There was great excitement both in
the Cathedral and in the seminary, everyone discussing
from morning till night the news from Madrid, for
these were the days of the September revolution.
The traditional and healthy Spain, the Spain of the
great historical tradition had fallen. The Cortes
Constituyentes were a volcano, a breath from the
infernal regions, to those gentlemen of the black
cassock who crowded round the unfolded newspaper,
and, if they found comfort and satisfaction in a speech
of Maesterola’s they would suffer the agonies
of death at the revolutionary harangues, which dealt
such terrible blows at the olden days. The clergy
had turned their eyes towards Don Carlos, who was
beginning the war in the northern provinces; the king
of the Vascongados mountains would be able to remedy
everything when he came down into the plains of Castille.
But years passed by, Amadeus had come and gone, they
had even proclaimed a republic! And yet the cause
of God did not seem to advance much, and Heaven seemed
deaf. A republican deputy proclaimed a war against
God, challenging Him to silence him; and so impiety
stalked along immune and triumphant, and its eloquence
flowed abroad like a poisonous spring.
Gabriel lived in a state of bellicose
excitement he forgot his books, he disregarded
his future, he never thought now of singing his mass.
What would happen to his career now that the Church
was in peril, and that the sleepy poetry of past ages,
that had enveloped him from his cradle like a perfumed
cloud of old incense and dried roses, was on the point
of vanishing?
Often some of the pupils disappeared
from the seminary, and the professors would reply
to the inquiries of the curious with a sly wink.
“They have gone out with
the good sort. They could not see quietly what
was happening ’child’s play,’
‘follies.’”
But nevertheless such follies made
them smile with paternal satisfaction.
He thought to be himself among those
who fled, as the world seemed to be coming to an end.
In certain towns the revolutionary mob had invaded
and profaned the churches; as yet they had not murdered
any of the ministers of God as in other revolutions,
but still the priests were unable to go about the
streets in their cassocks for fear of being hooted
and insulted. The remembrance of the archbishops
of Toledo, those brave ecclesiastical princes, implacable
warriors against the infidels, fired his warlike feelings.
As yet he had never been away from Toledo, away from
the shadow of its Cathedral; Spain seemed to him as
vast as all the rest of the world put together, and
he began to feel the ardent desire of seeing something
new, of seeing closer all the wonderful things he
had read about in his books, stirring within him.
One day he kissed his mother’s
hand, without feeling any very great emotion towards
the trembling and nearly blind old woman, for the
seminary had for him more tender memories than the
house of his fathers, smoked his last cigar with his
brothers in the garden without revealing his intentions
to them, and that night he fled from Toledo with a
scapulary of the Heart of Jesus sewed into his waistcoat,
and a beautiful silk scarf in his wallet, one of those
worked by white hands in the convents of the city.
The son of the bell-ringer went with him. They
joined one of the insignificant bands who were devastating
Murcia, but they soon went on to Valencia and Catalonia,
anxious to perform greater exploits for the cause
of God than merely stealing mules and extorting contributions
from the rich.
Gabriel felt an intense delight in
this wandering life, with its continual alarms owing
to the proximity of the troops.
He had been made an officer at once,
on account of his education, and because of the letters
of recommendation that certain of the prebends of
the Metropolitan Church had given him; letters lamenting
greatly that a youth of so much theological promise
should go and risk his life like a simple sacristan.
Luna enjoyed the free and lawless
life of war with the zest of a collegian out of bounds;
but he could not hide the feeling of painful disillusion
that the sight of those armies of the Faith caused
him. He had expected to find something akin to
the ancient crusading expeditions: soldiers who
fought for an ideal, who bent the knee before beginning
the fight, so that God might be on their side, and
who at night, after a hard-fought field, slept the
pure sleep of an ascetic; instead of which he found
an armed mob, mutinous to their leaders, incapable
of that fanaticism which rushes blindfold to death,
anxious only that the war might last as long as possible,
so that they might continue the life of lawless wandering
at the expense of the country, which they considered
the best life possible; people who at the sight of
wine, women or plunder would disband themselves, hungering,
turning against their leaders.
It was the ancient life of the horde,
surging up through civilisation, the atavic custom
of stealing the stranger’s bread and women by
force of arms, the ancient Celtiberic love of factions
and internal strife, that only caught hold of a political
pretext in order to revive.
Gabriel, with very rare exceptions,
found none in those badly-armed and worse-clothed
bands who fought with a fixed idea; they were adventurers
who wished for war for the sake of war; visionaries
anxious for fortune; country lads from the fields,
who in their passive ignorance had joined the factions,
just as they would have stayed at home if they had
had better counsels; simple souls who firmly believed
that in the towns they were burning and destroying
God’s ministers, and who had thrown themselves
into the fray so that society should not lapse into
barbarism.
