Nothing mystifies a man more than
a woman’s aberrations from some point at which
he, supposes her fixed as a star. In these unfurnished
houses, without steam or elevator, March followed
his wife about with patient wonder. She rather
liked the worst of them best: but she made him
go down into the cellars and look at the furnaces;
she exacted from him a rigid inquest of the plumbing.
She followed him into one of the cellars by the fitful
glare of successively lighted matches, and they enjoyed
a moment in which the anomaly of their presence there
on that errand, so remote from all the facts of their
long-established life in Boston, realized itself for
them.
“Think how easily we might have
been murdered and nobody been any the wiser!”
she said when they were comfortably outdoors again.
“Yes, or made way with ourselves
in an access of emotional insanity, supposed to have
been induced by unavailing flat-hunting,” he
suggested. She fell in with the notion.
“I’m beginning to feel crazy. But
I don’t want you to lose your head, Basil.
And I don’t want you to sentimentalize any of
the things you see in New York. I think you were
disposed to do it in that street we drove through.
I don’t believe there’s any real suffering not
real suffering among those people; that
is, it would be suffering from our point of view,
but they’ve been used to it all their lives,
and they don’t feel their’ discomfort so
much.”
“Of course, I understand that,
and I don’t propose to sentimentalize them.
I think when people get used to a bad state of things
they had better stick to it; in fact, they don’t
usually like a better state so well, and I shall keep
that firmly in mind.”
She laughed with him, and they walked
along the L bestridden avenue, exhilarated by their
escape from murder and suicide in that cellar, toward
the nearest cross town track, which they meant to take
home to their hotel. “Now to-night we will
go to the theatre,” she said, “and get
this whole house business out of our minds, and be
perfectly fresh for a new start in the morning.”
Suddenly she clutched his arm. “Why, did
you see that man?” and she signed with her head
toward a decently dressed person who walked beside
them, next the gutter, stooping over as if to examine
it, and half halting at times.
“No. What?”
“Why, I saw him pick up a dirty
bit of cracker from the pavement and cram it into
his mouth and eat it down as if he were famished.
And look! he’s actually hunting for more in
those garbage heaps!”
This was what the decent-looking man
with the hard hands and broken nails of a workman
was doing-like a hungry dog. They kept up with
him, in the fascination of the sight, to the next
corner, where he turned down the side street still
searching the gutter.
They walked on a few paces. Then
March said, “I must go after him,” and
left his wife standing.
“Are you in want hungry?” he
asked the man.
The man said he could not speak English, Monsieur.
March asked his question in French.
The man shrugged a pitiful, desperate shrug, “Mais,
Monsieur ”
March put a coin in his hand, and
then suddenly the man’s face twisted up; he
caught the hand of this alms-giver in both of his and
clung to it. “Monsieur! Monsieur!”
he gasped, and the tears rained down his face.
His benefactor pulled himself away,
shocked and ashamed, as one is by such a chance, and
got back to his wife, and the man lapsed back into
the mystery of misery out of which he had emerged.
March felt it laid upon him to console
his wife for what had happened. “Of course,
we might live here for years and not see another case
like that; and, of course, there are twenty places
where he could have gone for help if he had known
where to find them.”
“Ah, but it’s the possibility
of his needing the help so badly as that,” she
answered. “That’s what I can’t
bear, and I shall not come to a place where such things
are possible, and we may as well stop our house-hunting
here at once.”
“Yes? And what part of
Christendom will you live in? Such things are
possible everywhere in our conditions.”
“Then we must change the conditions ”
“Oh no; we must go to the theatre
and forget them. We can stop at Brentano’s
for our tickets as we pass through Union Square.”
“I am not going to the theatre,
Basil. I am going home to Boston to-night.
You can stay and find a flat.”
He convinced her of the absurdity
of her position, and even of its selfishness; but
she said that her mind was quite made up irrespective
of what had happened, that she had been away from
the children long enough; that she ought to be at
home to finish up the work of leaving it. The
word brought a sigh. “Ah, I don’t
know why we should see nothing but sad and ugly things
now. When we were young ”
“Younger,” he put in. “We’re
still young.”
“That’s what we pretend,
but we know better. But I was thinking how pretty
and pleasant things used to be turning up all the time
on our travels in the old days. Why, when we
were in New York here on our wedding journey the place
didn’t seem half so dirty as it does now, and
none of these dismal things happened.”
“It was a good deal dirtier,”
he answered; “and I fancy worse in every way-hungrier,
raggeder, more wretchedly housed. But that wasn’t
the period of life for us to notice it. Don’t
you remember, when we started to Niagara the last
time, how everybody seemed middle-aged and commonplace;
and when we got there there were no evident brides;
nothing but elderly married people?”
“At least they weren’t starving,”
she rebelled.
“No, you don’t starve
in parlor-cars and first-class hotels; but if you
step out of them you run your chance of seeing those
who do, if you’re getting on pretty well in
the forties. If it’s the unhappy who see
unhappiness, think what misery must be revealed to
people who pass their lives in the really squalid
tenement-house streets I don’t mean
picturesque avenues like that we passed through.”
