Just where the Santa Eliza trail commanded
sight of the main travelled road, Eleanor sat on a
rock watching the hill-shadows lengthen on the valley
below, watching a mauve haze deepen on the dark-green
tops of redwood trees. The time was approaching
when she must hurry back to Mrs. Goodyear’s
bungalow for a dinner which she dreaded. Three
weeks of perplexity had bred in her a shrinking from
people. She had found excuse to wander away alone.
That lazy spring of the North woods,
so like to early fall in other climates, had given
her at first the healing of spirit which she needed.
She wandered hither and yon as her fancy led her, following
this trail, pushing into that opening in the chapparal.
She had come out upon the Santa Eliza trail and gained
sight of the road before she realized with a kind
of inner shame the way in which her feet of flesh
had been tending, the direction in which she had been
turning her eyes of the spirit.
Three miles away on the summit of
the next ridge was the Masters ranch, and there rested
the centre of her soul-storm. Bertram Chester,
she knew by chance, was spending the week-end with
the Masters.
She stopped by the rock, then; and
immediately nature went out of her heart and the world
entered. For three intolerable weeks, this heaviness
had been descending upon her as by a whimsy of its
own. Like the water of those cupped wheels in
her little irrigation plant at the ranch, this black
liquid, when it had filled its vessel to the brim,
would empty automatically without touch on the spring
of her will. When this came, she would feel rested,
healed, in a state of dull peace. Now the struggle
of thought was on her again. As always before,
it began with an arraignment of the facts in the case,
a search of memory for any forgotten data which might
lead to a conclusion.
The first crisis arrived on the evening
when Judge Tiffany came home in a plain mood of disgust,
and announced baldly:
“Well, Mattie; our young friend
did everything I expected of him.”
He went on quite simply with the news.
Bertram Chester had left him almost without notice.
But that was to be expected. The rest was the
worst. Bertram had gone to Senator Northrup as
manager of his real estate interests. The name
Northrup was as the name of the devil in that household.
Northrup’s operations included not only law and
politics but latterly speculative and unprincipled
ventures in business. A dying flash of his old
fire woke in Judge Tiffany when he spoke as he felt
about this young cub who had bitten his caressing
hand.
Eleanor left the dinner table as soon
as she had a fair excuse. She found herself unable
to bear it. Had she remained, she must have defended
him. But alone in her living room she look counsel
of this treason and agreed in her heart with her uncle.
The very manner in which he had done it never
a hint, never a preliminary mention of Northrup appealed
to her as the deepest treason of all.
The next evening, Bertram Chester
had the superb impudence to call. Eleanor was
alone in the house that night. She hesitated when
the maid brought in his name, then shook herself together
and went out to face him.
He met her with an imitation of his
old manner, an assumption that his change in employment
would make no difference in his social relations with
the Tiffanys. What words had she used to let him
know her feelings? She could not remember now.
But it had come hard; for the unmoral half of her
perceptions was noting how big and beautiful he looked,
how his blush, as of a stripling facing reproof, became
him.
He pleaded, he stormed, he presumed,
he passed in and out of sulky moods, he began to defend
himself against the silent attack of her look.
Why hadn’t he a right to do it? A man should
look out for himself. But he’d have stayed
and rotted with the old law office if he’d felt
that she would take it that way.
“You mean more to me than success!” he
said.
“No more of that, please!”
she cried. After that cry, she fell into dignified
silence as the only defence against the double attack
from him and from the half of her that yearned for
him. From her silence he himself grew silent
until, with a boyish shake of his shoulders lovable
but comically inadequate he bade her good
night.
“You’ll cool off!” he said at the
door.
“Good bye,” she responded simply.
“No, it’s good night,” he answered.
She woke next morning with a sense
of vacancy in heart and mind. Something was gone.
She did nothing for a week but justify herself for
calling that something back, or nerve herself to let
it go.
