Springtime on the prairies of South
Dakota. It is early morning, the sun is not yet
up, but all is light and even and soft and all-surrounding,
so that there are no shadows. In every direction
the gently rolling country is dotted brown and white
from the incomplete melting of winter’s snows.
In the low places tiny streams of snow-water, melted
yesterday, sing low under the lattice-work blanket
the frost has built in the night. Nearby and in
the distance prairie-chickens are calling, lonely,
uncertain. Wild ducks in confused masses, mere
specks in the distance, follow low over the winding
curves of the river. High overhead, flocks of
geese in regular black wedges, and brant, are flying
northward, and the breezy sound of flapping wings
and of voices calling, mingle in the sweetest of all
music to those who know the prairies Nature’s
morning song of springtime.
“What a country! Look there!”
The big man in the front seat of the rough, low wagon
pointed east where the sun rose slowly from the lap
of the prairie. The other men cleared their throats
as if to speak, but said nothing.
“And I’ve lived sixty
years without knowing,” continued the first
voice, musingly.
“I’ve never been West
before, either,” admitted De Young, simply.
They drove on, the trickling of snow-water
sounding around the wagon wheels.
The third man, Clark, pointed back
in the direction they had come.
“Did any one back there inquire
what we were doing?” he asked.
“A fellow ‘lowed,’
with a rising inflection, that we were hunting ducks,”
said De Young. “I temporized; made him forget
that I hadn’t answered. You know what will
happen once the curiosity of the natives is aroused.”
“I wasn’t approached,”
Morris joined in, without turning. The corners
of the big man’s mouth twitched, as the suggested
picture formed swiftly in his mind.
After a pause, De Young spoke again.
“I gave the postmaster a specially
good tip to see that we got our mail out promptly.”
“So did I,” Clark admitted.
The face of the serious man lighted;
and, their eyes meeting, the three friends smiled
all together.
The sun rose higher, without a breath
of wind from over the prairies, and one after another
the men removed their top-coats. The horses’
hoofs splashed at each step in slush and running water,
sending drops against the dashboard with a sound like
rain.
The trail which they were following
could now scarcely be seen, except at intervals on
higher ground, where hoof-prints and the tracks of
wheels were scored in the soft mud, and with each mile
these marks grew deeper and broader as the partly
frozen earth softened.
The air of solemnity which had hung
about the men for days, and which lifted from time
to time only temporarily, now silenced them again.
Indeed, had there been anybody present to observe,
he doubtless would have been impressed most of all
with the unwonted soberness of the wagon’s occupants,
a gravity strangely at variance with the rampant,
fecund season.
And the object of their journeying
into this unknown world was in all truth a matter
for silence rather than speech; its influence was
toward deep and earnest meditation, to which the joyous,
awakening world could do no more than chant in a minor
key a melancholy accompaniment. Never did a soldier
advancing upon a breach in the enemy’s breastworks
more certainly confront the grinning face of Death,
than did this trio in their progress across the singing
prairie; but where the plaudits of the world spelled
glory for the one, the three in the wagon knew that
for them Death meant oblivion, extinction, a blotting
out that must needs be utter and inevitable.
The thoughts of each dwelt upon some
aspect of two scenes which had happened only a brief
fortnight previously. There had been a notable
convention of physicians in a city many miles to the
east. One delegate, a man young, slender, firm
of jaw, his face shining with zeal and the spirit
which courts self-immolation, had addressed the body.
His speech had made a profound impression after
its first effect of sensation had subsided upon
the hundreds gathered there, who hearkened amazedly;
but of those hundreds only two had been moved to lay
aside the tools of their calling and follow him.
And whither was he leading them?
Into the Outer Darkness, each firmly believed.
For them the future was spelled nihil; for the
world, salvation perhaps.
The inspired voice still rang in memory.
“Gentlemen, I repeat, it is
a challenge.... The flag of the enemy is hung
up boldly, flauntingly, in every public place....
Are we to permit this? Are we to sit idle and
acknowledge ourselves beaten in the great struggle
against Death? No, no, no! The Nation yea,
the whole civilized world shrinks and shudders
in terror before the sound of one dread word tuberculosis!
“Our professional honor our
personal honor as well, gentlemen is at
stake. A solemn charge is laid upon us....
We must die if need be; but we must conquer this monstrous
scourge, which is the single cause of more than one
death in every ten.”
