They buried Mrs. Johnson very soon.
As one of the neighbours sensibly, if rather crudely,
remarked, “Their cabins were too small for them
to keep corpses knocking around in them.”
And so the second day after her death, in a flood
of thin, sweet sunshine, they buried her who had so
loved the light and the sun, and had longed so wearily
for them through so many days.
Katrine and Talbot stood side by side
at the open grave. He had been in the town that
day and met Katrine on the street, learned from her
where she was going, and accompanied her. He
knew something of all she had done for the dead woman,
and he watched her now with interest and surprise
at her composure. Katrine’s face was unmoved,
and her eyes were dry through it all.
“Another that gold has killed,”
she said to him as they turned away, and her face
looked grave and grey in the flood of the cold sunlight.
Will was not present. He was
down at the “Pistol Shot.” He had
been on a big drunk for the past two days, not even
returning to his cabin at night, and the body of his
wife would have lain unguarded had not Katrine brought
her fur bag and slept beside it each night on the
deserted hearth. Little Tim had been taken in
by a neighbour, all the mothers round seeming anxious
for the honour after it was known that Will had “made
his strike.”
They walked in absolute silence for
some time up the incline. Talbot was going back
to the west gulch, and Katrine said she would walk
a little of the way in that direction too. The
afternoon was bright and clear, and the air singularly
still, so still that the intense cold was hardly realised.
The rays of sunshine struck warmly across the snow
banks piled on each side of the narrow path they were
treading. The sky was pale blue, and the points
of the straight larches on the summit of the ridges
cut darkly into it like the points of lances.
There was something in the atmosphere that recalled
a day in late autumn in England. They were nearing
the top of the ridge, and both had their gaze bent
on the narrow ascending path before them, when suddenly
a tiny object darted into the middle of it and ran
up the opposite bank. On the instant Katrine drew
one of the pistols from her belt and fired. The
little dark form rolled down the bank, dropped back
into their path, and lay there motionless. It
was a fine shot, for the tiny moving thing was fully
thirty yards from them and looked hardly the size
of a dollar. Talbot glanced at her with startled
admiration. He himself never shot except for food
or other necessity, and wanton killing rather annoyed
him than otherwise, but here the skill and the correctness
of wrist and eye were so obvious that they compelled
him to an involuntary admiration.
“You are a good shot!”
he exclaimed, looking at the bright, clear-cut face
beside him, warmed into its warmest tints by the keen
air and the continuous mounting of their steps.
“But not a good woman,”
she answered shortly, quickly reading the thoughts
that accompanied his words. She did not look at
him, but straight ahead.
“You might be both,” he
said, with a sudden impulse of interest and regret.
Katrine laughed.
“I don’t know,”
she said lightly. “Good women are not usually
good shots. You don’t generally find them
combined. But any way, what have I to do with
goodness? I don’t need it in my business.”
He did not answer, and they walked
on in silence till they came up to the little dark
lump in the road. It was a small marmot.
Katrine glanced at it and passed on. Talbot stooped
and picked up the scrap of blood-stained fur.
“What did you do it for?” he asked curiously.
“Practice, that’s all,” she answered.
“Don’t you feel sorry to kill merely for
the sake of practice?”
“No. I should have been
sorry if I had wounded it; but it’s a good thing
to be dead, I think. I wouldn’t have shot
unless I had been almost entirely sure I should kill
it.”
There was another silence, and then
she said suddenly, “One must keep up one’s
practice here, going about as I do in all sorts of
places and making my living as I do. These,”
and she tapped her pistols, “are my great protection.
Only last night a great brute leaned over me and wanted
to kiss me-would have done, only he saw
I should shoot him if he did.”
“Would you shoot a man for kissing
you?” replied Talbot in an astonished tone,
elevating his eyebrows.
“Yes. Why, I’d rather
be shot than kissed!” exclaimed the girl fiercely,
with an angry flush on her smooth cheek.
Talbot looked at the contemptuous,
curling lips, at the whole beautiful hard face beside
him, and walked on in silence, wondering. Her
momentary anger was gone directly, and they were good
comrades all the rest of the way.
