On the morning of Corpus the first
person Gabriel saw on leaving the cloister was Don
Antolin, who was looking over his tickets, placing
them in line in front of him on the stone balustrade.
“This is a great day,”
said Luna, wishing to smooth down Silver Stick.
“You are preparing for a great crowd; no doubt
many strangers will come.”
Don Antolin looked intently at Gabriel,
evidently doubting his sincerity; but seeing that
he was not laughing, he answered with a certain satisfaction.
“The feast is not beginning
badly; there are a great many who wish to see our
treasures. Ay, son! indeed we want it badly.
You who rejoice in our troubles may be satisfied.
We live in horrible straits. Our feast of Corpus
is worth very little compared with former times; but
all the same, what economies we have had to make in
the Obrería, to provide the four ochavos that
the extra festivity will cost!”
Don Antolin remained silent for some
time, still looking intently at Luna, as though some
extraordinary idea had just occurred to him. At
first he frowned as though he were rejecting it, but
little by little his face lit up with a malicious
smile.
“By the way, Gabriel,”
he said in a honeyed tone which contained something
very aggressive, “I remember at the time of the
monument in Holy Week you spoke to me of your wish
to earn some money for your brother. Now you
have an opportunity. It will not be much; still
it will be something. Would you care to be one
of those who carry the platform of the Sacrament?”
Guessing the wish of the malicious
priest to annoy him, Gabriel was on the point of answering
haughtily, but suddenly he was tempted by the wish
to foil Silver Stick by accepting his proposal; he
wished to astound him by acceding to his absurd idea;
besides, he thought that this would be a sacrifice
worthy of the generosity with which his brother treated
him. Even though he could not assist with much
money, he could show his wish to work, and the scruples
of his self-love vanished before the hope of carrying
home a couple of pesetas.
“You do not care about it,”
said the priest in mocking accents, “you are
too ‘green,’ and your dignity would suffer
too much by carrying the Lord through the streets
of Toledo.”
“You are mistaken. As for
wishing it, I do wish it, but you must remember it
is very heavy work for an invalid.”
“Do not let that trouble you,”
said Don Antolin resolutely; “you will be at
least ten inside the car, and I have chosen all strong
men; you would go to complete the number, and I should
recommend you to accept in order to earn a little.”
“Then we will clench the business,
Don Antolin; you may reckon on me, I am always ready
to earn a day’s wage whenever it turns up.”
His great wish to get out of the Cathedral
had finally decided him, his wish once more to walk
through the streets of Toledo, that he had not seen
during his seclusion in the cloister, and without anyone
being able to take notice of him. Besides, the
ironical situation tickled him extremely, that he
of all men with his round religious denials should
be the one to pilot the God of Catholicism through
the devout crowd.
This spectacle made him smile, possibly
it was a symbol; certainly Wooden Staff would greatly
rejoice, he would look upon it as a small triumph
for religion, that obliged His enemies to carry Him
on their shoulders. But he himself would look
upon it in a different way; inside the eucharistic
car he would represent the doubt and denials hidden
in the heart of worship, splendid in its exterior pomp,
but void of faith and ideals.
“Then we are agreed, Don Antolin.
I will come down shortly into the Cathedral.”
They parted, and Gabriel, after quietly
digesting the milk his niece brought him, went down
into the Cathedral without saying a word to anyone
about the work he intended carrying out; he was afraid
of his brother’s objections.
In the lower cloister he again met
Silver Stick, who was talking to the gardener’s
widow, showing her contemptuously a bunch of wheat
ears tied with a red ribbon. He had found it
in the holy water stoup by the Puerta del
Alegria. Every year on the day of Corpus
he had found the same offering in the same place;
an unknown had thus dedicated to the Church the first
wheat of the year.
“It must be a madman,”
said the priest. “What is the good of this?
What does this bunch mean? If at least it had
been a cart of sheaves as in the good old times of
the tenths!”
And while he threw the ears with contempt
into a flower border in the garden, Gabriel thought
with delight of the atavic force which had resuscitated
in a Catholic church, the pagan offering: the
homage to the divinity of the firstfruits of the earth
fertilised by the spring.
The choir was ended and the mass beginning
when Gabriel entered the Cathedral, the lower servants
were discussing at the door of the sacristy the great
event of the day. His Eminence had not come down
to the choir and would not assist at the procession.
He said he was ill, but those of the household laughed
at this excuse, remembering that the evening before
he had walked as far as the Hermitage of the Virgin
de la Vega. The truth was he would not meet his
Chapter; he was furious with them, and showed his
anger by refusing to preside over them in the choir.
Gabriel strolled through the naves.
The congregation of the faithful was greater than
on other days, but even so the Cathedral seemed deserted.
In the crossways, kneeling between the choir and the
high altar, were several nuns in starched linen bibs
and pointed hoods, in charge of sundry groups of children
dressed in black, with red or blue stripes according
to the colleges to which they belonged; a few officials
from the academy, fat and bald, listened to the mass
standing, bending their heads over their cuirass.
In this scattered assemblage, listening to the music,
stood out the pupils from the school of noble ladies,
some of them quite girls, others proud-looking young
women in all the pride of their budding beauty, looking
on with glowing eyes, all dressed in black silk, with
mantillas of blonde mounted over high combs with
bunches of roses aristocratic ladies with
“manolesca” grace, escaped from
a picture by Goya.
Gabriel saw his nephew the Tato dressed
in his scarlet robes like the noble Florentine, striking
the pavement with his staff to scare the dogs.
He was talking with a group of shepherds from the mountains,
swarthy men twisted and gnarled as vine shoots, in
brown jackets, leather sandals, and thonged leggings;
women with red kerchiefs and greasy and mended garments
that had descended through several generations.
They had come down from their mountains to see the
Corpus of Toledo, and they walked through the naves
with wonder in their eyes, starting at the sound of
their own footsteps, trembling each time the organ
rolled, as though fearing to be turned out of that
magic palace, which seemed to them like one in a fairy
tale. The women pointed out with their fingers
the coloured glass windows, the great rosettes on
the porches, the gilded warriors on the clock of the
Puerta de la Feria, the tubes of the organs, and finally
remained open-mouthed in stupid wonder. The Perrero
in his scarlet garments seemed like a prince to them,
and overwhelmed with the respect they felt for him,
they could not succeed in understanding what he said,
but when the Tato threatened with his staff a mastiff
following closely at his master’s heels, those
simple people decided to leave the church sooner than
abandon the faithful companion of their wild mountain
life.
