The chum to whom Jeff confided the
story of his encounter with a man he left nameless
inwardly thanked fortune that he was not that man;
for he knew him destined sooner or later to make such
reparation for the injuries he had inflicted as Jeff
chose to exact. He tended him carefully, and
respected the reticence Jeff guarded concerning the
whole matter, even with the young doctor whom his
friend called, and who kept to himself his impressions
of the nature of Jeff’s injuries.
Jeff lay in his darkened room, and
burned with them, and with the thoughts, guesses,
purposes which flamed through his mind. Had she,
that girl, known what her brother meant to do?
Had she wished him to think of her in the moment of
his punishment, and had she spoken of her brother so
that he might recall her, or had she had some ineffective
impulse to warn him against her brother when she spoke
of him?
He lay and raged in vain with his
conjectures, and he did a thousand imagined murders
upon Lynde in revenge of his shame.
Toward the end of the week, while
his hurts were still too evident to allow him to go
out-of-doors before dark, he had a note from Westover
asking him to come in at once to see him.
“Your brother Jackson,”
Westover wrote, “reached Boston by the New York
train this morning, and is with me here. I must
tell you I think he is not at all well, but he does
not know how sick he is, and so I forewarn you.
He wants to get on home, but I do not feel easy about
letting him make the rest of the journey alone.
Some one ought to go with him. I write not knowing
whether you are still in Cambridge or not; or whether,
if you are, you can get away at this time. But
I think you ought, and I wish, at any rate, that you
would come in at once and see Jackson. Then we
can settle what had best be done.”
Jeff wrote back that he had been suffering
with a severe attack of erysipelas he decided
upon erysipelas for the time being, but he meant to
let Westover know later that he had been in a row and
the doctor would not let him go out yet. He promised
to come in as soon as he possibly could. If Westover
thought Jackson ought to be got home at once, and
was not fit to travel alone, he asked him to send a
hospital nurse with him.
Westover replied by Jeff’s messenger
that it would worry and alarm Jackson to be put in
charge of a nurse; but that he would go home with
him, and they would start the next day. He urged
Jeff to come and see his brother if it was at all
safe for him to do so. But if he could not, Westover
would give his mother a reassuring reason for his failure.
Mrs. Durgin did not waste any anxiety
for the sickness which prevented Jeff from coming
home with his brother. She said ironically that
it must be very bad, and she gave all her thought
and care to Jackson. The sick man rallied, as
he prophesied he should, in his native air, and celebrated
the sense and science of the last doctor he had seen
in Europe, who told him that he had made a great gain,
but he had better hurry home as fast as he could,
for he had got all the advantage he could expect to
have from his stay abroad, and now home air was the
best thing for him.
It could not be known how much of
this he believed; he had, at any rate, the pathetic
hopefulness of his malady; but his mother believed
it all, and she nursed him with a faith in his recovery
which Whitwell confided to Westover was about as much
as he wanted to see, for one while. She seemed
to grow younger in the care of him, and to get back
to herself, more and more, from the facts of Jeff’s
behavior, which had aged and broken her. She
had to tell Jackson about it all, but he took it with
that indifference to the things of this world which
the approach of death sometimes brings, and in the
light of his passivity it no longer seemed to her
so very bad. It was a relief to have Jackson say,
Well, perhaps it was for the best; and it was a comfort
to see how he and Cynthia took to each other; it was
almost as if that dreadful trouble had not been.
She told Jackson what hard work she had had to make
Cynthia stay with her, and how the girl had consented
to stay only until Jeff came home; but she guessed,
now that Jackson had got back, he could make Cynthia
see it all in another light, and perhaps it would
all come right again. She consulted him about
Jeff’s plan of going abroad, and Jackson said
it might be about as well; he should soon be around,
and he thought if Jeff went it would give Cynthia
more of a chance to get reconciled. After all,
his mother suggested, a good many fellows behaved worse
than Jeff had done and still had made it up with the
girls they were engaged to; and Jackson gently assented.
He did not talk with Cynthia about
Jeff, out of that delicacy, or that coldness, common
to them both. Perhaps it was not necessary for
them to speak of him; perhaps they understood him
aright in their understanding of each other.
Westover stayed on, day after day,
thinking somehow that he ought to wait till Jeff came.
There were only a few other people in the hotel, and
these were of a quiet sort; they were not saddened
by the presence of a doomed man under the same roof,
as gayer summer folks might have been, and they were
themselves no disturbance to him.
He sat about with them on the veranda,
and he made friends among them, and they did what
they could to encourage and console him in his impatience
to take up his old cares in the management of the hotel.
The Whitwells easily looked after the welfare of the
guests, and Jackson was so much better to every one’s
perception that Westover could honestly write Jeff
a good report of him.
The report may have been so good that
Jeff took the affair too easily. It was a fortnight
after Jackson’s return to Lion’s Head when
he began to fail so suddenly and alarmingly that Westover
decided upon his own responsibility to telegraph Jeff
of his condition. But he had the satisfaction
of Whitwell’s approval when he told him what
he had done.
“Of course, Jackson a’n’t
long for this world. Anybody but him and his
mother could see that; and now he’s just melting
away, as you might say. I ha’n’t
liked his not carin’ to work plantchette since
he got back; looked to me from the start that he kind
of knowed that it wa’n’t worth while for
him to trouble about a world that he’ll know
all about so soon, anyways; and d’ you notice
he don’t seem to care about Mars, either?