At the point where she stopped to
say good-bye to him, she held out her hand: “Thank
you for coming to the burial with me, it was good of
you,” and she pressed his hand with a grateful
smile.
It was about a fortnight later on,
one of those dreary grey afternoons of late winter,
nearly dark already, though still early by the clock,
and the mercury in the thermometers had gone out of
sight and stayed there. Katrine came tripping
along a side street on her way back to the row, warm
in her skin coat, and her face all aglow and abloom
under her fur cap. She had turned into the “Swan
and Goose” saloon on her way up, had put in
half-an-hour over a game, and won a fat little canvas
bag stuffed with gold dust; had thinned it out somewhat
in hot drinks across the bar, and now, warmed through
with rum, and light-hearted, she was returning with
the bag still well lined in her waist-belt.
She had recovered from the great shock
of Annie’s death. Her nature, though essentially
kind, was not of that soft, tender stamp that receives
deep and painful impressions from other’s sufferings.
She would exert herself strenuously for another, as
she had done for Annie, but it was not in her nature
to sorrow long or deeply for the irrevocable.
There was a certain hardness and philosophy in her
temperament that her life and surroundings and all
her experience had tended to develop. And in
Annie’s death there was nothing striking or unusually
sad in this corner of the world, so crowded with scenes
of suffering, so filled with pathos of every form.
There were women hoping and waiting, and longing and
starving, in every street of the town, she knew; sickness
and sorrow and death looked her in the eyes from some
poor face at every corner. Annie had been but
one poor little unit in the crowd of sufferers, but
one example of the misery of the town, the plague-stricken
town, the town stricken with a curse-the
curse of the greed of gold.
Matters had brightened very much in
Dawson lately, a new feeling of hope and fresh life
had gone through the town. The weather was less
severe, the days were lengthening, the skies were
brighter, the sickness had died out, and people went
about their work looking cheerful again; and Katrine,
freed from her anxieties and nursing, felt her elastic
spirits bound upwards in response to the general brightness
of the camp.
She came along humming behind her
closed lips, and then suddenly turning a corner, stopped
dead short with a horrified stare in her eyes.
She had come round by one of the lowest dens in the
city. Katrine knew it both inside and out, for
there was no place from hut to hut in Dawson that
she was afraid to enter. The door was standing
open. It opened inwards, and there was a group
of men, some inside and some outside, and amongst
them they were forcing into the street a drunken woman.
The entry to the place was beneath the level of the
ground, and reached by a few uneven, miry steps, and
up these the unfortunate was blindly stumbling under
a rain of blows, pushes, and curses. She was
old, and her hair streamed in ragged streaks across
her bloodshot eyes, her tawdry skirt was long, and
got under her unsteady feet. Just as she had managed
to totter to the topmost step, a young man in the
group behind her struck her a heavy blow between the
shoulders. She tripped in the long skirt and trod
on it, tearing it with a ripping sound from the waist,
and fell forward, striking her face on the uneven
frozen ground. Katrine sprang forward, but before
she could reach her the woman had staggered to her
feet and turned to face her tormentors, the blood
streaming now from her cut lips, her trembling hands
vaguely grasping at her torn skirt and trying to keep
it to her waist. A roar of laughter burst from
the men at the pitiful sight, and then died suddenly
as they recognised Katrine. She stepped in front
of the old woman, and faced them with a scorn in her
eyes beyond all words. Then she turned in silence,
put her arm round the helpless creature’s waist,
and supported her frail, tottering steps over the
slippery, uneven ground. For an instant the men
stood abashed and ashamed, then when the spell of
those great fearless, scornful eyes was removed, their
natures reasserted themselves, and a general laugh
went round.
“Birds of a feather!”
shouted one, mockingly, as the two retreating figures
disappeared in the gathering darkness. Katrine
heard it, and winced; but she did not relax the hold
of her supporting arm, and by gentle and repeated
questioning managed to elicit from the helpless old
being where she lived. Katrine turned her steps
in the given direction, and drawing out her handkerchief
wiped the blood from the old woman’s face, and
smoothed her straggling grey hair back behind her ears.