Gabriel looked through the choir railings;
both the upper and lower stalls were full. It
was a great festival, and not only were all the canons
and beneficiaries in their places, but all the priests
of the chapel of the kings, and the prebends of
the Muzárabe chapel those two small
churches who live quite apart with traditional autonomy
inside the Cathedral of Toledo.
In the middle of the choir Luna saw
his friend the Chapel-master in his crimped and pleated
surplice, waving a small baton. Around him were
grouped about a dozen musicians and singers, whose
voices and instruments were completely smothered each
time the organ sounded from above, while the priest
directed with a resigned look the music, which lost
itself feeble and swamped in the solitude of the immense
naves.
At the High Altar, on its square car,
stood the famous Custodia, executed by the celebrated
master Villalpando. A Gothic shrine, exquisitely
worked and chiselled, bright with the shimmering of
its gold in the light of the wax tapers, and of such
delicate and airy work that the slightest motion made
it shiver, shaking its finials like ears of corn.
Those invited to the procession were
arriving in the Cathedral. The town dignitaries
in black robes, professors from the academy in full
dress with all their decorations, officers of the Civil
Guard, whose quaint uniform reminded one of that of
the soldiers of the early part of the century.
Through the naves with affectedly skipping steps came
the children, dressed as angels angels a
la Pompadour, with brocaded coat, red-heeled shoes,
blonde lace frills, tin wings fastened to their shoulders,
and mitres with plumes on their white wigs.
The Primacy got out for this festivity all its traditional
vestments. The gala uniform of all the church
attendants belonged to the eighteenth century, the
time of its greatest prosperity. The two men
who were to guide the car had powdered hair, black
coats, and knee breeches, like the priests of the
last century. The vergers and Wooden Staffs
wore starched ruffs and perukes, and though they had
scarcely enough to eat, brocade and velvet covered
all the people from the Claverías; even the acolytes
wore gold embroidered dalmatics.
The High Altar was decorated by the
“Tanta Monta” tapestries those
famous hangings of the Catholic kings, with emblems
and shields, given by Cisneros to the Cathedral.
The auxiliary bishop said mass, and his attendant
deacons were perspiring under the traditional mantles
and chasubles covered with beautiful raised embroidery
in high and splendid relief, as stiff and uncomfortable
as ancient armour.
The surroundings of the Cathedral
were disturbed by the gathering for the procession;
the doors of the sacristies slammed, opened and
shut hurriedly by the various officials and people
employed. In that quiet and monotonous life the
annual occurrence of a procession which had to pass
through many streets caused as much confusion and disturbance
as an adventurous expedition to a distant country.
When the mass ended the organ began
to play a noisy and disorderly march, rather like
a savage dance, while the procession was being marshalled
in order. Outside the Cathedral the bells were
ringing, the band of the academy had ceased playing
its quick march, and the officers’ words of
command and the rattle of the muskets could be heard
as the cadets drew up in companies by the Puerta Llana.
Don Antolin, with his great silver
staff and a pluvial of white brocade, went from one
place to another collecting the employees of the Church;
Gabriel saw him approaching, red-faced and perspiring.
“To your post; it is time.”
And he led him to the High Altar by
the Custodia. Gabriel and eight other men
crept inside the scaffolding, raising the cloth with
which its sides were covered. They were obliged
to bend themselves inside the erection, and their
duty was to push it, so that it should move along
on its hidden wheels. Their only duty was to push
it; outside, the two servants in black clothes and
white wigs were in charge of the front and back shaft
or tiller, which guided the eucharistic car through
the tortuous streets. Gabriel was placed by his
companions in the centre; he was to warn them when
to stop and when to recommence their march. The
monumental Custodia was mounted on a platform
with a great counterpoise, and between it and the
framework of the car was about a hand’s breadth
of space, through which Gabriel looked, thus transmitting
the orders of the front pilot.
“Attention! March!”
shouted Gabriel, obeying an outside signal.
And the sacred car began to move slowly
down the inclined wooden plane that covered the steps
of the High Altar. It was obliged to stop on
passing the railings. All the people knelt, and
Don Antolin and the Wooden Staffs having opened a
way between them, the canons advanced in their ample
red robes, the auxiliary bishop with his gilded mitre,
and the other dignitaries in white linen mitres
without ornament whatsoever. They all knelt around
the Custodia. The organ was silent, and,
accompanied by the hoarse blare of a trombone, they
intoned a hymn in adoration of the Sacrament; the
incense rose in blue clouds around the Custodia,
veiling the brilliancy of its gold. When the hymn
ceased the organ began to play again, and the car once
more resumed its march. The Custodia trembled
from base to summit, and the motion made a quantity
of little bells hanging on to its Gothic adornments
tinkle like a cascade of silver. Gabriel walked
along holding on to one of the crossbeams, with his
eyes fixed on the pilots, feeling on his legs the
movements of those who pushed this scaffolding, so
similar to the cars of Indian idols.
On coming out of the Cathedral by
the Puerta Llana, the only door in the church on a
level with the street, Gabriel could take in the whole
procession at a glance. He could see the horses
of the Civil Guards breaking the regularity of the
march, the players of the city kettledrums dressed
in red, and the crosses of the different parishes
grouped without order round the enormous and extremely
heavy banner of the Cathedral, like a huge sail covered
with embroidered figures. Beyond, all the centre
of the street was clear, flanked on either side by
rows of clergy and soldiers carrying tapers, the deacons
with their censers, assisted by the roccoco angels
carrying the vessels for the Asiatic perfume, and
the canons in their extremely valuable historical
capes. Behind the sacrament were grouped the authorities,
and the battalion of cadets brought up the rear, their
muskets on their arms, their shaven heads bare, keeping
step to the time of the march.
Gabriel breathed with delight the
air of the public streets. He who had seen all
the great capitals of Europe admired the streets of
the ancient city after his long seclusion in the Cathedral.
They seemed to him very populous, and he felt the
surprise that great modern improvements must cause
to those used to a retired and sedentary life.
The balconies were hung with ancient
tapestries and shawls from Manilla; the streets were
covered with awnings, and the pavement spread thickly
with sand, so that the eucharistic car should glide
easily over the pointed cobble stones.
Up the hills the Custodia advanced
laboriously, the men inside the car sweating and gasping.
Gabriel coughed, his spine aching with the enclosure
in the movable prison, and the dignity of the march
was disturbed by the words of command from the Canon
Obrero, who, in scarlet robes with a staff in his
hand, directed the procession, reproving the pilots
and those who pushed the car inside for their jerky
and irregular movements.