The common danger, the misery of the
interminable marches to deceive the enemy, the scarcity
suffered in the barren fields and on the rough hilltops
on which they took refuge, made them all equals, enthusiasts,
sceptics or rustics. They all felt the same desire
to compensate themselves for their privations, to
appease the ravenous beast they felt inside, awakened
and irritated by a life of such sudden changes; as
much by the wild abundance and plundering of a sack
as by the distress endured in the long marches over
interminable plains without ever seeing the slightest
sign of life. On entering a town they would shout,
“Long live religion,” but on the slightest
provocation they would do this, that and the other
in the name of God and all the saints, not omitting
in their filthy oaths to swear by everything most
sacred in that same religion.
Gabriel, who soon became accustomed
to this wandering life, ceased to feel shocked.
The former scruples of the seminarist vanished, smothered
under the crust of the fighting man, which became hardened
with war.
The romantic figure of Dona Blanca,
the king’s sister-in-law passed before him,
like a person in a novel; in her romantic energy this
princess wished to emulate the deeds of the heroines
of La Vendée, and mounted on a small white horse,
her pistol in her belt, and the white scarf tied over
her floating tresses, she put herself at the head of
these armed bands, who revived in the centre of the
Peninsula the strife of almost prehistoric times.
The flutter of the dark riding-habit of this heroine
served as a standard to the battalions of Zouaves,
to the troop of French, German, and Italian adventurers,
the scum of all the wars on the globe, who found it
pleasanter to follow a woman anxious for fame than
to enlist themselves into the foreign legion of Algeria.
The assault of Cuenca, the sole victory
of the campaign, made a deep impression on Gabriel’s
memory; the troops of men wearing the scarf, after
they had knocked down the ramparts as weak as mud walls,
rushed like overflowing streams through the streets.
The firing from the windows could not stop them; they
rushed in pale, with discoloured lips and eyes brilliant
with homicidal mania, the danger overcome, and the
knowledge that they were at length masters of the place
drove them mad; the doors of the houses fell under
their blows, terrified men rushed out to be pierced
with bayonets in the streets, and in the houses you
could see women struggling in the arms of the assailants,
striking them in the face with one hand, while with
the other they struggled to retain their clothes.
Gabriel saw how the roughest of the
mountaineers destroyed in the Institute all the apparatus
of the Cabinet of Physical Science, breaking it in
pieces. They were furious with these inventions
of the evil one, with which they thought the unbelievers
communicated with the Government of Madrid, and they
smashed on the ground with the butt ends of their
muskets, and trampled with their feet, all the gilt
wheels of the apparatus, and all the discs and batteries
of electricity.
The seminarist was delighted at all
this destruction; he also hated, but it was with a
calm, reflective hate bred in the seminary, all positive
and material sciences, for the sum total of his reasoning
was that they came perilously near to the negation
of God; those sons of the mountains in their blessed
ignorance, had without knowing it done a great deed.
Ah! if only the whole nation would imitate them!
In former times there were none of these ridiculous
inventions of science, and Spain was far happier.
To live a holy life, the learning of the priests and
the ignorance of the people was sufficient, for both
together produced a blessed tranquillity; what did
they want more? For so the country had existed
for centuries, all through the most glorious period
of its existence.
The war came to an end, the closely
pursued rebels passed through the centre of Catalonia
and were finally driven over the frontier, where they
were compelled to give up their arms to the French
custom-house officers. Many availed themselves
of the amnesty, anxious to return to their own homes.
Mariano, the bell-ringer, was one of these. He
did not wish to live in a foreign land; besides, during
his absence his father had died, and it was extremely
probable that he might succeed to the charge of the
Cathedral tower if he laid due stress on the merits
of his family, his three years’ campaigning for
the sake of religion, and a wound he had received
in his leg; he would really be able to compare himself
with the martyrs for Christianity.
Gabriel preferred emigration.
“He was an officer and therefore could not take
the oath of allegiance to a usurping dynasty.”
