We have a phrase in Oldport, “What
New-Yorkers call poverty: to be reduced to a
pony phaeton.” In consequence of a November
gale, I am reduced To a similar state of destitution,
from a sail-boat to a wherry; and, like others of
the deserving poor, I have found many compensations
in my humbler condition. Which is the more enjoyable,
rowing or sailing? If you sail before the wind,
there is the glorious vigor of the breeze that fills
your sails; you get all of it you have room for, and
a ship of the line could do no more; indeed, your very
nearness to the water increases the excitement, since
the water swirls and boils up, as it unites in your
wake, and seems to clutch at the low stern of your
sail-boat, and to menace the hand that guides the helm.
Or if you beat to windward, it is as if your boat climbed
a liquid hill, but did it with bounding and dancing,
like a child; there is the plash of the lighter ripples
against the bow, and the thud of the heavier waves,
while the same blue water is now transformed to a cool
jet of white foam over your face, and now to a dark
whirlpool in your lee. Sailing gives a sense
of prompt command, since by a single movement of the
tiller you effect so great a change of direction or
transform motion into rest; there is, therefore, a
certain magic in it: but, on the other hand,
there is in rowing a more direct appeal to your physical
powers; you do not evade or cajole the elements by
a cunning device of keel and canvas, you meet them
man-fashion and subdue them. The motion of the
oars is like the strong motion of a bird’s wings;
to sail a boat is to ride upon an eagle, but to row
is to be an eagle. I prefer rowing,-at
least till I can afford another sail-boat.
What is a good day for rowing?
Almost any day that is good for living. Living
is not quite agreeable in the midst of a tornado or
an equinoctial storm, neither is rowing. There
are days when rowing is as toilsome and exhausting
a process as is Bunyan’s idea of virtue; while
there are other days, like the present, when it seems
a mere Oriental passiveness and the forsaking of works,-just
an excuse to Nature for being out among her busy things.
For even at this stillest of hours there is far less
repose in Nature than we imagine. What created
thing can seem more patient than yonder kingfisher
on the sea-wall? Yet, as we glide near him, we
shall see that no creature can be more full of concentrated
life; all his nervous system seems on edge, every instant
he is rising or lowering on his feet, the tail vibrates,
the neck protrudes or shrinks again, the feathers
ruffle, the crest dilates; he talks to himself with
an impatient chirr, then presently hovers and dives
for a fish, then flies back disappointed. We say
“free as birds,” but their lives are given
over to arduous labors. And so, when our condition
seems most dreamy, our observing faculties are sometimes
desperately on the alert, and we find afterwards, to
our surprise, that we have missed nothing. The
best observer in the end is not he who works at the
microscope or telescope most unceasingly, but he whose
whole nature becomes sensitive and receptive, drinking
in everything, like a sponge that saturates itself
with all floating vapors and odors, though it seems
inert and unsuspicious until you press it and it tells
the tale.
Most men do their work out of doors
and their dreaming at home; and those whose work is
done at home need something like a wherry in which
to dream out of doors. On a squally day, with
the wind northwest, it is a dream of action, and to
round yonder point against an ebbing tide makes you
feel as if you were Grant before Richmond; when you
put about, you gallop like Sheridan, and the winds
and waves become a cavalry escort. On other days
all elements are hushed into a dream of peace, and
you look out upon those once stormy distances as Landseer’s
sheep look into the mouth of the empty cannon on a
dismantled fort. These are the days for revery,
and your thoughts fly forth, gliding without friction
over this smooth expanse; or, rather, they are like
yonder pair of white butterflies that will flutter
for an hour just above the glassy surface, traversing
miles of distance before they alight again.
By a happy trait of our midsummer,
these various phases of wind and water may often be
included in a single day. On three mornings out
of four the wind blows northwest down our bay, then
dies to a calm before noon. After an hour or
two of perfect stillness, you see the line of blue
ripple coming up from the ocean till it conquers all
the paler water, and the southwest breeze sets in.
