In July, commercial stagnation increased,
and the machinery of business which before had creaked
dismally in its daily routine now groaned aloud in
its travail; and the pity was that the conditions which
caused it were artificially created. There was
capital enough, but the banks hoarded it against possible
contingencies; the crops were heavy, but it was suicidal
for the railroads to move them at the rates legislated
by the government; there were contracts to be let,
but no one dared give them out or accept them because
of the shadow which hung gloomily over every great
industry in the shape of governmental paternalism and
interference. Stocks representing property intrinsically
valuable dropped lower and lower in the market, dividends
which had been earned were diverted into surplus as
further margin of safety against future developments,
unknown and therefore to be feared. Incomes shrank
in some cases almost to the vanishing-point, while
Washington reveled in an orgy of those good intentions
with which they say Hell is paved.
Cosden by this time had come to a
full realization of the significance of Thatcher’s
warning, and he understood now why the New York operator
had shown so little interest in the attack on the Consolidated
Machinery corporation which had seemed inevitable.
In view of conditions as they had developed, and as
Thatcher had foreseen them, no new enterprise would
be launched until opportunity presented itself to take
advantage of its inherent strength. The old-established
company need fear no competition while its own business
was dropping off in such alarming proportions.
So Cosden again reduced expenses, still further extended
his bank affiliations, and settled back to meet whatever
conditions might arise, knowing that his sagacity
had placed him outside the pale of those fighting
for their existence.
In this latter class was Thatcher.
The very success of his varied interests now made
them shining lights to attract the attention of the
authorities in Washington. One by one he saw them
attacked, and day by day he watched the dropping values
of the stocks, called on by the banks to increase
his collateral, drawing deeper and deeper into his
personal resources which he had considered ample for
any emergency. The strain was terrific yet the
only break he permitted himself was during the week
of his son’s graduation.
The question of the summer home gave
Thatcher much concern. The heavy expense of its
upkeep made it an item to be considered at this time,
yet he could not bring himself to the point of doing
what he knew would be an act of wisdom. In their
town house the Thatchers lived the usual formal
life which belonged to their position, but it was Sagamore
Hall they always meant when they spoke of “home.”
To relinquish it, even temporarily, seemed to Thatcher
nothing less than sacrilege.
The estate consisted of some sixty
acres wonderfully located on Narragansett Bay with
nearly a mile frontage on the sea. A rolling,
close-cropped lawn, bordered on either side by avenues
of trees, ran back three hundred yards from the beach
before the stately, old English, half-timbered mansion
was reached, the broad expanse of green carpeting
making a perfect harmony of perspective. The two
great end gables of the house formed a shallow forecourt,
filled in by a brick terrace with balustrade.
Between these gables, the central façade, a double-storied
loggia of stone, reminiscent of a Dorsetshire manor
house, was strikingly beautiful with its splendid
sculptured decorations.
The opposite front of the mansion
faced the road, though removed some distance from
it, and was approached through a gateway and a winding
avenue in keeping with the dignity of the building
itself. To the south, connected by shaded walks,
was an unusual garden, the boundaries of which were
marked by rare trees and shrubs so arranged that they
formed a pyramidal mass of verdure, against which
perennial blooms of rare and beautiful plants showed
their bewildering colors to the best advantage.
This garden represented what Marian had put of herself
into the estate during the twenty years they had lived
there, and to her and to Thatcher each flower, shrub
or tree represented something personal and recalled
some happy experience.
At Sagamore Hall Marian really lived,
keeping out of doors most of the time, entertaining
her friends in a manner which made every one feel
that each of the many attractions had been arranged
for his own special enjoyment. Here the Bermuda
party was again united. Thatcher still kept his
wife in ignorance of the business complications which
now seemed certain to overwhelm him. Marian noticed
that he was tired and worried, but this had happened
so many times before that she had come to look upon
these conditions as deplorable but none the less inevitable
factors in her husband’s business life.
In fact he had so explained on earlier occasions when
she questioned him, and had discouraged her from showing
too much concern. She recognized that he was scarcely
in a mood for the reunion she had planned, but justified
her insistence on the ground that he needed the relaxation;
while he deemed it wise to yield rather than attempt
an explanation.