This declaration he made with all the pride learnt
in this caricature of an army, which emphasised all
the ceremonies of ancient warfare, and who, ragged
and shoeless as they were, with their swords by their
sides, never failed to transmit orders to each other
as “high-born officer.” But the real
reason which prevented Luna from returning to Toledo
was that he wished to follow the course of events,
to see new countries and different customs. To
return to the Cathedral would mean to remain there
for ever, to renounce everything in life, and he, who
during the war had tasted of worldly delights, had
no desire to turn his back on them quite so soon;
also he was not yet of age, so he had plenty of time
before him in which to finish his studies; the priesthood
was a sure retreat, but one to which he was in no
hurry to return just at present; besides, his mother
was dead, and his brother’s letters told him
of no alteration in the sleepy life of the upper cloister,
beyond that the gardener was married and that the
“Wooden Staff” was courting a girl in
the Claverías, it being against all the good traditions
of these people to ally themselves with anyone outside
the Cathedral.
Luna lived for more than a year in
the emigrants’ cantonments; his classical education
and the sympathy aroused by his youth smoothed his
path to a certain extent; he talked Latin with the
French abbés, who were delighted to hear about
the war from the young theologian, and at the same
time they taught him the language of the country.
These friends procured for him Spanish lessons among
the upper middle classes who were friendly to the
Church. In these days of penury he was saved
by his friendship with an old legitimist Countess,
who invited him to spend several days in her country
house, introducing the warlike seminarist to all the
grave and pious friends at her assemblies as though
he had been a crusader newly returned from Palestine.
Gabriel’s great desire was to
go to Paris; his life in France had radically changed
his ideas, he really felt as though he had fallen
into a new planet. Accustomed to the monotonous
life in the seminary, and to the nomadic existence
during that mountainous and inglorious war, he was
astonished at the material progress, the refinement
of civilisation, the culture and the well-being of
the people in France. He remembered now with
shame his Spanish ignorance, all that Castilian phantasmagoria,
fed by lying literature, that had made him believe
that Spain was the first country in the world, and
its people the noblest and bravest, and that all the
other nations were a sort of wretched mob, created
by God to be victims of heresy, and to receive overwhelming
punishment each time that they ventured to interfere
with this privileged country, which, though it eats
little and drinks less, has yet produced the holiest
saints and the greatest captains of Christendom.
When Gabriel could express himself
fluently in French and had contrived to save a few
francs for his journey, he went to Paris. A friendly
abbe had procured him employment as corrector of proofs
in a religious library close to Saint Sulpice.
In this priestly quarter of Paris, with its hostels
for the clergy and for religious families, as gloomy
as convents, with its shops full of pious images, which
flood the globe with varnished and smiling saints,
was accomplished the great transformation of Gabriel.
This quarter of Saint Sulpice with
its streets almost Spanish in their silence and peacefulness,
with the sisters in black veils gliding by the walls
of the seminary, drawn by the sound of the bells, was
for the Spanish seminarist what the road to Damascus
had been for the Apostle. The French Catholicism,
cultivated, reasoning and respectful to human progress,
bewildered Gabriel, whose fierce Spanish bigotry had
taught him to despise all profane science. There
was only one true learning in the world, and that
was theology. The other sciences were only toys,
only fit to amuse the eternal infancy of humanity.
To know God and to meditate on the greatness of His
power, this was the only serious study to which men
could devote themselves; machinery, the discoveries
of the positive sciences, in fact everything which
did not treat of divinity and the future life, was
only a bagatelle for the amusement of fools and people
of no faith.
The former seminarist, who from his
earliest childhood had despised all human progress,
was stupefied when he perceived how earnestly all
French Catholicism spoke of it. In correcting
the proofs of so many religious works he could not
but notice the profound respect which this despised
science inspired in the good French priests, men of
such far superior culture to that of the canons down
there. And moreover he noticed a certain humble
shrinking in the representatives of religion when
they came face to face with science a desire
to please, not to be censorious, to help on with their
sympathy any conciliatory solutions, so that dogma
should not fall to the ground, finding no place in
the rapid march of events that was hurrying humanity
into the future with the whirl of its new discoveries.
Entire books were written by eminent priests with
the view of adjusting and bringing into line the revelations
of the holy books and the discoveries of modern science,
even at the risk of doing some violence to the former.
The ancient and venerable Church that Gabriel had seen
in his own country, immovable in its antiquated majesty,
unwilling to move a single fold of its mantle for
fear of losing some of the dust of ages, was stirring
in France, endeavouring to renew itself, throwing on
one side the ancient garments of tradition, like old
rags that would turn it into ridicule, and stretching
out its hands with almost despairing strength to catch
hold of the modern achievements of science; the great
enemy of yesterday, whose appearance had been ushered
in with bonfires and shameful abjurations was
triumphant to-day.
What had that fatal apple of Paradise
contained, that after six thousand years of malediction
that same Church had begun to venerate it, striving
to make it forget its ancient persécutions?
Why was religion, firm as a rock throughout the centuries,
which had defied persécutions, schisms and wars,
beginning to dissolve before the discoveries of a
few men, and entering into that wild current which
sought for the cause and explanation of everything?
