“Good-night.” A lingering
of finger tips that touched, as by accident; a bared
head; the regular tap of shoes on cement, as a man
walked down the path.
“Good-night and God
bless thee,” he repeated softly, tenderly, under
his breath, that none but he might hear: words
of faith spoken reverently, and by one who believes
not in the God known of the herd.
“Good-night and God
bless thee,” whispered the woman slowly; and
the south wind, murmuring northward, took the words
and carried them gently away as sacred things.
The woman stood thinking, dreaming,
her color mounting, her eyes dimming, as she read
deep the mystery of her own heart.
They had sat side by side the entire
evening, and had talked of life and of its hidden
things; or else had remained silent in the unspoken
converse that is even sweeter to those who understand
each other.
She had said of a mutual friend:
“He is a man I admire; he has an ideal.”
“A thing but few of earth possess.”
“No; I think you are wrong.
I believe all people have ideals. They must;
life would not be life without.”
“You mean object rather than
ideal. Does not an ideal mean something beautiful something
beyond something we’d give our all
for? Not our working hours alone, but our hours
of pleasure and our times of thought. An ideal
is an intangible thing having much of the
supernatural in its make-up; ’tis a fetish for
which we’d sacrifice life or the
strongest passion of life, love.”
“Is this an ideal, though?
Could anything be beautiful to us after we’d
sacrificed much of life, and all of love in its attainment?
Is not everything that is opposed to love also opposed
to the ideal? Is not an ideal, when all is told,
nothing but a great love the great personal
love of each individual?”
He turned to the woman, and there
was that in his face which caused her eyes to drop,
and her breath to come more quickly.
“I don’t know. I’m
miserable, and lonely, and tired. I’ve thought
I had an ideal, and I followed it, working for it
faithfully and for it alone. I’ve shown
it to myself, glowing, splendid, when I became weary
and ready to yield. I’ve sacrificed, in
attempting its attainment, youth and pleasure self,
continually. Still, I’m afar off and
still the light beckons me on. I work day after
day, and night after night, as ever; but the faith
within me is growing weaker. Might not the ideal
I worshipped after all be an earth-born thing, an ambition
whose brightness is not of pure gold, but of tinsel?
That which I have sought, speaks always to me so loudly
that there may be no mistake in hearing.
“‘I am thy god,’
it says; ’worship me and me alone.
Sacrifice sacrifice sacrifice thyself thy
love. Thus shalt thou attain me.’
“One day I stopped my work to
think; hid myself solitary that I might question.
‘What shall I have when I attain thee?’
I asked.
“‘Fame fame the
plaudits of the people a pedestal apart.’
“‘Yes,’ whispered
my soul to me, ’and a great envy always surrounding;
a great fight always to hold thy small pedestal secure.’
“Of such as this are ideals
made? No. ’Twas a mistake. I have
sought not an ideal, but an ambition a
worthless thing. An ideal is something beautiful a
great love. ’Tis not yet too late to correct
my fault; to seek this ideal this beautiful
thing this love.”
He reached over to the woman and their
fingers, as by chance, touching, lingered together.
His eyes shone, and when he spoke his voice trembled.
“You know the ideal the
beautiful thing the love I seek.”
Side by side they sat, each bosom
throbbing; not with the wild passion of youth, but
with the deeper, more spiritual love of middle-life.
Overhead, the night wind murmured; all about, the crickets
sang.
Turning, she met him face to face, frankly, earnestly.
“Let us think.”
She rose, in her eyes the look men
worship and, worshipping, find oblivion.
A moment they stood together.
“Good-night,” she whispered.
“Good-night,” his lips silently answered,
pressing upon hers.