This middle zone of calm is like the noonday of the
Romans, when they feared to speak, lest the great
god Pan should be awakened. While it lasts, a
thin, aerial veil drops over the distant hills of
Conanicut, then draws nearer and nearer till it seems
to touch your boat, the very nearest section of space
being filled with a faint disembodied blueness, like
that which fills on winter days, in colder regions,
the hollows of the snow. Sky and sea show but
gradations of the same color, and afford but modifications
of the same element. In this quietness, yonder
schooner seems not so much to lie at anchor in the
water as to anchor the water, so that both cease to
move; and though faint ripples may come and go elsewhere
on the surface, the vessel rests in this liquid island
of absolute calm. For there certainly is elsewhere
a sort of motionless movement, as Keats speaks of
“a little noiseless noise among the leaves,”
or as the summer clouds form and disappear without
apparent wind and without prejudice to the stillness.
A man may lie in the profoundest trance and still
be breathing, and the very pulsations of the life of
nature, in these calm hours, are to be read in these
changing tints and shadows and ripples, and in the
mirage-bewildered outlines of the islands in the bay.
It is this incessant shifting of relations, this perpetual
substitution of fantastic for real values, this inability
to trust your own eye or ear unless the mind makes
its own corrections,-that gives such an
inexhaustible attraction to life beside the ocean.
The sea-change comes to you without your waiting to
be drowned. You must recognize the working of
your own imagination and allow for it. When,
for instance, the sea-fog settles down around us at
nightfall, it sometimes grows denser and denser till
it apparently becomes more solid than the pavements
of the town, or than the great globe itself; and when
the fog-whistles go wailing on through all the darkened
hours, they seem to be signalling not so much for
a lost ship as for a lost island.
How unlike are those weird and gloomy
nights to this sunny noon, when I rest my oars in
this sheltered bay, where a small lagoon makes in
behind Coaster’s Harbor Island, and the very
last breath and murmur of the ocean are left outside!
The coming tide steals to the shore in waves so light
they are a mere shade upon the surface till they break,
and then die speechless for one that has a voice.
And even those rare voices are the very most confidential
and silvery whispers in which Nature ever spoke to
man; the faintest summer insect seems resolute and
assured beside them; and yet it needs but an indefinite
multiplication of these sounds to make up the thunder
of the surf. It is so still that I can let the
wherry drift idly along the shore, and can watch the
life beneath the water. The small fry cluster
and evade between me and the brink; the half-translucent
shrimp glides gracefully undisturbed, or glances away
like a flash if you but touch the surface; the crabs
waddle or burrow, the smaller species mimicking unconsciously
the hue of the soft green sea-weed, and the larger
looking like motionless stones, covered with barnacles
and decked with fringing weeds. I am acquainted
with no better Darwinian than the crab; and however
clumsy he may be when taken from his own element,
he has a free and floating motion which is almost
graceful in his own yielding and buoyant home.
It is so with all wild creatures, but especially with
those of water and air. A gull is not reckoned
an especially graceful bird, but yonder I see one,
snowy white, that has come to fish in this safe lagoon,
and it dips and rises on its errands as lightly as
a butterfly or a swallow. Beneath that neighboring
causeway the water-rats run over the stones, lithe
and eager and alert, the body carried low, the head
raised now and then like a hound’s, the tail
curving gracefully and aiding the poise; now they
are running to the water as if to drink, now racing
for dear life along the edge, now fairly swimming,
then devoting an interval to reflection, like squirrels,
then again searching over a pile of sea-weed and selecting
some especial tuft, which is carried, with long, sinuous
leaps, to the unseen nest. Indeed, man himself
is graceful in his unconscious and direct employments:
the poise of a fisherman, for instance, the play of
his arm, the cast of his line or net,-these
take the eye as do the stealthy movements of the hunter,
the fine attitudes of the wood-chopper, the grasp of
the sailor on the helm. A haystack and a boat
are always picturesque objects, and so are the men
who are at work to build or use them. So is yonder
stake-net, glistening in the noonday light,-the
innumerable meshes drooping in soft arches from the
high stakes, and the line of floats stretching shoreward,
like tiny stepping-stones; two or three row-boats are
gathered round it, with fishermen in red or blue shirts,
while one white sail-boat hovers near. And I
have looked down on our beach in spring, at sunset,
and watched them drawing nets for the young herring,
when the rough men looked as graceful as the nets they
drew, and the horseman who directed might have been
Redgauntlet on the Solway Sands.