“But we are not unhappy,”
she protested, bringing the talk back to the personal
base again, as women must to get any good out of talk.
“We’re really no unhappier than we were
when we were young.”
“We’re more serious.”
“Well, I hate it; and I wish
you wouldn’t be so serious, if that’s what
it brings us to.”
“I will be trivial from this
on,” said March. “Shall we go to the
Hole in the Ground to-night?”
“I am going to Boston.”
“It’s much the same thing.
How do you like that for triviality? It’s
a little blasphemous, I’ll allow.”
“It’s very silly,” she said.
At the hotel they found a letter from
the agent who had sent them the permit to see Mrs.
Grosvenor Green’s apartment. He wrote that
she had heard they were pleased with her apartment,
and that she thought she could make the terms to suit.
She had taken her passage for Europe, and was very
anxious to let the flat before she sailed. She
would call that evening at seven.
“Mrs. Grosvenor Green!”
said Mrs. March. “Which of the ten thousand
flats is it, Basil?”
“The gimcrackery,” he
answered. “In the Xenophon, you know.”
“Well, she may save herself
the trouble. I shall not see her. Or yes I
must. I couldn’t go away without seeing
what sort of creature could have planned that fly-away
flat. She must be a perfect ”
“Parachute,” March suggested.
“No! anybody so light as that couldn’t
come down.”
“Well, toy balloon.”
“Toy balloon will do for the
present,” Mrs. March admitted. “But
I feel that naught but herself can be her parallel
for volatility.”
When Mrs. Grosvenor-Green’s
card came up they both descended to the hotel parlor,
which March said looked like the saloon of a Moorish
day-boat; not that he knew of any such craft, but
the decorations were so Saracenic and the architecture
so Hudson Riverish. They found there on the grand
central divan a large lady whose vast smoothness, placidity,
and plumpness set at defiance all their preconceptions
of Mrs. Grosvenor Green, so that Mrs. March distinctly
paused with her card in her hand before venturing
even tentatively to address her. Then she was
astonished at the low, calm voice in which Mrs. Green
acknowledged herself, and slowly proceeded to apologize
for calling. It was not quite true that she had
taken her passage for Europe, but she hoped soon to
do so, and she confessed that in the mean time she
was anxious to let her flat. She was a little
worn out with the care of housekeeping Mrs.
March breathed, “Oh yes!” in the sigh
with which ladies recognize one another’s martyrdom and
Mrs. Green had business abroad, and she was going to
pursue her art studies in Paris; she drew in Mr. Ilcomb’s
class now, but the instruction was so much better
in Paris; and as the superintendent seemed to think
the price was the only objection, she had ventured
to call.
“Then we didn’t deceive
him in the least,” thought Mrs. March, while
she answered, sweetly: “No; we were only
afraid that it would be too small for our family.
We require a good many rooms.” She could
not forego the opportunity of saying, “My husband
is coming to New York to take charge of a literary
periodical, and he will have to have a room to write
in,” which made Mrs. Green bow to March, and
made March look sheepish. “But we did think
the apartment very charming”, (It was architecturally
charming, she protested to her conscience), “and
we should have been so glad if we could have got into
it.” She followed this with some account
of their house-hunting, amid soft murmurs of sympathy
from Mrs. Green, who said that she had been through
all that, and that if she could have shown her apartment
to them she felt sure that she could have explained
it so that they would have seen its capabilities better,
Mrs. March assented to this, and Mrs. Green added
that if they found nothing exactly suitable she would
be glad to have them look at it again; and then Mrs.
March said that she was going back to Boston herself,
but she was leaving Mr. March to continue the search;
and she had no doubt he would be only too glad to
see the apartment by daylight. “But if you
take it, Basil,” she warned him, when they were
alone, “I shall simply renounce you. I wouldn’t
live in that junk-shop if you gave it to me.
But who would have thought she was that kind of looking
person? Though of course I might have known if
I had stopped to think once. It’s because
the place doesn’t express her at all that it’s
so unlike her. It couldn’t be like anybody,
or anything that flies in the air, or creeps upon
the earth, or swims in the waters under the earth.
I wonder where in the world she’s from; she’s
no New-Yorker; even we can see that; and she’s
not quite a country person, either; she seems like
a person from some large town, where she’s been
an aesthetic authority. And she can’t find
good enough art instruction in New York, and has to
go to Paris for it! Well, it’s pathetic,
after all, Basil. I can’t help feeling
sorry for a person who mistakes herself to that extent.”
“I can’t help feeling
sorry for the husband of a person who mistakes herself
to that extent. What is Mr. Grosvenor Green going
to do in Paris while she’s working her way into
the Salon?”
“Well, you keep away from her
apartment, Basil; that’s all I’ve got to
say to you. And yet I do like some things about
her.”
“I like everything about her
but her apartment,” said March.
“I like her going to be out
of the country,” said his wife. “We
shouldn’t be overlooked. And the place
was prettily shaped, you can’t deny it.