And then, the deep silence which had
marked the closing words:
“Gentlemen, I can cure consumption,”
came the simple declaration. “If there
are those among you who value Science more than gain;
who are willing to dare with me, willing to pay the
extreme price, if necessary if there are
any such among you, and I believe there are, meet
with me in my rooms this evening.”
To the eight who accepted that invitation,
Dr. De Young disclosed the details of his Great Experiment.
It included, among many other things which no one
but a physician can appreciate, the lending of their
bodies to the Experiment’s exemplification.
Of the eight, two had agreed to follow him to the
end. Each of the three had placed his house in
order, and here they were, nearing that end, whatever
it was to be.
An hour passed, and now ahead in the
distance a rough shanty came into view. It was
the only house in sight, and the three men knew it
was to be theirs. In silence they drew up where
the men were unpacking their goods.
“Good morning for ducks saw
a big flock of mallards back here in a pond,”
observed the man who took their team.
The three doctors alighted without
answering, and watching them, the man stroked a stubby
red whisker in meditation.
“Lord, they’re a frost!” he commented.
Night had come, and the stars shone
early from a sky yet light and warm. In the low
places the waters sang louder than before, with the
increase of a day’s thawing. Looking away,
the white spots were smaller and the brown patches
larger; otherwise, all was the same, the prairie of
yesterday, of to-day, and to-morrow.
Tired with a day of settling, the
three men stood in the doorway and for the first time
viewed the country at night. They were not talkers
at best, and now the immensity of the broad prairies
held them silent. The daily struggle of life,
the activity and rivalry and ambition which before
to-night had seemed so great to these city-bred men,
here alone with Nature and Nature’s God, where
none other might see, assumed their true worth.
The tangled web of life loosened and many foreign
things caught and held therein, fell out. Man,
introspecting, saw himself at his real worth, and
was not proud.
The absolute quiet, so unusual, made
them wakeful, and though tired, they sat long in the
doorway, smoking, thinking. Small talk seemed
to them profanation, and of that which was uppermost
in each man’s mind, none cared first to speak.
A subtle understanding, called telepathy, was making
of their several minds a thing united.
“No, not to-night, it’s
too beautiful,” said De Young at length, and
the protesting voice sounded to his own ears as that
of a stranger.
The men started at the sound, and
the glowing tips of three cigars described partial
arcs in the half light as they turned each to each.
No one answered. They were face to face with fundamentals
at last.
Minutes, an hour, passed. The
cigars burned out, and as the pleasant odor of tobacco
died away, there came the chill night air of the prairie.
The two older men rose stiffly, and with a low good-night,
stumbled into the darkness of the shanty.
De Young sat alone in the doorway.
He realized that it was the supreme hour of his life.
In his mind, memory of past and hope of future met
on the battlefield of the present, and meeting, mingled
in chaos. Thoughts came crowding upon each other
thick the thoughts which come to few more
than once in life, to multitudes, never; the thoughts
which writers in every language, during all time, have
sought words to express, and in vain.
Everywhere the snow-streams sang lower
and lower. A fog, dense, penetrating, born of
early morning, wrapped all things about, uniting and
at the same time setting apart. Shivering, he
shut the door on the night and the damp, and as by
instinct crept into bed. Listening in the darkness,
the sound of the sleepers soothed him. Happier
thoughts came, thoughts which made his heart beat
more swiftly and his eyes grow tender; for he was
yet young, and love untold ever dwelleth near heaven.
Thus he fell asleep with a smile.
“Choose, please. We’ll
take our turns in the order of length,” said
De Young, holding up the ends of three paper strips.
Each man drew, and in the silence that followed, without
a word Morris turned away, preparing swiftly for the
operation.
“Give me chloroform,”
he said, stretching himself horizontally, adding
as the others bent over him, “Inoculate deep,
please. Let’s not waste time.”
Swiftly, with the precision of absolute
knowledge, the two physicians did their work.
A mist was over their eyes, so that all the room looked
dim, as to old men; and hands which had not known a
tremor for years, shook as they emptied the contents
of the little syringe, teeming with tiny, unseen,
living rods. Clark’s forehead was damp with
a perspiration that physical pain could not have brought,
and on De Young’s face, time marked those minutes
as months.
It was all done with the habit of
years. The two doctors carefully sterilized their
instruments and replaced them in cases, then, silently,
drawn nearer together than ever before, the two friends
watched the return of consciousness. And Morris
awakening, things real and of dreamland still confused
to his senses, heard the soft voice which a legion
of patients had thus heard and blessed, saying cheerily,
“Wake up! wake up, my friend!”
