For five months Zora wandered over
the world chiefly Italy without
an experience which might be called an adventure.
When the Literary Man from London crossed her mind
she laughed him to scorn for a prophetic popinjay.
She had broken no man’s heart, and her own was
whole. The tribes of Crim Tartary had exhibited
no signs of worry and had left her unmolested.
She had furthermore taken rapturous delight in cathedrals,
expensive restaurants, and the set pieces of fashionable
scenery. Rattenden had not a prophetic leg to
stand on.
Yet she longed for the unattainable for
the elusive something of which these felicities were
but symbols. Now the wanderer with a haunting
sense of the Beyond, but without the true vagabond’s
divine gift of piercing the veil, can only follow
the obvious; and there are seasons when the obvious
fails to satisfy. When such a mood overcame her
mistress, Turner railed at the upsetting quality of
foreign food, and presented bicarbonate of soda.
She arrived by a different path at the unsatisfactory
nature of the obvious. Sometimes, too, the pleasant
acquaintances of travel were lacking, and loneliness
upset the nice balance of Zora’s nerves.
Then, more than ever, did she pine for the Beyond.
Yet youth, receptivity, imagination
kept her buoyant. Hope lured her on with renewed
promises from city to city. At last, on her homeward
journey, he whispered the magic name of Monte Carlo,
and her heart was aflutter in anticipation of wonderland.
She stood bewildered, lonely, and
dismayed in the first row behind the chairs, fingering
an empty purse. She had been in the rooms ten
minutes, and she had lost twenty louis.
Her last coup had been successful, but a bland old
lady, with the white hair and waxen face of sainted
motherhood, had swept up her winnings so unconcernedly
that Zora’s brain began to swim. As she
felt too strange and shy to expostulate she stood fingering
her empty purse.
The scene was utterly different from
what she had expected. She had imagined a gay,
crowded room, wild gamblers shouting in their excitement,
a band playing delirious waltz music, champagne corks
popping merrily, painted women laughing, jesting loudly,
all kinds of revelry and devilry and Bacchic things
undreamed of. This was silly of her, no doubt,
but the silliness of inexperienced young women is
a matter for the pity, not the reprobation, of the
judicious. If they take the world for their oyster
and think, when they open it, they are going to find
pearl necklaces ready-made, we must not blame them.
Rather let hoary-headed sinners envy them their imaginings.
The corners of Zora Middlemist’s
ripe lips drooped with a child’s pathos of disillusionment.
Her nose delicately marked disgust at the heavy air
and the discord of scents around her. Having
lost her money she could afford to survey with scorn
the decorous yet sordid greed of the crowded table.
There was not a gleam of gaiety about it. The
people behaved with the correct impassiveness of an
Anglican congregation. She had heard of more jocular
funerals.
She forgot the intoxication of her
first gold and turquoise day at Monte Carlo.
A sense of loneliness such as a solitary
dove might feel in a wilderness of evil bats oppressed
her. Had she not been aware that she was a remarkably
attractive woman and the object of innumerable glances,
she would have cried. And twenty louis pitched
into unprofitable space! Yet she stood half fascinated
by the rattle of the marble on the revolving disc,
the glitter of the gold, the soft pat of the coins
on the green cloth as they were thrown by the croupier.
She began to make imaginary stakes. For five
coups in succession she would have won. It was
exasperating. There she stood, having pierced
the innermost mystery of chance, without even a five-franc
piece in her purse.
A man’s black sleeve pushed
past her shoulder, and she saw a hand in front of
her holding a louis. Instinctively she took
it.
“Thanks,” said a tired
voice. “I can’t reach the table.
She threw it, en plein, on Number Seventeen;
and then with a start, realizing what she had done,
she turned with burning cheeks.
“I am so sorry.”
Her glance met a pair of unspeculative
blue eyes, belonging to the owner of the tired voice.
She noted that he had a sallow face, a little brown
mustache, and a shock of brown hair, curiously upstanding,
like Struwel Peter’s.