Edith Stevens had been their guest
for a fortnight before the other members of the party
arrived. Philip was entertaining several of his
college chums, including Billy Huntington, but Mrs.
Thatcher particularly requested her daughter to have
no guests during this visit, holding herself free
to assist in the entertainment.
Since her return home after the Class
Day festivities Merry had shown little interest in
what went on around her. Had her mother noticed
it she would have passed it over lightly as “one
of the child’s moods,” but Mrs. Thatcher
was too completely engrossed in her own great scheme
to be keenly sensitive to anything around her.
In fact Merry’s attitude seemed peculiarly receptive,
and encouraged her, a few days before Hamlen was expected,
to take her daughter into her confidence.
In answering Huntington’s question
Marian expressed greater confidence in Merry’s
acquiescence than she really felt. To herself
she admitted that she did not understand her daughter.
Since the elaborate plans for Merry’s social
life fell through because of the girl’s lack
of interest and failure to respond, Marian had almost
given up in despair. Merry was unlike the daughters
of the Thatchers’ friends, who might be
counted on at all times to do the expected thing when
given the expected conditions; with her it was always
the unexpected which happened. She loved athletics,
not because of the companionship of boys, as other
girls did, but for the games themselves; she was fond
of dancing, but she would as soon dance with another
girl as with a man, it was the rhythmic
motion of the dance itself which fascinated her; she
had no interest nor ability in making “small
talk,” but was always eager to discuss problems
which her mother felt she might better leave alone;
she tolerated young people of her own age, but expressed
her real self only when thrown with older friends.
Mrs. Thatcher worried more over her daughter’s
future than over any other phase of the family life,
and the solution which now seemed to offer itself
contained so much promise that Marian believed it
to be foreordained.
It was not easy to broach the subject,
but when once accomplished Marian talked on for some
time without waiting for Merry to enter into the discussion.
It was important, she felt, that the girl should know
the whole story before being permitted to express
an opinion. As the full significance of her mother’s
words dawned upon Merry there was an instinctive recoil,
but she listened with outward calm. Marian believed
herself to be suggesting nothing save deepest concern
for her daughter’s future; Merry heard nothing
but a personal appeal for sacrifice. The romance
of her mother’s early experience, the results
which came from the breaking of the engagement, her
own interest and participation in Hamlen’s new
life, all went to strengthen the appeal,
but still it asked for sacrifice.
As she listened Merry’s mind
was working fast. What were the relations existing
between them? She admired her mother tremendously,
and was proud of the attention her beauty excited
wherever they went. She respected her, for no
wife or mother ever carried herself in these positions
with greater regard for the proprieties. Did she
love her? Of course! what a question to come
to a girl’s mind! Did she? The question
repeated itself insistently. Merry wondered.
If this were disloyalty, then the thought itself formed
the offense; to analyze it was imperative before putting
it aside. The girl knew that she was face to face
with the crisis of her life, that the question now
in mind had really been the cause of that unrest she
had failed to understand.
“Is this something which you
ask me to do?” Merry inquired at length.
“No, my dear; that would be exceeding a mother’s
rights.”
“But you wish it?”
“Yes; that is a different matter.”
“I wonder if it is,” the girl said soberly.
“It is a very different matter,”
Marian insisted. “I am thinking only of
you, dear child. Unless you felt convinced, as
I do, that your marriage would mean your happiness,
I should be the last one to wish it.”
“Why don’t you let me
wait, as other girls do, until I find the man I love?”
“Because you’re not like other girls,
Merry ”
“I’ve always been a disappointment
to you, haven’t I, Momsie?” she asked
suddenly.
“Not that, dear,” Marian
disclaimed. “Of course it has worried me
that you would never be intimate with young people
your own age. I have never understood it ”
“That is because I never had
any girlhood, Momsie,” Merry explained seriously.
“I grew up too soon. When I was little I
couldn’t play like other children because my
governess was always teaching me manners; so I had
nothing to do but think.”
“What are you talking about,
child!” Mrs. Thatcher protested. “You
are a perfect tomboy, even to-day!”