When they reached her cabin at last, Katrine saw that
the stove was black and empty. There was no light
of any sort in the place, and the freezing darkness
of the interior chilled her through. She would
not leave the old woman until she had lighted a fire
and candle for her and got her to bed; then, without
waiting to listen to the mumbled and incoherent thanks
showered upon her, she went out gently and on to her
own place. She felt in a very serious mood as
she made her cup of coffee and cooked herself a plate
of bacon, and then sat down in the red glow of her
well-tended hearth to her solitary meal.
“Birds of a feather!”
that hateful sentence echoed round her, until the
silent walls themselves seemed taunting her. Was
she not, after all, really akin to that old woman,
and might she not some day end like her? What
was all her own drinking and card-playing and knocking
about in the saloons to end in? She shivered,
and threw a frightened glance round her. This
girl, who would have laughed all sermons, advice, and
admonitions scornfully aside, was almost startled now
into a sudden reformation by the chance object-lesson
of this afternoon. She could not forget it, and
in the silence the whole scene rose up vividly before
her. She began to long for Stephen to come and
break the silence, and glanced impatiently at the
clock many times. He was coming in to town that
night, she knew. It was a relief such as she had
never experienced when at last he arrived, and she
had not her own company only any longer.
She was unusually silent all the evening.
Stephen did not try to force her into conversation;
he was content to sit on the opposite side of the
hearth and let his eyes rest upon her in silence.
She was paler, he thought, as he watched the orange
light from the flames play over the oval face and
throw up its regular lines. She was sitting sideways
to him, gazing absently into the heart of the glowing
coals, and her shadow, formed by the lamp between
her and Stephen, fell strongly and clearly outlined
upon the opposite wall. Stephen sat in his corner
and gazed at it through half-closed eyes. He
had been working hard all day, and in the keen, biting
air; the warmth and the rest were grateful to him.
The silence in the room had lasted so long that he
began to feel drowsy under the influence of this quiet
warmth. He watched the shadow sleepily, and dreamy
fancies floated across his brain. The clean-cut,
delicate profile was magnified to colossal proportions
on the blank wall. So it seemed to Stephen that
beautiful presence would dominate his life, fill in
completely the blank of his colourless existence, as
the large shadow filled the wall. Then, as his
gaze followed its outlines, he saw what his eyes had
not found before: a huge upright line of shade,
formed by her chair back, ran up beside and mingling
with the other lines. It seemed to curve over
towards her shoulder, and then a few seconds more,
and to Stephen’s drowsy gaze, the harsh line
expanded into a hideous grotesque figure. Out
of those few shades upon the wall there leaped a picture
to his eyes: the girl, and at her side, bending
over her, a hideous devil, a strange vampire, hovering
nearer or farther, in blacker or lighter shades, as
the flames in the fire rose and fell. Stephen
watched in a fascinated stupor, and then suddenly,
as the light died down in the grate and the shade
leaped out nearer and blacker, he started to his feet
with a sudden exclamation.
The girl started too, and looked up.
“What is it?” she asked.
Stephen pointed to the wall.
Katrine turned, the blaze sprang up on the hearth,
the shadows were gone, the illusion vanished.
“What is it?” she said again, wonderingly.
“Oh, nothing-a hideous
shape on the wall,” stammered Stephen. “I
was watching your shadow, and another seemed to come
up and threaten it. Imagination, I suppose-perhaps
I had fallen into a dream,” he added hurriedly,
fearing she would laugh at him.
But Katrine did not laugh: she
looked at him gravely and in silence. In her
mind she was pondering a question, hesitating, half
fearing to speak to him, half impelled to, and half
held back, and the equal opposite forces acting on
her mind kept her silent.
Stephen, unused to her present mood,
felt perhaps she was annoyed or wearied, and drew
out his watch. It was past ten.
“I will say good-night,” he said, rising.
Katrine got up too. Her face
paled yet more, her bosom rose and fell quickly.
“Take me away from here,” she said abruptly
and suddenly.
She had been thinking all the evening
how she would approach the subject with him, and then
at last his leave-taking had startled away all her
circuitous phrases and left her only the crudest words
at her command to express her meaning.
Stephen was startled and confused,
but his voice was very tender as he took her hand
in his and said, “I don’t understand, dear;
what do you mean?”
He felt her hand tremble in his.