“I am so sorry,”
she repeated. “Please ask for it back.
What did you want me to play?”
“I don’t know. It
doesn’t matter, so long as you’ve put it
somewhere.”
“But I’ve put it en
plein on Seventeen,” she urged. “I
ought to have thought what I was doing.”
“Why think?” he murmured.
Mrs. Middlemist turned square to the
table and fixed her eyes on the staked louis.
In spite of the blue-eyed man’s implied acquiescence
she felt qualms of responsibility. Why had she
not played on an even chance, or one of the dozens,
or even a transversale? To add to her discomfort
no one else played the full seventeen. The whole
table seemed silently jeering at her inexperience.
The croupiers had completed the payments
of the last coup. The marble fell with its sharp
click and whizzed and rattled around the disc.
Zora held her breath. The marble found its compartment
at last, and the croupier announced:
"Dix-sept, noir, impair et manque."
She had won. A sigh of relief
shook her bosom. Not only had she not lost a
stranger’s money, but she had won for him thirty-five
times his stake. She watched the louis greedily
lest it should be swept away by a careless croupier perhaps
the only impossible thing that could not happen at
Monte Carlo and stretched out her arm past
the bland old lady in tense determination to frustrate
further felonious proceedings. The croupier pitched
seven large gold coins across the table. She clutched
them feverishly and turned to deliver them to their
owner. He was nowhere to be seen. She broke
through the ring, and with her hands full of gold scanned
the room in dismayed perplexity.
At last she espied him standing dejectedly
by another table. She rushed across the intervening
space and held out the money.
“See, you have won!”
“Oh, Lord!” murmured the
man, removing his hands from his dinner-jacket pockets,
but not offering to take his winnings. “What
a lot of trouble I have given you.”
“Of course you have,”
she said tartly. “Why didn’t you stay?”
“I don’t know,”
he replied. “How can one tell why one doesn’t
do things?”
“Well, please take the money
now and let me get rid of it. There are seven
pieces of five louis each.”
She counted the coins into his hand,
and then suddenly flushed scarlet. She had forgotten
to claim the original louis which she had staked.
Where was it? What had become of it? As
well try, she thought, to fish up a coin thrown into
the sea. She felt like a thief.
“There ought to be another louis,”
she stammered.
“It doesn’t matter,” said the man.
“But it does matter. You might think that
I I kept it.”
“That’s too absurd,” he answered.
“Are you interested in guns?”
“Guns?”
She stared at him. He appeared quite sane.
“I remember now I was thinking
of guns when I went away,” he explained.
“They’re interesting things to think about.”
“But don’t you understand
that I owe you a louis? I forgot all about
it. If my purse weren’t empty I would repay
you. Will you stay here till I can get some money
from my hotel the Hotel de Paris?”
She spoke with some vehemence.
How could the creature expect her to remain in his
debt? But the creature only passed his fingers
through his upstanding hair and smiled wanly.
“Please don’t say anything
more about it. It distresses me. The croupiers
don’t return the stake, as a general rule, unless
you ask for it. They assume you want to back
your luck. Perhaps it has won again. For
goodness’ sake don’t bother about it and
thank you very, very much.”
He bowed politely and moved a step
or two away. But Zora, struck by a solution of
the mystery which had not occurred to her, as one cannot
grasp all the ways and customs of gaming establishments
in ten minutes, rushed back to the other table.
She arrived just in time to hear the croupier asking
whom the louis on seventeen belonged to.
The number had turned up again.
This time she brought the thirty-six louis
to the stranger.
“Dear me,” said he, taking
the money. “It is very astonishing.
But why did you trouble?”
“Because I’m a woman of common sense,
I suppose.”
He looked at the coins in his hand
as if they were shells which a child at the seaside
might have brought him, and then raised his eyes slowly
to hers.
“You are a very gracious lady.”