Thus the day passed. In turn,
the men, hours apart, with active brains, and eyes
wide open, sent their challenges to Death each
man his own messenger.
The months slipped by. Suns became
torrid hot, and cooled until it seemed there was light
but not heat on earth. Days grew longer, and in
unison, earth waxed greener; then in descending scale,
both together waned. Migratory wings fluttering
at night, and passing voices calling in the darkness most
lonely sounds of earth gave place to singers
of the day. The robin, the meadow-lark, the ubiquitous
catbird, all born of prairie and of summer, came and
went. Blackbirds in countless flocks followed.
Again the calling of prairie-chickens was heard at
eve and morning, and anon frost glistened in the air.
At last throughout the land no sound
of animal voice was heard, for winter bound all things
firm and white. Another cycle was complete; yet,
almost ere the record could be made, there appeared,
moving far in the distance, a black triangle.
Passing swiftly, with the sound of wings and calling
voices, there sprang anew in all things animate a
mixed feeling of gladness and unrest, which was the
spirit of returned spring.
Thus twice the cycle of the seasons
passed, and again the sun of early spring, shining
bright, set the tiny snow-streams singing. It
glistened over the prairie on snow-drift and frost;
it lit up the few scattered shingled roofs of settlers
newly come; and shone in at the open door of a rough
cabin we know, touching without pity the faces of
the two men who watched its rise. Shining low,
even with the prairie, it touched in vivid contrast
an oblong mound of fresh earth, heaped up target distance
from the cabin door.
The mound had not been there long;
neither snow or rain had yet touched it; it was still
strange to the men in the doorway, who saw it vividly
now, at time of sunrise. Though thus early, each
man sat idly smoking, an open book reversed on the
knee.
De Young first broke the silence.
“We must do something, or else
decide to do nothing about Clark’s mail.”
He shifted in his seat, looking away from the open
door.
“I don’t know whether it
would be kinder to tell them or not.”
A coughing fit shook Morris, and answering,
a twitch as of pain tightened the corners of his companion’s
eyes. Minutes passed, and Morris sat limply in
his chair, before he answered,
“I thought at first we’d
better write; now it seems different. Let’s
wait until we go back.”
Neither of the men looked at the other.
They seldom did now; it was useless pain. Filled
with the incomparable optimism of the consumptive,
neither man realized his own condition, but marked
the days of his friend. Morris, unbelieving,
spoke of his friend’s return; yet, growing weaker
each day himself, spoke in all hope and conviction
of his future work, recording each day his mode of
successful treatment, despite interruptions of coughing
which left him breathless and trembling for minutes.
De Young saw, and in pity marvelled; yet, seeing,
and as a physician knowing, he not for a moment applied
the gauge to himself.
Nature, in sportive mood, commands
the Angel of Death, who with matchless legerdemain,
keeps the mirror of illusion, unsuspected, before
the consumptive’s eyes; and, seeing, in derision
the satirist smiles.
Unavoidably acting parts, the two
friends found a barrier of artificiality separating
them, making each happier when alone. Thus day
after day, monotonous, unchanging, went by. Not
another person entered their door. From the little
town a man at periods brought provisions and their
mail, but the house was acquiring an uncanny reputation.
They were not understood, and such are ever foreign.
With the passage of time and the coming of the mound
in the dooryard, the feeling had developed into positive
fear, and travellers avoided the place as though warned
by a scarlet placard.
Morris grew weaker daily. At
last the disillusionment that precedes death came
to him. The artificial slipped from both men and
a nearness like that of brothers, joined them.
They spoke not of the future but of the past.
Years slipped aside and left them back in the midst
of active, brain-satisfying practice. Over again
they performed operations, where life and death were
separated but by a hair’s width. Again,
with eyes that brightened and breath that came more
quickly, they lived their successes, and hand in hand,
as children in the dark, told of their failures, and
the tale was long, for they were but men.
The end came quietly. A hemorrhage,
a big spot of blood on the cover, a firm hand pressure,
and Morris’s parting words,
“Save my notes.”
That night De Young knew no sleep.
“I must finish the work,” he said, in
lame excuse. Well he knew there could be no rest
for him that night. He did his task thoroughly,
making record of things that had passed, with the
precision of a physician who knows a patient but as
material.
A tramp, who, unknowing, had taken
shelter in an outbuilding, waking in the night, saw
the light. Moved by curiosity, he crawled up softly
in the darkness, and peeped in at the window.