“I’ve had to make up for
lost time, Momsie. You never saw me play when
I was little; that came after I became old enough
to have my own way. Then I learned games, but
not as a child learns them; they were serious problems,
to be thought out because I had formed the habit of
thinking. While I was away at school I felt older
than the other girls there, and I wasn’t interested
in what interested them; that gave me a chance to
think some more. Then I came home, and you gave
me that wonderful coming-out party! It was after
that I disappointed you most, wasn’t it, Momsie?
I couldn’t live the life the other debutantes
did talking silly nonsense until early
morning with men who hadn’t any sense at all,
rushing to thés dansants smoking cigarettes,
and all that sort of thing.”
“I never knew that you did smoke
cigarettes,” Marian said severely.
“I don’t suppose the mothers
of the other girls knew it either; it was the secrecy
which made it sporty and gave the smoking its only
interest. I couldn’t stand it, Momsie!
I had to be doing something worth while! Finally
you let me have my own way, very much against your
will, and since then I’ve been a tomboy, as
you say. Father gave in on the boat, and I’ve
spent hours in her, all by myself, trying to find out
what the things worth while are. I haven’t
been very successful yet, Momsie, but I do know that
it is a waste of time to fool around with boys like
Ted Erskine when one may find a chance to talk with
a real man like Mr. Huntington.”
“Mr. Hamlen is a real man, too,
Merry. If you knew something of life ”
“It’s because I know too
much of life, and understand too little. Mr.
Huntington has helped me to understand.”
“I had hoped that by being so
much with him, you would be the more prepared to appreciate
Mr. Hamlen,” Mrs. Thatcher said.
“I wish I might have been more with you, dearie.”
Marian looked up quickly. “What
do you mean by that?” she demanded. “Haven’t
I given all my leisure to my family?”
“You have had so very little leisure, Momsie.”
“I have had my own interests, of course ”
“I’m not criticising you,
dearie,” Merry hastened to interpose; “I’m
only trying to explain myself to you.”
“I have done my best to prepare
my children for the life they would naturally enter ”
“Isn’t life what we live
every day, Momsie? It isn’t all made up
of worldly things, is it?”
“Upon my word!” Marian
cried. “One would think that I had entirely
neglected my family!”
“No, Momsie; you have been most
ambitious for us, and have made sure that we could
have everything you thought we ought to have.
Truly it isn’t that I don’t appreciate
what you have done; I simply can’t understand
why any one should want the things you consider essential.
Why, for instance, are you so anxious for me to be
married?”
“Because it is natural at this
time in your life, Merry.” Mrs. Thatcher
was determined to have no quarrel, in spite of what
she considered just provocation. “It is
a mother’s duty to advise her daughter when she
sees her on the verge of a mistake.”
“Suppose I felt that I didn’t
care to marry, Momsie, that I should be happier to
go through life expressing my own individuality?”
“Don’t let us get started
on that,” Marian protested. “You know
how little patience I have with feminism in any form.
I do wish we might discuss some subject in a normal
way as other mothers and daughters do, Merry,”
she continued, softening. “I have your interests
on my mind all the time, I want to help you to understand
yourself and life, I love you so, dear child, and
yet, whenever we try to talk anything over, it always
turns into an argument. What I have suggested
to-day I have thought of for months, I have considered
it from every standpoint before presenting it to you,
but you give me no credit for that. Before you
even know how you feel about it you are ready to dismiss
it. I really think my efforts for your happiness
are entitled to more consideration.”
“You think this would be for
Mr. Hamlen’s happiness too?” Merry asked
soberly.
“I am sure of it,” Marian
replied, seeming to see a sign of yielding in the
girl’s question.
“Why hasn’t he spoken
to me himself?” Merry asked at length.
“He will speak, of course; but
to meet with another disappointment would undo all
the advance he has made.”
“I can’t think of Mr.
Hamlen as a married man,” Merry continued; “I
can’t believe that he would be happy under conditions
changed from what they are now. If he could only
go on living with Mr. Huntington ”
“That is out of the question,
of course,” Mrs. Thatcher answered. “Mr.
Huntington has accomplished a miracle in bringing him
out of his old obsession, and if it were possible
to surround him now with normal conditions there is
no limit to the heights he might reach.”
“Has he told you that he cared for me?”