I’ve tried to wake him up on it two-three times,
but you can’t git him to take an interest.
I guess Jeff can’t git here any too soon on Jackson’s
account; but as far forth as I go, he couldn’t
git here too late. I should like to take the
top of his head off.”
Westover had been in Whitwell’s
confidence since their first chance of speech together.
He now said:
“I know it will be rather painful
to you to have him here for some reasons, but ”
“You mean Cynthy? Well!
I guess when Cynthy can’t get along with the
sight of Jeff Durgin, she’ll be a different girl
from what she’s ever been before. If she’s
got to see that skunk ag’in, I guess this is
about the best time to do it.”
It was Westover who drove to meet
Jeff at the station, when he got his despatch, naming
the train he would take, and he found him looking very
well, and perhaps stouter than he had been.
They left the station in silence,
after their greeting and Jeff’s inquiries about
Jackson. Jeff had taken the reins, and now he
put them with the whip in one hand, and pushed up
his hat with the other, and turned his face full upon
Westover. “Notice anything in particular?”
he demanded.
“No; yes some slight marks.”
“I guess that fellow fixed me
up pretty well: paints black eyes, and that kind
of thing. I got to scrapping with a man, Class
Day; we wanted to settle a little business we began
at the Tree, and he left his marks on me. I meant
to tell you the truth as soon as I could get at you;
but I had to say erysipelas in my letter. I guess,
if you don’t mind, we’ll let erysipelas
stand, with the rest.”
“I shouldn’t have cared,”
Westover said, “if you’d let it stand with
me.”
“Oh, thank you,” Jeff returned.
There could have been no show of affection
at his meeting with Jackson even if there had been
any fact of it; that was not the law of their life.
But Jeff had always been a turbulent, rebellious, younger
brother, resentful of Jackson’s control, too
much his junior to have the associations of an equal
companionship in the past, and yet too near him in
age to have anything like a filial regard for him.
They shook hands, and each asked the other how he
was, and then they seemed to have done with each other.
Jeff’s mother kissed him in addition to the handshaking,
but made him feel her preoccupation with Jackson; she
asked him if he had hurried home on Jackson’s
account, and he promptly lied her out of this anxiety.
He shook hands with Cynthia, too,
but it was across the barrier which had not been lowered
between them since they parted. He spoke to Jackson
about her, the day after he came home, when Jackson
said he was feeling unusually strong and well, and
the two brothers had strolled out through the orchard
together. Now and then he gave the sick man his
arm, and when he wanted to sit down in a sunny place
he spread the shawl he carried for him.
“I suppose mother’s told
you about Cynthy and me, Jackson?” he began.
Jackson answered, with lack-lustre
eyes, “Yes.” Presently he asked:
“What’s become of the other girl?”
“Damn her! I don’t
know what’s become of her, and I don’t
care!” Jeff exploded, furiously.
“Then you don’t care for
her any more?” Jackson pursued, with the same
languid calm.
“I never cared for her.”
Jackson was silent, and the matter
seemed to have faded out of his mind. But it
was keenly alive in Jeff’s mind, and he was in
the strange necessity which men in the flush of life
and health often feel of seeking counsel of those
who stand in the presence of death, as if their words
should have something of the mystical authority of
the unknown wisdom they are about to penetrate.
“What I want to know is, what
I am going to do about Cynthy?”
“I don’t know,”
Jackson answered, vaguely, and he expressed by his
indirection the sense he must sometimes have had of
his impending fate “I don’t
know what she’s going to do, her or mother, either.”
“Yes,” Jeff assented,
“that’s what I think of. And I’d
do anything that I could that you thought
was right.”
Jackson apparently concentrated his
mind upon the question by an effort. “Do
you care as much for Cynthy as you used to?”
“Yes,” said Jeff, after
a moment, “as much as I ever did; and more.
But I’ve been thinking, since the thing happened,
that, if I’d cared for her the way she did for
me, it wouldn’t have happened. Look here,
Jackson! You know I’ve never pretended
to be like some men like Mr. Westover, for
example always looking out for the right
and the wrong, and all that. I didn’t make
myself, and I guess if the Almighty don’t make
me go right it’s because He don’t want
me to. But I have got a conscience about Cynthy,
and I’d be willing to help out a little if I
knew how, about her. The devil of it is, I’ve
got to being afraid. I don’t mean that I’m
not fit for her; any man’s fit for any woman
if he wants her bad enough; but I’m afraid I
sha’n’t ever care for her in the right
way. That’s the point. I’ve
cared for just one woman in this world, and it a’n’t
Cynthy, as far as I can make out. But she’s
gone, and I guess I could coax Cynthy round again,
and I could be what she wants me to be, after this.”
Jackson lay upon his shawl, looking
up at the sky full of islands of warm clouds in its
sea of blue; he was silent so long that Jeff began
to think he had not been listening; he could not hear
him breathe, and he came forward to him quickly from
the shadow of the tree where he sat.
“Well?” Jackson whispered, turning his
eyes upon him.
“Well?” Jeff returned.
“I guess you’d better let it alone,”
said Jackson.
“All right. That’s what I think,
too.”