His glance and tone checked an impulse of exasperation.
She smiled.
“At any rate, I’ve won
fifty-six pounds for you, and you ought to be grateful.”
He made a little gesture of acknowledgement.
Had he been a more dashing gentleman he might have
expressed his gratitude for the mere privilege of
conversing with a gracious lady so beautiful.
They had drifted from the outskirts of the crowded
table and found themselves in the thinner crowd of
saunterers. It was the height of the Monte Carlo
season and the feathers and diamonds and rouge and
greedy eyes and rusty bonnets of all nations confused
the sight and paralyzed thought. Yet among all
the women of both worlds Zora Middlemist stood out
remarkable. As Septimus Dix afterwards explained,
the rooms that evening contained a vague kind of conglomerate
woman and Zora Middlemist. And the herd of men
envied the creature on whom she smiled so graciously.
She was dressed in black, as became
a young widow, but it was a black which bore no sign
of mourning. The black, sweeping ostrich plume
of a picture hat gave her an air of triumph.
Black gloves reaching more than halfway up shapely
arms and a gleam of snowy neck above a black chiffon
bodice disquieted the imagination. She towered
over her present companion, who was five foot seven
and slimly built.
“You’ve brought me all
this stuff, but what am I to do with it?” he
asked helplessly.
“Perhaps I had better take care of it for you.”
It was a relief from the oppressive
loneliness to talk to a human being; so she lingered
wistfully in conversation. A pathetic eagerness
came into the man’s face.
“I wish you would,” said
he, drawing a handful from his jacket pocket.
“I should be so much happier.”
“You can hardly be such a gambler,” she
laughed.
“Oh, no! It’s not that at all.
Gambling bores me.”
“Why do you play, then?”
“I don’t. I staked
that louis because I wanted to see whether I should
be interested. I wasn’t, as I began to
think about the guns. Have you had breakfast?”
Again Zora was startled. A sane
man does not talk of breakfasting at nine o’clock
in the evening. But if he were a lunatic perhaps
it were wise to humor him.
“Yes,” she said. “Have you?”
“No. I’ve only just got up.”
“Do you mean to say you’ve been asleep
all day?”
“What’s the noisy day made for?”
“Let us sit down,” said Zora.
They found one of the crimson couches
by the wall vacant, and sat down. Zora regarded
him curiously.
“Why should you be happier if I took care of
your money?”
“I shouldn’t spend it.
I might meet a man who wanted to sell me a gas-engine.”
“But you needn’t buy it.”
“These fellows are so persuasive,
you see. At Rotterdam last year, a man made me
buy a second-hand dentist’s chair.”
“Are you a dentist?” asked Zora.
“Lord, no! If I were I could have used
the horrible chair.”
“What did you do with it?”
“I had it packed up and despatched,
carriage paid, to an imaginary person at Singapore.”
He made this announcement in his tired,
gentle manner, without the flicker of a smile.
He added, reflectively
“That sort of thing becomes expensive.
Don’t you find it so?”
“I would defy anybody to sell me a thing I didn’t
want,” she replied.
“Ah, that,” said he with
a glance of wistful admiration, “that is because
you have red hair.”
If any other strange male had talked
about her hair, Zora Middlemist would have drawn herself
up in Junoesque majesty and blighted him with a glance.
She had done with men and their compliments forever.
In that she prided herself on her Amazonianism.
But she could not be angry with the inconclusive being
to whom she was talking. As well resent the ingenuous
remarks of a four-year-old child.
“What has my red hair to do with it?”
she asked pleasantly.
“It was a red-haired man who sold me the dentist’s
chair.”
“Oh!” said Zora, nonplussed.
There was a pause. The man leaned
back, embracing one knee with both hands. They
were nerveless, indeterminate hands, with long fingers,
such as are in the habit of dropping things.
Zora wondered how they supported his knee. For
some time he stared into vacancy, his pale-blue eyes
adream. Zora laughed.
“Guns?” she asked.