And there was an elevator and steam heat. And
the location is very convenient. And there was
a hall-boy to bring up cards. The halls and stairs
were kept very clean and nice. But it wouldn’t
do. I could put you a folding bed in the room
where you wrote, and we could even have one in the
parlor”
“Behind a portiere? I couldn’t stand
any more portieres!”
“And we could squeeze the two
girls into one room, or perhaps only bring Margaret,
and put out the whole of the wash. Basil!”
she almost shrieked, “it isn’t to be thought
of!”
He retorted, “I’m not thinking of it,
my dear.”
Fulkerson came in just before they
started for Mrs. March’s train, to find out
what had become of them, he said, and to see whether
they had got anything to live in yet.
“Not a thing,” she said.
“And I’m just going back to Boston, and
leaving Mr. March here to do anything he pleases about
it. He has ’carte blanche.’”
“But freedom brings responsibility,
you know, Fulkerson, and it’s the same as if
I’d no choice. I’m staying behind
because I’m left, not because I expect to do
anything.”
“Is that so?” asked Fulkerson.
“Well, we must see what can be done. I
supposed you would be all settled by this time, or
I should have humped myself to find you something.
None of those places I gave you amounts to anything?”
“As much as forty thousand others
we’ve looked at,” said Mrs. March.
“Yes, one of them does amount to something.
It comes so near being what we want that I’ve
given Mr. March particular instructions not to go near
it.”
She told him about Mrs. Grosvenor
Green and her flats, and at the end he said:
“Well, well, we must look out
for that. I’ll keep an eye on him, Mrs.
March, and see that he doesn’t do anything rash,
and I won’t leave him till he’s found
just the right thing. It exists, of course; it
must in a city of eighteen hundred thousand people,
and the only question is where to find it. You
leave him to me, Mrs. March; I’ll watch out for
him.”
Fulkerson showed some signs of going
to the station when he found they were not driving,
but she bade him a peremptory good-bye at the hotel
door.
“He’s very nice, Basil,
and his way with you is perfectly charming. It’s
very sweet to see how really fond of you he is.
But I didn’t want him stringing along with us
up to Forty-second Street and spoiling our last moments
together.”
At Third Avenue they took the Elevated
for which she confessed an infatuation. She declared
it the most ideal way of getting about in the world,
and was not ashamed when he reminded her of how she
used to say that nothing under the sun could induce
her to travel on it. She now said that the night
transit was even more interesting than the day, and
that the fleeing intimacy you formed with people in
second and third floor interiors, while all the usual
street life went on underneath, had a domestic intensity
mixed with a perfect repose that was the last effect
of good society with all its security and exclusiveness.
He said it was better than the theatre, of which it
reminded him, to see those people through their windows:
a family party of work-folk at a late tea, some of
the men in their shirt-sleeves; a woman sewing by a
lamp; a mother laying her child in its cradle; a man
with his head fallen on his hands upon a table; a
girl and her lover leaning over the window-sill together.
What suggestion! what drama? what infinite interest!
At the Forty-second Street station they stopped a
minute on the bridge that crosses the track to the
branch road for the Central Depot, and looked up and
down the long stretch of the Elevated to north and
south. The track that found and lost itself a
thousand times in the flare and tremor of the innumerable
lights; the moony sheen of the electrics mixing with
the reddish points and blots of gas far and near;
the architectural shapes of houses and churches and
towers, rescued by the obscurity from all that was
ignoble in them, and the coming and going of the trains
marking the stations with vivider or fainter plumes
of flame-shot steam-formed an incomparable perspective.
They often talked afterward of the superb spectacle,
which in a city full of painters nightly works its
unrecorded miracles; and they were just to the Arachne
roof spun in iron over the cross street on which they
ran to the depot; but for the present they were mostly
inarticulate before it. They had another moment
of rich silence when they paused in the gallery that
leads from the Elevated station to the waiting-rooms
in the Central Depot and looked down upon the great
night trains lying on the tracks dim under the rain
of gas-lights that starred without dispersing the
vast darkness of the place. What forces, what
fates, slept in these bulks which would soon be hurling
themselves north and south and west through the night!
Now they waited there like fabled monsters of Arab
story ready for the magician’s touch, tractable,
reckless, will-less organized lifelessness
full of a strange semblance of life.
The Marches admired the impressive
sight with a thrill of patriotic pride in the fact
that the whole world perhaps could not afford just
the like. Then they hurried down to the ticket-offices,
and he got her a lower berth in the Boston sleeper,
and went with her to the car. They made the most
of the fact that her berth was in the very middle of
the car; and she promised to write as soon as she
reached home. She promised also that, having
seen the limitations of New York in respect to flats,
she would not be hard on him if he took something
not quite ideal. Only he must remember that it
was not to be above Twentieth Street nor below Washington
Square; it must not be higher than the third floor;
it must have an elevator, steam heat, hail-boys, and
a pleasant janitor. These were essentials; if
he could not get them, then they must do without.
But he must get them.