“Ah! voila les
âmes qu’il falloit a la mienne!”
Rousseau.
But if Marius thought at times that
some long-cherished desires were now about to blossom
for him, in the sort of home he had sometimes pictured
to himself, the very charm of which would lie in its
contrast to any random affections: that in this
woman, to whom children instinctively clung, he might
find such a sister, at least, as he had always longed
for; there were also circumstances which reminded him
that a certain rule forbidding second marriages, was
among these people still in force; ominous incidents,
moreover, warning a susceptible conscience not to
mix together the spirit and the flesh, nor make the
matter of a heavenly banquet serve for earthly meat
and drink.
One day he found Cecilia occupied
with the burial of one of the children of her household.
It was from the tiny brow of such a child, as he
now heard, that the new light had first shone forth
upon them — through the light of mere physical
life, glowing there again, when the child was dead,
or supposed to be dead. The aged servant
of Christ had arrived in the midst of their noisy grief;
and mounting to the little chamber where it lay, had
returned, not long afterwards, with the child stirring
in his arms as he descended the stair rapidly; bursting
open the closely-wound folds of the shroud and scattering
the funeral flowers from them, as the soul kindled
once more through its limbs.
Old Roman common-sense had taught
people to occupy their thoughts as little as might
be with children who died young. Here, to-day,
however, in this curious house, all thoughts were tenderly
bent on the little waxen figure, yet with a kind of
exultation and joy, notwithstanding the loud weeping
of the mother. The other children, its late
companions, broke with it, suddenly, into the place
where the deep black bed lay open to receive it.
Pushing away the grim fossores, the grave-diggers,
they ranged themselves around it in order, and chanted
that old psalm of theirs — Laudate pueri
dominum! Dead children, children’s graves — Marius
had been always half aware of an old superstitious
fancy in his mind concerning them; as if in coming
near them he came near the failure of some lately-born
hope or purpose of his own. And now, perusing
intently the expression with which Cecilia assisted,
directed, returned afterwards to her house, he felt
that he too had had to-day his funeral of a little
child. But it had always been his policy, through
all his pursuit of “experience,”
to take flight in time from any too disturbing passion,
from any sort of affection likely to quicken his pulses
beyond the point at which the quiet work of life was
practicable. Had he, after all, been taken unawares,
so that it was no longer possible for him to fly?
At least, during the journey he took, by way of testing
the existence of any chain about him, he found a certain
disappointment at his heart, greater than he could
have anticipated; and as he passed over the crisp
leaves, nipped off in multitudes by the first sudden
cold of winter, he felt that the mental atmosphere
within himself was perceptibly colder.
Yet it was, finally, a quite successful
resignation which he achieved, on a review, after
his manner, during that absence, of loss or gain.
The image of Cecilia, it would seem, was already become
for him like some matter of poetry, or of another
man’s story, or a picture on the wall.
And on his return to Rome there had been a rumour
in that singular company, of things which spoke certainly
not of any merely tranquil loving: hinted rather
that he had come across a world, the lightest contact
with which might make appropriate to himself also the
precept that “They which have wives be as they
that have none.”
This was brought home to him, when,
in early spring, he ventured once more to listen to
the sweet singing of the Eucharist. It breathed
more than ever the spirit of a wonderful hope — of
hopes more daring than poor, labouring humanity had
ever seriously entertained before, though it was plain
that a great calamity was befallen. Amid stifled
sobbing, even as the pathetic words of the psalter
relieved the tension of their hearts, the people around
him still wore upon their faces their habitual gleam
of joy, of placid satisfaction. They were still
under the influence of an immense gratitude in thinking,
even amid their present distress, of the hour of a
great deliverance. As he followed again that
mystical dialogue, he felt also again, like a mighty
spirit about him, the potency, the half-realised presence,
of a great multitude, as if thronging along those
awful passages, to hear the sentence of its release
from prison; a company which represented nothing less
than — orbis terrarum — the
whole company of mankind. And the special note
of the day expressed that relief — a sound
new to him, drawn deep from some old Hebrew source,
as he conjectured, Alleluia! repeated over and over
again, Alleluia! Alleluia! at every pause and
movement of the long Easter ceremonies.
And then, in its place, by way of
sacred lection, although in shocking contrast with
the peaceful dignity of all around, came the Epistle
of the churches of Lyons and Vienne, to “their
sister,” the church of Rome. For the “Peace”
of the church had been broken — broken, as
Marius could not but acknowledge, on the responsibility
of the emperor Aurelius himself, following tamely,
and as a matter of course, the traces of his predecessors,
gratuitously enlisting, against the good as well as
the evil of that great pagan world, the strange new
heroism of which this singular message was full.
The greatness of it certainly lifted away all merely
private regret, inclining one, at last, actually to
draw sword for the oppressed, as if in some new order
of knighthood —
“The pains which our brethren
have endured we have no power fully to tell, for the
enemy came upon us with his whole strength. But
the grace of God fought for us, set free the weak,
and made ready those who, like pillars, were able
to bear the weight. These, coming now into close
strife with the foe, bore every kind of pang and shame.