Apart from these discomforts, Gabriel
was delighted with his extraordinary escapade through
the town; he laughed, thinking what the crowd, kneeling
in veneration, would have said had they known whose
eyes were looking out at them from underneath the car.
No doubt many of those officials escorting God, in
their white trousers, red coats, with swords by their
sides and cocked hats would have news of his existence;
they would surely have heard some one speak of him,
and they probably kept his name in their memory as
that of a social enemy. And this reprobate, rejected
by all, concealed in a hole in the Cathedral like
those adventurous birds who rested in its vaultings,
was the man who was guiding the footsteps of God through
this most religious city!
A little after mid-day the Custodia
returned to the Cathedral, passing in front of the
Puerta del Mollete. Gabriel saw
the exterior walls hung with the famous tapestries.
As soon as the farewell hymns were ended the canons
despoiled themselves quickly of their vestments, rushing
to the door on their dismissal without saluting.
They were going to their dinners much later than usual,
as this extraordinary day upset the even course of
their lives. The church, so noisy and illuminated
in the morning, emptied itself rapidly, and silence
and twilight once more reigned in it.
Esteban was furious when he saw Gabriel
emerging from the eucharistic car.
“You will kill yourself, such
work is not for you. What caprice could have
seized you?”
Gabriel laughed. Yes, it was
a caprice, but he did not repent of it. He had
taken a turn through the town without being seen, and
he could give his brother sufficient for two days’
maintenance; he wished to work, not to be a heavy
charge on him.
Wooden Staff was softened.
“You idiot, have I asked anything
of you? Do I want anything else but that you
should live quietly and get better?”
But, as though he wished to acknowledge
this exertion on his brother’s part by something
which would please him, when he returned to the Claverías
he dropped his usual sullen face, and spoke to his
daughter during the meal.
Towards evening the Claverías
were quite deserted. Don Antolin hurried down
with his tickets, rejoicing in the knowledge that many
strangers were waiting for him. The Tato and
the bell-ringer had slipped furtively down the tower
stairs, dressed in their best clothes; they were going
to the bull-fight. Sagrario obliged to be idle
in order to keep the feast day holy, had gone to the
shoemaker’s house, and while he was showing
the giants to the servants and soldiers of the academy,
and the peasants from the country, Luna’s niece
helped to mend the clothes for the poor woman crushed
by poverty and the superabundance of children.
When the Chapel-master and the Wooden
Staff went down to the choir, Gabriel went out into
the cloister. He could only see there a cadet
who was walking up and down, with his hand on the pommel
of his sword, holding it horizontally like the fiery
tizonas of former days. Luna recognised
him by the full pantaloons and the wasplike waist,
which made the Tato declare that this particular cadet
wore stays it was Juanito the cardinal’s
nephew. He often walked in the cloister, hoping
for an opportunity to talk with Leocadia, the beautiful
daughter of the Virgin’s sacristan. From
the parents he had nothing to fear, but the future
warrior had a certain dread of Tomasa, as the old lady
looked on these visits with an evil eye, and threatened
to make them known to his uncle the Cardinal.
Gabriel had often spoken to the cadet,
for when the youth met him in the cloister he always
stopped to speak, endeavouring by the platitudes of
his conversation to justify his presence in the Claverías;
but Luna was surprised to meet him there on a festival
afternoon.
“Are you not going to the bull-fight?”
he inquired. “I thought everyone from the
academy would be in the Plaza.”
Juanito smiled, caressing his moustache;
it was his favourite gesture, as it raised his arm,
giving him the satisfaction of displaying the sleeve
adorned with sergeant’s stripes. He was
not a common cadet, he had his stripes, and though
this did not seem much to one who dreamed of being
a general, still it was a step in the right direction.
No; he did not go to bull-fights. In truth he
was an habitue but he had sacrificed himself
in order to talk for a whole afternoon with his sweetheart
at the door of her house in the silence of the Claverías.
The grandmother had gone down into the garden, and
“Virgin’s Blue” would not be long
in going out and leaving the coast clear, as if the
matter in no way concerned him. “The beautiful
evening, friend Gabriel!” He had far more serious
and important affairs than the new comers at the academy,
who spent all their Sundays at the cafes, or walking
up and down like fools everyone at the academy,
even the professors, envied him his sweetheart.
“And when is the wedding to be?” said
Gabriel gaily.
Master Stripes looked most important
as he replied: “There were many things
to be done before first of all to bring
his uncle to consent, which might not be easy, and
to follow the guiding of his good star to attain a
certain rank; but he was intended for great things,
so it was only a matter of a few years.
“I, friend Luna, am of the stuff
of young generals; it is the good luck of the family.
My uncle, when he was only an acolyte, was certain
he would become a cardinal, and he succeeded.
I shall rise much faster. Besides, you know that
to be an archbishop of Toledo is not a small thing.
My uncle has many friends in the palace, and commands
in the ministry of war just as though he were a general.
In point of fact he is far more a soldier than a cleric!
And to prove it to you, there is the only thing he
has ever written, a prayer to the Virgin for the soldiers
to recite before they go into action.”
“And you, Juanito, do you really
feel any vocation for a military life?”
“A great deal ever
since I knew how to open books and read them I have
wished to rival those great captains that I saw in
the prints, erect on their horses, with swords in
their hands, proud and handsome. Believe me,
no one enters on this career without a vocation; many
are entered in the seminaries against their will,
but no one can make a soldier by force; anyone who
comes to the academy has the longing in himself.”
“And are all of them as sure of the result as
you are?”
“Oh, yes; all,” said the
cardinal’s nephew smiling, “except that
the immense majority have not such probabilities of
making a name. But, such as we are, there is
not one amongst us who dreams of the possibility of
vegetating as a captain in a reserve regiment, or of
dying of old age as a commandant. We all of us
see first of all youth glorified by the uniform, full
of adventures (for you know all the women fight for
us), by the joy of life, loved and respected everywhere,
head and shoulders above our countrymen; and when old
age approaches, and we begin to get fat and bald,
the gold braid of a general, politics, and, who knows,
possibly the portfolio of war! This is in everyone’s
thoughts. No one believes but that the future
holds a baton for him, and that he has only to unhook
it and fasten it to his belt. I know for certain
what is awaiting me, the rest dream and hope for it,
and so we go on living.”
Gabriel smiled as he listened to the cadet.