“No,” said he, awaking to her presence.
“Perambulators.”
She rose. “I thought you
might be thinking of breakfast. I must be going
back to my hotel. These rooms are too hot and
horrible. Good night.”
“I will see you to the lift, if you’ll
allow me,” he said politely.
She graciously assented and they left
the rooms together. In the atrium she changed
her mind about the lift. She would leave the Casino
by the main entrance and walk over to the Hotel de
Paris for the sake of a breath of fresh air.
At the top of the steps she paused and filled her lungs.
It was a still, moonless night, and the stars hung
low down, like diamonds on a canopy of black velvet.
They made the flaring lights of the terrace of the
Hotel and Cafe de Paris look tawdry and meretricious.
“I hate them,” she said, pointing to the
latter.
“Stars are better,” said her companion.
She turned on him swiftly.
“How did you know I was making comparisons?”
“I felt it,” he murmured.
They walked slowly down the steps.
At the bottom a carriage and pair seemed to rise mysteriously
out of the earth.
“‘Ave a drive? Ver’
good carriage,” said a voice out of the dimness.
Monte Carlo cabmen are unerring in their divination
of the Anglo-Saxon.
Why not? The suggestion awoke
in her an instant craving for the true beauty of the
land. It was unconventional, audacious, crazy.
But, again, why not? Zora Middlemist was answerable
for her actions to no man or woman alive. Why
not drink a great draught of the freedom that was hers?
What did it matter that the man was a stranger?
All the more daring the adventure. Her heart
beat gladly. But chaste women, like children,
know instinctively the man they can trust.
“Shall we?”
“Drive?”
“Yes unless ”
a thought suddenly striking her “unless
you want to go back to your friends.”
“Good Lord!” said he,
aghast, as if she were accusing him of criminal associations.
“I have no friends.”
“Then come.”
She entered the carriage. He
followed meekly and sat beside her. Where should
they drive? The cabman suggested the coast road
to Mentone. She agreed. On the point of
starting she observed that her companion was bare-headed.
“You’ve forgotten your hat.”
She spoke to him as she would have done to a child.
“Why bother about hats?”
“You’ll catch your death of cold.
Go and get it at once.”
He obeyed with a docility which sent
a little tingle of exaltation through Mrs. Middlemist.
A woman may have an inordinate antipathy to men, but
she loves them to do her bidding. Zora was a
woman; she was also young.
He returned. The cabman whipped
up his strong pair of horses, and they started through
the town towards Mentone.
Zora lay back on the cushions and
drank in the sensuous loveliness of the night the
warm, scented air, the velvet and diamond sky, the
fragrant orange groves the dim, mysterious
olive trees, the looming hills, the wine-colored,
silken sea, with its faint edging of lace on the dusky
sweep of the bay. The spirit of the South overspread
her with its wings and took her amorously in its arms.
After a long, long silence she sighed,
remembering her companion.
“Thank you for not talking,” she said
softly.
“Don’t,” he replied.
“I had nothing to say. I never talk.
I’ve scarcely talked for a year.”
She laughed idly.
“Why?”
“No one to talk to. Except
my man,” he added conscientiously. “His
name is Wiggleswick.”
“I hope he looks after you well,”
said Zora, with a touch of maternal instinct.
“He wants training. That’s
what I am always telling him. But he can’t
hear. He’s seventy and stone-deaf.
But he’s interesting. He tells me about
jails and things.”
“Jails?”
“Yes. He spent most of
his time in prison. He was a professional burglar but
then he got on in years. Besides, the younger
generation was knocking at the door.”
“I thought that was the last
thing a burglar would do,” said Zora.
“They generally use jemmies,”
he said gravely. “Wiggleswick has given
me his collection. They’re very useful.”
“What for?” she asked.
“To kill moths with,” he replied dreamily.
“But what made you take a superannuated burglar
for a valet?”
