated at supper, probably after
a late fishing-trip. “There was another
reason,” he said; but here he stopped, and would
give no description of the second figure, which he
had, however, seen twice again, always by moon-light.
He consented to let me accompany him the following
night.
We accordingly went. It was a
calm, clear night, and the moon lay brightly on the
bay. The distant shores looked low and filmy;
a naval vessel was in the harbor, and there was a
ball on board, with music and fire-works; some fishermen
were singing in their boats, late as was the hour.
Severance was absorbed in his own gloomy reveries;
and when we had crossed the wall, the world seemed
left outside, and the glamour of the place began to
creep over me also. I seemed to see my companion
relapsing into some phantom realm, beyond power of
withdrawal. I talked, sang, whistled; but it
was all a rather hollow effort, and soon ceased.
The great house looked gloomy and impenetrable, the
moonlight appeared sick and sad, the birch-boughs
rustled in a dreary way. We went up the steps
in no jubilant mood.
I crossed the piazza at once, looked
in at the farthest window, and saw there my own image,
though far more faintly than in the sunlight.
Severance then joined me, and his reflected shape stood
by mine. Something of the first ghostly impression
was renewed, I must confess, by this meeting of the
two shadows; there was something rather awful in the
way the bodiless things nodded and gesticulated at
each other in silence. Still, there was nothing
more than this, as Severance was compelled to own;
and I was trying to turn the whole affair into ridicule,
when suddenly, without sound or warning, I saw-as
distinctly as I perceive the words I now write-yet
another figure stand at the window, gaze steadfastly
at us for a moment, and then disappear. It was,
as I fancied, that of a woman, but was totally enveloped
in a very full cloak, reaching to the ground, with
a peculiarly cut hood, that stood erect and seemed
half as long as the body of the garment. I had
a vague recollection of having seen some such costume
in a picture.
Of course, I dashed round the corner
of the house, threaded the birch-trees, and stood
on the eastern piazza. No one was there.
Without losing an instant, I ran to the garden wall
and climbed it, as Severance had done, to look into
Paul’s cottage. That worthy was just getting
into bed, in a state of complicated deshabille, his
blackbearded head wrapped in an old scarlet handkerchief
that made him look like a retired pirate in reduced
circumstances. He being accounted for, I vainly
traversed the shrubberies, returned to the western
piazza, watched awhile uselessly, and went home with
Severance, a good deal puzzled.
By daylight the whole thing seemed
different. That I had seen the figure there was
no doubt. It was not a reflected image, for we
had no companion. It was, then, human. After
all, thought I, it is a commonplace thing enough,
this masquerading in a cloak and hood. Someone
has observed Severance’s nocturnal visits, and
is amusing himself at his expense. The peculiarity
was, that the thing was so well done, and the figure
had such an air of dignity, that somehow it was not
so easy to make light of it in talking with him.
I went into his room, next day.
His sick-headache, or whatever it was, had come on
again, and he was lying on his bed. Rutherford’s
strange old book on the Second Sight lay open before
him. “Look there,” he said; and I
read the motto of a chapter:-
“In
sunlight one,
In
shadow none,
In
moonlight two,
In
thunder two,
Then
comes Death.”
I threw the book indignantly from
me, and began to invent doggerel, parodying this precious
incantation. But Severance did not seem to enjoy
the joke, and it grows tiresome to enact one’s
own farce and do one’s own applauding.
For several days after he was laid
up in earnest; but instead of getting any mental rest
from this, he lay poring over that preposterous book,
and it really seemed as if his brain were a little
disturbed. Meanwhile I watched the great house,
day and night, sought for footsteps, and, by some
odd fancy, took frequent observations on the gardener
and his wife. Failing to get any clew, I waited
one day for Paul’s absence, and made a call
upon the wife, under pretence of hunting up a missing
handkerchief,-for she had been my laundress.
I found the handsome, swarthy creature, with her six
bronzed children around her, training up the Madeira
vine that made a bower of the whole side of her little,
black, gambrel-roofed cottage. On learning my
errand, she became full of sympathy, and was soon emptying
her bureau-drawers in pursuit of the lost handkerchief.
As she opened the lowest drawer, I saw within it something
which sent all the blood to my face for a moment.
It was a black cloth cloak, with a stiff hood two
feet long, of precisely the pattern worn by the unaccountable
visitant at the window. I turned almost fiercely
upon her; but she looked so innocent as she stood
there, caressing and dusting with her fingers what
was evidently a pet garment, that it was really impossible
to denounce her.
“Is that a Bavarian cloak?”
said I, trying to be cool and judicial.
Here broke in the eldest boy, named
John, aged ten, a native American, and a sailor already,
whom I had twice fished up from a capsized punt.
“Mother ain’t a Bavarian,” quoth
the young salt. “Father’s a Bavarian;
mother’s a Portegee. Portegees wear them
hoods.”