I suppose it is from this look of
natural fitness that a windmill is always such an
appropriate object by the sea-shore. It is simply
a four-masted schooner, stranded on a hill-top, and
adapting itself to a new sphere of duty. It can
have needed but a slight stretch of invention in some
seaman to combine these lofty vans, and throw over
them a few remodelled sails. The principle of
their motion is that by which a vessel beats to windward;
the miller spreads or reefs his sails, like a sailor,-reducing
them in a high wind to a mere “pigeon-wing”
as it is called, two or three feet in length, or in
some cases even scudding under bare poles. The
whole structure vibrates and creaks under rapid motion,
like a mast; and the angry vans, disappointed of progress,
are ready to grind to powder all that comes within
their grasp, as they revolve hopelessly in this sea
of air.
When the sun grows hot, I like to
take refuge in a sheltered nook beside Goat Island
Lighthouse, where the wharf shades me, and the resonant
plash of waters multiplies itself among the dark piles,
increasing the delicious sense of coolness. While
the noonday bells ring twelve, I take my rest.
Round the corner of the pier the fishing-boats come
gliding in, generally with a boy asleep forward, and
a weary man at the helm; one can almost fancy that
the boat itself looks weary, having been out since
the early summer sunrise. In contrast to this
expression of labor ended, the white pleasure-boats
seem but to be taking a careless stroll by water; while
a skiff full of girls drifts idly along the shore,
amid laughter and screaming and much aimless splash.
More resolute and business-like, the boys row their
boat far up the bay; then I see a sudden gleam of white
bodies, and then the boat is empty, and the surrounding
water is sprinkled with black and bobbing heads.
The steamboats look busier yet, as they go puffing
by at short intervals, and send long waves up to my
retreat; and then some schooner sails in, full of
life, with a white ripple round her bows, till she
suddenly rounds to drops anchor, and is still.
Opposite me, on the landward side of the bay, the green
banks slope to the water; on yonder cool piazza there
is a young mother who swings her baby in the hammock,
or a white-robed figure pacing beneath the trailing
vines. Peace and lotus-eating on shore; on the
water, even in the stillest noon, there are life and
sparkle and continual change.
One of those fishermen whose boats
have just glided to their moorings is to me a far
more interesting person than any of his mates, though
he is perhaps the only one among them with whom I
have never yet exchanged a word. There is good
reason for it; he has been deaf and dumb since boyhood.
He is reported to be the boldest sailor among all these
daring men; he is the last to retreat before the coming
storm; the first after the storm to venture through
the white and whirling channels, between dangerous
ledges, to which others give a wider berth. I
do not wonder at this, for think how much of the awe
and terror of the tempest must vanish if the ears
be closed! The ominous undertone of the waves
on the beach and the muttering thunder pass harmless
by him. How infinitely strange it must be to
have the sight of danger, but not the sound!
Fancy such a deprivation in war, for instance, where
it is the sounds, after all, that haunt the memory
the longest; the rifle’s crack, the irregular
shots of skirmishers, the long roll of alarm, the roar
of great guns. This man would have missed them
all. Were a broadside from an enemy’s gunboat
to be discharged above his head, he would not hear
it; he would only recognize, by some jarring of his
other senses, the fierce concussion of the air.