“I don’t know. Perhaps
it was Wiggleswick himself. He came up to me one
day as I was sitting in Kensington Gardens, and somehow
followed me home.”
“But, good gracious,”
cried Zora forgetful for the moment of stars
and sea “aren’t you afraid
that he will rob you?”
“No. I asked him, and he
explained. You see, it would be out of his line.
A forger only forges, a pickpocket only snatches chains
and purses, and a burglar only burgles. Now,
he couldn’t burgle the place in which he was
living himself, so I am safe.”
Zora gave him sage counsel.
“I’d get rid of him if I were you.”
“If I were you, I would but
I can’t,” he replied. “If I
told him to go he wouldn’t. I go instead
sometimes. That’s why I’m here.”
“If you go on talking like that,
you’ll make my brain reel,” said Zora
laughing. “Do tell me something about yourself.
What is your name?”
“Septimus Dix. I’ve
got another name Ajax Septimus
Ajax Dix but I never use it.”
“That’s a pity,” said Zora.
“Ajax is a lovely name.”
He dissented in his vague fashion.
“Ajax suggests somebody who defies lightning
and fools about with a spear. It’s a silly
name. A maiden aunt persuaded my mother to give
it to me. I think she mixed it up with Achilles.
She admired the statue in Hyde Park. She got run
over by a milkcart.”
“When was that?” she inquired,
more out of politeness than interest in the career
of Mr. Dix’s maiden aunt.
“A minute before she died.”
“Oh,” said Zora, taken
aback by the emotionless manner in which he mentioned
the tragedy. Then, by way of continuing the conversation:
“Why are you called Septimus?”
“I’m the seventh son.
All the others died young. I never could make
out why I didn’t.”
“Perhaps,” said Zora with
a laugh, “you were thinking of something else
at the time and lost the opportunity.”
“It must have been that,”
said he. “I lose opportunities just as I
always lose trains.”
“How do you manage to get anywhere?”
“I wait for the next train.
That’s easy. But there’s never another
opportunity.”
He drew a cigarette from his case,
put it in his mouth, and fumbled in his pockets for
matches. Finding none, he threw the cigarette
into the road.
“That’s just like you,”
cried Zora. “Why didn’t you ask the
cabman for a light?”
She laughed at him with an odd sense
of intimacy, though she had known him for scarcely
an hour. He seemed rather a stray child than a
man. She longed to befriend him to
do something for him, motherwise she knew
not what. Her adventure by now had failed to
be adventurous. The spice of danger had vanished.
She knew she could sit beside this helpless being till
the day of doom without fear of molestation by word
or act.
He obtained a light for his cigarette
from the cabman and smoked in silence. Gradually
the languor of the night again stole over her senses,
and she forgot his existence. The carriage had
turned homeward, and at a bend of the road, high up
above the sea, Monte Carlo came into view, gleaming
white far away below, like a group of fairy palaces
lit by fairy lamps, sheltered by the great black promontory
of Monaco. From the gorge on the left, the terraced
rock on the right, came the smell of the wild thyme
and rosemary and the perfume of pale flowers.
The touch of the air on her cheek was a warm and scented
kiss. The diamond stars drooped towards her like
a Danae shower. Like Danae’s, her lips were
parted. Her eyes strained far beyond the stars
into an unknown glory, and her heart throbbed with
a passionate desire for unknown things. Of what
nature they might be she did not dream. Not love.
Zora Middlemist had forsworn it. Not the worship
of a man. She had vowed by all the saints in
her hierarchy that no man should ever again enter
her life. Her soul revolted against the unutterable
sex.
As soon as one realizes the exquisite
humbug of sublunary existence he must weep for the
pity of it.
The warm and scented air was a kiss,
too, on the cheek of Septimus Dix; and his senses,
too, were enthralled by the witchery of the night.
But for him stars and scented air and the magic beauty
of the sea were incarnate in the woman by his side.
Zora, as I have said, had forgotten
the poor devil’s existence.