“You are all deceiving yourselves,
like those poor youths who enter the seminaries, believing
that a mitre awaits them or a fat benefice on the
other side of the door. It is the influence and
attraction still exercised by the great things that
have been. Let us see apart from the
material result of the profession why do
you become soldiers?”
“For the sake of glory!”
said the cadet pompously, remembering the harangues
of the colonel director of the academy. “For
our country, whose defence is entrusted to us! and
for the honour of our flag!”
“Glory!” said Gabriel,
ironically. “I know all about that.
Very often, seeing you all so young and inexperienced,
so full of vain hopes, I have reconstructed in my
own mind what might be called the psychology of the
cadet. I can guess all that you thought before
entering the academy, and I foresee the bitter and
crushing disillusion that awaits you on leaving it.
The history of wars and the artistic trappings of
the uniform have seduced your youth. Afterwards,
warlike tales of an irresistible fascination Bonaparte
with his little band crossing the bridge at Arcola
amid showers of bullets. And then our own generals,
not to go further Espartero at Luchana,
O’Donnel in Africa, and, above all, Prim, that
almost legendary leader, directing the battalion at
Castillejos with his sword. ‘I wish
to be the same,’ say these youths; ‘where
one man has arrived another may also succeed’;
enthusiasm is taken for predestination, and each one
thinks himself created by God on purpose to be a famous
leader. In the meanwhile you live in Toledo,
dreaming of glory, of hairbreadth enterprises, of
gigantic battles and noisy triumphs. But when,
with the two stars on your arm you go to a regiment,
the first thing that comes to meet you at the barrack
gate, even before you receive the salute of the sentry,
is the ugly and disagreeable reality. He who dreams
of covering himself with glory and becoming a great
leader before he is thirty, thinking of nothing but
strategic combinations and original fortifications,
must occupy himself with the washing and decency of
a lot of wild lads, who come in from the fields reeking
with excessive health; try the rations, discuss drawers
and shirts, calculate the lasting of ankle boots and
hempen shoes, and he who never went near the kitchen
at home, was most carefully looked after by his mother,
and thought that everything was women’s work
except giving words of command and drawing soldiers
up in line, now finds the first requirement in a regiment
is to be cook, tailor, shoemaker, etc., very
often receiving reprimands from his superiors if he
prove lazy in those duties.”
“That is true,” said Juanito
laughing; “but without these things there cannot
be an army, and an army is necessary.”
“We are not discussing if it
is necessary or no. I only wish to point out
that you (or perhaps not you, as you enter on a good
footing, but certainly your companions) are self-deceivers,
and are preparing without knowing it the shipwreck
of your lives, precisely like those other youths who,
poorer, or perhaps less energetic, crowd to enter
the Church. The Church has come to an end as there
is no longer faith; military glory has ended in Spain
as there are no longer wars of conquest, and our character
as strong fighting men has been lost for centuries.
If we have a war, it is either civil or colonial wars
that might be called disasters without
glory and without profit, but in which men die as
at Thermopyle or Austerlitz, as a man can only die
once; but without the consolation of fame, or of public
applause, without in fact that aureole that you call
glory. You have all been born too late; you are
the warriors of a people who must perforce live in
peace; just as those seminarists will be the future
priests in a country where there are no longer miracles
nor faith, only routine and utter stagnation of thought.”
“But if we have no foreign wars,
if conquests have come to an end, we serve at least
to defend the integrity of Spanish soil, to guard our
own homes. Is it that you think,” said the
cadet nettled, “we are incapable of dying for
our country?”
“I do not doubt it; that is
the only thing Spaniards are capable of doing, to
die most heroically, but in the end to die. Our
history for the last two centuries has been nothing
but a tale of heroic deaths ’Glorious
defeat in such a place,’ ’Heroic disaster
in some other.’ By sea and by land we have
astonished the world, throwing ourselves blindly into
danger, showing a good front, without flinching, with
the stoicism of a Chinaman. But nations do not
grow great from their contempt of death, but through
their ability to preserve life. The Poles were
the terror of the Turks, and some of the best soldiers
in Europe, yet Poland has ceased to exist. If
any great European power could invade us you
will remark I say could, for in these things
the wish is not the same as the power, I know exactly
what would happen; the Spaniards would know how to
die, but you may be perfectly certain the invaders
would not require more than two battles to sweep away
entirely all our military preparations. And all
this, which could be scattered in a couple of days,
what sacrifices it costs the country!”
“Then,” said the cadet
ironically, “I presume we must suppress the
army, and leave the nation undefended.”
“As things are to-day there
is no hope of that happening. As long as all
Europe is armed and the smallest country has an army,
Spain will have one also. It is not for her to
set an example; and besides, the example would be
of no use, it is as though one having a few thousand
pesetas should endeavour to initiate the remedy
to social injustice by sacrificing himself and giving
them up.”
After a long silence Gabriel spoke
again very quietly, noticing the ironical and even
aggressive manner of the cadet.
“No doubt you are pained by
what I say; believe me I feel it, as I have no wish
to wound the beliefs of anyone, least of all of those
who have formed to themselves an ideal of life.
But truth is truth. The social question does
not trouble you. Is it not so? You know nothing
about it, you have never thought about it for an instant
and it is the same with all your, companions, but
nevertheless, what you suffer in your prestige, in
your love of country and of your standard, has no
other cause but the social disorder at present rampant
in the world. Wealth is everything, capital is
lord of the world. Science directs humanity as
the successor of faith, but the rich have possessed
themselves of its discoveries, and have monopolised
them to continue their tyranny. In the economic
world they have made themselves masters of machinery
and of all progress, using them as chains to enslave
the workman, forcing an excess of production, but
limiting his daily wage to what is strictly necessary.
In the life of nations the same thing repeats itself war
to-day is nothing but an appliance of science, and
the richest countries have acquired the greatest improvements
in the art of extermination. They have crowds
of recruits, thousands of enormous cannon, they can
keep millions of men under arms, with every sort of
modern improvement, without becoming bankrupt.
But to poor countries, their only remaining course
is to hold their tongues, or to rage uselessly, as
the disinherited do against those in possession of
their property. The most cowardly and sedentary
people on the face of the globe may become invincible
warriors if they have the money. The bravery
of chivalry came to an end with the invention of powder,
and the pride of race has faded for ever before the
advent of trade. If the Cid came to life again
he would be in jail, he would have become a highwayman,
unable to adjust himself to the inequalities and injustice
of modern life. If the Gran Capitan were now minister
of war, he would probably be unable even with this
military tax which oppresses the country to put his
regiments in condition to undertake a fresh war in
Italy. It is money, that cursed money! which has
killed the finest part of soldiering personal
bravery, initiative, originality just as
it has crushed the workman, making his life a hell.”