At the time of the fair which is held here with a
great crowd, the governor led forth the Martyrs as
a show. Holding what was thought great but little,
and that the pains of to-day are not deserving to be
measured against the glory that shall be made known,
these worthy wrestlers went joyfully on their way;
their delight and the sweet favour of God mingling
in their faces, so that their bonds seemed but a goodly
array, or like the golden bracelets of a bride.
Filled with the fragrance of Christ, to some they
seemed to have been touched with earthly perfumes.
“Then was fulfilled the saying
of the Lord that the day should come, When he that
slayeth you will think that he doeth God service.
Most madly did the mob, the governor and the soldiers,
rage against the handmaiden Blandina, in whom Christ
showed that what seems mean among men is of price
with Him. For whilst we all, and her earthly
mistress, who was herself one of the contending Martyrs,
were fearful lest through the weakness of the flesh
she should be unable to profess the faith, Blandina
was filled with such power that her tormentors, following
upon each other from morning until night, owned that
they were overcome, and had no more that they could
do to her; admiring that she still breathed after
her whole body was torn asunder.
“But this blessed one, in the
very midst of her ‘witness,’ renewed her
strength; and to repeat, I am Christ’s!
was to her rest, refreshment, and relief from pain.
As for Alexander, he neither uttered a groan nor
any sound at all, but in his heart talked with God.
Sanctus, the deacon, also, having borne beyond all
measure pains devised by them, hoping that they would
get something from him, did not so much as tell his
name; but to all questions answered only, I am Christ’s!
For this he confessed instead of his name, his race,
and everything beside. Whence also a strife
in torturing him arose between the governor and those
tormentors, so that when they had nothing else they
could do they set red-hot plates of brass to the most
tender parts of his body. But he stood firm
in his profession, cooled and fortified by that stream
of living water which flows from Christ. His
corpse, a single wound, having wholly lost the form
of man, was the measure of his pain. But Christ,
paining in him, set forth an ensample to the rest — that
there is nothing fearful, nothing painful, where the
love of the Father overcomes. And as all those
cruelties were made null through the patience of the
Martyrs, they bethought them of other things; among
which was their imprisonment in a dark and most sorrowful
place, where many were privily strangled. But
destitute of man’s aid, they were filled with
power from the Lord, both in body and mind, and strengthened
their brethren. Also, much joy was in our virgin
mother, the Church; for, by means of these,
such as were fallen away retraced their steps — were
again conceived, were filled again with lively heat,
and hastened to make the profession of their faith.
“The holy bishop Pothinus, who
was now past ninety years old and weak in body, yet
in his heat of soul and longing for martyrdom, roused
what strength he had, and was also cruelly dragged
to judgment, and gave witness. Thereupon he
suffered many stripes, all thinking it would be a
wickedness if they fell short in cruelty towards him,
for that thus their own gods would be avenged.
Hardly drawing breath, he was thrown into prison,
and after two days there died.
“After these things their martyrdom
was parted into divers manners. Plaiting as it
were one crown of many colours and every sort of flowers,
they offered it to God. Maturus, therefore,
Sanctus and Blandina, were led to the wild beasts.
And Maturus and Sanctus passed through all the
pains of the amphitheatre, as if they had suffered
nothing before: or rather, as having in many trials
overcome, and now contending for the prize itself,
were at last dismissed.
“But Blandina was bound and
hung upon a stake, and set forth as food for the assault
of the wild beasts. And as she thus seemed to
be hung upon the Cross, by her fiery prayers she imparted
much alacrity to those contending Witnesses.
For as they looked upon her with the eye of
flesh, through her, they saw Him that was crucified.
But as none of the beasts would then touch her, she
was taken down from the Cross, and sent back to prison
for another day: that, though weak and mean,
yet clothed with the mighty wrestler, Christ Jesus,
she might by many conquests give heart to her brethren.
“On the last day, therefore,
of the shows, she was brought forth again, together
with Ponticus, a lad of about fifteen years old.
They were brought in day by day to behold the pains
of the rest. And when they wavered not, the
mob was full of rage; pitying neither the youth of
the lad, nor the sex of the maiden. Hence, they
drave them through the whole round of pain.
And Ponticus, taking heart from Blandina, having
borne well the whole of those torments, gave up his
life. Last of all, the blessed Blandina herself,
as a mother that had given life to her children, and
sent them like conquerors to the great King, hastened
to them, with joy at the end, as to a marriage-feast;
the enemy himself confessing that no woman had ever
borne pain so manifold and great as hers.
“Nor even so was their anger
appeased; some among them seeking for us pains, if
it might be, yet greater; that the saying might be
fulfilled, He that is unjust, let him be unjust still.
And their rage against the Martyrs took a new form,
insomuch that we were in great sorrow for lack of
freedom to entrust their bodies to the earth.