She looked up at him appealingly. Her eyes seemed
frightened and uncertain. She was more womanly
at this moment than she had ever been. To Stephen
she was infinitely more fascinating than she had ever
been. Accustomed to her bright, fearless independence,
admire that as he might, in this weakness, whatever
its cause, she was irresistible.
“Well, I mean,” she said,
speaking nervously, but with an effort to control
her excitement, “the other day you spoke of our
being married, and I said I couldn’t stand a
quiet life. Stephen, I will marry you now, and
go anywhere with you. I will be content with any
life, any monotony-only take me from here
at once! I loathe this place, this life.”
She stopped suddenly, and a wave of crimson blood swept
over the white face. “I want to be taken
away,” she repeated.
Stephen looked at her a moment in
silence, with a sense of apprehension and alarm.
He could not do as she asked; he was not free-his
claim held him.
“I don’t know quite what
you mean,” he said, a little stiffly, though
he felt he did know. “It would be quite
impossible for me to go away now; my whole heart’s
in the work, and I’ve sunk all I had in it.”
“Yes; and your soul too,”
said Katrine suddenly, looking at him with shining
eyes and a calm face. “You’re a slave
now to your gold, the same as we all are here-a
community of slaves,” and she laughed.
Stephen grew red, and looked confused,
alarmed, and angry, all at the same time.
“Nobody would go now,”
he said, remonstratingly, “and leave ground like
that. It would be insanity. Ask Talbot, ask
anybody if they would.”
“Talbot!” repeated Katrine,
scornfully; “he’s the worst slave of all;
but then he never preached about his soul, and wanting
to reform people.”
“No one can reform you if you
won’t reform yourself,” replied Stephen,
coldly; and there he spoke the truth.
“Who was it who has put in our
prayer, ’Lead us not into temptation, but deliver
us from evil’? Here I live in temptation:
I am always thrown into evil. If I were not-”
Her voice was very quiet, and had a strange pathetic
note in it. It ceased, and then there was silence.
Stephen felt as if a hand were laid
on his lips and crushed down the voice that kept struggling
from his heart. A second more, and then the girl
laughed suddenly.
“Oh, I was stupid! I did
not know what I was saying, did not mean it anyway.
It’s quite right for you to stick to your claim
and the idea you started with, and so on. You
will make a great success if you do, and that is all
you want!”
Her tone was jesting and cynical as
ever now-the usual hardness had come back
to her face. The moment of submission, of confidence,
of repentance, had passed-a moment when
she could have been moved and won to any life he wished,
and he had lost it. He felt it. Yet how could
he have done otherwise?
“Forget what I said-quite,”
she added; “and go now. It’s getting
late, and I want to get down to the saloons.”
A thrill of horror went through Stephen,
as she knew it would. He gazed at her blankly
with a horrible feeling, as if he were murdering somebody,
clutching at his heart.
“What are you waiting for?”
she said, impatiently. “Why don’t
you hurry back to your claim?”
“Katrine ... I-”
he stammered, staring at her, but even as he looked
a great wall of gold seemed to rise between them and
shut her from him. “Forgive me,”
he muttered brokenly; “I can’t give it
up now.”
“Good-night,” said Katrine,
and he turned and fumbled for the door handle and
went out.
When he was gone Katrine turned to
her small square of looking-glass that hung beneath
the lamp on the wall.
“What a fool I was to-night!”
she said, looking at the sweet reflection and smiling
lips.
A few minutes after Stephen had gone,
a slight figure, muffled up to the eyes, slipped out
of N and hurried with quick steps down the uneven
footway of Good Luck Row.
That night Stephen climbed to his
cabin with his head on fire and a singing in his ears.
A terrific struggle was going on in his breast.
He felt the path of duty was clear to him now, and
equally that he did not want to follow it. He
had tried to shut his eyes to it; tried to believe
that it was not clear, that he did not know what was
right or necessary to do, and therefore that he might
be excused if he did not do it, but he could close
his eyes no longer. They had been dragged open
to-night, and he could not wilfully close them again.
As he strode up the narrow little snow path leading
to his cabin he felt that he knew his duty, and he
groaned out aloud in the silent icy night.