How much deeper seems his solitude
than that of any other “lone fisher on the lonely
sea”! Yet all such things are comparative;
and while the others contrast that wave-tossed isolation
with the cheeriness of home, his home is silent too.
He has a wife and children; they all speak, but he
hears not their prattle or their complaints. He
summons them with his fingers, as he summons the fishes,
and they are equally dumb to him. Has he a special
sympathy with those submerged and voiceless things?
Dunfish, in the old newspapers, were often called “dumb’d
fish”; and they perchance come to him as to one
of their kindred. They may have learned, like
other innocent things, to accept this defect of utterance,
and even imitate it. I knew a deaf-and-dumb woman
whose children spoke and heard; but while yet too
young for words, they had learned that their mother
was not to be reached in that way; they never cried
or complained before her, and when most excited would
only whisper. Her baby ten months old, if disturbed
in the night, would creep to her and touch her lips,
to awaken her, but would make no noise.
One might fancy that all men who have
an agonizing sorrow or a fearful secret would be drawn
by irresistible attraction into the society of the
deaf and dumb. What awful passions might not be
whispered, what terror safely spoken, in the charmed
circle round yonder silent boat,-a circle
whose centre is a human life which has not all the
susceptibilities of life, a confessional where even
the priest cannot hear! Would it not relieve
sorrow to express itself, even if unheeded? What
more could one ask than a dumb confidant? and if deaf
also, so much the safer. To be sure, he would
give you neither absolution nor guidance; he could
render nothing in return, save a look or a clasp of
the hand; nor can the most gifted or eloquent friendship
do much more. Ah! but suddenly the thought occurs,
suppose that the defect of hearing, as of tongue,
were liable to be loosed by an overmastering emotion,
and that by startling him with your hoarded confidence
you were to break the spell! The hint is too
perilous; let us row away.
A few strokes take us to the half-submerged
wreck of a lime-schooner that was cut to the water’s
edge, by a collision in a gale, twelve months ago.
The water kindled the lime, the cable was cut, the
vessel drifted ashore and sunk, still blazing, at
this little beach. When I saw her, at sunset,
the masts had been cut away, and the flames held possession
on board. Fire was working away in the cabin,
like a live thing, and sometimes glared out of the
hatchway; anon it clambered along the gunwale, like
a school-boy playing, and the waves chased it as in
play; just a flicker of flame, then a wave would reach
up to overtake it; then the flames would be, or seem
to be, where the water had been; and finally, as the
vessel lay careened, the waves took undisturbed possession
of the lower gunwale, and the flames of the upper.
So it burned that day and night; part red with fire,
part black with soaking; and now twelve months have
made all its visible parts look dry and white, till
it is hard to believe that either fire or water has
ever touched it. It lies over on its bare knees,
and a single knee, torn from the others, rests imploringly
on the shore, as if that had worked its way to land,
and perished in act of thanksgiving. At low tide,
one half the frame is lifted high in air, like a dead
tree in the forest.
Perhaps all other elements are tenderer
in their dealings with what is intrusted to them than
is the air. Fire, at least, destroys what it has
ruined; earth is warm and loving, and it moreover conceals;
water is at least caressing,-it laps the
greater part of this wreck with protecting waves,
covers with sea-weeds all that it can reach, and protects
with incrusting shells. Even beyond its grasp
it tosses soft pendants of moss that twine like vine-tendrils,
or sway in the wind. It mellows harsh colors
into beauty, and Ruskin grows eloquent over the wave-washed
tint of some tarry, weather-beaten boat. But air
is pitiless: it dries and stiffens all outline,
and bleaches all color away, so that you can hardly
tell whether these ribs belonged to a ship or an elephant;
and yet there is a certain cold purity in the shapes
it leaves, and the birds it sends to perch upon these
timbers are a more graceful company than lobsters
or fishes. After all, there is something sublime
in that sepulture of the Parsees, who erect near every
village a dokhma, or Tower of Silence, upon whose
summit they may bury their dead in air.