The cadet listened attentively to
Gabriel, understanding for the first time that in
great nations there is something more than the warlike
sympathies of the monarch and the bravery of the army.
He saw suddenly that wealth was the basis and mainspring
of all military enterprise.
“Then,” he said thoughtfully,
“if foreign nations do not attack us it is not
because they fear us.”
“No; that we are permitted to
live in peace is because these omnipotent powers with
all their ambitions and jealousies preserve a certain
equilibrium. They are like the great capitalists
who, occupied with vast projects of speculation, neglect
either from carelessness or contempt the small undertakings
that lie at their door. Do you believe that Switzerland
or Belgium or other small countries live in peace
surrounded by great powers because they have an army?
They would exist just the same if they had not a single
soldier, and the military power of Spain is not greater
than that of one of these small countries; the poverty
of the country and the scanty population oblige us
to be humble. In these days there are two kinds
of armies those organised for conquest and those whose
only use is to keep order at home, that are no more
than police on a large scale, with guns and generals.
That of Spain, however much it costs, and however
much they increase it, comes under the latter classification.”
“And if it is only this,”
said the cadet, “is it not something? We
keep peace at home, and we watch over the tranquillity
of our country.”
“Yes, but that could be done
by fewer people and for less money. Besides,
how about glory? Will you youths, full of illusions,
overflowing with aggressiveness and energy for new
undertakings, resign yourselves to this profession
of watchmen and caretakers to a country? Your
future will be as monotonous as that of a priest in
his cathedral. Every day the same to
drill men to move this or that way, to play at dominoes
or billiards in a cafe, to walk about in uniform or
take a nap in the guard-room. There can be nothing
for you beyond a small disturbance at the tax on provisions,
a strike, a closing of shops to protest against the
taxes, and then to fire on a mob armed with sticks
and stones. If at any time in your life you are
ordered to fire, you may be sure it will be on Spaniards.
The Government do not wish for an army as they know
it is useless for the exterior defence of the nation;
besides, the national finances do not admit of its
maintenance, and they are consequently satisfied with
an embryonic organisation which is always insubordinate,
distracted by incessant and contradictory reforms,
copying foreign improvements as a poor girl copies
the robes of a great lady. Believe me, there is
nothing pleasant in living such a narrowed and monotonous
life, with no other chance of glory but that of shooting
a workman who protests or a people who complain.”
“But, how about liberty?
How about political progress?” inquired the
cadet. “I have heard it said by a captain
at the academy that if the Liberal party exists in
Spain it is through the army.”
“There is a great deal in that,”
said Gabriel. “It is indubitably the most
important service the army has rendered to the State;
without it, who knows where the civil wars would have
ended in this country, so stationary and so timid
about all reforms! I repeat it, I do not ignore
this service, but, believe me, that civil wars between
liberty and political absolutism will never be repeated,
neither could the guerilla warfare of the Independence
with any definite issue. The means of communication
and military progress have put an end to mountain
warfare. The Mauser, which is the arm of the day,
requires well-provided parks of ammunition to follow
it, cartridge magazines at its back, and all this
is incompatible with party fighting.”
“But you will admit that we
are of some use, and that we render the nation good
service.”
“I admit it in the actual state
of things, but I should admit it more fully if you
were fewer. The greater part of the grant is spent,
but all the same you live in poverty, decent and hidden,
but poverty all the same. A lieutenant earns
less than many operatives, but he must buy himself
showy uniforms, be smart, and frequent when he wants
amusement the same places as the rich. He can
only see before him long years of waiting and of hidden
poverty, borne with dignity, until some promotion
provides him with a few duros more monthly. You
all suffer dragging on this existence of slaves to
the sword, the nation who pays grumbles at seeing
you inactive, and forgets other superfluous expenses
to fix its complaints solely on the military.
Believe me, for a modern army, you are too few and
badly organised; to keep the peace at home you are
too many and too dear. The fault is not yours,
your vocation has come too late, when fate has rendered
Spain powerless for adventurous undertakings.
If she revives she will have to follow a direction
which will certainly not be that of the sword.
For this reason I say that these youths stray from
the right path when they seek for glory where their
ancestors thought to find it.”
The appearance of Silver Stick cut
short the dialogue. He ran in, pale with excitement,
gasping, rattling his bunch of keys.
“His Eminence is coming,”
he said, hurriedly. “He is already under
the arch; he wishes to spend the evening in the garden;
it is a whim! They say he is quite unmanageable
to-day.”
And he ran on to open the staircase
del Tenorio, which put the Claverías in
communication with the lower cloister.
The cadet was alarmed at the unexpected
proximity of his uncle. He did not wish to meet
him there, he feared the cardinal’s temper, and
fled towards the tower staircase on his way to the
bull-fight, sacrificing his sweetheart sooner than
meet with Don Sebastian.
Gabriel, who now found himself alone
in the cloister, leant against a column and watched
the progress of this terrible prince of the Church.
He saw him come out of the doorway leading to the abode
of the giants, followed by two servants. Luna
was able to examine him well for the first time.
He was enormous; but in spite of his age carried himself
erectly; over his black cassock with the red borders
hung his gold cross. He was leaning with a martial
air on a staff of command, and the gold tassels of
his hat fell on the pink skin of his fat neck, which
was fringed with white hair. His small and penetrating
eyes looked on all sides in the hopes of discovering
some delinquency, something contravening the established
rules, which would enable him to break out into shouts
and menaces and so give vent to his ill humour and
to the anger which furrowed his brows.
He disappeared by the staircase del
Tenorio, preceded by Don Antolin, who, after opening
the iron gates, had placed himself at his orders,
shaking with fear. The silence and solitude of
the Claverías were undisturbed, it seemed as
though the people hidden in their houses remained
absolutely still, guessing the danger that was passing.
Gabriel, leaning on the balustrade,
watched the cardinal enter the lower cloister, walking
round two sides till he came to the garden gate.
A slight gesture from the prelate was sufficient to
stop the two servants, and he walked on alone through
the central avenue towards the summer-house where
Tomasa was fast asleep between its leafy walls, her
knitting in her hands.
The old woman awoke at the sound of
footsteps, and seeing the prelate, gave a cry of surprise.
“Don Sebastian! You here!”
“I wished to visit you,”
said the cardinal with a benevolent smile, seating
himself on a bench. “It must not be always
you who come to seek me. I owe you many visits,
and here I am.”