To leave now meant to endanger, perhaps
to sacrifice, the million dollars that he felt in
a month or two he could take out of his claim; and
to stay meant to endanger, perhaps to sacrifice, a
human soul! A million dollars, a human soul!
These two ideas possessed him. A million dollars,
a human soul! the two thoughts rang alternately through
his brain until it seemed as if voices were crying
them out upon the soundless air. According to
his religion, spirits combated for the soul of man,
and it seemed to Stephen that night as he mounted the
solitary path under the far-seeing eyes of the frosty
stars above him, that spirits really fought around
him, good and evil, for the victory. “A
million dollars!” shouted the evil ones, “do
not throw them away.” “A human soul!”
wailed the others, “do not let it fall into evil.”
His sensitive, excitable mind trembled before the
crisis. His own soul shuddered and sickened,
for he seemed to see the hosts of greed of gold, and
they were stronger than the hosts of light. And
Stephen himself now was badly equipped for the conflict.
He felt and recognised with dismay he had not the
strength and the fervour now that had brought him
through former battles. He was as a warrior that
has fallen asleep and awakened to find his arms grown
rusty while he has been sleeping.
Gradually for the last six months
the lust for gold had been eating into his spirituality
and destroying it. You cannot serve God and mammon:
had he not entered into the services of mammon, and
been held there by the rich rewards?
He thought of the rich pans he had
been getting out. There was no claim like his
in the camp. There was no man more envied nor
considered more lucky than he. Yes, mammon had
paid him well in the six months he had served it,
showered upon him more than God had done in six-and-twenty
years; and here was God’s gift, a human soul,
a sweet human life, he could save and make his own-and
Stephen groaned again, for he felt that the gold was
dearer to him. How could he have so changed, he
wondered. A year ago he would have laughed at
the idea of a million dollars being a bribe for him
to sin. He looked into his heart now and found
there was nothing there but a passion for gold, gold!
It was a yellow rust that had eaten into his Christian’s
sword.
Then his thoughts strayed to the girl
he had just left, and her bright fresh face seemed
to sway before him as he walked. His excited fancy
painted it upon the snow banks at his side. She
was so young, she seemed so fresh and lovely, it was
impossible to think of her as tainted already with
vice and sin. It was only if she were kept in
this snow-bound prison, this mournful land of darkness
and suffering, where, as she said, she had no place
nor aim, that she would fall as those bright meteors
were falling now far in the distant darkness.
He could be her deliverer, her saviour, if-if
he could.
In the icy cold of that arctic night,
great drops of sweat broke out hotly on Stephen’s
forehead as his brain was wrenched to and fro in the
struggle. He tried to bribe even himself, tried
to let his thoughts dwell on his passion for the girl,
tried to think of the mere human sweetness that would
go hand in hand with his victory over evil. If
he won that bright clean soul for God, would he not
also win that loved human form for himself? But
even the voice of passion was drowned in the clamour
of the greater greed.
The next morning, as soon as it was
light, Stephen went out to his claims. None of
his men had come up to work yet. Stephen stood
and looked over the stretch of ground beneath which
he believed his fortunes lay. A light covering
of snow had fallen on it during the night and lay
about a foot deep in one unbroken sheet, not even the
mark of a bird’s foot disturbed its blank evenness:
the claims looked very cold and drear in the dull
dusky grey light of the dawn under that leaden sky.
But Stephen’s heart beat quickly as he gazed
upon them. What did it matter that cold, dreary,
surface, when the gold lay glowing underneath!
Stephen felt as only a man of his
sensitive conscience could feel his defeat of the
previous night. His heart, all his better nature
was crushed under a sickening load of mortification,
and he sought desperately to find relief and justification
for himself in contemplating the treasure for whose
sake he had accepted it. As in other circumstances
a man would solace himself for all sacrifices by gazing
on the face of a mistress for whom he had relinquished
worldly ambitions, and find excuses for himself in
her beauty, telling himself a hundred times she was
worth it all; so Stephen now gazed upon his claims,
for which he had given up his scruples, his principles,
his conscience, and his God, and tried to hug to himself
the comfort that they were worth it. After a
few seconds he tramped across the frozen snow to the
line marked out by the banks of gravel where they had
been at work the previous day.