“Not in so many words,”
her mother admitted; “that is scarcely to be
expected. I understand him so much better than
he does himself. He disparages his abilities,
which is not a bad characteristic in a husband, and
without some assurance of success I doubt if he would
ever mention the subject to you. But you know
what it would mean to him. I shall never urge
you against your will, my dear,” she repeated
with real feeling, “you know that
without my telling you; but I do feel my own responsibility
so keenly! He was a boy of such promise, as he
is to-day a man of rare capabilities if the right
one could only guide him in making use of his talents.
Haven’t you felt this yourself, my dear, when
you have been with him?”
Merry passed her hand wearily over
her forehead. She could not understand why she
did not at once protest against what she felt to be
an unnatural suggestion. Still, the constancy
of the lover, the sympathy which she had felt for
Hamlen since their first meeting in Bermuda, and her
own state of uncertainty combined in a confused way
in the girl’s mind. Huntington’s
face was before her as her mother spoke of Hamlen,
his voice was in her ears, his words echoed in her
heart: “I found the girl too late!”
Mrs. Thatcher thought Merry’s hesitation came
from a consideration of the arguments just advanced,
but what Huntington had said formed the greatest argument
of all. This closed for her all hope of happiness
coming as a direct response to the craving of her heart,
and left her only the possibility of attaining it through
the indirect means of giving happiness to some one
else.
“That is what he would do,”
she whispered; and the thought brought comfort.
“Haven’t you felt this?”
Mrs. Thatcher repeated at length, to recall the girl
to herself. “You have always seemed so much
more at home with older men, and he must have appealed
to you. He would respond so quickly to the sympathy
you could give him.”
“Wouldn’t it be wrong
to marry a man you didn’t love?” Merry
asked quietly.
“But you respect him, don’t
you, dear? And respect is the first step toward
love. I wouldn’t have you marry him unless
that came, but there is plenty of time before the
wedding need be considered.”
“I am very unhappy!” Merry
exclaimed suddenly, with a little catch in her voice.
“Unhappy, my dear!” Mrs.
Thatcher cried with real sympathy, drawing the girl’s
head upon her shoulder. “Why should you
be unhappy? Tell Mother.”
“I don’t know, myself,”
Merry admitted, crying softly. “I’ve
been unhappy ever so long. Now and then things
have seemed to straighten out, but never for long
at a time. Now I’m more unsettled than I
have ever been, and I don’t feel as if I could
be much of a success in making any one else happy
while I feel so miserable myself.”
“This may be just what you need
to help you find yourself, my dear,” Mrs. Thatcher
answered, kissing her affectionately. “Oftentimes,
when we are wretched ourselves, we find happiness
in giving it to others. Don’t promise me
anything, dear child, except that you will think the
matter over carefully, and be prepared to settle it
wisely when the time comes. Let me say again,
unless you decide for yourself that your life will
be made richer and brighter by marrying Philip Hamlen,
of course I should not wish you to consider it.”
Unconsciously Mrs. Thatcher had touched
upon the same argument Merry had used with herself.
The girl had striven for happiness and failed to find
it; she had evolved a creed which called for ideals
which she had come to believe did not exist; she had
demanded something for herself before she thought
of giving of herself. In her failure she had proved
her fallacy. The one person who had it in his
power to disprove her present contentions must consider
her a visionary without the character to make the
visions real. Romance had already come to him,
and having found the girl too late that chapter in
his life was closed. He was happy because he
always thought of others rather than himself.
That was the only royal road after all. There
was nothing repellent about Hamlen. He had many
attributes which compelled admiration, and if he once
became settled, that in itself might release the indisputable
abilities he possessed to accomplish the great work
which might lay before him. But would marriage
give that to him? Was she the one to bring about
the metamorphosis which her mother so confidently
predicted? Would happiness come to her as a result
of giving it to him?
The thoughts and the questions crowded
through her mind in such numbers and with such conflicting
incoherence that she could hope to find no answers.
But her decision need not be made now that
one fact remained clear and she clung to it.
Perhaps another day would bring relief.
“I will think it over, Momsie,”
she promised in a tired voice. “Forgive
me if I haven’t seemed considerate. I want
to do the right thing, dear, but it is so hard to
know what that is.”
“You are a darling!” Mrs.
Thatcher cried, kissing her affectionately. “Don’t
worry about that. Mother will help you to find
out.”