On the one hand, her mind told her
that he had done the ungrateful, the treasonable thing.
It did not matter that he might have done it through
mere lack of finer perception. That was part of
his intolerability. On the other hand, her heart
ran like a shuttle through a web of his smiles, his
illuminations, the shiver, as from a weapon suddenly
drawn, of his unexpected presence, even his look when
he stood at the door to receive her final good bye.
The woof of that web was the sense of vacancy in her the
unconquerable feeling that a thing by which she had
lived was utterly lost.
And where would he go if she let him
go? Ah, the inn was ready, the room was swept.
He would go inevitably to Kate Waddington. That
would be hard to bear. Sense of justice was strong
in Eleanor; she realized the ungenerosity of this
emotion while she continued to harbor it. But
was there not justice in it after all? Kate Waddington
could grasp, could guide, only the worst part of him.
Kate Waddington had in her no guidance for the better
Bertram Chester, who must be in him somewhere.
She hugged this justification to herself. Perhaps
it was not right to let him go; perhaps her heart
and her duty were as one.
A cock quail came out from the chapparal,
saw her, and bobbed back; the feet of his flock rustled
the twigs. Now he was raising his spring call “muchacho!”
“muchacho!” Clearer and slighter came
the call of his mate “muchacho!”
“muchacho!” A ground squirrel shook
the laurel-bush at her side, so that its buds brushed
her shoulder. The cock quail came back into the
pathway, slanted his wise head, plumed in splendor,
to find whether she were friend or enemy, saw that
she made no move, and fell to foraging among the leaves.
She had sat so long and so quietly that the little
people of the ground were accepting her as part of
the landscape. She began dimly to perceive these
things, to take joy in them. And then they colored
her mood.
What was she but a young, female thing,
a vessel of life universal? What was her attraction
toward Bertram Chester but a part of the great, holy
force which made and moved hills, trees, the little
people of hills and trees? What was she, to have
resisted the impulse in her because of a few imperfections,
a little lack of development in civilized morals?
Her perception of nature died away,
but the slant which it had given her thoughts persisted.
When she felt and spoke as she had
done that night in the Man Far Low, she was unwholesome,
super-refined, super-civilized she was
proceeding by the hothouse morals which she had learned
in books and in European studios. When she felt
as she did on that first night under the bay tree,
she was wholesome and eternally right.
How much greater in her, after all,
if she had followed the call, had taken him for the
man in him, to develop, to guide as a woman may guide!
Ah, by what token could she call him back?
Her gaze of meditation had been fixed
on the road below. She had been half-consciously
aware for some time of a figure which lost itself
behind one of the hill-turns, reappeared again, became
wholly visible in a band of late afternoon sunshine.
It was Bertram Chester. The vision
came without any shock of first surprise. He
had been so much part of her thoughts that it seemed
the most natural presence in the world. He was
swinging along the road in her direction, heaving
his massive shoulders with every stride; he stopped,
took off his cap, wiped his forehead with a motion
which, seen even at that distance, conveyed all his
masculinity, and strode on again.
Would he keep on along the road, or
would he turn toward her up the Santa Eliza trail?
And if he did keep on, would those roving eyes of
his perceive her sitting there? Why not leave
everything to that chance? If he looked up and
saw her there on her rock, if he turned into the trail
and passed her that was a sign. She
found herself, nevertheless, humanly striving to cheat
fortune and the gods by fixing all her mind and eyes
upon him, as though she would hypnotize him into looking
up.
But her mind and eyes had no power
over him. He kept on with his even gait until
he was lost behind the clump of trees which marked
the branching of the trail. One chance was gone;
she might not know the issue of the other until time
and waiting informed her. How long before she
should know? She crouched low on the rock and
tried not to think.
The twigs and pebbles crunched under
heavy feet; the branches shook and rustled; a blue
sweater became visible in the shadows. She looked
away.
“Well, I’ll be eternally
blowed!” His voice came out like an explosion.