If it had the secular support of faith, why should
it seek the assistance of reason to maintain its traditions
and to justify its dogmas?
Gabriel felt the same fever of curiosity
which had obliged him as a child to bend his back
over the old volumes, bound in parchment, in the library
of the seminary; he wished to be acquainted with the
mysterious perfume of that hated science which had
so disturbed God’s priests, and had made them
indirectly deny the beliefs of nineteen centuries.
He wished to know why the sacred books were being
dislocated and tortured in order to explain by geological
periods the creation which God had accomplished in
six days. What danger did they hope to avoid
by making the divinity appear before science in order
to explain its acts and fit them into the decisions
of the latter? Whence came the instinctive fear
of the religious authors of roundly affirming miracles?
attempting instead to justify them by intricate and
tentative reasonings, without daring to adduce as the
decisive proof the incomprehensibility of supernatural
prodigies.
For the time being Gabriel abandoned
the tranquil atmosphere of the religious library.
His reputation as a humanist had reached the ears
of an editor living near the Sorbonne, so, without
leaving the left bank of the Seine, he moved into
the Latin quarter to undertake the correction of proofs
in Latin and Greek. He earned in this way twelve
francs a day far more than those canons
of Toledo, who formerly had appeared to him as great
dukes. He lived in a small inn for students near
to the School of Medicine, and his vehement discussions
at night with his fellow-lodgers over the smoke of
their pipes taught him as much as the books of that
hated science. Those students who lent him books,
or who told him of those he should search for in his
free hours in the library on the hill of Saint Genevieve,
laughed like pagans at the exalted ideas of the former
seminarist.
For two years young Luna did little
else but read; now and again he accompanied his friends
in some escapade, throwing himself into the free and
joyous life of the Quartier, wearing out the elbows
of his sleeves on the tables of the beershops.
The Mimi of Murger often passed before him, but less
melancholy than the creation of the poet, and the
ex-seminarist found his Sunday evening idylls in the
woods surrounding Paris. But Gabriel was not
of an amorous temperament; curiosity and the thirst
for knowledge mastered him, and after these escapades
from which he returned fresher, and with his brain
keener, he threw himself with greater ardour into
his studies.
History, true history, whose cold
clearness contrasted so strongly with that intricate
morass of miracles in the chronicles that he had read
in his childhood, beat down the greater part of his
beliefs. Catholicism was no longer for him the
only religion, neither could he any longer divide
the history of humanity into two periods, that before
and that after the appearance in Judea of a handful
of obscure men, who, spreading themselves over the
world, preached a cosmopolitan morality drawn from
the maxims of Orientals, and from the teachings
of Greek philosophy.
Religions were for him human inventions,
subject to the conditions of existence belonging to
all organisms, its generous infancy capable of blind
sacrifices, its self-contained and masterful manhood,
in which the early sweetness was changed by the authoritative
imposition of its power, and its inevitable age, with
a long agony, in which the sick man, guessing his
speedy end, clings to life with all the energy of
desperation.
His faith in Catholicism as the only
religion disappeared completely; losing his belief
in dogmas he lost also, by inevitable logic, that
belief in the monarchy which had driven him to fight
in the mountains, and he understood clearly now the
history of his country without prejudices of race.
The foreign historians showed him the sad fate of
Spain, arrested in the most critical period of her
development, when she was emerging young and strong
during the most fertile period of the Middle Ages,
by the fanaticism of priests and inquisitors, and the
folly of some of her kings, who, with utterly inadequate
means, wished to revive the empire of the Caesars,
draining the country for this mad enterprise.
Those people who had broken with the Papacy, turning
their backs for ever on Rome, were far happier and
more prosperous than that Spain, which slept like
a beggar at the door of the Church.
At this period of his intellectual
development Gabriel had an ideal, and often of an
evening he would leave his work to go and listen to
him for an hour at the College of France: this
was Ernest Renan; Gabriel admired him for a double
reason, for his talent and for his history. The
great man had also passed through a seminary, and even
now had a priestly look as though he had suffered deeply
from the pressure of the ecclesiastical yoke; he was
a rebel, and Gabriel felt as though he belonged to
his own family. “Truly the hammers to destroy
the temple are forged within the temple,” and
the law fatal to all religions was being accomplished,
when faith vanishes, and the multitude no longer feel
the fervour of early days.