Plunging one hand into the depths
of his cassock, he drew forth a small gold case and
lighted a cigarette. He stretched out his legs
with the complacency of one who being always accustomed
to wear the frowning brow of authority, finds himself
for a few moments at liberty.
“But have you not been ill?”
inquired the gardener’s widow. “I
had thought of coming round to the palace this afternoon
to inquire after your health from Dona Visita.”
“Hold your tongue, you fool;
I have never felt better, especially since this morning.
The slap I have given to those by not going
into the choir to pray with them has put me in a splendid
humour, and in order that they may thoroughly understand
my meaning I have come to see you. I wish them
all to know that I am quite well, and that what is
said about my illness is untrue. I wish all in
Toledo to understand that the archbishop will not
see his canons, and that he does so from a sense of
dignity, not from pride, as at the same time he can
come down to see his old friend the gardener’s
widow.”
And the terrible old man laughed like
a child to think of the annoyance this visit would
cause his Chapter.
“Do not believe, however, Tomasa,”
he continued, “that I have come to see you solely
for this reason. I felt sad and worried in the
palace this afternoon. Visitacion was busy with
some friends from Madrid, and I had that heartache
I sometimes feel when I think of the past. I felt
that I must come and see you, more especially as it
is always cool in the Cathedral garden, whereas outside
it is as hot as an oven. Ah! Tomasa! how
strong I see you! So slim and so active.
You wear better than I do; you are not wrapped in
fat like this sinner, and you have not the pains that
disturb my nights. Your hair is still dark, your
teeth are well preserved, and you do not need like
this old cardinal to have a mechanism inside your
mouth; but all the same, Tomasa, you are just as old
as I am. We have very few years of life left to
us, however much the Lord may wish to preserve us.
What would I not give to return to those days when
I ran up to your house in my red gown in search of
your father, the sacristan, and stole your breakfast.
Eh, Tomasa?”
The two old people, forgetting social
differences, recalled the past with the friendly resignation
of those advancing towards death. Everything
was the same as in their childhood the garden,
the cloister; nothing about the Cathedral had changed.
His Eminence, closing his eyes, fancied
himself once more the restless acolyte of fifty years
before; the blue spirals from his cigarette seemed
to carry his thoughts back through the interminable
labyrinths of the past.
“Do you remember how your poor
father used to laugh at me? ‘This boy,’
he would say in the sacristy, ‘is a Sixtus V.
What do you wish to be?’ he would ask me, and
I always gave the same answer, ’Archbishop of
Toledo.’ And the good sacristan would laugh
again at the certainty with which I spoke of my hopes.
Believe me, Tomasa, I thought much of him when I was
consecrated bishop, regretting his death. I should
have been delighted with his tears of joy seeing me
with the mitre on my head. I have always loved
you, you are an excellent family, and have often satisfied
my hunger.”
“Silence, senor, silence, and
do not recall those things. I am the one who
ought to be grateful for your kindness, so simple and
genuine in spite of your rank, which comes next after
the Pope. And the truth is,” added the
old woman with the pride of her frankness, “that
no one is the loser. Friends like I am you can
never have; like all the great ones of the earth,
you are surrounded by flatterers and rascals.
If you had remained a simple mass priest no one would
have sought you out, but Tomasa would have always
been your friend, always ready to do you a service.
If I love you so much it is because you are kind and
affable, but if you had put on pride like other archbishops,
I should have kissed your ring and ’Good-bye.’
The cardinal to his palace, the gardener’s widow
to her garden.”
The prelate received the old woman’s
frankness smilingly.
“You will always be Don Sebastian
to me,” she continued. “When you
told me not to call you Eminence or to use the same
ceremonies as other people, I was as pleased as if
I had been given the mantle of the Virgin del
Sagrario. Such ceremonies would have stuck in
my throat and made me ready to cry out, ’Let
him have his fill of Eminence and Illustrious, but
we have scratched each other thousands of times when
we were little, and this big thief could never see
a scrap of bread or an apricot in my hand without
trying to snatch and devour it!’ You may be
thankful I spoke of you as ’usted’
when you became a beneficiary of the Cathedral, for,
after all, it would not do to ‘thou’ a
priest as if he were an acolyte.”
Silence fell on the two old people,
their eyes wandered tenderly over the garden, as if
each tree or arcade covered with foliage contained
some memory.
“Do you know what I have just
remembered,” said Tomasa. “I remember
that we saw each other just here many many years ago,
at least forty-eight or fifty. I was with my
poor elder sister who had just married Luna the gardener,
and in the cloister wandering round me was he who
afterwards became my husband. We saw a handsome
sergeant come into the summer-house with a great jingle
of spurs, a sword on his arm, and a helmet with a
tail just like the Jews on the Monument. It was
you, Don Sebastian, who had come to Toledo to visit
your uncle the beneficiary, and who would not leave
without visiting your friend Tomasita. How handsome
and smart you were. I do not say it to flatter
you, it is truth. You looked like being a rogue
with the girls! And I still remember you said
something to me about how pretty and fresh you thought
me after so many years absence. You don’t
mind my reminding you of this? Really? It
was only a soldier’s gallant jests. How
many would say that now? When you left, I said
to my brother-in-law, ’He has put on the uniform
for good and all; it is useless his uncle, the beneficiary,
thinking of making a priest of him.’”
“It was a youthful sally,”
said the cardinal smiling, remembering with pride
the dashing sergeant of dragoons. “In Spain,
there are only three professions worthy of a man the
sword, the Church and the toga. My blood was
hot and I wanted to be a soldier, but unluckily I fell
on times of peace, my promotion would have been very
slow, and in order not to embitter my uncle’s
last years, I renewed my studies and turned to the
Church. One can serve God or one’s country
as well in one place as another, but, believe me,
very often in spite of the pomp of my cardinalate
I think with envy of that soldier you saw. What
happy times they were! Even now the sword draws
me. When I see the cadets I would gladly exchange
with some of them, giving them my crozier and cross.
And possibly I might have done better than any of them!
Ah! if only the great times of the reconquest could
return when the prelates went out to fight the Moors!
What a great Archbishop of Toledo I should have been!”
And Don Sebastian drew up his fat
old body, and proudly stretched out his arms with
all the remains of his former strength.
“You have always been a strong
man,” said the gardener’s widow. “I
say very often to some of the priests who speak of
you and criticise you: ’You must not trifle
with His Eminence, he is quite capable of going one
day into the choir some he likes and some
he does not and driving you all out at
one fell swoop.’”