Much as she expected it, she started. When, after
a moment, she dared look up, he stood over her.
“Are you going to run away?”
he asked. His voice, with its ripple like laughter,
showed that he expected nothing of the kind.
“No,” she answered, superfluously.
He seemed, then, to feel the necessity for explanation.
“I hadn’t an idea ”
“Neither had I.”
She broke in to anticipate his thought. Each was
lying a little; and both knew it. She rushed to
commonplaces.
“Uncle Edward and I are at Mrs.
Goodyear’s bungalow over Sunday. It’s
our last expedition out of town before we go down to
the ranch.”
“Well, I must have had a hunch!
I’m at the Masters ranch over Sunday. I
got a freak idea to take a walk alone. It sure
was a hunch!” Soft sentiment tinged his voice.
She answered nothing.
“A hunch that you were alone
here, nobody to interrupt say, are you
still sore on me?”
“I I didn’t run away ”
“Oh, I knew you’d get
over it. I think even the Judge will get over
it. I don’t believe he’d care anyhow,
if it wasn’t for his old grouch on Senator Northrup.”
“Perhaps. He’s said nothing to
me ”
“But it’s you I care about.
Only you. I told you that and I mean it.
I don’t want you to be sore I’d
go back and bury myself in the old office for life
if I thought it would make it different with you.”
“Would you, Bertram?”
He leaned close to her; she could
feel his compelling eyes burning into her averted
face. With one part of her, she was conscious
that here was a crisis too great for her fully to
feel; with the other part, she was aware that an ant,
dragging a ridiculously heavy straw, was toiling up
her rock.
Now he had her hand, which lay inert
in his; now his arm was about her shoulder; and now
he was speaking again:
“Can’t you? Can’t
you stop looking down on me and believe I’m going
to be good enough for you?”
She found power of speech.
“I never I don’t
think that I’m too good for you!” Her Rubicon
was crossed. It was a strangely long time before
he kissed her, but the silent interval after the kiss
was stranger and longer still.
“Tell me what you plan for our
future, Bertram, for I am afraid!” she whispered
at length.
“It’s got to be a wait that’s
the risk you take with a comer. I’ll go
on twice as fast for you. What do you want shall
we tell about it, girlikins?”
“As you wish, Bertram.”
“I guess we’d better not,
then not until the old Judge gets his back
down. Let’s have it just between me and
my little girl.
“Say!” he added, the sentiment
blowing out of his tone, “what was the matter,
anyhow, that night on the restaurant balcony?
Why did you turn me down then, and what made you so
sore? I’ve never quite got to your thoughts,
you know. But I’m going to!” He drew
her closer. “Every one of them!”
She dropped her face on his shoulder.
“Ah, we’ve so many things
to talk about, Bertram, and there’s so much
time! I’ve been a girl that didn’t
know her mind. Shan’t we let that rest
now? Shan’t we be contented with what to-day
has brought you and me?”
A film clouded his face.
“Yes if you want it that way.”
“Hoo-ooo-ooo!” Clear and
high, but quavering, a masculine voice was calling
across the ridge. Eleanor sprang up.
“That’s Uncle Edward it’s
dinner-time do you want him to find you you’d
better go!”
He stood as though considering.
“All right. When are you going back?”
“We catch the seven train to-morrow afternoon
at Santa Eliza.”
“Darn! I’d engaged
to take on the five-ten at Las Olivas. I’ve
half a notion to change and join you and see what
the old man says ”
“No, Bertram, it’s better not. We’ll
find a way. Go now!”
“You bet we will good
bye, girlikins!” He made no move to kiss her
again; he turned and crashed down the trail.
Eleanor sped up the trail. Safe
on the summit of the ridge, her secret hidden behind
her, she answered the call. Then she dared look
back at the figure vanishing in deep shadow below.
Her expression and attitude, soft-eyed and drooping
though they were, showed other emotions than unmixed
happiness.