Gabriel was astonished to hear how
the teacher could penetrate the intellectual development
of the Hebrew people, which had served as the basis
of Christianity, as he heard him demolish bit by bit
the immense altarpiece, before which humanity had
knelt for over nineteen centuries. The Spanish
seminarist revolted against his old faith with all
the impetuosity of his vehement temperament. How
could he have believed all that and have considered
it the height of human wisdom! Certainly Christianity
had exercised a beneficial influence at one period
of the infancy of humanity, it had filled men’s
lives in the Middle Ages when there was little to
think of beyond religion, and, in a land desolated
by strife, there was no other refuge for intellectual
thought but the cathedral in the towns and the monastery
in the country. “The fairs the
assemblies for business and pleasure,” said
the master, “were religious feasts; the scenic
representations were mysteries, the journeys were
pilgrimages and the wars crusades.” After
this the ways of life divided religious
life took one way and human life the other. Art
placed nature above the ideal, and men thought more
of earth than of heaven. Reason was born, and
every advance that it made was one step backward for
faith, and at last the time arrived when the clear-sighted,
those who were anxious about the future, began to
ask themselves what the new belief was likely to be
which would replace the moribund religion. Luna
had no doubts on the point it was science,
and science alone, which could fill the vacuum caused
by that religion now dead for ever.
Influenced by the Hellenism of his
master, which he assimilated easily, being accustomed
to daily intercourse with the Greek authors, he dreamed
that the humanity of the future would be an immense
Athens, an artistic and learned democracy governed
by great thinkers, with no strifes but those of the
mind, with no ambition but that of cultivating the
intellect, of gentle manners, and devoted to the joys
of the mind and the culture of reason.
Of all his old beliefs, Gabriel only
retained that of a creative God from a certain superstitious
scruple. His ideas were rather disconcerted by
astronomy, which he had taken up with an almost childish
eagerness, attracted by the charm of the marvellous.
That infinite space in which in olden days legions
of angels had manoeuvred, and which had served the
Virgin as a pathway in her terrestrial descents, he
suddenly found to be peopled with thousands of millions
of worlds, and the more powerful men’s instruments
became the more numerous they seemed to be, the distances
being infinitely prolonged to immensities that were
inconceivable. Bodies were attracted to one another
travelling in space at the rate of millions of miles
a minute, and all this cloud of worlds revolved without
ever passing twice over the same spot in this immensity
of silence, in which fresh stars, and again others
and others, were continually being discovered as the
instruments of observation became more perfect.
This God of Gabriel’s having
lost the corporeal form given to Him by religion,
and as divulged in the history of the creation, lost
at once all His attributes, and being magnified to
fill the infinite and being absorbed into it, became
so impalpable and subtle to the intellect as to appear
a phantasm.
Nothing remained to Gabriel of all
his ancient beliefs. His mind was like a bare
field over which the whirlwind had passed, for his
last belief, which had remained standing like a monolith
in the midst of ruins, the belief in the history of
creation, had now fallen.
But it was impossible to the former
seminarist to remain inactive with his cargo of new
ideas. He felt obliged to believe in something,
to devote to the defence of some ideal all the faith
in his character, to make some use of that fervour
of proselytising which had been so much admired in
the class of eloquence in the seminary, and so revolutionary
sociology took possession of him. First of all
it was Proudhon with his audacious writings, and afterwards
the work was completed by some “militantes”
who were working in the same printing office as himself old
soldiers of the Commune, who had lately returned from
their exile in the prisons of Oceania, and were renewing
their campaign against social organisation with an
ardour increased tenfold by their painful sufferings
and their desire of vengeance. With them he went
to the anarchist meetings; there he heard Reclus and
Prince Kropotkine, and the words of the since deceased
Miquel Bakronhine came to him as the gospel of a Saint
Paul of the future.
Gabriel had met with his new religion,
and he gave himself over to it entirely, dreaming
of the regeneration of humanity through its stomach.
Believing in a future life, misfortunes gave the false
consolation of happiness after death; but all religion
was a lie, there was no other life but that of the
present, and Luna rose in anger against the social
injustice that condemned millions of beings to poverty
and misery for the happiness of a few privileged thousands.
Authority, which was the fount of all evil, was to
him the greatest enemy; it must be destroyed, but
men must be created who were capable of living without
masters, priests or soldiers. The natural gentleness
of his character, and the horror of violence with which
his three years’ campaigning had filled him,
caused him rather to draw back from his new companions,
who, dreaming of hecatombs from dynamite and the dagger
to reform the world, obliged him to accept these new
doctrines through fear. No; he believed in the
strength of the “idea,” and in the innocent
evolution of humanity; he had only to work like the
first apostles of Christianity certain of the future,
but without hurrying, to see his ideas realised; he
had only to fix his eyes on the day’s work,
without thinking of the long years and centuries before
it would bear its fruit.