That evening he could not stay in
his cabin, he felt restless and ill at ease.
A nervous sense of anxiety hung over him. He seemed
to himself to be expecting some misfortune. His
nerves, weakened by the lonely life he had been living
for the past months, and exhausted by the sleepless
hours of the previous night, kept presenting picture
after picture of possible ills. He looked over
both his revolvers, to make sure they were in good
order for defence if he were attacked that night.
Then he drew his fur cap tightly down on his forehead
and went out. The stillness of his own cabin
and the clamour of his own thoughts were unbearable.
The night was still and starlit, the air keen and
thin as a knife-blade. Stephen strode along the
narrow frosty path, and took the road down into the
town. On his way he passed Talbot’s cabin.
It was lighted up. The little window made a square
of yellow light in the darkness; the blind over it
was drawn only half-way down. Stephen stepped
up over the bank of frosted snow and looked in.
The great fire lighted up the whole of the small interior,
and threw its red light up to the cross logs in the
roof. In the centre of the room, at a table.
Talbot sat working. There were some sheets of
paper before him, and he held a pen in his hand with
which he was checking off some figures. His face
was turned to the window; it looked pale and tired,
but there was a curious expression of extreme tranquillity
upon it-a settled, serene patience that
struck the onlooker. He sat there working on
steadily, motionless, calm as a figure in stone; and
poor Stephen, torn in the struggle of his desires,
slipping into the cold slough of self-condemnation,
and burnt with the fever of greed, groaned aloud as
he stood outside. Then he turned from the window
and plunged back through the snow to the path that
led to the town. He wanted to see Katrine, and
yet he hated the thought of facing her after their
parting of last night. What must she think of
him? With her quick mental perceptions she would
have seen through and through his miserable mind;
seen that the gold had got hold of him, held him now,
and that his boasted religion had no power against
it. No, he thought, he could not face her-he
was still some distance from the town; then as he
drew nearer, the unappeasable desire to see her and
hear her fresh bright voice came over him. When
he reached Good Luck Row he went straight to N.
He might have saved himself the trouble of his decisions.
Katrine had decided for him whether he should see her
that night or not. The window was dark; he tried
the door, it was fastened; she was evidently not there.
A chill ran over Stephen from head to foot, and then
he recognized how much he had really wanted to see
her. He stood outside the door a long time; the
row was quiet, there were few passers. He waited,
hoping to see her come up each minute-perhaps
she had only gone out on some errand; but the minutes
passed and he grew cold standing there, still she
did not come. At last Stephen moved away from
the door and wandered disconsolately down the row.
He went on mechanically, not heeding where his footsteps
took him, and found suddenly that he had reached the
main street down by the river. There was no darkness
nor quiet here, all the stores had their windows wide
open, and the light from them poured out upon the black
slippery mass of ice and melted snow that lay over
the frozen ground. The saloons were in full blast,
brilliantly lighted and filled with noisy crowds of
miners. The dance halls, of which there were
some dozen along the street, seemed doing a good business.
A shooting gallery that had been fixed up in a tent
was not only filled inside, but a crowd of men and
some women were gathered round the tent entrance,
pushing and pressing each other in their efforts to
get in; the glare from the flaming lights inside fell
on their faces, and Stephen glanced eagerly over them
to see if Katrine was amongst them. He passed
on, disappointed. There was another tent a little
farther on, where a cheap band was playing, and a board
outside announced in pen-and-ink characters the attraction
of a “Catherine Wheel Dance.” The
crowd here was even larger, and lights were fixed outside
flaring merrily in the frosty air. Stephen walked
on, past the stores and warehouses, past the noisy
crowded saloons, past the brilliant dance halls and
the variety show tents. It was to him all a hideous,
tawdry, glaring mockery of merriment; and on the other
side of him was the sullen blackness of the frozen
river. He walked on until he had outwalked the
town front, outwalked the straggling tents, till he
had left the noise, and light, and laughter behind
him. When he glanced round he saw he had nothing
but the river and a waste of darkness beside him.
There was an old log in his path; he sat down upon
it and looked back to the mist of light that hung
over the town, then his gaze wandered back disconsolately
and rested on the ice-bound river.
