Jeff came into the ugly old family
parlor, where his mother sat mending by the kerosene-lamp
which she had kept through all the household changes,
and pushed enough of her work aside from the corner
of the table to rest his arm upon it.
“Mother, I want you to listen
to me, and to wait till I get done. Will you?”
She looked up at him over her spectacles
from the stocking she was darning; the china egg gleamed
through the frayed place. “What notion
have you got in your head, now?”
“It’s about Jackson.
He isn’t well. He’s got to leave off
work and go away.”
The mother’s hand dropped at
the end of the yarn she had drawn through the stocking
heel, and she stared at Jeff. Then she resumed
her work with the decision expressed in her tone.
“Your father lived to be sixty years old, and
Jackson a’n’t forty! The doctor said
there wa’n’t any reason why he shouldn’t
live as long as his father did.”
“I’m not saying he won’t
live to a hundred. I’m saying he oughtn’t
to stay another winter here,” Jeff said, decisively.
Mrs. Durgin was silent for a time,
and then she said. “Jeff, is that your
notion about Jackson, or whose is it?”
“It’s mine, now.”
Mrs. Durgin waited a moment.
Then she began, with a feeling quite at variance with
her words:
“Well, I’ll thank Cynthy
Whit’ell to mind her own business! Of course,”
she added, and in what followed her feeling worked
to the surface in her words, “I know ’t
she thinks the world of Jackson, and he does of her;
and I presume she means well. I guess she’d
be more apt to notice, if there was any change, than
what I should. What did she say?”
Jeff told, as nearly as he could remember,
and he told what Cynthia and he had afterward jointly
worked out as to the best thing for Jackson to do.
Mrs. Durgin listened frowningly, but not disapprovingly,
as it seemed; though at the end she asked: “And
what am I going to do, with Jackson gone?”
Jeff laughed, with his head down.
“Well, I guess you and Cynthy could run it,
with Frank and Mr. Whitwell.”
“Mr. Whit’ell!”
said Mrs. Durgin, concentrating in her accent of his
name the contempt she could not justly pour out on
the others.
“Oh,” Jeff went on, “I
did think that I could take hold with you, if you
could bring yourself to let me off this last year at
Harvard.”
“Jeff!” said his mother,
reproachfully. “You know you don’t
mean that you’d give up your last year in college?”
“I do mean it, but I don’t
expect you to do it; and I don’t ask it.
I suggested it to Cynthy, when we got to talking it
over, and she saw it wouldn’t do.”
“Well, she showed some sense that time,”
Mrs. Durgin said.
“I don’t know when Cynthy
hasn’t shown sense; except once, and then I
guess it was my fault.”
“What do you mean?”
“Why, this afternoon I asked
her to marry me some time, and she said she would.”
He looked at his mother and laughed, and then he did
not laugh. He had expected her to be pleased;
he had thought to pave the way with this confession
for the declaration of his intention not to study law,
and to make his engagement to Cynthia serve him in
reconciling his mother to the other fact. But
a menacing suspense followed his words.
His mother broke out at last:
“You asked Cynthy Whit’ell to marry you!
And she said she would! Well, I can tell her she
won’t, then!”
“And I can tell you she will!”
Jeff stormed back. He rose to his feet and stood
over his mother.
She began steadily, as if he had not
spoken. “If that designin’ ”
“Look out, mother! Don’t
you say anything against Cynthia! She’s
been the best girl to you in the world, and you know
it. She’s been as true to you as Jackson
has himself. She hasn’t got a selfish bone
in her body, and she’s so honest she couldn’t
design anything against you or any one, unless she
told you first. Now you take that back! Take
it back! She’s no more designing than than
you are!”
Mrs. Durgin was not moved by his storming,
but she was inwardly convinced of error. “I
do take it back. Cynthy is all right. She’s
all you say and more. It’s your fault,
then, and you’ve got yourself to thank, for
whosever fault it is, she’ll pack ”
“If Cynthy packs, I pack!”
said Jeff. “Understand that. The moment
she leaves this house I leave it, too, and I’ll
marry her anyway. Frank ’d leave and and Pshaw!
What do you care for that? But I don’t know
what you mean! I always thought you liked Cynthy
and respected her. I didn’t believe I could
tell you a thing that would please you better than
that she had said she would have me. But if it
don’t, all right.”
Mrs. Durgin held her peace in bewilderment;
she stared at her son with dazed eyes, under the spectacles
lifted above her forehead. She felt a change
of mood in his unchanged tone of defiance, and she
met him half-way. “I tell you I take back
what I called Cynthia, and I told you so. But but
I didn’t ever expect you to marry her.”
“Why didn’t you?
There isn’t one of the summer folks to compare
with her. She’s got more sense than all
of ’em. I’ve known her ever since
I can remember. Why didn’t you expect it?”
“I didn’t expect it.”
“Oh, I know! You thought
I’d see somebody in Boston some swell
girl. Well, they wouldn’t any of them look
at me, and if they would, they wouldn’t look
at you.”
“I shouldn’t care whether they looked
at me or not.”
“I tell you they wouldn’t
look at me. You don’t understand about these
things, and I do. They marry their own kind, and
I’m not their kind, and I shouldn’t be
if I was Daniel Webster himself. Daniel Webster!
Who remembers him, or cares for him, or ever did?
You don’t believe it? You think that because
I’ve been at Harvard Oh, can’t
I make you see it? I’m what they call a
jay in Harvard, and Harvard don’t count if you’re
a jay.”
His mother looked at him without speaking.
She would not confess the ambition he taxed her with,
and perhaps she had nothing so definite in her mind.
Perhaps it was only her pride in him, and her faith
in a splendid future for him, that made her averse
to his marriage in the lot she had always known, and
on a little lower level in it that her own. She
said at last:
“I don’t know what you
mean by being a jay. But I guess we better not
say anything more about this to-night.”
“All right,” Jeff returned.
There never were any formal good-nights between the
Durgins, and he went away now without further words.
His mother remained sitting where
he left her. Two or three times she drew her
empty darning-needle through the heel of the stocking
she was mending.
She was still sitting there when Jackson
passed on his way to bed, after leaving the office
in charge of the night porter. He faltered, as
he went by, and as he stood on the threshold she told
him what Jeff had told her.
“That’s good,” he
said, lifelessly. “Good for Jeff,”
he added, thoughtfully, conscientiously.
“Why a’n’t it good
for her, too?” demanded Jeff’s mother,
in quick resentment of the slight put upon him.
“I didn’t say it wa’n’t,”
said Jackson. “But it’s better for
Jeff.”
“She may be very glad to get him!”
“I presume she is. She’s
always cared for him, I guess. She’ll know
how to manage him.”
“I don’t know,”
said Mrs. Durgin, “as I like to have you talk
so, about Jeff. He was here, just now, wantin’
to give up his last year in Harvard, so ’s to
let you go off on a vacation. He thinks you’ve
worked yourself down.”
Jackson made no recognition of Jeff’s
professed self-sacrifice. “I don’t
want any vacation. I’m feeling first-rate
now. I guess that stuff I had from the writin’
medium has begun to take hold of me. I don’t
know when I’ve felt so well. I believe
I’m going to get stronger than ever I was.
Jeff say I needed a rest?”
Something like a smile of compassion
for the delusion of his brother dawned upon the sick
man’s wasted face, which was blotched with large
freckles, and stared with dim, large eyes from out
a framework of grayish hair, and grayish beard cut
to the edges of the cheeks and chin.