The ardour of his proselytising made
him leave Paris at the end of five years. He
was anxious to see the world, to study for himself
all these social miseries, so as to judge what forces
these disinherited could command for their great transformation.
Besides, he began to find himself incommoded by the
vigilance of the French police, on account of his
intimacy with the Russian students of the Quartier
Latin young men with cold eyes and limp
and dishevelled hair who were endeavouring to implant
in Paris the vengeances of Nihilism. In London
he came to know a young Englishwoman of weak health,
but burning like himself with all the ardour of revolutionary
propaganda, who would walk from morning till night
in the lanes and surroundings of workshops and laboratories,
distributing pamphlets and printed leaflets that she
kept in a band-box that was always hanging on her
arm. In a short time Lucy became Gabriel’s
companion; they loved each other without excitement,
with a cold and quiet passion, more from community
of ideas than anything else, for the love of revolutionists,
dominated with the thought of rebellion against everything
existing, has not much room for any other feeling.
Luna and his companion went to Holland
and thence to Belgium, settling afterwards in Germany,
always travelling from group to group of “companions,”
taking up different work with that facility of adaptation
which seems universal among revolutionaries, who wander
over the world penniless, enduring every sort of privation,
but finding always in their difficulties some brotherly
hand to raise them and set them again on the path.
After eight years of this life Gabriel’s
friend died of consumption. They were then in
Italy, and Luna, finding himself alone, understood
for the first time how much support the gentle companion
of his life had given him. In his sorrow for
the loss of Lucy he forgot for a while his revolutionary
enthusiasm, lamenting only the void left in his life.
He had not loved her as most men love, but she was
his companion, his sister, they were alike in their
pleasures and their sorrows, and their common poverty
had welded them into one will. Moreover, Gabriel
felt himself aged before his time by this life of
soul-stirring adventures and painful privations.
He had been imprisoned in many places in Europe, being
suspected of complicity with the terrorists, he had
often been beaten by the police, and he began to find
a difficulty in travelling about the Continent, as
his photograph figured with that of several other
“companions” in the central police offices
of the principal nations. He was a vagabond and
dangerous dog, who would end by being kicked out of
every place.
Gabriel could not live alone; he was
accustomed to see those kind blue eyes near him, and
to hear the caressing voice with its bird-like inflexions
which had so much encouraged him in times of trial
and difficulty, and he could not endure the solitude
in a strange land after Lucy’s death. A
great longing for his native land awoke in him, he
wished to return to Spain, to that land he had so often
ridiculed, and which now in spite of its backwardness
seemed to him so attractive. He thought of his
brothers, fixed like plants to the stones of the Cathedral,
never interesting themselves with what took place
in the world, never seeking for news of him, as though
they had entirely forgotten him.
With a sudden impulse, as though he
were afraid of dying away from his native land, he
returned to Spain. In Barcelona some of the “companions”
had obtained for him the management of a printing press,
but before taking up his post he wished to spend a
few days in Toledo. He returned an old man, though
he was barely forty, speaking four or five languages,
and poorer than when he had left it. He found
that his brother the gardener had died, and that the
widow and her son had taken refuge in a garret in
the Claverías, where she supported herself by
washing the canon’s linen. Esteban, the
“Wooden Staff,” received him with the
same admiration he had felt for him while in the seminary.
He talked a great deal about his travels, gathering
together all the people in the upper cloister, so
that they should listen to this man who had travelled
all over the world, just as though he were going about
his own house. In their inquiries they painfully
entangled geography, as they could only comprehend
two divisions in it, the countries of heretics, and
the countries of Christians.
Gabriel pitied the great poverty of
these people, and admired the humbleness of these
Cathedral servants, content to live and die in the
same place, without any curiosity as to what was taking
place outside the walls. The church seemed to
him a huge derelict. It was like the petrified
skeleton of one of those immense and powerful animals
of former days, that had been dead for ages, its body
decayed, its soul evaporated, and nothing left but
this framework, like to the shells found by geologists
in prehistoric strata by whose structure they can
guess at the soft parts of the vanished being.
Seeing the ceremonies of worship which in former days
had so moved him, he felt roused to protest, a longing
to shout to the priests and acolytes to stop, and
withdraw, as their times were passed, and faith was
dead, and it was only from routine and the fear of
outside opinion that people now frequented these places,
which formerly religious fervour had filled from morning
till night.
On his arrival in Barcelona Gabriel’s
life was a whirlwind of proselytising, of struggles,
and of persécutions. The “companions”
respected him, seeing in him the friend of all the
great propagandists of “the idea,” and
one who might himself rank among the most famous revolutionists.