“I have more than once been
tempted to do so,” said the prelate firmly,
his eyes flashing with energy, “but I have been
prevented by the thought of my charge and my character
as a peaceful priest. I am the shepherd of a
Catholic flock, not a wolf who tears the sheep in
his fierceness. But sometimes I can bear no more,
and God forgive me! I have often been tempted
to raise the shepherd’s crook and chastise with
blows that rebel flock who harbour in the Cathedral.”
The prelate became excited, speaking
of his quarrels with the Chapter; the placidity of
mind produced by the quiet of the garden disappeared
as he thought of his hostile subordinates. He
felt obliged as at other times to confide his troubles
to the gardener’s widow with that instinctive
kindly feeling which often causes highly-placed people
to confide in humble friends.
“You cannot imagine, Tomasa,
what those men make me suffer. I will subdue
them because I am the master, because they owe me obedience
by the rule of discipline without which there can
be neither Church nor religion; but they oppose and
disobey me. My orders are carried out with grumbling,
and when I assert myself even the last ordained priest
stands on what he calls his rights, lays complaints
against me and appeals either to the Rota or to
Rome. Let us see, am I the master or am I not?
Ought the shepherd to argue with his sheep and consult
how to guide them in the right way? They sicken
and weary me with their complaints and questions.
There is not half a man amongst them, they are all
cowardly tale-bearers. In my presence they lower
their eyes, smile and praise His Eminence, and as
soon as I turn my back they are vipers trying to bite
me, scorpion tongues which respect nothing. Ay,
Tomasa, my daughter! pity me! when I think of all this
it makes me quite ill.”
The prelate turned pale, rising from
his seat as though he felt a sudden spasm of pain.
“Do not worry yourself so much,”
said the old woman, “you are above them all,
and you will overcome them.”
“Clearly, I shall defeat them;
if not, it would fill my cup, for it would be the
first time I had been vanquished. These squabbles
among comrades do not trouble me much after all, for
I know in the end I shall see my detested enemies
at my feet. But it is their tongues, Tomasa! what
they say about the beings I love most in the world,
that is what wounds me, and is killing me.”
He sat down again, coming quite close
to the gardener’s widow, so as to speak in a
very low voice.
“You know my past better than
anyone; I have such great confidence in you that I
have told you everything. Besides, you are very
quick, and if I had not told you, you would have guessed.
You know what Visitacion is to me, and most certainly
you are aware of what those wretches say about her.
Do not play the fool; everyone inside and outside
the Cathedral listens to these calumnies and believes
them. You are the only one who does not credit
them because you know the truth. But ay! the
truth cannot be told, I cannot proclaim it, these
robes forbid me.”
And he seized a handful of his cassock
with his clenched fingers as if he would rend it.
A long silence followed. Don
Sebastian looked fixedly at the ground, clutching
with his hands as though he were trying to grasp invisible
enemies; every now and then he felt a stab of pain
and sighed uneasily.
“Why do you think about these
things?” said the gardener’s widow; “they
only make you ill, and you ought not to have disturbed
yourself to come and see me, you would have done better
to remain in the palace.”
“No, you distract my mind from
them, it is a great comfort to tell you of my troubles.
Up there I feel in despair, and have to exert all
my self-command to suppress my anger. I do not
wish my servants to understand, for they are quite
capable of laughing at me, neither do I wish poor
Visitacion to know anything. I cannot dissimulate.
I cannot feign happiness when I am so irritated!
What a hell I suffer! I cannot say that I have
been a man, and that I have been weak as the flesh
of which I am made, that I have with me the fruit
of my faults, and that I will not separate myself
from them, though persecuted by calumny. Every
man acts as he is able, and I wish to be good in spite
of my faults. I might have separated from my
children, I might have deserted them, as others have
done to preserve their reputation as saints, but I
am a man, and I am proud of them; I am a man with all
his defects and all his virtues, neither greater nor
less than the general run of humanity. The feeling
of paternity is so deeply rooted in me that I would
sooner lose my mitre than abandon my children.
You remember when Juanito’s father, who passed
as my nephew, died, how deeply I felt it, I thought
I should have died also. Such a fine, handsome
man, and with such a brilliant future before him!
I would have made him a magistrate, president of the
supreme court, minister, anything I wished! And
in twenty-four hours he was dead as though Heaven wished
to punish me. It is true I have my grandson remaining,
but this Juanito in no way resembles his father, and
I confess it to you, I do not care much for him.
I can only see in him the most distant reflection
of my poor son. Of my past, of that time which
was the happiest of my life, all I have left me is
Visitacion. She is the living image of the poor
dead one. I worship her! and this feeble ray
of happiness these wretched people disturb with their
calumnies. It is enough to make one kill them!”
Overcome by the happy recollection
of the spring-time which had flowered during the first
years of his episcopate, far away in an Andalusian
diocese, he repeated once again to Tomasa the tale
of his relations with a certain devout lady, who from
her childhood had felt a horror of the world.
Devotion had drawn them together, but life was not
long in asserting her rights, opening herself a way
by their almost mystical relations, and finally uniting
them in a carnal embrace. They had lived faithful
to each other in the secrecy of ecclesiastical life,
loving each other with scrupulous prudence, so that
no rumour of their relations had ever publicly transpired,
until she died, leaving two children. Don Sebastian,
a man of strong passions, was almost vehement in his
paternal feelings those two beings were
the image of the poor dead woman, the remembrance of
the only idyll which had softened a life wholly given
over to ambition, and the calumnies circulated by
his enemies, founded on the presence of his daughter
in the archiepiscopal palace nearly drove him mad.
“They believe her to be my mistress!”
he said angrily. “My poor Visitacion, so
good, so affectionate, so gentle to all, changed to
a courtesan by these wretches! A sweetheart that
I have taken for my amusement from the college of
Noble Ladies! As if I, old and infirm, were able
to think of such things! Brutes! wretches!
Crimes have been committed for less!”
“Let them say on. God is in heaven and
sees us all.”
“I know it, but this is not
enough to quiet me. You have children, Tomasa,
and you know what it is to love them. It is not
only what is done against them that wounds us, but
what is said. What days of suffering I endure!
You know since my boyhood all my dreams have been
to rise to where I am. I used to look at the throne
in the choir and think how comfortable I should be
in it of the immense happiness of being
a prince of the Church. Well, now I am on the
throne. I have spent half a century removing
the stones from my path, leaving my skin and even
my flesh on the brambles of the hillside. I only
know how I was able to rise from the black mass and
obtain a bishopric! Afterwards now
I am an archbishop! now I am a cardinal! At last
I can rise no higher! And what is it all?