In the half light he saw on the bed a thin, white
face motionless in the expression which even he knew
was death; and at the table, writing rapidly with manuscript
all about, a man whose eyes shone with the brilliancy
of disease, and with a face as pale as the face on
the pillow. In the blank, unreasoning terror
of superstition, he fled until Nature rebelled and
would carry him no farther. Next day to all he
saw, he told the tale of supernatural things which
lingers yet around a prairie ruin, in whose dooryard
are mounds built of man.
The mail carrier calling next day
saw a man with spots of scarlet heightening the contrast
of a face pale as death, digging in the dooryard.
The man worked slowly, for he coughed often and must
rest. In kindness the carrier offered help, but
was refused with words that brought to the listener’s
eyes a moisture unknown since boyhood, and the thought
of which in days that followed, kept him silent concerning
what he had seen.
Summer, with the breath of warm life
and the odor of growing things; with days made dreamy
and thoughtful by the purring of the soft wind and
the droning of insects; and nights when all was good;
with stars above and crickets singing below summer
had come and was passing.
De Young could no longer deceive himself.
The personal faith that had upheld him so long when
friends had failed could fight the inevitable
no longer. With eyes wide open, he saw at last
clearly, and, seeing, realized the end. He cared
not for death; he was too strong for that; but it
must needs be that, now, with the shadow of defeat
lying dark over the future, the problem of motive,
the great “why,” should come uppermost
in his mind demanding an answer.
Once before, at the time when other
men read from their lives, he caught glimpses of something
beyond. Now again the mood returned, and he knew
why he was as he was; that with him love was, and had
been, stronger than Science and all else beside.
He knew that whatever he might have done, the entering
into his life of The Woman, and the knowledge that
followed her coming, had inspired the supreme motive
that thenceforth drove him forward. With this
realization came a new life, a happier and a sadder
life, in which all things underwent readjustment.
Regret came as sadness, regret that
he had not told this woman all; that in his blind
confidence he had not written, but had waited waited
for this. He would wait no longer. He would
tell her now. A thousand new thoughts came to
his mind; a thousand new feelings surged over him
as a flood, and he poured them out on paper.
The man himself, not the physician, was unfolded for
the first time in his life, and the writing of that
letter which told all, his life, his love, that ended
with a good-bye which was forever, was the sweetest
labor of his life. He sealed the letter and sat
for hours looking at it, dreaming.
It was summer and the nights were
short, so that with the writing and the dreams, morning
had come. He could scarce wait that day for the
carrier; time to him had become suddenly a thing most
precious; and when at last the man appeared.
De Young twice exacted the promise that the letter
should be mailed special delivery.
The reaction was on and all the world
was dark. Fool that he was, two years had passed
since he had heard from her. She also was a consumptive;
might not ?
The very thought was torture; perspiration
started at every pore, and with the little strength
that was left he paced up and down the room like a
caged animal. A fit of coughing, such as he had
never known before, seized him, and he dropped full
length upon the bed.
The limit was reached; he slept.
As he had worked one night before
to forget, so he spent the following days. It
was the end, and he knew it; but he no longer cared.
His future was centred on one event the
coming of a letter. Beyond that all was shadow,
and he cared not to explore. He worked all that
Nature would allow, carrying to completion his observations,
admitting his mistake with a candor which now caused
no personal pain. He spent much time at his journal,
writing needless things: his actions, his very
thoughts, things which could not have been
wrung from him before; but he was lonely and desperate.
He must not think ’t was madness.
So he wrote and wrote and wrote.
He watched for the carrier all the
daylight hours. His mail was light, and the coming
infrequent. There had been time for an answer,
and the watcher could no longer compose himself to
write. All day he sat in the doorway, looking
across the two mounds, down the road whence the carrier
would come.
And at last he came. Far down
the road toward town one morning a familiar moving
figure grew distinct. De Young watched as though
fascinated. He wanted to shout, to laugh, to cry.
With an effort that sent his finger nails deep into
his palms, he kept quiet, waiting.
A letter was in the carrier’s
hand. Struck by the look on De Young’s
face, the postman did not turn, but stood near by watching.
The exile, once the immovable, seized the missive
feverishly, then paused to examine. It was a
man’s writing he held, and he winced as at a
blow, but with a hand that was nerved too high to
tremble, he tore open the envelope. He read the
few words, and read again; then in a motion of weariness
and hopelessness indescribable, hands and paper dropped.
“My God! And she never knew,” he
whispered.
When next the carrier came, he shaped the third mound.