No meeting could be held without the “companion”
Luna; that natural eloquence which had caused such
wonder on his entry into the seminary, bubbled up
and spread like an intoxicating gas in these revolutionary
assemblies, firing that ragged, hungry, and miserable
crowd, making them tremble with emotion at the description
of future societies set forth by the apostle, that
celestial city of the dreamers of all ages, without
property, without vices, without inequalities, where
work would become a pleasure, and where there would
be no other worship but that of science and art.
Some of his hearers, the darker spirits, would smile
with a compassionate gesture, listening to his malédictions
against authority, and his hymns to the sweetness
and triumph to be won by passive resistance. He
was an idealist, one to whom they must listen because
he had served the cause well; they who were the strong
men, the fighters, knew well enough how to crush in
silence that cursed society if it should show itself
deaf to the voice of Truth.
When they exploded bombs in the streets
the “companion” Luna was the first to
be surprised at the catastrophe, he was also the first
to be taken to prison on account of the popularity
of his name. Oh! those two years passed in the
castle of Montjuich! They had ploughed a deep
furrow in Gabriel’s memory, a deep wound that
could not heal, that made him tremble at the slightest
remembrance, disturbing his calm, and making him hot
and cold with terror.
The madness of fear had taken possession
of society, and all laws and regard to humanity, were
trampled under foot to defend it. The justice
of former ages, with its violent procedure was resuscitated
in full civilisation. The judge was distrusted
as being too cultured and scrupulous, and a free hand
was given to the petty officers of justice, ordering
them to introduce afresh all the old instruments of
torture.
In the darkness of the night Gabriel
saw his Moorish dungeon lighted up; some men in uniform
seized him and dragged him down the staircase to a
room where others were waiting with huge cudgels.
A young man with a soft voice, in the uniform of a
lieutenant, and with the lazy manners of a Creole,
questioned him as to the various attempts that had
occurred months before down in the town. Gabriel
knew nothing, had seen nothing. But all the same
these men were your companions; but he, having fixed
his eyes on high, contemplating his visions of the
future, had never realised that all around him this
violence was surging and germinating. His reiterated
negative rendered the men furious; the soft voice
of the Creole became harsh with anger, and with menaces
and blasphemies they all threw themselves upon him,
and the cruel hunt of the man round and round the
dungeon began, the cudgels falling on his body, beat
his head or his legs indifferently, pursuing him into
corners, following him as with a desperate bound he
reached the opposite wall, opening the way with his
bent head, his back resounding like an empty box beneath
the blows. Now and then the desperation of pain
inflamed the victim, the lamb turned into a wild beast,
and before falling to the ground, cowering like a child
before superior numbers, he would throw himself on
the executioners, tearing them, and trying to bite
them. Gabriel kept a button from the lieutenant’s
uniform which had remained in his fingers after one
of these revolts of his weakness.
Afterwards, his tormentors, wearied
by the inutility of their violence, left him forgotten
in the dungeon. A loaf of bread and some bits
of dry salt cod were his only food. Thirst, an
infernal thirst, racked his bowels, contracted his
throat, and burnt his mouth. At first he called
piteously under the door for water, but afterwards
he would beg no more, knowing beforehand what the
answer would be. It was a calculated torture;
they promised him as much water as he wished, after
he should have disclosed the names of the guilty, confessing
things of which he had no knowledge. Hunger strove
in him against thirst, but fearing this latter most,
he would throw this salted food into a corner as though
it were poison. He was delirious with the delirium
of a shipwrecked man tormented with visions of fresh
water in the midst of the salt waves. In his
nightmare he saw clear and murmuring brooks, great
rivers; and seeking freshness for his mouth he would
pass his tongue over the filthy walls, finding a certain
alleviation in the lime of the whitewash.
The privations and the incarceration
disturbed his mind with horrible ravings; often Gabriel
was surprised at finding himself on all fours, growling
and barking opposite the door without knowing how or
why.
His tormentors seemed to forget him;
they had other prisoners to look after. The jailors
gave him water, but whole months passed without anyone
entering his cell. Some nights he would hear vaguely
and far off through the greasy walls wailing and sobs
in the adjacent dungeons. One morning he was
awoke by sounds as of thunder, in spite of a tiny
ray of sunlight filtering through his loophole; hearing
the jailors in the corridors near, he understood the
mystery. They had been shooting some of the prisoners.
Luna received as a happiness this
hope of death; he would renounce with pleasure that
shadow of a life in a small stone box, tormented by
physical pain and the fear of men’s ferocity.