“I am a Portuguese, sir, from
Fayal,” said the woman, prolonging with sweet
intonation the soft name of her birthplace. “This
is my capote, she added, taking up with pride the
uncouth costume, while the children gathered round,
as if its vast folds came rarely into sight.
“It has not been unfolded for
a year,” she said. As she spoke, she dropped
it with a cry, and a little mouse sprang from the skirts,
and whisked away into some corner. We found that
the little animal had made its abode in the heavy
woollen, of which three or four thicknesses had been
eaten through, and then matted together into the softest
of nests. This contained, moreover, a small family
of mouselets, who certainly had not taken part in
any midnight masquerade. The secret seemed more
remote than ever, for I knew that there was no other
Portuguese family in the town, and there was no confounding
this peculiar local costume with any other.
Returning to Severance’s chamber,
I said nothing of all this. He was, by an odd
coincidence, looking over a portfolio of Fayal sketches
made by himself during his late voyage. Among
them were a dozen studies of just such capotes
as I had seen,-some in profile, completely
screening the wearer, others disclosing women’s
faces, old or young. He seemed to wish to put
them away, however, when I came in. Really, the
plot seemed to thicken; and it was a little provoking
to understand it no better, when all the materials
seemed close to one’s hands.
A day or two later, I was summoned
to Boston. Returning thence by the stage-coach,
we drove from Tiverton, the whole length of the island,
under one of those wild and wonderful skies which give,
better than anything in nature, the effect of a field
of battle. The heavens were filled with ten thousand
separate masses of cloud, varying in shade from palest
gray to iron-black, borne rapidly to and fro by upper
and lower currents of opposing wind. They seemed
to be charging, retreating, breaking, recombining,
with puffs of what seemed smoke, and a few wan sunbeams
sometimes striking through for fire. Wherever
the eye turned, there appeared some flying fragment
not seen before; and yet in an hour this noiseless
Antietam grew still, and a settled leaden film overspread
the sky, yielding only to some level lines of light
where the sun went down. Perhaps our driver was
looking toward the sky more than to his own affairs,
for, just as all this ended a wheel gave out, and
we had to stop in Portsmouth for repairs. By the
time we were again in motion, the changing wind had
brought up a final thunder-storm, which broke upon
us ere we reached our homes. It was rather an
uncommon thing, so late in the season; for the lightning,
like other brilliant visitors, usually appears in Oldport
during only a month or two of every year.
The coach set me down at my own door,
so soaked that I might have floated in. I peeped
into Severance’s room, however, on the way to
my own. Strange to say, no one was there; yet
some one had evidently been lying on the bed, and
on the pillow lay the old book on the Second Sight,
open at the very page which had so bewitched him and
vexed me. I glanced at it mechanically, and when
I came to the meaningless jumble, “In thunder
two,” a flash flooded the chamber, and a sudden
fear struck into my mind. Who knew what insane
experiment might have come into that boy’s head?
With sudden impulse, I went downstairs,
and found the whole house empty, until a stupid old
woman, coming in from the wood-house with her apron
full of turnips, told me that Severance had been missing
since nightfall, after being for a week in bed, dangerously
ill, and sometimes slightly delirious. The family
had become alarmed, and were out with lanterns, in
search of him.
It was safe to say that none of them
had more reason to be alarmed than I. It was something,
however, to know where to seek him. Meeting two
neighboring fishermen, I took them with me. As
we approached the well-known wall, the blast blew
out our lights, and we could scarcely speak.
The lightning had grown less frequent, yet sheets of
flame seemed occasionally to break over the dark,
square sides of the house, and to send a flickering
flame along the ridge-pole and eaves, like a surf
of light. A surf of water broke also behind us
on the Blue Rocks, sounding as if it pursued our very
footsteps; and one of the men whispered hoarsely to
me, that a Nantucket brig had parted her cable, and
was drifting in shore.
As we entered the garden, lights gleamed
in the shrubbery. To my surprise, it was Paul
and his wife, with their two oldest children,-these
last being quite delighted with the stir, and showing
so much illumination, in the lee of the house, that
it was quite a Feast of Lanterns. They seemed
a little surprised at meeting us, too; but we might
as well have talked from Point Judith to Beaver Tail
as to have attempted conversation there. I walked
round the building; but a flash of lightning showed
nothing on the western piazza save a birch-tree, which
lay across, blown down by the storm. I therefore
went inside, with Paul’s household, leaving
the fishermen without.
Never shall I forget that search.
As we went from empty room to room, the thunder seemed
rolling on the very roof, and the sharp flashes of
lightning appeared to put out our lamps and then kindle
them again. We traversed the upper regions, mounting
by a ladder to the attic; then descended into the
cellar and the wine-vault. The thorough bareness
of the house, the fact that no bright-eyed mice peeped
at us from their holes, no uncouth insects glided
on the walls, no flies buzzed in the unwonted lamplight,
scarcely a spider slid down his damp and trailing
web,-all this seemed to enhance the mystery.