Katrine had passed that day wretchedly
too. She had been down idling in one of the saloons
through the afternoon, but the old resorts seemed to
have lost their charm. The old pleasure had gone,
and the stimulus would not come back. The cards
looked greasy and dirty and revolted her, and the
drink seemed to turn to carbolic acid in her mouth.
She left at last, and went home to her lonely cabin
and flung herself down in the dark in the chimney
corner and tried to sleep, but horrible faces danced
before her, and women with grey hair and wrinkles,
with her own face, stared at her from the walls.
She was still lying face downwards
on the skins, half dozing now after that long conflict
with horrible visions, when a light and very timid
tap came on the door outside. She got up and went
straight to it; her face was flushed and tear-stained,
and her hair ruffled and in disorder, but she never
thought to go first to the little square mirror that
hung in the corner to improve her appearance before
admitting visitors. As she threw open the door,
the stream of hot light showed Stephen upon the threshold
white as a spectre, chilled almost to death by his
vigil at the river, with a strained smile on his lips
and a great hunger in his eyes. His conscience
reproached him: he knew he had not come bravely
with his hands full of the sacrifice, having conquered
himself, and ready to lay down all for her sake; but
like a coward, still in the thrall of his money-lust
and yet longing to attain her too, unable to give
her up. He knew all this, and stood timidly as
the friendless dogs will gaze through an open hut-door,
wistfully, expecting to be driven away with blows;
but Katrine met him with neither harsh words nor looks,
she just simply put out both her warm hands and drew
him in over the threshold. The welcome, the smile,
the warm touch overcame him.
“Katrine,” he muttered
suddenly, as she closed the door and barred it, “if
I-if-I gave-up,”
and then the words died, strangled in his throat.
Katrine held up her hand.
“Don’t begin to talk about
anything like that,” she said, gently pushing
him down on the chair by the hearth, “till you
are warm again. Where have you been freezing
yourself like this?”
She was busy lighting the lamp and
setting her little old blackened coffee-pot over the
flames. Stephen told her of his long lonely tramp
by the river, and watched her with keen eager eyes
as she made the coffee and poured him out a cup.
“Now drink it all quick,”
she said imperatively, handing him the boiling mixture,
from which the steam came furiously.
“It’s like the ordeal
by fire,” answered Stephen, meekly taking the
cup. With a heroic effort he swallowed three
parts of it, and colour began to come back to his
face.
Katrine observed this, and sat down
contentedly on the floor in front of the ambitious
fire, that seemed trying to leap up the chimney through
the roof.
“Stephen,” she said very
slowly and gently after a minute, “it was selfish
of me to ask you to leave your claims. I’ve
been thinking of it all day. I won’t do
it, and I will come and help you work them.”
Stephen felt the room whirl round
him as he heard. Was he not in some rich, warm
dream that would dissolve and leave him suddenly?
His claims, those golden claims! and Katrine too-he
seemed to see her dressed in gold, framed in gold,
gold in her eyes and hair. Her movement, as she
turned to look at him, brought him back to realities.
“Do you mean it?” he said,
stooping over her and catching her hands almost roughly
in his. She met his feverish eyes with a bright,
tranquil smile. He looked at her keenly for an
instant, and involuntarily an exclamation broke from
his lips: “Katrine! it’s too much
happiness for any man!”
Perhaps the gods above, who eye jealously
the lives of mortals, here made a note of this remark
in their pocket-books.
Katrine knitted her brows angrily.
“I don’t think so,” she said.
“You had better hear what sort of girl I am.”
Stephen turned pale, and leaned down
over her as she sat on the hearth, her head against
his knees. The cabin was full of the warm red
firelight, that leaped over the walls and up to the
rough blackened rafters above them. It glistened
on the silky dark hair beneath his hand, and fell
ruddily over the smooth oval face turned up to him.
Stephen looked down at her and felt content.
“No, no,” he said hastily;
“never mind anything in the past; we will efface
it all; we make a fresh start from to-night.”
He would have stooped and silenced her with a kiss,
but an arrogant look came over her pale face, and
she pushed him back with her hand.