Thus widely may one’s thoughts
wander from a summer boat. But the season for
rowing is a long one, and far outlasts in Oldport the
stay of our annual guests. Sometimes in autumnal
mornings I glide forth over water so still, it seems
as if saturated by the Indian-summer with its own
indefinable calm. The distant islands lift themselves
on white pedestals of mirage; the cloud-shadows rest
softly on Conanicut; and what seems a similar shadow
on the nearer slopes of Fort Adams is in truth but
a mounted battery, drilling, which soon moves and slides
across the hazy hill like a cloud.
I hear across nearly a mile of water
the faint, Sharp orders and the sonorous blare of
the trumpet That follows each command; the horsemen
gallop and wheel; suddenly the band within the fort
strikes up for guard-mounting, and I have but to shut
my eyes to be carried back to warlike days that passed
by,-was it centuries ago? Meantime,
I float gradually towards Brenton’s Cove; the
lawns that reach to the water’s edge were never
so gorgeously green in any summer, and the departure
of the transient guests gives to these lovely places
an air of cool seclusion; when fashion quits them,
the imagination is ready to move in. An agreeable
sense of universal ownership comes over the winter-staying
mind in Oldport. I like to keep up this little
semblance of habitation on the part of our human birds
of passage; it is very pleasant to me, and perhaps
even pleasanter to them, that they should call these
emerald slopes their own for a month or two; but when
they lock the doors in autumn, the ideal key reverts
into my hands, and it is evident that they have only
been “tenants by the courtesy,” in the
fine legal phrase. Provided they stay here long
enough to attend to their lawns and pay their taxes,
I am better satisfied than if these estates were left
to me the whole year round.
The tide takes the boat nearer to
the fort; the horsemen ride more conspicuously, with
swords and trappings that glisten in the sunlight,
while the white fetlocks of the horses twinkle in unison
as they move. One troop-horse without a rider
wheels and gallops with the rest, and seems to revel
in the free motion. Here also the tide reaches
or seems to reach the very edge of the turf; and when
the light battery gallops this way, it is as if it
were charging on my floating fortress. Upon the
other side is a scene of peace; and a fisherman sings
in his boat as he examines the floats of his stake-net,
hand over hand. A white gull hovers close above
him, and a dark one above the horsemen, fit emblems
of peace and war. The slightest sounds, the rattle
of an oar, the striking of a hoof against a stone,
are borne over the water to an amazing distance, as
if the calm bay amid its seeming quiet, were watchful
of the slightest noise. But look! in a moment
the surface is rippled, the sky is clouded, a swift
change comes over the fitful mood of the season; the
water looks colder and deeper, the greensward assumes
a chilly darkness, the troopers gallop away to their
stables, and the fisherman rows home. That indefinable
expression which separates autumn from summer creeps
almost in an instant over all. Soon, even upon
this Isle of Peace, it will be winter.
Each season, as winter returns, I
try in vain to comprehend this wonderful shifting
of expression that touches even a thing so essentially
unchanging as the sea. How delicious to all the
senses is the summer foam above yonder rock; in winter
the foam is the same, the sparkle as radiant, the
hue of the water scarcely altered; and yet the effect
is, by comparison, cold, heavy, and leaden. It
is like that mysterious variation which chiefly makes
the difference between one human face and another;
we call it by vague names, and cannot tell in what
it lies; we only know that when expression changes,
all is gone. No warmth of color, no perfection
of outline can supersede those subtile influences
which make one face so winning that all human affection
gravitates to its spell, and another so cold or repellent
that it dwells forever in loneliness, and no passionate
heart draws near. I can fancy the ocean beating
in vague despair against its shores in winter, and
moaning, “I am as beautiful, as restless, as
untamable as ever: why are my cliffs left desolate?
why am I not loved as I was loved in summer?”