The vacancy was more dreary than desertion: it
was something old which had never been young.
We found ourselves speaking in whispers; the children
kept close to their parents; we seemed to be chasing
some awful Silence from room to room; and the last
apartment, the great drawing-room, we really seemed
loath to enter. The less the rest of the house
had to show, the more, it seemed, must be concentrated
there. Even as we entered, a blast of air from
a broken pane extinguished our last light, and it seemed
to take many minutes to rekindle it.
As it shone once more, a brilliant
lightning-flash also swept through the window, and
flickered and flickered, as if it would never have
done. The eldest child suddenly screamed, and
pointed with her finger, first to one great window
and then to its opposite. My eyes instinctively
followed the successive directions; and the double
glance gave me all I came to seek, and more than all.
Outside the western window lay Severance, his white
face against the pane, his eyes gazing across and
past us,-struck down doubtless by the fallen
tree, which lay across the piazza, and hid him from
external view. Opposite him, and seen through
the eastern window, stood, statue-like, the hooded
figure, but with the great capote thrown back, showing
a sad, eager, girlish face, with dark eyes, and a
good deal of black hair,-one of those faces
of peasant beauty such as America never shows,-faces
where ignorance is almost raised into refinement by
its childlike look. Contrasted with Severance’s
wild gaze, the countenance wore an expression of pitying
forgiveness, almost of calm; yet it told of wasting
sorrow and the wreck of a life. Gleaming lustrous
beneath the lightning, it had a more mystic look when
the long flash had ceased, and the single lantern
burned beneath it, like an altar-lamp before a shrine.
“It is Aunt Emilia,” exclaimed
the little girl; and as she spoke, the father, turning
angrily upon her, dashed the light to the ground, and
groped his way out without a word of answer. I
was too much alarmed about Severance to care for aught
else, and quickly made my way to the western piazza,
where I found him stunned by the fallen tree,-injured,
I feared, internally,-still conscious, but
unable to speak.
With the aid of my two companions
I got him home, and he was ill for several weeks before
he died. During his illness he told me all he
had to tell; and though Paul and his family disappeared
next day,-perhaps going on board the Nantucket
brig, which had narrowly escaped shipwreck,-I
afterwards learned all the remaining facts from the
only neighbor in whom they had placed confidence.
Severance, while convalescing at a country-house in
Fayal, had fallen passionately in love with a young
peasant-girl, who had broken off her intended marriage
for love of him, and had sunk into a half-imbecile
melancholy when deserted. She had afterwards
come to this country, and joined her sister, Paul’s
wife. Paul had received her reluctantly, and only
on condition that her existence should be concealed.
This was the easier, as it was one of her whims to
go out only by night, when she had haunted the great
house, which, she said, reminded her of her own island,
so that she liked to wear thither the capote which
had been the pride of her heart at home. On the
few occasions when she had caught a glimpse of Severance,
he had seemed to her, no doubt, as much a phantom
as she seemed to him. On the night of the storm,
they had both sought their favorite haunt, unconscious
of each other, and the friends of each had followed
in alarm.
I got traces of the family afterwards
at Nantucket and later at Narragansett, and had reason
to think that Paul was employed, one summer, by a
farmer on Conanicut; but I was always just too late
for them; and the money which Severance left, as his
only reparation for poor Emilia, never was paid.
The affair was hushed up, and very few, even among
the neighbors, knew the tragedy that had passed by
them with the storm.
After Severance died, I had that temporary
feeling of weakened life which remains after the first
friend or the first love passes, and the heart seems
to lose its sense of infinity. His father came,
and prosed, and measured the windows of the empty
house, and calculated angles of reflection, and poured
even death and despair into his crucible of commonplace;
the mother whined in her feebler way at home; while
the only brother, a talkative medical student, tried
to pooh-pooh it all, and sent me a letter demonstrating
that Emilia was never in America, and that the whole
was an hallucination. I cared nothing for his
theory; it all seemed like a dream to me, and, as all
the actors but myself are gone, it seems so still.
The great house is yet unoccupied, and likely to remain
so; and he who looks through its western window may
still be startled by the weird image of himself.
As I lingered round it, to-day, beneath the winter
sunlight, the snow drifted pitilessly past its ivied
windows, and so hushed my footsteps that I scarce
knew which was the phantom, myself or my reflection,
and wondered if the medical student would not argue
me out of existence next.
This is the end of my story.
If I sought for a moral, it would be hard to attach
one to a thing so slight. It could only be this,
that shadow and substance are always ready to link
themselves, in unexpected ways, against the diseased
imagination; and that remorse can make the most transparent
crystal into a mirror for its sin.