“No, I don’t like that
idea. We must have things cleared up and tidy
before we marry. You must know the truth from
me, and then you will know how to meet any one who
comes to you with talk about me afterwards; and they
may come, for I’m known in all the saloons of
Dawson.”
Stephen shuddered.
“If they keep to the truth about
me, you must just accept it; if they tell lies, you’ll
just shoot them.”
Again a cold thrill passed through
her lover. To talk of shooting-taking
a human life-murder-as though
it were no more than a snapping of the fingers!
His mind flew on a sudden bound of remembrance back
to the little school teacher in the village of Arden,
who could not bear the sight of a rabbit’s blood
on the trap, and whose quiet days were spent between
the village schoolroom and the village church; yet
he knew he had never loved that little teacher as
he loved Katrine, that she could never rouse him as
this woman did whom he believed to be an epitome of
evil, who, as she lay now in the firelight by his feet,
reminded him of the emblem of sin that crept into man’s
Eden. Yet it was a pleasure-what pleasure
to be near her, to touch that smooth skin! But
what was this pleasure?-was it also evil?
What was this passion? His thoughts flew onward
feverishly, and then Katrine’s voice struck across
them and brought him back to outer consciousness again.
“Listen,” she was saying,
“while I tell you all, and then we can
start afresh, as you say.”
Stephen put his hand over his eyes,
and waited in silence. He dreaded unspeakably
what he thought he was going to hear, and with a man’s
moral cowardice would have deferred her confession,
slurred over and tried to forget her wrong-doing,
rather than hear and forgive it. They had changed
places since he had asked her that morning in his cabin
to confide in him.
“Well, to begin with,”
went on her clear, soft voice, “I drink-I
like drinking. You think it wrong to drink anything
but water; I like wine and spirits, anything that
excites me, and I can drink with any man in town.
But I have never been drunk, Stephen, you understand
that. Then I like all kinds of gaiety, and like
to spend all my time dancing and laughing, and what
your friend Talbot calls ‘fooling.’
And I gamble,” Katrine paused a second before
she said the decisive words, and then went on rapidly,
“oh, Stephen, you don’t know, I haven’t
told you, but I love the tables. I can sit up
all night and play with the boys; I love excitement,
I love the winning and raking in the gold dust.
I spend all my nights playing; it’s what I live
for in this awful place.”
There was silence, then Katrine’s voice broke
it again-
“Now you think that so wicked, I bet you don’t
want to marry me now.”
There was a half laugh with a sad
ring in it as she looked up to his covered face.
Now Stephen heard, but the words fell on his ears dully;
he was waiting in strained painful tension for what
was to come. It was true he loathed gambling
as a hated vice, and but for the apprehension that
gripped his mind her confession so far would have been
horrible to him. Still it was as a Christian
that he abhorred these things. What he expected
to hear he would have abhorred as a man and a lover;
and the former abhorrence is considerably milder than
the latter.
“Go on,” he said at last, in a stifled
voice.
“There is nothing more,” returned Katrine,
dejectedly.
She thought she was being condemned
and despised, and to none is that a cheering feeling.
Stephen sat up suddenly, and then bent over, clasping
his hands round her waist, lithe and supple even in
her rough clothing, and drew her up to him.
“Is there nothing?” he
whispered eagerly in her ear. “Have you
nothing more to confess to me?”
Katrine gave herself up to his embrace,
a delicious sense of peace and protection and warm
comfort stealing over her such as she had never known.
“Nothing,” she murmured,
with her soft lips close to his ear and her silky
curls touching his neck. She felt Stephen grasp
her close to him, and a tremor ran through his whole
frame.
“Have you never lain like this
in a man’s arms before? never felt a kiss on
your lips?” he persisted, holding her to him
with a fierce intensity of growing passion.
“Never, never,” Katrine
answered, opening her calm dark eyes and looking straight
up to his.
Stephen met their gaze for one long
second, a proud, tranquil, fearless look that sunk
deep into his soul and poured balm into every wound
she had ever made there. The next moment she
felt a torrent of hot kisses on her face, a pressure
that almost stifled her on her breast, a murmur of
“Darling, my darling,” and knew nothing
very clearly any more except that she was loved and
very happy.