Happiness always floats before us like the cloud of
light which guided the Israelites. We see it,
we almost touch it, but it never lets itself be caught.
I am more unhappy now than in the days when I struggled
to rise, and thought myself the most unfortunate of
men. I am no longer young; the height on which
I stand draws all eyes to me and prevents me defending
myself. Ay, Tomasa! pity me, for I am worthy
of compassion! To be a father and to be obliged
to hide it as a crime! To love my daughter with
an affection which increases more and more as I draw
nearer to death, and have to endure that people should
imagine this pure affection to be something so repugnant!”
And the terrible glance of Don Sebastian,
which terrified all the diocese, was clouded with
tears.
“Moreover, I have other troubles,”
he went on, “but they are those of a far-seeing
man who fears the future. When I die, all that
I have will be my daughter’s. Juanito inherits
what belonged to his mother, who was rich; besides,
he has his profession and the support of my friends.
Visitacion will be very rich. You know my adversaries
throw in my face what they call my avarice. Avaricious
I am not, but foreseeing, and anxious for the well-being
of those belonging to me. I have saved a great
deal. I am not one of those who distribute bread
at the gate of his palace, nor who seek popularity
through almsgiving. I have pasture lands in Estremadura,
many vineyards in La Mancha, houses, and above all
State stock much stock. As a good Spaniard
I have wished to help the Government with my money,
more especially as it bears interest. I do not
quite know how much I possess, but certainly twenty
millions of reals, and probably more, all saved by
myself and increased by fortunate speculations.
I cannot complain of fate, and the Lord has helped
me. Everything is for my poor Visitacion.
I should delight in seeing her married to a good man;
but she will not leave me. She is drawn to the
Church, and that is my fear. Do not be surprised,
Tomasa; I, a prince of the Church, fear to see how
she is attracted by devotion, and I do all I can to
turn her from it. I respect a religious woman,
but not one who is only happy in the Church.
A woman ought to live; she ought to be happy as a mother.
I have always looked badly on nuns.”
“Let her be, senor,” said
the gardener’s widow; “there is nothing
strange in her love for the Church. Living as
she does she could scarcely do otherwise.”
“For the present time, I have
no fear. I am by her side, and her being fond
of the society of the nuns signifies very little to
me. But I may die to-morrow, and just imagine
what a splendid mouthful poor Visitacion and her millions
would be, left alone, with this predilection to religious
life, of which those cunning people would be sure
to take advantage! I have seen a great deal.
I belong to the class, and I am in the secret.
There is no lack of religious orders who devote themselves
to hunting heiresses for the greater glory of God,
as they say. Besides, there are many foreign nuns
with great flapping caps travelling about here, who
are lynxes for that sort of work, and I am terrified
lest they should pounce on my daughter. I belong
to the ancient Catholicism, to that pure Spanish religion,
free from all modern extravagances. It would
be sad to have spent my life in saving, only to fatten
the Jesuits or those sisters who cannot speak Castilian.
I do not wish my money to share the fate of that of
the sacristans in the proverb. For this reason,
to the annoyance I feel at my struggles with this
inimical Chapter, I must add the distress I feel at
my daughter’s feeble character. Probably
she will be hunted; some rake will laugh at me and
possess himself of my money.”
Excited by his gloomy thoughts, he
gave vent to an interjection both caustic and obscene,
a memory of his soldiering days; in the presence of
the gardener’s widow there was no need to control
himself, and the old woman was accustomed to this
relief of his temper.
“Let us see,” he said
imperiously after a long silence. “You,
who know me better than anyone, am I as bad as my
enemies suppose? Do I deserve that the Lord should
punish me for my faults? You are one of God’s
souls, simple and good, and you know more of all this
by your instinct than all the doctors of theology.”
“You bad, Don Sebastian?
Holy Jesus! You are a man like all others, neither
more nor less; but you are sincere, all of one piece,
without deceit or hypocrisy.”
“A man you have said
it. I am a man like the rest. We who attain
a certain height are like the saints on the fronts
of the churches: from below we cause admiration
for our beauty, but viewed closely we cause horror
from the ugliness of the stones corroded by time.
However much we wish to sanctify ourselves, keeping
ourselves apart, we are still nothing but men creatures
of flesh and blood like those who surround us.
“In the Church those who free
themselves from human passion are most rare.
And who knows if, even among those few privileged ones,
some are not driven by the demon of vanity to increase
the asceticism of their lives, thinking of the glory
of being on an altar! The priest who succeeds
in subduing his flesh falls into avarice, which is
the ecclesiastical vice par excellence.
I have never hoarded from vice; I have saved for my
own, but never for myself.”
The prelate was silent for a long
while; but in his irresistible desire to confide in
the simple old woman he went on.
“I am sure that God will not
despise me when my hour comes. His infinite mercy
is above all the littleness of life. What has
been my fault? To have loved a woman, as my father
loved my mother; to have had children as the apostles
and saints had. And why not? Ecclesiastical
celibacy is an invention of men, a detail of discipline
agreed upon at the councils; but the flesh and its
exigencies are anterior by many centuries; they date
from Paradise. Whoever crosses this barrier,
not from vice, but from irresistible passion, because
he cannot conquer the impulse to create a family and
to have a companion, fails indubitably towards the
laws of the Church, but he does not disobey God.
I fear the approach of death; many nights I doubt and
tremble like a child. But I have served God in
my own way. In former times I would have served
Him with my sword, fighting against the heretics.
Now I am His priest and do battle for Him whenever
I see the impiety of the age curtailing anything of
His glory. The Lord will forgive me, receiving
me into His bosom. You, who are so good, Tomasa,
and have the soul of an angel beneath your rough exterior,
do you not think so?”
The gardener’s widow smiled,
and her words fell slowly on the silence of the dying
evening.
“Tranquillise yourself, Don
Sebastian. I have seen many saints in this house,
and they have been worth much less than you. To
ensure their salvation they would have abandoned their
children. To maintain what they call purity of
soul they would have renounced their family.
Believe me, no saints enter here; they are men, nothing
but men. You have nothing to repent of in following
the impulse of your heart. God created us in
His image and likeness, and also planted in us family
love. All the rest, chastity, celibacy and other
trifles, you invented for yourselves, to distinguish
yourselves from the common herd of people. Be
a man, Don Sebastian, and the more you show yourself
such the better it will be for you, and the better
the Lord will receive you in His glory.”