His stomach, weakened by all these privations, refused
for many days, with horrible nausea, to receive the
bitter bread and the coppery mess. His want of
exercise, the want of air, and the bad and scanty
nourishment had made him fall into a mortal anæmia;
he coughed continually, suffering great oppression
on his chest. The knowledge he had acquired of
the human body in his thirst for knowing everything
did not admit of his being mistaken; he would die
as poor Lucy had died.
After a year and a half of imprisonment
he appeared before a council of war, mixed up with
a mob of old men, women, and even quite young people,
all weakened and broken by imprisonment, with their
skin white and thick as chewed paper, and that dazed
look in their eyes that comes from solitary confinement.
Gabriel hoped he would be executed. When the
fiscal came to the name of Luna on the long list he
stopped an instant, shooting a ferocious glance at
him this man was among the theorists.
It appeared from the declarations of witnesses that
he took no direct part in the deeds of violence, and
that in his speeches he had always deprecated them;
still it must be remembered that he was one of the
principal propagandists of anarchism, and that he had
delivered speeches in all the workmen’s societies
frequented by the authors of the attempts.
An elderly captain bent towards another
member of the council, speaking in his ear, but Gabriel
caught his words:
“It is on these gentlemen who
make speeches that we must lay our hand, so that they
may be warned not to lecture any more on Tolstoi or
Ibsen, or any of those foreign worthies who advocate
throwing bombs.”
Gabriel spent many months of solitary
confinement in his prison. From words now and
then dropped by his jailors he could guess at the
fluctuations of his fate. Sometimes he would gather
that he and all his companions in misfortune were
to be sent to the jail in Africa, or again they would
hint at his immediate liberation, or would prophesy
that they were all to be shot en masse.
When at the end of two years he left this gloomy castle,
it was to be embarked with all his companions for
exile. He was only the shadow of a man; his weakness
made his walk as uncertain and tremulous as that of
a child, but he forgot his own misery in trying to
assist those of his companions who were even weaker
than himself, and who bore the cruel scars of the
torments they had endured.
The return to liberty recalled all
his former gentleness and the philosophic pity with
which he surrounded all men, pitying and pardoning
their faults. On landing in England the more violent
of his companions spoke of future vengeance on their
persecutors, while Gabriel asked pardon for them,
as blind instruments employed by society in a moment
of terror, thinking they had saved it by their barbarity.
The climate of London aggravated Gabriel’s
illness, and in about two years he was obliged to
move to the Continent, although England with its absolute
liberty was the only land where he could have lived
quietly and ignored.
His existence was a cruel one, always
a fugitive through the different countries of Europe,
driven from one place to another by the vigilance
of the police, thrown into prison, or expelled on the
slightest suspicion. It was a return to the ancient
persecution of the gipsies, the constant hunting of
independent people, leading vagabond lives, of the
Middle Ages. His illness and his desire for rest
and peace made him return to Spain. Time had
produced a certain amount of tolerance towards the
exiles, and in Spain everything is soon forgotten,
and though the authorities are harder and less scrupulous
than in other countries, still they interfere less
on account of their improvidence and the carelessness
natural to the race.
Sick and without any work by which
he could earn his living, precluded from seeking work
among the printers, as his name was encircled by a
halo which terrified the masters, Gabriel fell into
such extreme poverty that the little help and succour
his companions could afford were unable to relieve
it, and he travelled from end to end of the Peninsula
begging from his fellows and hiding from the police.
His spirit was broken, he was conquered,
and he had no longer strength to continue the struggle.
Nothing remained for him but to die, but merciful
death came slowly to his call. He thought of his
brother, the only affection remaining to him in the
world; he remembered the quiet family in the Claverías,
of which he had caught a glimpse on his last visit
to the Cathedral, and he turned to seek them as his
last hope.
On his return to Toledo, he found
the happy family dissolved; misfortune had come even
to that silent and stagnant corner.
But the Cathedral, insensible to all
human vicissitudes was there, the same as ever, and
to it he clung, hiding himself in its recesses, hoping
to die there in peace, with no other hope but to be
forgotten; dying before his proper time, tasting the
bitter happiness of annihilation, leaving behind him
at the door, like an animal who sheds its skin, all
that rebellion which had drawn upon him the hatred
of society.
His happiness was not to think, not
to speak, to mould himself to that dead world; he
would be among the living statues peopling the upper
cloister, one more automaton; he would imitate those
beings who seemed to have absorbed into themselves
something of the austerity of the granite buttresses,
he would inhale like a healing balsam the scent of
the rusty iron railings and the incense that spread
through the church, the ancient perfume of the past
centuries.